#i don't want to be lonely

[satinpvppet]

there's the crying that's been waiting to happen for days ok

#puppet talk #i wish this didn't feel so much like rejection and abandonment #i hate this i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry #i don't want to be lonely #but i have no right to ask to join #not when i've already messed up so much

[greencarnation]

eleven is fascinating to me because he came right off the back of tens horrible traumatic breakdown after he lost everything and he immediately tried to establish himself as the opposite of that. he is funny and goofy and almost childlike, and he bulldozes on in his adventures with amy like nothing happened at all. but then something happens and his masks slips and it's like oh! the core of this man is still anger. he is so so angry all of the time and this façade is the only thing stopping him from being consumed by it. he isn't over any of it and he hasn't moved on. he is wearing a fez and laughing but under that all that exists is age old anger and grief and it is going to consume him

#i do think that this pit of anger was eventually covered and soothed by the ponds #but he didn't adress it and he couldn't even look at it until he was twelve #when he stopped pushing back and repressing everything and finally allowed himself to exist as he was #but ok listen #its all layed out in the first 3 episodes of season 5 and in the way amy sees him #episode 1. here is the new doctor he is energetic and reeling and fun #episode 2. the space whale comparison. here is the new doctor. he is unthinkably ancient and almost godlike but he is so so kind #and patient and good. he is ancient and lonely but he can't stand to see children cry. so the doctor helps people #episode 3. daleks. the doctor is a soldier. these are his age old enemies. he wants them dead and he will stop at nothing #all logic and reason vanish. he is hitting the dalek with a pipe and yelling his head off while amy watches in horror #like obviously we know why but amy didnt #this is not a sane or rational man he is unstable and angry #and in that episode he was stripped back to what he largely is: hate #you would make a good dalek ect ect ect #anyway 3 episodes with 3 very distinct and equally definitely traits layed out like: here you go #i don't like elevens era much but those first 3 episodes were great #doctor who #eleven #amy #eleventh doctor #matt smith #dr who #dw #i mean idk this is what river literally had to spell out for him #eleven was careening completely out of control #how long til doctor means warrior indeed? #mine

[teatitty]

It's way funnier to me to imagine that Geralt is the one who desperately wants Dandelion to winter at Kaer Morhen with him but Dandelion keeps saying no on the simple grounds that it's too fucking cold and do you want me to die Geralt? Do you want me to get hypothermia and fucking die?

And Geralt's like "please I am begging on my knees I will cuddle you every night to keep you warm I just need to prove you actually exist"

#the witcher books #dandelion #geralt of rivia #gerlion #you know those romcom plots that are like 'I told my fam I have a bf and now they want to meet him so pls pretend to date me'? #this is like that except the reverse #geralt tells his fam he has a bestie who's a bard that cuddles with him at night and they all just #don't believe him bc it sounds so ridiculous #'it's okay to say you're just lonely geralt you don't need to Invent A Guy to convince us you're not' #'I DIDN'T INVENT A GUY HE'S REAL I PROMISE STOP LOOKING AT ME LIKE I'M A PATHETIC WET DOG'

[guardian-angle22]

Tarlos Wedding Celebration Event [Week 15] -> tarlos + colors -> rainbow of clothes

#911 lone star #911lsedit #tarlos #tarlosedit #tk strand #carlos reyes #tarlosweddingcelebration #i don't want to talk about how hard the purple one was lol #it's very satisfying to me that it alternates who is wearing which color btw #file under: oddly pleasing gif making things #my gifs

[movie-robotnik-positivity]

I love Trip so much you guys wouldn't understand

#she's just a little baby #she's clearly from the island so I wonder why she's working with Eggman and Fang #my best guess is that Eggman is tricking her like he did with Knuckles #or they're forcing her #or maybe she's just lonely and just wants to make friends. I don't see other natives there so maybe its just her #sonic superstars #trip #trip the lizard

[silverbastardgoldenfool]

Remember how it took a Skill bond with Fitz for the Fool to realise that Fitz actually loved him and hadn't just been humouring him all these years out of pity I'm gonna fucking vomit

#realm of the elderlings #rote #fitzchivalry farseer #the fool #fitz and the fool #robin hobb #how am i supposed to liveeeeee robinnnnnnnnn #this thought was straight up keeping me awake last night!!!! #fresh off the final trilogy's revelations about the Fool's childhood I think about Farseer trilogy Fool and just want to weep forever #HE WAS SO LONELY. DON'T LOOK AT ME. #after what fucking Capra did to him of course he couldn’t trust anyone and had to FEEL Fitz’s love to believe it #Fitz and the Fool perfectly matched in their inability to believe anyone could love them #robin!!!!!!!!!¡!!¡!

[heyitsrink]

He protected me, Fitz. It took months for him to gain my trust. But after a time, whenever Queen Desire was traveling and I slept on the hearth, I felt safe. It was safe to sleep.

A comic for my giftee, hoodedcreature, in this year's RotE Winterfest. It was such a joy making this. Baby Fool!! My Heart!!

#rote #realm of the elderlings #the fool #king shrewd #farseer #the farseer trilogy #comic #fan comic #king shrewd and his beloved little clown #designing shrewd was so fun!! #i imagine a softness to him that i don't see reflected often in the official art #he's just a lonely old man wanting some friends #and drawing sweet little fool curled up by the fireplace healed something in me <3 #panels of the elderlings

[gideonisms]

tbh as soon as I got a job that paid me enough to live and wasn't dependent on getting people to like me or listen to me most of my brain problems just went away. I spent all that time trying to convince myself they wouldn't and I should try to get them fixed regardless but then I just. Immediately became functional upon receiving a consistent schedule, boring autism tasks, and Some Money

#i made a curry the other day. #i feel like i should be lonely or worried about the future because i don't really have friends here & i don't want to work at 5 am forever #but on the other hand. teaching was horrible customer service was horrible tutoring doesn't pay enough #i don't know how to get to an editing job and i need a break from trying to figure it out #3 months to a year of absolute boredom and vague back pain sounds wonderful.

[royalarchivist]

Bad: I want to see you guys in Minecraft so badly. I literally don't care about PvP anymore, I just want to hang out with people!

Etoiles: You want to chill with me, Badboy? Badboy, you want to Netflix- you want to Netflix and chill with me?

Bad: No, I think you're too combat-addicted.

Etoiles: What?

Bad: You'll drag us into a com- into a fight some way. [Laughs]

Etoiles: You think I'm combat addicted? I'm just the chillest-

Bad: Addicted. I know you, Etoiles!

Etoiles: I'm- You don't know me.

Bad: You want- you want to fight.

Etoiles: No, you don't know me.

#Etoiles #Badboyhalo #QSMP #Starhalo #I think #I have no interest whatsoever in that ship at all but I have some mutuals who do so. Tagging for you guys #Bad #Bruh this event is so lonely #The fact that BAD is saying ''I don't even want to fight people I just miss hanging out :('' says a lot

[hajihiko]

......and they were roommates.

#Fuyuhiko is a good dude when he's not being a rat bastard #fuyuhiko kuzuryu #peko pekoyama #izuru kamukura #New AU to the roster Izuru is like '.... ok.' And just moves in with them #Keeping your insanely powerful classmate a secret from your crime kingdom parents #Also Izuru is like 'are you gonna use me as your tool. Are you ordering me to leave' #And Hiko is like no and also no. I just dont think this is right do whatever you want #HE GETS IT #Fuyuhiko and his two friends who don't consider HIM a friend and also barely consider themselves people #Ok ok done this is why I just grabbed screenshots and did a silly doodle I dont know how to express myself #An art #Fuyuhiko and his compulsive 'stick around with me' hes lonely :(

[lover-of-mine]

I made these gifs for my Eddie touching Buck set a really long time ago and I keep meaning to talk about them and well, what better time than now.

I think it's an insane choice to have Eddie hand just hoover over Buck's shoulder. Because he could touch him? Yes, Buck has a complicated history with Abby but Buck is still his best friend? He can very much pat his shoulder before running into a call. And add that to the way Eddie was acting the whole time they were in the train "his fiance is Abby *stomp feet while walking away*" it's insane that Eddie got insecure enough about Buck in that situation that he actively stopped himself from reaching out. Like???

This one I think it's just cute, he has to catch himself because of covid regulations and also the level of professionalism that's expected from them in a scene but I absolutely ADORE that he starts laughing and his first instinct is to lean towards Buck.

But this is the one that drives me WILD. Eddie was just trapped, broke several ribs, they're in a really bad scene considering Bobby is missing and they don't know the whole situation with Hen and Chim and the patient, and Eddie is probably in a whole lot of pain and his instinct is to lean into Buck. This is a man we got told a lot of times is the one who always wants to be in control, is bad at asking for help, and yes post therapy Eddie is better at that but he is still very much controlled, and his reaction while in pain is to lean into someone else. It makes me want to scream. He actually moves so that he's closer to Buck and he is about to lean into his shoulder when Hen gets down and it's back to action. They had a few seconds to breathe in a terrible call and Eddie's instinct is to lean on Buck. I will never get over it. give me Eddie leaning into Buck for real please

#i just wanted to talk #im lonely dont mind me #thoughts thoughts thoughts #911 #buddie #buddie thoughts #otp: you don't need to pretend with me #911 meta

[green-alien-turdz]

Anyone else wish they were desperately in a relationship becuz they just want to love n feel loved but know that they're ultimately the worst person n would only bring down someone else so you don't even talk or socialize bcuz you know that you're only goin to cause issues n don't deserve to feel that love? No? Yeah, me either. totally

#i love n hate bein lonely #i want to talk n love but i just don't really know how haha

[guardian-angle22]

Tarlos Wedding Celebration Event [Week 5] -> favorite s2 moment(s)-> all the flirty banter

#911 lone star #911lsedit #tarlos #tk strand #carlos reyes #tarlosweddingcelebration #tarlosweddingevent #this is my jam right here #flirty boyfriends being adorable af #i don't know if i can pick a favorite moment here. part of me wants to choose the last one #but I also just absolutely love the adorable banter when they were moving tk into the condo #I would love s5 to have a better balance of this with the heavy stuff #s4 was just toooo much heavy. not enough flirting lol #give us flirty HUSBANDS #my gifs #episode: s02e01 back in the saddle #episode: s02e04 friends with benefits #episode: s02e10 a little help from my friends #episode: s02e11 slow burn #episode: s02e12 the big heat

[slytherin-syon]

i made the mistake of listening to the pjo musical while also being on a spy x family kick and came to the horrifying realization that Damian is so Annabeth-coded, particularly combining their ambitions with the trauma of being seen as invisible and their determination to prove themselves....

so, here is a damian-centric amv to the song "My Grand Plan"

#honestly so many lines in here just scream DAMIAN DESMOND #'if you don't go go you'll never know if you'll ever be good enough' #'my grand plan' nerd damian #'you better wise up cause ill rise up bring on any challenge' ambitious boy~ #'so me i tend to stand my ground i find i never can give in' determined boy 😭 #and most importantly 'and someday soon i swear i dont know how or when but i PROMISE YOU I'LL NEVER BE INVISIBLE AGAIN' #'someone will notice me...' #THIS LINE JUST MAKES ME CRY FOR THE LONELY AND SAD BOY DAMIAN IS AND HOW ALL HE WANTS IS TO HAVE ALL HIS HARD WORK TO BE APPRECIATED #damian desmond #damianya #spy x family #spy x fam #damian spy x family #my grand plan #lightning thief musical #pjo musical

[exodusx]

I want to be myself again,

but I'm still trying to find it.

#sad #sad quotes #sad songs #sadness #unhappy #unstable #alone #loneliness #lonely #self harm #self hate #depression #depressing thoughts #mental illness #cuts #suicide #suicidal #me #i don't want to live in this way anymore #anxitey #social anxiety #self destruction #depressive #broken #messed up #i am a mess #fucked up #useless #nothing #taylor swift lyrics

[thebad-lydrawn-sanses]

Is Error in one of the Teams Or is he a loney guy?

And what does everyone fears/likes the most?

Killer: i like Nightmare (platonically) and i fucking hate paintbrushes Cross: oh, i fear cows and like tacos and chocolate. the only thing i like more than these two things was beating the shit out of Ink. it was funny and worth the scars Dust: abandonment Dust: … Dust: … Dust: i like…d Dust: …when Cross beat the shit out of Ink

(Horror likes making nests out of blankets/pillows and fears not having a steady food source. Currently taking a well-deserved nap.)

#killer sans #cross sans #dust sans #bandages #wounds #mentions of violence #food #Killer trying to cover his soul after having a panic attack over a wooden spoon that he momentarily mistook for a paintbrush #Dust had to think for a while about things he liked #the 'bone hurting juice' tshirt is one of the funnier gags i've made imo #Dust is making ground beef and ramen because they're easy to make btw #also they're probably gonna run out of paper towels to clean up the eye goop at some point #you don't want that stuff on regular towels and other fabrics it will stain #permanently #ok everyone in the gang is hating on Ink but i swear this isn't a blog where we bash Ink #he just happens to be on the opposite teams side and be very morally grey and fairly violent #queue #error sans #i almost forgot to put the overgrown toddler on the post specifically asking about him HELP #also yeah Error is lonely