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pestis-blight · 2 years

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I know it's not my place to rant

I know it's not exactly going to change anything

And I know I've made a semi-humorous post on it addressing this lightly but my god does the DC space have an issue with infantilising Tetch

And yeah, I'm gonna make this personal. So if you don't want to read how someone who's BEEN infantilised due to their mental state fucking hates what the fans are doing to Tetch then 1. Evaluate why and 2. Move on

If themes such as this upset you then that is completely rational, my point is mainly to address the fact that this keeps cropping up and it's not just one flavour either. Please keep yourself safe.

I've since calmed down from writing this but the point still stands; It is upsetting to see Jervis Tetch (or any other clearly mentally ill / nerodivergent character) infsntilised because of his symptoms and traits.

I'll preface this little post by saying I am still learning language that isn't rooted in ableism so if I do say something / a term that isn't appropriate please let me know - it's the only way I can learn

That being said. As an adult man who is neurodivergent and suffers delusional episodes / Hallucinations it is painful how quick I have been babied and infantilized.

Because somehow my peers equate my symptoms to inadequancy, I have been exposed to pandering tones, baby talking, and downright belittling and pathetic behaviour. It has effected my self esteem. It has effected my cripplingly small ego. I have no faith in myself because of it. Because of my illness and divergency my peers and people I once considered friends treated me as a child. Lesser.

I have been parented by people with the mental maturity of a walnut. And oh my god when you point that out ? "Oh how cute is he, he's getting all angry !"

What does this have to do with Jervis? If it wasn't obvious, the space which many Jervis fans reside seem to treat him like a child.

The initial, underlying, issue was simply how he is overly childish at a constant. I will outwardly say here I have watched the Animated Series, I have only exposed myself to Animated series content. This isn't directed at Gotham or any other version because I have no idea how they act.

But within TAS space is it painful to see iteration after iteration of "sweet soft boy" with out the rest of his personality. THATs the issue. The complete lack of any semblance of "mad scientist" - He's a god damn robotic genius and neuroscientist. He's not a ten year old. He's not a childish ball of soft joy. He is an adult.

To deliberately or even subconsciously compare him to a child, or make him act as such is problematic to say the least in my opinion. It infantilises genuine struggles.

I know when I'm having "a moment" so to speak that I am not myself. I am not present. I am overwhelmed by paranoid fear and I cannot remember a damn thing after. All I know is that I've not been myself, sometimes for a few days, and that I have more than likely pushed those close to me away.

To see a character with the same struggles, the same delusional nature (in fannon) be reduced to a stock cube of "plot" or palatable content is painful. To have fic after fic be about "looking after" a character in an episode only for it to be blatant faux-parenting is painful.

Idk what the point of this post is other than to rant and cry and scream at a void that this isn't right - My god please this isn't right -

I don't speak for everyone with delusions / hallucinations but I know I speak for myself

It fucking sucks to see him "parented" when the reality of that situation is so belittling

#dc jervis tetch #btas jervis tetch #btas mad hatter #vent #rant #This isn't to say all iterations of Jervis are like this #i have seen many which I enjoy #but the underlying current is still present in the spacd #i just want to enjoy the content without feeling ill #'just dont expose yourself to it' to what? dont expose myself to belittling nature?#lmao k #Im just so... frustrated #i guess this is the straw for the camels back #:/#blight.babbles

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pomminine · 2 years

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e-1! And if I'm way off base, please...explode me with your mind, these are just the Vibes I get;;;;

omgomgoMGOMGOMGOMG HANKSTHOMPSON LOVE OF MY LIFE THANK YOU !!! ! <333 i may be biased but i think u r on the nose 200% accurate entirely correct <33 thank u for letting me pass the vibe check 😌 i am going to scream into a pillow now i am literally so happy i think i am gonna pass out i am lightheaded with joy ilysm bestie thank u !!!!! <333 and if u r wrong then no u aren't i will simply reinvent myself so that u r right 😌😌

#lmao THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!! ily bestie <333 #ur actually rlly spot on .. 4 the albums #i listen 2 a lot of OK Computer (fave album rn radiohead loml) & nirvana & artic monkeys n the fact that u think i give off nirvana vibes..#fANTASTIC 😌😌 thank you for this u made my year better i am framing this and pinning it up on my wall <333 #the drink u r spot on .. .#and 2 be perfectly honest and expose myself as a fake danocel .. . bro i have not seen LMS yet . i am so sorry. i am a fake and a fraud.#but from what ive seen of dwayne hoover omg i wanna be him so bad. i wanna be exactly just like him so bad so thank u thank u thank u <3 #lmao tbh i would not know what id do if u told me i was any of the other characters besides maybe .. . brian wilson hehe #idk if i was eli sunday like i got on them uquizzes.. . . must be the christianity/catholic upbringing leaking thru 😬 am a sucker for #when actors go ham on crazy religious sermons tho <33 #idk take this rant how you will lmao i am honestly just lightheaded and i feel like im floating ur response has made me ecstatic i hope you #you got me kicking my legs and grinning like an idiot and covering my face w my hands n ohh man <33333333333333!!!!!!!!#have a lovely day week month year forever and ever and ever !!! i hope u find everything u need and are surrounded by kind n cool people #like u !!!!!!!!!!!!! ilysm !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3 #hanksthompson #fr i am going 2 cry thank u this is so cool of u thank u i am giving u a kiss on the cheek ily <3 thank u for making me smile #TUMBLR BETTER NOT MESS UP THESE TAGS PLS TUMBLR I AM TRYING 2 GIVE HANKSTHOMPSON A SMALL NOTE OF MY APPRECIATION N DEVOTION N LOVE FOR HER!

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muwapsturniolo · 3 months

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✯FreshLove for the Fit✯

pt1

Summary: Y/N decides to DM Chris after receiving threats and things start to escalate between the two.

Warnings: NSFW content, swearing, mentions of jerking off, titties are mentioned, dildos, masturbation.

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Y/N was dying of laughter.

Two days ago, one of her favorite content creators decided to go on a spam spree and like all of her posts. She was confused, to say the least, then she became flattered.

Now here she is, full-on cackling as she reads the hate comments she's receiving.

12-year-old girls' calling her all types of names and sending death threats, all because Chris Sturniolo was most likely jerking off to her?

It's hilarious.

She starts laughing even harder when she realizes Chris unfollowed her and unliked all of her posts.

She decides to mess with him a little bit and sends a DM on Instagram

Y/I/N

yo, your fans are cray asf. you need to tell them to leave me tf alone.

Chris's heart dropped when he saw the notification. Y/N was DM'ing him? He hesitantly clicks on the notification and his mouth runs dry when he sees what she said.

He felt like shit.

He isn't dumb, he saw what some of the fans were saying to her online. He thought it was crazy they were sending death threats to her because he was horny and dumb. He decides to respond back.

Christophersturniolo

i feel like shit for the stuff they are saying to and about you. it's not fair at all and I'm sorry.

Y/I/N

LMAO, im playing with you. ion care about these little ass girls. they mad at me because you were horny and jerked your shit to me. shit is funny.

Chris can't help but sigh, and laugh in relief. He really didn't want Y/N to be mad at him.

Christophersturniolo

fuck you had me scared. I'm glad you're handling this well though.

Y/I/N

lmao, i can handle myself very well thank you

Chris finds himself being bold behind a screen.

Christophersturniolo

i like the way you handle yourself.

Y/N smiles and turns onto her stomach, kicking her feet as if she's a schoolgirl texting her crush.

Y/I/N

so i take it you like my content?

She knows he likes it, but she wants to see him admit it. Y/N was a bit cocky, she knows she's pretty as fuck, has a nice body, and that her content is one of the best.

She just likes hearing people say it.

Christophersturniolo

love it actually

Y/I/N

tell me what you love about it.

Christophersturniolo

i love that you wear my brand as your getting off. the way you tweak your nipples through the shirts as you shove the dildo into yourself, chasing an orgasm. i love the way your moans are soft yet so loud at the same time. Don't get me started on your thighs, id love to be in between them all day.

Both of them are staring at their phones, bodies shaking as they take deep breaths. this conversation took a turn none of them were expecting.

Chris can't believe he's talking to a CamGirl who could actually expose this whole conversation.

Y/N can't believe she's even talking to Chris. Hell, she barely has wrapped her head around the fact he enjoys her content.

Christophersturniolo

what would you say if i wanted you to call me

Y/I/N

i would tell you to check my stories tab for prices.

Not even five minutes later, Y/N gets a cash app notification for $200 with the message

"FT me and wear FreshLove."

There's a phone number attached and Y/N is shocked. Her FT prices are only $130 but he sent $200.

She copies the number before pasting it into the Facetime log and pressing the call button.

It rings three times before Chris picks up.

"They look good," both of them think to themselves.

Chris is wearing a pink hoodie that makes Y/N go feral on the inside. Pink is one of her many favorite colors and to see him looking so good laid out in it, she's clenching her legs. It doesn't help that his camera angle is low. She wonders if that's what he would like while his dick is in her throat.

Y/N is in fact wearing FreshLove just like Chris asked (it was more so a demand but that's not the point), and he's trying to contain himself. It was obvious the pink shirt may be a size too small considering it was hugging her chest tightly, allowing her pierced nipples to peak through. His mind is running wild as he imagines fucking her while she's decked out in his brand.

"Hi,"

Chris is shocked when he hears the tone of her voice. He doesn't know what he was expecting, but he didn't expect something so soft and dainty. No wonder her moans sound the way they do.

"Hey..." Chris responds.

"What did you want to call for?" for some reason, Chris is too shy to admit the real reason he wanted to call. How do you tell a girl you only wanted to Facetime, in hopes she fucks herself on her pink dildo so he can jerk off.

"I don't know."

Y/N tilts her head to the side as she looks at him, "I think you know you're just too scared to say it." Her words are taunting,

Chris doesn't like it.

"Not scared to admit anything. I just figured you wouldn't like me telling you to go ahead and grab that pink dildo and fuck yourself for me. I was raised to be a gentleman after all." Chris smirks seeing Y/N get shy. Although her skin is brown, he can tell there's a faint reddish tint to them.

He keeps going, "Don't act all shy, like you don't post yourself online doing the same thing. After all that is how I found you."

Y/N likes being degraded. It's one of the many kinks she has.

"But I won't have you do that, I want to get to know you first."

Y/N is shocked. usually, when she does these calls, the guys automatically demand that she strip and start playing with herself. Although this whole interaction will be transactional, it's a breath of fresh air for her.

The call continues, both of them laughing and talking for more than an hour. The conversations jump from topic to topic. One minute they are talking about music (Y/N was shocked when Chris hadn't heard of Jorja Smith), favorite foods, and movies.

Suddenly Y/N asks a question that's been on her mind, " Why did you send $200 when the price was $130?"

"Because I wanted to" he answers so quick and nonchalantly, it surprises Y/N.

"But you didn't have to, especially if we didn't do anything sexual." When Y/N looks back at her phone, she sees a smirk made its way across Chris's face.

"I have a proposition for you."

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i actually hate this so much but i did want to put out a second chapter 😭 let me know if yall like it or what you want to happen. im very open to suggestions!!!

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ohbo-ohno · 7 months

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ok but bo (this is ceilidh but not exposing my main) puppy soap who makes reader play puppy and kitty when she is NOT into it LMAO and when she looks to Ghost like "this is insane, right? he's lost his mind" Ghost just stares at her and tells her that kitties meow idk im losing my mind

@ceilidho!!!! kisses hello hi!!! this is hysterical LMAO thank you for sending it to me

i have an ask rn that uses the words "over spoiled purebred kitten behavior vs the over excited fully body wagging mutt" and im hoarding it for myself like a tasty treat but it fits this perfectly

it could be sooooo funny too. johnny is like fully into the puppy part of puppy play, that man will kneel and hold his hands in a little paw shape and pant with his tongue out if he's told to beg. "speak" gets a bark. like that man is a puppy idk what to tell you.

and you are not a kitten. you're not, you're just not! like sure, maybe you really enjoy the feeling of simon's hand passing over your hair (maybe even a little rub at your ears), and maybe you make little moans that might sound a little tiny bit like a purr but!!!! you're not a cat!!!! not like johnny is a puppy!!!!

johnny does not care. wants to fuck his pretty little kitty :( you gave him tiny little licks with the tip of your tongue before sucking his dick once and he just never stopped thinking about it. gives you a looong tail plug and pulls it, laughs when you yowl and jump a foot in the air, says of course you're a kitten! look at the way you act!

ghost doesn't push it but there's a time johnny begs you to meow - honest to god meow! - while he's fucking you, and when you look over at him for a little bit of solidarity he just raises an eyebrow and is like "well? it's what kittens say, isn't it?"

#asks and answers #ghoap x reader #bo writes #ceilidho

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taylortruther · 3 months

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For me, I’m not bothered by the idea or whatever of Taylor being lgbt. I don’t give a single fuck what her sexuality is. I’m queer myself (open to all genders but also deeply asexual lmao), so truly I don’t care if Taylor is straight as a board or bi or super gay or WHATEVER. I get bothered by people picking apart her life to make her fit into their narrative. There’s been Taylor songs I’ve heard and applied them to same sex relationships too (like to me, ivy is gay af) but not in a “omg Taylor MUST be gay way” if that makes sense. And as someone who is still forced to be in the closet for the most part, it makes me so nervous to see people talking about it and trying to “expose it”, it feels too close to outing for me.

Taylor could post rn and be like “my whole life and career has been a lie, all those guys were beards I have always loved women and the gaylors were right” and I’d be absolutely thrilled for her. I just think discussing such personal, unconfirmed things can be harmful. Like we know for a fact her and Travis are together, no harm in discussing them. But we don’t know what she and Karlie were for fact and it feels like im invading her privacy.

I want Taylor to be herself and be loved and happy but i really hate how many “gotcha” type posts I see of people trying to saying Taylor is lgbt. I saw someone on Reddit say one that they KNOW for a FACT that Taylor is gay because she “leaves them messages in her songs saying so” like babes what

i think you are speaking for a lot of my rational anons

#i will say however that this applies to all rumors/gossip/etc about taylor not just the queer ones #but the gaylor theories are what get people most up in arms #and that's the rub

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lieu-rey · 24 days

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yeah I'm aware of it, and the way I found out was kinda wild bc I literally opened my twitter the other day and the very first thing I see is my own art. I was dumbfounded to say the least lmao. im still not gonna put this person on full blast bc i dont want them getting a bunch of hate for this. regardless, thank you so much for letting me know, i really do appreciate it!

and I actually was gonna make a post about this since I've always allowed reposts with permission, it was in my bio for literal years, but it seems like people could never respect my bare minimum request of at least telling me that they're gonna repost my art. I've said yes to every person whos asked for my permission, honestly bc I'm just so thankful to them for honoring that.

I think the worst part is that for too long now, i thought so little of my own work that I didn't care that much where it went. and now I realize that I make this art with my own hands with years of practice and years of improvement and hours of work, I enjoy making it and i get to put boundaries and put in an effort to protect it. while I share it here so that I can share my silly drawings with others that can enjoy it too, there's something disheartening about a repost getting way more traction than my original post, especially on a completely different site. I understand that if I wanted alot more people to see my art then I'd post it myself on twitter (and not everyone has a tumblr either), but that doesn't give other people a right to post it for me. not to mention the fact that they're exposing my art to AI scraping on other websites, even when I go through the effort of glazing/nightshading it.

basically, I'm not allowing reposts anymore. not that that'll do much in the grand scheme of things but I'm just not about it anymore bc im sick of not being given the barest modicum of consideration.

moral of the story: for the love of fucking god have some goddamn respect for artists. no matter their skill, no matter how they feel about reposts.

#and again thank you for letting me know!#am i overreacting? maybe. but im exhausted man.#asks

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mateoluvr · 1 year

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what are you hiding?

gekko/mateo x f!reader

wc: 3k | angst | tw: mentions of wounds, blood + gunshots

context: you are unaware of this ‘agent life’ that he held. it gave a bad impression onto you one day when he comes home extremely late in the night, covered up in wounds. and he refused to explain himself.

a/n: i tried to add like a scene at the very end.. and im lowkey questioning myself if i did ok with it or not LMAO anyways enjoy!! took all my writing juice from today on this :’>

after another excruciating long day of work, you left the office to be greeted with pouring rain from the gloomy sky at the entrance.

oh great.

you groaned, you didn’t have an umbrella with you. so you decided to go to�� a nearby café to wait out the rain, because you weren’t about to walk home and end up getting drenched.

you ordered a small coffee with two sugar and one cream, and sat down at a table. you pulled out your laptop and decided to work on other assignments at the very least if you wanted time to pass by quickly. before you knew it, a few hours had passed since you got to the café. you check the time on your phone, and was shocked to see you’ve been there for three hours. it was now 10pm, and you got there around 7pm-ish. you quickly packed your things, and left. but of course it was still raining, but at least it was just a drizzle so it was bearable to walk home through.

once you got home, you call out your boyfriend’s name.

“mateo! i’m home.”

no one answered back though, which you found odd since he was usually home by now. you checked your phone to see if he texted you or anything, and to your surprise there was no trace of him. you sighed, and just decided to go shower to ease yourself.

after that, you decided to cook up something quick and made an extra portion for mateo whenever he came back.

another hour passes, you already ate while his food was still sitting there, and he was still absent. you started to worry, and decided to try to call him, but immediately got sent to voicemail.

‘the person you were trying to call is unable to pick up the phone at this very moment. please try again later’

confusion and frustration was all you could feel at that very moment.

where the hell was mateo?

you ended up shaking it off, and just packing his food portion and placing it in the fridge for him to eat later. you took a sticky note and wrote ‘there’s food in the fridge’ and placed it on the counter so he knew whenever he decided to come back.

as you got in bed, in defeat of trying to stay up for mateo you felt your phone vibrating against your skin. it was a call from your boyfriend. you perked up and answered.

“hello?”

“hermosa, can you open the door? i forgot my keys.”

“okay teo, give me a second.” as you hang up, walking down the stairs to make sure you don’t accidentally trip. you unlocked the door, and before you greeted mateo, you couldn’t help but notice the bandages and bruises he had around the exposed parts on his body.

did he get into a fight?

no. he couldn’t have.

you knew him, he wasn’t that type of guy. or was he..? you were immediately snapped back into reality, when your boyfriend was calling your name, waving at you.

“earth to y/n, you okay?” he asks out of curiosity, because he saw your eyebrows furrow when you glanced at him.

“oh sorry.. here come in.” as you walked away from the entrance so he could come in. as he got settled, you started to question the bandages and what-not.

“mateo.. are you okay? you’re all wrapped up.” the concern in your voice was noticeable.

“i’m fine cariño, please don’t worry.” he tries to reassure you, but you didn’t buy it.

“can you at least tell me what happened, and why’d you come home so late..?”

“it’s nothing that imporant y/n, por favor odio cuando estas preocupado.” he replied with dread in his voice.

mateo tries his best to change the topic, and ends up convincing you that he was fine. but you couldn’t help but feel this ominous gut feeling, deep down you knew he was probably hiding something from you, but couldn’t pinpoint why or what he was keeping secret from you.

“if you say so then, i left some food for you in the fridge, i’m going to go to sleep it’s late.” you yawned, picking yourself up the stairs.

“gracias, goodnight bebé, please sleep well.”

as days go by, you come home to no one, mateo coming home very later than usual. you hated this new regular thing, and your suspicions about mateo grew by the day. you couldn’t shrug off the fact that he was hiding something from you, knowing he wasn’t someone to lie or keep secrets from you. so, why was he doing it now? did you do something wrong? so many negative questions to yourself rushing through your mind, it killed you not knowing the truth. your intrusive thoughts got the best of you. which ended up you going into his room looking through his things in any hopes of context clues. part of you felt guilty for snooping this low, scrummaging through his belongings. you ended up finding some pieces of paper labeled “valorant protocol,” and him going by a codename of “gekko.” you were intrigued wondering what’s this?

you read the notes, one reading

“..gekko we need you in tomorrow. you, astra, harbor, and neon are going to go to 14°07'AD.4"N8 74°53'XY"E8 to investigate the sites. we’ve gotten reports of radianite being present, please report in the commons room by 7am sharp tomorrow.”

-brimstone

huh? who are all those people, and what was ‘radianite’? you puzzled. you look through the rest of the pile, and all of the messages seem to be around the same, with different coordinates and names each time. but, even with these clues you couldn’t figure out what this truly meant. sure, he definitely is hiding something, but what does all this mean? you tried to see if there was anything else, and ended up finding his extra id card attached to a lanyard at the very bottom of his nightstand’s drawer. his face was on it, along with his alias ‘gekko,’ the name you know him by, and his agent number (22) it presumes?

before being able to process it, your phone rang. it was from an unknown number. you picked up, and before you knew it tears trickled down your face. you got news that mateo was in the hospital. you left his room in a messy state you created, trying to get to the hospital as fast as your two feet could get you. you were out of breath by the time you got there.

you ran to the receptionist desk to figure out what room your boyfriend was in.

“our patient mateo should be in room 215-a ma’am.” the receptionist informed you.

you went straight up, and practically barged the door to his ward open. you saw him hooked up to an iv pump. you ran towards him, calling out his name in an unsteady tone. he was unconscious. the doctor walks in a few minutes after your arrival, explaining what happened.

“he is currently in critical condition, we are unsure if he’ll be up anytime soon- or even make it i’m sorry ma’am.”

you were in denial, there’s no way your loved one was right there in front of you in that state.

as the doctor tries to keep his professionalism, deep down he felt bad for you, you sat there beside mateo weeping.

“..i’ll give you some space ma’am, once again i’m sorry.” the doctor walks out, closing the door to contain your privacy, but someone else ended up entering. it was a tall broad man, who wore a greenish-jacket. unsure, of who he was you were startled, which also startled him.

“who are you?” you asked while wiping your tears away from your face with your shirt’s sleeves.

“oh hello there, i’m harbor, gekko’s coach, and you are?”

“i’m y/n, mat- gekko’s girlfriend.” you stuttered, still getting used to this unfamiliar name he also went by.

“ah, i see, he talks about you a lot when we’re training. the boy has the attention span of a goldfish.” he jokes trying to brighten up the room’s sorrowful presence.

you appreciated his attempt to cheer you up a bit, but couldn’t bring your mind off the motionless mateo laying on the hospital cot.

“mr. harbor, do you know what happened to him?” you turned to him, seeing his eyebrows furrow realizing how bad of a state mateo was currently in.

“i- yes i do.” he replied grabbing a chair placing it aside you. he started from the beginning.

[flashback to the day of the 14°07'AD.4"N8 74°53'XY"E8 investigation mission]

“alright agents, you are now entering the city of flowers, please be careful and wary of your surroundings as this area is currently unfamiliar to us.” brimstone says through the earpiece.

“‘gotcha jefa.” gekko replies in a playful tone.

the four agents go to the center, and workout a plan before heading to their designated places.

“okay, astra and neon, you two explore site c, i’ll take gekko with me to explore site a. we’ll meet back up on site b, copy that?” harbor explains.

they all nod, taking off to their sites. as gekko and harbor reached site a after a few minutes of following a map with the area’s layout they hear there was another person following them.

“coach.. did’ya hear that?”

harbor nods in agreement, and asks him to send dizzy out to scout close by. he takes dizzy out of his pouch, and sends her up.

“up you go!” dizzy doesn’t catch anything, and drops back down.

“you did good.” gekko whispers retrieving her back.

“that’s odd.. i swore that footstep was nearby.”

“well, she didn’t see anything so i guess we’re just hearing things coach.”

“maybe we’re paranoid, but please keep your guard up still, that’s the only information we have as of right now.”

they continued to slowly explore site a, but gekko ends up wandering somewhere else without harbor noticing until it was too late. a gun shot was fired, harbor was alerted, and turned his back to see gekko missing.

???

harbor yelled out his name, not knowing where he could’ve went he comms into his earpiece that he’s missing to the other two. neon and astra ran towards harbor’s location immediately.

“gekko, do you copy!?”

there was no answer, but a few more gunshots were fired from afar. so the three went closer to the sounds.

“water rising!” harbor walls the nearby entrances to make some space.

“how’d you even lose the boy in the first place?” astra questioned harbor.

“i let him out of my sight for a few minutes, and he disappeared.”

“guys! there’s people shooting ‘round here let’s talk later and find gekko first please.” neon rolled her eyes.

“right, we have gekko to worry about right now.”

as they fought with enemies who are present, neon spots the blatant neon green hair boy nearby.

“gekko’s over by a link guys!” she shouts to the others, throwing her wall up to safely cross.

she’s greeted with gekko’s critters all worried about him, wingman especially. she sees the small yellow blob shaking his legs in hopes of a response, but he was already out cold.

“guys! assistance needed, gekko’s unresponsive.”

“blocking fire!” harbor throws out his cove onto neon and gekko.

“this sucks, sage isn’t here to heal him back up.”

“well we have to get out of this predicament quickly, this boy needs serious medical attention or he’s not going to make it,” astra comments.

“brimstone, do you read me?” harbor comms into his earpiece.

“affirmative.”

“sir, gekko needs help immediately, he’s losing blood by the second.”

brimstone notices, as he goes to check gekko’s vitals on his pad.

“this damn boy, always getting into trouble.. alright i’ll try my best to send support immediately, try your best to make your way back to starting location.”

“copy that.” harbor replies.

harbor quickly explains the plan to astra and neon.

“alright i’ll watch over gekko, you two hold b upper and b main for a bit in case if there’s anymore enemies.”

they nodded, and held their said angles while harbor looks through the area’s layout map to see the safest way back to their starting point. he ends up deciding to shoot through a link’s door, then he’ll wall off the close angles so the three could get out with gekko.

“danger close, neon watch out!” astra yells as she saw a glimpse of a guy around b link, and pushes neon out of the way to shoot at them.

“wow.. salamat astra- wait another one incoming, watch out to the left astra!”

multiple gunshots were being fired from both sides until astra decided they should get going now since being enclosed in a small area wasn’t ideal.

“we should fall back, i’ll wall off our a link to buy us some time.” astra says going into astral form as she sets out her cosmic divide.

“i’ll carry gekko, you two just fend them off while we make our way got it?”

as they fought their way out, they ended making it out safely without anyone obtaining major injuries, at most a few scratches. brimstone’s backup support ends up arriving, and they board onto the helicopter he sent out. the three agents panted, tired out from all the havoc that just went down.

“we’re going to have to bring gekko to a regular hospital back in california, sage isn’t at base currently so she’s unable to aid the boy.” brimstone looks at gekko’s body, covered in red. his vest was stained in blood from the gunshot wounds around his chest.

[end of flashback]

fast forward, harbor covered everything that went down which led to mateo being in that state.

“it’s completely my fault he’s like this, i’m sorry dear.” harbor sighs, guilt visible in his voice.

you both sit there in silence, mourning until a miracle happened as mateo slowly regains his consciousness.

“ugh.. w-where am i?” gekko mutters. you and harbor immediately putting your attention onto mateo.

“mateo!” you cried, you wanted to hug him but you decided not to because he was probably still in pain.

“bebé..?” mateo uses the strength that he has to turn his head towards your familiar voice.

“please don’t scare me like that again.”

“good to see you awake gekko, are you alright?”

you both aid him to sit up from the bed, as mateo recollects his thoughts.

“..how’d i end up here?” he asks the both of you, rubbing his eyes.

“i let you out of my sight for a second and you were gone before i knew it gekko, don’t wander off like that again next time you got me and the others worried sick.”

“i’m sorry coach..” gekko frowned, lowering his head in embarrassment.

“mateo, why didn’t you just tell me in the first place about this job you had?”

he stays quiet, but he knew he couldn’t get his way out of this question this time like he did last time you asked.

“oh? gekko never told you about this?” harbor asks in surprise.

“no, he did not.” you sighed in disappointment.

“coach, may i have a minute with y/n?” mateo requested from his mentor.

“ah right, i’ll get going now please have a safe recovery i’ll see you later.” harbor gets up from his chair, and waves goodbye before leaving the ward.

now it was just the two of you in the room.

“i-i’m sorry i lied about my occupation y/n..” he stutters.

“so.. why’d you do what you did mateo?”

“i didn’t want you to worry about me if i ever got hurt. y’know how much i hate seeing you like how you are right now!” he says as he examined your slightly puffy eyes from the crying you did earlier.

“i know how much of a hard trabajadora you are y/n, i don’t want to stress you out more than you already are from work.”

“mateo.. i-”

“i know i’m the worst novio ever! i shouldn’t have had you found out about it like this.. just mírame, i have ivs all hooked up onto me.” he shouts, with a urge to just burst out crying right there and then.

you could see your boyfriend all teary, and you gently pat his back as a signal to him to just let it out; and that you’d be there to comfort him. so he did, he dreaded you seeing him like this, but he couldn’t bottle up his emotions anymore. he wanted you to look up to him, which is why he always kept this strong composure of his, but he just felt like a complete disappointment as of then.

“teo it’s okay, don’t say that about yourself, your job is clearly more stressing than mine i get it.” you try to reassure him as he sniffled.

“te prometa que, i won’t keep any secrets from you anymore from here on out y/n! mark my words.” he lifts his pinky up, showing he’s making a pinky promise with you.

“that’s what i like to hear.” you replied in relief, as you laced your fingers as you mutually agreed on the promise.

..and after that, everyday after work you’d come visit him for a few hours to check up on him. it went like that for a few weeks before he was able to get discharged from the hospital with a full recovery!

thank god.

you couldn’t imagine a world without mateo, you knew he was a strong guy, and he ended up getting through it thankfully. when everything went back to normal, brimstone let mateo on a break since he’s been working constantly lately and decided that it would be the best for him. you were glad, and with the time off mateo was given, he never left your sight. he ended up introducing you to the other agents in the protocol, all of them complimenting you in different ways. or, he’d take you on dates like he did in the beginning, oh how you missed those days

#gekko x reader #gekko x you #gekko #valorant #valorant x you #mateo #mateo x reader #angst

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marukrawler · 6 months

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Yeah there would need to be some reshuffling. I think many suggested Barry as Pyros as it would need minimal design alterations. Though it feels... a little boring ... you know. Ace can work as Aquos if we add Lancelot theme (lol) to his bakugan evolutions. We can even play with arthurian themes. Yes, it makes Mira his Arthur and we can pull so much from this. It doesn't matter that the original may not have been that deep. Doesn't matter.

it would mean no Marucho but! I think him having screentime in Gundalions was a right call because his Ren dynamics were good. So he is still represented. Mira must stay subterra for gus parallel purposes (and salt mines). Speaking of Gus, gus as bastard theory is good so maybe it would have worked as canon.

continuation of this ask and this ask.

couldn't help myself so i drew my version of pyrus!baron and aquos!ace ashjdjsksk

some notes:

pyrus for baron works surprisingly well with his energetic attitude and canon catchphrase 「激熱!」 gekiatsu! → "let's fire this up!"

added some tails to his headband. i was gonna replace the lightning bolt with flames but i can't draw flames so 😭pyrus symbol it is rip

his overall fit is pretty nice so i didn't want to change anything. although i didn't draw the rest of him, i can imagine swapping his pants and boots for dan's since dan won't be in the resistance in this au lol

ace was lucky enough to get some of shun's gender ambiguous swag. the gloves and exposed shoulders are an obvious reference to shun's resistance fit. kept the big sleeves bc that's ace's thing™️but he will have to fight hatsune miku for the trademark tho.

the rings in his hair are actually a reference to elyon from w.i.t.c.h. for no other reason other than i thought it'd look cool. but it also works because marucho's resistance outfit has a lot of circles on it.

could be nice if there was some lady of the lake stuff sprinkled into ace's ability cards especially after percival evolves into knight percival but alas, i know nothing about the legend of king arthur so im leaving this up to you guys lmao.

and yeah, i totally agree with you. marucho is really not needed for the first half of nv so i don't mind swapping him out for runo or alice. mira of course should stay because she started the resistance and she needs to be the driving force behind the whole bakugan liberation movement. the spectra/gus and mira/ace parallels would be even more pronounced with ace acting as mira's lancelot 🫣

as for the gus theory asjhdjksask i don't mind if it's there in a possible s2 rewrite or not. i feel like that kinda plot twist would need a reason to be there so i'll think about what it could mean for gus' character arc to be zenoheld's bastard child because it would change a lot.

#bakugan #this ask was sooooo overdue sorry it took so long ajsdhajskasjl

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being forced to quit weed for this has been 1 of the biggest double blessings of my whole life. im sure most of u whov followed me for a long time kno i smoked everyday, usually thruout the day, for over 11 years. and came to resent it. i tried to quit sm times, literally went to a program for it b4 and couldnt shake it for more than a week. i kno they say weed isnt that serious but i was legit addicted to the shit, i felt like its hostage. itd often make my anxiety way worse but bc every1 talks up how its calming id be like "yea sure, i agree. i like it bc its calming." bullshit i just liked being high and numb. i prefered being half present and i didnt care enough abt my health or myself in general to give it up for me. but now that i havnt smoked weed for just over a month im so fucking happy. i for real dont even miss it!!!!! i definitely missed it at first but obv bc there was no way i was going to expose my developing baby to that shit i was able to just not even consider it, i flipped the option off like a switch. and now that im here ive decided im never going back. id be a damn fool to. like any recovering addict im never touching that shit again. maybe ill eat edibles on special occasions bc i think i can easily control that, i never was hype abt that high like i was the instant, ritualistic act of smoking. but yea, no smoking and no vaping. any way i kno its different if u dont have something forcing u to quit like i did but i want to encourage any1 who also struggles with this to really try to kick the habit. i thought id be a stoner for life, it was so engrained in me but im reborn lmao and it feels so so powerful and awesome. being stoned cant compare to clarity and to the power of knowing u have absolute control over urself and ur urges. fuck that shit forever!!!!

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konigceo · 5 months

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i rlly like ur blog and ur writings r rlly good! but im just confused on how ur a minor writing nsfw.

(i don’t wanna be that person but i needed to ask. and also sorry if u have spoken about this before)

like ik when i was a minor (im saying that like i didn’t just turn 18 lmao), i read nsfw + had sexual feelings/desires/whatever and wished there were more minor ran fandom/cod blogs (because seeing mdni in someone’s post/bio rlly sucks), but i’m just confused on ur situation. like u can do whatever u want and if that’s what u wanna be doing, all power to u dawg!

sorry if this explanation was unnecessary, i just wanted to get context and explain myself. 😵‍💫

hi anon !!! thank you so so much for the kind words, it means the most :) to answer your question, i've been writing for fun since i was 11-12, and i read smut for the first time when i was around 10, so safe to say i've been exposed to it for a long time. and then i eventually got into mw2 and stuff around summer of this year (mostly because of the edits i saw on tt) and that turned to looking for fanfics on tumblr !!! i actually found one of my current mutual's blog, and was surprised at how someone like me (a minor) could write nsfw content and get so many nice people supporting them !!!

before i ever found any cod writers, i read a lot of fics about genshin and that pushed me to start writing a small fic, but i never got the nerve to upload it. but because i found 15-17 year olds who wrote SO GOOD and were getting lots of support, i figured i might as well try !!! as you can see if you scroll down on my blog, i started off writing some fluff, and once i got confident, i started writing smut, and that's where we are today :)

sorry for rambling on for so long anon, but i hope this answered ur question :) have an amazing day/night !

#lala ⊹˚. ♡.𖥔 ݁ ˖#anonymaus ⊹˚. ♡.𖥔 ݁ ˖#thank you for the question anon !!

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danggirlronpa · 5 months

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Since polyships are on the table... 🍑 Mahiru/Hiyoko/Ibuki or 🍑 Mahiru/Sato/Hiyoko (I have a feeling this one will go horribly, as I tend to headcanon Hiyoko as being very jealous of Mahiru's affection towards Sato; both Sato and Hiyoko are definitely in love with Mahiru meanwhile can't stand each other. I imagine Sato also dislikes Hiyoko because she reminds her of Natsumi - however fair or unfair that comparison is, I definitely feel like Sato has a hatred of bullies. Meanwhile I think Hiyoko would have a soft spot for Ibuki; she would at first try very hard to push her away and prod at insecurities, but once that failed I could see them getting close. Plus, Hiyoko is attracted to kindness - something that she sees in both Hajime (platonically) and Mahiru, which makes her have a soft spot for them - and underneath her jokey-ness, Ibuki is very kind. And I don't even have to explain why Mahiru/Hiyoko works in this equation, lmao - Ibuki/Mahiru is probably the relationship between the three I've put the least thought in, but, I feel like they'd be amicable.)

Also, my Natsumi rarepairs.... 🍑 Chiaki/Natsumi and 🍑 Mikan/Natsumi... I know they don't interact but Chiaki and Natsumi are very much foils for each other & how they affect Hajime, so I think its a damn shame they never interact... plus Mikan/Natsumi would be so tragic.... finding your girlfriend dead... realizing your friend, Sato, killed her..... selling Sato out to your dead girlfriends brother.... Mahiru having such a favorable view of Sato and negative view of Natsumi & Mikan having the reverse.... the biased narration of Mikan (and Mahiru too).... the thought of my girlfriend was nice to me, a real angel, so she COULDN'T have been bullying you.... and then a year later, meeting a demon in the form of Junko Enoshima, who reminds you so much of your dead girlfriend, who tells you that Hope's Peak is corrupt, didn't look into her death to avoid a scandal with the reserve course so the funding to their pet project doesn't get shut down... and you're angry, you're so angry, that was your girlfriend and they don't even care.... why not let the devil tempt you into revenge? Don't they deserve it? I am so crazy about Natsumi/Mikan and NO ONE is tapping into their potential, the only fics on it on ao3 are my own.... I adore them 😭

I've been holding onto this ask because part of me doesn't even want to touch on a response so it can just stand alone as a testament to the ships. I LOVE seeing people talk about their rarepairs, absolutely fuck yes. Please don't think I'm ignoring you when I'm brief or my thoughts differ from yours because this RULES.

Mahiru/Hiyoko/Ibuki: Neat! Every dynamic in here is fucking stellar. I definitely also think this is a ship that centers on Hiyoko, which in and of itself is sort of fun. Danganronpa fans HATE her. But women LOVE her 😏

Mahiru/Hiyoko/Sato: Basically Canon. I'm biased about this because Mahiru/Sato is my real True SDR2 OTP and I consider both it and Mahiyoko to be Basically Canon on their own. But ALL TOGETHER. BOTH IN LOVE WITH MAHIRU. You know that tumblr post that's like "superhero and supervillain but theyre both friends with the same civilian so when their buddy invites them all out together as civilians they just have to silently seethe at each other across the table"? Yeah

Chiaki/Natsumi: Fine. This. And I'm going to be exposing a lot of things about myself as a person here so everyone just be cool. This is a kismesistude. And I will leave it at that.

Mikan/Natsumi: HELL YEAH. This might only appeal to a niche audience but hear me out, okay. You know yakuza mangas that are like. Oh No I Am A Sad Abused Young Woman/Twink Who Has Been Sold To/Become The Caretaker Of A Child In/Married Into/Reincarnated Into/Otherwise Somehow Become Involved In The Yakuza! im so frightened! what does this mean yakuza want with me!! a heart of gold?! could it be??? oh but because of my abuse i feel like i dont deserve this but through this yakuzas unrelenting instant love for me and very violent vengeance upon my abusers and also some gang drama to force us into compromising situations will i be forced to learn self esteem through the power of love?? THATS WHAT I WANT FROM THEM. THATS THE AU IVE WRITTEN IN MY HEAD. AND ALSO WAY OF THE HOUSE HUSBAND AU

#asks #anon #mod hangout #mod ships #talk to the mod #chiasumi #natsumiki #mahiyobuki #mahisatoyoko

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f1byjessie · 10 days

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PART 12 *waving my hands around in the air* !!!!! THEM IN THE ROOM IN THE MORNING IM SO☹️☹️☹️they’re so precious i’m fragile i stg. the perfect amount teasing and cheeky behavior with serious and meaningful conversations 🫶also just one of my favorite little moments was lando going “you’re spiraling” even though she wasn’t saying anything or really doing anything outwardly (that we know of as the readers), yet he knows her so well that he KNEW she was getting in her head about it - like that is just so🤲

HIM SAYING HE’D WALK ????? i just fell to my knees in a walmart. HIM SAYING HE JUST KNEW FROM THE FIRST TIME THEY MET ???? i’m curled up on the side of the road. i know there’s more shit they have to figure out, but i love them sm together already😭

the way i started STRESSING the moment the ig post came up😭my brain did not register the time skip and i was like “well damn. that plan went out the window quick”. i cant decide between what i think happened: either they actually fucked up and there’s a reason they weren’t thinking about PDA while in a place where they could be photographed and how they have to like scramble to pick up the pieces, ORRRRR it’s all part of a strategic plan before y/n and her lawyers start taking this shit to garrett🤌bc my brain can’t stop thinking about how this type of post is how garrett and y/n first put their relationship in the public eye😼plus i think it’s totally something lando would think is funny asf and want to do - rub it in that he got the girl and garrett is a POS lmao

N E WAYZ sorry for rambling, but if you couldn’t tell, i LOVED this part !!! always looking forward to more 🫶🫶

Never apologize for rambling! I always appreciate getting your asks and I love hearing your thoughts on things! So please feel free to ramble away! 😊

I'm still patting myself on the back for part twelve. The original plan was to have her push back against the idea of being with Lando more than she did, and then the fact that she'd just had a one-night stand with her best friend would be an added stressor, she wouldn't be able to stop thinking about it and neither would Lando, and that mutual inability to get one another out of their heads and the following admittance of that would be what got them together. But I think I prefer the way it went a lot more. It was mostly because having Lando comfort her as she spirals and having him listen to her concerns and then come back each time with how he'll protect her against all of the potential consequences was just such a wholesome moment, but I also was just so eager to move past Bahrain and get on to the actual races 😅.

I'm so happy that you picked up on the parallels with the IG post though! I've talked about it before, but I love symbolism and thematic parallels are hands down one of my favorite writing mechanisms to make use of. The paparazzi act as the other side of the coin to Y/N— she takes photos, they take photos, but the ethics regarding both are completely opposite because one is with the consent and awareness of the subject and the other isn't. Similarly, the relationship she has with Garrett is drastically different from the relationship she has with Lando, but both of them are exposed via the paparazzi which, in my opinion, further highlights how each relationship was started. One was started with the intention of being exposed to the world for publicity and PR, whereas the other was started with the intention of being hidden and just for them.

But that's all I'll say on that because I'm worried if I keep talking about it I'll wind up spoiling part thirteen haha!

As always, thank you for taking the time to let me know what you think. I always look forward to what you have to say! 🫶

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katyspersonal · 8 months

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hello again, i'm the anon from the waifu/blorbo thing just checking in. it was quite surprising to see the ask i made when i was feeling sorta petty would spiral in all that lol

to answer why i stay anon, its because I'm just a "filthy lurker" tbh. im not really sociable or talented enough that i feel like interecting directly in the fandom, and i'd rather avoid the headaches that come from exposing myself to its more annoying parts lol. i understand its different for artists tho, you guys do us a great service

but Holy Shit your situation was quite bonkers. it is kind of funny that i might have helped you out with this apparently lmao. all it took was the right ask at the right time, crazy how that works

best of luck to you and thank you for being based lol. it isn't easy with such persistent haters but i hope you keep it up

Thank YOU for being based, the moment I read what you said I knew EXACTLY what you were talking about! And yes, it is a reliably stable way to piss that person off enough to 'act' by poking the holy dogma of "Maria is a masculine lesbian and everyone with a different interpretation is a bigot" with a stick in any way shape or form. Imagine being easily caught just because you can't stand bisexuals or women that can combine badassery and tenderness?

I'll have you know though, that fanart or fanfics are NOT a "rent" you have to pay to be considered a "valid" part of the fandom! You say you don't feel like you belong here... but you do, as long as you love BB and want to interact with other fans and support them. I am not the most fantastic artist either; my anatomy is still a long way to go and I finish my works very slowly, but it is my passion why I am here! :)

As for the annoying parts of the fandom,...

Honestly, you don't need to worry, at least not on Tumblr. Redditbros tend to stay away in their own circles and all you have to do is to not go on Reddit for sharing things like headcanons, drawings, ships etc. As for the bullies (oh, pardon, the completely civil people that are not encouraging harassment but simply spread "awareness" in order to excile people they dislike from the safe wholesome fandom uwu); they will typically do you a favour if they drop your name as "yiiiikes this person is nasty for [reason] block them girlies!", since this way the fake ones will self-isolate from you as a result and YOU won't see THEIR bad takes! And toxic Maria fans usually function by one 'main' guy vs their simps that got easily influenced. Before the current guy (you know who by now) it was someone else spreading bad takes about "misogynist" Gehrman and "violated masculinity" of Maria, boasting about how they ignore all lore and (mis)translation evidence against their One True interpretation. That person matured though, and the simps they influenced dissolved and became nuanced. The current guy is chronically unable to mature, learn and admit mistakes; but at the same time, popular accounts popularised a "compromise" take that portrays Gehrman as missing the mark but having good intentions that get way more traction and toxicity is overshadowed by them 🤔

What I am saying is, you can avoid annoying parts reliably easily! You probably are seeing like same two people starting controversy every time from your "corner"... and it is BECAUSE there are not that many. They are just loud. If you are in the room with 20 people, 19 of which are adults minding their own business and 1 is a screaming baby, who will you pay more attention to? I'd love to see you make an account, tbh, but if you really don't want to.. Well, still feel free to send me asks, gripes or headcanons or questions or whatnot!

#ask replies #personal #fandomry rambles

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