#i expected better sadge

[litrallytyrus]

i’m nearing the end of season 2 of the owl house and it’s like omg every new episode is making me feel crazy and now i wish i had watched it live so i could experience mass hysteria with the rest of tumblr ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️😣😣

#any time something big happens i’m like omg people probably freaked about this 😭😭😭😭😭 #sadge but at least i’m finally watching it! #it’s good it’s good it’s So Good #honestly the lore/plot is better than i expected like omg i’m seated ……..🪑 #the owl house

[theonlythingimfuckingisstupid]

barf’s been riding around in my sports bra today and shes absolutely LOVING it

#anytime i have to put her down she starts crying #had to put her in my room for dinner and i felt terribly for it #i could almost hear her from the kitchen it was so sadge :( #shes literally an angel and im so glad nobodys fighting me on keeping the babies inside now #id riot #like. id sneak them in and probably make the basement smell like cat food out of spite #bc dad HATES cat food smell #em rambles #kitten update #she's much better now btw. a little wobbly but i think thats expected with the freezing and such #drinks water like a beast and even though shes not eating solids yet shes gotten some formula down which is good

[callilouv]

the things id do to have the skill of drawing bakgrounds

#ʕ •ᴥ•ʔ idle chit chat #ill be much busier next week cuz school wl be starting again sigh #i think ill focus on getting better at drawing backgrounds during my free time instead of like #drawing the usual stuff i do #so expect less art <//3 #but if im satisfied with a certain doodle or study ill def post it :3 #Sadge i cant be chronically online anymore HELPJKFH

[twisted-lover-boys]

I'm glad you're back and in a better place!

If it's possible could you do diasomnia boys with a Pokemon trainer reader

(maybe even add in what you think the boys' favorite pokemon would be if you're up to it)

Diasomnia w/ a Pokémon trainer partner

You, my good man, know how to reach my heart

Absolutely

I will enjoy this so much

. . .

Mind you, I scoured the Pokédex just to find the perfect match for them

Also, sorry for being slow! I literally got sick as soon as I opened the box lmao

{not proof-read}

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When you told Malleus you had a surprise for him, he was so ecstatic that it showed in the clear weather. Whatever surprise his boyfriend had prepared for him, he would be happy with it. But you introducing your Pokémon team to him was something he wasn’t expecting

He’d only heard that you had a team of other-worldly creatures but actually seeing them was something else, so of course he was interested in them

Oh if you let him feed your team he will be over the moon. Please let him give them berries or any Pokémon-safe dish. It could be the smallest one on your team or the biggest grunt you have, he will be happy to feed them

If you ask him to help clean your Pokémon, Malleus will fumble a bit since Pokémon require different types of care but he’d be more than happy to help. Honestly, to him, it’s like you have your own little pet family

Imagine randomly finding a Pokémon egg that wasn’t from your team. It just showed up in Twisted Wonderland. You don’t really have any safe way to store or care for the egg since you’re in a foreign land (no boxes sadge) so you give it to Malleus!

Dragon instincts immediately kick in for him. This Pokémon, whatever it ends up being, will be your “child” no debate. I full heartedly believe that Malleus would be a master of dragon types (or dragon-looking types) so I would either give him a shiny Charizard (Charmander) or a Garchomp (Gibble). I think they look cool with his style/color palette

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Lilia has seen a lot of things throughout his rather long life, but you wanting to introduce him to your Pokémon team was a pleasant surprise and experience for him

He thought they were so cute! From the smallest one to the biggest one, all of them were adorable to him! He really wanted to build a connection with them not only to get closer to them, but to you as well

Do not let this man feed your Pokémon any food that he makes. It’s alright if you give him pre-made stuff that’s safe for them but do not let him feed them unattended! Some of your Pokémon are smart enough to notice, others aren’t!!

Again, parental instincts. It’s like second nature to him when you ask for help in cleaning your Pokémon, like he already knows what they need

So when you suddenly find an egg that didn’t come from your party, you decided to give it to Lilia since you had no way to take care of it.

Lilia getting an egg from you and treating it like a child brings back memories of his past. Pleasant ones. I would give Lilia either a Swoobat (Woobat) or a Noivern (Noibat) solely because they have a bat motif to them

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Silver knew how big the world was solely because of the stories his father loved to tell him when he was young. Never did he once expect a simple surprise from you would be you introducing your Pokémon team to him

He had heard that you used strange creatures to battle but he never thought he’d be able to see these creatures first-hand. He absolutely loves these creatures

Silver loves feeding your Pokémon with you. He thinks it’s an opportunity to bond with your team and relax with you. He’s super careful about feeding them and only gives them what you tell him to give

When it comes to cleaning your Pokémon, Silver is kinda a hit or miss. With some of them, he might be really skilled. Others, not so much. Oh well, at least it’s easy for him to learn new things

Finding a random egg that your team hadn’t created was a shocker to you. You had no way to care for it since Pokémon weren’t a thing in this world so you decided to give it to Silver

He was a bit slack-jawed when you gave him a Pokémon egg. He doesn’t really know what to do or how to care for an egg but he was thankful he had his father to help him learn

It doesn’t matter to him what he gets when the egg hatches. It’s something you gave him and trusted him with. He has every intention of fully caring for it. If I had to give Silver a Pokémon, it’d either Galarian Rapidash (Ponyta) or Gallade (male Ralts) since I think he’d do well with psychic types. Besides, they work well for a knightly character

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Sebek had heard the rumors that you used other-worldly creatures to fight but he never knew whether to believe them or not. So when he allowed you to take him away from his duty and show him your surprise, he was stunned

So the rumors about you having strange creatures was true! But now this opens a whole can of questions for him. How did you get them? How do they fight? Are there different types? Different colors? Be prepared to answer a lot of them

Sebek is helpless when it comes to caring for your Pokémon. He only feeds your Pokémon what you say they should eat. As much as he wants to pamper them, he has to keep his composure and do as you tell him. He wouldn’t want to hurt them or lose your trust

Again, helpless. He wouldn’t be able to clean your Pokémon, especially if they’re the mischievous type or just don’t like baths. As much as he would like to help, he feels he wouldn’t be super good at it. Oh well, at least he’s willing to help and learn

So imagine finding a random egg that is in no way connected to your current team at all. There’s no possible way you’d be able to take care of him because of your lack of boxes so you decided to give it to Sebek

Although he was initially against having his own, it took only a few seconds to convince him because it was a gift from you and it can provide an advantage in fights…it was mainly because it was from you that he agreed to care for it to the best if his ability. Croc boy was the hardest for me actually but I narrowed it down to shiny Chimecho (Chingling) and Krookodile (Sandile). Just look at their entries. Trust me

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#twisted wonderland #twst #twisted wonderland imagines #twisted wonderland x male reader #twst x male reader #diasomnia #malleus draconia #malleus draconia x gn reader #lilia vanrouge #lilia vanrouge x gn reader #twst silver #twst silver x gn reader #sebek zigvolt #sebek zigvolt x gn reader

[beelzebubbutachef]

What if Yuu accidentally summon a child from a unknown timeline ?! Part 3

02 | ... | 04

Awaiting your doom, you stayed still but you were slapped literally back to reality by someone when nothing happen after a few moment.

"oh shoot. I'm still alive...? Sadge." You complained which made the person who slapped you before, once more slap you back to your sanity this time.

"Can you please stop that..." You now complaining about the pain of your cheeks getting abuse. You rub your cheeks and thought of something. 'I wonder if people would think it be weird if I said I want to be slapped again...' your mind state is now processing that a super star just slapped you.

Even through it's a super star of another world, being slapped by one, is one out hundred percent chances of happening.

"epel epel did you get that scene recorded? Ahahahahahaha. A comedic gold sight of a drama queen. Ahahaha."(ace)

"of course! I'll send it later!"(Epel)

"you two! Your both being mean!"(deuce)

"I'll send you one too!" (ace)

"...send me that now! Ahahaha"(deuce)

You heard your friends laughter's and you suddenly have an urge to throw the kid at their direction like a pokemon to KO their chodasaurus rex.

You take a deep breath and swallow the desire for vengeance. You will do it later. You look around and realize that Ortho is being hold captive by Epel Unique magic and there still your senior Bylur dying in the floor by laughter's with idia who seems to be lying in the floor like a dead corpse, not moving even a bit.

"Yuu..." The principal starts and you no longer want to hear more of his chitchat. You know you have no way to say to this, this person is going to blackmail or make you do it either way. So you listen while the kid who seems to like you enough to stay glue around your feet listen, in silently.

"what's your name?"

"..."

"do you like chocolate or vanilla?"

"..."

You want to hit a child but would not want to be sent to jail for child abuse. You been asking the child for the nth time 20 question quiz, you will get to know him better and try to defend him from being tormented by people who hate his guts for the evil deeds he did in one day.

Vil who happen to listen in to your chitchat with the child takes an apple and throw it to the young one. Through you did hear him whisper his unique magic.

The moment the child caught the apple with sparkling eyes. Vil eyes stared down at him like an evil man.

"name." He ask the child, who froze up and start to speak.

"...Ligma-" you stared waiting for him to finish his full name but you saw him smirk, his smirk reminded you of someone. " Ball. "

You sure don't know what to say but this kid is daring. And you have to stop Vil from choking him like from Simpsons.

After a long chat with Vil that this is just a kid, maybe his parents told him that never talk to stranger and such. He rolled his eyes but seems agree on that way the child parents teach him, the world is dangerous for kids after all.

But in this case through. Everyone in the world is in danger around the child instead.

Some time later, when your force to stay with Vil since it's the two of you who's paired up and gain this mess. Making you stay at his dorm, since he reject the idea of staying at your dorm.

"dirty and beat up place that principal don't even pay a cent to fix? You expect me to go there ? And to live there?" -says the super star who once stayed at that place some time ago.

You actually want to go back to your cozy bed that clearly not dirty and now fix because of good fae friend of yours. but the child won't leave you be. He will cry like a siren and wake up the undead. He will also do this when you go to your dorm with him, might as well add that he taken vil room as his own room. The moment he saw it.

"MY ROOM, MY ROOM!!" says the child who climb to the bed with his dirty cloths. It was a force of three people to stop the adult from commiting first degree murder.

"henchmen. Your going to stay to this dorm then? It mean I'm the full dorm warden for whole night!" Grim who happen to asleep the whole day of the mess visited you at Pomefiore after hearing the news from Ace and Deuce.

He was laughing when he recalled it through. It seems that he watch some clips of the video you sent to your friends.

"thanks grim. I'll give some can tuna once this is done." You pat grim head which made him smirk as if his proud of himself that his very trustworthy to be left on his own.

You watch Grim left from the window, and heard the door open.

Currently you were in the living room of the dorm while others are force to put beauty product on their faces. Your also force but your first on in line, with the help of the beautiful dorm head to do it with you. He was doing it very aggressively it made you rub your cheeks when you remember what happen.

──❀*̥˚───❀*̥˚─ An Hour and haft before->

Vil, squish your cheeks and with a smile he began to chat with you: say prefect, do you know how lucky you are right now?"

You don't know if drowning and suffocating from beauty product ever happen to be the cause of someone death, you felt, your going to be the first one from how thich his applying it and almost leaving no space to breath. "whwut... Hwelpwwwwpp---" your voice is shut as he put a lip mask and coldly stared at you as if warning you, that if you drop the lip mask—thats not the only thing that's going to drop on the floor.

He began to pull out some face massager from a cabinet. And those things scares you as you saw it light some electric current and shadowed his face that look menacingly villain.

"if your going to stay here, you need to follow the rules of my dorm. And we don't allow potatos here. Only beautiful human." You felt insulted but you can't say but internally screams as make over takes horror to next level.

<-present time ───❀*̥˚───❀*̥•

You unconsciously back away when you saw it's Vil with the Mini Vil who look very refresh as if he went to a manicure and spa day.

The mini one eyes sparkle when he saw you and went to hug your legs again. You still don't understand why this kid seems attach to you but still run away from you two earlier and cause trouble to people future generation.

Speaking of future generation...' you remember what happen to Vil earlier and began a talk you probably would regret not a second later:

"hey vil how's your sperm count? Haha weren't you KOed earlier ? I'm worried if your genes gonna end with you--AHAHAHAA--"you felt very confident that you laugh but you saw a demon raise from hell when you stared back to the fellow prefect.

" OH MY SEVEN IM SO SORRY PLEASE DONT BEAT ME UP!!" You cower behind the sofa. You do know Vil can pack a punch and beat people up without even using his magic on you.

"how nosy. It's already late yet you still yell?" You heard him sigh as he close the light in the living room. You felt you pass a deficult challenge when you realize he won't beat you up. You heard a soft giggle from the child beside you.

"that ugly old man wear a cup. His acting earlier." It's the cutest voice and the longest sentence that this kid probably says. You can't help but want to pinch his cheeks when you saw him smile. But you stop yourself. You don't want to seems odd than you already are to the adorable angel!

"wait what..." You realize what he said. 'Vil was acting earlier? But why? Does he think I'm annoying or something.' you wonder which you probably agree on and left it slides. You have no other answer to that statement after all.

"huh..? So you do know. What a talented child. I wonder who's your parents are." Vil seems amuse by this as well interest about how the child seen through his acting.

"also who do you call ugly just now?" Vil grip on the child head with a menising smile on his face.

"YOU! YOUR UGLY AND OLD." Says the child who look exactly like Vil.

You hopelessly smile and take out your phone to record but you were both glared at by those two copy cat.

"NO VIDEO AND PHOTOS ALLOWED." Vil/mini vil

Sadge...' you thought as your force to listen to the two have a wonderful chat.

It was super late when the child slept, and he shamelessly made the three of you share a bed with him in between. Since he call Vil bed his and dragged you in it. Vil refuse to sleep on the floor and the bed is huge anyway.

He did lock the room door and window for any wild rook around to spy on you guys.

You stared at the ceiling while you felt the child hugging you like no tomorrow.

Speaking of rook. You remember rook joke earlier.

"hey vil are you asleep?" You quietly called out to him, fearing it will wake up the child if your too loud.

"you better have a good reason to be awake at this time, potato." You heard him from the opposite side of bed.

"do you know, earlier Rook joked about something. He keep claiming the child have same color of iris like mine And cringe implying about some cliche plot of summoning future child of ours ahaha..." You happily says this which you actually think the most hilarious thing you heard in this world. First off, you two aren't even that close to be best friend or in a relationship.

"...that's impossible." You heard him says

"I know right--" you laugh but choke when you hear his next words.

"clearly his someone from grandchildren era than a future child. I saw his crumble paper with his present time date. His quiz don't even look pleasing to look at. He better learn more than he knows how to kick someone weak spot or else his just a muscle brain potato." He seems like his talking about weather when he says those.

"..." Suddenly you don't what to say more of this topic. Two things comes in mind:

1.) Is Vil schoenheit high by how he calmly chat about this?!

2.) if this kid really what you think he is. GOTT DAMN CROWLEY HE DID NO HELP OF YOUR SITUATION OF GOING BACK HOME AT ALL!!!

To be continued

Author note: I would probably write a point of View of Vil for the next chapter.

#twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland x reader #twst x reader #vil schoenheit #twisted wonderland vil #twisted wonderland vil schoenheit #vil schoenheit x reader #vil x reader #twisted wonderland Yuu #twisted Yuu

[sleeplessinspace]

breathe deep - murdock x afab!reader x dr. iplier

this one is for best birthday froggie @westanthewaterman! i hope you've had a great day and that this makes it even better :3

sadge i have no good gifs of doc

warning(s): nsfw, dubious consent, usage of aphrodisiacs/drugs (on reader), bondage (reader is restrained w/ zip-ties), praise kink, size difference/kink, dom/sub elements, daddy kink, breeding kink (implied risk), mild humiliation, oral (reader receiving + giving), somno

“We’re going to a play a little game today, darling—one of your favorites even.” Doc said lowly and rubbed his thumb over your lips. You didn’t open your mouth like you would’ve if it had been Murdock with his hands on you. Above all else, Doc was a man who expected obedience and you did your best to give it to him.

You didn’t bother asking what kind of game you’d be playing either, simply content to wait in his lap for him to tell you—something he appreciated based on the pleased glint in his eyes. “Your job is simple. I want you to run, to put as much space between us as you possibly can,” he explained and your heart was already beginning to pound in your ears at what was to come. The hand he had on your mouth had shifted to your collarbone and a well-placed thumb was very aware of your growing excitement.

“I'm not going to chase you. I'll be waiting for you after you get caught.”

You couldn’t help but blurt out, “B-but what if I get away?”

There was a low laugh behind the two of you and you stilled, almost forgetting the third party in the room. Doc clicked his tongue and let his hand trail down your chest, pausing at the sight of your nipples peeking through the thin fabric of your shirt. “You know you’re not getting away with Murdock chasing you, little one,” Doc hummed and you flinched at the touch of cold leather on the back of your neck as Murdock shifted closer.

“But you’re certainly welcome to try, petal. You know how excited Daddy gets watching you struggle.”

That conversation is on repeat in your mind now as you try to hide yourself within the crowd of the city center you’ve managed to find yourself in. Hidden beneath a thick, oversized jacket you were sure Doc wouldn’t be missing and a pair of Murdock's aviators, you blended into the crowd of chilled passerby easily.

The last time you’d played this game, Murdock had managed to slip one of Doc's aphrodisiacs into your breakfast and in your drugged state, you’d made the foolish decision to try and hide yourself in the woods behind their cabin. It took Murdock nearly no time at all to drag you back to the house, and by that point the aphrodisiac had kicked in fully, leaving you desperate, trying to rub yourself against Murdock as he carried you back. This time around you didn’t trust anything they tried to give you before the game started—something you knew made Murdock both proud and frustrated to see, as he loved having you nice and pliant, so easy to maneuver. Not that it was hard to move you, he had at least a foot of height and was nearly double your weight in sheer muscle.

Your head is clear and you managed to beat Murdock to his car, having stolen his keys soon after you woke up. It didn’t take long for you to make it to the city and once you were parked in a parking complex, you ditched his car with the keys locked inside. It wouldn’t be beyond the bastard to have several tracking systems in place within it.

A buzz in your pocket startles you out of your focused people watching as you slowly get to the busiest part of the city and you tug out your phone, finding Murdock’s contact pic staring up at you. You steel yourself for whatever manipulation he had planned and answer the phone, keeping your head on a swivel.

“Hi, killer,” you tease and hear him inhale sharply, a hint of a smile in his eyes.

“Smart little pet ditching Daddy’s car in a parking garage. But let me ask you this, sugar—you think I won’t grab you in broad daylight? You think all those people will protect you from me?”

A car blares its horn nearby and you try not to flinch, your eyes darting over all the people in the square. “I-I don’t think that’d be very smart. Someone will see and then they’ll call the cops on you,” you bite your lip as your eyes pass over a tall man with darkened glasses, relaxing marginally once you see it’s not him. “Orange isn’t really a good look for you.”

“You’re looking pretty good, though, aren’t you? Are those my sunglasses?”

You stiffen for a brief moment before you keep moving, knowing your best bet was to keep other people in his line of sight and use your short stature to the best of your ability. Though part of you knew that it was likely fruitless—Murdock likely had a good line of sight on you from wherever he was, watching you carefully through the scope of one of his rifles. “You didn’t say you’d be using your sniper,” you pout a little, letting your lower lip jut out just to hear him growl under his breath. “That’s cheating, Murdock.”

He chuckles and you hate how much the sound of his laugh affects you, almost as if he was right behind you. “I’m just here to be a lookout, petal. Speaking of which—do you know where you are right now?”

Once he says that you lift your gaze from where you’d been absently watching the ground as you walked and realize that you must’ve gone straight past the main plaza and ended up on one of the side streets, next to a darkened alley. The second you realize this, a gloved hand shoots out to grab your elbow and yanks you into the darkness, another hand clapping over your mouth to muffle your instinctive shriek. You resist the person’s pull as hard as you can manage, trying valiantly to kick at their body to put some space between the two of you but a brief pinprick of pain against your neck has you slumping into their hold as a drug takes effect, quicker than it has any right to.

“N-nooooo, Doc,” you slur, slumping into his hold as he pulls you into the nearby building, leaning into the gloved touch starting to press beneath your shirt. “You said you weren’t g-gonna—!”

He makes a low noise, almost mocking and strokes a hand over your hair. “I didn’t chase you, little flower—you came to me. Lost little thing, it’s hitting you so much harder than usual, isn’t it?”

You feel so fucking warm and can’t help but moan when he pulls you up against him. “Spread your legs for me, sugar, that’s it,” Doc murmurs against your lips before claiming them in a slow kiss that has you panting against his mouth, your clumsy fingers trying to yank at his shirt as he grinds his hips into yours, the pressure just on the right side of too much. Smooth, gloved hands encircle your wrists and pull your arms down, keeping them restricted behind you and you whine, desperate to feel his skin against yours.

“W-wanna touch, Daddy, pl-please, I w-wanna feel,” you mewl, trying to pull him into you, pull him closer, but he laughs in your face, the sound low and derisive.

“Of course you do, angel. That drug must be wreaking havoc on your systems by now. All that heat and nowhere for it to go.”

You hate how fast this drug has kicked in, reducing your mind to little more than debauched mush as your only focus is getting yourself pressed as close as possible to Doc but he won’t let your hands go and you make a noise, almost a tiny growl and a much lower chuckle joins in behind you as Doc smiles down at you mockingly.

“Oh, that was adorable, petal,” Murdock coos and you let out a happy sob when you feel his hand skate down your spine—an absent thought crosses the depths of your mind, wondering when Doc stripped you of your borrowed jacket and thin t-shirt, leaving your upper body bare—the touch of his gloves against your skin a cool balm on your overheated skin. “Still so fierce despite the drugs… I think this might be your best batch yet, doc."

You make a confused noise when there’s suddenly a light pressure around your wrists and when you go to separate them, you find that you can't. You look up at Doc with pleading eyes, unable to turn to Murdock to try and manipulate him into letting you go. Even with the heat taking over your mind, you knew that you had a much better chance with Murdock than Doc when trying to get your way.

“Wh-what, Daddy, why no, I wanna touch—!” You’re quickly silenced by a hand over your mouth, this time holding a cloth and you can’t help your panicked inhale.

“Shh, petal, relax and breathe deep for us, alright?”

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You wake up to heat and pressure, a low noise slowly growing louder as your awareness filtered back in waves. It feels like too many and not enough hands are on you, one set pressing your thighs up and back while a skilled tongue licks you open, two fingers pressing up into your warmth—you felt so wet, even more than when Murdock made you squirt repeatedly all over his hand that one time. You moan, lifting yourself lazily up into that mouth and it’s then that you become aware of that pressure again…

Almost as if you’d been denied, repeatedly.

Your clit feels especially sensitive when that mouth pulls back just enough to suck at it lightly and you whine loudly, trying and utterly failing to pull out of the hold keeping you pinned, practically folded in half on whatever surface you were on.

“Finally awake again, darling? How you still feel so tight after getting two loads fucked into you, I’ll never understand… You’re holding it in so well, aren’t you, lovely little thing?”

“T-two—? Wait, wait, no, no it’s not safe, that’s not s-safe, please, get it out, get it out, please—!”

Doc lets up on your legs just enough to have you tip forward, cum beginning to drip out of your cunt and he smirks, going to press it back into you while shoving one of your legs back again. “It’s too late for that now,” he drawls, pulling out his fingers to lick the cum off his gloves and you feel tears beginning to burn at the corners of your eyes when you feel the touch of warm leather on your jaw, easing your head back. Murdock grins down at you, his other hand stroking over the fat head of his cock.

You hate the way your mouth waters a little at the sight of it, your dazed eyes tracing one of the veins dancing up the sides of the thick length. You go to speak, some sort of protest forming on your tongue, but Murdock ignores the attempt flat out, shoving his cock into your mouth with ease, pulling you down until your nose was buried in dark pubic hair. He groans, loud and long as you struggle to swallow around the weight in your throat and in your confusion, a hint of your teeth brush against his cock and he swears.

“I thought you felt good when you were knocked out, petal, but this takes the fucking cake,” Murdock hisses through his teeth and pulls back to give you a chance to catch your breath.

“Pl-please, Daddy, I-I didn’t, I don’t—”

Doc shushes you carefully, pressing three gloved fingers into your soaked cunt and immediately seeks out that spot that has you thrashing in their grip, unable to go anywhere, unable to do anything other than take it.

“I don’t think we’ll ever get enough of you, sugar. We’ll make sure to make them sing for us again, won’t we, Murdock?”

“We’ll even let you be awake for it this time.”

#cereal killer ☆ #an apple a day ☆ #spicy.txt #mine.txt #this gave me a different idea and m a n #anyway :3 #appears like a thief in the night to drop smut on your laps and disappears again

[murderous-muse]

here have a little sadge of my oc

eastyn (fantasy spirit that resides in a cursed sword) is like, maybe the person living all my fantasies and nightmares realised.

TW FOR CHILD DEATH, CHILD NEGLECT AND DEATH IN GENERAL

they have loving parents, but then they suddenly divorced and they went with their mom, who then marries somebody else and then dies, and their bio dad also dies, so they stay with their stepdad who marries somebody else and those two parents become neglectful and fuck off all the time for work and dates, and never spend time with them or show them affection.

they are 2 when their parents divorce, and 3 when both bio parents die.

remember the whole spirit living in a cursed sword shtick?

well, their step parents love trying new things for dates, and one time they unearthed said cursed sword during an archeological dig tour and for some inane reason are allowed to keep it. eastyn hangs out around the sword a lot, because its space themed, and they love space. on a boring Saturday morning, they die, alone, without their parents ever finding out until their corpse rotted and the smell permeated throughout the entire house. they died, screaming for parents who would never watch them grow, and for parents who would never love them. it was an accident. they were climbing on one of the huge trees in the backyard, trying to see the stars better, falling and being impaled by the fence (they always thought it was stupid that their stepmom insisted on the fences being spiked. they still think it was stupid.)

due to being the only living being near the cursed sword for a long time (died at 9), their spirit was attached to it.

now, the sword they reside in was passed around, from collector to collector, before one day, it was dropped during a transfer and found by an old couple living on a farm near the route on a walk.

now, they live a happy afterlife, with grandparents who care about them, and love them more than words can describe.

okay so i wasn't expecting to write this much but at least they got a happy ending??? oh and they cant move on bc cursed sword

[draconixiaa]

tired but i'll do a bit of this (will be a bit rambly:D)

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

24,, wow not bad

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

165.5k wow thats a lot,, most of it comes from one tho; everything else are shortfics

3. What fandoms do you write for?

DSMP and ive just started a bit of genshin at the behest of my Tartaglia-obsessed irl and he's kinda cool but like for 95% of my other fics its all cdream ahahahhh(dies)

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

"Consequences" tops the charts obviously bc its my one and only longfic and it was written during the peak of dsmp and man id link it bc i love my storyline (cdream obviously gets messed up in prison but then gets a healing arc) there but at the same time i feel like the writing had too many grammar mistakes and could be better so nahh

"North Star to Freedom" is one im actually really proud of, like obviously the writing could be better bc ive improved, but i just like it and id deffo rewrite it too if i had time or steal it into an original fic (premise is that cdream escapes prison with the rebibe book and oh lord my lingo anyways (spoilers) he dies and he gives techno book)

"Persevere" is third, wow that's a long time ago, its alright, i like it in general, but it feels almost cheesy. idk. i like it, but i dont like it. its not mixed feelings, but eh. anyways, something about cdream getting captured by the egg which is about to take over the world but he sacrifices himself to cleanse it. the most acute thing i rember about it is that its a 3parter

"Coup de Grace" ok wth i didnt expect this to be on there it was a small little cdream suffering in prison and cphil comes over, sees him in pain, and cough relieves him of it, and i dont like the writing in a specific part of it, but i like it in some other parts, so eh

"turn the claret tides" whoops i forgot what this one was about ok i glanced through the doc its ctechno getting cdream out of prison wow that title was really vague but he gets the letter and things went on.. it was inspired by another fic and happened during the hype of the prison arc which is kinda cool

(man im looking at the amount of fics i want to rewrite but it aint happening sadge)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Sometimes, most of the times nowadays, if it particularly made my day or it has something deep and insightful or literally makes any observation on my fic. sometimes im just too tired to answer,, maybe laziness is a part of it too, but i stare and its like,, i cant generate a response . but nowadays, i do it most of the times bc i appreciate my commenters :D

6. What’s the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

my recent fics mostly have happy endings, but all my pre-like, mid 2023 fics were all sad sad sad. they all ended in cdream dying, one way or the other. so idk which ones the saddest now its been too long,, the one i personally think is the saddest is one that i like, was listening to sad music to, the song being 'sociopath,' an orchestral piece (or was it piano?)

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

consequences

8. Do you get hate on your fic?

once on consequences bc that was max cdream apologists vs inniters era

9. Do you write smut?

nop never ever ever

10. Do you write crossovers?

dream + tartaglia is one i wrote in fudging october that i am still trying to find time to continue

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

prob not, if there is, then i wouldnt know of it

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

nope, if there was, i also dont know of it

13. Have you ever co-written a fic?

wow thats crazy that i havent, but idk, teamwork and coordination just go meh when i only share my interests with online people

14. What‘s your all-time favorite ship?

idk i dont do ships but my fav friendship is dream + techno or dream + punz

15. What’s the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

all my chapter continuations except the tartaglia + dream one i Need to finish that. but also the palace of stone idea will Never Ever get written

16. What’s your writing strengths?

descriptions idk they go lengthy but ive practiced with them a lot so ive gotten kinda good

17. What’s your writing weaknesses?

dialogue, pacing, idk literally everything, i can prob improve on anything and every aspect of my writing rn, and i just need to practice more

19. First fandom you wrote for?

DSMP lmao

20. Favorite fic you’ve ever written?

consequences i love the storyline + ending of that one even if the writing couldve been better

uhh tagging? idk if theres anyone that doesnt overlap wiht people whove been tagged b4 les see: @milktearosethorn , @victoriacoffee , ,, oh theres only two ok well, have fun if u decide to do this!

#drac thinks #and im so sleepy and tired today was busyyyy

[ajcrwl]

coding adventures part++

it's been a little over a month since the last one. i'm almost done with building some basic stuff including comments!

last time comments were completely non-existent. i had already picked a text editor which i wanted to use, but it was so hard to understand how to configure it, so i switched to tinmyce.

i added it to the page and started figuring out what i wanted to do with the design:

i immediately somehow made the toolbar become a rainbow that changes colours, and decided to keep it that way 😂

took me a while to figure out how to implement character count, submit button and notify button all within the editor's toolbar. but honestly, tinymce is so good, their docs describe pretty much everything i needed, so it was only a matter of learning what it can offer and figuring out how i could use it.

what you see above was just a bunch of lorem ipsum coded directly into the page. so the next step was to write the whole post -> save -> display pipeline and show some actual comments.

why use lorem ipsum when you can adfadsfsdfsdadf ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

then i did the thing which i always wanted to add: my own emotes! btw, we use all of these plague doctors and others in my discord, and i keep drawing more and more of them.

and then i tried to use them along with a better emoji font, and uhh

oops xD yes, you can stretch an image, even an emote, but you can't unstretch it back and return it to its original proportions.

figured out how to ban people, because honestly, no comment form should be released in the wild without the ability to restrict annoying users, you know? x)

and another thing which i figured out: how to make emotes big if there's no text next to them. same as in discord. took me about half an hour ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

now i'm fixing bugs and adding some small unseen things here and there.

the next step will be uploading all of this to the live website and testing there.

and after that.. whooo boooy, do i have so many more features planned. just some of them off the top of my head:

display names. that bit in lighter text before "@ yourname". i want to let people set a different name.

upload your own avatar.

badges. currently only a moderator has a badge. i want to add badges for people who support me on Boosty too.

non-email notifications. i get only 1000 free emails from mailgun, and we could quickly run out if everyone subscribes to reply notifications. however, i learnt to keep my expectations low, so this may never happen due to low engagement (sadge). some non-email options via bots could be: discord, telegram.

ability to keep track of your own comments.

profile pages to look at other people's profiles?

linking tumblr/discord/etc/whatever. still need to think how i could use that. maybe link your tumblr, so that people could see your blog? or for alt login options.

btw, none of this will be ever released as a stand-alone piece of software. it's heavily linked to my current cms framework, so i can't be arsed to separate it, and also i have no idea what i'm doing 😎

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here's the first post

ps. managed to fix a few bugs while writing this post :)

#codeitkarl #mine #coding #software development

[ashenberry]

OK OK OK OK splatfest thoughts.

Maps

undertow spillway is soooo jidkasm, why is mid like that lol

mincemeat metalworks has the same thing going on as eiltail alley except longer & i think i liked eiltail more

mahi is. uhg i thiink they should add the sides back to mahi atleast partially

musuem on the other hand. omg

scorch gorge was good :thumbs_up:

New Weapons

Stringer was. honestly a lot better then i was expecting?? the kit it has rn really plays around chip damage and i think in a more organized space could get a lot of milage

OMG SPLATANAS i wasnt expecting to be so good with them but like i got on with friends and when i was able to go for plays it was soooo nice

other Weapons in the demo (and thoughts on new specials)

congrats to dynamo for functioning again king

splat rollers kit is soooo. it might be bc it was turf maybe the special will do better in ranked modes but im so indifferent on big bubbler.

AEROSPRAY WAS SO FUN LOL? good kit good kit it might become my splatfest weapon depending on the other weapons

nzap was really fun with tacticooler i LOVE tacticooler mwah

zipcaster was so :| ! see how i feel about it on carbon and splatana stamper AND im also not a brush main but it was. it ends so soon i hope the duration gets a buff

ink vac got put on charger so i didnt really get to see it since most people dont play charger during fest

base splatling looks like remix

CRAB. is not a special for me i think its decent i just not a fan of actually playing it

i love reefslider with literally so much of my heart

Tri color turfwar

literally so much if your able to play w/ friends and coordinate sorry if u didnt have that sadge etc

#ashen.rambles

[demonboyhalo]

Ranboo: "Friendship flowers" ...bruh. We are literally married. You've gotta be kidding me, friendship flowers? Are you - bruh. Now I know how ancient people from greece felt when they were wrote about in history.

Puffy really Sappho and her friend-ed their marriage...this is the City of Mizu with Skeppy and Bad all over again

#my live blogging might have been halted #but i needed this clip posted anyways #ranboo definitely has seen the viral sappho tumblr posts #ty king for acknowledging the sacrilege foolish has committed 😔✊ #mcyt #dream smp #ranboo #tubbo #beeduo #dsmp #captain puffy #*apparently it was puffy not foolish who made the flowers which is such a shock honestly #i expected better sadge #(so ignore the tag that says foolish lmao)

[comixandco]

Finished Happy Home Paradise just before 5am and the DJ KK concert lasted all of 50 seconds can I time-travel in real life

#Acnh:hhp #happy home paradise #big sadge :{ #i didn’t even get to hear him playing during the credits because i was listening to critical role #i think the only thing they could have done to make hhp better would be to give players more time control #like the amount of times you walk in expecting to make a house when lottie pulls you away to immediately make a facility #whether you’re ready to or not #i’d have loved a ‘hey comix are you ready to start the party’ but alas #hopefully there’s videos on yt

[ominouschickens]

so i have this thought (bcs i feel pretty bad mentally atm) of just holding slashers. i dont like physical touch at all but sometimes you just gotta hold someone. like, i wanna just hold vincent or billy lenz, hell even mr wall man brahms. like the whole "mitski i bet on losing dogs" vibe bcs sadge, yknow?

Sorry you’re not feeling well nonny! I hope this helps you feel better <3

Slashers x GN! Reader

Warnings:

Vincent Sinclair

Usually hates stopping work but will drop everything if you mention you need a hug or anything

Tugs you over to his little bed where he pulls you on top of him and just pets your hair

He’s so worried about you, but it helps you feel better because you know you’re so loved!

Calls Lester over to bring some snacks, if you’re lucky he’ll get Bo to close down the town for a few days while you all have a movie marathon <3

11/10 boyfriend for this

Billy Lenz

Is panicking! He’s not very good with touching sometimes…

He makes it work for you though. He’ll lay with you, tucked agains your side and whisper nice things!

“Pretty one… so-so good to Billy…”

Be prepared for him to ask a lot of questions, are you okay? What’s wrong? Who does he need to stab?

7.5/10 partner for this (can’t stay still long enough for you to hold him!)

Brahms Heelshire

Secretly he loves when you get into these kinds of moods, it means that you need him close, which he loves (my dude just wants to feel needed)

Will lounge around the house with you, putting all your chores on hold till you feel better. Is constantly holding onto you like a child, and expects you to hold onto him as well!

He’s gonna play some music because it makes him feel better, so maybe it helps you! You kinda have to tell him that no one listens to Bach anymore though…

Will cuddle you for days without moving if you let him!

9/10 boyfriend here!

Bubba Sawyer

Oh he wants to help you! He wants to be there so you can hold him and feel better, but he’s just so busy! He’s gotta keep house while everyone’s away, but he will be more than happy to take more breaks to check on you!

When you do get him all to yourself, expect lots of warm and nearly crushing hugs! Bubs will definitely want to spoon, and will let you pick who’s the big spoon!

He’ll babble and squawk softly to make you smile. Sometimes you can catch a few words and they almost always include “love” “pretty” and “good”

At night, when it’s prime cuddling time, he BEGS you to sleep on top of him. He just wants to hold you so close! Besides, it’s warm and soft on his tummy, even if his hair is a little scratchy!

8/10 partner for cuddles!!!! If only Drayton would let him stay with you all day!

#slashers x reader #slashers #vincent sinclair #brahms heelshire #brahms hillshire #billy lenz #bubba sawyer #leatherface #vincent sinclair x reader #brahms heelsire x reader #billy lenz x reader #bubba saywer x reader #leatherface x reader #my writing #ghost writes #ask #anon

[unicronian]

a bunch of powers/hybrid smp character design hcs based around their powers in the mod:

(small warning for slight body horror in tubbo and wilbur’s sections, and horror themes in wilbur’s section)

this got long so here’s a snapshot of my fav bits above the read more:

tubbo can open his stomach up like a shulker, and just reach in there and put stuff in and get it out again

wilbur’s physical appearance is dependent on how well rested the person looking at him is

tommy glides by t-posing because his arms are his wings

ranboo can open unhinge his jaw and open his mouth like an enderman, and he has like an extra layer of mouth skin like a snake that you can only see when his mouth is unhinged

Phil hates places with low ceilings cause his wings are super long and he can’t stretch them out

Niki’s got gills on her neck to help filter water, so when she wants to talk to people above water she has to stick just her head out of the water and leave her neck beneath it

You know su!peridot’s augments she had at her intro, jack can like do that with his clawed fingers. Just like detach them at will and control them but they can’t go very far from him so it isnt very useful

Shulk!Tubbo:

tubbo has pretty thick skin with a slightly sickly pallor even though he’s perfectly healthy

he also has a carapace that’s similar in color and texture to a shulker’s shell covering the parts of his body that don’t bend(arms, legs, top of his head, upper chest) he can use these to block sword blows but if the sword is sharp enough it’ll stick cut into his skin

the carapace itself doesnt bleed, but it does heal and tubbo feels pain if it gets cut

like a lobster or turtle the carapace is a part of tubbo’s skin and can’t be removed(without extreme pain)

his hands are also reinforced by his carapace, giving him sharp claws at the tips of his fingers, and this is why he can punch through stone easily and without breaking his hand

he’s also pretty heavy underneath this extra armor and as a result he’s got a lot of intense muscle mass

tubbo can open his stomach up like a shulker, and just reach in there and put stuff in and get it out again, but it has limited storage

it kind of makes his stomach look like a shulker, with interlocking squares

the stuff inside his stomach exists in a type of hammerspace(we’ll just call it shulkerspace) so if you were to cut him open the stuff wouldnt be there

you do NOT want to stick your hand into tubbo’s shulkerspace, he can do it with no ill effects but if someone else did they might as well wave goodbye to that hand even if tubbo doesnt close his shulker mouth on your hand

Phantom!Wilbur:

wilbur can do like... ghost things like turning invisible and walking through walls in phantom state

particularly astute(or anxious) people can sense when wilbur’s nearby in phantom state, but not accurately guess where he is

wilbur oftentimes goes in and out of phantom state without even realizing it, sometimes just vanishing in the middle of the conversation because he let his mind wander

he also burns in the daylight which is sadge but not when in phantom state so he sometimes goes into the phantom state on reflex when entering a very bright room

wilbur can sense how tired people are, and if they are tired enough to summon phantoms wilbur can sense whose insomnia the phantoms are targeting on sight

wilbur looks like how you’d expect a ghost to look: see through, human, or at least... that’s what he looks like when you wake up in the morning

his physical appearance is dependent on how well rested the person looking at him is, but he is always corporeal when out of the phantom state

by nighttime, when you’re getting ready for bed wilbur’s eyes are green and if you look closely they glow in the dark, and if you look closer a skeleton makes itself clear beneath wilbur’s skin. it is not a human skeleton

by morning the next day without sleep transparent membrane stretches between wilbur’s claws and you can clearly see the skeleton. fangs protrude from its mouth and its rib cage stretches grotesquely outwards with every breath wilbur takes

by the second night wilbur’s transparent skin is blue and phantom membrane has escaped the confines of his hand and run down the length of his arm, extra bones begin to grow from the skeleton to accommodate the growing wing. it is harder to see through him.

by dawn of the third morning you can see a tail, more bone than blue, leathery skin, lashing behind wilbur, it seems to always whip itself in your direction. it stings when it touches you, but not for long. his frayed wings are fully formed.

night falls and wilbur’s glowing green eyes are sunken in, practically floating in black eye sockets. his skin looks vacuum sealed, giving you a perfect map of the meatless bones inside. he is entirely opaque, you cannot see through him but his stark white skeleton, expanding, stretching, and clawing at you, is clearly visible

you sleep, and wilbur looks human once again

this version of wilbur doesn’t only exist in the minds of the sleep deprived. if you let him stay in the edges of your vision too long, no matter how rested you are, you can see this form

by the time you focus your vision on him wilbur will be back to his normal state. you can’t see what your brain desperately tries to refuse. it is only when your mental walls have been broken down that you can witness wilbur’s form. for better or for worse.

Avian!Tommy:

instead of having an extra set of limbs like phil tommy’s wings and arms are the same limbs, like a harpy(and like wilbur)

where the wing’s wrist is(essentially where it bends, if you’re unfamiliar with bird anatomy) Tommy has some extra human-like clawed fingers that he uses as hands

tommy isnt strong enough to fly with them, even if he is very light thanks to hollow bones. he can glide, though

yes, this does mean that tommy glides by t-posing

tommy also has talons for feet, which sort of assist him in being slightly faster than everyone

his feathers are the same colors as a red parrot’s, and he keeps them very well maintained so they keep their lustrous color

he’s also got a lot of feathers dotting his body, like around his ears and stomach and they protect him from the cold in the high up areas he likes sleeping in

ok i dont really have anything to say abt his veganism he’s just Like That because parrot(cause god knows chickens are omnivores)

he has a beak that he uses for nuts and seeds and he can make bird noises!

And he’s got a small feathery tail that isnt useful for much but does look cool

Even though he can’t fly Tommy does have a third eyelid like a bird, it goes side to side and is transparent, he mostly just uses it while gliding or swimming

Enderian!Ranboo

Very tall boy with very long arms

Honestly very similar to dsmp!ranboo

Water burns him like acid and leaves behind very distinctive burn scars but he heals pretty easily from water burns

He is Constantly bamboozled by people wearing pumpkins and he’s Not a fan

Ranboo can open unhinge his jaw and open his mouth like an enderman, and he has like an extra layer of mouth skin like a snake that you can only see when his mouth is unhinged

He’ll avoid eye contact at all cost because it agitates him and gets him unreasonably angry at whoever he’s talking to, the others have gotten very good at avoiding eye contact with him, though

Teleporting is a lot of fun to him and he’ll sometimes just teleport around just for the sake of it, because he can sense the change in location when teleporting in a way humans with ender pearls cant

Enderians are the results of people trying to fuse together with end-based magic and so all of them have the half and half texture of their skin, but most of them all have the same powers

Speaking of skin, Ranboo’s ender skin is strangely smooth and he doesn’t have a protruding nose, just slits in his face he smells through

He also doesn’t have any body hair at all, but his long ears generally distract from that

Elytrian!Phil

Phil is an incredibly light person, compared to a human he’d be dangerously underweight

He’s essentially skin, hollow bones, and elytra because if he was anything else he wouldn’t be able to fly especially with armor on

However this and his hollow bones means he’s pretty weak in all areas, especially underground

Thanks to his Brain he gets slow and weak under low ceilings and also sadge

Aside from the kind of unearthly tint to his skin Phil looks pretty human, aside from the elytra of course

He’s got insect wings protected by an elytra. So, elytra on beetles and things are kind of like a half circle protecting the wings and pressing them to the body of the beetle, and this works because beetles are wing shaped- phil is not

So, phil has very unique elytra that completely encase his wings, and the top part moves out of the way to let his wings fold out so they’re like twice his height- and that partially adds to his dislike of low ceilings, he can barely stretch his wings

Phil’s got fragile beetle wings so they look pretty fragile but they can withstand a beating and carry Phil a ways(though it’s partially phil’s innate magic that lets him shoot into the sky)

Phil has a transparent third eyelid just like Tommy

And, he has antennae that he uses to feel the wind while flying

Merling!Niki

Niki essentially has two types of skin: a human-looking thick layer of skin that covers the upper portion of her body and an even thicker scale-like layer that covers the lower half

Her human-like skin is very rough and it doesn’t absorb water like human skin does, the scales are smooth but also don’t absorb water

She has two legs and a long, thick tail she uses to propel herself through the water, the tail is entirely covered in her blue scales

Her hands and feet are webbed so when she swims she spreads her hands out to help push herself through the water

Niki also has decorative fins on various places on her body like her ears, legs, arms and stomach, they’re all blue and can’t be controlled in anyway

She’s got gills on her neck to help filter water, so when she wants to talk to people above water she has to stick just her head out of the water and leave her neck beneath it

Breathing in air and rain at the same time is extremely uncomfortable and leaves her constantly feeling short of breath but she considers it well worth it to walk on land for a period of time

She also has sharp teeth because: yes

She doesn’t have eyelids, though, her eyes are built like a fish’s

Blazeborn!Jack

Jack constantly gives off heat, he wont burn anyone but you’ll get very hot if you stand too close to him for too long

He has metallic blaze skin that glows like molten metal if he was recently on fire or in lava

You know su!peridot’s augments she had at her intro, jack can like do that with his clawed fingers. Just like detach them at will and control them but they can’t go very far from him so it isnt very useful

And, of course, he’s immune to poison and hunger because he’s basically an android, he’s like a gold material and metal cant get poisoned or hungry

Jack will, however, become fatigued if he’s away from intense heat like fire or lava for too long, like a week

He gets hurt in water because the water basically sucks the heat away from him and that actually hurts him

Staying in a cold biome too long would do the same thing if jack didnt go prepared with warm clothing and probably a flint and steel but tbf to jack humans also die in cold biomes if they’re unprepared

I’ve got nothing for fragranceman right now as i’m not sure if schlatt’s going to be on the server a lot

But i might make skins for these!

#powers smp #hybrid smp #tubbo #tommyinnit #wilbur soot #ranboo #philza #jack manifold #nihachu

[actual-fucking-clown]

Take your time then.

Aizawa x gender neutral reader

Story under the cut :)

Unedited but like edited but still not properly edited :)

Hope you enjoy!!!

a/n: it’s been a hot min since I’ve written a fic. I think the last time i was 14 and it was shit and on wattpad. Ha. I hate myself. N e way, I was recently writing some shit for an au me and my friend thought up and in the back of my mind I was like, “you should start writing fics again bc this is kinda fun”, soo lo and behold I made a post asking if anyone would be interested, shared a little too much personal shit in it but whatever, and have now decided to write this mother fucker. (3/25/21)

a/n: not sure if anyone will care about this series of a/n’s but I’m just chronicling thoughts ig. rewriting rn bc my first draft was short and ass. Also I’m thinking about opening requests after this is posted, will go into detail in a diff post maybe. (3/28/21)

a/n: deleted everything, rewriting. I just want to make something that might be decent and if I can give that feeling, y’know those chills you get when you read something utterly gorgeous, but I’m bad at writing. sadge (3/28/21, like several hours later)

a/n: ugh (4/1/21)

a/n: ugh pt 2 electric boogaloo. I can’t seem to move forward with the writing. I realized something like this might happen bc to solve a problem feelings need to be discussed and I fucking hate doing that so you can see where I’m fucking up lmaooooo (4/2/21)

a/n: I read angst to fuel my writing brain. So, read some angst, finally writing agian. This first section is probs as long as the story itself LMFAO(4/5/21)

Started: (3/25/21) Finished: (4/5/21)

Warnings: uh angst, curse words, like a lot, (i saw someone else put this as a warning, do I actually need it?), avoiding problems instead of actually facing them, mentions of shit so-so parenting, mentions of not being able to live up to high expectations, y’know, the works

Synopsis: Aizawa takes in Eri without running it by you first and expects you to be okay with it. That’s funny. He was wrong.

Can I preface this with a thought? I’m going to anyway,

all the fics I read paint him as the sweetest partner and I’m sure he is but I think they miss out on how blunt he is and his whole “Mr. Rationality” thing. So as much as I adore him I think there are situations that he’d be a bit more colder towards, a bit more straightforward about. Maybe even like a bit insensitive about but maybe bc he doesn’t have the full picture or something. so I guess this is another warning but aizawa is a little insensitive in the beginning (but like not really but kinda. it’s complicated)

~

Rain pattered softly against the window. The smell of some old random Bath and Bodyworks candle you’d dug out from a box you’d never bothered to unpack smothered the room. Some Netflix show idly played on a low volume on your computer, you’d lost interest in watching tv awhile ago. You needed a break. After the eventful month you’d been having you really needed this. 

Now of course your whole year so far had been eventful. What with all the villain attacks on you and Shouta’s class and the kidnapping of one of your students, to just dealing with the more mundane problems with your students. No. You had no problem with that. The villains, although not easy, were something you were trained to handle. The smaller problems with your students weren’t arduous either, after all you weren’t too much older than them. 

When reflecting on your situation, from and outside perspective it could be seen as the straw the broke the camels back, which sure, makes sense. After all, you’re bound to be stressed out by everything else, so why would this seemingly insignificant thing weigh heavier than a villain attack? Well if that is the situation why does this single straw feel like it weighs a ton? This is not that. This is not culmination of the events of this year draining the life from you. This is something entirely different. A panic inducing life change that completely took you by surprise mixed with your inability to actually face your problems. 

You don’t blame them. You can’t. They’ve done nothing wrong. A child. A small, probably mentally scarred child is your problem. Well not her personally but the fear taking care of her instills in you. Despite working in the field that you do, you cannot for the life of you handle actual children. Sure you’re a little awkward with your class but at least they’re young adults and (vaguely) mature and independent to a certain extent. The fact that your long term boyfriend just came back one day, small child in tow and said “Hey I’ve gotta look after this one now” not verbatim obviously, for a lack of better words, fucked you up. He basically solo adopted a kid and, let’s be honest, he probably expected you to help out. But how could you? How could this man look at you and think “I want this person to help me raise an already fucked up child?” Ok sure, he doesn’t at first give off the “I’m totally father figure material” vibe but in the end he is extremely competent. You on the other hand, not so much.

You’d never been good with children. Tried your best to steer clear of them. Didn’t matter the place, didn’t matter who’s kid, you couldn’t handle them. You would just stand there, awkwardly, not entirely sure of what to do and petrified that there was the possibility of making some mistake which would upset the child and then oh wow look, your head got chopped right of your shoulders. That’s hyperbole of course but it does sum up the insurmountable fear that overcomes you whenever you have to deal with a child. So considering the fact that your long term boyfriend had suddenly decided to adopt and not at least warn you, didn’t sit right with you.

So, the best and most obvious choice, was to avoid your problem. Avoid Shouta, avoid Eri. Avoid the mention of them and you, avoid it all. And honestly you’d done pretty well so far. You were able to have as little contact with them as possible considering the close proximity of your living quarters in the teacher’s dorms. After all they were legally supposed to give you two separate rooms but you never actually used yours, well until now. You were living it up honestly. Did you feel awful? Of course. He is your boyfriend after all and you were sure Eri doesn’t deserve your cold shoulder but this is probably for the best. What could you offer her? You weren’t sure that you were a good role model for her or anyone for that matter. What did you know about raising kids? it’s not like you had parents to set a proper example for you. Of course they might have shown you what not to do but where do you go from there? Is shit like that really avoidable? You don’t want to be like them. You strive to be better but what if you can’t be. There’s also the added bonus of the fact that raising a kid seems taxing on a relationship. Now matter how strong you were sure that the stress of a kid could break a relationship down that then festers into something toxic and unrecognizable. You didn’t want that. God you couldn’t let that happen. No. This was definitely for the better.

Of course Aizawa didn’t feel the same. He was confused on why his partner had been so blatantly avoiding him. Did he do something wrong? He doesn’t remember doing anything that might’ve upset you. So why now? Why pull away now? He had to get down to the bottom of this but catching you was the hard part. You had been taking on more work, offering more assistance to the other teachers, picking up extra patrols, doing everything and anything to stay away from Shouta. It took him a month but he finally caught up to you. You were tired, worn out he knew that. Instead of loading yourself with work you’d decided to hole yourself up in your room. It was now or never.

You were pulled out of your peace at the sound of a few gentle knocks to your door. You really didn’t want to get it. You honestly couldn’t be bothered. 

“(N/n)? Are you in there?” He hadn’t gotten it wrong right? He hadn’t been too distracted earlier and missed you leaving right?

“What’s up?” You hummed from your place by the window, not bothering to actually open the door.

“Can I come in?” Shouta asked, voice soft. You could barely hear him above the patter of the rain and the low humming of your laptop.

“Uh, no, kinda busy. Got loads of work to do. Need to focus, sorry. Maybe later?” You hesitantly spoke. Not sure if you were convincing enough. 

Apparently you weren’t.

He sighed. “It’s been “later” for an entire month. Please (Y/n) just let me in. Whatever this is we can talk it out.” You had predicted that eventually Shouta would start to try to crack down on whatever the issue was but you didn’t expect it so soon. 

“Uh...no?” You tried, hoping that maybe he’d just give up but that wasn’t Shouta.

“No, you don’t get that option, now please, open the door.” Although it was still soft his voice had taken a more stern tone.

“Oh no I’m dead. I guess I can’t open the door. What a shame. I guess the only way to talk with me now is in the pits of hell.” You quipped, trying to lessen the tension that already ran thick.

“(Y/n).” Aizawa sighed.

“Jeez fine. Talk about pushy.” You quipped once more to no avail.

Opening the door you were met with, well exactly what you expected. He stood there, arms crossed, a stern yet gentle look in his eyes, his lips pulled into a slight frown. 

“Come in.” You mumbled as you stepped further into your room.

“So tell me. What’s wrong?” The sentence stirred so much. Of course you wanted to tell him. You wanted to spill your guts to the man you loved in hopes of comfort but you just can’t. You know you’ll just scare him off. You know you’ll make things worse.

So you stay silent.

He says nothing as he grabs your hands gently and leads you over to your bed. He sits the two of you down on the edge, muting the movie on the laptop sitting behind him.

“You know you can tell me if something’s bothering you right?” Shouta sent you a warm smile. 

You weren’t very comfortable with discussing your feelings sometimes, it mostly stemmed from the fact that you never really could discuss them with anyone growing up which made it harder to confide in anyone now, as at this point bottling things up was a habit. But this was also just something that you were sure that you couldn’t talk about.

Silence answered him once again.

Now he took sometime to think about his approach, think about what could’ve happened that made you pull away. What did he do that was different from his norm? He was genuinely stumped and the fact that you weren’t helping him confused him even more.

You decided to take this time to lament the situation too. What was he going to do? Should you actually tell him or play it off? If you play it off will he still insist that something is wrong? If you tell him will he leave you? If you don’t tell him will he leave you? You risked a glance at him, he was still deep in thought.

Why did you have to adopt this fucking kid without at least warning me?

“What?” Your head shot up at the sound of his shocked voice.

“What?” You asked, genuinely confused.

“Eri’s the problem...?” He spoke slowly, not entirely sure if he’d heard you right.

“Did I say that out loud?” You squeaked.

“I’m pretty sure you mumbled something along the lines of “why’d you have to adopt that fucking kid”.” Shouta said, unsure if he’d heard wrong. Wanting to have heard wrong.

“No no no no no no! It’s not like that! I mean it is like that but not like that!” You frantically waved your hands in hopes of defusing the situation.

The way he looked at you made you want to cry. You felt horrible. You felt like the biggest asshole in the world and, at this point you probably were. He looked at you with such a look of heartbreak and disappointment and confusion it made you sick to your stomach. You felt light-headed and started shaking. You were right. You were right. You were always right. God why did you have to be right! Why did you have to be like this? Scared of raising a fucking child! It was asinine and irrational and you could probably move past it  but thanks to your stupid fucking brain you just sealed your fate.

You scooted away from him still waving your hands frantically as no’s tumbled endlessly from your lips. You tried sputtering an apology, anything so that he wouldn’t look at you like that but nothing stuck. Nothing was comprehensible. Nothing worked. Nothing would work. Nothing will work. You were hopeless. It was hopeless. 

“If it isn’t like how it seems then tell it to me straight.” Shouta finally spoke up.

You took a second to come down from your panic. You steeled your nerves as much as possible before you spoke. 

“Um well, I have nothing against her it’s just that a little heads up would’ve been nice? I’m not all that great with kids so this is just kind of weird is all.” You were purposefully being vague in hopes that he’d understand what you meant and also maybe drop it.

“Not great with kids? You’re literally a teacher.” He pointed out.

“Yeah you know but she’s like a kid kid and let’s be honest I’m not too great with the students either.” You awkward laughed. So he wasn’t getting it.

“Wha-you’re fine with the students and I’m sure you’ll be fine with Eri, there was no reason to avoid me over this.” Shouta sighed. As good as he was with dealing with people, he was equally as shit. Or maybe it was just the fact that you gave him very little to work with. It was probably a bit of both. Still his dismissiveness was not helping you right now.

“No, no, no, no. I think I’ll stay here. Uh, good luck with your parenthood escapades and sorry to leave you high and dry like this but that’s going to have to be a no from me.” You rambled. He seemed to be getting a little tired of this.

“(Y/n) stop being irrational. She’s not even our kid I’m just looking after her for now. Why are you being difficult? I told you you were fine with the students and you’ll be fine with Eri, what else do you want to hear?” Shouta grumbled.

“Well uh I don’t know, uh...” You trailed off, this seemed to be going in a direction you really didn’t want it to go. A slight hostility settling in the air.

At your lack of a proper answer he clicked his tongue. He took a moment to reassess the situation. There had to be something he was missing. After all you were getting really worked up but if you weren’t going to talk to him there was nothing he could do. He shook his head before running a frustrated hand through his hair.

“(Y/n), please, please, just be honest with me. Whatever it is that’s bothering you, you can tell me. But I won’t be able to understand if you don’t.” Aizawa sighed, deciding that getting worked up about this was not the way to go, especially when you seemed to be especially distraught.

“Uh, god the thing is I don’t know entirely what to say to put the shitshow in my head into perspective.” You mumbled, trying desperately to figure out what to say that could clear the air but nothing seemed to be coherent enough.

“Take your time.” He decided that this was the best approach to things, making sure neither party got too worked up lest this turn into a fight.

The rain continued to patter softly against the window and your candle continued to burn an slightly off floral-ish scent.  A deafening silence hung in the air because even though he was being as patient as possible some of his frustration leaked through, it was bound to though so you couldn’t exactly blame him. After all, you were probably equally as frustrated with yourself too. 

“I’m just not good in a position like this. I’m not good with kids, especially someone like Eri who’s already so broken. You have that nurturing nature, it comes natural to you but I’m not on that level. I  don’t know the first thing about caring for a child let alone one as already traumatized as her. I’d fuck it up and only make things worse. I don’t want you to reassure me that I’ll be okay with her, I want you to understand that I’m not comfortable with this and that it might take me awhile to come around. I’m sure I sound like the biggest asshole ever but please understand that this just isn’t something I’m ready for.” You had rambled a bit, you were aware of that, but it was the only way that you could properly express your feelings without making things too complicated.

Aizawa said nothing. Trying to figure out how to go about things.

Was he upset? Yeah, you two, even after several long years of being together, hadn’t discussed moving forward in your relationship in depth. And if he’d tried you seemed content with the point you two were at so he left it be, no reason to try and move forward when what you had was already fine the way it was. But recently he’d been craving more. Some mornings, when he’d be the first to wake, he’d study your features in the soft light of the sunrise and wonder what it’d be like to properly settle down with you. Get married, start a family, all that jazz. He’d taken in Eri only because it was the most rational decision. His quirk would be good for quelling hers had it ever gotten out of hand. But it also seemed to quell his musings of something more with you. He had imagined you being a good parental figure for the little girl and it made his heart flutter and his stomach explode with butterflies. But now seeing that that wasn’t what you wanted and how you weren’t ready for it, it stung. But in the end, he loved you. He’d easily give his life for you. So, if that meant waiting he’d wait. He’d wait a million years if he had to. He could do it.

Once again he spoke,

“Take your time then. I can wait.”

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[8uny]

encanto spoilers (copy and pasted from my notes)

-As with Disney movies sometimes, trailer did the movie a disservice. There was that 3 headed dog scene in the trailer and people were trying to connect it to columbian folklore and got the idea that Mirabel would go to the magic realm to save the magic. but actually in the movie the dog was cereberus from greek mythology and wasnt actually a character or there it was a visual metaphor for how hard her sister works where it feels like shes fighting a big dog. i felt the same way above Brave where the movie has a lot going for it and a big heart but the trailer takes the most epic and adventurous shots to promise an epic adventure movie but the movie ISNT ACTUALLY ABOUT THAT.. its about FAMILY with minimal adventuring... it was worse in Brave (i really thought it was gonna be an epic adventure movie when it was just hijinks) but still notable here.

-i felt like they didnt play with musical logic as much as other movies, youre more stuck in the realm of 'so did this happen and people just think its normal in universe or are we in a characters imagination or....' ambiguity type of shit. i think like beauty and beast and tangled and moana and even frozen did it much better

-keeping track of all the family members was easier than i thought. except shapeshifting boy was a useless character sadge he had my favorite design and power. everyone else brought at least something to the story

-little leopard boy had a lot of setup to do cool things but never actually did anything cool. like when he overheard bruno and mirabel and was like 'the rats told me' like okay cool what next >:) (nothing). esp since he was set up as like, her favorite family member in the start.

-the house is my favorite character i love how it was animated and how much personality it had. spoilers when the house died i expected people to mourn it so much more because it felt like such a real person. or that we'd figure out the house had abuelo's soul in it or some shit

-i think Luisa's song wouldve benefited from being either a little later or establishing Luisa as a character more firmly. because it is a GREAT song and she is a GREAT character but i think it wouldve hit so much harder if we like... we saw her the way she feels like she's being percieved, we see her as invincible and stoic and no weakness. like if mirabel monologued about how strong and reliable luisa is, or expressed doubt when eargirl told her 'luisas been acting weird' like going 'it's LUISA!! NOTHING bothers her!! youre crazy' like really truly showing off how people never ever even consider she might be struggling before she does a musical number about her feelings https://youtu.be/tQwVKr8rCYw Like listen. This is my FAVORITE SONG IN THE MOVIE. ITS SO GOOD, I just think it could've hit harder with more setup.

also you can see how theyd use the dog fight shot from this song in the trailer and youd go "wow!!! they fight giant mosnters!!!" and then there are no giant monsters in the movie -mirabel is a likable protagonist and i like the set up of the movie, but the logic of magic and it's rules arent explained super well. spoilers and i dont think theyve shouldve gotten their powers back in the end, especially as the lesson is 'your value as a person is not your talents' like let them be normal people. -i wish the soundtrack was an inch less Pop Music and an inch more traditional? like i think Coco still stands out as the best of the most recent Disney-Pixar films because it built such a strong world. the idea of exploring this beautiful land of the dead was a perfect setting for an animated movie, and it had a level of grandeur and scale that Soul, Luca, and Encanto just didnt quite have. and the rules and logic of the afterlife felt real and reasonable vs the frustrating plot holes in Soul, no explanation why ppl hate sea monsters in Luca, and Encanto just being like 'the source of the magic is loving your family'. like i didnt really think Encanto had an inciting moment that made the house fall apart. wish it was something like, 'the cracks started after bruno left' or 'the cracks get noticably worse because of 'X'" the magic was just a little too wishywashy, especially for a movie where the plot is UNRAVELLING the MYSTERY of why the magic is the way it is. its like they cared more about keeping things ambigious (is this mirabel's fault :O?) than keeping things logical (it isn't lol( final resultes: 7/10 not as good as coco

#8uny rants #i wrote this out a while ago but figured i should post it here for posterity #its very train of thought rambling but this is to remind you all why my 'talk tag' is 'rants'