#i dont even know what i need i cant be alone but km exhausted all the time

[sceneboyfriend]

Hello anxiety dump

#oh my god i feel like shit #i cried in front of alice and i still feel guilty about it #my room is so gross and i have no energy #i dont know how om gonna do a full 7 days of work especially when i need to start #doing social media training for the shipping shit #jon truated with this department and im doing so bad with it i have no idea how im gonna get any fucking sales #i dont even know what i need i cant be alone but km exhausted all the time #my nauseau is terrible from all this anxiety #i thought i was going to spend the night with alice alone and that was gonna be my recharge #but she had to cancel and i cant even tell her or really anyone how terrible this is because i shouldnt be depending on her #its not fair that i put so much on her so i dont tell her because if she knows i need her shes going to haye me #its not fair for me to put all this on her i shouldnt be this fucking childish #its so late i wasted so much time #i wanted to get everything ready for her but i just sat here doi nothing #why cant i just have normal emotions and relationships!!!!! why do i attach to people so bad!!!!! why !!!! #mine #personal