#i dont really listen to vocaloid songs anymore but i still think vocaloid as a concept itself is cool

[kerpluvis]

Do you like ghost? (Vocaloid)

i know like a few songs from them but thats about it lol

#i dont really listen to vocaloid songs anymore but i still think vocaloid as a concept itself is cool #ask

[joron1a-stardustlor]

Vocaloid confessions [but they arent that bad]

My favorite vocaloid is Vflower & kiyoteru

The first vocaloid song listened to was Traffic jam in the 5th grade [im in 7th now]

yes i was brought to vocaloid by animation memes(somewhat)

For a while i thought miku was a real person [💀]

I think people should make more vocaloids speak spanish other than Maika

My favorite vocaloid producer is Ghost and pals

I do have hc for vocaloids

Spice & Gigantic O.T.N < Plus boy & sacred spear exlposion boy

Miku is a bit overused but she amazing you cannot hate her

Im fucking pissed there arent anymore updates on Kaito,Meiko,and Gakupo english [i havent heard about any more updates]

Rinku,Kaimei,Dexdaine,gakugumi shipper 💀💀💀

Luka is saphic,[lesbian] you cannot tell me otherwise

You are an ABOSOLUTE dumbass if you trash on other people hc/ships [unless they are like, objectively bad, or illegal]

DEX IS UNDERATED

LAPIS IS UNDERATED

I have never played a project Diva/Sekai game nor have i been to a concert, i own a single poster no merch either

Lost umbrella is a Kaii Yuki W

I dont like banana p after knowing what kind of songs they made len sing [& cause he is drawn as a child or very young]

I could blast any hatsune miku Lamaze p song on the school speaker cus THEY ARE FIRE

Duke of Venomania is fire[Gakupo gets bitches :O]

I was really scared of listening to Gomeme, Gomeme, like i read the first two lines and backed out, it made me that uncomfortable, even worse knowing the meaning of the full song and knowing some poor soul has gone through that

But now its kind of a comfort song for me it calms me down idk what to say, but it still does make me uncomfortable i will say that

Synth V Teto W

wowaka W [rest in peace we love you]

Kaito sounds better if i can hear his accent [i love how he sounds with an accent smmmm]

I have miku socks

#vocaloid #vocaloid miku #Vocaloid #crypton future media #hatsune miku #Vocaloid confessions

[levishart]

some thoughts of mine on my evolving music taste that i wanted to ramble about

i think ive grown out of liking mitski purely because ive gotten better mentally. or, i feel less alone. i still love her music but it doesnt get me anymore. her music doesn't reach in and stroke the deepest part of me these days. rather, i can't seem to let her in. i think in a way, this shows growth. but in a strange way, i think its a minor set back.

i still need my intake of more somber music, which is why ive shifted to laufey. laufey is more for hopeless romantics, but she has happier music. and even some of her sadder songs have happier beats. its better for me mentally to be listening to more jazzy, popy stuff than gut wrenching heart breaking indie from mitski. laufey gets me though.

yes, im hopelessly in love with a fictional character and he is the one i often think about whilst listening to her songs, but im happier. he keeps me happy. and listening to music that reflects my thoughts and feelings for him helps maintain that feeling of walking on clouds that thinking of him gets me.

listening to mitski was a comfort for the times i felt shackled to the ground, but now that im up above - or at the very least free to go where i want on land, her music is just a reminder of those past times.

i never thought there'd be a time where i would stop liking her music. and that's not necessarily true, i just cant listen to her anymore. not when i have laufey to remind me of all that i have now, no matter how material and delusional it is. mitski used to get me in ways that others never could.

however now that im in a better, or at least happier place, i don't need that. what i need is music that understands where im at now, and laufey fills that role perfectly. ive let go a lot of music that used to define me, because in truth, they never were really me.

mitski, mother mother, mindless self indulgence, tally hall, marina, gorillaz, lemon demon, the living tombstone, the smiths, ricky montgomery, sir chloe, vocaloid in general - don't get me wrong, it's all good music, but listening to them makes me feel like im pretending that im somebody that im not. and i cant stand to listen to them anymore when every part of me is screaming to go elsewhere for my music.

getting into metal has made me so much better as a person, and although it is taking time and i am still new to it, i am so eager to continue this journey of self discovery. ive been gradually getting into nu metal band by band, and im really looking forward to getting into black metal next. those genres just feel like ME and have helped my self expression and confidence loads.

i did this thing to my friends where i made them give me a crap ton of artists on spotify and id listen to all their songs, but i dont even need that anymore. like, it was to help me discover new music, and ill 100% listen to them all eventually, but right now, i want to pursue what makes me the happiest.

anyways, laufey 🔛🔝 and so is metal. stream twist by korn it makes my autism happy. you not rrrh rot dot n dot n dot per rot dot n not n dot per n dot chi cot n dot rrr ah dot dot ki o ma gri a dot dot ers a pa ta ko some play to we a dot think up a bite rah sometimes you might ooh ooh rrrh we thought we might dot be mer hot something what are you ma ah do bro what are mines is dot ooh ooh rot in dot n bite ooh na na er na he woo hoo rah ate no hoo dot er ha ya dot im wer rah

side note the "he" i kept refering to is of course my sexy babe levi ackerman from attack on titan and i actually think he'd quite like SOME metal bands and this isn't self projection because i dont think he'd like everything i like but you can NOT tell me he wouldnt jam out to coming undone okay?? i also 🫶 all aot songs. openings, endings, soundtrack, it makes my chest feel happy. good music.

TLDR; i broke up with mitski and got with laufey but im also banging korn, slipknot, and soad on the side. im also madly in love with levi ackerman and this is all because of him

#mitski #soad #korn #slipknot #tally hall #mindless self indulgence #system of a down #sir chloe #marina #mother mother #gorillaz #lemon demon #the smiths #ricky montgomery #vocaloid #laufey #levi ackerman #levi attack on titan #aot #attack on titan #captain levi #levi #levi snk #shingeki no kyojin

[st5lker]

deco is so forgettable recently like i was worlds biggest coward montblanc listener but the recent stuff feels uninspired like you said and i was like is it just cause i’m not 12 anymore? so glad to know someone also thinks similar

i mean i dont hate deco as much as some people i think hes like Fine and a few of his songs qre really really good. iiya is probably up there with my favorite vocaloid songs ever tbh and even his revent era i still enjoy the songs. theyre fun and catchy etc i think rabbit hole is a very fun song to listen to. but they just kind of all blend together is the thing. like if any of these songs were released individually theyd be fine but coming right after the other its kind of exhausting tbh. like rheres only so many times i can hear similar instrumentals same key same second vocal track chanting during the chorus same miku tuning same colorful animated typography pv until im like ok can see something new please...

[minnieposting]

talking about ocd, hyperfixations, and loving vocaloid

minnie journal entry style post again, except this ones SUPER long lol.

a few nights ago i had a Moment of Weakness . it mightve been a withdrawal thing but i was not at my best lol, i just became really upset out of nowhere?? i was listening to some teto synthv stuff and kinda just Reminiscing on my vocaloid days ... i find myself doing that pretty frequently lately but since im not rlly hyperfixating on anything rn, vocaloid pretty much becomes my default. but im getting ahead of myself.

i get weird about my hyperfixations. when one starts slipping away it used to be so genuinely painful like i felt it so physically i would get so depressed whenever i felt hyperfixations start to slowly fade. i was always like that, but it was different with vocaloid.

 i will never be able to really describe HOW much vocaloid means to me but its litreally part of my soul. its ME. like i was sitting here trying to do exactly what i said i couldnt and guess what, i couldnt really describe it. i was really REALLY hyperfixated on it for 8 whole years straight, elementary school up to when i was around 15?  thats when my ungodly uncharted 4 hyperfixation came eating my ass .... and i remember the only reason it stopped was bc i felt too guilty abt leaving vocaloid behind I KNOW U CANT CONTROL HYPERFIXATIONS BUT MINE LITREALLY JUST STOPPED. after a specififc day of intense guilt lmfao

but yeah. guilt. whenever i leave behind a hyperfixation, i just feel SO guilty, and i dont really know why. i always feel this need to “prove” to myself that i still love a character, they still make me as happy as they used to, and i feel weird and bad if im not getting into smth as obsessively or if im not “consuming it the correct way”. i feel like im not rlly explaining this thing well but ocd is just a nighhttttmare , it bleeds into everything and lately its been bleeding into my interests and my creativity x1000. and im just really sad about that because i feel like i wont ever be that same person again, bc im just too hyperaware BC of my ocd and i just find myself ruminating a lot. though this usually starts to become Active in my head when my hyperfixation is actually starting to go away ... lol. when im balls deep into smth i will be way too obsessed to be in my head like that!

but. all this just being context lol... i was listening to teto synthv stuff and just. i dont even remember what caused me to start getting so upset but i just started reminiscing and getting in my own head about all this. how i dont like vocaloid as much anymore and wondering if ill ever be as happy as i was back then. i hate being an adult bc being an adult means being more Aware and being aware means ocd bothering me and just. idk. I was thinking about everything. Typical rumination spiral. just started getting really sad and upset bc i was just stuck in my thoughts and thinking about how younger me would be disappointed in my current self

it didnt last very long at least, and i ended up listening to re:ng and pinnochiop. but the songs that i clicked actually ,,,,,, helped me so much. one of the songs i clicked was rainy snowdrop by re:ng, and i found myself resonating so deeply with the lyrics. like im actually a bit emotional rn typing bc i went to go look at the lyrics again and im listening to the song rn. it really picked me up and made me feel ok again. then because youre here by pinnochiop played. and just. FUCK BOTH OF THESE SONGS ARE JUST EXACTLY WHAT I NEEDED TO HEAR IN THAT MOMENT. it reminded me that itll be okay. simple as that.

and. im only writing abt what happened a few nights ago because while i was playing future tone earlier, it just hit me. ive always been saying that vocaloid makes me feel like myself. but then i started thinking about what exactly that means. and im actually thinking about it now while i write. its like home to me. vocaloid is where ill always go to, where ill always be. i grew up with it. its never not been with me. and no matter where i end up, itll follow me and itll be okay. ocd likes to make me ruminate about the past present and future but one thing that i know for sure is that vocaloid will always be there for me. i see it in a way where its me and my kid self. and i value my inner child so much. which is a bit ironic to me, bc of the way i treat myself...

idk. vocaloid is just really grounding in general. whenever i spiral or need to be pulled back down to earth, its there, and itll always help. its just nice to have this forever thing that i love so much

#minnie post #actuallyocd #just dumping my thoughts #minnie diary moment

[noisemachinedotcom]

asked by @cardcaptor-datura! fanks :2 didnt realize you had to turn on asks for sideblogs lmfao

7: a song by a band you wish were still together

okay i’ll preface this with ludo can be pretty obnoxious i think and technically they did get back together Once to put together a very shinily-produced little halloween song. it’s cute but not my favorite i like how it uses samples it’s a fun song but if it’s not shitty 2000s nerd rock whats even the point

ANYWAY Pt. 3 The Lamb and The Dragon off their album Broken Bride... it fucks severely and unapologetically. Broken Bride is a concept album about a dude who builds a time machine to save his dead wife, its pretty good and holds up, save for two songs that are either mid, corny, or both. Those being Tonight’s the Night (redundant Rock And Roll nothing-number which just repeats basic character motivations that were very well implied in the first song its unnecessary and condescending) and Save Our City (my only true complaint with this one is it sounds suspiciously Christian. not like faith based music is bad but the chorus is just eerily reminiscent of accidentally turning the radio to clean jesus worship rock. all that complaining out of the way it does get points for depicting the literal rapture as some kind of zombie apocalypse complete with a dragon)

24: a song to drive to

luckiest guy on the lower east side by the magnetic fields fills me with indescribable childlike glee and i dont often get to drive anymore but when i do this always makes the cut because its adorable and also about driving. also the beat is wet as hell for no reason i love it

torn green velvet eyes gets close second because the part where it goes br br br  br br brbrbrbrbrbbrbr made me flip out the first time i heard it and the instrumentation the crunchy digital mixed with shiny sounds itches my brain in a way that feels incredible. and when you’re in a car you can turn it up loud as hell and let it Warsh over u. my headphones have been broken for a long time so when i really get access to Loud it drives me nuts and cars are perfect for loud. i’ve also been driving to a lot of vocaloid ive got a massive playlist i made based on stuff i listened to in middle school during the vocaloid revival phase

#asks #@cardcaptor-datura

[nanjokei]

of course i can say i think giga is a hack especially in the current day but its not as much of a shocking opinion anymore in 2023 when his music is just very "pleaseeee SM hire me i wanna producer for BP so bad" (well i cant use this diss anymore. it seems like BP split up unofficially given 3/4 of them are gone)

i think when he was writing horny joke music at least 1) the entire point was that they were obnoxious and offensive meme songs to some merit 2) orebanana's tuning hard carried sorry to say. if youre wondering why the tuning of his newer songs lacked that sort of spark its cuz she usually tuned rins in duets with giga, but i think she tuned both for giga most enough too, even len. tolutin antenna for example. she still does tuning jobs for others btw if youre curious. i think every song after the release of this album (basically all the gigareol stuff) sounds off because giga started tuning it himself. once you go back to listen to the songs before and after you'll realize suddenly something shifted so suddenly

also if you heard human singers drop bring it on as their own original you would rightfully call it kind of... bad. itd be up there with nct sticker. i dont think it should get a pass just because its vocal synth

anyway, it's just my opinion.

P.S. in the big essay i wrote about the vocaloid bubble bursting in 2015, i said giga was not very involved with suzumu so i discounted him from the list of victims. apparently i was really wrong! giga tuned a lot of suzumu's output. makes me wonder if giga was one of the people who ghost wrote for him, but to be honest people don't commonly count giga so i do not either. i didn't like most of suzumu's songs, nothing serious just a matter of taste, so i never noticed giga was credited under a lot of them. so that was my mistake... anyway this isn't saying giga is bad for working for him at the time just to be clear. if anything giga was probably either a victim or someone close to becoming a victim (dodged a bullet?)

#rambles

[randombubblegum]

do u have any favorite vocaloid producers :3

this was such a hard question i had to think about it for a long time...... vocaloid was all i listened to from 12 to 21 and its had such a huge influence on me it would be impossible to sum it all up but ill list some of my favorite producers!!

- maybe my favorite producer is powapowaP (rest in peace) T__T..... his music has always meant a lot to me and his death hit me really hard (he was only a year older than me)..... but regardless i love his work and i always will. i hope hes resting peacefully ;__;

- hachi!!! its fucking nuts seeing him as kenshi yonezu get sooo big.... ive been a fan of his since matryoshka came out so hearing him in the grocery store here is wild..... i love him very much

- scop!! i dont think hes making music anymore?!?! but i loooove the scratchy vocal tuning he used for miku its really distinctive

- sasakure.UK and (old) DECO*27: i like popular vocaloid producers too!! i was suuuper into deco*27 in early high school so his old stuff is still some of my favs.... same with sasakure he has such a distinctive melodic style.... his song “campanella” made me read “night on the galactic railroad” and its a book i rly love

- nayuta seijin: i got rly into them in 2017 for whatever reason and i love their space motif hehe.... their songs are on rhythm games at arcades here and i play them a lot >:)

-nekobolo: another sort of niche producer maybe but their songs are sooo pretty and the way their miku sings sticks with me.... i love it a lot.....

- nanou: he didnt make a ton of songs but “hello/how are you” is super dear to me and i like his original album “waltz of anomalies” a ton

-keeno: ok were getting real niche here but the gentle tuning he uses is so sweet to me..... also a ton of my fav utaites have covered his stuff!!!

this is just a small selection of artists ive loved over the years!!!! they all really mean a lot to me so if ur interested pls check them out :-) i also like more mainstream producers like wowaka, jin (of kagepro), mitchie M, etc but i figured i didnt need to list those. if u rly want to understand me as a person u need to grasp my vocaloid music taste honestly.... its rly precious to me hehe

#hope u dont mind i had to think abt this question for like 2 weeks #its a tall order!! how do i sum up my love.... #i had to keep a list while i thot #anyway hope this offers u a glimpse into my heart #ur lucky i didnt touch on utaites i like at all #personal #anonymous #mail time!

[ririnpoga]

Ok anyways yeah 2 am. And i just. Rambling timee

This will most def be gone tomorrow but anyways

Most of the time ive been called a villain apologist and ykw? Yeah, i am

I never felt a big enough attachment to the pure and morally white heroes, not at all. Their actions never really hitted me the way that someone who was opressed by society fighting for their own ideals hitted. In one hand you had a person with the upper hand, fighting for something the entire society believed was right, while the other fought for something they believed would be better, and i do think this is also the approach id have towards stuff anyways, because i don't want rules being pushed onto me

I wanted to form my *own* living world, and in a sense i feel this is one of the reasons of why i just. Really enjoy toga and dabi as characters

And even when they actually are fully evil? They're still great and a lot of fun! Sure, i can't fully relate but there's something so great about a villain who acts this way just because they *can*!

Still, people always told me i was in the wrong for this, and i think this is where came a very specific love and interest of mine: blank characters. Characters who have nothing on them, you are the one writing them and their story, be it on a game, story, series or anything else! They just feel so much more interesting than this because they arent someone who will be the same for everyone, and while my first experience with such a thing were rpg maker games like Ib and Yume Nikki, where the character didn't really have a strong personality and could have been seen as different interpretations... I think there's two main points i had during my life with these blank characters: undertale and vocaloid

Let me start talking by the possible simplest one to understand: all the frisk's and chara's are different from others in undertale, they're never the same. Someone can see chara as the villain who made frisk kill everyone, other sees chara as a traumatized child who watched *you*, the player, kill everyone important to them. They're blank characters, frisk themselves has no personality at *all*, just following your instructions at the game to complete it with no problems and finish a pacifist, neutral or genocide route. ALL of these frisks are different, and i think that's most noticeable by your "level" in the game, it shows that yes, it's still frisk, but something is different: they arent "good" anymore, but morally grey

They were a blank state, and you ended up filling frisk with blood

And i think this was the first time a blank character ended up getting a LOT of attention from media. Undertale is honestly amazing and i never understood why i felt so much attachment to it and these two specific characters until recently: they dont have a fixed personality, im the one who's supposed to interpret them however i want

... but then i think about vocaloid in general

People never understood when i said that "miku is one of my favorite characters" — even if that was a lie, because my favorite vocaloid is another one, miku is still extremely special to me

And why? A lot of people ask, she doesnt has any personality at all at first view, being portrayed as this cute girl or just sad teen in other songs is not like she had a fixed personality, right?

Except this is exactly why i love vocaloid as a whole, in a way

None of the characters here have a fixed and fully developed personality going for them. Sure, there are some stereotypes for some vocaloids, but they have almost 0 canon background, on some we know their profession or favorite food and that stuff but they have *no* story or personality at all... And that's what made me love them so closely

Am i feeling sad? There will be a song that i could listen to, no problem. Am i happy? Hell, let me fucking blast mitchie m and dance. Am i just feeling numb and close to dissociating? No problem, i can listen to some of wowaka's amazing work and slowly come back from it

I had everything, even when i was 9 years and just learned about it — the full range of musical styles and composers never left me, specially my favorite ones with the exception new voices — both as vocaloids and composers — came into scene, hell, i'll never forget the shock it was when i first saw my personal fave kwbdkdh

Still, i can never explain to people why it's so important to me

A community where people arent afraid to make songs about controversial and somewhat heavy topics, but still lighthearted and fun most times, with amazing artists and being the sole reason i went back to doing professional dance...

Still, i can *never* find the words

I guess that just comes with liking blank characters after all, they dont have something fix to them, people are the one who write them, and you cant do anything but end up attaching to your own personal idea of them

Anyways yeah sibdksjs 2 am i should sleep by

#morning rambles #maybe delete

[jonarchivistcansing]

So I have a magnus archives playlist

I’ve been making a long chronological Magnus Archives playlist for my own amusement (So This Is Basically The Magnus Archives) , but since season 5 is close and my college kicked everyone out i decided to Do Something Unnecessary. 

I have taken painstaking effort to not only properly organize this stupid thing with specific tma episodes, but also have documented the episodes as well as why I included the songs (under the cut). This is my Magnum Opus. I have officially pulled an all nighter to work on this. AND i’m making another playlist with songs that I wanted to keep tabs on in case I end up needing to use them as s5 comes out (here) Spoiler warning obviously

Please send me some songs if you follow the playlist and think they should be on there! 

TLDR - Grace for sale = season 1 finale; Bad Bad Things = season 2 finale; Greatest Show Unearthed = season 3 finale; Just Did a Bad Thing = Season 4 finale.

I bold the songs I added most recently. Honestly I recommend listening to the playlist first because its way fun and like referencing this if you really care about it. Please give me song suggestions or alterations! 

Song Name - MAG00 - PoV/Sung at/etc; Event. NA = Not Applicable

The Office Theme - NA

memes

Turn The Lights Off - MAG 01

The whole “Dont go in there” theme is applicable to the danger of the Angler fish, which also parallels that first statement acting as a lure for Jon

Don’t Worry We’ll Be Watching You - NA

I didn’t want to comb through to find an episode where Jon says hes being watched. I might move this somewhere else because it’s really slow for the begining of the playlist. Maybe  where he went to America

Somebody’s Watching Me - NA

Same as above + memes

Bloody Nose - MAG 17 - PoV Jared Hopworth

the boneturner’s tale statement

Grace For Sale - MAG 39 - PoV Jane Prentiss; S1 Finale

I didn’t know this was part of a whole carnival themed album when I added it, but I felt that the themes of shedding your skin and worms were relevant enough. Still looking for a good song for the s1 finale tho :/

I Don’t Trust You Anymore - MAG 40/41 - PoV Jon

Immediately after the Worm Attack, Jon realizes he can’t trust anyone in the archives.

Losing My Mind - NA - PoV Jon

Jon makes a lot of mentions of his paranoia thruout this season and I feel it just fits best here

Little Pistols - NA - PoV Jon

Same as above, but its like Really Sad because this one paints the paranoia as much more self-destructive. 

Afraid - MAG 77 - Multi PoV/Sasha

Jon just realized the NotSasha replaced Sashsa. Could be from Sasha or NotSasha or even Jon realizing the implications a shapeshifting creature, just fkcn love the chorus for the whole NotSasha fiasco

Mr Capgras - MAG 78/79 - Sung by the NotThem

Jon’s a huge idiot and the NotThem is Out For Blood 

Bad Bad Things - MAG 80 - PoV Elias; S2 Finale

Bitch boy Murkd Leitner and Gertrude and he’s an asshole for it

Its not overly literal but i think some characters in the song could be interpreted as Leitner and Gertrude, with the POV Elias speaking to Jon. 

I’m Not Ok - MAG 81 - PoV Jon

Georgie pls....help this nasty man

The Cult of Dionysus - NA

Honestly this isn’t very specific at all there’s just a lot more cult activity in this season and this song lines up well with the next few

Rejoice - MAG 89 - PoV Jude Perry/Lightless Flame

this ep is jude’s statement and this is a Good cult song

Bust Your Kneecaps - MAG 67 - PoV Agnes Montague

Keeps with the theme better here than in order with s2. Statement of cafe boy who tried to romance Agnes that one time

Are Things Still Burning - MAG 67/89 - PoV Agnes Montague

You’ll get it.

I’m Gonna Win - MAG 101 - PoV Gertrude or Michael

Really connect this song with gertrude’s Bad Bitch energy and MAG 101 is the episode where we really get a scope of how morally gray she is

But the overall cocky tone of the song is real good for Michael

The Distortionist - MAG 101 - PoV Michael

this ep is Michael’s statement. 

Its kind of hard to tell because of the vocaloid, but the song's character seems to have been pushed and  manipulated into something like Michael. I can see the song shifting from Michael singing about how Gertrude created him into accepting it and them singing at Jon

Has wayyyyy too much Spiral imagery to not include

Seven Devils - MAG111 - PoV Gerard Kaey

this is the ep where Gerard properly explains the fears to Jon

Dirty Night Clowns - MAG 104 - PoV Tim Stoker?

sort of Tim about his brother

Blood End Credits - no MAG/MAG 119 - PoV Tim Stoker

god i miss tim. I don’t think it translates exactly to 119, but it’s more of the climax of his character arch. He’s literally given everything to the Institute and to Elias and now he has to fucking die? FUck.  

Greatest Show Unearthed - MAG 139 - PoV Nikola/The Circus

This one is literal lol. u can figure it out

My Time - MAG 120/121 - Sung about Jon

*Mable pines picture* “He’s resting”

Who Are You, Really? - MAG 121 - Sung at/for Jon

Jon has to decide whether to let himself die human or risk becoming a monster to protect the people he loves*

*Martin

Cold Cold Man - MAG 124 - PoV Jon

This is the first time Jon and Martin have seen each other since he woke, and I think really the first time Jon has sought out Martin because he just...wanted to see him

Ruler of Everything - MAG 124 - PoV Martin

This is Martin’s side of the exchange he and Jon had. This is where he started pushing Jon away (Shot as wily one/only friend), and Peter is making him into the “ruler of everything” aka running the Institute, and just doing his best to go one day at a time until whatever Peter has planned gets done

Catabolic Seed - MAG 125 - PoV Melanie

Honestly, I just really wanted this song for melanie. The Magnus Institute is taking too much out of her, making her into a hollow, and she’s just trying to keep herself together with emotional duct tape

Body - MAG 131 Build Up - PoV Jon

I see this as the culmination of Jon’s survival guilt and desperation to make himself worthy of humanity again. Since he has a healing factor now, he has no sense of self-preservation and is willing to sacrifice his entire body to make himself worthy of humaity.

Skeleton Appreciation Day - MAG 131 - PoV Jared Hopworth

THE MEATBONE MANNNN

What Am I Becoming? - MAG 146/147 - PoV Jon

It hurts

in 146 Jon admited to Basira, Daisy, and Melanie confronted him about his live feedings. 147 Jon realises that he doesn’t want to stop feeding

Human - Mag 147/152 - For Jon

Couldn’t decide where this goes chronologically, but these in these two eps jon is seriously debating his humanity and disturbed that he even needs to do that 

Isle Unto Thyself - NA 

 this fits....somewhere in this season. I believe i see this as Jon singing about Martin’s isolation, but really its just applicable to their whole situation

Train Remastered - MAG 154 - PoV Jon

a fukn EASY one FINALLY. 

THis bitch is Jon asking Martin to blind himself with Jon so they can run away together. Their romantic arcs got me feeling all sorts of ways

No Eyed Girl - MAG 157

this is so literal lmao its just Melanie and Georgie

Not Human - MAG 158 - About Daisy

She’s spent so long serving the Hunt and trying to undo its power over her, and she really just Did That(tm) for her friends. We stan a werewolf queen

Monster - Many MAGs

honestly can fit Martin, Jon, Melanie and Daisy at different points, but i think its a good end to Daisy’s character arc currently

Ship In A Bottle - MAG 159 - About Martin and Peter

I like to see this as the climax of Martin’s Loneliness and his relationship with Peter as well as like the culmination of Peter’s deal with Elias and Martin’s Deal with Peter

It’s Alright - MAG 159 - To Jon and Martin

Jon Rescued Martin from the Lonely and is finally able to have a purpose and they are allowed to Be Okay

Honeybee - MAG 160 - PoV Jon

WE STAN TRUE LOVE AND SATISFYING ROMANCE IN THIS HOUSEEEEEEE

Great Vacation - Thematic transition

If Honeybee was the first 2 minutes of 160, then we know what’s coming next. The Scottish Cottage isn’t a vacation

Just Did A Bad Thing - MAG 160

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Its the end of the world as we know it - Season 5 trailer

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#The Magnus Archives spoilers #the magnus archvies #tma #tma s5

[gyoomie]

sometimes i miss how active the vocaloid fandom was and how it wasn't dead. at all... but then i remember the ship discourse over rinlen and i sit back and think "thank fucking god i don't gotta deal with that anymore" y'kno.. it's a very conflicting life for me

right?? and there was so much discourse over lenrin that it kinda felt like “hm. which one are we having today” sjhdsjdsd

but i dont think vocaloid is dead - there are new producers coming in here and there, and old producers like deco are still around to help water our crops (he just dropped a new song recently !!!). the art scene is still thriving, and even though im only on the outskirts i can see that the fandom is alive and well on various platforms.

its just that the focus of the fandom and content creation has shifted. we moved from vocaloid as characters (creative room for hcs for personalities, character interactions, pairings, etc) to vocaloid as a medium (a means to express a political stance, to make and/or listen to music, to create shitposts/memes, etc). ship discourse, then, doesnt really have much of a place in our current focus… unfortunately,,

#that being said i dont believe its a BAD shift per say #its bc of this shift that we now see ppl credit 'producer - song ft. miku' #and not 'miku - song' #but i feel u hsjdjhsd its def v conflicting #anon #gyoomiereplies

[special-grade-fujioshi]

1,2,3 for the identity asks?

1)  if someone wanted to really understand you, what would they read, watch, and listen to? 

To read for sure les mis. its one of my earliest and most enduring fandoms and the plot of it really appeals to me in a way i cant elaborate on without sounding pretentious. For listening “sleepless” and “this must be the place” are my comfort songs atm that really speak to me. also im aware this is really cringe but even tho i dont listen to vocaloid anymore i think PinnochioP is a good producer and his lyrics mean a lot to me, like even if I dont sit down and listen to his stuff over and over I still look at every new vid he puts out and several of his songs have lyrics that I consider “me” (everything about animals, whats inside, and zero I particularly like but I’ll warn you they’re super grating on the ears if u dont like vocaloid)

2)  have you ever found a writer who thinks just like you? if so, who? 

No. I’ve been reading a lot less than I used to and its mostly like really old short stories and nonfiction which I like but it isn’t how I think. Honestly I think I prefer to read stuff thats written by people who think differently than me, I like reading to bring me to a different headspace.

3)  list your fandoms and one character from each that you identify with.

We’ll be here all day if I do all my fandoms so I’ll just do a few of my top ones: 

Star Trek: Bones McCoy I adore him i love how he looks like a corpse and most of his treatments are just amphetamines. 

Star Wars: i dont identify with anyone from star wars but my cc is rex i would die for him 

Fallout: the closest ive ever come to kinning someone is arcade gannon (dont draw any parallels between this, my star trek cc and my choice of career path lmao)

[exile-vilify]

its been a while since ive talked to someone through my vent blog, and im not even sure if youll see this, since i don't really know if you even know about this blog in the first place but

i just feel bad. i feel bad because i think about russell so much more than i think about you. i think about him and what he did, and i think about how much i miss him, and how him leaving was so much more devastating than any "real" breakup I've gone through

i think about how i wasn't good enough for him to stay, and i think about what i could've done differently if only to get to still talk to him.

i think about making salmon and sweet potato fries and fried chicken with him and i think about watching Bojack with him. i think about the smell of patchouli and lavender permeating the room, about finding bones on the railroad tracks. listening to that one vocaloid song 500 times over together because it was just so good.

i think about the time he drew me katsuki, because i hated my body and i just wanted to stay in that binder that was a little too small, but he was worried about the danger of doing that. i think about the time i was really sick and stuck in the top bunk, so he made me chicken noodle soup from the can even though he couldn't stand the smell and it made him feel sick.

i think about the first time we actually hung out, and walked to Publix and we got peach tea and raspberry tea, and guava juice boxes. i think about drawing together and checking the pound on chicken smoothie.

and at the back of my mind there's two distinct voices reminding me that

he's not here anymore.

and that

i should be focusing on you. but i can't. and it's tearing me apart.

i shouldnt feel uncomfortable when i think about cuddling with you, or kissing you, but i cant shake the discomfort that sweeps through me when i try to be physically affectionate with you either.

maybe im just broken. but this isn't your problem to fix.

but in all this. guilt. ive started to emotionally detach myself from you. i can admire the thought of being with you, and everyone else even, but only from a distance, far away enough so i don't get hurt again. so i don't hurt anyone else the way i hurt him, or kaylie, or brooke or everyone else

i don't want to go through it again.

i can't go through it again.

im sorry it took me so long to say anything about this. i was,, am scared that youll think i dont love you when the truth is that i love you *so* much. i just cant get past this fucking. problem.

i dunno.

#.catra speaks #.for an angel

[groundramon]

for the ask the blogger thing... ☂ - favorite season? ✐ - fave types of movies? ♪ - music you like?✌ - favorite bands/ singers? ♒ - fave animes? ❦-.fave characters? ღ - mottos? I'm spamming u with those sorry

SHHH NO I LOVE BEING SPAMMED WITH QUESTIONS SO THANK YOU

Also thank you for including the questions with the emojis that makes this 10x easier for me lmao

anYWAYS

☂ - favorite season?Winter!!  Nice and cool AND you dont have school for two weeks lmao

✐ - fave types of movies?Generally animated; I enjoy animation and movie animation tends to be consistently pretty high-quality (even the fucking emoji movie looks pretty decent) not to mention live action movies always seem to have really bad sound mixing??  Meaning important things you NEED to hear like whispering are too quiet and explosions are too loud even when you dont change the tv volume.  But even then, saying I prefer animated movies isn’t exactly accurate because….I haven’t gone to the theater for a single animated movie this year.  The only ones so far that I would’ve considered were Lego Batman (which I have on dvd now but i havent watched) and Cars 3.  I’m hoping to see Coco in theaters but other than that….i can wait for it on dvd or just not watch it at all because I’d prefer to rewatch a movie I like.

I also dont like calling animated movies a genre, so if we’re going by genre, I’d say fantasy-adventure stories tend to be my favorites, but sci-fi can be fun as well.  I just want a good, heartfelt story that doesn’t take itself so seriously that you can’t have fun but also takes itself seriously enough that you really feel for the characters.

♪ - music you like?GOD I WISH I KNEW??  I’ll literally listen to everything from vocaloid to mainstream pop to techno music to video game OSTs and everything in-between and outside of that.  I’m generally more picky with rap music, techno/electronic music, and just anything that gets screechy or is too intense with its instrumentals, but….I can listen to hard metal music when im trying to fall asleep at night, so i mean.

✌ - favorite bands/ singers?Again, god I wish I knew.  I have a tendency to think “oh, this is alright, I’ll listen to a few of this artist’s songs” and then moving on and never thinking about them again.  One artist that I’ve come back to repeatedly is Sabrina Carpenter though, her music is nice and a few of her songs are some of my all-time faves, its probably not for people who cant stand mainstream pop tho.  Also shout out to Mystery Skulls for officially licensing Mystery Skulls animated instead of taking them down for copyright infringement lmao also their music is some of the techno music that i actually like

♒ - fave animes?I havent watched enough animes aaAAAA but I will always and forever love Digimon.  Like I dont think any anime will surpass the personal attachment I have to the Digimon series.  It’s just so silly and charming and for a long time it was the best thing I had ever seen and it’s honestly still just….really enjoyable.  (Honestly it gives me fossil fighters vibes, I think I like them both for the same reason tbh)  Digimon Adventure is definitely my favorite, Tamers is really good but I actually have a bit of a personal bias against Tamers because it scared me as a kid :’D its still a good season tho and i appreciate it a lot more now that im older.  And FRONTIER IS ACTUALLY GOOD, PEOPLE CAN FIGHT ME it’s got the same vibe as the first four seasons, even if the concept seems vastly different, and is really enjoyable if you arent blinded by your love for the digimon partners in the old series.  After that though its kinda….ehhh.  Data Squad and Fusion didnt have the same feel, although Fusion did it much better, but…its just not the same.  I really dislike Marcus so it makes Data Squad less enjoyable, plus i just…idk, it doesnt seem to have as much life as the first four seasons and is written and animated in a different way to me.  Fusion is kinda interesting in the second arc (ive only seen the first three arcs; the third arc/seventh season [idk which it is] hasnt been dubbed yet so…) but it takes itself too seriously because it removes its primary comic reliefs - and also the best characters - after the end of the first arc.  So we’re left with the Digimon as the only comic reliefs and….ehhh….theyre not as good.  Also I havent seen the Appmon anime and idk how good it is but im still salty that they stole the name of the project that ive had floating around in the back of my head for years so i havent done anything related to Appmon.  AND Digimon Tri is good but i still need to catch up on it ahaha cries (planning to get a trial at crunchyroll to watch the last two parts when the last part comes out)

But enough about Digimon.  Besides Digimon, I really did enjoy Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood; I do have some gripes with the series (namely the earlier episode and how much happens in the earlier episodes vs how much happens in the later episodes, so pacing problems basically) but it’s still really good and I LOVE AL.  There was an anime I watched with my dad several years back called Blue Dragon that I remembered enjoying a lot, but then disowning because it turns out in the original my favorite character was a perfect example of the anime pervert trope.  Dubs are fun lmao.  But I feel like I’d pick up more on the changes they made between the two versions now (the sub version being riddled with swears and innuendos, and the dub version being dubbed for kids) and probably wouldnt enjoy it as much anymore.  I also barely remember shit about it except a plot twist at the end that i spoiled for myself but still had no idea it was coming.  I was like 11 when i watched it, its been a long time.

❦-.fave characters?Well I already mentioned loving Al, but I also love Pidge from VLD, Amanda from Dream Daddy, Baymax and Hiro from BH6, and Napstablook from Undertale.  Also like all of the main characters in Fossil Fighters Champions but shhh.

I really want to add Hunk to this list but honestly as the seasons in VLD go on it becomes more and more apparent to me that he’s just a running fat joke; Lance looks like he could be building up to something, but I haven’t got a clue where Hunk could go besides more of the same.  So :’) my boy deserves better, he can join the group again when Dreamworks gets its shit together.  Sorry Hunk, I still love you and I’d treat you better if you were mine (//looks at my characters all burning in hell and sweats// well maybe not better but…)

ღ - mottos?Uhhh idk?  Does this mean like, mottos I follow, catchphrases I use a lot, or inspirational quotes?  Idk I’ll give all three

I try to live my life by the policy of “do to others as you would have them do to you.”  That’s like my number 1 rule about doing anything.  I dont understand how people can be intentionally dicks to other people or so something that they would hate happening to them; what, dont you realize that other people have the same feelings as you?  I know I’ve hurt other people but still, it’s always been in instances where the pros outweighed the cons if I put themselves in their shoes.

As for catchphrases I use a lot, probably “mood” or “god same” because this site has completely broken my sense of anything

As for inspirational quotes, well here are some copy-pasted directly from my dA page:

“No man deserves to be trapped in jelly.” - Rupert from Fossil Fighters Champions“what motivates Scart? That’s right: the nut” - Tumblr user claratyler“I am slowly going crazy” - Dr. Jean, songwriter of children’s music and my lord and savior“I’m still mad at Seth McFarlane btw but im more concerned with my tree cookies” - me“I was out of the third bean” - Yolei’s mom from Digimon Adventure 02

#stormy answers #thanks for the ask!!!

[perfectcrimeloveletters]

Tagged by @yumenosakiacademy​ ~ 

RULES: answer all questions, add one question of your own and tag as many people as there are questions.  I won’t tag anyone directly, but if anyone wants to, feel free~ (Does anyone even know this many people?) 

Putting it under a readmore since it’s kinda long. ^^; 

coke or pepsi: neither! i don’t drink them. 

disney or dreamworks: i don’t watch many movies so i don’t know. 

coffee or tea: tea! tea is tastier, especially with honey, but i’ll still have coffee sometimes... if it’s really sweet!

books or movies: books! movies are too long... 

windows or mac: windows~

dc or marvel: i don’t read either. 

xbox or playstation: don’t play either. 

dra/gon age or mass ef/fect: never played either. 

night owl or early riser: night owl! the night is my domain, >:3

cards or chess: i don’t really play with either. cards if tarot counts for that though. :o 

chocolate or vanilla: vanilla!

vans or converse: don’t wear either. 

lavellan, trevelyan, cadash, or adaar: n/a (don’t play)

fluff or angst: fluff tbh, i like angst too (especially hanahaki) but fluff’s soft n calm. 

beach or forest: forest! i love exploring forested areas~

dogs or cats: cats mya~!

clear skies or rain: clear skies. (but fog is better than Both of those)

cooking or eating out: aa i can’t cook, but i don’t really like eating out either... um, random food grabbed from the fridge? ; w ; 

spicy food or mild food: mild food. 

halloween/samhain or solstice/yule/christmas: halloween~ it’s the only time i can wear my ears n tail and no one asks questions!

would you rather forever be a little too cold or a little too hot: both sound bad aa... i’m always cold though, but at least like this i can cozy up in blankets? when you’re too hot you can’t do Anything. 

if you could have a superpower, what would it be: shapeshifting or invisibility! i don’t want anyone to be able to see me, but i also want to regain my cat form? :<

animation or live action: animation!

paragon or renegade: aa if this is a game thing i don’t know it. 

baths or showers: showers, i guess? i like baths, but then the water gets all soapy n grimy, so just standing in the shower is warm. 

team cap or team ironman: neither. 

fantasy or sci-fi: fantasy for sure. 

do you have three or four favourite quotes? if so what are they: i don’t really know any off the top of my head, but... this one, maybe? i can’t find 3-4, though.  “And even once you get back up after you’ve been completely broken down, you’ve already become a different person. You can glue a cracked diamond back together, but it’s no longer valuable.” - Izumi Sena

youtube or netflix: youtube.

harry po/tter or percy jack/son: harry potter. i like both, though. 

when you feel accomplished: when i full combo a song on my first try, draw something half-decent, or memorize a song, i guess. 

star w/ars or star t/rek: neither.

paperback books or hardback books: i don’t really care.

horror or rom-com: neither honestly. but it also heavily depends on the plot and characters. some romcoms suck and some are as great as gekkan shoujo nozaki-kun, y’know? 

to live in a world without literature or music: i don’t understand what this is trying to say, but that world would suck. 

pastel colours or dark colours: both are nice. 

tv shows or movies: i don’t know. i don’t really watch either. unless anime counts as a tv show. 

city or countryside: city.

if any other zodiac sign could describe you, what would it be: i don’t know. i guess i’m similar to aquarius at times since i was almost one. 

if you could only listen to one album for the rest of your life what would it be: that would be unpleasant. but one of kikuo’s albums, i guess. 

cinema or theatre: neither. 

if you could be any fictional character’s best friend, who’d you be: that’s. difficult. i know any character would just dislike me, so i dont want to force them to be with me. but len and i are always linked anyway, so him i guess. 

smiling or smirking: both? i don’t know. 

are you an ‘all or nothing’ type or are you more consistent: i don’t entirely understand. consistent, perhaps?

playlists or your whole library on shuffle: both...? my saved music is nice though. 

travelling or staying at home: staying at home Please... that’s all i want. 

books or fanfiction: fanfiction probably, i just don’t have the time/energy/focus to read books anymore. 

If you could live in a fantasy world, what world would it be: there are too many to choose... vocaloid has no canon either, but, that digital landscape, sort of, maybe...? 

What fictional character do you think you’re like? Bonus- Give reasons: there are a lot i’m similar to...? and different aspects of me are similar to different characters... er, yuno gasai is the character i Most relate to, no reasons to give... i’m like tsuribari since i’m sulky and like reading and quiet places, i’m like kuro/sleepy ash because i’m grumpy, hate sunlight, am a black cat, and like sleeping...? there are a few others, but eh... 

What plushie of yours are you closest to?: Calico, my calico cat webkinz. She’s my friend and is with me whenever I’m at home. There’s also a newer plushie I’m close with who’s a soft blue rabbit that has a bell inside that rings when you move it, their name’s Bluebell...  

#rinsrandomrambles #interaction? maybe? #sorry my energy drastically dropped in the middle so the answers sound. kinda different...