#i dont want to be around people who bring that out in me

[6-2-aestheticsofhate]

i have a lot of thoughts on minos in relation to pasiphae and the minotaur (both greek mythological and in ultrakill) but i dont really want to make a lot of posts abt it considering. the topic is generally hard to talk about.

#like i dont wanna go around claiming that the myth went 1:1 in ultrakills lore #because for example sisyphus was more based off a book rather than his mythology (thank god) #so minos might be only loosely based on his mythological counter part as well #but like. the fact that with the introduction of the minotaur enemy we KNOW the minotaur thing actually happened? jesus fuck #like we KNOW ultrakill minos thinks that the people of lust are only punished for loving eachother.... #while his real life mythological counterpart got mad at his wife for essentially being raped by proxy and she had to defend herself saying #why would she want that. she was cursed/forced to do that because minos didnt sacrifice that bull to poseidon #like i KNOW why that was never really brought up in ultrakill that would be. a weird topic to bring up in a funny robot shooter #and i dont think you could accurately handle the themes of rape through lore books you find in levels of the game #but theres just. something about minos willfully thinking his wife did that of her own accord and him refusing to think about how lust #carries more than people who had sex a lot in ultrakill. #again the myth MAY be different in ultrakill. maybe he never even accused his wife of that. maybe he was more understanding #but theres a non zero chance he did #he could be willfully ignorant and think his wife willingly cheated on him. he thinks everyone in lust is innocent/only had consensual sex #because the alternatives are too gross/immoral for him to think about #it might be because i sympathize a lot with greek mythology women but finding out that the thing with pasiphae happened in ultrakill #DID happen made me lose respect for minos. #... also towards a lot of the fandom for joking abt it. #rape tw

[stinkrascal]

listen i love animals too but sometimes dog people are so fucking gross, i just saw this tiktok vid where this lady is cooking dinner and halfway through the video she took a piece of raw beef from the meal, let her dog lick it off her hands, and then kept cooking without washing her hands even though she had dog slobber all over her hands like GIRL WHAT?!?!?????? i love my pet too but holy shit i also love being you know hygienic??? barf vomit gag hurl etc

#that video has to be a troll bc theres no way #she has to have made that just to get attention i physically cannot believe someone would cook like that and serve the meal to ppl #but honestly if it isnt a troll it wouldnt be that hard to believe bc dog people are just like that #i know so many dog people who are so fucking obnoxious. ok im obnoxious about my cat being my son but #i dont bring him inside stores or to other ppls houses without asking at least lmfao #plus lets be real theres a huge difference between my cat being with me at another person’s house #where he’ll literally just sleep the entire time #versus someone’s big ass dog coming over to another person’s house where they’ll run around and tear things up??? #doesnt matter anyways bc i always ask if monkey can come over and accept the answer given #that is if i even want to take him out which i rarely do bc i hate dragging him around lol and he hates it too #but do u get what im saying at least. yeah #cats > dogs #i love dogs but cats are just so much better and cat ppl have better vibes there i said it

[aropride]

nervous laughter

#text #was hanging out with a friend (had fun) but as his uber was arriving #i see my ex roommate (<- putting it lightly) walking back to the dorms with someone #and like. im nosy ofc but i also like. want to warn them #cuz i dunno if this is like. a friend or a new roommate or what but they’ve been alone EVERY TIME ive seen them #so this is new. and considering their track record. #i dont think i am super calm knowing they’re bringing someone back to that room. #im not sure if i hope its a roommate cuz maybe then its innocent #or if i hope its not bc i dont want anyone else to have to live with them #but like. god. #and they totally saw me n my friend looking at them LMAOO but like what r u gonna do. u cant do shit #im allowed to look in directions #but. yeah no. that makes me very nervous #and i didnt get a good look at who it was but they were like #5’6 ish short blonde hair looked kind of like they had a gender situation going on #(i love saying gender situation its my new favourite phrase) #but uhh. yeah. i need to find them i just need to like. know theyre gonna be okay #i want to warn them but that might be bad idea #so i dont know. i dont want them to not know but i dont want them to know at the same time. yk? #well. itsnfine. im hiding in [building] now and im around people and im safe and no one can hurt me #neg #🗒️

[trans-estinien]

its so wild seeing how non mmo players exist and well. i dont like it!

#i saw an iceberg bass by and i. dont want to be anywhere near that iceberg #if youve never played over 100 hours of any mmo. i dont trust you or your opinions about video games tbh. #like sorry talking to people on a video game is scary. skill issue. #also. also. also. controversial opinion but subscription based games arent actually bad. shocking i know #its a super big pet peeve when people hate on mmos for being. mmos. like. what did you expect lol??? #or they hate on mmos for. gasp. needing consistent funding to keep running #if i said my opinions about single player games yall would attack me with hammers #single player games are boring as FUCK #ive only ever beaten two singleplayer games and it was hollow knight and nier replicant #i cant bring myself to play any other ones cause theyre just not interesting #like in theory i like bg3 but in practice i cant. be fucking bothered #that game is just. Too Much #which is rich coming from a FFXIV player who LOVES Bozja but like #i love being around people at all times and i hate doing things alone on the account of the autism #and unless i drag people into playing bg3 with me when i want to play it its just not worth it #i have to figure out the systems by myself and i have no motivation to keep playing (yeah i could just google it but. thats not my point) #like honestly. singleplayer games make me feel like im wasting my time. #why would i play bg3 by myself when i could be afk in limsa watching people argue in shout chat. which is much more fun

[comradecowplant]

so things are not going well with my new elderly socdem friend unfortunately.

#she said this RIGHT after talking about how bad yt misinfo is... which she followed up w SO I WAS WATCHING A YT DOC ABOUT WW2 & LEARNED THIS #youtube 'historians' are literally the most fascist breed of youtuber. avoid the vast majority like the plague lmao #i asked if the video was sourcing the hollow dahmer & the black book of communism & she didnt seem to know what those are lol #to her credit i told her straight up that she was incorrect & she at least faked being curious about doing more research but i am doubting #she also 'learned' that lenin killed trotsky lol get your propaganda right lenin was dead by then STALIN icepicked him <3 #anyway im making jokes bc the worst part was a different conversation where she spoke positively of israel #THAT'S gonna be the one to ruin our friendship. fuck you & your war tourist friend who fought in the 1960s landgrabs that youre now #telling me as if this is a cute story. nahhhh lmao i looked her straight in the eye & said i will NOT debate this #so she dropped it like the true enlightened centrist most socdem cowards are and i kept cleaning her house quietly #turns out You & Me We're the Only Ones Around Here Who Aren't Complete Fools was premature *kicks the poorly rendered gravel sadly* #shes otherwise a nice lady & i know i need to be more flexible in order to hopefully change ppls minds... #but also when people say awful & untrue things it makes me not want to talk to you 🤷‍♂️ srry 2 b a freak like that #also i know shes not transphobic but i havent sniffed her out well enough to know if shes safe to come out to #so its hours of misgendering (which isnt her fault she doesnt know) bc shes obsessed with neoliberal feminism and inappropriately brings #gender into conversations that it does not belong in #'did you know all the countries that handled covid best were ran by women?' 1) untrue 2) dont care finland still sucks #she also tried to tell me that european rich people learned to be nicer after the french rev & thats why europe is better than america... #girl shut up we learned how to be so good at racism and capitalism BECAUSE of europe. there is no such thing as a good rich person!!! #i pick my battles (genocide & anticommunist genocide revisionism) so i let her cook w that one & was not left convinced as you can imagine #ANYWAY rant about today's weird day done. gonna smoke weed & rim some skies 🥵 while listening to the Khrushchev Lied audiobook i found 😘

[transgaysex]

amount of people ive had a hand in getting kicked out of a college gay club: 2

#wind howls #um. its not a goal of mine its just surprising that its happened twice #the first time was half for racism accusations and half for transphobia ? and also bc the girl didnt believe women were oppressed anymore ? #which is worrisome considering she was also in the feminism club. but not my business i guess that was like 3 years ? 2 years ago #but anyway remember last week when i was upset out of my mind and liveblogging racism live from gay club. #i talked to an admin and after they talked abt it with the other admins the person is likely getting the boot + theyre bringing in- #the schools social workers to make the rules against racism more strict (or at least enforce those better) #in the first case i wasnt the only one who witnessed it (a big argument happened in the messenger group and then miss girl decided- #she wanted to be transphobic towards me specifically so she got her ass kicked out after i talked 2 the admins) but this time around like #i wasnt the only one there ? but i guess im the only one who reported it or smthn idk. either way i dont go around telling admins- #'hey man kick this person out. heres all the shit they did and i want them out' i just tell them what happened and leave it in their hands #i guess im not used still in people actually taking me seriously and the other party actually like. gettinf a serious consequence #im always expecting them to just get a slap on the wrist. anyway #i hope this makes white people in the gay club more afraid of what theyre gonna say next when it comes to race ! #because im sick of them getting too comfortable ! you wanna act racist ? do that outside and stay there. anyway #this was just an update on that whole thing. leaving it to rest noe

[depresseddepot]

the way i try so SO hard to gain even a crumb of body neutrality only to then see some shit on twitter that remind me that oh yeah. a distinct portion of the population genuinely believes they are being discriminated against when they have to look at or be within 50 feet of a fat person

#the amount of times ive heard my skinny friends call themselves fat and disgusting to my face without considering the implications #i saw some tweet that just like. had a fat person in the video and ALL of the responses were men making fun of her #like. yes i realize my life would be so much better if i was born with a faster metabolism. thank you for reminding me #yes i realize i am not treated seriously because i am fat #that sort of incredulous look skinny people give you when you have the audacity to sit near them on the bus or ask for directions #like they're shocked you weren't some round thing that was in their sights for 2 seconds to make fun but disappeared #i am trying very hard not to let it get to me but when so many people seem to think the same thing it feels stupid #likei know i dont see people the way allosexuals do but are fat people really so disgusting that they feel like they can say shit like that #its so so frustrating #if i am going to die alone because of my own failings i can learn to accept that #but if i die alone because i can't find anybody that doesn't think fat people are worthless then what is the fucking point lmao #''people irl dont actually think that'' i cant count on 1 hand the amount of skinny people who have lamented about their weight to my face #someone brings in cookies to work and as im eating one someone skinny says ''well. i really don't need the extra calories so ill pass'' #someone skinny checking out diet/exercise books because they ''REALLY have to lose some weight'' #no they aren't talking about me/to me but how detached from your surroundings do you have to be to shit on yourself for your weight #like. even if i was skinny they're still talking about how gross and ugly they are around kids #''love your body and your self!!!1!!1'' okay then stop calling yourself disgusting regardless of how much you weigh. #you can think if if you want but god that 12 year old girl in line behind you is going to remember that forever #she is going to internalize ''oh okay. thats what a disgusting body looks like'' #andthen she'll grow up and hate herself and continue the fucking cycle #just stop. stop talking about your weight around kids. i dont need 60 yo women telling me they're gross when they weigh maybe 150 lbs #i know this is super unhealthy but i literally cannot wait until i can move out and isolate myself from society #because every second i try to engage with it is literal torture #yall are so mean for no reason #i dont really have much to live for #but it would be helpful if skinny people didn't constantly reiterate that there's no point to living if you aren't skinny #im so tired #vent

[mifunebooty]

Only thing i have to do to move on from how bitch ass messy 5th grade me was that totally was out of her control is to kill that bitch

#cherry says #that really at the end of the day when i lashed out toward others was just mean #yes youre SOMETHING mentally wrong with you but what do others have to do with you? #what does bringing other people into ur anger and confusion and make u feel distracted from being alone achieve? #mad to your classmates in general are pointing out as a collective you as a presenting woman arent feminine enough nor light enough? #fuck them fuck off #mad to a new world coming that wants you to turn into something you dont even know? mad at this image of who you even wanna be? #whats the purpose of it #self sabotaging 5th grade me ....... i have to kill you and drive off with you in a shallow grave like nothing #i wish somebody was nice to you you stayed in the library forever you thought of peoples opinions less #because theres ways to love attention daily like nothing while not caring what they say #i wish somebody was your best friend since forever and never left you and stayed and stayed #but people move like book pages and so do you because this isnt love to yourself nor others around you #and thats why i have to kill you and leave you and not even give much ceremony for because i gave u enough power anyhow

[rivilu]

shadow cursed lands.. <3

#bg3 #bg3 spoilers #im thinking about lore and char relationship development dont mind me #like. the whole vibe of this being the act that both Astarion and Alfhart (tav) grow to care for eachother against their will #in the barren hell environment #there's great meta out there as to why Astarion doesnt truly want a blood bag but more to the freedom to drink from any bandit #because he doesnt believe in the kindness of people and expects drinking from you to have a price later etc etc #so what happens when you have him and someone who did give him that freedom- but in an environment where there's. #extreme scarcity of said bandits? #answer: Alfhart finds himself overplanning every team composition and every mission #ambush? people to drain. bring him with. exploring? only undead around he can stay at camp to save energy- etc etc #at which point does it hit him - does it hit them both that they care/ Are being cared for? #*bonks self with giant cartoon hammer* TOO MANY THOUGHTS HEAD FULL #i could also talk about other companions shadowheart especially but i dont think anyone would read a novel's length of tags so dfjhgs

[minarcana]

#ok guess what fuckers youre going to be on another tag ramble adventure with me #ive been afflicted with the same images in my brain tumbling around and the only way to free my brain is to write them out #and anyways i have been contemplating wol au uri for a bit due to various reasons (he came up and then i got this image and couldnt be free #shb with uri as the wol is. after killing vauthry. he is SO fucked up that raha STILL wont just let him die #he was supposed to have raha send him to the rift with the light and let him die there but now that he cant stop him rahas taking it himsel #and theres the whole. 'no we really cannot have the wol die.' thing. #that makes it infinitely worse to uri. him just yelling through blood to let him die! let him have his turn! he WANTS to die! #the idea of bring told that the wol CANT die makes it so much more unfair to him #'you wouldnt know what to do if i died? i didnt know what to do for years after louisoux died! i still dont know what to do without moenbry #da! papalymo can sacrifice himself and everyone adapts! shtola has thrown herself to the lifestream twice! minfilia died! i had to stay sil #ent and let ryne choose her own path if she died or not! i cant tell people that i would be lost yet everyone gets to tell ME that? #do you think i am better than them do you think them worth less why do they have the right to die and i do not!' #he is SO SO SO much worse as a wol and it falls out in one outburst after hes quizzed as to why he thought he could sacrifice himself #but he also realizes that its really fucked up to say that aloud so yknow. yknow what. yknow. #hell bottle up all his feelings and then one day hell either die or start crying and it looks like he aint allowed to die! #he still takes the aid from ardbert at amaurot with the statement that #'if i dont try and save who i might then ill never be able to face moenbryda' #anyways cannot stop thinking about me giving uri the echo like 'this will be funny!' and hes just 'my life has become infinitely worse' #HEAD IN MY HANDS

[southislandwren]

am i crazy for being a little pissed off at my friend. she asked me to come water her plants while she's out of town for a week. she lives with TWO other people and i live 15 minutes away in a different fucking town, and i work another 15 minutes in the opposite direction (hint: it is extraordinarily out of my way and a pain in the ass to water her plants). Also they're plants?? 1 week without water isn't going to kill them???? just water them heavily right before leaving and again as soon as you get back. argh im just feeling like a piece of meat thats available to her to use for any stupid purpose

#honestly its just like being back in middle school when i didn't have any Good Friends. just people who wanted me to do things for them #like damn i dont know. i feel like im sitting in my therapists office and shes telling me i dont have to do everything people tell me to #and have i made like no progress on that? in fucking 8 years? #but for my own selfish reasons i need to keep this friend around until i graduate. i need someone to help me with food engineering. #or i could say fuck it and just lone wolf again... i did it for the first 2 years of college.... #ive left her text on read since tuesday because like no i cant water your plants. theres like 5 options better than making me do it. #shes got her two roommates. her very good friend and coworker. the freshman. any of the knitting people she hangs out with. #bro i live in a different fucking postal code im not driving to town to water some plants that dont need water #actually yeah im saying fuck it. i dont need her. she doesnt bring joy or love when we hang out and im tired of her policing my words #girlie i will not be watering your plants and frankly this might be it. goodbye #diary post

[theood]

falling down an aba therapy rabbit hole god so many people just treat autistic people with fluctuating abilities as subhuman there is always a better workaround for kid AND parent but really its not about the parent here its abt the kid

#just saw avideo of one kid. slightly messy eater. He could communicate he understood that it wasn't the best and was being punished for ea #ting with his hands like. grughf. Youcould discuss WHY he likes eating with his hands. Maybe its a sensory thing or maybe it helps him to #bring the food to his mouth that way maybe his motor skills with forks is harder than it was for him to write. He really liked writing may #be before supper or while supper is being cooked you turn his writing fixation into a game. Lets see how much you can write before I finish #supper in 30 mintues!! And then we're gonna eat for 30 minutes! #Or like. Help him to understand some foods CAN be eaten with hands and its ok but some foods we have to eat with a fork. Yeah it can be con #fusing. Lets write a list of food we can eat with our hands and ones we cant! Can we eat... ice cream with our hands? No! That'd be so mes #sy and our hands would get gross and sticky!! Yuck! #SORRY. I just. hate when people dont remember kids are real live functional human beings #my next door neighbors kid was autistic as well #Mostly nonverbal but once you were around him enough you could really hear his own voice! He COULD talk you just had to listen and I did!! #We would talk or he'd show me what he was doing and I would listen and I taught him how to find out the age of anyone (their birthyear minu #s current year) and he got hooked on doing that forever. LIKE its not hard to respect and learn *with* autistic people. GRRRRGHDGDJH #I get told a lot im gr8 with kids and its like haha yeah bc I remember kids are living breathing individuals who WANT to be treated like t #hey are that and not dumb idiot babies who cant think for themself #You would be amazed CONSTANTLY by how SMART little kids can be if you LISTENED to them oh my god!!

[fizzingwizard]

the type of bot followers I've been getting recently are different from the old ones

they old ones were called something like "kayla95573735" or other conventional female name, or they were "vik558dfght" absolute nonsense. of course, you click them, and there's a semi-provocative banner image of a woman, and then either nothing at all in the blog itself or a few scattered reblogs of random stuff.

now i get "keith5684564" "edwardjfkghhg" and even though the names are now typically male ones the images are still of women various women in the typical provocative poses and entirely empty blogs

I guess the bots realized no one believes they're really women so might as well make a sham attempt at credibility and just announce that oh yeah they're run by guys? (which of course they're bots soooo lol)

or maybe the bots were getting too many messages for "kayla" and thought that if they're "keith" instead at least people won't message them so much

kind of funny imagining a bot getting so overwhelmed by the sheer amount of "hey baby dm me" in its inbox that it redesigns its identity hehehehe

#tumblr #totally off topic but #actually tbh this is what i wish men who try to meet women online would sympathize with a bit more #i get it sucks to message women and get nothing back when presumably those women are getting a lot of messages #but speaking from experience yeah you get messages if you present as a woman but the messages are awful #its like why do i not get any chocolate? she gets so much chocolate #but the chocolate she gets is mostly mud and theres so much of it that sifting around for real chocolate is not worth the effort #and the fact of the matter is most of the guys who message you arent interested in you. theyre just blanket messaging all women in a radius #and if any reply then they consider whether they actually like them #so i never took he messaged me as proof that a guy even looked at my profile back when i tried online dating haha #just saying womens experience with online dating isnt less frustrating and demoralizing just because of the different amount of messages #it sucks to get no response and it sucks to get a lot of spam response #but whenever men online talk about online dating they always bring up how women get sooo many messages and its not fair #here dude you can have mine lol. please take them. i dont want them. no woman wants them lol #also its just weird when you make a first time account and suddenly there are 20 people all messaging you calling you baby #lol im not your baby... not yet... thats why we're here... to figure that part out... but dont jump the gun k it doesnt win you any points #hey baby dm me hey baby dm me hey baby dm me hey baby dm me hey baby dm me why dont u respond baby why u such a bitch

[lepidopterium]

!!!

#spent all day in agony in bed because my fucking parents keep dragging us around on this awful vacation to whatever suits their whim w/o #asking us what we want or even showing any care for how we're doing or adjusting #i didnt want to leave the house of my aunt in cairo. i have privacy there and its closest to what im used to living in #i can tolerate the heat wave there despite my antidepressants. and im genuinely happy and at ease #but now im at the aunt who lives in the country and. bless her i love this aunt but i cant function here #the water is polluted and spending most of the vacation out here dried up my hair and skin badly. not to mention i havent been drinking #enough water because i can only safely drink bottled water which is expensive #and truly ive been trying to make the best of things but im trapped. i cant go anywhere. im always physically uncomfortable bc i #cant get used to living in the country like this. im surrounded by people who act friendly and sweet but still dont take no for an answer #whether it be forcing me to eat meat or like in the case of my baby cousin sticking to me bc i listen to her talk #and im scarred from being forced by my family out here to apologize to my mother (and they tried to get me to hug her) after SHE pulled a #knife on me and the aunt from cairo had to wrestle it out of her hand #i feel ill listening to cousins i looked up to as a kid talk about gay people and effeminate men the way they do #and i cant be at ease bc as a woman i have to act and dress in a way im not only used to but despise #ultimately ive had to mentally erase who i am and my needs so i can get through the day to day here #bc i cant go anywhere. i cant eat or dress how i like. i have limited access to things that bring comfort. i can barely communicate. #i have no privacy. and i have to act polite and happy no matter how i feel. and im physically ill from this heat #i cant even use the bathroom out here. no ready access to clean water either. i dont even have these basic things #and im trying to sleep but everyone is in this fucking room and the lights are on and theyre all chatting so i had to bury my face in my #sleeve and just quietly cry because im exhausted and there's nothing i can do about it but endure #i want to go home. i want to at least be back in cairo where i feel semi normal. #im sick and need to shower with warm. clean. water #i can't keep enduring nonstop daily discomfort on the most basic level. and i have no where to go #and i feel like a baby for complaining. but there is nothing for me here. and i can only survive here by pretending im not here and just #letting things happen BUT. im at my limit by now. #she pulled a fucking knife on me and then they made ME apologize. she was going to kill me. #im all alone. i want to go home. #plus everyone keeps touching me. i cant get any space. everyone keeps talking to me about marriage and kids and then getting upset when i #say no. i dont want that. i mean it. its not a joke. i dont want that. why wont they stop fucking bringing it up. why do they insist it's #wrong of me to want otherwise. barely have a glimpse of who i am and already im teetering on disdain from jokes that are actually serious

[ankhisms]

feeling the sad little pathetic creature emotions this evening suddenly. i dont really want to dwell in feeling bad but it is a familiar deep sad feeling u know. itll be ok i just have to let it out

#to the tune of ghengis khan dont wanna feel like nooo one believes in meeeeeeee im experiencing like. something thats #akin to my very specific paranoia of being paranoid of everyone secretly hating me and talking badly about me or thinking im horrible #secretly where its like my brain is telling me that no one believes in me including my friends and logically i know this isnt true. i have #so many people in my life who i love and appreciate and who have supported me through hardships and who i want to support #in turn. but thats the thing with my paranoia and delusions yknow i can be at least somewhat aware that im being irrational but in the end #that doesnt make it go away. and my brain is just like. no one believes in you when it comes to the creative things you want to do #like my art and acting and poetry. and then my brain tells me that the people around me just pity me and dont want to outright #say that everything i make or try to create sucks because they feel bad for me. and again i KNOW this isnt true. and i #feel bad and feel like im being unfair to my friends bc if this paranoia so i dony want to bring it up to anyone beyond venting like this #and also i feel scared that somehow bringing this specific paranoia up would be like guilt tripping people into like being nice to me or #somethimg my words are weird but my braim very much is like you are not allowed to ask for support or tell people about being insecure #and i do think this overall has something to do with my deep issues of completely lacking any confidence in myself or my abilities #which is due to a life time of abuse etc etc and its hard to build up any confidence in myself when i am still stuck in #my toxic home with no real options to get out at this point for various reasons. but its like #what if i just suck at the things i love to do? what if my art is just bad or mediocre even? what if im a bad actor or a bad poet? what id #even though i feel a deep calling within my soul to create and do these things what if even though i only ever feel truly alive #when i am acting or painting. what if none of it is any good. and no one wants to tell me that because they pity me #again. on a certain level i know this is all just my paranoia and is unreasonable. but its a feeling thats really hard to shake off yknow #anyway. thank u if you read this all i prommy ill be ok i just had to get it out 💖

[ethernitty]

fuckin dysphoria and birthdays

#tw vent #cuz firstly yay day all about me whos slightly out and #therefore will get misgendered and called by the wrong name #not to mention the stress around presents #i know ill mostly get money and for some people i know all the presents cuz i chose them #but i ask for pjs cuz i dont have enough and i say just like the ones from xmas just a bigger size cuz they shrink #but now ive seen that im gonnna get ones that are 1 not button downs for the top and 2 a light color #i want dark ones that i can button so i have minimal gender shit feelings #i know ill mainly sleep in them but i dont wanna feel like shit in them when im wearing them around the house #and i dont think i have the heart to bring it up cuz i dont wanna bother then or feel like im being 'unreasonable'