#i dont think its going to be done by tomorrow :(

[b4kuch1n]

fuck it sk8 sketches from da sketchbook. get sk8ed idiot

#sk8 the infinity #kyan reki #hasegawa langa #renga #sure whatever. tagging ship is probably easier than explaining what the fucks up with these two in my head #hi. I watched sk8 with my friend cosme a while ago. I actually dont care about the allegations that much I just got #blasted with teenage years flashback. and now I need reki to have everything on earth and be well #these have been around for like a week lol Ive just been debating posting them to tumblr. bc like. Im not finishing these lol #hesitant to call sk8 ''therapeutic'' but boy oh boy. does it make me confront some stuff. yes a sport anime leave me alone!!! #its just. I think I was this way about raz too actually. listen I have History with Stuff. I'm allowed ok? I'm totally allowed #u can See it in some of these doodles actually. this fuckign anime got me so unwell #hey. if ur a fellow adhd potentials-havers out there. ur a real one. thanks for still hangin out doin what u love/ur best #if u were an 'if u wanna do art u have to be excellent and high-art at it otherwise it means nothing' kid. I am holding ur hand #I'll be normal now I prommy (lying) #well. what I'll be doing now is taking a nap. maybe. gods my schedule backslid like four hours again #eh whatever. I go to bed anyway. got my portion of the day done and tomorrow I go buy new knife #hope someone come give me a new table top and lower the whole thing a bit soon. so I can stop sitting like Im in a shopping cart #have a good night lads. have fun. its imperative

[blackgoddesssworld]

You guys need to grow up.... it's really not that deep

#watcher #ryan bergara #shane madej #steven lim #we are watcher #i think its sad seeing so many people have a breakdown over three people. Your day/life shouldn't depend on them. #go touch grass #i understand not wanting to buy the subscription but you shouldnt be writing whole essays over it like its going to change anything #At the end of the day you dont know these people in real life to be saying shit like “Oh the old shane would never do this” when you dont #know who that man is and you never will #so stop crying over it and go back to work #all this pouting better be done by tomorrow #grow up

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#ugh. im so tried. why is crying so exhausting? i havent done anything. this is bullshit #we went from a slow motion breakdown to full on freakout meltdown today #luckily no one was around in the lab this morning bc i couldnt stop crying #so i went to the counseling center and made myself their problem #canceled my committee meeting. which everyone tells me is fine. its all fine #think about going home for a while they say. maybe tell ur dad ur having a bad time thry say #but im so tired. and i dont kno what to do and its all falling apart #i just feel like im brushing up against the limits of what i can do intellectually and its like well where do i go from here? #what do i do with my old data? how do i move my project forward? whats the point of any of this? #why did i put myself in this position? would taking a leave even help? id still have to come back to the same mess #its just so frustrating bc theres no solution ill find satisfying. everything just sucks. #idk what my advisor even told my committee. bc we were supposed to meet tomorrow morning. ugh. it would have been so bad #it also sucks bc im so drained that i can just feel my own weight when im trying to talk to ppl #like u kno when ur being a wet blanket but u dont kno how to fix it. like srry my vibes r wretched. maybe im just stuck like this #i dunno. my dad invited us home for a week in july and also plans to come out to visit me in August. but that seems like a long time away #i dunno what im gonna do. what a disaster #unrelated

[falldogbombsthemoon]

Yall haha, my dad made it so I have wifi access for one hour a day. which I can use from like 14 to 21 german time. So once my mobile data is dead, I will not be active that much ig. So please dont think I'm abandoning yall.

#vent following #its fucking ridiculous. im not a fucking child. neither is my brother #no idea what my dad wants to achieve through that. “so you can relaxe more” yeah no. being on the internet is my fucking coping mechanism. #there is nothing about relaxation there. also he did that so we'll to go sleep earlier. if it really was about that. #he would need to force me to sleep. you cant just change my sleep schedule by that #anyway its fucking ridiculous as i was on a good way of getting to sleep more early but if imma do that now he will think like #“wow. im such a good dad. i fixed all the problems my child could possibly have.” which is absolutely not the case #yk. ive always fucking struggled with feeling like people cant trust me. #and him not trusting my abilities to be responsible for myself is not helping #and then boom. im feeling shitty but wait haha my coping mechanism is currently set offline. #and like also im in extra stress atm bc school is fucking with me #not only are like a bunch of tests on the way but my fucking anxiety in school is getting so bad. #i cant sit in that facility without feeling like imma have a panic attack any minute #i am in need of fucking professional mental help. and at least one diagnosis. i dont want to do shit to myself. #but in this house hold. emotions are not talked about. feelings are suppressed and mental health is an illusion #i NEED to see a fucking psychiatrist. but i dont feel like i can to my parents about that. and technically i could go without them knowing #but someone needs to educate them. and i mentally cant be that someone #and guess whos sitting in their room crying and writing about that rn. not studying for their tests tomorrow and the day after. #i bet if my parents wouldnt have done that shit with my wifi i would be studying rn #quinns daily yapping post #rather #quinns personal hell

[roachemoji]

#bo posting #talky #ouughggough #uh mmm #ahhhHHHH #eeougiigHGHGHAHHH #I have to go to a drs appointment tomorrow #and i am very scared of going alone after that man harrased me in the parking lot #like TERRIFIED of running into him again #to the point I dont like leaving the house alone #so i asked my roomie to come with my to my appointment #but i #i think i want to go alone #i dont think i can handle it if something upsets her #when im stressed i jump into overdrive when it comes to people pleasing #so instead of putting all my energy into not forgetting to get everything i need done #im gonna be focused on making sure SHES ok #even if im struggling #thats not like on her or anything its a me problem #but the solution is either ignore it if her mood drops bc i have no spoons #or just go alone and be scared #i went alone last time and i was scared #and it turned out fine i even went to the docks #i wanna go to the docks again tomorrow and i dont think she'll wanna come with me #i know that the simplest solution rn is just go alone #but im scared to tell her that #like yeah id rather be scared and alone than have you come with me #that??? is so shitty #thats shitty right?????

[potatobugz]

uh. uh . uhhhm. here take a bunch of out of context wips from a comic im making. I've been making. ..........for the past four days.

#south park #sp #wip #not tagging the characters in this one cuz im not done yet #featuring two unnamed characters that arent in the showni just made them up (thumbsup) #guys this js gonna be so god damn cheesy im loving it so far though #cant write fanfiction so i gotta draw comics #I WISH THE DAY WAS LONGER BWAAA if i dont go to sleep before 12 tonoght im gonna have the worst time of my life tomorrow (eepy) #but i wanna draw. for ten hours. whyyy must physical limits be a thing grraagh so lame #pip finds damien and they become friends but for real this time bottom text #ive been calling it pip dies and goes to hell because idk what else to name it. and i think its funny #I HAVENT EVEN GOTTEN TO THE PART WHETE THEY ACTUALLY MEET YET AIVSJAHSJ #potatart

[gemharvest]

(id in alt - do not repost)

Ekubo Week: Day 1 (Friendship) @dimpleweek

#artings #dimple week #mp100 #mob psycho 100 #ekubo #kageyama shigeo #reigen arataka #arataka reigen #shigeo kageyama #dimple #first things first pretend i am not posting this late. back was killing me today so it took until fucking. 9pm for me to get to this #and then i decided to still go through with painting it which i think looks sick as hell.... but also my hand huuurrrts i shouldnt have #done that... blegh ah well #also i misspelled expletives despite literally googling how it was spelled..... in my defense it is 1am #also mentioning that it is 1am i might touch up the alt text in the morning bc i have no clue if its good or not #but i want this posted now so i dont get the luxury of waiting until morning to write it #ANYWAYS. tomorrows maayyyy be a little later again since i have shit going on but i am REALLY excited for the prompt..... #hopefully not past-midnight late but well see

[the-kipsabian]

you know its time to go to bed when the sad thoughts start rolling in

#im just living with the realization that fanfiction will always be an under appreciated art form. writing in general tbh #like visual arts will always be looked as superior cause they are bite-sized and take no time to consume and whatnot #im not saying one is more valuable than the other they are both important but from consumption pov #and then all that with where i am right now with creative stuff and its just like... #im making some of my best work ive ever done and im so happy to be writing. i feel great about it and it makes me so happy #but then again. there used to be art. that ppl actually maybe looked at and liked more. even if it is/was subpar and like. yeah #i dont know. i just feel like written works should be more appreciated. like i totally understand that they take a lot more to consume #but at the same time i feel like thats an excuse but what do i know i have too much time in my hands and i still miss stuff #anyways. yeah it just. personally makes me sad. making the stuff i love so much right now but cause its in written form its just #i mean i miss drawing. i think. i dont know. but i also love writing so SO much more #anyways this makes no sense im just sad now im gonna go to bed good night. dont know whats gonna come out of me tomorrow #night is an absolute mess on main

[yearningheart]

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#so uhhh im pregnant lmao #im doing fine its not affecting me all that much but #i would appreciate if anyone that has had an abortion #or knows someone that has had one #can tell me abt their experiences in regards to physical pain and stuff #im looking at abortion pills bc i think it's only been like 3 weeks so #my pain threshold is so low and i have exams soons so im kinda. scared #hoping that everything works out smoothly 😭😭😭 i dont know GOD #also obviously i've done research and im going to a clinic tomorrow for consultation i just wanted firsthand experience #also abortion is illegal where im currently living so 😗✌️

[xawkward-ariesx]

Stop writing so I won't be tired for my first day back to classes tomorrow -> stay awake thinking about the fic unable to write it and unable to sleep

#ace writes sometimes #writing thoughts #IL #pray for me lads #i have a 9am lecture tomorrow and i want to be well rested but im turning that fic over in my head like its stuck on a roundabout #you guys havent even seen intrinsically linked but i love her #this is the first decent chunk of writing ive done in a minute i dont want to sleep and break that progress but alas #edit: i stayed awake until after half 5 thinking about the fic #i read an entire fic to distract me and still couldnt go to sleep or stop thinking about it after that #and then my alarm went off at 7 and ive never been so mad at getting what i want i want motivation to write so bad and now its haunting me

[jaarijani]

Hei, how are you feeling? Are you still sick? <3

yeah still beating back the flu with a shovel but slowly getting better, but for now feeling kinda shitty still 😩 i think i may have bruised my ribs a little from coughing so much so thats fucking painful, but i'm coughing less and my fever's gone down a lot today! I had some pancakes and soup for dinner it was nice ☺️

thank you for asking lintu ily <3

#i have thesis things to do tomorrow but ive already mailed my teachers that im too sick to function #its an evaluation thingy but ive already done AND PASSED it TWICE before so it should be fine #technically i dont think i have to go #so im staying home and in bed and getting some more rest for now 😌

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#ok. this is the fucking bullshit thing abt grad school. u go to fucking grad school bc u r a fucking tryhard nerd freak #who is either naturally very smart or ur so fucking anxious u r incapable of allowing urself to get a bad grad #and then u go to fucking grad school and everyone's like: man fuck ur classes. if youre getting streight As then u aren't focusing on ur #research. and theyre right. but u still cant fucking let go of the idea that if u get a bad grad the world is gonna fucking end and u r a #bad person. u didnt try hard enough. all this to say i have a final project that i put way too much energy into and not even in a good way #i would just open the document. start sobbing. and then close it and spiral abt how i didn't want to work on it. so its bullshit #i mean. its a good project idea ans i probably sound like i kno wtf im talking abt bc i do. i worked on that topic for 4 years but like #i could make it wayyyyy better. its bullshit. i didnt even number the citations to give more page space. i made section headers. i didnt #wrap text. i could add like 4 more lines of text if i wanted but i think im not gotta bc fuck it. ugh. i dont even. i fucking avoide #stochastic stuff altogether which i kno im gonna have to fight abt but like fuck it who cares abt randomness. i just wanna focus on the #predictably aspect of community composition. fuck u. i shouldnt have picked this topic. i mean. i had to bc its like the one microbe thing #i could do but its also like the exact topic that makes me wanna rip my hair out and start screaming. like jesus christ who tf cares? ugh. #i think id give myself a B if it was an undergrad class. but the standard is higher in an all grad class. ugh. i hate this. i should just #send it abd be done. i dont even kno when its due tomorrow. before class i guess. idk i felt like garbage today. fucking vertigo bby. i feel #ok now tho. so maybe the allergic reacting is over???? fingers r still arthritisy tho. jesus. im falling apart #ive got a pretty good sounding excuse for being lazy tho: owo i had an allergic reaction to my antidepressants 🥳 but nah no excuses we run #this body into the ground. like the good old days. #unrelated

[the-gayest-sky-kid]

like im just saying they should invent a family that doesn't make you want to kill yourself

#and a school system while theyre at it #or just a me that wouldn't make me want to kill myself #just like. without all the problems that make it impossible to exist in normal society as myself #i know technically its possible for me to have a future but goddammit i dont see one okay #i havent made a single goddamn real life connection since middle school and now we're so distant i barely remember whos who on discord #thats not to mention how I've just been on the edge of every friendgroup anyway. including that one #im just some fucking loser. im not going to fucking graduate my only career aspiration is a goddamn pipe dream and if i dont fucking kill #myself by then im going to be stuck living with my family forever and we're not going to be seeing eye to eye. #all ive ever done is dig myself a deep grave and then tether other people to me to drag them down too #i love you all but i dont know how you see me as anything but gross and annoying and weirdly fucking clingy okay #i just #i dont know what im fucking doing #i wish i did. i wish i knew but i dont. and it feels like everyone else has figured out how things work and im just supposed to do that too #but i cant. i fucking cant and it keeps getting worse and i keep getting worse and i keep making it worse for my family while im at it #i miss being able to imagine doing stuff tomorrow. or in an hour #i miss being able to wash the dishes and not having to think about stabbing myself with fucking cutlery #i miss being able to show my mother my report card #but its my fucking fault im in this mess in the first place #and i just cant fucking try enough. or at all #aethers rants #cw vent #cw sui ideation #personal posts and stuff idk

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

SENDING MY FIRST ASK FROM THE NEW BLOG!!!! i feel like i am sending a letter from a new address... crazy. ANYWAY HOW R U TONIGHT!!!! i hope ur havin a good day!!!! kicking my feet like a teenager at a sleepover rn tell me abt ur day who r the blorbos in ur mind rn what kinda art r u workin on lately how's it going friend!!!

HIIIIIII HI HI . HELLO SHADOW THE HEDGEHOG- i mean catboy cellbit!!! . dude i am. dreading the coming week tbh but it is fine !! we will get thru it we will survive!!! i am so sleepytired but alas i also cannot sleep so i may just have another night of reading and music ahead of me . wah. i hope u are hsving a good night <3 IVE BEEN COMPLETELY ART NERFED TOO BTW. my laptop died on me a couple days ago and while i was able to find a new one affordably it will not be here until the 13th 😔 so no digital art from me for a while. sigh. i DID just decorate my new sketchbook with stickers tho so im hoping that will get my brain in gear for traditional art again. AS FOR BLORBOS. oh . u know. the usuals. vash the stampede. zacharie from off . masky marblehornets (also tim marblehornets) . to name three of them.

#who are ur blorbos rn. i dont watch qsmp i think sering ur posts abt it are really funny bc im like. guy walks into the room on fire gif. #i have no idea whats going on in here congratulations and/or my condolences <3 #thank u thank u i love the sleepover vibes. literally had gossip talk w one of my other friends earlier #(name withheld for reasons but if u see this u know who u are and i love u ) #so the vibes are so correct #i have 2 work tomorrow :( not looking forward 2 that. #however it IS my last day of my long term overnight job which means i will be able to sleep in my own bed tomoerow night. #this is something i have not done for like. close to a month now. whcih is why ive been sleeping so awfully! so hopefully that fixes me #also have. job interview on wednesday for another aquarium place.. #fingers crossed this goes better than my last one but also part of me is kind of hoping it doesnt go well #bc i hate transitional periods and i dont want 2 go thru the moving process again #and i dont want 2 meet a bunch of new ppl all at once again. and do the while job training thing. #alas that is the anxiety talkimg and i do actually want the job bc it would be good for me <3 #sorry it is late and im soooo fucking sleepy so im rambling !!!! do not feel like u have to respond to . gestures vaguely at all that #its blorbo talk time. i desperately want 2 warch more mh right now #however the house im.staying in IS in the middle of the woods and very isolated and i have been so scared and paranoid #so i am OUTTA LUCK sigh. i will simply watch smth silly instead like gg tmph or david attenborough or perhaps spongebob will b on the tv. #asks #friends!!! #false-anachronism #<< oh fuck new url!!! i got like halfway thru typing ur old one before i was like WAIT SHIT.

[kellystar321]

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#periodical life updates #(<- NUMBER 3!!!) I FINISHED THE ANIMATION AND EVERYTHING FOR THAT PROJECT AND SENT IT OFF! super excited!! #it looks really cute! i tried my best and im mostly satisfied of where i landed <33 #it's my little sibling's birthday today!! it's also the first official meeting of lgbt club!! (the other event was a fun lgbt mixer) #my backpack smells bad. like mildew or mold maybe? urgh its awful and gives me a headache. i might need a new one. i dont know. urghhh. #my programming homework is due today!! yike!! but other than that my personal projects with deadlines are all done! #INIQUITY NOW THAT YOU HAVE TIME ARE YOU FINALLY GONNA WORK ON YOUR SELF SHIP BLOG?? YES!! HOPEFULLY!! #truthfully i /have/ been working on it on the side. it looks decent but the colors;;; i have always been pretty sht at color picking? #i can adjust with filters but without that im like. a little not good yet lmao. gotta do some studies sometime perhaps #BUT YAY EXCITED!! ive got some rambles and doodles and a tag system and f/o info which is extremely cumbersome (affectionate)!! #also i have new fandom ocs for the latest dimension 20 campaign and im so delighted heho <33 this campaign is literally so fun. #im watching it with my sibling when its done!! OOH ALSO I FIGURED OUT HOW TO PNGTUBE AND i will likely never use it BUT COOL!! #i dont like. talk. lmao. my art streams are 1) silent 2) rare 3) only shared with my siblings. pngtuber is a little useless. but CUTE!! #i got boba tea yesterday!! sandy bought it :3 <3 and we're having pho and cheesecake later and i might plan out a little excursion today? #like i might get a treatsie. OR i'll just sit on campus as usual and get a mango smoothie and draw for a while (or work on homework.) #(lets be honest its likely the former. i might get a little back into traditional? ooh or maybe i'll practice my asl?) HEY THOUGH. #ive been thinking about making a henrey stickmn (ask)blog to practice asl? like. no plot. just henry teaching ellie and charles asl #really funny considering my Real concept of an askblog for THSC. not ace or eca; but a secret third thing (⛎) ;) #then again since when have i EVER followed through on an askblog lmao?? damb im all over the place today. we're already hitting tag limit #okay!! 3 AM!! if im going early tomorrow i gotta eep! goodnight everyone i love you!! see you tomorrow if i have the energy and time!!

[orcelito]

1 more day here and then I'm gonna be heading back up to my apartment for the first time in over 2 weeks. Haven't stayed there since this all began. I've grown a bit of a routine here, and I'll be right back to my apartment, but without the prior norms of it.

It's home though. It's home.

I'll have to do a ton of cleaning and rearranging tho to try to fit as much of my father's furniture within my apartment. My apartment is so small and the furnitures so many. I'm determined tho. I'm gonna fit as much as I can. Took measurements today even of all the things I wanna take, so I can puzzle it out as I go.

I. Also. Need to bring June to the vet. Bc she's got worms. Lol. Lmao even. I am trying to not think about it rn.

#speculation nation #i tried calling the vet but they didnt pick up so ill call tomorrow #i think it'll b fine. just gotta get treatment. #with everything else though i am so fucking stressed #trying to think about the money. cheering myself up by thinkijg about the money #i will get 7 times the amount of money that i made the entirety of last year. all in 1 go. #whenever the insurance companies give it to me. lol. haha. lmao. #3 months until summer classes start. after all this furniture moving im going to be so so so so free #maybe ill try to get a lot of writing done during those months. itd be the perfect time. #im nervous about going home. i dont know how ill feel there. its gonna be so weird #ive been in limbo. my life has majorly changed but im in limbo so i dont truly feel it #but ill be back home. and not have to go to work. and ill have a frankly obscene amount of money to get all at once #putting it towards school. finishing school. gotta finish school. i will finish school. #but then i can get a decent job and get a house with a garage and a patio where i can garden #and learn how to ride a motorcycle. Properly fitted to my size. #and i can play my violin without anxiety of upsetting unit neighbors with the sound #im getting through the current times by thinking of the future. just gotta think of the future. #animal illness/ #tagging jsut in case #bugs ment/