#i fucking hate this i cant do this sht its tearing me up sm. im in so much fucking pain inside augh

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#i fucking hate this i cant do this sht its tearing me up sm. im in so much fucking pain inside augh #i was venting abt this w a friend last night #it feels like im trying to pull myself away from something that i shouldnt. like. fuck #it feels like smth i should always hold close n never let go #like fuck its making me literally feel nauseous trying to hold myself back sm #im fighting so fucking hard to hold back #i feel like its making almost love you more. and i want to tell you that #i want to tell you how much i love and care for you even more but i fucking CANT bc its illegal or smth apparently #idk. fuck. #god i jus.... #i jus wanna fuckin kiss u no matter what #kissing you feels so... gud n peaceful n nice n euphoric n the thought of possibly never being able to do that again makes me wanna #fucking d1e like jfc i kno thats dramatic but idk how else 2 word #ur literally.... the light of my life. #i dont need you to complete me but you make me feel complete #fuck. starts agsin oughuu #i just... i dont want to have to hold myself back #i wanna be yours forever and you be mine forever. no matter what #ugly cries into my hands #vent