#i genuinely like my body hair it helps w my dysphoria and shaving is literally painful for me bc of my sensitive skin

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hi odd we've been mutuals for years now and i just wanna say u've always been hot and u always will be. fat hairy ppl fuck!

Ilysm my guy im working on accepting that but its always nice to hear 💛💛💛

#srsly ty ily #to elaborate on my dilemma if anyones interested: #i genuinely like my body hair it helps w my dysphoria and shaving is literally painful for me bc of my sensitive skin #but im afraid other ppl wont like it ykno?? im not too worried abt it from lgbt ppl but mostly w cis men i still kinda feel like theyll #expect a certain level of femininity from me j by looking at me and then when ykno the clothes come off they wont be into it #i need to let go of that but like if i was trying to be physically intimate with someone and they show any sign of like disgust even if #they dont mean to it would absolutely destroy any confidence i have #and im so terrified of that happening that i push ppl away and remain celibate lmaoooo #i havent had sex in over a year bc of this fear lmao #but im working on it!! im talking to this guy and its long distance rn bc covid but once im back in nyc we're gonna bone down #i am genuinely excited to see him and do stuff so im hoping i can use that to push past my fear and let myself be a lil vulnerable ykno?? #plus theres the whole fat femme ppl are pushed to perform extreme femininity in ordered to be attractive and like respected lol #and lowkey i feel like w girls they expect a certain level of masculinity from me so me being so curvy is a bit of an insecurity there #but thats mostly bc my ex lowkey kinda fetishied me being trans lmao #idk if she meant to but that was v much the vibe i got everytime we were intimate #and again without clothes i dont feel like im masculine enough bc of my tig ol biddies n shit #so yeah im figuring out my shit lmao #but i rly am getting better w it im trying to let go of anxities and open up a bit and like keep in mind that if they arent into my body or #want me to change it then theyre a shit person and they dont deserve to fuck me lmao #anyway thx for letting me vent ily guys 💛💛💛