#i don't want this anymore

[veryfrickingqueer]

the AUDACITY to claim someone else is sexist by simulately bringing one of the most sexist things as a justification is so UNBELIEVABLE

yes i just got victim of a sexist comment and yes this happens daily and yes I should just stop having expectations that someone might not even be a little bit sexist but i can't help being a little hopeful.

background: some dude just said to me "he only likes you because you're alway wearing short clothing, he's just sexist like that" which a) is in itself a fucking sexist comment and b) is a fucking stupid assumption about someone who I'd die for and who absolutely doesn not like me only because i wear short clothing but for an equally stupid reason, namely because we both are metal fans.

#i don't want this anymore #tw sexism #especially because even tho i know that i often wear revealing clothing but that doesn't give anyone the right tp say such degrading shit

[bugbxyjunk]

hi i talk about s/h and and e/d in here stay safe and don't read the tags if you know you can't 🫶🦈

#oo cant keep living in this body #ive ruined it #ive had a bed and ana and oh my god im so fucked up #i can't control myself around food #im so fucking fat and thats not a bad thing its not its not i KNOW #but god i can't even look at myself in the mirror without wanting to cry #my body is ruined with scars #but the ones on my arm are barely visible #and i need them there #if they disappear then what was ot all for #how can i say im disordered and not have the proof #i don't want to look like me #i cant keep looking like this #i don't want this anymore #i don't want this #i can't #i cant i cant i cant i cant #ive already relapsed #i was doing so good #and the smallest thing set me off #no one can even tell with the mess already on my thighs #but god #i know #i just want to feel normal #i want to be normal #i don't want to be like this #i want help but i don't know how to ask for it #i don't want to bother anyone #but i need someone to look at me a know im not okay

[kstardust]

That feeling that you don't know how to name it, that's the worse of all.

#shitty feeling #losing control #unhealthy coping mechanisms #tired af #i don't want this anymore

[bitchofdarkness]

I hate how fandom has become "if you haven't created anything in this very specific time frame after the release of the show/movie, everyone will have moved on"

And call me old fashioned, but that's just not me. I sometimes take ages to create and publish. And I will love a show or movie for such a long time (years, babes, years) that I just can't relate to the fast consumerism that's going on.

Because, let's be real, it can get really lonely in a fandom if most have simply moved on to the next shiny thing. Is what's created less worth, just because it was created outside the hype? Why is it such a taboo for this new fandom generation to love an old or "late" fic or art?

It's so tiring and I'm too old for the 30-seconds-hype-tiktok-shit. Just tired. So, so tired.

#semi rant #cry into the void #and no i'm not shaming young ppl in general #it's this new wave of people entering fandom which can happen at any age lbr #and I don't understand them nor do I want to atp #if you're wondering why you can't rb anymore: I switched it off bcuz people can't fucking read and piss me off with their dumb additions

[anomalisa92]

Just one of these days where the shadow people keep acting up and won't shut their mouths...as if I'd need any sleep...

#bpd thoughts #shadow people #this is a fucking nightmare #I don't want this anymore

[hauntmansion]

Trying to write a self indulgent oneshot of one of my favourite pjsk ships for comfort but the exhaustion looked at me in the eyes and said "no :)" ...

#🪐 #! THE SHARPEST LIVES #i am so tired #i want to leave #i don't want this anymore #i don't want to be on this body

[catsauceeartofficial]

Accepting isolation, craving belonging

#art #digital art #comic #long post #this is kind of vent? #I don't want to be all I had a rough childhood wahh #I just find it bizarre to have so many little aspects of my childhood shape me #I crave isolation #I thrive in isolation #But I want to belong #I want to intimately know someone #and I want someone to intimately know me #This is to all the people who have loved me #even if we dont talk anymore #i love you and have loved you and i want nothing but for you to be happy #original post

[lazylittledragon]

do any other artists feel like. yeah you're a 'good artist' because you draw things that look nice, but like. TECHNICALLY? you're really not great

i really hate that i can recognise that yes, my art is good, but is it VARIED? is it dynamic?? is my anatomy good? is it full of texture and colour theory? do i know how to do This? can i do That? no, not really. and that's quite painful actually

#ramble #yes this is the artist's perspective bs and yes this is anxiety because it's 1am #and yes i'm forever learning and growing but also #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. #drawing my little guys is fun but i am not good enough for the industry right now and that fucking sucks #i really feel like if i walked into a studio with my portfolio right now they would laugh at me #one of those days where i wish i'd done a more useful degree y'know #i'm going back through the phase where i don't know what i'm going to be anymore and it's scary #some days i really want to give it up and never draw again and do something worthwhile because i Know my life would be easier #and i hate that something i love so much makes me feel so hopeless #signs that i should go to bed ^^^^ #i will resume my pity party tomorrow

[mimiscappinisideblog]

Me throughout 2020-2021-2022-2023:

Me the moment AO3 has been down for more than ten hours:

#someone put me out of my misery #i don't want to live on this planet anymore #mimi talks #GOOD THING THAT SOME AO3 WRITERS ALSO POST THEIR FICS HERE #HI. I LOVE YOU ALL #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #ao3 #archives of our own #pain and suffering

[ryuucae]

Entry for a Lucina zine from last year; I'm still quite fond of the composition!

If interested in leftover sales, please take a look at the project account here ^^

#lucina #fire emblem awakening #fe13 #fe awakening #art #illustration #digital art #drawing #wow something that is not FF14 #I saw this zine app and wanted to apply even though I don't draw FE anymore because Lucina means so much to me even now #Idk if this is me reaching too far but I think I first started feeling like I was nonbinary when I saw Lucina dressed as Marth #I thought it was SOOOO cool #I still think of it to this day #So thought it would still be appropriate to participate

[uncanny-tranny]

It's always, like, mildly annoying when people see a het trans couple and go "all that work just to be straight?" like... one, you don't know if they're straight and two, trans people don't owe you a queer sexuality to "make up" for the fact we're trans. Transhet people aren't a subtype of trans people, they're members of the trans community, and the queer one if they so desire!

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #and i don't really vibe with the word microaggression but it's very that #like it just comes across like people think trans folks owe them queerness and cabaret preformances y'know? #and we cannot *be* if it means the way we are being isn't this carefully curated version people have of transness + queerness #and it can kind of warp your desires and understanding of yourself because you *want* community and to be seen and to be allowed to just be #this isn't universal and the 'you' is impersonal. i am aware this is a broad range of experiences and not everybody can/does relate #my overall point is that it's probably not the best move to act like this toward trans people #maybe i read too much into this but it's just something i have seen over and over and over and over . . . again #shoutout to the real ones (heterosexual and/or straight trans people or people in straight-presenting relationships 👍) #back to playing the lelda of zelda (is it bad that i don't even call her zelda anymore i just go 'THERES LELDA!!!') #it sounds wrong to call her zelda now 😭 #the LEG OF ZEG. SWORD SKORD???? BREATH OF THE WEATH!! -my brain 24/7/365

[bitchofdarkness]

My family:"You never talk to us"

Me:[tells them what's going on]

Also my family:[doesn't respond]

Me:"Alright. Guess that's that."

#bro srsly wtf #6 fucking days left of 2023 and I get hit with one fucking shitty situation after another #I DON'T WANT THIS ANYMORE

[blumcamp]

Sometimes I think I will never be happy. I mean, I know is not true, but shit, it’s just sad. Just thinking about it’s a little tragedy in itself.

#me #overthinking #i don't want this anymore

[umbrace-ramble]

Woe kidkiller be upon ye

#I keep debating if I should post this cause I don't post my stuff anywhere anymore but eh #not enough kidkiller content out there anyway #I guess it's time. hi #this is from 2020 don't look at it too hard #But I really wanted to draw something when the anime reached the Udon reunion because I had to get it OUT #one piece #eustass kid #eustass kidd #massacre soldier killer #killer one piece #op killer #kamazo #kidkiller #kid x killer #op fanart #my art #yes it's a very vague reference to The Fallen Angel by Alexandre Cabanel

[vellichorom]

we've waited all 8 years, to fi~na~lly bring true our fears; newcomers to watch us play, & veterans rejoice - it's our day! 🎉

#uwu art #Five Nights at Freddy's #Five Nights at Freddys #FNaF #Five Nights at Freddy's movie #FNaF movie #Five Nights at Freddys movie #Freddy Fazbear #Chica the Chicken #Bonnie the Bunny #SHOUTOUT TO EVERY BLUE MOON WHERE I DRAW FNAF #& the one time ever ( today ) i actually post it #FNAF MOVIE WAITERS MERRY CHRISTMAS #this was done WAY back before the movie even got finalized iirc but hey today's a good day to polish & post it #artstyle based off of those silly big headed keychains as well as those old dragoart tutorial things #because GOD we don't get fnaf art like that anymore #i WILL be the change i want to see in the world #ANYWAY