#i dont want to get old

[evergreenstorm]

Whenever I think about how I'm going to look as an old person I want to cry

#i dont want to get old #journal

[inkskinned]

the problem is that being single is seen as the consolidation prize, and not the natural neutral state of being-a-person. at the end of the movie or the book or the poetry, there is a person waiting for you at the altar, and they love you. if the play is a comedy, everyone gets married. the metaphor is about how you are not-whole. the metaphor is about how everyone is going to be happily-ever-after. the metaphor is that romantic love is the most important resource on the planet, not just all-love. all-love is not a thing, that is a disappointment. the treasure is not the friends we made along the way. the treasure is the girl you landed.

the metaphor is that you cannot be alone, that means you are broken. are you getting over someone? that is acceptable, you can be getting over someone, but not for long. you must be single because you would rather not be single. you must be single and looking to not-be-single. you must want to date, eventually.

friendship and community are never seen as being equal-to or even-better than romantic connection. that person is your one! you need to find them. you need to hunt through the sand particles until you can shift out some kind of gem. this is regardless to your own experience of the beach and the sun. you need to be somewhere with someone.

if you are taking this time alone to heal, that is so sad. everyone gives you this little pitying look. the understanding is that you are not actually happier than you were before you were single. it is seen as a sort of pity - oh, you are choosing yourself, making yourself the priority? - that isn't quite right. you must mean that you are making yourself ready for the right person. you are just laying the bed better this time. open up your heart. you'll find them, we promise!

what do you mean you're really-truly genuinely-very happy? you are probably misremembering what it was like to be in a relationship. and besides, once you meet your person, that time will look grey and bland and wasted. your person is the only way for you to see in color. so what if you have taken this time - for the first time in your entire life - to actually-for-real do the fucking work. you can be proud of yourself, sure. but the way we need to know that you got better is that you get a partner. you're healed enough for the next bad part!

people don't choose to be single, they just say they're choosing to be single - they actually mean "nobody wants to date me." it doesn't matter how many people you have gently rejected or how many times you've talked it over carefully in therapy. what matters is that you are single, and by all accounts - that means you are something worth our pity. your successes and life all seem pale in the sunlight. sure, you have done amazing things and finally found your way in life. what matters is that there wasn't a person in the room with you while you did it.

you want to tell them - that's the whole thing. i didn't know how to be alone in the room. i didn't know how to handle the silence. every moment was so sharp, and i kept choosing the wrong way to close the door. i have spent my entire life in the empty well, living in the ricochet of someone else's cruelty. for once i have built myself a ladder. for once everything i taste is all mine, every bite of sunshine and laughter. i have learned how to sleep out in the open with my memories. recently, they have started to purr.

your father rolls his eyes. listen. this isn't about you. i just want a grandchild in my future.

#writeblr #i actually didn't want a girlfriend before nat #and my dad recently said to me - raquel. i don't approve of the promiscuity #1. i am 30. #2. i had casually dated about 4 people over 18 months. #3. i do believe he was just mad that i get more girls than he ever did #i had to look this 60 yr old deacon in the eye and say. okay so i have a girlfriend first of all im just not tellin yall about her #and secondly. #OKAY???? OLD MAN I DONT EVEN LIVE HERE WHAT ARE U GONNA DO ABOUT IT #briefly considered asking nat if i could pretend we were a one night stand kind of a thing

[kenchann]

gear upgrade! 🤖 also theyre 2nd years now

#twisted wonderland #twst #ツイステ #ツイステッドワンダーランド #mmarts #twst yuu #twst oc #twst grim #ortho shroud #ace trappola #deuce spade #epel felmier #jack howl #sebek zigvolt #sorry my handwriting looks like shit asddsf #also i wanna draw more of these but i cant- my old man back is killing me im gonna mimir #maybe ill draw a part 2 who knows #ive been wanting to draw this but i just got to it #dont worry epel your gonna get hit with the growth spurt 😅

[dragonskulls]

i remade my old talon tutorial with a few extra tips! these are just things i have learned from references, other artists and experimenting myself, so i hope they can be helpful for you!

#art tutorial #i guess #art #dragons #idkkkkk what to tag #anyways :3 #you can use both this and my old tut to compliment each other idk #some talons came out a bit wonky looking but thats what i get for drawing on the ipad #if you have any questions or want me to do another tutorial on something else dont be scared to ask! #tutorial

[incredubious]

pinup gurl

[ print version available here ! ]

#one piece #sanji #suggestive #? #ns4w #?? #I don't know man. dont get fired #anatomy is slightly jank cuz I wanted to do the strangely shaped heels that some old pinup artists do

[blackkatdraws2]

There are more things in the Parable than Stanley knows about. [Blank Scripts AU]

#hoh boy i was going to make a comic to introduce these monsters but #i couldnt help myself and made an animation instead #because i just think they're so neat and cool okay #yes this does have lore purposes and reasons and origins #which i.... will hopefully make a comic about soon if im not busy enough.. #listen i cant for the life of me just infofump about my AU and OCs #because i just think that making actual content about my lore and stuff will not only raise the chances of people being interested #but also it will also raise my motivation to actually produce more content other than the same old recycled front-facing-profile drawings #i need to get creative with my stuff or I'll also loose interest and I DONT want that #in order to be happy with what i have i cant just think about it and expect to be given something new NOOOO i need to MAKE it ughh #i cant believe in order to get more content out of my own au i would need to draw it and feed myself ugh ugh ugh unbelievable (kidding) #but also #i wanna make a little music video or animation again for youtube #its been a hot while since ive uploaded anything in there at all #maybe an animation reel will do for now? #i hope so :( #because ive been working on expanding the Black Scripts AU #and honestly i dont regret it #i had a lot of fun making up scenarios and comics for Stanley and the Narrator (Black) #but yeah! #apart from this little video #you wont be getting an explanation on what these things are supposed to be #and why theyre there #actually i was originally gonna make this into a full fledge animation with sound effect/music/frame-by-frame movement/etc. #but i got lazy HAHA #tsp blank scripts au #tsp au #the stanley parable #the stanley parable ultra deluxe #tsp

[u3pxx]

who do i know this man

#im drawing old men bc i spent all day doing schoolwork this is how i go back to being sane LMAO #also sum1 im watching uploaded a new part to their disco lp and got to the part with the mc #and i dont think ill ever get used to young harry pftt #so thats why he was on my mind i dont think im very good at drawing young him LOL this is not my beautiful house this is not my beautiful w #disco elysium #harry du bois #sunnysidedoodles #described #id in alt text #wanted to compare das allll #sunnysidedisco

[taikk0]

the unspoken broflovski family curse

#added the doodle late oops #taikko art #dont ask me what happened to my old sketchy painted ish style when i first started making sp art #did you know?? that i enjoy?? not? hurting??????????? #its south park let me take it easy ugh finally i can draw in a style thats easy rottmnt artstyle kicked my ass #'why is kyles son wearing a different outfit?' i headcanon that kyles daughter is actually wearing hand me downs from him!! #i desperately need confirmed names omfg #I LOVE CHARACTERS WITH BARELY ANY CHARACTER TO THEM!! IT MEANS I CAN DO WHATEVER I WANT!! #me when i get to slap personalities and headcanons on characters that were on screen for less than a minute <3 #i need to read peoples headcanons on them please im so uncreative and i need to eat i am NOT self sustaining #south park #south park art #south park fanart #sp fanart #sp art #sp fandom #south park fandom #south park post covid #sp post covid #post covid #kyle #kyle broflovski #sp kyle #south park kyle #pc kyle #post covid kyle

[fairycosmos]

my nana wants me to fear getting old so bad. “before you know it you’ll be 30!” and WHAT. and what. am i supposed to be sad about that. am i supposed to run from my life forever. so many people don’t even make it out of their fucking 20′s. and the expectation that i should be upset if i do, because my tits might sag a bit more or because i won’t exist in the enigmatic throes of youth anymore, is beyond ridiculous. the glory days are an entirely fickle made-up concept that never really served me anyway so excuse me for not constructing my entire self around them. i don’t care about the anti-aging agenda. it’s a good thing to live a long time

#i dont want to be like a slave to nostalgia the way i am about childhood forever . and i dont want to see aging as a bad thing if i get #there #missing childhood is one thing but i dont want to loathe getting old forever

[ratguy-nico]

Adivinen quien al fin dibujo algo? Wich means I'm back baby!

Its not perfect (like everything I made), but I just love drawing comic-like-stuff, I get to relax more. I dont try to do the lines perfectly or the super accurate anatomy (mostly cause I dont know shit about anatomy at all) and also get to be more simple in the colors, wich helps cause I struggle making colors a lot.

I missed drawing my babies...but why did I drawing them like that? XD I swear...I think I should have seen some reference cause I totally change the way I draw the Burger Babys which is crazy for me XD

Now...is this an AU, is this them as teenagers, why is Louise working on Aplebees? Well I didnt put an exact age for the guys here, they could be 16 or 19 I dunno.

This is solely based on this post from @zer0ogravity I lmao with this and totally need it to draw it.

btw I from Latam, I didn't knew what Applebees was until making this comic so if Applebees dont look like this sorry.

#bob's burgers #my art #bobs burgers #im back #I have been drawing other stuff #but this is the one I get to finish #is kinda...not clean(?) #but hey is funny #... #at least the dialogue #hope you like it #love the dynamics here #Im totally sure that when Louis get old enough to swear #she would do it all the time #just because #and this got me thinking Gene could be a great #they are such a foodie he would want just the fresh-esh ingredients #Oh! like Bob in that halloween episode #he was so excited abouth the beekeeping #my poor man #XD #and Tina is just me ordering anything #I have to rehearse exactly what am I gonna order #and if they tell me we dont have this would you want to changed it with this? #my brain literally explode #so everytime I get my order right I congratulate myself #and get high five if any of my family or friend is with me #did you miss my excess of tagging? #love you all

[arty-cakes]

👆what is this thing⁉️

#CONTEXT:... old vessel(?)zote au comics i was having fun w a few months ago i wont post it all its soo catered to just me :( #but take some croissants. cherish her. (i actually have no idea what he is in this. a prototype or smth hnstly just wanted to get silly) #i still make these it was fun to have an au you dont have to care about. i feel like these panels alone explain the gist of its 'story' #but then i did start caring and 😐 i rewrote/redrew all of it and changed up the dynamics and now its more white lady focused what⁉️ #i got super inspired by that cntrwrld finale to write something more serious lmao... i might watch it again 💀 its a sickness fr #scroodles

[coolnonsenseworld]

(this is part of the calendar 2024 lore, now on pre-order, to know more check out prev posts)

April was Keith's idea of relaxation. He enjoyed parks, the feng shui of them, nature's ability to thrive despite and against anything happening - the silence of it. Watching Keith wind down and relax when he is a strung wire most of the time, would definitely make Lance feel all lovey-dovey and clingy (as he tends to get) and when he’d worry he is disturbing, Keith would comment this is exactly how it should be - the constant yin to his yang, and the yang when he feels yin.

Also - both shirt and hoodie are Keith's (he has way too many hoodies with quotes). Lance took the hoodie for Keith, but Keith insisted he won’t get cold, so he wore it himself. On the way home Lance funds Keith the biggest sushi serving he could find on the menu, and, believe me, nothing lights up Keith's eyes like a table full of rice and algae. Lance just watches with a soft smile. (Keith does end up getting cold)

#klance #laith #i dont wanna jinx it but im 12k words draft deep #not danceau danceau is third on my list im sorry #but if i dont get hex off my chest im gonna deteriorate #im so lost in the narrative ToT i missed writing so much #i just want to listen to chill songs and make up silly banter #speaking of chill songs i was today years old when i learned RY X full name #i was actually checking his date of birth bc his songs are so sensitievely dramatic i thought he is pisces #he is not #but now that x makes a lot of sense #you gotta check him out now its imperative and you are welcum

[jondoe279]

atp i genuinely doooon’t care if the old guard two is the worst thing put to film i just want to see the best character of all time (andromache the scythian) and her loser henchmen and everyone’s favorite girl nile freeman again

#its not even funny anymore WHERE IS ANDY AND NORIKO!!!!!!!!!!! it was supposed to be the year of dyke drama 😞😞😞😞😞😞 #like given the way they structured the first movie the second would have to be almost wholly original and differ a lot from the comic #like andy cant go thru the shit noriko puts her thru so im guessing the script would switch her out with nile getting tossed in the ocean #but that doesnt really work with norikos comic characterization (trying to get andy to see her point by making her go thru what noriko did #isnt something quynh will gaf about if andy isnt one of the immortals. andys become thr ‘vermin’ noriko hates!!!) #and given the end of the movie everyones chill with copley so joe and nickys whole subplot cant exist anymore…. idk maybe theyll switch out #copley with moose?? idc as long as we get their stupid car conversation tbh makes me laugh #honestly given the changes that would have to be made they probably just made a stupid movie and don’t want to release it. but I DONT CAREEE #its not exactly like the first one was that good i still mute it in preparation for every cringe needle drop like its a lame movie but its #genuineeeeee fun like i seriously do not care netflix give me my movie!!! #the old guard

[autisticaradiamegido]

day 39

a redraw from a couple years back that was originally a redraw from 2014 so thats a FULL DECADE OF PROGRESS, BABEY!!

#day 39 #year 5 #terezi pyrope #homestuck #the thing about the image description project. and going through the backlog. #is that it really incentivizes me to do a lot of redraws because then i can reuse large portions of the descriptions for Old Art #making minor tweaks to account for the differences #as opposed to writing. just so much alt text #heres the thing about writing image descriptions for my OWN art: it makes me think way more about like. #what parts of the piece are vital and which parts aren't #because obviously you wanna give as complete a description as possible #but you also dont want to take up a whole bunch of a persons time rattling on about shit they dont care about. like. #idk! it's an interesting exercise and im still getting a handle on that balance i think #once again let me know if im not hitting the mark

[personishfive]

in which his life is like a video game

#persona 5 #joker p5 #morgana p5 #akira kurusu #ren amamiya #my art #p5 spoilers #<- i mean. i dont like. say anything outright but like. i feel like i say *enough* in this one. lol #this ones actually pretty old i was just bored and wanted to draw but didnt want to draw enough to do anything serious so i finished it #i almost scrapped it because well it was hard to wrangle and had a minor tone problem but well. they cant all be winners <3 #not my best work but i think the concept is. um. kind of really funny. lol #morgana: shit maybe it'll help him a little to play a game. get his mind off recent events. (it does not do this) #i still think this game is the funniest addition to royal. like they went out of their way to add this akechi themed video game in royal #im gonna be real with you. i think the gray pigeon theory thing is kind of silly. but goro akechi featherman parallels r so real. real shit #have you guys seen proof of justice. wasnt that crazy. that was crazy. #anyway. i want a love so strong it'll bring me back from the dead! or however that featherman episode goes. seeya #comics

[480pfootage]

clearpilled and mentally sane

hey there ;)

#creepypasta #ticci toby #toby erin rogers #slender proxy #shitpost #art #my art #crp #old fandom #creepypasta fanart #toby creepypasta #trying to get a diagnosis for a cluster b personality disorder but the traits overlap so much i dont know where to start ARGH #i know toby is bipolar in canon i just.. wanted some cluster b rep too lol #little rant but there's so little like accurate rep of people with mental illnesses in the crp fandom #like they headcanon some to have aspd then procede to say that people with aspd can't experience love or general nonsense like that #it is stupid #and it makes me mad #i am a hater but i am not targetting anyone this time it's just a general thing i see