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nothing feels better than somehow impressing someone you follow enough that they follow you back
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kingkatsuki · 2 years
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been thinking a lot about our baby Eddie a lot for real real. "Poison" by Alice Cooper came on my playlist today and mmmmm thoughts are thunk... kinda similar to your temptation fic? sorry if its redundant jo. maybe you can add to this if you want, this was super rushed because I'm literally heading into work for a night shift now hahaha
sweet boy at a party you're at. you don't usually go out, but it is a grad party after all. he's watching you from across the room, not like you'd notice. but he always notices you, wants to make sure you're okay. you're not one to be around people like this. and right now, you're slurring your words - wobbling on your feet and your damn friends aren't noticing.
he keeps his eyes fixated on you, slugging back a longneck leaning against a doorframe in the back of the room. you have no idea what you're getting yourself into sweet girl.
when he looks away for just second, you're stumbling out the back door. alone. no ones following you, why isn't anyone following you?
rough hands slide around your waist, gripping you upright firmly and he helps you walk down the back porch. "pretty girl, where are your friends?"
"'dunno, inside," you look up at him through thick lashes and heavy lids.
"can't have you wonderin' around out here lets get you bac-"
"don't leave me Eddie, please," your hands grip his leather jacket, not sure if to get yourself stabilized or because you've been aching to get this close to him all year.
that's when he carefully brings you to his car parked down the road. the back is big enough for you both to lay down. Eddie's music playing softly in the background..
"wanna kiss you but your lips are venomous poison You're poison, running through my veins You're poison I don't want to break these chains"
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THE WAY! I was gonna name my Temptation fic Poison because I had this song in mind the entire time, but I didn’t want it to seem like Eddie poisoned reader or something cause the vibe was already dark😂😭
But there was an exact moment in that fic where it was gonna get super soft like this.
Cause just picture Eddie watching you when you’re shitfaced out of your mind and all your friends have left you? So you’re all alone at this massive party, and Gareth is chatting aimlessly to him and the guys but Eddie’s focus is completely on you on the other side of the room as he sips his beer.
Watching intently as a guy you clearly don’t know comes up behind you and tries to start talking to you, and Eddie can tell even in your intoxicated state that you’re not interested but the guy has his hands all over you. The final straw is when he reaches round to grab your ass and Eddie is already pushing off the wall with his shoulders and bulldozing his way through the sea of people towards you.
“Hey, baby. There you are-” the words come off his tongue so smoothly as he sees the absolute relief in your eyes as he gives you a small smile, hoping you’ll be able to play along even in your intoxicated state, “Been looking everywhere for you!”
“Eddie,” You slur, already weaving your way out of the guys arms and into his as you wrap your arms around his waist, Eddie slings an arm over your shoulders as he completely ignores the guy. Certain that if he takes one look at him he’ll do something stupid like swing- and there are way too many jocks at this party to make a mistake that big, “Please don’t leave me.”
You plead, almost ruining his plan as you practically cling to him.
“Hey, sweetness. ’m sorry” He coos softly, “The queue for the can was fucking long. Thought I’d lost you after.” He raises his voice just enough for the guy to hear, but keeps his gaze locked on you.
He presses a kiss to your forehead, “You ready to go?”
“Yeah,” You nod your head, taking his hand in yours as he leads you through the crowds. Holding tight so he doesn’t lose you and walking slow so you can keep up in those heels you decided to wear. Wishing he could just take them off for you, but he doesn’t want you walking barefoot in god knows what.
“Munson? Ain’t no fucking way that’s his girl-” He hears whispers behind him but he doesn’t care as he walks you towards the front of the house, stepping out onto the front porch as he grasps your arms to steady your swaying body.
“Where are your friends, sweetheart? Can I find someone for you?” He asks sincerely, but you shake your head.
“I dunno,” You mumble, “I just wanna sit down-”
You move to sit on the cold, concrete steps but Eddie stops you, “Come on, let me take you home yeah? It’s too cold for you to be sitting outside.”
You let him take you to his van, opening the passenger side for you to slide in, his arms around you to help your drunk body into the seat as he leans over you to fasten your seatbelt, giving you the perfect opportunity to take in the scent of him. Cigarettes, weed, cheap cologne and the faintest musk of sweat as you find yourself leaning into it. His hands pressing back your shoulders as he interprets your movements for being inebriated, “Woah, sweetheart. You doing okay?”
You nod your head as you settle back into his van, shivering slightly as you become aware of the change in temperature outside the party.
Something that doesn’t go unnoticed by Eddie as he sits forward in the drivers seat, leaning over the wheel as he shrugs off his jacket, wrapping it around you so your front is covered.
“Sorry— heatings broke,” He gives an apologetic smile, “Been meaning to fix it.”
You bury your nose into the jacket, breathing in his smell as you feel the warmth from his body heat captivate you. The fabric still warm as you find it comforting, slowly lulling you to sleep.
The music begins to play as he puts the key into the ignition, Alice Cooper Poison starting up almost halfway through. Clearly the song he was listening to before he got out of his van for the party.
“Love this song,” You mumble, half-lidded eyes staring across the van at him.
“Yeah? Me too.”
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thotpuppy · 4 months
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Incubus vs succubus - yes!!! I don't wanna be all "ummm actually 🤓" because that's rude but it's in the back of my mind!!
kadhjgkajdg I FORGOT I REBLOGGED THAT sorry i feed everything into a queue hahaha
but YEAH LIKE. i feel like. it's not ~technically~ 100% CORRECT so its not like an actual "correction" but it just also adds so much more flavor to things??? like please yall stop repeating stale ass piece of white bread tropes. add some hot sauce!!! put a little spice in it!!!
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forcearama · 1 year
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Hi! Don't know if you remember me, but I'm the person going to SW Celebration for the 1st time this year. They just released some photo ops and autograph tickets and OMFG, is it always this expensive?! The ST cons I went to 20 years ago were not this bad. I figured I'd get maybe a few autographs, at the very least Hayden Christensen (just announced!), but over £200 is a bit steep. Unless Ewan shows up, I think I'll have to pass. But it does lead me to ask: how is the rest of the con? SW merch is always pricey, but is say a shirt or a figure at the con going to be more than if I got it elsewhere? Am I better off bringing food from outside? Thanks for the help!
Yes, the photo ops and autographs are always extremely pricey, unfortunately. (They also almost always sell out, though, so, I guess from the perspective of the organizers at least, they're not priced too high. Sigh. 😒🙄)
Merchandise is mostly normal retail prices, though. T-shirts run like...between 20 and 30 bucks, I wanna say? And they do have a GIANT selection so there's a range of prices. Books are all retail price (and I wanna say that they might also sometimes have deals during the con? Or I think one year I got a book signed by the author for no additional cost beyond buying it. Something like that.)
Figures -- from LEGO to very-high-end collectibles like the Sideshow brand -- are all the same price you'd pay online/at home. The main difference when it comes to merch is that there are items that are exclusive to Celebration, and often those items sell out quickly and/or require you to have a "reserved" spot in a queue (think specific Funko Pops, LEGO sets, etc).
Food prices at conventions are always at least kind of a ripoff, not unique to SWC. (The only time this HASN'T been my experience is when attending professional conferences that provide crappy "free" food included with the $1000+ admission fee, and that's only because I wasn't personally paying for it, hahaha.) We do usually bring some granola bars etc and supplement with whatever we buy at the convention hall. London's an expensive city overall, too, of course.
I need to get my shit together in re: what's around that area (and like, a lot of other things related to this event. I am so disorganized right now. 😅 ) It does look like the center itself has lots of food options at different price points, at least, even if they're overpriced overall.
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arctic-monkcys · 2 years
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heyy hope ur good, um im seeing the arctic monkeys next week in Prague and its my first time going to a concert so do you have any helpful tips for me please?😭😭 mostly i just wanna know how early i should start staying in line
hey! first of all, CONGRATS! i hope you will have lots of fun!
i guess you're in GA and don't have a seat? well, it depends on the size of the GA area (capacity is 20k for this venue so i guess it's not too big).
if you don't care where you are placed, 1-2hrs is fine. but i guess you wanna be front row??
so i would recommend at least 6hrs early if you wanna be in the front row. usually, people start queueing between 11am and 1pm! but it really depends. if you're petite i suggest you come early, or wear some platform shoes ahah (im 156cm so i really struggle sometimes)
another useful tip if you come very early and it's too hot: bring loads of water to hydrate, sugar sticks, food (nut bars, dry fruits, etc), sunscreen, and try not to wear black clothes. try to bring the smallest bag you have so you're not bothered during the show (i usually wear a bum bag that i keep on my chest). obviously no precious stuff (e.g. jewellery).
also, i suggest you bring a power bank for your phone, and a space blanket (to protect you from the sun and keep you cool- very important).
if you don't wanna be bored, cus 6hrs is a lot (but it's also so much fun bc you get to talk with your friends and/or other fans), you can bring a small book, and/or cards to play games with your "line mates"
finally, i suggest you come to the venue the day before to know where line is, so you don't get lost ;)
and please lemme know how it was! im so excited for you!!! i haven't seen them in 8 YEARS. ENJOY every second of the show, and be ready to lose your voice hahaha
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reki-of-the-valley · 2 years
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Never thought I'd relate this hard to a song called "I Miss Having Having Sex But At Least I Don't Wanna Die Anymore" but alas here we are. Because besides the sex thing, well 😬😬
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winterxisxcomingx · 3 years
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Hey, hey!
I'm slowly finishing the request you send me at @hannaswritingblog, and I decided I need to check in on ya! (it might take me a couple more days to post it btw but it's coming up soon!)
I'm not gonna ask if you're getting enough of good sleep (I saw you reblogging posts at almost 1AM, so unless you have a queue or somehow you're on a holiday in a different timezone, clearly our sleep schedules are messed up 😂)
But I hope you're resting either way, and that you're staying hydrated, and taking care of yourself! 💜🖤💜
Oh, and HUGS! I totally need to give you some hugs!
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^me attacking you with cuddles haha
Anyway, I hope you have a good night/day (whenever you read this), and that you're well! 😘
Hello, dear! 💜
Thank u for checking up on me! 🥺 You made my day better by doing that! 😤
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^ me seeing your ask in my askbox 😳🥰
Also, I'm excited to see my request (cuz I won't lie that Im not lol), but I'm not rushing u so, don't worry! I'll be patient!~
asdfg yeah, you and me, girl... and I don't think that our (or my-) sleep schedule will be any better 😂😫 but yeah, I'm good! Now, I'm still free, so it's okay. I'm more worried about October... Cuz, u know, waking up at 6 am... While going to sleep around 2/3 am... wrrr.. Don't wanna even think about it just yet---
Yes! Hugs! I love hugs!!! Cuddles attack is the best way of attack.. hahaha
I hope u have a great day and night as well, my dear!!! 😤💜
Thank u hun one more time! ILY! 💜🌸
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sammys-magical-au · 3 years
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Get ready for another long post full of fanfic spoilers and au deep lore bc it’s time to talk about Sam and Toshiko’s friendship
Sam first sees Tosh - as she did with all the members of the team (besides Jack) - in her vision of the future showing what would happen if she stayed in Saint Lucia. She sees Tosh get shot and bleed out from the wound in her stomach. And, she reacted in horror to this as I mentioned in the post I made about Sam and Ianto.
Sam and Tosh’s first reactions to each other were mutual reclusiveness. Sam kept her distance because she wasn’t quite sure what to make of Tosh, and Tosh did the same because she was nervous of Sam.
"And Sam really balances having a young family and... this job?"
"Apparently."
"Bet it involves a lot of alcohol." Owen put in.
"Better question;" Tosh said, "since you've come here, Gwen, have you noticed any... similarities between Sam and Jack?"
"Similarities?" Gwen echoed, "what do you mean?"
Tosh is still rather observant of Sam, however, being the first one to point out that she and Jack are similar, leading to the discovery that Sam and Jack have the same DNA - so sidebar; if Tosh hadn’t said anything about the similarities between Sam and Jack, they never would’ve found out they’re related, thus Tosh is the reason Jack has an adoptive family. There’s a fic in there I need to queue up.
"Makes you wonder what he might do to us." Tosh murmured. Owen and Gwen shot her startled looks. "You're both thinking it," Tosh said matter-of-factly, "Jack never opens up or reveals his true self until we're in a situation like today. What if it had been one of us instead of Jasmine? Would he sacrifice us?"
"He would never do that."
The three of them jumped and turned around to see Sam standing at the entrance to the boardroom, a dark scowl on her face.
Sam on the other hand has not been observing Tosh, and doesn’t really know much about her. But she does know about Jack.
"This is SO not the black and white issue you're pretending it is!" Sam barked, "there is WAY MORE to it than that and you know it! Jack didn't wanna do what he did, but he had to, for the sake of other people! It was let Jasmine go with those fucked-up sparklebitches or let said fucked-up sparklebitches continue their death-by-flowers rampage across the entire world!"
"What makes you think you know right from wrong here?" Tosh asked.
"I don't," Sam said, "but I know that Jack is heartbroken from not only losing Estelle, but for making one of the hardest decisions a human being could possibly make! I think it's time you three stopped acting like moody children and started respecting Jack for what he goes through."
She doesn’t know how Tosh feels about Jack but still feels a need to respect her - possibly because she’s older, but more likely because she truly doesn’t know who Tosh is at all, though she has an idea. Hence being a little gentler with her.
Choking back her tears, Tosh turned her back on them, which was when the cog wheel door rolled open and Sam strode in - bright clothes, lion's mane of hair, big muscles showing. Her scars and tattoos marking her as a force to be reckoned with.
Great, Tosh thought, what's she going to think about me?
Oh, such a wonderful day...
Tosh was surprised at first and it took her a second to realize those were actually Sam's thoughts. Sam made eye contact with her and there was some sort of internal gasp.
Tosh looks so pretty! I mean, she always looks pretty, but today especially. But she looks so... sad. Why is she sad when she looks so pretty? Oh, never mind, she's smiling now. But she might be faking. I wonder if she can read my mind? Hahaha, very funny, Sam. You've been staring at her too long. FUCK, SAY SOMETHING-
"Hi Sam." Tosh murmured.
"H-hey, Tosh." Sam stammered, looking at the floor and scratching the back of her neck.
SHIT SHIT SHIT SHE THINKS I'M A CREEP. Her mind went.
"Uhhh, what's the matter?" She asked lamely.
Greeks Bearing Gifts is when Tosh really starts to get an idea of what Sam’s really like on the inside. She’s not actually as mean and closed off as she seems, that’s all an act. She’s really an awkward, shy, and kind person deep down.
Tosh wasn't really listening, she was still so surprised at Sam's internal monologue. It was so fast, first of all, like stepping into an overflowing stream. And secondly, it seemed so considerate.
Is that why she's sad? Sam was thinking, awww, poor Tosh! It can't be easy being a tech genius. Maybe I can offer to help her fix it. That's a bad idea. But maybe it would make her less sad. I don't like seeing her sad. She deserves so much and yet it seems like everyone views her as the lowly tech girl. Well, not me. Y'hear me, Tosh? You mean so much to me and I can't say it because I'm an idiot. Yeah. Try saying that out loud, Sam. You never will, because you're a coward. Shut up, me, I'm having a conversation with me. What am I even saying? I'm staring at her again. Jesus Christ, Sam, get a fucking grip.
"I, ummm... I could help you fix it?" Sam said out loud, smiling nervously, "I mean, I dunno shit about computers and I'll probably make it worse but-"
"Of course!" Tosh said a little too quickly and with a little too much excitement. Sam raised her eyebrows in surprise as Tosh tried to calm her emotions down. What Sam thought of her... it was so sweet and kind! She'd had no idea Sam was like this under the surface. Why did she put up such strong walls if underneath she was bursting with love? "Sorry," Tosh murmured, clearing her throat, "of course. I'm sure there's at least something you'll be able to do."
Sam blushed slightly - once again, to Tosh's surprise.
"Thanks," she said, "n-no one's really had that much faith in me being around their things before. Not even Jay. Well, that's because they think I'll break it, and I usually do, so... you've been warned." Tosh giggled and Sam blushed more.
I've lost control of my face. She thought, or maybe I died or something.
She’s surprised by Sam’s true personality, but finds this new version of Sam quite endearing, but doesn’t understand why Sam would hide this sensitive, considerate part of herself.
Ooooooohhh la la, Sam's mind went, perhaps we have a blooming romance here?
For the first time that day, Tosh was able to ignore the thoughts that weren't her own.
"Sam," she murmured, "you're good at fitting into tight spaces - why don't you squeeze in behind the desk and plug the monitor back in."
"Good task to give me." Sam said with a laugh.
That kinda hurt. Her brain added.
"It's not because I doubt your ability," Tosh said, again a little too quickly, "I think you'd be really good with tech if you learned from someone. You're a visual learner, aren't you?" Sam looked surprised.
"Uhhh... yeah." She murmured, a tiny smile curling her lips.
She believes in me? She asked herself, that's... new. No one's really had this much faith in me before. Except maybe Jay. Although he usually takes over when I try to help him. Oh shit, did I forget to fold the laundry this morning? I did. Oh my God-
Tosh suppressed a giggle as she turned to Owen and Gwen, giving them the tasks she wanted them to help her with.
Greeks Bearing Gifts was actually a big turning point for their friendship, because it was the first time they actually start to understand each other.
"Anyone want a coffee?" Ianto asked, causing everyone to look at him, "I'm brewing some of Jack's industrial strength brand."
"Like that boy needs it." Sam huffed, walking up to him and placing a hand on his shoulder. Ianto laughed softly, and an expression that Tosh hadn't seen before came over his face. It wasn't quite happiness or bliss, but it was... contentment. Ianto was content in Sam's presence, she calmed him, made him laugh.
I never knew she could be like this, his thoughts whispered, I used to think she was mean. Well, she used to be mean. But she's so... soft underneath. She really cares about me, about all of us. And she's so much more than just the muscle on the team. I've seen her be a parent, a spouse. I've seen her play with her children and fold the clothes the wrong way and get excited about the lawn mower - the lawn mower of all things! She really is an incredible person.
And Tosh was inclined to agree.
The hitch comes later when Mary shows up at the hub
And then there was one voice amid the others that stood out. One voice that filled Tosh both with fear and relief and hope.
No. I'm not letting this happen. Not to MY Tosh!
There was a screech and a flash of long, golden hair as Sam leaped on Mary's back, digging her long nails into her shoulders and using her weight to drag her off of Tosh. Mary's knife clipped the soft skin of Tosh's neck before she was free and Jack's arms were wrapped around her protectively. Sam hurled Mary to the ground and pinned her down with all her strength as she struggled, snarling like an animal.
"DON'T. YOU. EVER. THINK ABOUT HURTING MY FRIENDS!" Sam roared in her face, sharp teeth only inches away from Mary's nose and making Tosh wonder if Sam was going to bite her.
"She's not your friend," Mary taunted with that damned smirk of hers, "she's terrified of you. And this show of brute strength you're putting on isn't changing that. You're no alpha, you act before you think and end up pushing the people you care about away."
Sam looked taken aback, even hurt, by this, relaxing her grip slightly and glancing at Tosh with a worried expression.
"They're all afraid of you," Mary continued, "deep down, you know it. You tried so hard to push them away and you succeeded. Congratulations. You're a monster."
"NO!" Tosh screamed, breaking out of Jack's hold with tears rushing down her face, "don't listen, Sam, it's not true! You're the best friend any of us could ask for! I'm not scared of you!" She turned her glare on Mary, "or you!" She growled.
The truth is that Sam is not confident in her ability to maintain stable relationships. So yes, she’s terrified of scaring people away after she makes a connection with them. Mary plays on that fear, and Tosh dismisses them by standing up for Sam.
Tosh came back to the hub after the talk with Jack, but didn't go to her desk. Instead she lay down on the musty couch in the corner, turning on her side so she was facing the wall. After a long silence, she heard someone walk up to her. She knew it was Sam, just by the sound of her shoes on the floor. There was a shuffling as she sat on the floor next to the couch.
"What, Sam?" Tosh asked tearfully. There was a moment of surprised silence before Sam spoke.
"N-nothing," she stammered, "I... just wanted to say I was pretty impressed with how you... stood up for yourself like that. That was... pretty radical."
Tosh didn't say anything.
"And, uh..." Sam went on awkwardly, "I... wanted to... thank you, for what you said about me. Because y'know, for a second I... I really believed what Mary was saying about me, I thought..." she took a deep, shaky breath, "whatever, it doesn't matter now. My feelings aren't important right now, yours are."
Tosh rolled her eyes with an annoyed sigh.
"Stop it, Sam," she sniffed, "your feelings are just as important as mine."
Another stunned silence, then a cough.
"So, uhhh..." Sam began, "you... saw what all of us were thinking? That must've been..."
"Why did you attack Mary?" Tosh blurted out, unable to stop herself.
"Because!" Sam exclaimed, "she was gonna hurt you and I wasn't gonna let that happen!"
"Why?" Tosh demanded. 
"Cuz I... I..." Sam said, sounding like she was taking great pains to try and force the words out.
"You what?" Tosh barked, finally sitting up and turning to face her.
"I CARE ABOUT YOU!" Sam snapped, then covered her face. Her left hand was bandaged from when she hit it off a desk.
This time it was Tosh who had to take a moment before speaking.
"You probably already know that." Sam added more quietly, voice muffled.
"Why are you covering your face?" Tosh asked gently.
"I don't know!" Sam sighed, "so you'll stop looking at me?"
"But I don't want to stop looking at you," Tosh murmured, "you're... beautiful... or handsome... whichever you prefer." Sam slowly took her hands away from her face and Tosh saw - to her great surprise - that she was crying.
"Are you afraid of me?" She asked in a voice barely above a whisper, "don't lie to me if you are. I don't want you to have to be around me if you're scared of me."
"Sam, I'm not scared of you," Tosh said, "you can be a little... intimidating sometimes, but I've seen a new side of you. I think we all have today. I used to think you were made of hate but you're not. You're made of knives as soft as feathers."
Sam sniffed, wiping her tears away.
"You could be a poet." She laughed.
"I doubt it," Tosh giggled, "I'm better at tech than writing."
"No one said you have to be good at it," Sam said, "you could get good at it, with practice." Then she beamed wickedly. "You could write love letters to Owen!"
They’re slowly making a friendship, and it’s evident that Sam already knows Tosh has feelings for Owen - more on that later. Tosh has already encouraged Sam, and now it’s time for the opposite to happen.
"SHUT UP!" Tosh hissed, shoving her away as she laughed loudly.
"Oh c'mon!" Sam called after her as she stood up and walked briskly to her desk to collect her things, "even a blind man could see it! Owen has a big crush on you!"
"No he doesn't," Tosh growled, "and keep your voice down, he's right there in the autopsy bay!"
"Tosh, are you ever gonna take a chance?"
"NO!"
"Please? For me?"
"Stop it!"
"Aww, now why don't you show me a little smile. Pretty please?"
"No way."
Sam's hands suddenly snaked around Tosh's sides and Tosh let out a little scream as Sam started lightly tickling her.
"Stop!" She gasped through laughter, "leave me alone, you little brat!"
"Oh, that's mean!" Sam exclaimed, mock hurt. She lifted Tosh off the ground and carried her back to the couch.
But of course Sam’s way of encouragement is through gentle teasing. Lmao.
"OKAY! YOU WIN!" Tosh wailed, "just, PLEASE, STOP!"
Only then did Sam finally let up, leaning back and giggling quietly. While Tosh was getting her breath back, she took a moment to appreciate this particular expression on Sam's face. It was playful, happy, adorable even. She still had those scars and tattoos, but that didn't seem to matter now. Sam looked like a child that had just invited a new game, and was having a little too much fun with it. In truth, Tosh reminded herself, Sam was still very young, younger than she was, and was just looking for friends in this big, scary world.
Perhaps they all were.
Sam has dropped her walls completely for Tosh now, and is letting her see every part of herself.
Tosh sighed with exhaustion and leaned onto Sam, and Sam stopped laughing with a gasp, tensing up, then seemed to relax, wrapping her muscular arms around Tosh.
"Are you okay?" Sam asked gently, resting her chin on Tosh's head.
"I will be," Tosh murmured, "I just... need time."
Sam pressed a kiss into her hair.
"Okay," she murmured, "I understand that."
This is also when Sam starts to form a need to protect Tosh, understanding that she’s not confident in love and needs some support after Mary took advantage of her.
Then Owen gets injured by the weevil in Combat and Tosh and Sam both show up to visit him at the hospital.
"Is this the scene in the horror movie where we find out you're a murderer and you suddenly unplug his life support?" Sam asked, swaggering up to her side.
"He's not plugged in to life support." Tosh murmured, sounding a little uptight. Sam put her arm around her shoulders and glanced at her expression. She looked deeply worried, mouth set in a straight line and her brows furrowed. Sam then looked to Owen. He looked so fragile in his sleep, the bruises and cuts stark against his pale skin.
"So how long have you had feelings for him?" Sam asked softly. Tosh tensed.
"I don't know what you're talking about." She said quickly.
"Oh, Tosh, c'mon," Sam chuckled, bumping her body against hers, "it's kinda obvious. At least to me."
"Just because you've suddenly decided to stop being the office jerk doesn't mean I'm just going to open up to you!" Tosh snapped.
Sam winced, stung, and Tosh dropped her gaze.
"Sorry." She muttered softly.
"No," Sam said, teeth gritted in self-loathing, "I am."
It’s clear that they’re still having to work each other out a bit, but they’re trying to be good to each other, and doing a pretty good job.
"Since I joined Torchwood." Tosh said.
Sam frowned at her.
"I... what?" She demanded.
"You were asking how long I've been pining after Owen."
"Oh... really? Since you joined? Hasn't that been like, five years-?"
"YES SAM IT'S BEEN FIVE YEARS!" Tosh exclaimed angrily.
"Okay, calm," Sam murmured, "I just... that's a long time to... hide that."
There was another short silence.
"So, you've got a crush on him?" Sam asked. Tosh sighed in frustration.
"YES, Sam." She said.
Sam pumped her fist to herself, then seemed to remember Tosh was still there.
"Are you serious?" She demanded.
"I- I'm sorry," Sam muttered, "got carried away. Sorry."
"You are unbelievable."
"I said I was sorry! I just think you and Owen would be great together."
Tosh felt herself blushing and turned her head away.
You guessed it folks - Sam’s been a towen shipper since day one.
"Well it doesn't matter if we'd be great together," she muttered, "he doesn't notice me."
Sam made a sound reminiscent of a quiet growl in her throat.
"What was that noise for?" Tosh demanded.
"Nothing," Sam replied, "I'm just wondering how long you're gonna sing that song and do nothin' about it."
"The only reason I'm singing this song in the first place is because I tried to get Owen to notice me or even remotely like me, and he doesn't care!"
"Is that really what you think?"
"Well it's obvious! The minute a prettier woman from the twentieth century shows up he forgets all about me! And when she leaves after a few days he throws himself into the jaws of a Weevil! If I left, do you think he'd do that?"
Sam raised an eyebrow.
"Would you want him to?" She asked, sounding slightly nervous. Tosh sighed in frustration.
"Just forget about it," she murmured, "I just have to face the fact that Owen doesn't care about me the way I care about him, and he never will."
There was a moment of silence and Tosh looked at Sam, who was staring at her with an unreadable expression.
"What?" She asked, annoyed.
"Tosh, do you remember kissing Owen on New Years?" Sam prompted.
"Of course I remember," Tosh muttered, "before Mary it's the last time I kissed someone."
"Yeah, but did you see the look on his face afterwards?"
"No, because I turned and walked away as fast as possible. Why are you saying it like you did?"
"Because... I did."
"You were watching?!"
"A little."
"Why?"
"Because I was waiting for Jayjay to pick me up and I got bored and I saw the two of you headed around a corner so I followed you."
"YOU BLOODY-"
"EASY."
They stared each other down for a moment before Sam moved her hand to Tosh's shoulder.
"My point is," she said calmly, "Owen looked... like you'd rocked his world after that kiss. The only reason he doesn't talk about it is because he's... shy. Self conscious. He thinks he's undeserving of love, yada yada yada, the whole nine yards. The main takeaway being, I think he does like you, Tosh. You just gotta try a little harder. Peel back his layers like an onion. Do you peel an onion? I don't even know! I'm terrible in the kitchen, I'd end up peeling myself!"
Tosh giggled at that and Sam smiled at her.
"And don't think Diane was prettier than you," she added, "you're absolutely beautiful, Tosh. Especially when you laugh."
"Thank you." She murmured softly.
There was a moment of silence before Tosh cleared her throat awkwardly.
"I should get home," she said, taking a step away, "I'll see you tomorrow."
"Yeah." Sam said, sounding a little sad. She looked at her feet as Tosh left, then glanced over her shoulder.
"Tosh?" She called, and Tosh turned back to her. "I'm sorry. For everything."
"Don't be," Tosh murmured, "I forgive you, Sam."
Sam smiled gratefully, and if Tosh had been a little closer she might've seen tears in her eyes.
So A) Sam witnessed Tosh and Owen kissing on New Years, and she saw how Owen reacted to it even though Tosh didn’t, and B) Tosh’s forgiveness MEANT SO MUCH to Sam!! Because like Owen she thinks she’s undeserving of Tosh’s love but SHE IS!!!! THEY BOTH ARE!!!! AAAAAA.
Anyway. Sorry. Moving on.
Then we get to TYTNW, which was a hard time for everyone’s relationships.
Tosh and Ianto glanced at each other.
"You two are quiet," Sam commented, "what's up?"
"It's nothing." Tosh muttered, turning her head away.
"Nah, I'm pretty sure it's something," Sam insisted, "call it a hunch." Ianto was surprised to hear Tosh let out a little giggle.
Tosh still feels some loyalty to Sam, however, which is evident by how she reacted after Sam and Gwen’s big argument.
"C'mon Tosh." Sam hissed, once again ignoring Gwen. She jerked her head as a signal for Tosh to follow her, then stormed off, her boots making loud clanging noises on the floor. Tosh gave Gwen an apologetic look before hurrying after her.
She knows Sam’s probably not right here and going with her will likely put them both in danger but she does it anyway, because she doesn’t want Sam to think she’s alone, and she doesn’t want Sam to walk into a potentially lethal situation by herself.
"Should we go get Gwen and the others?" Tosh suggested cautiously. Sam scoffed bitterly.
"As if Gwen would listen to me," she said, "no, better not to waste time arguing. We can get this done faster if we do it ourselves. Don't worry, I'll protect you." She added when she noticed the worried look on Tosh's face, patting her shoulder. Tosh nodded slowly.
"Okay. Lead the way." She sighed.
If it’s not obvious by now, Sam is VERY protective of Tosh.
"We'll be fine," Sam told her, "we just gotta find the missing generator, then we'll get back. See, Gwen? I've got it under control."
Gwen scowled on the screen, but Majesta spoke before she could.
"You do not understand, Sam," she said urgently, "those criminals were imprisoned for bombing parts of the city back on Qhorphris, they may have set a bomb in the room you are in!"
"No way," Sam said, "there's no... bomb... in here." The confidence bled out of her tone as she remembered the ticking sound she'd heard when they came in. There was a bomb in here.
"Oh my God," Tosh breathed, "this whole room is going to blow up."
"RUN!" Sam roared, but it was too late. The door they had entered through slammed shut, and Sam had a theory not even Tosh, with her brilliant little lock-picking device, could undo that.
"We're trapped!" Tosh wailed.
"Don't panic!" Sam said, "just stand over there on that panel." She pointed to the teleportation chamber in the centre of the room.
"Why?" Tosh asked, doing as she was told.
"I'm gonna get you outta here," Sam replied, "I have no idea how to work this thing but I sure as hell am gonna try!"
"Wait, what about you?" Tosh exclaimed, "you have to get out too!"
There was a loud bang on the door. Someone was trying to get in, and Sam had a hunch it wasn't someone who was trying to save them.
"She's right, Sam!" Gwen's voice cut through the noise, "you both have to get out!"
"Tell Jay and my kids I love them." Sam murmured.
"SAM! STOP IT!" Gwen screamed like her heart was breaking.
To the point that she was willing to SACRIFICE HERSELF LIKE THE IDIOT SHE IS and teleport her out.
Tosh appeared behind her and Owen and Ianto caught her as she fell.
"Tosh!" Ianto exclaimed, gripping her arm.
"Sam..." Tosh gasped, tears rolling down her cheeks, "she saved me, and now... she's dead!" She collapsed in tears in Owen and Ianto's arms.
Not realizing how much of an effect it would have on her. The whole time Sam thought that if she ever died, everyone would just move on and forget her, but she couldn’t be more wrong.
Bonus TYTNW/Dinner & a Show content:
"They're good for us and they're bad for us, y'know." She said.
"Who, Sam?" Tosh asked.
"The people we love," Sam murmured, "for Ianto it's Jack, for you it's Owen."
Ianto felt himself blush.
"I never said anything about love." Tosh protested.
"You didn't have to, dear," Sam said, "it's written on both your faces. What I don't understand is why things are so different here. When did love become a contest? What happened to long walks in the park and strawberry ice cream and holding hands and stolen kisses and hiding flowers behind your back? Yo no comprendo!"
Tosh beamed at her in surprise.
"Why, Sam," she murmured with a slight laugh, "you're a romantic!"
"No I'm not," Sam scoffed, "I just wish things were like they were in the good old days, in Saint Lucia. The countryside is so..."
"Romantic?" Tosh supplied cheekily.
"Sure. Romantic. The city... isn't. There's no warmth, no fresh air, everything's grey and black and smelly. Love lives in color, in flowers and birdsong, in the flutter of a butterfly's wings, not here."
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"I didn't know you could be so poetic." Tosh said, breaking Ianto from his thoughts.
"Well," Sam muttered, "I... dabbled in writing when I was a teen. I still do, sometimes."
"Did you ever think about writing a book?"
"I have, actually, my brother Daniel and I used to write mystery stories. We'd go on all these wild adventures, there was even one where our father got kidnapped and the only clue we had to find him was a crushed beer can."
"You should write about romance, though." Tosh insisted. Sam made a disapproving noise in her throat. "No, really! I think you could write wonderful stories about love."
"Really?" Sam seemed intrigued now, raising her scarred eyebrow, "what do you think, Yan?"
TOSH HAS SO MUCH CONFIDENCE IN SAM AAA plus she thinks it’s adorable that Sam’s a romantic 🥰
Anyway moving on to season two. Jesus Christ the ramp up to Exit Wounds and The Queen of Hearts/season three is just gonna be hell. Help me.
"Because it's so fascinating!" Tosh exclaimed with a sudden light of excitement in her warm, dark brown eyes, "we got to see how their ships work up close while we were in Tibet - the sonic speed, the anti-gravity, the cloaking mechanisms! If we could recreate that metal on Earth, who knows how far society could advance?"
"You talkin' flying cars?" Sam asked from where she was leaning on the wall a few feet away.
"I'm talkin' technology the world never dreamed of having," Tosh said, "and besides that, if a human being could recreate Stegman ship metal, they could experiment on its capabilities without having to steal it."
So it’s clear here that Sam and Tosh are both dreamers, but I put this in here more bc of the way Tosh likes to mimic Sam. She does the same thing when she and Sam are talking about Owen after Combat (see above).
"Are you okay?" Sam asked Tosh in a gentle voice as they left the hospital, her strong arm around Tosh's shoulders.
Tosh bit her lip.
"I'm fine," she lied, "I'll be fine."
"Listen, I know you had feelings for Tommy and stuff," Sam murmured, "and I just wanna say I'm... sorry it had to be this way."
"What are you talking about? You've been gunning for me and Owen to get together since day one."
"Well yeah, but that doesn't erase the fact that you have feelings! How shallow minded do you think I am?"
After Tommy gets sent back to his time, Sam is the one to check in on Tosh (before Owen that is). She’s so respectful of Tosh’s feelings even though she wants her to be with Owen!!! Like !!! What a glow up from her previous uncaring nature!!!
Then Tosh has a vision of herself and Owen in one of the rooms - with CHILDREN, the older of the two being named SAMUEL (HELLO??? 👀)
"Tosh?" Sam asked, snapping Tosh out of it.
"Huh? Yes. I'm fine." Tosh said shakily.
"Are you sure?" Sam pressed, "you seem... really rattled." Tosh saw her eyes dart to the room she'd been staring into, which was now empty as it had been before. "Do you wanna spend the night at my place? Jay won't mind."
Tosh nodded slowly, feeling tears starting to roll down her cheeks.
"Thank you, Sam." She choked out. Sam smiled sympathetically as they kept walking, following the rest of the team back to the outside world.
{Listen okay there is a problem with this scene and it’s that Sam was pregnant during TTLM and went into labour soon after Tommy left. I forgot about that when I wrote this particular fic so here’s my fix for it; Tosh was unable to spend the night at Sam’s bc she was in the hospital with her new baby, but she ended up staying with Owen or Gwen bc Sam begged her not to spend the night alone just because of the baby being born. Sam said self care and Tosh said ok.}
"What did I do?" Owen demanded indignantly.
"Tosh asked you, specifically, out on a DATE, you fool!" Sam exclaimed, "she meant just you two, not all of us! And Tosh, c'mon! You've gotta learn to have a little more self esteem! Speak up every once and a while!"
After Meat, it becomes evident that even though Sam wants to crack Owen’s shell, she’s also trying to encourage Tosh to do the same. She wants Tosh to be confident, especially in love.
"Sam, don't you think you're being a bit unfair?" Tosh spoke up.
Likewise, Tosh keeps Sam from being too overbearing. Their friendship is all about helping the other become a better version of themself 🥺🥺
"Tosh!" Sam exclaimed, "welcome b- you're hurt!"
"It's nothing." Tosh said. She sat down on the couch, looking like she wanted to say something but wasn't sure how.
"No it's not!" Sam protested, "who did this to you??"
"No one! I did it to myself!" Tosh exclaimed, "I just tripped and hit my head."
"Uh huh. Sure. I ain't buyin' that for a second, Big T."
"Stop calling me that, Sam."
Sam being happy that Tosh is back from London is one thing, Sam dropping everything because Tosh is hurt is an entirely different world of soft, and that’s all I have to say. Also Sam’s nickname for Tosh is “Big T” and Tosh pretends to hate it but secretly she loves it. 🥰
GREAT NOW I’M ONTO MY THE TWILIGHT STEETS AU AHAHAHBSJKPNSDAJKLVDDJB
Suddenly, there was the sound of a door opening, and Sam whirled to the right, eyes widening in fear.
"No..." she breathed. Jack couldn't see what she was looking at, but he already knew.
Sam felt herself begin to tremble as Owen and Tosh walked towards her in the exact same calm pace, hand in hand, though there was no affection in the entwinement at all. The worst part was their eyes, which were emitting a creepy black light.
No. Not light. It was darkness, darkness itself, as if Tosh and Owen's eyes had become tiny black holes waiting to swallow her up. Sam took a step away from them, fists clenched and teeth bared like a dog.
"Hello, Sam." Tosh murmured with a dead smile.
"Hello, Sam." Owen echoed with the same expression and in the same tone.
"We're so glad you're back," Tosh went on, "have you come to join us?"
"Never!" Sam snarled, "whatever you are that's inside my friends, listen up! You're not gonna get away with this! We're gonna beat you! I don't know what you want, but this isn't the way to get it, and it ain't gonna work! Now get outta my friends' heads!"
Tosh and Owen both laughed, and it was the most horrible sound Sam had ever heard - there was no joy in it at all, only malice. Cruelty.
"Aww," Tosh cooed, "look at you, the big strong warrior. You're not that tough at all, really. Your heart is breaking over something you can't control or fix. This was destined to happen. There's nothing wrong with this version of the future. It's okay, Sam."
"I know that's not you talking, Tosh!" Sam exclaimed, feeling tears in the corners of her eyes, "I know the real you is still in there! Fight it! I know you're both strong enough to fight it!"
This is an entirely different world of hurt okay - Sam has as much faith in Tosh as Tosh does in her, so much so that instead of running away she’s putting herself in danger to try to break through to her.
"Why are you doing this?" She demanded, tears streaming down her face, "why do you want this world so badly? Why are you doing this to my friends?"
"We wouldn't expect you to understand, Sam." Tosh said.
"It's because of a war that's been going on forever, since the beginning of time." Owen added.
"And we're finally winning," Tosh concluded with the most horrifying smile Sam had ever seen, "join us. Join the winning side. You'll thank us."
"No I won't!" Sam cried, "because I'm not a part of this! None of us are a part of this! Why can't you just fight your own battle with whoever you're against? Why take over human beings to do it for you?"
It gets worse.
"Jack Harkness over there killed him," Tosh said, pointing at the imprisoned Jack, "remember? He provided us with the perfect opportunity to take over. And in turn we will use his energy to build our empire, he is the true heart of Torchwood, and we honour him!"
"This is not honourable!" Sam seethed, "this is madness! The human race was never a part of your petty little spat, why can't you just leave us the fuck alone?!"
"I do apologize," Tosh murmured with a hint of genuine regret, "but we can't. This is not your world anymore."
Sam heard a click behind her and realized Owen had bound her hands with some kind of futuristic handcuffs. He put his hand on her head and firmly pushed her down so she was kneeling on the floor in front of Tosh. Sam didn't hold back her tears, she let them flow freely as Tosh stepped closer to her, gently touching her face.
"Why are you crying?" Tosh asked, almost gently.
"Because I love you!" Sam sobbed, tears leaking into her mouth as she spoke, "Tosh, please. I know you're in there somewhere. Don't let this happen. Think of Jack. Think of Ianto. Think of Owen and Gwen. Think of me! You're my... you're my Soul Sister. And I know you're strong enough to beat this so please, just try!"
"I am not your friend anymore," Tosh said coldly, "but I can be. If you surrender yourself to us."
Sam closed her eyes. She couldn't bear to look anymore, couldn't bear to see Tosh and Owen's dead, black eyes any longer.
F U C K
The only time Sam was willing to confess her love for the team was to try and get Tosh and Owen back AND IT DIDN’T FUCKING WORK NO WONDER SHE KEPT THE SECRET FOR SO LONG
I’m okay, it’s okay, this is fine
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"What have you done to them?" She demanded, rising to her feet so she towered over Bilis - though he hardly seemed intimidated, "what have you done to Owen and Tosh? And Gwen? And Ianto? And Jack? I saw Ianto and Owen die! and I saw Tosh get shot too! And Jack was in a glass case getting his life drained out of him! What have you done to them?! TELL ME!"
Bilis blinked nonchalantly as a few flecks of Sam's saliva spattered on his face.
"They are fine," he said calmly, "you need to learn to relax, Mx. Ryder."
"Shut up and tell me where they are!" Sam snapped, balling her hands into fists, "or with God as my witness-"
🎶 trauma dumping on my own oc 🎶
Aka Sam being so disturbed by what she saw that she almost lost her fucking mind. Yeah.
The first thing Sam did when she saw Owen and Tosh again was hug them.
"Owen! Tosh!" She cried, "thank God you're okay! I was so scared!"
Oh 🥺😢
"Sam, it's alright," Tosh said awkwardly, patting her friend's heavily muscled shoulder, "none of that really happened."
"I know," Sam sniffed, finally putting her and Owen down, "but it felt like it did."
OH 😭😭😭
TOSH. CALMING SAM DOWN. AFTER. HER TRAUMA. I. CANNOT. There are literal tears in my eyes omfg help me.
"You retconned him, didn't you?" Sam asked. She was taking up a bit more room on the couch than necessary, laying on her side next to Tosh with her knees pulled into her chest and her chin resting on her forearms so she looked almost like a sleeping cat.
~
Seeming to sense the hollow pit of sadness in Sam's belly, Tosh lightly ruffled her friend's short golden hair. Sam closed her eyes and sighed contentedly, so relieved that Tosh was okay and not possessed by some sentient shadow particles from hell.
JESUS CHRIST ITS TOO SOFT I CAN’T-
IT’S TIME FOR PIECING US BACK TOGETHER ✨ AND I HATE MYSELF ✨
"What about Tosh? Is she okay? The last I heard from her, she sounded hurt, but she wouldn't tell me what was happening or what was wrong. Where is she?"
Owen saw a look of fear come over Sam's face as Zephyr darted away.
Zephyr mimics Sam’s emotions. Zephyr went looking for Tosh. What else can I say here? Oh yeah, FUCK!
"NO!" Sam screamed, leaping over the railing and landing in the puddle of blood around Tosh, grabbing her hand and looking intently into her face, begging her to hold on. Suddenly Owen was right in the centre of it, Sam shouting at him to do something, use her blood for a transfusion, cauterize the wound, do anything to save Tosh's life.
Sam darling stop hero complexing people are gonna think I’m trauma dumping on you again and that’s… definitely not what’s happening here…
Okay I’m not even gonna put in bits from The Queen of Hearts bc I physically Can’t but the gist of it is that Tosh told Sam about the Saint Lucia Rift awakening after the Cardiff Rift said “ight imma head out”, knowing that Sam would have to leave but putting aside the fact that Sam leaving would hurt for Sam’s sake. Instead of trying to keep Sam from leaving she told her the truth so she could finally go home and help the people she grew up with. Even though that wouldn’t just hurt Tosh, but all of them. Tosh is a Saint no I refuse to take criticism (why would you want to give me criticism on that anyway what’s wrong with you?)
BONUS CONTENT BC YOU ALL PROBABLY NEED SOMETHING HAPPY AFTER ALL THAT
After moving to Saint Lucia, Sam tracked down Toshiko’s little sister and got her to come and visit Tosh. I mean how fucking pure-
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Wooow! I have just read 'stressed and pressed' and I loooove it❤ plot twist !!! I really like your writing style.
+Are you gonna extend their story?
Aw, thank you for reading, and I'm so glad you liked it! Very kind of you to share. Thanks!
Haha, I think I am... I don't quite know what that extension will look like, but someone "anon" (hahaha) made the request, and I'll give Stressed and Pressed the same faint boundaries for how I'm treating asks in general. Wanna stick to the queue order as much as I can while also factoring in how my job/personal life changes my writing time, as well as to give the story space to grow organically, and change things if I can't devote time to it, or evolve it in a different way... Though... I would be lying if I didn't already have thoughts on what a multi-chaptered fic about those characters would be like.
Agh, oh no, it's building. Oof.
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Hey, I'm doing good too. Just normal amounts of stressful stuff right now. Just moved to a country I've never been to before but can't complain, things are not as hard as the last time I did this so. Thanks for asking! Yeah, I saw you posting about some pretty scary health issues before, I'm glad you came out of that alive and hope you're healthier now!
The nerve some people have! Haha I know I would be pissed if people were questioning my intelligence like that especially after a couple of drinks in haha. Though I do like taunting people when I play group games, I'll be like "don't need to try that hard guys, you're gonna lose anyway" just to mess with them or just call people sore losers if they accuse me of cheating haha (they're probably right on the accusations tho). People get real mad sometimes it's kinda funny. 😂
Omg literally laughed out loud reading this! Hahaha, how did you manage to fall over a road sign then end up in a ditch? lol omg hope you didn't get hurt too bad 😂 I was trying to downplay my drunken escapades but since you shared yours I should tell you my worst one:
I was at this summer street party at night and got drunk on something made out of tropical herbs and cachaça (which is about 48% alcohol), drank 3 and a half bottles of that like it was apple juice, made friends with a bunch of strangers in a bathroom queue (who tried to talk to me weeks later but I had no idea who they were), had to be held by my best friend while I peed (mostly missing the toilet), fell in the middle of the street and scraped my knee, threatened this boy who was helping me walk and told him not to try anything funny or I would beat him up, then dragged my friends to the beach and left them shortly after to go make out with my ex, came back with lipstick all over my mouth and chin and when my friends asked what I was doing I said I was just talking to my ex and they were like NO YOU WERE NOT, hahaha then I kissed all my girl friends on a dare and we danced under the full moon, then I told my best friend I had to puke so she took me to the ocean but I changed my mind and happened to step on a dead turtle on the way back and started crying bc of it, but last month my best friend told me it was a rock I had stepped on (I believed it was a dead turtle for 7 years!). Had the worst hangover of my life the next day. ✌️✨
Ah I'm happy you liked it! I've never listened to Six musical before but it sounds fun! I can see why you like it haha made me want to dance around my apartment 💃. And hey if liking musicals is your thing then it's great, I'm sure Hozier will understand if he's not your top artist of the year. 😋 Here's my "damie" Pinterest board if you or anyone else wants to check it out, totally recommend making one if you're a visual person like me!
https://pin.it/UcHVlkq
Oh I could talk about Dani and Jamie forever I think. I love the beast in the jungle speech too and it's so painful to watch, VP delivered that beautifully, but I have to admit I'm always a crying mess from episode 1 when older Jamie starts reciting that song about being sad while waiting for her lover to return, this show is fucking cruel I hate it and love it at the same time hahaha. Omg your mom 😂 but I mean it's truly an honor to be compared to someone like Dani, no? She's really great even if she needs a little help haha (don't we all).
Aaah you're amazing! Thank you so much, I'll read this pirate AU soon!
I used to draw a lot, really loved doing it when I was a kid as I said before, and all throughout adulthood too but I haven't done that in almost a year now bc I've got a bit of a case of burnout I guess, it just takes a lot of effort to do it when it shouldn't be like that at all. I used to do fanart too, for other fandoms. Even made one for Dani x Jamie but ended up not liking how it turned out haha. I've got a lot of respect for writers and fanfic writers also! Yall can make words make sense in really interesting and beautiful ways, build worlds so enthralling I can see them vividly in my head. Writing is such an incredibly fascinating skill to have! And I guess the most important thing is that we enjoy doing these things right? Even if we think we're not particularly good at it.
Anyway, have a lovely weekend! 👋✨
Good I'm glad you're doing great but sorry you're dealing with stressful stuff!! Hope living in a new country goes well for you I'm so jealous that you've lived in different countries I'd love to live somewhere else even if just for s few years!! Awwh thank you so much I definitely came out of it alive and am feeling so much better now thank you I mean I do some pretty ditzy things so when people say it to me it's pretty deserved sometimes, I'm secretly smart and people just don't expect it so I never mind too much haha I might have to start saying the things that you do and just taunting them over it I mean, I usually do win even when they make me answer different questions so I will definitely have to start saying things like that to them Haha I love that you're just like "yeah they're probably right in their accusations" I agree seeing how mad some people get over games and stuff is funny (it's me I'm people I hate loosing games depending on what it is and I am very competitive) So it was very dark and all we had for light was my roommates flashlight on her phone but while we were walking home a friend of ours that lived else where kept texting her to make sure we were still safe (my phone as dead at this point) so while she was texting him her flashlight was facing down and someone had moved this road sign to the footpath and it was on that sits on the floor so while I couldn't see it I walked into it and fell over it but while I feel I grabbed hold of it and flipped with it and fell in a ditch with it on top of me... I was fine and was just laid laughing while my friend looked down at me and in the most northern accent ever just said "get up you dickhead." and helped me off of the floor and then asked if I was okay... and I was so it was all good!! Haha 😂 I love this drunken story that sounds like one hell of a night and is a roller coaster from start to finish!! I'm sorry you thought you had stood on a dead turtle for 7 years though, someone really should've told you that it was just a rock!! But that sounds like my kind of night!! I love nights like that... stories that will last a life time... the only down side is the hangover... luckily I have only ever had one hang over in my life and it wasn't the morning after the road sign fiasco... I felt surprisingly good the morning after that haha 😂 It's such a good musical it's about Henry VIII wives and I just love everything to do with his wives and that musical is so much fun and actually gives a little insight to the lives the six Tudor queens had away from Henry and with him because at school we're mainly just taught about him which sucks!! I loved the Hozier song and am definitely gonna have to listen to more of his stuff!! I love musicals so much I mainly listen to musical soundtracks at the minute- usually, Legally Blonde and Six on repeat haha 😂 Ooo thank you I will definitely check out this Pinterest board thanks for sending it to me!! I could talk about them forever too... since watching Bly Manor my niece has been asking me so many questions about it and I am more than happy to talk to her about it haha!! The beast in the jungle speech just breaks my heart every time I relate to it so much and VP just delivers it so beautifully!! Oh yeah now I know at the beginning that it's older Jamie I am just a wreck the whole show is just so beautiful and heart breaking at the same time I LOVE IT!! Even though it makes me sob- I keep putting myself through it!! I mean, yeah I was happy that she said it Dani is great but it was the way she said it... my mum can be something else sometimes... she said she thought Dani was like me the first time she does the accent when she says "I've fallen quite in love with London" because I just randomly do accents a lot too but it was the way she was like "She needs help... but I like her she reminds me of you" I was just like... "Should I go get help?" I still don't know the answer to my question about if I need help or not but I mean I probably do need it You're welcome I really hope you like it!! It's a
great fic I love it!! Yeah I get that if stuff starts taking too much effort and burns you out you're not gonna wanna keep doing it so it's understandable that you stopped!! I think fan art is great and I really would love to be able to do it myself but I just don't have the skill it takes!! Awwh it's a shame you didn't like the Dani x Jamie one you did I would've loved to have seen it!! Honestly there are so many talented writers out there and when I read their fics I am just in awe of the worlds they have built and the stories they have created we are so blessed in this fandom to have so many amazing writers and so many amazing fics out there Oh yeah definitely its important to enjoy what you do!! I know I love writing and love writing fics for Dani and Jamie so I think I'll be doing it for a while even if I'm not great at it haha Awwh thank you very much I hope you have a great weekend too!! ☺️
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I requested off work for today 3 weeks in advance. Sam said she was gonna come to the metal concert. But she flaked. Oh well. Fuck her I guess. Idk. But Jay came! I loved it
He's very sensitive and gets pissy. He's kind of an ahole
But we went to warehouse live to see these bands. It was for Chelsea grin. It was great
A lot of "my people" were there. Like. Alternative! Of course. SO MANY GORGEOUS GIRLS THAT ARE MY TYPE. I was in the pit and this girl looked at me and smiled twice at me. I could have gotten her number. And as you know, at these venues you get to walk around during when bands are setting up. So I walked around and there was so many fucking hot girls that kept making eye contact with me!! I was like wtf am I hot? Again? Lol! It was insane. Even after the show when I went barhopping with Jay! Girls kept checking me out HARD! PROLONGED EYE CONTACT, DOUBLE EYE CONTACT, SO MUCH!
so I met Jay's friend Maura, he met her through tinder but they're friends. They haven't ever fucked. She's actually gorgeous wtf wow how do I not get matches like that, lol. I don't actually have a tinder tho.
Anyway she was cool. Her credit card got jacked but she fixed it and figured it out. She got crushed in the mosh pit too. She's cute and tiny. We were gonna bar hop with her after the concert and we totally did. I also ran into a girl who I knew from OkCupid a long time ago. I never fucked her. But she wanted me bad. Lmao. She actually knew Maura. LOL.
I felt mean kinda just dismissing that girl. She's cool tho. Idk
Um
Lol
So I finally got buzzed and we drank at the place where Jay and maura agreed to. I started getting silly. Bunch of other people at the table they knew but slowly they left. Lmao. It was jus me, Maura and Jay left. I killed the big beer someone left for Maura. Oof. Got me good
We went to Niels bar. It's like an arcade. Well, me and Maura started getting very close. Another one of her friends added me on her Facebook earlier and Maura was like "did you get me too?!" And I gave her my phone and I have itachi from naruto as my keyboard for my phone! And she goes "omg is that an anime background keyboard?" And I said ya. And she lit up. She was so into me lol. She was hype. And she asked if I liked horror anime. She said a name of one and she said she's gonna message me the name of it! I was surprised a girl was so interested me that she even said she'd message ME? LOL. GIRLS GHOST ME. WTF? shocked. And shocked I was checked out a lot. I had my black tank top on, grey beanie, skinny black jeans and my chain. Idk. Cute I guess.
Used to be cuter.
Anyway me and Maura started joking around hard. Somehow we talked about Deftones and she loved them HARD like I do and it was easy for me to keep talking and joking with her and she was amazing. I could date her. I could totally. We are almost the same. I'm so shocked. And she's gorgeous. Oh lmao her friend made out with her. Two girls. She made out with Britney. Lmao Brit was hitting on me and Jay too. But she was drunk
Um so Jay was on the table with me and Maura and me and her were just going off together. And I think I made him feel like a third wheel but he has a girl right now... And I already asked him if he wanted to pursue Maura and he said kinda but not really but kinda. So I felt like it was unfair. I felt dumb for not getting a lot of those other girls numbers. I only meet those gorgeous alternative babes that love metal like me at these places. Godamnit I'm dumb. I was just too sober to do it.
Uh
So as I joked with Maura, called her a dork, talked about exes and everything. I tried to get her to play a game with Jay. But Jay went off and played with another guy. As I'm having a good time with Maura, Jay texts me very salty stuff like "yeah kinda hard to get with a girl when you keep saying shit to her first" and I felt bad. Guilty. But.. she was into me. I can't help that. Jay is adorable btw. But she just was into me. Cause we have a lot in common. I um
I, idk why I can't remember the specific convos. I eventually got Jay and maura playing together. I got some hot funions from the vending machine and shared them with Jay and maura. I fed Maura lol. I'm a flirt. But I tried to feed jay too to make it even LOL but he didn't want that. I started fucking with Maura and shoved a funion in her nose hahahahaha. Then a lil later another one but I said I'ma shove it in her other nostril. And then I told her to come close, and I bit it out of her nose and ATE IT HAHAHA
then I got one in her mouth and said I'ma eat it out of her mouth. I said "but hey we're going to end up kissing" and lol. I did... Idk if she kissed back much but we were both aware that Jay would be upset. Um. I only did that when Jay wasn't there btw.
I talked to her about it too.
I could have gotten with her. I want her as a friend. She's incredible. So much in common and open af!
So we drove back together in separate cars and we took care of her cause she had a headlight missing and she wasn't sober so she can't afford being pulled over. And Jay drove in front and I drove behind her. It was nice
He called me and said he's gonna have her come smoke at her place. And that was my queue to leave them. And he apologized for being salty earlier. I didn't want to ruin our friendship so I let him have her. I really wanted her. but... I don't know. It felt like the friendship was more important
So I did that.
Um
I just
I wanna see Maura again... Tbh.
She was amazing
I drove to my hometown bar and met my regulars there. I told Sherwood and he said I'm an attractive dude. Uh later they said I was hit with the ugly stick and not America's next top model. Ha.. I guess.. that sucks ha.. thank you? Lol...
Ow..
Anyway
I uh
I don't know
So many pretty babes tonight! I am stupid for not talking to any
The show was amazing though wow
I want to start a band so badly
Um
I spent way too much money this week. I'm in debt ugh.
I can't tell you how many girls gave me eye contact and smiles. Wow. It lit me up. I felt so pretty
I haven't had that since like a few years ago
I'm not super fine I guess but I'm pretty I guess. Idk. I just don't understand how attractive I am or am not. I'm so confused about that.
Maura talking about Deftones and the song sextape made me go Gaga. Lol
Um
Idk if Jay even got with her in the end. And he won't tell me
Grr
I feel dumb
I'm too nice... Too caring.
I can't believe the chemistry between me and maura. Lol.
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justwritingscibbles · 6 years
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"What's a kiss?" Queue flustered egos trying and failing to explain "Can you show me?" "No!" "But you all are my family. If you love me we kiss right?" All the egos groan frustratedly because they just wanna watch rob be happy with you but then rob gets frustrated "I don't get it!" So Schneeple rolls his eyes dramatically grabs Jackieboy mans collar whosclosest and less likely to punch him and kisses him very briefly. Rob "I still dont get it" and they all throw their arms in the air exasperated
Hahaha omg. They’d have to get Kinkiplier or Darkiplier to come in and try a turn at explaining. Maybe they have better ways of explaining this.
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What's your favorite thing to bake? Hahaha sdkfjl I know! I just see all these good things & I save them in my drafts to blog later but then I forget about them. Oh yeah, that's what I meant; I don't know where to start to start queuing them. Yeah I defff don't wanna flood the feed. Yay! I'm glad you took care of it then! Tbh if I heard one of my profs voices again... I might have a panic attack. dkjgnfdb ~~ 💞
i bake cakes the most!! my favorite to make is cheesecake 😋 but I also like making cinnamon rolls and banana bread!! ♡ theres lots of other stuff I'd love to try too
oh lol I mean do you want to queue them in a particular order?? if not just,, start queuing hahah idk
oh nooo were your professors mean??
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