#i don't want to distress people at all

[sysig]

The familiarity is not very comforting (Patreon)

#Doodles #UT #Handplates #Sans #Papyrus #Asgore #Always with memories/lack of memories being distressing! How memories shape action interests me quite a lot #Papyrus and Sans both have the ''this has been on me since forever so it's normal'' outlook on the plates #Defensive when other people get concerned about their lack of concern haha <3 #But what if ♪ #Honestly probably could be set anywhere but I wanted Papyrus to be worried for Sans' safety and not fully know why <3 #Lots of very I don't know why I know this but I'm not happy about it haha #Can you tell I didn't use references for this from Asgore's outfit and the boys being on the opposite sides lol #It was very fun to draw them being carried haha ♥ Asgore's gigantic hands #Teeny tiny babies even still haha #In case it's unclear - Sans is looking at Asgore's text in the second panel and putting two and two together about his hand plate #That was a point of curiousity for me while I was reading :0 All the other text Gaster uses to communicate is WingDings! #All the papers he has the boys do and obviously his native font to speak haha #Wondered briefly if it was perhaps that distancing thing I mentioned a bit back in reference to ZEX actually haha #Like swearing in a different language - a way to not claim the action as his own in some small sense #Or perhaps as reference to their fonts being in that alphabet? I wonder! #I love their little interactions in how they look out for each other even in small ways <3 #Papyrus concerned of course! Falling is dangerous! It'll be more obvious why later but this is emotionally a very strong and real feeling! #And Sans wants to do anything he can to not make his brother sad ♥ #It'll all turn out okay you two 💕

[aro-culture-is]

Alloaro culture is wanting a similar word to qpr for a committed partner you have sex with sometimes that is not romantic: qpr isn’t right because it has the word platonic in it.

hi! in a very gentle way, i am vibrating to let you know this is incorrect :)

from the POV of someone who's been around the aro community since ~2013-2014 on tumblr, the only time i've seen folks start to say that qprs couldn't include sexual components has been when

they've learned an incorrect definition of QPRs, or

in one particularly notable case, the individual proposing it turned out to be quite sex negative and upset at the mere thought that people could think that qprs could include sexual activity. this individual suggested an alternative term for individuals desiring sex in QPRs in a rather explicitly alloarophobic measure. when gently called out from what had seemed to be a genuine attempt at coining a new term, the above came to light. smaller cases of this pop up every once in a while, but this one got some notoriety.

queerplatonic was always meant to mean "queering the idea of a platonic relationship", "queering the idea of what a relationship means", and by explicit definition, has always been broadly and radically inclusive. any relationship, so long as the partners involved agree it is a queerplatonic one, is queerplatonic. no exceptions. this can mean it involves romance, sex, traditionally platonic elements, and anything and everything those involved desire out of it.

tldr; the word platonic is in queerplatonic to say it is counter to the idea of a restricted "platonic" relationship.

#Anonymous #aro culture is #aro #aromantic #actually aro #actually aromantic #ask #mod phoenix #pls don't ask me what the term had been or who the blogger was. i forgor #idk when it was anymore either cause it was uuuuhhhhh really distressing #i do think this blog existed tho so probs 2019 ish #sex negativity cw #alloarophobia cw #queerplatonic #i know it can be easy to get an incorrect or like. sanitized take online of what things mean #but generally speaking if the word is queer + [something] that [something] is being modified to be counter-cultural intuition #not just queer people *doing* the culturally intuitive version of that word #like... our system is genderqueer broadly speaking [i ID as agender or genderfuck primarily but most of the system also IDs as genderqueer] #and trust me this is not queer person doing Cis Binary Gender this is queer person says 'fuck that gender shit imma do what i want :)' #also pretty please know this is all being said in like. a smiling happy-to-share way! #this is not being said as like. 'uhhhhm aktually' mansplaining

[uncanny-tranny]

Okay, see, I understand the reason why people believe "testosterone is so powerful and estrogen, by comparison, is useless and weak", but guys... please stop. It's not helpful, it's inaccurate, and frankly, it's just... transphobic (and misogynistic).

Yes, estrogen and testosterone (in different levels) are different, and do different things. But to say that one is useless - esteogen, more often than not - is so inaccurate. I've seen so many trans women on estrogen express just how much they have changed - some even remarked that their shoe size changed. Estrogen isn't inherently weak. Testosterone isn't inherently powerful. They do different things in different peoples' bodies, which is why transition timelines vary so much even if some of us take the same medications.

Additionally, please recognize how hurtful this can be to those either seeking transition, or not looking to medically transition in this way. How does it look when people are bombarded with the idea that their transition isn't going to be successful, and that there's no point? If I were told again and again that there isn't any point in something I need, I know I'd be miserable on top of the misery I'd feel for being unable to transition how I needed. It's unnecessarily cruel.

You can certainly speak on the affects of different hormones. That is completely okay! But to moralize or even scandalize hormones isn't the way to go, I think.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #there's also the assumption that testosterone mulilates a person because of the affects... #...and i just. it upsets me because i'm on testosterone... #...and i can rag on estrogen and whatever because of the affects of them which i never asked for but it's just... #...it feels needlessly cruel to say that a hormone makes you bad or makes you weak or makes you ugly... #...i understand where this is coming from. there is genuine pain when some people say this... #...my critique is NOT on the pain. it is a critique about the ways in which we express it... #...there are healthy and productive ways to express this type of pain... #...but i don't think equating morality to hormones will be helpful in the long run... #...and obviously what i say won't resonate with everybody but i invite you to just sit with this. roll it over in your mind perhaps... #...you are not a bad person for feeling distress or pain. not at all. not ever. but i do want people to be mindful of this... #...this is NOT a post to shame you. thoughts ≠ actions

[kingprinceleo]

Oh fuck me fuckme fuck me

#I'm going to start killing people #I need SLEEPY TYLENOL NOWWWWWWW #Mfer laying in bed for 8 hours full awake 🫠 eyes shut. Brain. ACTIVE #IM TRYING SO HARD TO SLEEP JUST BE UNCONSCIOUS #Too late now #Fuck me I have to be aware enough to not kill everybody in this vehicle #Mfing murder nightmare too what the fuck #Set the scene: YouTuber wedding #The man in charge of filming is an asshole to the minimum wage people working there #Like real mean. And one meek guy tries to tell the groom but the groom is kinda a dismissive asshole about it bc he's already paid the guy #So it's too late now. Meek guy keeps getting disrespected and storms out to the parking lot to just leave #Woman who has been witnessing this apparently is gonna kill on meek guys behalf. He does not want this #Woman gets into a fucked up death machine car and drives it into the groom #But not like. Runs him over. There's a fucking saw blade on the front that starts cutting through the bottom of his torso #He was screaming a lot. I'm not sure if he survived or not. But the atmosphere was not fun #Very muddy desaturated colors. Very wet and musty feeling. It was like almost a parking garage #I don't think I'll ever have a dream as scary as the um time-looping cannibal beach dream #But this was just the delightful cherry of not being able to sleep at fucking. ALL . #Literally cried I'm so distressed about not being able to control anything about myself rn #Hhhhh :((( #3rd night in a row I've slept like shit

[obstinatecondolement]

I was watching a YouTube video about making zines and the person ended it with a call to action to be informed about Palestine and was like "And what better way than by reading zines???" There are. Um. Better ways...

#like zines can be very good educational resources #but also there is absolutely no editorial oversight and people can just Say Whatever and then print their zines/put them online #so yeah no #zines should not be your primary source of information when there are more reliably vetted sources available #there are many better ways to educate yourself about this particular issue! #and it is much too important to learn about through what could just be some randomer's hot takes! #right on the heels of the james somerton scandal this seems very naive ngl #also like I know I haven't posted much about palestine #but like 1) I do not think that me posting about it on tumblr dot com wields all that much power and influence politically #2) I do not want to use the negligible power and influence I DO have to spread misinformation #and I am too upset by all this to fact check everything reliably #and 3) my blog is not the newspaper and I should not be anyone's source of information on current events #so I am not going to try and be that and get too upset to use tumblr at all #I don't use twitter precisely because it's wall to wall distressing stuff about current events

[torgawl]

never thought i'd see people try to argue or analyse wriothesley's murder in regards to his personality. i think people are missing the point. the situation has nothing to do with him and has everything to do with an extremely traumatic environment that made a small boy think the only solution so save himself and the people he cared about was to take the life of his abusers. it's not supposed to be rational, it wasn't premeditated, it wasn't about getting away with it. if you read his description of the murder you can see how out of it he was. his goal was to protect himself and his siblings and that's what he did. that's why he admitted to the crime so easily and why he is keen to associate the fortress as a rebirth place. he was just young, lost and traumatised and that's about it when it comes to the extension of it all.

#people acting like they're disappointed because he's a 'manipulative' and cunning individual or because he's cold and that it doesn't match #the crime as if at that time he wasn't just a kid experiencing extreme distress and without a safe space to seek help #i also don't personally think he's manipulative at all. he isn't like ayato or yae miko. he has very strong values and he does everything #to abide to that. if that means ommiting information at some point to make the best out of a situation he will do so but he doesn't do #things for personal gain and as soon as he can be truthful he lays all the cards on the table #this reminds me of that ayaka situation where people tried to paint her as manipulative when all she did was ask the traveller to hear #people's stories so traveller could take their own conclusions about the situation in inazuma shsjsh #it's also the way wrio isn't even cold. he's serious and composed but goddamn if he didn't show how empathetic he is #also how lightweight his personality is during the archon quest... #at this point i'm just questioning myself if we're even playing the same game #wrio 'i believe in restorative justice rather than punishment' the slay #wrio 'there's a prophecy about a flood dooming the entire country so i'm taking matters into my own hands and building noah's ark to save #my people' the slay #wrio 'i have no reason to trust you but i will still offer you a cup of tea' the slay and people still try to pain him in an obscure light #he's not even that morally grey 😭 he's morally gray in the sense everyone is #wanting to stop people who hurt others isn't controversial or shouldn't be #also because we KNOW that's his last resource #his job is literally to give people a second chance the same way he took his except he actually wants to make life easier for others #than it was for him and people are so vocal about how grateful they are of him like??? #he's such a good guy genuinely #and just because he's intelligent and usually composed doesn't mean he isn't emotional sensitive or even prone to being put in situations #where's he's forced to react a certain way because that's just human nature #he's literally just a silly guy with trauma and big responsabilities set him free from the shackles of mischaracterization please 😂 #not that i'm better i'm a fool i may just be talking shit really #but seeing people act like the murder is somehow badly written or that he is dark and dangerous make me go ??? #having the ability to do something doesn't define you as a person and i feel like judgement without context makes no sense #but maybe that's just me

[bluastro-yellow]

there's only one end-of-the-day debrief :'( ?!?

#looked like a recurring event #I hope I'm getting a good grade in Kim #pointless microblogging #disco elysium #disco elysco #<- why does this tag keep coming up #what is it #some thoughts: #I'm a cop second and a disco lover first. hope those kids don't make drugs in the church after all #I'm helping them #do I need to tell the hardie boys or whatever to do their job of helping citizens?!? come on guys #you should already have helped that pigs woman #we definitely weren't trained for that lol. cops badly handling interactions with distressed mentally ill people. too realistic #thank GOD I didn't hit on that woman at the start of the game. would have made everything more awkward #but I did tell her I don't remember jack shit. whoops #I really like how there's multiple solutions for problems. probably normal for games like this but I appreciate it #I can actually become racist if I listen to Titus?? I thought I'd be faking it. I pulled out #*meathead or something. the big racist guy who guards the port #I wonder what happens if I do. Kim still would have to be my partner #does that union guy really want to help or does he want to turn the place into his playground. make the fishing village better #instead of destroying it! he's really good at sounding innocent tho

[thethingything]

we have a dentist appointment tomorrow and on the plus side we're not really anxious about the appointment itself because the dentist was so nice last time and actually took our medical trauma into account.

unfortunately though we do have to have anaesthetic which makes us feel like shit for at least the rest of the day, and no matter how considerate the dentist is, having a medical professional touch us at all does still trigger certain trauma and then I end up having a bunch of panic attacks at some point within the next few days and it's a really shit time. I really don't wanna have to deal with that and the concept of it is making me nauseous

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #vent post #<- kinda #medical trauma #(this turned into a long rant about medical trauma and consent so here's your warning for that if you read the tags) #I didn't like medical professionals touching me anyway but ever since the stuff last April when we went to the hospital #it's been a way bigger issue and I end up being an absolute wreck for a while because of it #I cannot begin to express how much I do not want a medical professional touching me at all but especially not in my mouth #and any other situation where someone shoves their fingers in your mouth when you don't want them to would be considered really violating #but because it's for medical reasons and we have to put up with it if we actually want treatment nobody around us seems to see it like that #same goes for various other medical procedures where it's like if a stranger touched me like that when I really didn't want them to #in any other situation that would be assault but because it's a medical setting I'm expected to just be okay with it??? #idk I probably haven't explained any of this right but I just don't like that people treat medical stuff as a special scenario #that's exempt from causing the same distress as any other scenario where someone touches you when you don't want them to #even though our brain is processing them the same way and we can't magically make that not happen #I know technically with medical procedures you (usually?) consent #but it's like... the choice is either consent to it or have your health keep getting worse #and once again in any other situation if your choices were to either consent or experience physical harm #that wouldn't really be considered consent and would be really distressing #I'm literally only consenting out of fear of what happens if I don't which... technically isn't consent but what choice do I have #idk this stuff is probably an issue specifically because of our trauma #but even still I would like to be taken seriously when I say I feel violated after medical procedures

[intertexts]

hm.

#how do i tell my sister that while i appreciate the thought it is in fact not nicer if she takes the couch occasionally and lets me have my #room sometimes. first of all i HATE disruptions like this it's kind of even more distressing 2 be able 2 sleep in #my own room for one night and then i can't again!!! that sucks net zero!!! second of all She Has My Quilt.... trying very hard 2 be normal #and chill about this and not like it's one of the few things i really really really hate other people using & causes me distress etc. #also like i explicitly said 'hey haha don't do this please' & then she did anyway. which she does!!! i forgot about that!!! #also like man i dont fucking want to sleep on someone's used sheets & blankets that's gross. so im arguably less cosy than i would be. gggh #this all seems like.... very minor and stupid im sure however man im like constantly in a state of middling to severe distress over this #shit. because i in fact also hate people going through my shit or being in my room and also having no privacy however #im very good with suppressing and or masking how much i hate it usually!!!!! but dude she fucking hung her laundry & underclothes #to dry or air on top of my fucking books on my shelves. like. ghghhh hate it hate it cant SAY i hate it because of the everything!!! #ok. sorry. minor pressure cooker escape valve complaining over now im gonna go sleep awkwardly on top of the blankets on my own bed with #some throw blankets. leaving my door open for the beafts if she closes it in the morning bc she thinks she knows what i want ill scream. #txt #neg #this is like private kvetching btw ok i love her dearly it's just unbelievably frustrating.

[sysig]

Getting up to trouble is his speciality (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #The Captain #Mixed set! :D Lots of singular doodles - one-offs or ones that apply to a few different scenes #The kiss is random tho <3 I still haven't gotten to ZEX showing off his uniform to Zelnick! I want them to!! #Him seeing his Captain in his uniform was so lovely tho <3 I love Big Love and that was so <3 Hehe #Smooch ♥ #ZEX does not eat enough ;; He eats like a bird and it's highly distressing #I actually wrote in my notes that I was surprised he wasn't hurting In The Same entry as when he was experiencing hunger pangs haha #It doesn't help that he tends to talk through meals rather than eat - he's so much more interested in making connections with humans! #As far as metaphors go - killing himself for the sake of trying to bridge that gap - I mean it's apt but ZEX please #I think it was while he was talking to Wally at one point that he framed the War in a very flippant light-hearted way which was funny to me #I don't think that's the descriptor most people would use haha #Swearing <3 <3 VUX terminology <3 <3 #I want a VUX glossary of terms so badly hehe I've been slowly compiling a few here and there :3 Direct translation! The dream ♫ #Him getting stressed enough to swear is very endearing haha ♪ What do you mean I'm endeared by everything he does don't be silly #The next one of me deeply enjoying when he's creepy is not proof of anything! Just because I Happen to also like that!! #I do really love when he's creepy tho agh <3 <3 The mental image of him as The Hunter - casually cornering and capturing his prey <3 #In that instance he was interrupted pretty quickly but the setup was there!! And it was extremely good!!! #I love how huffy he gets as well haha ''All these humans interrupting my seduction attempts >O( ...Wait O|'' lol #And finally an exchange on the board between him and Scarecrow haha so many fun faces around!! #I love him being completely baffled by a non-mechanical construct it just short-circuits his brain haha ♥ #He's so intelligent but there exists things unknowable! #The image of him tapping his pen is so Incredibly cute ah <3 Where did he learn such a thing! Does it translate from his VUX form to this ♪ #Anything everything ♥ Learned or known! It's wonderful

[mythicalcoolkid]

I've seen a lot of posts discussing the "helpless husband" issue where husbands will insist they can't do household tasks or purposely do a bad job to get out of them - and I'm glad it's getting discussed! This is a problem that hasn't gotten much recognition and I'm glad it's rightfully coming to awareness. But I also see a lot of comments about how certain tasks are things that "everyone knows by that point"

I'm 20+ and learning basic food safety. I learned things like "put things in the fridge when they've cooled off" and "check the temperature of your meat is okay," but things like "if the Jello has melted it's no longer good to eat," "that sandwich will still go bad by the next day even in the fridge," "drinks cannot sit out indefinitely and still be good," or "there is a limit to how long that food can sit out before it becomes unsafe" are things I've had to actively learn with the help of my (very concerned) friends. My reality testing center is broken, so my brain tends to wildly over- or underestimate the likelihood of events or can't process the idea of certain outcomes going poorly. My sense of direction, time, and size are extremely bad, to my own constant frustration. I know a lot about a lot of things and am generally pretty successful. But I end up struggling a lot with things that "everyone knows"

The actual rude behavior also tends to get lumped in with genuine mistakes. I now know that my father was likely autistic, and it explained a lot of his behaviors that we'd thought were baseless rudeness - overreacting to "small" things, not noticing certain issues, convenient "selective hearing." But he also willingly did things that were legitimately rude (going out of his way to ignore a problem he caused, lying about us, refusing to do things out of spite). When I personally "ignore" things, most of the time it's because I didn't see them at all and didn't know there was a problem, or I said I'd do it, didn't write it down fast enough, and genuinely forgot about it. This stuff isn't all in the same category. Some is honest difficulty, some is intentional cruelty

Basically, don't excuse men who are intentionally putting the burden of household chores on their partner, because it's a very normalized kind of manipulation and needs to be called out. If someone is not willing to learn ("no you just always do it so much better"), seems to be purposely messing up and is unwilling to actually try to improve (making it easier for you to just do it yourself than to teach them, again), or hides behind "complimentary" stereotypes ("women are just better at that stuff, I wouldn't even know where to start"), that's manipulative and needs to stop. But a person not noticing or forgetting things, needing clear instructions, not knowing something "basic," or being legitimately unable to do something is not the same thing. If they understand and are willing to contribute, open to finding ways they can help ("I can't wash dishes, but I can dry and put away or vacuum") or workarounds for issues ("I can try washing dishes with gloves on," "we can make a list of chores to check every day and keep it somewhere clear and visible," "I can set another reminder about trash day every week"), this is not automatically manipulative behavior. A lot of issues that come with neuro or mental disabilities get read as intentional or malicious, and it's understandable that, from the outside, they can sometimes look the same. This is not excusing men who exploit this issue and make these conversations necessary to begin with. It's just a small request to keep folks with neuro issues in mind when you generalize this type of thing or rush to judge

#m/cc #mine #I think every person with ADHD has experience with being accused of intentional misbehavior or carelessness #in response to symptoms that were distressing you too #'oh you just 'didn't notice' the dishes?' yes #and if you ask me to do them I gladly will #'if you really cared you'd notice/remember' 'if you cared about your work you'd have checked it enough to get rid of mistakes' #'why can't you just get over your symptoms?' #I've had this kind of thing with all of my neuro issues - being constantly accused of doing the wrong thing intentionally #because I didn't care enough or wanted to be lazy and make others pick up the slack #when someone starts viewing you though that lens though everything you do becomes evidence that you're selfish #honest mistakes stop being seen as an explanation. everything is being done out of manipulation and cruelty #explanations are heard as lies #this experience is overwhelmingly common for neurodivergent people in particular #I dunno I've just been having some thoughts on things that 'everyone knows' if they're an adult #('how did he make it this long if he supposedly can't [x]?' I don't know either but I gotta learn sometime so I'm learning now)

[uncanny-tranny]

Trans people, please don't rely on other people to tell you if your experiences or identity is valid.

It is a very human thing to seek understanding and validation (humans are social creatures and whatnot), but seeking people to tell you that who you are is valid places a ton of power in others. What happens when somebody tells you that they don't think you're valid?

And at the end of the day, it doesn't matter if your identity is "valid" or not to other people. What matters is if your identity suits you. You aren't a robot who lives at the behest of others, who can change the core of your being at the drop of a hat. You will continue to exist as you are with or without validation and with or without permission.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #when i was young i sought being told i'm valid because my environment told me i wasn't... #...but then i felt distress when i was told i wasn't valid because that's what i've been told all my life... #...nobody should have the power to take away your identity or anything like that... #...and i gave people the power to do that. i put way too much trust in strangers and they decided if they wanted me to hurt or not... #...this is why i personally dislike the posts saying '[x] is valid!'... #...it indirectly implies there is a point where you can slide into being 'invalid' and it does the same thing i used to do... #...i think more people ought to embrace that it doesn't matter what OTHERS think of who you ARE. that's shit you can't change... #...i can't convince people i am valid if they think i am not. i'm not wasting my time and energy and safety in order to fight people... #...if you think my identity is 'invalid' or 'valid' is of no consequence to me. you don't hold the power to make me change... #...i will continue to exist as i am and so will you... #...learn to embrace the idea that nobody can or should hold power over you to tell you if you're right in your identity or not #this is a really oversimplification but i'm trying to type this out as fast as i can before going to work again lol #this is NOT meant to disparage or shame people who want validation. it's more a warning or reminder #there is NO shame in wanting validation. that is a VERY human thing to need. you are NOT a bad person for wanting validation #i just want to caution people to remember that giving undue power to other people to validate who you ARE can have consequences #but it isn't your fault if you sought validation and were hurt instead. that isn't your fault. you don't deserve to be hurt

[softpine]

not to be a sensitive little cry baby weenie wimp but this debate is starting to actually upset me lol

#you're allowed to do whatever you want in your own game #but maybe consider WHY you WANT to make the butch sim more feminine #that's all i ask. just consider why #and i'm thinking about how when i had jody as a character #(a butch girl if you don't remember her) #the messages i got about her... sinister! #she was just existing! #and people couldn't fathom how beth would find her attractive #or say she's not really a lesbian if she's attracted to butch women #and then again for KD #one of the first questions i got about her was if she was going to do something creepy to stevie #no?? and why would you think that? answer quickly #these ideas are just so deeply rooted in our society #it's genuinely distressing #i'm not even butch but i am a lesbian and it hurts to see this shit #it runs so deep #even when you don't think you're homophobic you can be perpetrating these ideals #(because no i don't think anyone had homophobic intentions here! that's my point. this is a societal issue not an individual issue) #anyway i'm just. yeah #it's upsetting

[isekyaaa]

Funny enough, the core of an empath is not love or altruism, but arrogance. The belief that you can possibly know a person's suffering and feel you have the right to enact your idea of help upon them. The conviction that only you know the right way to handle a situation and that everyone else is wrong. And lastly, the delusion that the pain and suffering you endure is harmless if that means helping others, as if there aren't people out there that worry about you endlessly because they love you.

Like who the hell do you think you are?

#rambles #arrogance arrogance arrogance #arrogance and pride #they think they're better than everyone else #they wear their suffering with pride #personally i don't think empaths exist #i think they're all delusional #they project their perceptions onto other people #i mean really how can you ever say that you can feel what other people are feeling #they really think they know everything #get over yourself #and realize that your loved ones do not like seeing you suffering #they do not enjoy seeing you upset #if you're overly empathetic then learn how to fix your thinking and assumptions #just because someone's reactions causes you distress doesn't mean you need to do anything about it #walk away #or ask the person if they need help #dont just assume you know best #or that they even want help

[rskbunny]

I have grown ✨ cynical ✨ towards any kind of social media that isn't to do things like ask for answers to questions

#text #mine #might delete later #like girl what if I delete tumblr does it really matter #kinda been sick of it anyways #I hardly even open it anymore. it has no value to me #ashame my usernames are fire tho #like do I really need to publicize my mental distress? #reddit is the only social media I even open anymore and it's more like research for shit I need to or wanna know #the online no friends life has lost its glamour. I just start to realize how it really is people still competin over the lack of sleep they #got last night just with new things and new coats of paint #it's either who has the best or who has the worst #my shoppin addiction recovery has kinda led me to just look around me and see how much of my life is constructed by me or by outsiders #and the root cause of it really was just insecurities and not wantin to feel like a failure #tumblr isn't even really that social anyways #I think tumblr is also just full of introverts and ngl I kinda can't stand a lot of introverts #they don't want to be around people so there's literally no reason to even try #and I get ghosted all the fuckin goddamn time #like I really mean nothing to you huh? #'oh but it's so hard to talk to people' girl then just say you don't have time for me so you don't waste my goddamn time #I swear sometimes as a narcissist I'm more considerate of others and that's really fuckin weird #the whole treat ppl how u want to be treated and then also assumin everyone operates like you subconsciously #social media is also just full of everyone discoursin over everything and there's no constructiveness to it #everyone is just complainin about everyone else with no one listening #it's just a fuckin echo chamber #I think a lot of you could benefit of a touchin of the grass #social media is only fun when I have severe mental distress and I think that speaks volumes alone

[fstbmp-a]

@shermphibia replied to your post “Honestly this just feels like the usual S&M club...”:

It's so scary to me and I don't even have a fear of clowns .. he might be the reason why I'll start to gain one -

Please don't gain a fear of clowns, they've done nothing wrong and the smear campaigns against them are so bad... John Wayne wasn't even an actual clown...

#My Kingdom ;; OOC #shermphibia #sorry i'm just always so sad that. clowns have been ruined in western society for so many people. #and i get fears of it but the fact that clowns being seen as scary primarily spiked because of. #sb that wasn't even a real clown he iirc never even actually killed in the suit it was just. #idk it's distressing all real clowns want to do is make ppl happy... #this was very impassioned it wasn't meant to be KJBSAJKHDVBSJAHK #don't let tumblr's bad marketing ruin clowns </3