#i fucking hate it here though

[s1ushyz]

Frank with a beard.

That's all, that's the post.

#for people who haven't seen this or frank with a beard in general #here you go #I hate this fucking guy!! #he looks like he smells of gas and the woods #(I love him though) #s1ushyz #my chemical romance #mcr #gerard way #frank iero #my chem #mikey way #ray toro

[fauxbia]

Okay!!! Finally (Finally, this has been months in the making and redone several times) I made a lineup of my Iterator designs!!! They're done and I'm really happy with them.

Misc headcanons under the cut

All: Asexual, Trans

Looks To The Moon: She/Her, Demiromantic Lesbian

Five Pebbles: He/Him, Greyromantic MLM

No Significant Harassment: They/Sometimes He, Aromantic

Seven Red Suns: They/Them, Demiromantic Bi

Moon and NSH are both Gen 1. NSH was Moon’s first junior and friend, and they are extremely close because of it.

Suns is early Gen 2 and was created by a particularly aesthetically inclined group, resulting in their slightly more ornate clothing.

Pebbles is put off by NSH’s humor, thinking that if they’re a Gen 1, then shouldn’t they act like it?

NSH’s humor is actually sourced from their life experience. They’re relatively comfortable with themself and know how to see the bright side in most situations. (Moon’s collapse not being one of them. They were completely devastated; even moreso once assigned Senior in her stead.)

Moon loves Pebbles and wants him to be happy and healthy. He thinks she’s too overbearing, but loves her too deep down.

#faux art #rain world #looks to the moon #five pebbles #no significant harassment #seven red suns #fuck you!!!!! *arospecs and acespecs all your iterators* #ghhh im so happy to finally be somewhat done with this though #i have gone through so many versions of this as my artstyle evolves and my skills improve over the months #like you'd think it wouldnt be that noticeable but . it is. #but finally i got all of them drawn fast enough that i wouldnt actively hate the first ones drawn by the time i got to the last #have my sillies i love them so much #maybe someday i'll get myself together and finally post some iterator oc content here too #i have tortured my ocs so badly ehehe

[accirax]

the entire fandom rn

#danganronpa despair time #drdt #elliot cuevas #whit young #charles cuevas #dude i almost wrote whit cuevas... not yet #don't take this as me shipping whit and ellie though ellie is (presumably) 11-13 years older than whit #i just think that whit would be attracted to someone who looks like charles. you know #fanganronpa #drdt spoilers #“the entire fandom” includes me btw #it's bc i'm a fucking syobai simp isn't it. i hate it here /j #serious theorizing later for now i had this idea and wanted to run with it #my art #fanart

[wardingshout]

Family for day 6 of SpeSilverWeek! Edition uuh found biological and crime I guess...

#this was the first one I completed tbh and I'm not vibing but it was rly good warmup and tbh working lineless is so much easier... #I get lazier and messier concerning anatomy esp and stuff but I have fun... #spesilverweek #pokespe silver #pokespe blue #pokespe #my art #the thing about this is. I have so many thoughts about this one very specific rocket au where they aren't dex holders but find Giovanni #instead but he still goes missing and they still kind of hate team rocket bc the whole mask of ice thing still happened so they try to fuck #shit up from within now that giovanni is gone even though they also rly just kinda want him to return and deal with stuff himself #and the admins have these rly fun roles of all being in disagreement on what to do #like the boss might be dead his kids should take over or we Must find the boss or lol no boss my team rocket now #and then the dex holders get mixed in too and it's Fun bc everyone is fighting everyone #also sorry Giovanni for making you look like that #it's like 5min til day 6 technically but my laptop is being a butt so in case it won't turn on tomorrow here it is now #I will not wait 5min for midnight I got a new pillow for christmas and I wanna SLeep on it noW! hell yeah !! #pokemon

[witchstone]

can i not even be a part of a whatsapp group about our local nature conservancy without that jumped up wannabe estate group in our area punting their shit

#they seem to be under the impression that they can form a private security company with the word estate in ot and that makes the area #an....estate #and that because 51% of residents signed up they can start putting signs up and demanding that all other residents must acquiesce #to their rules. um. no? #no offence but if you want to live in an estate you'd...live in an estate #also c'mon guys it's because the comrades are coming up #i am...58% reading too much into this but also it's been four years and i'm just fucking annoyed about it. go away. get out of my face #stop acting like other residents are deliberately going out of their way to sabotage your project when in reality most people are fine #not me though! i'm going to deliberately phone the municipality about their newest batch of signs <3 #apologies for the suburbia blogging; can you tell i hate it here? #will delete later

[mayxo-hxh]

I personally think that Kikyo would absolutely be thrilled that Illumi found himself a man he wants to marry as strong, handsome and fit to be Zoldyck as Hisoka.

Hisoka is strong enough to be considered an equal to a zoldyck, which means strength is no problem for him. And I don't know about you but the way he assassinated that terradin man that was threatening to reveal illumis identity at the end of the election arc? CHEFS. KISS. THATS A WHOLE ZOLDYCK WIFE RIGHT THERE. And Hisoka is a certain type of fucked up enough to be a Zoldyck, even if he is... mmm.. self aware. Even if he himself thinks zoldycks are a special kind of fucked up. He'd fit.

I always see people make silva and kikyo disagree with illumi marrying hisoka but i soooo heavily disagree. Like what is there NOT to be proud of in Illumi's marriage choice. There is not a single other character IN THE ENTIRE ANIME fit to be Zoldyck than Hisoka Morow and I will fight people on that.

Something a lot of people also don't realize is that the Zoldycks are not a family that discriminates in the slightest (this is a whole discussion on its own but examples are how Kikyo is from meteor city, the butlers are taken from anywhere as long as they have the skill to work and one of the people who attacked kukuroo mountain to hunt the zoldycks now works for them instead. The zoldycks didnt hesitate to hire that mf they fr dont gaf lmfao)

there are soooooooo many misconceptions about the zoldycks in general and i think thats what aids the whole "the zoldycks would HATE hisoka" thing but like. nah. they wouldnt.

I also think about how Kikyo found Silva at such a young age. I bet she was constantly nagging Illumi and asking when he'd get a partner himself. Now he's got it, Millukiiii ITS YOOOURRR TURRNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!

#some people would say “oh theyll hate him when they meet him!” but why though. #“the way he dresses!” ?? so what. have u seen the way the zoldycks dress lmfao. their son is literally twinning with that magician #“he'll make it weird” Ya Allah no he fucking wont 💀 people base this off a very fanon characterization of hisoka. #Like no he wont moan out of nowhere because theyre a powerful family he already knows that buddy. #hes kept it in multiple times before in a muted reaction please stop making it seem like hes a man with no self control i beg lmfao #Surprise surprise Hisoka acts weird on purpose when he puts on a show because thats how he wants to be percieved #but hes very self aware and knows whats considered weird and disrepectful and certainly wont fuck it all up for him and illumi for 0 reason #me when i finally get to marry the love of my life and i fuck it up because i decide itd be quirky and the fans want me to #hisoka is a much more calmer and quiet person when hes not purposely being weird and thats what people dont want to accept #anyways rant over #whewwww thats a rant and a half lmfao #I wish hisoka as a character was given more analysis and study than the 3 scenes that make him popular #anyways. rant TRULY over. here are the normal tags #hisoillu #hisoka x illumi #illumi #illumi zoldyck #hisoka #hisoka morow #hisoka zoldyck #hunter x hunter #hxh #my post #i feel like if i mentioned how hisoka has adhd on here id get thrown pitchforks at. #let alone the fact that hes very asexual coded #i dont really feel safe on this website at all to discuss any of this yet lmao #people literally laugh when you say hes shy when its literally??? a canon fact stated by hisoka himself?? and backed up by many scenes???? #but i dont think i ever will feel safe here tbh. i just have to. do it. and fuck it whatever happens or whoever laughs at me. #just like ive done on twitter for years until ive finally created a complete safe space for myself #secret rant at the end because maybe nobody will look here

[iknowwhereyousnoozeatnight]

couple of mello + near doodles

#death note #mello #mihael keehl #near #nate river #meronia #bright colors #eyestrain #been having fun w colors recently :3 #these are the product of me really really really not wanting to do some discussion boards #like i don’t even hate discussion boards but something about them has been filling me with dread i’d rather just do exams tbh #i'm like dragging myself through the rest of this semester but it's different from last semester last semester i was losing my mind #this semester i've been able to sleep more than 4 hours a night and go outside bc it's not freezing but also i'm just so fucking done #with school i've been here too long i'm tired but i'm always tired and will always be tired it's tragic honestly i think i'd be more cool #with school if i weren't living how i am rn w my family but eh i don't have the money to move out so it's whatever and it doesn't really #help that i know i'll have to get at least a master's to really do anything in my field and the though of doing more of this makes #me so tired i think i might take a gap year after i get my bachelors this fall idk #anyways enjoy my doodles or don't if you don't want to i'm not the boss of you

[lenaellsi]

Why does aziraphale tells crowley he forgives him??? I literally just finished it and its driving me insane

hello anon! hope you're doing okay after that ending!

that's a hell of a question. there are a few different answers, and i think a lot was going on in aziraphale's head at that particular moment, but this is what I took from it:

-this is a dance aziraphale and crowley have been doing for a long time.

there's some sort of moral conflict. aziraphale repeats heaven's party line. crowley asks a bunch of uncomfortable questions. aziraphale doubles down. crowley calls him an idiot. aziraphale forgives him. crowley storms away. pretty much half of their relationship is built on these kinds of destructive patterns at this point--of course they'd fall back into it during the worst fight they've ever had.

-aziraphale is angry.

he's heartbroken, and he doesn't understand why crowley has decided to abandon him in what should be (from his perspective) the happiest moment of their lives since the fall. he's lashing out, and intentionally hurting crowley in the same way he's been hurt. he's not stupid, no matter how much miscommunication is happening in this scene--telling someone "i forgive you" after they've kissed you is going to hurt, and he knows that.

this reading comes mostly from michael's performance. several people have noted that in the moments immediately after the kiss, aziraphale says "I l--" and then cuts himself off. then he goes on a Michael Sheen Face Journey TM and ends up angry, and that's when we get "I forgive you." whatever else is going on with aziraphale in this moment, he's pissed.

-forgiveness is what aziraphale does.

in aziraphale's very first (modern day) scene of the season, we learn that forgiveness is "one of his favorite things." he forgives maggie's rent, and he forgives gabriel enough to shelter him from heaven and hell while he's vulnerable. it's an instinct for aziraphale, for better or worse, whether it's because it's something he thinks he SHOULD do or something intrinsic to him as a person who desperately wants to do good. occasionally, it's even something he does for his own gain. (see: forgiving maggie was a kind action, but he himself admits that part of his motivation was that she always knows how to find his music.) it makes sense that he would fall back on forgiveness as a framework for understanding a mess of complicated and painful emotions. it makes him feel better, forgiving people, and he needs the comfort of that here.

-he means it.

he forgives crowley for saying no. he forgives crowley for breaking his heart. he forgives crowley for always asking 'damn fool' questions. he forgives crowley for kissing him at the worst possible time. he forgives crowley for falling. he forgives crowley for making him doubt. he forgives crowley for being kind, and clever, and ridiculous, and special, and someone he couldn't help but fall in love with, no matter how much it hurts them both.

and unfortunately, forgiveness is the one thing that will always make crowley walk away.

#gos2 spoilers #good omens spoilers #good omens season 2 #good omens meta #good omens #aziraphale #crowley #for what it's worth? crowley also meant to hurt aziraphale. that kiss was 40% hail mary temptation 10% a gesture of love and 50% 'fuck you' #and i love it like YES kiss him to hurt him YES tell him the worst thing he could possibly hear and then in 3 years save the world together #with the weight of everything said and unsaid between you!!! drama!!! i hate it here!!! (but i love it) #i hope any of this made sense. i have a lot of feelings about this moment and very few coherent thoughts #and i'll be the first to admit that i find it much easier to get into crowley's head than aziraphale's. i do love him though #asks

[bonefall]

can fallenleaf die? if yes, does her spirit become the new god of autumn?

I'm honestly not sure yet, both because I like to keep my magical systems vague until I need them due to the "nature" of needing to fit canon's events, and also because Fallenleaf is doing something never seen before!

Right now though, I think it's working in the sense that the two of them are slowly merging. Come back in a few hundred years, and Fallenleaf and Sol are going to be essentially the same person, one personality just more dominant than the other. But it's also important to note that people change. Even gods.

Not only are they going to merge, but they're also going to grow into someone new. It'll call itself Fallenleaf, or perhaps have new titles, but it's not just going to just be one of its components. Kinda like Steven Universe, y'know? Only a lot slower, less "equal," and irreversible. Garnet isn't just Ruby + Sapphire. She is a person in and of herself.

If it's interrupted though, I think it would depend on where in that "process" it's halted. Likeeee... if you took the bone out of a stew before its marrow fully dissolved. You can't remove the broth that remains. Sol would be altered in some way, and so would Fallenleaf.

But eventually, if Fallenleaf's mortal vessel falters in several hundred years and she dies, there won't really be a Sol Soul to "trap" anymore. It's going to be part of her.

#Or maybe it'll be like a bone that gets spit out #And there will be a husk of Sol that remains #Bones: ''yeah starclan's pretty fucked up in canon and heres a bunch of fixes to address that'' #Also Bones: ''Just got done making the WC magic even MORE fucked up!'' #I always prefer keeping my magic systems open-ended though because I LIKE when magic isn't like... super predictable yknow? #That's the fun of it. Maybe Sol would get fully dissolved into Fallen and maybe it's because he doesn't entirely hate the idea of that #He is a god of change after all #But maybe Lion's Roar didn't get fully absorbed because it's not what he wanted. Maybe the God of Summer couldn't break him #It's more fun that way! #And you can say a lot more about the characters involved #Better Bones AU #Spirituality Overhauls #BB!Sol #BB!Hollyleaf #Fallenleaf #Hollyleaf's Century #Cinderheart's Travels

[k-martins]

I don't know what the worst case scenario is from now on Or Yuji dies to save Megumi. Or Megumi Dies to save Yuji. Or Yuji ends up killing Sukuna and Megumi Or Megumi comes back and doesn't accept being saved Or Yuji loses everyone he loves and Megumi is forever stuck with Sukuna Like, I can't imagine any scenario where they're both okay and going to therapy. I just wanted a happy ending, you stupid cat. But you killed the chance with Higuruma, Killed Gojo, are about to kill Choso, Megumi doesn't have a body and Yuji was made into meat cubes. What's your problem, Gege Akutami????

#I think I'm going to vomit #this is so fucked up #you hate your brother so much to give him every trauma known to humanity Gege #and since you're going to throw Megumi in the trash #let me know #because I can't stand another year of waiting for the his return #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #megumi fushiguro #jjk spoilers #fushiguro megumi #itadori yuji #yuji itadori #fushiita #itafushi #Of course I'm going to tag itafushi here even though it's not a shippost #the profile is mine

[m4ndysk4nkovich]

i wonder what the response would’ve been from the fandom if mickey had been the one to not sign the marriage license in 10x08🤷‍♀️ i feel like people often give mickey the benefit of the doubt, but never ian. ian was open about the fact that he did it because of his parents, so i wonder if mickey had said that people would’ve sided with him. i feel like people don’t acknowledge what frank and monica did to ian as abuse that often, because it’s always compared to what terry did to mickey. it’s really not a competition even if terry’s actions were more horrific and extreme

#ive talked about this so many times but wtv #seriously though ian was physically mentally emotionally and sexually abused growing up #he’s traumatized and his perception of love is fucked up and although what he did wasn’t great i get it #and again if it were mickey people would get it #because they have a fucked up view of abuse and many people only see it in a certain way #this isn’t anti-mickey we love mickey here and mickey fans but i hate how people treat frank and monica vs terry #they should all be universally hated for what they did to their kids #shameless #ian gallagher #mickey milkovich #shameless us #shameless meta #10x08 #frank gallagher #monica gallagher #terry milkovich #and this isn’t me saying that mickey’s feelings weren’t valid #because i’d be heartbroken too #…although i don’t condone punching ian so hard he falls down the stairs and breaks his leg #but still #gallavich #gallavich meta

[craycraybluejay]

*vibrating intensely*

I hate social norms I hate commands phrased as requests I hate weirdness as a sign of immorality or danger I hate misunderstandings I hate misinterpretation I hate miscommunication leading to fights or alienation I hate unspoken expectations I hate unasserted boundaries and needs I hate socially appropriate small talk I hate gender norms I hate cultural expectations around touch and how one is to show love I hate individualism to the point of selfish indifference I hate virtue signaling I hate ideals of purity I hate things that someone considers rude that no one tells you about until you do a social faux pas I hate silent rules and regulations and terms and conditions on human interaction I hate small sociocultural bubbles I hate indifference being prized and valued as more mature than caring about things and people I hate piss poor reading comprehension and meaningless arguments I hate strawmen and ad hominem being considered a socially acceptable thing to use against others I hate contradicting instructions I hate that people call it "emotional labor" nowadays to just have conversations as friends I hate anger over unspoken rules I hate excuses made to evade spoken boundaries because they're atypical I hate romantic relationships being treated as inherently more important than friendship or sex and familial relationships too I hate completely arbitrary hierarchies and social oppression I hate confusing and roundabout ways of conveying straightforward things I hate oversimplified ways of conveying complex topics I HATE

#i hate i hate i hate #i hate it here #ranting #rant #rambling #run on sentence #meme away the pain #i know hate isnt considered healthy or whatever but man do i hate #im a hater #being a hater #neurodiversity #neurodivergent #things i hate #an incomplete list #i love lists though fucking love those things #this is kinda poetry #in some spots #tw repetition #tw repeating words #schizoposting #i just want someone to grab my face and say 'there is something so psychotic about you bro' and then hug me and platonically hold hands #human interaction #augh augh augh #i take poison damage every time i encounter a thing i hate and unfortunately i hate many things

[the-holy-ghosted]

unbearable is the distance between me and all my friends. separated by so much space. miles. countries. oceans. hours upon hours upon hours away from these people that have become special pieces of my heart and soul. bring back pangea and build more trains i cant deal with all this

#the heron speaketh #im so sad. im gonna have a drink about this <- fucking terrible idea #but truly though i have never in my life had so many people who mean the world to me. than now. and i cant even see them #the screen is not the same i need to be holding these people in my arms and kissing their faces and wandering around antique stores #and aquariums and picking up rocks on beaches and watching movies on the same couch eating the same popcorn under the same #blanket under the same roof im going to stART FUCKING CRYING. FOR REAL . IM GONNA CHEW ON MY DESK I HATE IT HERE

[watermelinoe]

rape is just a thing that may happen during war. we're not saying it didn't happen. it may have occurred. rape is not uncommon in war. it's not a weapon of war, there's no proof it's a pattern of violence against women, it's just something that happens for some reason.

#rape tw #i swear i'm now done talking about this fucking article now that i've worked myself up and can't sleep #completely disingenuous dripping with smugness and written by three fucking males #and some of you gobbled this right up #which is the part i'm most angry abt even though i shouldn't be bc i know radblr is full of ideologues #and i know i'm guilty of buying into twitter threads without reading the article #but it should really really really not be hard not to dismiss rape claims #if your first thought is ''oh phew i was worried i would have to condemn my side's actions'' then you have also bought into a narrative #ironically just as this article claims #but i shouldn't be surprised bc i see blatant antisemitic rhetoric disguised as anti-zionism here on the reg #so why not handwave rape as well #i just hate dogma. i hate dogma that creates acceptable victims. #i'm not going to leap to the defense of radicalized + militarized males. idc who they are. #bc it's all of them

[my-current-obsession]

I decided to post a tier list of my thoughts of all the routes in various otomes that I’ve played. I was inspired to do this because I just finished Norn9, and while I’ll admit that upon finishing the game I have SEVERAL issues with the story as a whole and a few routes in particular, I did love Akito and Heishi enough to add them to my favorite routes of all time, and I’ll definitely return to the game every now and then just to replay those two, if nothing else. Looking forward to the fandisc, too!

I’d be happy to talk about my feelings in depth for basically any otome or specific route, if you’re curious. My absolute favorites are Code: Realize, Collar x Malice, Taisho x Alice, and Even if Tempest.

#norn9 #code realize #collar x malice #even if tempest #cafe enchante #hakuouki #bustafellows #nightshade #cupid parasite #variable barricade #otome #one day i WILL sit down and write an essay for why varibari in particular was ALMOST perfect but then fucked up spectacularly #it's by no means my least favorite otome but i wanted to love it and maybe it could have been one of my favorites #but nope. anyway i should probably finish one of the like 4 games that i kind of just. dropped. #i don't think my tastes are too obvious here. at least my likes have a pretty wide variety. #you can probably tell i'm NOT a fan of yanderes though. and while i rarely hate them i don't really care for the serious Team Dad types

[sailor-aviator]

Can't believe we have to address this yet again, but here we are.

If you don't like a fic, then stop reading it. You're not doing something by messaging the author to say you thought certain plot points were unnecessary or that you didn't like the fic, ESPECIALLY when you hide behind the anonymous feature. You're not cool. You're certainly not cute. It's lame, loser behavior actually.

I'm so sorry that some of you were discouraged from having fun for the sake of having fun and creating for the sake of creating, but that doesn't mean you get to come on here or other platforms and harass authors for having the courage to put their works out there for other people to consume.

There's a HUGE difference between constructive criticism and just flat out being an asshole. Constructive criticism is "I can tell you put a lot of energy into this, but this bit was a little confusing to me," or "I really liked the dialogue between these two characters, and I would love to see more of them moving forward," or "I loved this part in the prose. Do you think you could expand on that in future chapters?"

Constructive criticism is NOT "I didn't like your fic. It was too boring," or "there was too much unnecessary drama in this," or "it was too short." This is all just criticism and it can really hurt people's feelings. Writing is a skill, and just like every other skill, it takes practice to get better. Sure, some people are naturally gifted at it, but anyone can and should do it if they want!

At the end of the day, like all of us have said time and time again, we are not machines. The things you say to us can hurt us and discourage us from continuing our hobby. It's okay to not like fics. There are several fics I don't like and tropes I don't like. Do you know what I do when I come across one? I stop reading and keep scrolling. I don't anonymously message the author to tell them how much I didn't like it. You know why? Because it's unnecessary behavior.

It truly feels like there is a small group of you on here that are so determined to make this place as miserable as possible, and I think you need to do some serious introspection as to why that is because you're going to run content creators off and then sit here wondering why no one wants to write fics anymore.

Build each other up, y'all, for real. And if you don't see a fic you want to read or you think you can do better? Write your own fics.

#i'm so tired of seeing content creators get shit on here #how many times do we have to go over this? #we are not machines #it costs nothing to be nice to others #that anonymous button makes some of you so bold truly #it's gotten to the point where i post something and i just sit here and wait for someone to send in a hate anon #that's fucked up #thankfully i haven't gotten any hate anons recently but I think i know why that is #i'm not gonna get into all that though because that's unnecessary #anyway