#i got nothing new to post so here

[simgerale]

me after attempting to get back into sims and realizing i had a lot more to do than play the game

#hi everyone #I’m going around hugging you all #okay now that we are gathered here today #i will simply acknowledge that i have been gone for a very long time and then also acknowledge that maybe it was for the best #i relied on sims to be my only creative activity even if i tried to write a book at the same time #and also. i prioritized sims over real life responsibilities. that’s just a deadly combination lol #but I recently noticed I just replaced sims with Netflix. with YouTube. with anything that gave me quick dopamine #literally became addicted in a sense. still am but I’ve been cut cold turkey from most everything #I get off work and go. okay I’ve done the dishes and the laundry……..I could read or write or bake…. #I try to write and sometimes i get a good hour #then I read for a few hours and then get tired of it #and I made cookies Tuesday so I’m waiting for those to be gone before baking again #I’m just so pitiful that I feel BORED and don’t know what to do #so I said….. okay what if I do sims for an hour. #I downloaded some new cc Tuesday and tried to play yesterday #y’all ……………….. I can’t find the energy anymore to set up elaborate scenes and pose my sims and plan posts #I said wow… this is boring without my intervention and fake story #I said wow…….. all this for what? for tumblr? yes I created cool things and provided joy. but is that inherintly important compared to my #own joy? my own everyday activities I should be doing? #y’all I do not leave the house unless we got out to eat or shop or travel to our parents #.. I have little desire to. I’m trying to find that desire #but my husband is busy with grad school and work and I don’t want to do anything by myself #I’ve found myself in one heck of a slump #I didn’t want to be human for awhile. just had no desires no interests no ambitions #I was slacking off SO HARD at work. I just had no drive to do well #I’m still working on it. I’m still trying to get caught up. I’m still trying to force myself to move every day. #but I am struggling y’all. and I can tell you that sims… sims isn’t helping rn but I want it to so bad. I want to get back into it #I didn’t mean to disappear on everyone. I got married and then life got busy and then I fell into this hole of nothing #I didn’t even WANT to crawl my way out. but my husband has helped a lot. I feel like such a child!!!! #I reached max tags. 🙃 bye love you all. till next time

[crunchchute]

holy moly. just hit 1k. thank you!!

#i didnt prepare anything for 1k honestly #this feels like it happened so quick even though its been over the course of several months #i believe when i came back here i was at around 70? then got to like 200 and then it just went up #800 for the daves i guess. and the few that came here for other stuff #and honestly i dont know what this blogs about now i just wanted to post everything here. and i like the tagging system so if you dont like #something you can mute it i guess? im not big into fnaf rn as theres nothing for me currently. if theres a hw dlc i might hop back in #as well as for any new games coming out #but hw2 was so short lived since the gameplay was out i a day and theres not much to theorize about etc. replayability is fine but #its not something to help me stay. and the movie did nothing for me and im worried i wont like the second either so im just focusing on #the games i guess. but then again no william no interest now. just how it be.. thats why im so whiny about the tse game #lotsa thoughts #on a positive note i luv sam and max now and if theres new stuff for sonic scu over the year i will bring that maybe #as well as sonic x shadow gens but thats a long way to go still #anyway. tldr thanks for following i hope theres something on my blog that will still interest you 🫡

[mc-tummy-blur]

I never??? Posted this study I did of the nighttime in Road 96????

Click for better quality

Ko-fi

#road 96 #digixart #road 96 game #mcart #I know I posted this in a discord server but I guess I never did here #anyways it’s been a bit for art in the road 96 tag so might as well post this for now #cause I got nothing new #I’ve been hyperfixating on other things right now

[icewindandboringhorror]

I have found a beautiful perfect humble rock specimen that is light yellow with a weird dark yellowy brown lining, somewhat resembling a chunk of smoked gouda cheese... effervescent

#I am still very into trash collecting at the moment and even went out and got one of those grabby sticks for cheap and a little #bucket I can carry around and put trash in. so I am going on walks in nature a bit more (not really to enjoy nature but more to play the #very fun Real Life Hidden Object Point And Click Game that is 'hunt for bottle caps and cans' .. but eh.. whatever gets me out of the #house lol).. anyway.. some nature places near water will have cool rocks #Which I know you're not supposed to take them and I MOSTLY dont.. but every once in a while it's like... when else will I ever find a #gouda rock... I have cleaned up 4 buckets of trash today.. I have helped the environment.. mayhaps.. i could take a One Single Rocke as a #treate... ANYWAY. but yeah. I don't know the names of rocks but there's a rock that's a matte muted marigold yellow sort of #color and I call them 'cheese rock'. I'm pretty sure this one is of the 'cheese rock' species but it just has weird brown coloration #like maybe it got stained or something on one side of it. Most of the other cheese rocks have no markings. though sometimes there will be a #auburn reddish sort of hue on a corner or something.. hrmm.. curious. I also got a Beginner's Hobby rock tumbler and some supplies #so I might try polishing some of the rocks from my enormous rock collection. even though they're all street rocks I picked up from sidewalk #and stuff. I saw a video where someone put random gravel and stuff in a rock tumbler and none of them were Stunning Gems or whatver #but some still turned out cool enough that I would be pleased with the result... OUgh.. I want to post more I need to like do costumes and #sculptures and stuff and be Active On Social Media and think about my Future and Career and how it always benefits artists to keep an #active social media or etc. but I just feel so tired and bad lately. I think the summer heat waves have really exhausted me. I also have #been trying to make new friends + on a weird schedule so I've been socializing and also watching media too much. I notice I always start #to feel this kind of unsettled stress of not making any forward progress in my life if I do that for too long. like 'Okay this week I've #done nothing but meet up with two friends & watch like 10 episodes of tv and only worked on a few projects on the side.. this is HORRIBLE!' #(ppl who follow me here that I talk to on discord: this isn't about you! Im specifically just referencing being tired of introductory talks #with a new round of random strangers during my Friend Hunt. Just clarifying so it couldn't be misinterpreted as vaguepost implying that I'm #secretly bothered by talking to you or etc. lol.. anyway) . Which I know to MOST people 'I talked to a lot of friends and watched some cool #stuff!' sounds like a GOOD relaxing time but.. to me it is not ghhj.. Those are 'external' focuses on things outside myself which bothers #me if not moderated. Like.. i MUST retreat internally to work on my worldbuilding and my own thoughts and etc. at very regular intervals or #it will really start to bear on me too much. Brain Mandated Hermit Isolation lol. Just being too detached from my world and stuff for #too long feels increasingly bad. PLUS. every day I don't make tangible progress towards my goals is a day wasted that I could have been #investing in my future by working on novels/games/sculptures/actual career relevant stuff. Not even in a Capitalism way i just genuinely #enjoy Completing Tasks & feel miserable if I don't for too long. EVEN the media I'm watching I turn into A Task since I rank in a detailed #google doc list after viewing lol.. Like EW movie too boring on it's own. NEED to turn it into something I can categorize and analyze ghghj #LOVE to make things more complicated than they need to be. like YAAAY organizational tasks! yaay meticulous sorting!! BOO ''mindless fun''!

[fourteenthz]

15 Lines of Dialogue

Rules: Share 15 or fewer lines of dialogue from an OC, ideally lines that capture the character/personality/vibe of the OC. Bonus points for just using the dialogue without other details about the scene, but you’re free to include those as well!

Tysm for the tag @myreia !! I feel like everybody got tagged in this already so if you haven't and you see this, pls consider I tagged you!!

Cleaning some of these so it's only the dialogue but it isn't purely Thesa bc she talks so little. I always have to go back on my fics to edit bc @ myself "she wouldn't say all that!!" so I'm giving a bit of context with who the scene is.

w/ estinien

“Alphinaud would find a way so he could keep traveling with you and Alisaie would pretend she didn't want anything with it but would still join right after him.” “Sounds like someone I know.”

2. w/ ardbert.

“I'm not the one you have to lie to, you know that, right? You can tell me you're tired of this. There's nothing for me to do — and I wouldn't, either way.” “What would change?” “You'd be honest with yourself for a change.”

3. talking about zenos.

“We are not so different, him and I. It's why I pity him, and I don't like it one bit. All this is because we're just too much alike and-”

4. w/ thancred.

“Considering you haven't called me in yet... should I leave you be?” “Just trying to make sense of my thoughts, so don’t. There's no need.”

5. w/ haurchefant.

“I can not stay. Alphinaud is alone and waiting for me. I need-” “To rest, for now.” “But I am good enough.” “Don't lie. I was the last to know about what you're going through, so please, don't lie to me anymore.”

6. w/ thancred.

“The exarch knows?”  “His doing, I'm afraid. Haven't gained any magicks, if you wondered.” “It was never necessary. Now, a lead, if you please.”

7. w/ hythlodaeus, about emet.

“... it's the matter at hand that gives him a tendency to be intense. If it unsettles you, I could ask him-” “No. It doesn't bother me,” I'm used to it.

8. w/ thancred.

“You did seem off when I arrived. I would like to hear about it sometime later. What happened in the few seconds you were alone here tonight and there, on the moon.” “I would like that too.”

9. w/ twins and estinien.

“I still don't want trouble with your father, so wait me back at the Annex? I will bring the food this time.” “If we are talking about free food, then I'll linger for a moment longer.” “And what if I don't bring you any?” “I'll get Alphinaud's part. You wouldn't want that, would you?”

10. w/ thancred.

“Your reaction... what was that?” “I fear I may have overstepped our-” “It's ours, you have nothing to overstep. Besides, I would tell you if you did.”

11. w/ the twins.

“The forest didn't felt like home, and I couldn't stand people thinking it still did. So, I went looking for a new meaning for the word- I guess I found what I was looking for.”

12. w/ haurchefant.

“I can fill you in first.” “Is that what you want?” “It is what you want.”

13. w/ estinien.

“It's relieving. Having you back.” “I could say the same about having you.” “I never left, why-” “You did, but not today.”

14. w/ emet, about ardbert,

“But of course, we are on the First. So that would explain him — which leaves me to wonder: won't you tell the Exarch and your Scions about that friend of yours?” “That doesn't concern them. Specifically, not you either.”

15. w/ thancred, about ryne.

“It has to be enough because now you do not have time to overthink, just to show the girl that you're strong enough and that she's safe here with you.”

#orange is her btw!! #also anna consider this the wip game as well bc WELL GUESS WHAT.... NOTHING NEW FROM ME. #I miss writing........... seeing some of these...... cry. #also I know ppl don't take the 'if you see this I tag you' thing but I truly mean it #if i follow you know i'm always here for your writing and I need to read everything you write so if you want to do this tag game I DID tag #anyway. she doesn't speak much so this was kinda hard. #everything about her is 80% on her actions or her own head you know #but i think i got this. some of those are very telling ig. so yeah. that's it ig. #wol posting #my writing #ffxiv

[kazieka]

chronic pain thots in the tags

#so I went for a walk earlier this week!!! at the park!!! #and nothing hurt #and my last podiatrist visit went really well and the bone is healing well #and yet im like. a little hesitant to talk about it on here #bc i spent a lot of time in my 20s absolutely convinced that this was a chronic pain that was never going away #and was only ever going to get worse and worse #and now it’s just. gone #and while im ecstatic about that i feel kind of?? guilty?? #cause like. there are SO many people who live with chronic pain worse than mine was #and they aren’t going to get the cutting edge surgery that I got #who have pain there is NO magic bullet for #but it’s in my nature to want to share good news after being in so much pain for so long #and I WANT to talk about how there are calluses on my feet I thought everyone had that are suddenly softening and going away #i WANT to ask what I should do with my collection of canes now that I don’t need them to go grocery shopping #but it’s just. like. maybe this is disrespectful to everyone who won’t ever get that relief #man idk. it’s a weird space to be in #to think you were gonna just be in pain and limited mobility forever and then have it fixed over the course of less than 1 calendar year #and now suddenly i don’t ‘qualify’ to be in chronic pain discord servers anymore #man I just. i dunno. post over

[milkbreadtoast]

...hey guys completely random but i made a youtube channel 🚶🏻

#i never thought id be doing this but #after encouragement from some followers/oomfs on twitter... i finally did it... #i recently got a mic so... after i finish uploading my impromptu twitter voice covers #im gonna hopefully start recording and posting proper covers.....!!!!?!!?? #lmao #anyway no i dont think my voice is that great but #this is smth ive lowkey wanted to/fantasized abt for a while (uploading covers to youtube) #and ive already gotten bold enough to share them on twitter/here so #and ive been encouraged by a few nice ppl (bc else i would never do it skfbdnd) #so here goes nothing #🫡.....🏃🏻💨 #btw if u have any advice for how to set up my channel/what to put in the description kdhfdk #oh also i put a new username bc milkbreadtoast(fluffberries as well) was taken... #might change it tho... #my singing #<--my singing tag btw LMFAO #edit: o sidenote this is smth personal but #ive also wanted to record covers with my pre-T voice #so that if/when i ever go on T... I'll be able to look back on them #idk if i ever will go on T but if I do this is smth i def want to do before that #o btw... im not... ive never considered myself a 'singer' and ive never sang in front of ppl irl either or taken classes/joined clubs etc #but this has become a lowkey hobby the past couple yrs #and its rly fun to try to find ways to improve my singing... ive def improved bc #when i listen to covers i recorded a few yrs ago im like oh my fking god my ears... hell no... #like even just 2 yrs ago #i think i improved a lot in the past 2 yrs... or since graduating...? #/since covid/quarantine lmao

[unproduciblesmackdown]

mordecai is the first funny bitch like spends 90% of his time literally just standing there going "i'm dapressed" to himself while everyone in the vicinity takes potshots and then he's clocking in for the night shift where for the next 9 hours people go "god mordecai would it kill you to act like you're having more fun at the [kills you] factory"

#The First Funny Bitch as a phrase from the ''cain was the first funny bitch'' post that i will use with some flexibility. yaknow. #i love going like oh boy a coworker triumvirate. their funny little guy (other duo going ''i want him dead'') #though it's unfair to the savoys lmfao if he's at best sometimes a desk toy to them: they do at least keep calling him babygirl #and giving him special mordecai invitations (by not inviting him) to their hotel room to try to marry him #so if nothing else we do appreciate adding a ton of flair to [afflicting the autistic coworker] #in turn i appreciate that mordecai and viktor's dynamic probably consisted of mutual ''i Do Not Care if my coworker seems weird'' #but outside of that; was anyone at lackadaisy aggrieving mordecai with the style & variety that the savoys bring....perhaps not #an upgrade in that realm....and there seems to be Some mutual [i do not care if my coworker seems weird] there again too lol #even while they've all probably been working together like half a week & haven't all worn their getalong sweater long enough #and already mordecai is doing his [not just literally standing there] rogue lone mystery solving deal lmao. wild card that he is #lackadaisy #oh also speaking of [before mordecai went grr i Hate still working here; ripped off the fridge door; went & got a new Hated job] #it's pure bonus comic realm & particularly Elevated Silly Goofs genre at that; but #points for ivy having that Younger Sibling dynamic w/mordecai w/the implication she takes his forbidden condiments index seriously #and like; in general lol not even just a [it's serious when it comes to dealing with this weird guy] way. all the more powerful for that #wait i nearly forgot to mention the hot new otp: mordecai / j.j. #that's right [sad trombone] providing guy. i know enough. first funny bitch 4 first funny bitch. #[guy doing his own thing & everyone's like Get His Ass] 4 [guy doing his own thing & everyone's like Get His Ass] #and ofc because it is funny in & of itself. & basically like Your New OC. so much room to maneuver that you cannot crash #also hmm like if your nickname for someone is Maybe ''annoying mf'' does it cancel out....eh #numbers flying around intense focus like everything points to ''hatchet would directly translate to hatchette not petit hache'' #and if you mon petit hache it (read this w/such a meter that it all rhymes) #900 tons of restraint not going ''wow this is just like analyzing billions'' & by even saying i've managed to avoid as much; now i haven't

[even-more-pro-fiction-jellicle]

Sucks to see the same kind of attitudes that ensured I would never be comfortable calling myself a feminist are still around

#i didn't really vibe with the word anyway #and then a bunch of people were like #''but using that label is more important than supporting equality and bodily autonomy and liberation etc #the actions and beliefs mean nothing it's all about the label!'' #am i being autistic here gyfeiwuhe #thinking about it now it's like they could not comprehend having shared beliefs but not using the label #meanwhile i'm unable to comprehend why they were so stuck on the label that everything else became less important #and the treatment i got chased me into being way too lenient with alt-right types so who the fuck are you helping #that post i made a while back about aggressive people just directly supplying new soldiers to the alt-right and hate groups #is something coming from some personal experience #i never got too far down the tunnel because i continued caring too much about people and boy did the right-wingers around me hate that rfeh #but anyway you're NOT helping

[oflgtfol]

“But no one actually ‘looks’ through [modern telescopes]. Margaret Huggins lamented the shift from gazing at the heavens to squinting at tiny patches of light. Now we’ve gone much, much further. In today’s astronomy, photons of light from the sky, along with the celestial secrets they contain, are picked up by electronic detectors, converted into digital data and crunched through impossibly complex equations by some of the most powerful computers on the planet. In 2016, bricklayer-turned-astronomer Gary Fildes described visiting Chile’s Very Large Telescope (VLT) in his best-selling book An Astronomer’s Tale. Incorporating four mirrors, each 27 feet wide, the VLT collects visible and infrared radiation and can distinguish points in the sky separated by less than a millionth of a degree. Here, at the forefront of today’s attempts to understand the stars, Fildes was struck by the sight of scientists hard at work in control rooms, eyes glued not to their telescopes but to banks of screens: ‘They didn’t look as if they had seen the real sky for days.’”

- The Human Cosmos: Civilization and the Stars by Jo Marchant

#brot posts #astro posting #GOD this puts to words something i really felt #as someone who fell in love with the idea of astronomy as this awe-filled wonder of the vast universe #and then going to college and sitting in a fucking dark classroom at the brink of dawn fucking 8am and doing nothing but MATH !!!! #like - theres no judgment here #very very obviously we need these technologies and math techniques to truly understand astronomy #but like the whole thesis to this book (so far? im thinking) is that like #in doing so - you lose something fundamental #astronomy is one of if not theee oldest sciences known to humanity #but the way it was practiced for millennia upon millennia of human history is so incredibly different from how we practice it now #i got a whole ass Bachelors of Science in Astronomy and never once was i required to actually look at the night sky . #and i dont think this same phenomenon exists in other fields of science #like as time goes on we ofc learn more and theres a certain level of abstraction as you get more separated from the immediate knowledge #afforded by your immediate senses #but the level of abstraction for astronomy is just. not really seen as much or as bad in other fields? imo? #anyway i remember a while ago saying that as i got further through my degree the less magical space felt to me #compared to when i was younger and knew nothing at all #and i said yeah its nice to /know/ things now but i still miss that magic when everything was new exciting and real #but you lose something. that magic. that soul. when your astronomg experience is not actually stargazing #but instead sitting in a room doing math on paper or doing nothing but staring at a computer screen

[kakusu-shipping]

You know when I said I was redesigning my Self Inserts and going in Age Order? Yeah I lied.

Here's a bunch more Redesigned Self Inserts, no longer in any particular order, just who I had the ideas for at the time.

#Emile's Arts #Self insert #Proselfship #Proship Selfship #Feel free to ask me about them #I said I'd get around to drawing my other xxxholic S/I so here he is #I've never actually drawn my Ruby Gloom S/I before she use to be just a dark version of Ruby #Based on the Blue Moon episode she was the Luna whatever I haven't watched the show recently #Then for a while she was a vampire like Scardy Bat's cousin or smthin #but recently I was thinking about the little Mummy design from the Scooby Doo Ghoul School special #And she really set a very spesific gender for me and I just stole her and Lucky Animal Crossing for myself fdkgjkdf #Sometimes you're uncreative and that's Okay #My Undertale S/I is also new kind of I've actually never talked about them as they are in my brain #Usually when talking about my Self Ship with Papyrus I talk about a Post Pacifist Timeline me who was a human living on the surface he met #Buuuuuuut that's not how the self ship is in my head I just never wanted to bring it up I guess kfgjfkdg #It's just an I'm Frisk sort of Self Insert nothing actually interesting #I think I got the idea from the Crybaby Frisk comic that was running around for a while because #Yeah that'd be me #fgfdkgjkdf #Okay enough tag rambling again ask me if you wanna know more about them #Thankyou very much for reading!

[skhardwarevers1]

sorry for saying I was going to do things and even starting them and then disappearing from this website entirely for three days. It will happen again

#Nothing new. Tbf I’ve done this a lot #I would say I’m focusing more on school and my personal writing but that’s more of a fucking lie than full truth #I genuinely have felt sick to my stomach posting here for whatever reason #Guilt shame anxiety paranoia etc etc you get the point. I feel like shit with no valid reason as to why #So for now I’m going to stop doing the thing that makes me overly emotionally sick to the point I have actual physical reactions???? #Yeah that’s the logical course of action. Might post small personal anecdotes and doodles and such to give off the vague energy that Im fin #But beyond that I quite literally can’t. I sat down and thought about writing this post and immediately broke down #I don’t know why I feel guilty over having inconsistent motivation for putting up shitty writing on a website for strangers to see #But I do and k think the only good way to get past that is this. Gotta stop acting Impulsively it’s ruining my fucking life man #There’s only one other thing that I’ll thank Eloise for #and it’s for getting me off of tumblr long enough to realize that I desperately need to get help #This is fucked I fucking hate it. I might be online if k can bare the possibility that people can see this #Namely people I’ve grown attached to in concept #Idfc at this point. it doesn’t change much about how things have been going for the past year #Vent #S.K explains that things never really got better they would just suck less for short periods of time

[vairiance]

I really think Pokemon should go back to 2D. Not even necessarily like HD 2D or whatever like Octopath Traveler (although that'd be cool I guess), but just what they had going in Gen 4/5, but polished up to modern tech standards.

So much charm was lost in the shift to 3D (not without benefit, of course, but still), and it brought a whole host of space issues, all in the name of making Pokemon look less appealing and having awkward movements. Like, compare these images of Hippowdon:

Leftmost is Gen 5, middle is modern, and rightmost is the (leaked) sprite from S/V.

Gen 5's is awesome! Grainy, obviously, by design, but otherwise it's super cool. You see a fierce looking hippo, posed threateningly, spewing sand to demonstrate its signature mechanic. Perfect.

Modern Hippowdon makes me sad. It's still kind of grainy (beyond what the resolution change of this image did to it), and it just looks like me on a Monday morning. You'd have no idea that this thing shoots sand, and you'd only get to see it look cool for a fraction of a second when it attacks, sometimes.

Then there's S/V Hippowdon. It's just a menu sprite icon, but look how clean it looks compared to modern Hippowdon! Imagine the Gen 5 Hippowdon pose, with the SV Hippowdon style. That'd be ideal for me I think.

3D has its benefits for sure, obviously, but I think 3D should be saved for spinoffs where a smaller scale can be enforced, and thus more care can be put into what is in the game. Comparing the 3D animations of Pokemon Colosseum/XD and what we have now proves this; in the Orre games, the Pokemon really feel alive, because they move in a way natural to what you'd expect, whereas in the modern era, everyone stands there idly and twitches once in a while to attack or get hit.

Move animations suffer as well. Let's compare the animation of Earthquake, a move that's supposed to be a terrifying massive quake of the earth. Here's how it's depicted in Gen 4:

Pretty cool, right? The magnitude of the quake is shown by literally everything shaking violently, with some dramatic flashes and rock effects. Not bad. But this could really benefit from 3D, let's take a look at how a powerful explosion of the earth is shown with the cutting edge graphics of Gen 8:

It is what would be considered a god awful green screen effect if seen in a movie.

Sure, but how much better could a 3D Earthquake animation be? Well, let's turn to the love of my life, Pokemon XD, to see how it's done:

Look, maybe you disagree with my assessment of these images, and that's fine. But I strongly encourage you to go back and play, say, Emerald, or Platinum, or what have you, if you haven't recently. You'll be able to palpably feel the difference between it and the newer games, and the visuals are just the surface of this. They're just what tends to come to mind whenever I think about it.

Idk I just miss when Pokemon games were delivered as strong single player games with multiplayer capabilities meant to last a decent while and then be put down, and returned to in a few years when you're feeling wistful, as opposed to increasingly lightweight multiplayer focused games with increasingly less single player endgame content so that they can push subscriptions of the god awful online pass

#i hate modern gaming #i hate it so so much #im literally having a breakdown about it right now #games are my only outlet i have literally got nothing else to look forward to in my life #and im slowly losing them to senseless greed and dispassionate companies #i mean thats not new obviously but it is hitting me hard as i play old classics and new games concurrently #anyway this post is inspired by the leaks seeming to confirm that there is no battle tower at all in gen 9 #the only feature that actually matters to me #sorry if you count that as a spoiler but better to be disappointed now than later #i hinged my entire mental health on gen 9 and now it looks like its starting with a massive disappointment #so if the rest of the games arent absolutely perfect im no longer going to have anything to live for #sorry if that sounds dramatic and trust me i know how stupid it sounds to say this as a 28 year old about a game made for infants #thats just what my pointless empty shell of a wasted life is like now #why did i even make this post #nothing here isnt common knowledge #long post #pokemon #sorry i forgot the tags while i was whining #hippowdon

[reejindeed]

Killer's face without a mask confirmed? Fr fr?

Fr fr

#asks #text post #I'm sorry I have nothing new to post #I got COVID so now I'm just sitting here bored as hell and in pain #So now I'm going through asks

[criticaaaaaaaal]

#see my blog was never intended to be . like . seen by people? thats why its so gross #i tag Nothing. i only tag what i want to tag. i still have the mindset of what i used to be *checks watch* 9 months ago? i think? #i had under 100 followers most if not all being friends and mutuals #and then i made the mistake of posting art. sigh #this still carries over to the fact id Like to move blogs because this ones gotten. way too big #lesson learned for anyone on tumglblr: if you post anything like art or fanfic MAKE IT A SIDE BLOG!!!!!!!!!!!!! #do NOT do what i did. not the main blog. mistake #i used to make sideblogs everytime i got a new main interest but when i got into toh i stopped. idk why. but im stuck here now #if i DO move blogs i'll post about it. it'll prob be a quieter move but yeah it'll happen #im just procrastinating cus all my junk is already HERE #so like. why move. yknow? #i do genuinely love & appreciate the support. people have been very kind to me #i appreciate it a lot #i also just know from experience i am not someone that should have any sort of following on anything. i take it horribly #like. i used to be an active twitter artist for a year and that was HORRIBLE. ppl didnt just want art they wanted my opinions and my biases #i couldnt breath without 5 people asking me things #horrible life to live lol i like tumblr more #i started on tumblr and i moved back. im glad #anywhoo enough rambling i guess. if i move ill let people know! if i dont. well youll know cus im still here #ugh if i move i have to reblock my tags n people blaaaaugh #okey ill talk to you people later

[fuckmeyer]

(Jacobsbadwig) with all due respect, when the fuck did you get back! I missed you!

never left, only reincarnated :)

#i missed you too!!!!!! how's the fanfic going???? well i hope :) #it has been a Time #my burnout & mental illness got the better of me. i intended on divorcing myself from fandom & deleting my blog #i wanted to make myself as small as possible so i could spend whatever energy i had on work and drugs #i was afraid my presence was negatively affecting the fandom at best & contributing nothing at worst #it didn't feel like there was any place for me anymore - not because of anything anyone said or did but bc #many posts i made i no longer agreed w/ & bc i was too burnt out to write new theories i figured no one would notice or care i was gone #so i got super drunk and deleted everything #people contacted me about my blog but i was too anxious to reply #bc i didn't want to admit i had made a mistake #i kept the handle in case i ever wanted to post #but for a long time i had nothing to say about twilight outside of what my fanfiction had to say about it #i lurked for a while & at the end of the day i missed the community that came with participating in fandom #really tho - what helped was quitting my crushing job and taking several months to travel around the pacific northwest #(burnout is REAL!!!!!!) #and the admin of the twilight Discord server recognizing my handle & taking the time to talk to me - which was very sweet of them #plus - i am rereading Eclipse for the fanfic rewrite and began to have Thoughts #tbh i've been finding it amazing that anyone ever noticed i left or remembered my handle! im kinda blown away #anyway here's all the information you never asked for LMAO #i am happy to be back in the circle :) #cheers to you #<3