#i feel like im fucking exploding like physically i am jusr so ohh....

[wingedbeings]

:) i am just going to start physically attacking people now i think

#please i am so enraged all the time now <3 shits funny tbh #like i cannot express just how physically like anxious and restless and genuinely enraged i am like nonstop <3 #im fr going to snap i cannot stand anything or anyone anymore like get me out of here #im going to start being violent if anyone acts up at me like i mean it #cannot take this shit anymore i wont lie <3 i do not feel anything but rage anymore #i cannot fucking Stand being here like i rly can't #everythig is so fucking infuriating i do not know what i am going to do if this shit doesnt change soon like reality #like schizo ass moment or whayever but this isnt me this isnt my world i dont fucking belong here and frankly it is enraging #i cannot be brought to give half a shit anymore im just so fucking mad and unable to cope w being here #i do not want to accept this as reality bc i swear to god if it is im going to kill #if this is the rest of my life i will fr just start beating the shit out of anyone who doesnt know how to act #they need to put me on mood stabilisers again i wont lie like i am going to snap #moss.exe #i feel like im fucking exploding like physically i am jusr so ohh.... #like i cannot word any of this right tbh bc none of u get it bc its ''not based in reality'' or whatever like shut rhe fuck up if this is #reality i am going to lose it fr like the only thing keeping me from acting out is the belief that this is still going to change to what it #needs to be and hoo boy i mean it i will snap if i have to deal with this much longer #i just genuinely cannot fucking take any of this anymore #like i mean it now if literally everything doesnt change real soon im going to snap i dont know how but i am <3 #someone needs to inject horse tranqs directly into my brain im over it im ohh #im so fucking mad like i mean it if i cannot escape this real soon im just. ohhhhhh #edit: im just so genuinely fucking mad im not me as well #like dysphoria wise or whatever #im not me and i hate it so fucking much. everything is wrong #i think some of this is triggered by my current hyperfixation as its more me than i think i will have to accept i will ever be #and frankly it hurts #it reminds me of wjere i belong too #it really hurts. i just need things to change just in ways i think i will have to accept they neber will and i cant and it aches so much #nothing i do will ever be enough because it doesn't fundamentally change things. im exhausted i dont want to be stuck like this anymore #please i just need to be me. i cant accept that this is reality thar in this reality i cant ever be me how i am how where i belong is. pleas