#i gotta go watch SO many episodes and then i can get to the inbox. the day after LL is always an eventful one

[aenslem]

aslkjdlasjf THIS GD SHOW, argh. i just finished season one, which i thought was a good idea, you know, finish the season before taking a break. *facepalms* i have those annoying things to do again (stupid household chores, every gd day you gotta do things), so it'll be a few hours before i can watch more, but i should be able to watch at least one or two more episodes today, so HOPEFULLY things will be a bit more resolved by tonight x'D

you were so right, there is so much happening, and i think EVERYONE on that gd ship needs a few years vacation after all this x'D

"married divorced remarried and divorced again and still having feelings for each other" asljdalksjda that is so correct, they are just that x'D

it's so fun, they're like "i don't trust him" pretty much all the time, and then Rush is like "so i had a dream" and Young is like "ok, i'll call General O'Neill" and they keep relying on each other so much right now, it's great, and Young risking the whole gd ship to save Rush, after having tried to kill him, what, twice already? amazing ❤

ah, yes, fanfiction ❤ it's so good at casting light on things from different angles, i love that, seeing characters and their motivations from all kinds of different point of views. though, you gif makers do that too and i love it, it's so great to look at different gif makers in the same fandoms and see how you focus different things.

right now i'm pretty exclusively reading McShep fics, but we'll see how that looks once i'm done with sgu x'D if you have any recs, please feel free to share!

btw, i've been trying to remember why i followed you from the start, and i'm pretty sure it's Star Trek, and specifically Spones, which, ALL MY LOVE! but i also want to mention how much i love following someone who gifs a lot of women, i love having more women on my dash! i never finished OUaT back in the days, but all your Regina and Swan Queen gifs are making me want to, and your Michelle Gomez gifs, waah, i do not want to watch CAoS! 😭 but you are kicking me in the butt about finishing Doctor Who too with your gifs of her (i sadly miss most of them though since i have it blacklisted for spoilers), i had no idea she was in it but man did that make me want to watch it when i found out!

okay, sorry that this got so long, even when i'm trying to keep things brief i end up being very wordy. so many things to say!

anyway, i'm gonna go do the things now, the sooner i get them done the sooner i can watch more sgu =D oh, wait, no, you posted something from 1x18 last night! i didn't look at it since i hadn't watched it yet, so i'm gonna go do that first! =D ❤

/Rodney anon

Oh don't be sorry , you can get wordy in my inbox whenever you like :3

You're fast! but why am I surprised, I finished 7 seasons of OUaT in a month lmao.

Well, imagine how it was for those who were watching sgu when it was actually airing, they did not have a chance to go and watch s2 right after s1, and you can :D so other things are not as bad as break between seasons of the show, but yeah, there's always things to do, sucks

askjhdaksjhd 'i just had a very interesting dream' scene is so good, and it so much better when you take it out of context lmao

well, they have to work together, they don't have a choice. you know how things were when he left rush on that planet, eli is smart, and eli was also right

but eli is still not good enough to do all the work, so no matter how much they don't trust each other, they have to work things out and work together and then finally going towards trust and comradery

well, at least they will try lmao

SPONES!!!!!!! SPOOOONEES! they are everything to me!!!!!

well, if you finish ouat and start caos... I am so sorry in advance lmao

I am not sure I can even explain what mess of the shows are those two, I have similar feelings towards both shows, I love the cast, I love some characters, I love women there, I hate the writers :D

Michelle is stunning in caos, there's also Miranda Otto, and they are like my moms, I love them, this show is worth watching just to look at them, but there's also... the rest of the show and plot asjkhdakjdh

same goes for ouat tbh, some characters are great and actors are doing such a good job and then there's whatever was happening in the show, but it;s still fun if you don't take it all seriously.

you will facepalm a lot and you will have an urge to rip your hair out sometimes, but if you try caos, I will give you two good reasons for it

that's it, think about it

okay, but you definitely need to watch doctor who, WATCH DOCTOR WHO!

#ask #Anonymous #rodney anon #oh man i suck at giving fanfiction recs #like i read so much and don't remember most of the titles #or it's all messed up and im not sure that title is from that fanfiction im thinking about lmao #well my first young x rush fic was stranger in a strange land and recently i read it second time and it's good i liked it #so im rereading young x rush fics right now and i will try to remember the titles and put them in my bookmarks #honestly i remember the title of that one fic not because it was my first fic #but because i love iron maiden askjhdakjdh

[neechees]

Im the reading anon and i would like to apoligize, i didnt meant to use your inbox as confesional i was trying to ask for help but english is my second language and something went wrong with my ask (i think) but i promise i only asked for advice, it was not meant to upset you or make you uncomfortable. Im so sorry it wont happen again

I forgive you, then. & it's not that it made me uncomfortable necessarily, I just don't know how to reply to asks that aren't questions & aren't relevant to anything posted recently on my blog, so I don't know what people want me to say. And I tend to get quite a few of those every so often, some from people who want to try start shit on my blog without dealing with any notes or backlash since it's anonymous (like, some people will leave hot takes in my inbox waiting for me to react somehow. Or bait that might inspire discourse).

But, since you've now clarified you're asking for advice, I'll respond that way.

It honestly CAN get hard to get back into reading, I go through those moments every so often & feel uninspired to read. I guess you just gotta try different things & see what works for you, or maybe a certain book will reinvigorate you. Recently "Sharp Objects" by Gillian Flynn got me out of a reading stunt because I liked the pacing, & the style of prose the author gave, even though I'm not usually into murder mysteries. Sometimes re-reading old books I liked & haven't read in a while gets me inspired again. Some people also try audiobooks & listen to them while they're working or doing chores. You could also try reading a book together with other people or joining a book club!

If you don't mind getting spoilers, I'd suggest listening to a podcast episode or a video essay or even watching a movie adaptation (or maybe a few or all of these!) of a book you've thought about reading first: that way you can get a feel for what the book contains & sometimes this can inspire you to read it for yourself. Some people say that listening to other people's interpretations or opinions of a book before you read it first can too heavily influence & ruin your later opinion of the book when you read it yourself, but I don't necessarily think this is always true. I've done this many times & still come away with my own interpretations & opinions completely seperate from that of others', & disagreed with them on certain things.

I know it can be scary, but honestly I think there's hope & not as impossible as it seems. There are so many books to discover, and I don't think people can truly ever grow out of reading if it's something they really enjoy. But good luck!

#anonymous

[sansaorgana]

Hello!! Please could you write a Buck x reader where he comes back to base (because I SOBBED when he got back) and he reunites with the reader and maybe they're sitting on the tower (like in the episode) with Bucky (because I LOVE when you add Bucky into them aha) watching all the flares and Buck refuses to let go of the reader and it's really cute a cuddly? Thank you so so so much!!

hey, love! thank you a lot for this request! it surely felt special to see him coming back after such a long time... and I thought it would be weird for him and his girl to see each other after such a long break most likely. of course it has a happy ending 🤗🎆

my inbox is open for blurb/short fic requests for major cleven 🤗

You were working as usual on that day, organising the papers and drinking coffee as one of your friends was busy answering the phones. You were deep in your own thoughts when the door from her side of the office opened rapidly as she entered the room with a huge smile.

“(Y/N)! You won’t believe me!” She announced.

“What is it? Hitler’s dead?” You asked and sighed. She was a talkative woman and you didn’t want anyone to interrupt your work.

“Don’t be daft! That ain’t no joking matter!” She gasped and then she approached your desk, still smiling. “Your Buck’s coming back!”

Your heart skipped a beat at the news. You finally raised your eyes to look at her in disbelief.

“What?”

“Your Buck’s comin’ back, they just called me! He’s gonna be here tomorrow,” she announced. “The Germans were transferring the captives from one camp to another and he ran off. By accident our soldiers found him,” she told you and then the sound of a ringing phone made her turn around. “I gotta go. But he’s gonna be here tomorrow!” She winked at you and went back to her side of the office to pick up the phone.

You stared at the wall in front of you for a while before you remembered to blink your eyes. You laid them on Buck’s portrait on your desk and you caressed it gently.

It certainly didn’t feel real for him to come back. It had been such a long time without him that it had started to feel as if he was nothing but that black and white picture and not a real person. 

You were happy that he was coming back but also anxious. Would it be the same now…? Would it be… anything?

Buck and you hadn’t really had the time to go serious. He had gone down on a mission right after your first kiss. You had sent him a few letters to the camp but the Red Cross had been having problems with delivering them so you had given up. He hadn’t been getting even half of the ones you had sent anyway.

You still were thinking of him every day. You had his picture on your desk and everyone was calling him your Buck. But was he really yours? He had to change enormously all that time he had been gone and you… And you changed, too.

You weren’t the same woman as you had been back then. You weren’t befriending pilots anymore; they became just surnames and numbers to you. You had watched too many of them die to risk getting attached. Colonel Harding was away and most of your old, common friends with Buck were not there anymore either. They either had been lucky enough to go back home or they had gone down.

If by any chance Buck Cleven was still interested in you… he wouldn’t be interested in the new you. He’d be interested in the old version of you who had died a long time ago somewhere alongside all the boys sent to death.

You couldn’t sleep at night out of excitement and anxiety but the adrenaline was making you feel lively anyway. This morning you put extra effort in doing your hair and putting your makeup on. Your friends were giggling quietly between each other and you were rolling your eyes.

You didn’t even go to the office that day. Your friend promised that she would cover for you. Instead, you joined Harry Crosby on the tower as you watched the sky together.

“I’m nervous, Croz,” you confessed to him after a while.

“I can see that,” he pointed out. “Shouldn’t you be happy?”

“I am happy that he’s coming back and that he’s safe but… I’m scared it won’t be the same,” you explained and looked down.

“It won’t be,” he nodded his head and you looked up at him, disappointed in how harsh and definitive his answer was. “But it doesn’t mean it won’t be good,” he added.

“I am not the same woman that I was… I was still treating this whole thing as an adventure back then,” you told him. “And now… Now I am not the type of woman a man like Buck would want. I am not the type most men would want for a wife or a steady girl to go out with, you know?”

“Bullshit, (Y/N),” Croz squinted his eyes at you. “Bullshit, that’s first of all. Second of all, how do you know what man Buck is now?”

“That also scares me. What if I don’t like him anymore?” You bit on your lower lip.

“You’re about to find out. I can see them!” Harry pointed at the planes on the horizon.

You wanted to run downstairs and be the first one to greet him but something inside you was so scared that it petrified your whole body. You were clutching on the railing and only watching.

“You goin’?” Crosby asked you before going downstairs.

“Yeah, yeah,” you nodded at him and he went down but you remained upstairs.

The planes landed and Buck jumped out of one of them… Your heart sank deep in your chest hearing his voice and laughter from afar. You had just realised that the sound of his voice in your memories had been getting unclear lately. He looked the same, too, greeting his old friends and patting their backs.

At some point you saw Harry pointing at the tower and Buck looked up at you. His whole face warmed up as he gave you a wide smile and you felt your cheeks heating up.

He waved at you, a little shyly, and you finally decided to run downstairs. You were so dizzy and excited that you were jumping over the steps, nearly tripping and falling down a few times but it didn’t matter. 

You ran outside and hesitated for a moment. Should you run into his arms…? Did he want that…? Did he still see you as a romantic interest or were you just a friend he hadn’t seen in a long time…? You stood there, awkwardly, and stared at him. He was staring back at you from the opposite side of the airstrip and he opened his arms as he was inviting you to come to him.

You smiled and ran into his arms with such force that you almost knocked him out. He chuckled happily and you felt him lifting you off of the ground to spin you around as Crosby and the other guys laughed playfully.

Still in his arms, with your feet up in the air, you caressed his cheeks and furrowed your brows at the sight of a few scars scattered all over.

“Oh, Buck,” you burst out in tears.

He was there. He was real, holding you. And he had been through so much…

“Hey, doll, don’t you cry now,” he put you down and wiped your cheeks with his hands. “Shh,” he pressed your head closer to him as he caressed your hair.

After a short and awkward moment of just crying into his shirt as other guys watched, you sniffed and took the step back.

“I should go back to work…” You told him and he nodded, although you could see a hint of disappointment. “You know when to find me when you’re done with all the officialities,” you added as you playfully squeezed his cheek and turned around to walk back inside the base.

“Hey,” Harry grabbed your sleeve as he took you on the side, “is everything okay?”

“Yeah, Croz, it’s just… Weird,” you told him as he nodded, letting you go.

You went back to your office and after a while of hesitation, you hid Buck’s picture inside the desk. For some reason you didn’t want him to come inside later and see it.

You sighed at the sight of the papers and started to work on them but you couldn’t focus on anything. Your friend interrupted you as usual.

“You’re back already?” She asked, surprised.

“Mhm,” you didn’t even look up.

“What’s wrong? What, is he different?”

“I don’t know,” you shrugged your arms.

“You don’t like him anymore? You saw him in real life after all this time and you don’t feel anything?” She sat on your desk and you looked up at her. God, she was so nosy.

“It’s not that… I… I feel a lot,” you explained. “But he’s been through so much and I’ve changed, too. It’s a bit like… Like we are strangers,” you added. “He hugged me and all but… But it felt weird.”

“You’re weird,” she rolled her eyes and left you at the sound of the telephone.

You were angry at her words at first but then you thought that maybe she had been right. Maybe it was you making it weirder than it truly was with your overthinking. You opened the drawer of your desk and took out Buck’s picture to put it back on the surface.

And you were very glad that you did that because literally a minute later, Buck knocked upon the door and walked inside without waiting for your answer.

You smiled at him and he took his cap off as he smiled back.

“So… Your office hasn’t changed much, huh?” He asked, a little awkwardly.

“Not at all,” you told him and he approached your desk. He froze at the sight of the picture.

“You have my picture here?” He asked and you could feel your cheeks getting hot.

“I…” You started.

“I lost your picture,” he confessed as he looked down at your face with a sad smile. “The one you had given me before I went to Bremen. I lost it somewhere in Germany when I was landing or when they caught me, I can’t tell,” he explained.

“It’s alright. It’s not your fault,” you assured him and you noticed that his hands were squeezing the cap unnaturally tight and shaking a little. “Are you alright, Buck?”

“I’m just surprised… To see the picture… and Croz told me you were waiting for me…” His voice broke a little as you looked up, curiously.

“What do you mean?” You asked. “Of course I was waiting.”

“I thought you moved on,” he confessed. “Especially that you stopped writing me letters.”

“Buck! I stopped writing them because they told me they were not getting delivered anyway and I had lots of work here and after some time I just… I just didn’t know what to say anymore anyway…” You stood up to cup his face in your hands and make him look deep into your eyes. “Oh, Buck…” You cooed to him. “You can’t blame me. You answered only one of my letters… Imagine what I was thinking. I was sure you didn’t like me anymore,” you admitted.

“What are you talking about? I answered every single letter. I asked you something important in the last one and you never replied,” he furrowed his brow.

“Honey, I received only one letter, look,” you opened the drawer and showed him a letter you had gotten at the end of 1943.

“I… I sent more…” Buck’s eyes widened. “You believe me, right?” 

“Why wouldn’t I, darling?” You felt tears forming in your eyes again. “Oh, I would give everything to read them, Buck.”

“Don’t worry, I have ‘em memorised by heart,” he smiled and put his cap on the desk so he could hold your hand to put it on his chest. You chuckled through the tears. “And I am not angry that you haven’t been writing more. Those few letters I got… They kept me going, sweetheart,” he caressed your cheek with his thumb. “I have them here,” he reached into the pocket and showed you a folded envelope that looked as if it had been to hell and back. Because it probably had been.

At the sight of them, you burst out in tears and hid your face in your hands. Buck hid the letters again and put his arms around you to bring you closer.

Everyone could feel that the war was getting to an end and it was an exciting but also odd feeling. It didn’t mean less work for you, though, but Buck refused to ever stop spending time with you. He was sitting in your office most days and occasionally flying on peace missions. You loved to watch him getting on the plane when you knew you didn’t have to worry about him being killed and the smile on his face when he was flying was making you happy.

You had to admit he hadn’t changed that much. He still was the Buck you had met back in 1943. Sometimes he would get more quiet and his eyes were a little sadder but he had always been one of the stoic and calm men. He still could tease and joke from time to time, though, and he was smiling widely at the sight of you, constantly wanting you to be around him, whispering to you all the sweet things about how much he had been missing you and how much the memory of you had kept him alive.

And you realised that you hadn’t changed that much either after all because now, when he was back, everything seemed different. You were smiling and laughing again, you were joking around and you were full of hope that you had thought was long gone. Of course you were not the same woman you had been back then – you had seen too many pilots not coming back to the base, too many of them dying in the sickbay. But you weren’t as dead inside as you had thought. You just needed your Buck back.

When the war was declared to be officially over, the celebration in the base was a one wild party like you had never seen before taking place. The music was loud, the men were drinking as much as they could and the women were allowing them to kiss them way more eagerly than usual. You went to grab a bottle of coke and you lost Buck in the crowd for a short moment.

You were happy to see your friends celebrating but you didn’t feel like dancing and drinking. You just wanted to sit with Buck and cuddle. You couldn’t help but to feel anxious that the end of the war could also mean the end of the two of you. You wanted to find out what his plans were about your relationship.

“There you are,” he grabbed your wrist and you turned around to smile at him. “Come with me,” he proposed and you nodded as you allowed him to take you outside. “Do you want to watch the fireworks and flares on the tower?” He asked.

“Yes, very much,” you nodded and you both went there.

Bucky was already sitting there and drinking from his hip flask. You smiled at the sight of him. You had been missing him so much, too, that you didn’t mind him third wheeling a little at the moment.

Buck sat between you two and you put your head on his shoulder as you all watched the fireworks and flares in silence, accompanied by the sounds of the wild party from the distance. It was making you feel nostalgic. Something was ending. Something was starting – normal life was supposed to come back but what was even normal after all these awful things that had happened and all this death?

Buck’s bond with Bucky had always been strong but you could notice these past few weeks that it had gotten even stronger now. They often didn’t need words at all now. But you did.

“I just remembered…” You started as you looked up at Buck and kissed his cheek gently. He raised an eyebrow at you. “You told me you had asked me something important in the last letter you had sent me, the one I never got.”

Buck blushed slightly and you heard Bucky chuckle.

“What is it?” You raised your head to look at him.

“He couldn’t stop talking about it,” Bucky shook his head and you bit on your lower lip.

“About what?” You asked, impatiently.

“He…”

“No,” Buck interrupted him, “it should be me saying this, not you, John.”

Bucky rolled his eyes and took a sip from his hip flask. You nervously sipped on your coke and laid your eyes on Buck again.

“In the last letter I asked you to consider if perhaps one day when I’d be back – which would be now it seems – you’d be willing to…” Buck was nervously trying to find the right words and you smiled to yourself at how adorable he was.

“Yes,” you shut him up with a soft kiss on the lips and Bucky chuckled.

“You didn't let me finish, baby,” Buck smirked as he rubbed your back.

“Doesn’t matter. Whatever you want, I’ll do it,” you told him and put the bottle of coke down to cup his face and caress his scars with your fingertips. “I’ve been waiting for you to be back with me for so long. I will follow you anywhere from now on,” you promised.

You didn’t even feel odd with the fact Bucky was there with you two. You already knew that they came together like a pack of two for the price of one in the grocery store. Buck felt as comfortable around Bucky as if he was alone and the feeling was mutual. 

“I want you to marry me,” Buck explained and carefully watched your reaction to see if you were still as excited as before.

“There is nothing else in the world I’d rather do,” you nodded at him and pecked his lips before putting your head on his shoulder again. He brought you closer and kissed the top of your head.

You all went silent once again, watching the lights and listening to the sounds of the party. Now you felt nothing but happiness and impatience for the life that would come. For the life you would share with Buck… and Bucky – you chuckled to yourself at the thought. 

Bucky handed the hip flask to Buck and he hesitated for a short while before taking a sip. He wasn’t a drinker but who wouldn’t drink to the end of the world war?

You took the sip, too and then handed the hip flask back to Bucky as you squeezed Buck tighter and caressed his golden hair.

Everything would be alright.

MASTERLIST || BUCK MASTERLIST

#sansaorgana: Answered #lovely anons #*buck #lilysfiction #gale cleven x reader #austin butler x reader

[davishater]

I wonder how much of the manga the anime will cover now that there are only a few episodes left. I really wanted it to cover the whole hacker/m family arc of winter confronting ron, I think that would've been a perfect ending and setting up another season but now i'm not too sure bc that arc has a lot of chapters in the manga. Maybe they'll cut the arc and leave us on a cliffhanger. (Eventho I'd really hate that). The only reason I expected them to cover it is bc they made the choice to animate both winter and milo only for them to appear just for a couple seconds. I think if they covered that arc the animation would be more worth it. I mean IM STARVING FOR WINTER CONTENT HERE!!

First, I want to let you know that there are some days where I'm busy with work, or recovery, so sometimes when I get home, I just gotta take a big fat nap. Like seriously, my day consisted of watching the new episode at 8:30am, go to work, go to Dr appointment, get home, eat, pass out at 4pm and it is now 8:30pm. I adore talking with you, so I will always reply to you as soon as I have the energy/time. You can also fill my inbox with as many asks as you want, it's not a bother to me. It actually makes me really happy when I get random attention like that (I'm basically a mix of Bokuto from Haikyuu and Reki from Sk8 The Infinity). 😂 Even though I have a different kind of anxiety than what you were talking about in a different ask, I get it. I worry about what people think, like if they think I'm ignoring them, or if they're worried about if I'm judging them, so I just wanted to make sure you knew that you are not a bother, you're super fun, and you always make my day. ☺️

OK NOW ONTO THE REAL STUFF!

Before the first episode officially aired, I heard a rumor that it was going to be getting a part 2 soooooo 🤞 but yeah, the hacker arc really is where the story picks up, so, in order to really grab people, they HAVE to animate that arc soon. I'm actually feeling good on the Winter content right now, cause of how much I ate it up, but I do wanna be a pig and eat up more. We TECHNICALLY only got one full body shot with the front view, the shoes, and the back view. I'm sad they didn't animate her driving the boat, cause that's one of her really good looking panels, but I'm still glad we got what we did. Her just letting the man fall to the floor was SO GOOD and funny, whenever I need something more, I go back to the joke video I made on that and I'm just like, "thanks for the meal. 😌🙏"

AND IF THE MANGA OR THE ANIME DOESN'T GIVE ME A PICTURE OF ELI SOON, I'MMA RIOT SO HARD!!! LET ME SEE HIM! LET ME COME UP WITH A PERSONALITY BASED ON HIS LOOKS!!! PLEASE!! I NEED ELI TO FINALLY COMPLETE THE MORIATY SIBLING LOOK!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭

[havethetimeofyourstyles]

in which harry stumbles across your livestream.

a/n: alright lovelies! here is my submission for bificathon hosted by my two lovely friends @bopbopstyles & @harrysclementines !! my prompt is ‘harry accidentally stumbles upon a livestream of her and her friend’ and let me tell you, I SNATCHED THIS SO QUICK! its my first time writing gxg smut, so pls be nice :’). also september is bi awareness month, so happy bi month babies! you’re so all beautiful and valid <3

enjoy 4k words of bi/camgirl!yn x roommate/best friend!harry filled with girl x girl smut/filth

come into my inbox and send feedback and let’s talk about this!

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It was Harry’s usual Thursday night when he found himself lying in his bed with his laptop on his lap and a plate of his dinner in his hands. 

He was binge watching interior home designers on Netflix, letting out an ‘ooh’ and ‘ahh’ as they revealed the finished homes, practically envisioning his future home the same way. 

Thursday nights were practically the start of his weekend as he didn’t have classes on Fridays, and usually his friends and him would hang out, but he really just didn’t feel like going out nor did he have the social capacity to hang out and get drunk when he’s probably going to do that on Friday and Saturday. 

He simply just wanted a break, and that included staying inside and watching interior designers flip a house completely different, and eating his dinner. And he wasn’t ashamed that he enjoyed it. 

After a few episodes and an empty plate, Harry paused the next episode before it even started to put his plate away and grab a glass of water. As he was washing his plate, he heard the door open and close, followed by hushed giggles and whispers. 

“Shh. Harry might be asleep,” a voice said, but he knew it was you. You knew that he liked to sometimes sleep early, but he thought it was too early to be asleep, seeing as it was only eight p.m. 

“I’m actually in here,” he chuckled, making himself present with his voice. 

“Oh!” You said surprisingly, and another laugh was heard. 

You made your way to the kitchen, your guest following behind you as you saw Harry in just a pair of boxers and a t-shirt. 

“Hey, H,” you greeted. 

“Hi, love. Have fun tonight?” He asked. You had went to the bar to chill out from the many essays you had to write and exams you had to take, and Thursday nights were also a start to your weekend as well, so fuck it. 

“Yeah, I did, thanks for asking. This is Daniela, by the way,” you introduced the girl you had met at the bar. 

You had seen Daniela right when you walked in as her and her friends were sitting at the table right next to the entrance, and she immediately caught your eye. She looked right back at you, giving you some flirty eyes herself as you were dragged away by your friends and straight to the bar. 

After a few drinks and rounds of dancing with your best girlfriends, you saw Daniela walk over to the bar and order some drinks, so you decided that it was your chance to go up to her. 

You two had immediately hit it off, getting to know one another. She told you that she was a lesbian, and you proudly told her that you were bisexual. You also found out that you’re both in the same bio-chem class together, which definitely raised the excitement as she suggested studying together and you happily said yes. Then there was dancing while you two were both buzzed, completely forgetting your friends as you grinded against each other and kissed, not caring that you were practically putting on a show for everyone around you. 

And when you suggested that you took her home, she immediately said yes, and you dragged her outside as you waited for the Uber you called. 

“Nice to meet you, Daniela. I’m Harry,” he introduced himself, shaking her hand. “Her roommate and friend-”

“Best friend. C’mon, Harry, don’t put yourself lower than that,” you corrected and he smiled. 

“Alright, alright. My bad,” he laughed. 

“So, we’re gonna go to my room,” you winked him as Harry said ‘have fun’ before cleaning up a bit in the kitchen. 

He was glad that one of you was getting laid. He also noticed how happy you were, which he absolutely adored, and he thinks it has to do with the fact that you came out a year ago, and you’re now living your life to the fullest and happiest, and that’s all he wants; is for you to be happy with yourself and in general.

Harry met you at the end of freshman year of college as your friend groups met up with each other at a bar. He was a bit more shy than the rest of his friends, and didn’t immediately mingle with everyone until a few drinks in. But as you introduced yourself to his friends, you noticed him sitting down at the bar, not interacting with anyone. You were also somewhat on the quiet side, but was able to handle introducing yourself, so you completely understood why Harry acted the way he did when you two met. 

“Hey, not feeling it tonight?” You asked, taking a seat next to him. 

“Eh, not one for going up to people and initiating a conversation,” he said nervously. 

“I get that. Makes me nervous to go up to someone and talk to them, but I’m trying to get over that, so here’s me trying,” you chuckled as did he. 

“Well, we gotta drink to that then,” he said, and it took him by surprise that he was able to make a joke and laugh. 

It could have definitely been the liquid courage, but he was starting to warm up to you; joking around and becoming less tense as you two talked and drank. But that was because you were making him comfortable, to which he appreciated very much. 

Since then, you two have been by each other’s side. He told you that your friends kind of intimidated him because they were very out there, and that made you laugh slightly because it was very true, but you made sure to be by his side whenever your groups hung out. 

The group hangouts turned into one-on-one hangouts with just you and Harry. He was definitely more comfortable with you, and he really enjoyed your company and presence. 

Both of your friends had expected you two to end up together, but you two realized that you were better off as friends—who knows if you two will end up together, but for now, you were happy being best friends with him as was he. 

It was a year, the end of sophomore year, when you wanted to move out of the dorms. It wasn’t like you didn’t like your friends and roommates, but sometimes you wanted your own space and that didn’t help when there’s two other people in the same room as you. 

So Harry suggested that you both find a flat together since he was on the lookout for a flat anyways, and it’ll help him a ton with bills and whatnot. You excitedly said yes after you asked him if he was sure that he wanted to move in with you, and if he was extra sure that he wanted to since you’d be there when he would take home people. He laughed, and said that he didn’t care and wanted to live with you, saying it’ll be fun. You both had gotten quite close throughout that year and practically told each other everything, so it’ll be even better to live with someone you both trust. 

Junior year of uni, he noticed that you always came home with a sad frown on your face, briefly saying hi to him before going straight to your room and locking yourself up for hours. Harry tried figuring out why you were in such a mood all the time, and tracked his steps, seeing if he said anything wrong that made you upset. But he couldn’t figure it out as you both always had light and fun conversations during breakfast and dinner. 

And the frown went on for months until you both came back from Christmas break, and you told him that you had to tell him something very important. 

“Love, you can tell me anything, you know that right?” He said, reassuring you. 

“Yeah. It’s just…I’m nervous to,” you said, shaking your leg. Harry really wondered what happened during break that made you so anxious. He was worried that you wanted to move out and not live with him anymore, but he had to remind himself that it was probably not even about him as he told you to take your time. 

“Don’t worry. I’ll be here when you’re ready,” he said, and you nodded, giving him a smile before you walked off to your room to gather your thoughts. 

An hour later, you came out of your room and found Harry sitting on the couch, watching a film. You sat next to him, and he immediately turned off the TV, giving you his full attention.

You took a deep breath and started, “What I was trying to say earlier was that something about me has changed, and I’m sorry I didn’t tell you when I was still figuring it out, but I was just scared of what you would think,” you said. Harry started to get concerned, but he let you finish talking before he said anything. “So, I’ve always had an attraction towards girls, and I thought it was just me thinking a girl was pretty, but when I started to get nervous and flustered when a girl would talk to me, I realized that I really like them, and I would find myself flirting with them and longing to have something romantic with them. And then when I went back home for break, I met up with a childhood friend, and somehow…we kissed. It was so magical that it made my stomach flutter.” 

Harry had smiled softly as you told your story; knowing where this conversation was going, but of course, he stayed silent and let you talk. 

“So what I’m trying to tell you is that… I’m bi,” you had said nervously, hands shaking in your lap. You were trying to contain your tears from falling from your face as you shook your leg. 

“Love, I’m so happy for you,” he replied, opening his arms to comfort you from the anxiety you were feeling from telling him. You had softly sobbed into his shoulder, feeling the weight on your shoulders disappear as you had finally told the person you were closest to and who you trust the most. 

“R-Really?” You said as you pulled away from his hold. 

“Of course! Why wouldn’t I be? I’m happy that you can be whoever you want to be and I’m here to support you,” he said, holding your arms and running his hands over your skin. 

“Thank you, Harry,” you smiled at him, feeling ultimately grateful for your best friend and his acceptance. 

Harry smiled at the memory as he heard giggles through your door, and he chuckled as he finished cleaning before heading to his room. He was feeling a bit tired and despite it being a bit earlier than his usual bedtime, he decided to call it a night a try to get some sleep, deciding that he could go on a run in the morning since he was sleeping early. 

But after an hour of tossing and turning, he gave up trying to get a restful sleep, and opened his laptop to put on some Netflix, hoping it would lull him into a deep slumber. He was comfortably watching a random show until his hand grazed his crotch, and he realized he hadn’t relieved himself nor had he had sex in a while. 

So, he pushed his boxers down his legs, kicked them off the bed, and took off his shirt before he grabbed some lube and pumped his cock as it immedately hardened in his hand. He began touching himself in the darkness of his room as he quietly groaned out and threw his head back on his pillow. 

Realizing he doesn’t have some kind of visual, he stops to search up cam girl sites on the internet so he can get a mental image in his head to get him off. He finally settled on one user that was doing a live stream called ‘KISSYPLS’ as the preview was a girl going down on another with a purple ambiance to the room. The room was dark, but not dark enough where he couldn’t see the two girls. 

The sound of the moans from his laptop were quite loud and he didn’t want you to hear it all the way from your room, so he grabbed some headphones from his bedside table, plugging in his earbuds into his ears as the sounds of the girls moaned and talked dirty to each other. 

“You taste so fuckin’ good,” the girl that was doing the eating out said before she crawled her way up to the other’s body. 

And the slightest moment as Harry was watching, the girl on her back had shifted down a bit as they kissed, and Harry’s eyes flew wide open once he glanced. He saw the face that he wouldn’t have expected he would see. 

His roommate. His best friend. It was you. 

You were being eaten out on his computer screen by Daniela, and he was in complete shock. He honestly hadn’t expected to find you because it was just a random scroll through the site, but holy fuck. 

You hadn’t had your account for very long—maybe about three months. But you thought it was a good way to make some extra money because the bills were stacking up and they had to be paid off somehow. And you loved the idea of getting off in front of a camera for random strangers who pay to see that shit. 

And of course, Harry didn’t know you were a cam girl at all. He hadn’t seen that coming when he was looking for something to get off to. But he wasn’t complaining. He just didn’t expect you to be the one on the other side of the screen. But there you were, showing your body and having sex with someone on camera for the (as shown) 27 people watching who are also horny as fuck. 

You as a person are already beautiful, he knew that, but your body was something else. The way your tits were shown so clearly on his screen with your tattoo that was inked right next to your left tit; as the purple light hit your skin. He wanted to take them in his mouth and devour them. 

You were sprawled out onto the bed, naked as Daniela was kissing you, and he couldn’t stop looking at you as your face looked while kissing someone. He was in complete shock that he stopped stroking himself, his dick in his hands as he watched you two make out. But once his cock twitched from the sight of your ass sticking up, getting a view of your glistening pussy and ass, he continued. 

You flipped Daniela onto her back, making her squeal in surprise before you started kissing down her body, leaving small and sweet kisses to her soft skin. You took her nipples into your mouth, sucking on it lightly as she moaned. Once you were lying on your stomach between her legs, you gave her inner thighs a kiss before licking one long strike up her pussy. You generally loved the way girls taste rather than guys, so your mouth salivates more when you’re with women, eating them out and tasting them, and pleasuring them to their orgasm.

You tongue focused on her clit, licking her sensitive bud relentlessly as your arms were looped under her thighs, and your hand reached up to grab one of her breasts, taking her nipple in between your finger and lightly pulling it. 

“Oh, fuck,” she moaned. Her voice was much more high pitched than normal, but you think it’s hot as fuck. “Like that.” 

That encouraged you to continue sucking on her clit, and you brought your free hand to plunge two fingers into her wet pussy, curling up to meet the soft spot inside of her. Daniela’s back arched off the bed as her hair was spread out onto the pillow as she grabbed a fistful of your sheets into her hands. You pulled your mouth away from her to place your hand on her clit, rubbing it fast as you continue to finger fuck her. Daniela was an absolute mess above you, chanting that she was going to come as a way to manifest her orgasm. 

“C’mon, beautiful. Cum for me,” you encouraged her, the sound of your voice had made Daniela and Harry moan out with how sultry and seductive you sounded. Daniela’s peak washed over her as her hips bucked up, but you placed your arm on top of her thigh to stop her from moving as you calmed her down from her high. You licked her up once more, collecting her juices on your tongue before climbing up her body to connect your lips with her. Daniela could taste herself on you, and it turned her on even more despite just having an orgasm. 

Harry watched as you two kissed for a while. She wrapped her arms around your back, pressing her body against yours as you two made out, swirling your tongues together. Harry fondled his balls, intensifying the feeling before going back to stroke his cock. He gripped on his long hair with his other hand, so it felt like someone was in the room pulling his hair for him, and he closed his eyes. With the feeling of his orgasm coming, he was about ready to pump faster so he could get to his peak, but he heard your voice again. 

“I’m not done with you yet. Wanna cum again?” You asked her, and she nodded eagerly. “Want you to cum when I say so,” you told Daniela, and she nodded. Harry slowed his movements down as if he felt like you were personally talking to him, even though a lot of people on her live stream felt the way he did once she said those words. 

You fixed the laptop, pushing it back a little but still pointing it down to your bodies rather than your face. Giving Daniela a kiss, you situate yourself, putting one leg over her and the other under. You reach between you two, inserting your finger in her wet hole and bringing that wetness to her clit, and she does the same to you. 

Slowly moving closer to one another, you touch clits, rubbing it against each other as you two moaned out. The sounds coming from both of your mouths were loud enough that Harry had heard them from his room, and it genuinely felt like he was in the same room as he was also watching it on his screen. 

“Fuck, I wanna cum,” he groaned to himself. 

“You wanna cum?” You said, rubbing yourself on her and she whimpered out a ‘mhm,’ and you proceeded to grind faster. 

“Yeah, please let me,” Harry moaned. 

The feeling of both your wetness rubbing together was sending you over the edge as you felt like you were going to explode. Your moans had gotten louder, and you really hoped Harry was wearing some sort of headphones with loud music because you felt bad that you were being this loud, but you couldn’t help it. 

But little did you know that Harry was listening to everything. 

You felt like Daniela had waited long enough to release, so you grabbed her face gently, giving her a kiss. “Go ahead. Cum for me,” you said breathlessly as you were going to let go after she was done. 

Once Harry heard those words, he sighed in relief, letting out a loud groan as his orgasm was released onto his stomach. His abs clenched and his hips bucked into his hand. He grabbed a pillow and bit on it, concealing his moans as he came down from his high. With his chest heaving up and down, he looked over at his laptop to see you breathing deeply and he knew that you had just orgasmed as well. 

Your orgasms had hit both of you hard as you were left sprawled out on the bed, laying on opposite sides as your legs were still entangled with one another. Daniela sat up, pulling your body towards her, and she kissed you deeply, still feeling entirely breathless. 

“God, you’re amazing,” she said against your lips, and you smiled into the kiss. The live stream was still going on, so Harry continued watching you two interact with one another post orgasm. “Kinda wanna use that dildo of yours on you,” she smirked, and you chuckled, nodding your head eagerly. 

“Like a threesome, but with a dildo,” you joked, and she laughed. 

“Maybe we should have one?” 

“What? A threesome?” You asked, pulling back, and she nodded her head and shrugged her shoulders. 

“Yeah, why not?” 

“With who?” 

Just on cue, a knock was heard on your door quite loud, making you and Daniela turn your heads towards the door. Before you even had the chance to even get up, the door opened, revealing Harry in just his boxers. You couldn’t help but look down at his crotch area and see his cock hard. 

“Done with the show ladies?” He asked, smirking. The two of you were still completely naked, but neither of you cared to make an effort to cover yourselves. 

“W-What?” You stuttered and looked at Daniela as she had no clue what was going on either. 

“Watched your live stream,” he finally said, and your eyes widened. 

“How did you find it?” You asked, moving towards the edge of the bed, and Daniela stayed behind near the headboard. 

“By coincidence, I swear,” he said, walking towards you. “Was just scrolling and I was horny as fuck, and I stumbled upon it.” 

“D-Did you like it?” A nervous tone came with your words, and it was strange because you’ve never been nervous with Harry, except the time you came out to him. A huge part of you wanted him to say he liked it and that he enjoyed the show, and you really hoped he did. 

He stood in between your legs and looked down at you as you looked up. The sight below him was just something that irked him; you looking up at him with wide eyes, acting innocent and him looking down at you with a raging hard on, begging to be touched by you and your mouth. He placed his hands on both sides of your face, caressing your warm cheek as he studied you for a moment. The smear of mascara that laid under your eyes and your flushed cheeks made his cock twitch. 

Just from watching your live stream, he noticed that you were quite dominant in bed with girls. But with how you’re looking at him, wanting validation and reassurance from him, you’re submissive with men (or just him in general).

His stare was intimidating, and the dark purple light illuminating your room didn’t help. He’s never seen you naked and bare, so that added to the stress of if he likes what he sees. But you were surprised that you didn’t want to cover up in front of him. Throughout the years of being best friends and roommates, you two have never fucked. Although you have kissed multiple times, it was purely platonic and sometimes you just needed a kiss every once in a while. And as your best friend, Harry was happy to help. 

“Of course I fucking loved it. Wanna know my favorite part?” You smiled softly, nodding slowly as you looked at him with big and innocent eyes. He bent down, matching your eye level before he whispered, “Well, first of all you, of course. Looked so damn beautiful, I swear.” You blushed, and he continued. “But the part when Daniela suggested a threesome just a minute ago. If you and her are up with me being a plus one, then I am. Your wish is my command,” he said softly, kissing your nose.

Daniela gasped behind you, a big smile on her face as she crawled to the edge of the bed, wrapping her arms around your waist and kissed your shoulder before she spoke. 

“Well, looks like we’re gonna have a lot of fucking fun.” 

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Confessions of a Roommate in Love (college au / 3.1k words / roommates)

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During college you’ll do anything to earn a bit of extra cash between classes. 

Ash does computer shit for people (Dean has learned not to ask about how legal it all his work is). Jo works in her mom, Ellen’s, bar. Benny hustles pool in said bar (while avoiding Ellen’s wrath).

But Dean and Castiel do something a little different. 

They enter trials and experiments posted around their university’s psychology and science departments. The psychology department, especially, knows them pretty well by now. It’s got to the point where they’ll just go straight to Dean and Castiel and ask if they’re interested. 

So that has what led Dean to racing into their apartment one Tuesday afternoon in their final year with a look of sheer childish glee on his face. 

Castiel is laying back on the sofa working on something but looks up from his laptop at the slam of the door and squints at Dean’s expression. He can never quite trust that Dean’s gleeful looks won’t end in tears eventually. But whatever Dean usually suggests Castiel will go along with because that’s what best friends do. 

“They’re doing another research project in the Psych department. Charlie emailed me the details.” Dean explains. 

Castiel’s interest is clearly piqued and he closes his laptop, moving to sit properly on the sofa to give Dean room to sit down next to him. 

“She said there’s a few stages to it. We’ve got to enter some video submission thing first to see if we’re the right fit and then they’ll invite us in for the real thing. Pretty much like the rest of them.” Dean shrugs, taking the offered seat next to Castiel. 

He pulls up the email on his phone and scrolls straight to the specific information for potential participants. They’ve done so many of these things that he tends to scroll right past most of the generic information. 

Castiel’s interested gaze stays on him. 

“Ah, here it is.” Dean quickly scans the text before reading it out. “So it’s a study about roommates and looks like we have to just answer a few questions about each other. Easy.” Dean grins. 

“What kind of questions do we have to answer?” Castiel asks. 

“Just basic ones about living together - who’s the messiest,” Dean snorts, “that’s you.” 

Castiel makes an offended noise and plucks Dean’s phone out of his hand. “I think you’ll find that’s you actually. I don’t think your socks have ever made it to the laundry basket.” 

Dean watches as Castiel scrolls through the rest of the questions. He lets out the occasional chuckle at some of the questions - even the tiniest of laughs lights up his face. 

Eventually, Castiel hands Dean back his phone. “They’re definitely easy questions. I’ll just pack my study stuff away and we can get started on the video. It’ll be better to submit it as soon as possible.” Castiel rises to his feet and collects his laptop in his arms. He’s about to walk down the hall to his bedroom when he turns back to face Dean. “I’m glad this one is about roommates. Given the amount of times we’ve had to pretend to be a couple for these things,” he chuckles and goes to his room, not waiting for a response from Dean.

Dean’s glad Castiel has left and can’t see his face fall from a fake smile. 

Castiel is right. There have been a few times when they’ve participated in research studies and posed as a couple. But what Castiel doesn’t know is that there was no faking on Dean’s part. 

Truthfully, Dean is hopelessly and completely in love with Castiel. 

It’s so unbelievably cliche that Dean can’t quite believe it’s actually true. But it is. 

Ever since they first met, there has been something about Castiel that seems to complete Dean in ways that he never knew he needed. 

Despite successfully pretending to be a couple, Dean has never told Castiel how he feels. Risking their friendship is too much. The chance that he could ruin everything between them is too big. 

So he stays quiet. Living in the hope that it will blow over one day and he’ll find someone who will love him back the way he wants to be loved. 

“Dean, are you listening?” 

Dean blinks back to reality and sees Castiel standing in front of him. “What?” 

“I asked if you wanted to use your phone or mine?” Castiel looks at him quizzically. “Unless you’re not feeling up to it right now? We can do it later.” 

God bless Castiel for being concerned for Dean all the time. 

“Nah, man.” Dean clears his throat and mentally shakes himself. “I’ll have the questions on my phone, so I guess we could use your phone to film it.” 

Castiel nods, though he still looks a little skeptical that Dean is actually okay. “I’ll go and get my tripod for my phone.” 

Dean smiles and waits for Castiel to be gone from the room before he takes a deep breath and casts any thoughts of his true feelings away. It’s not Castiel’s fault Dean feels this way, and Dean isn’t going to take it out on the guy by acting weird. 

Castiel returns and effortlessly sets up the camera to record. 

Having done submission videos like this before, Dean doesn’t feel self conscious about the feeling of having a camera on him anymore. 

Instead, he looks over the email again. 

Castiel drops himself down on the couch next to Dean and naturally lets their knees touch. Dean keeps his eyes focused on the phone in his hand. 

“So it says we have to answer these questions as quick as we can. Don’t think too much about the answers.” Dean explains. 

Castiel nods in understanding. 

“Right, let’s get started.” Dean says. “First question: Who makes the most noise?” 

“Dean.” 

“Yeah it is me.” Dean has to admit. “It’s the music. Gotta start the day with listening to some classic rock.” 

Castiel snorts. “Yes but you don’t only start the day with classic rock. You end with it too. And you play it when you study. And shower. And when you’re sad.” 

Dean blushes a little at the thought of Castiel knowing when Dean is sad and when he listens to music to cope with it. 

He clears his throat. “Okay, next question.”

*  *  * 

It’s another couple of days before an email pings itself into Dean’s inbox telling him that he and Castiel are through to the next stage of the study. 

Dean hasn’t thought about his feelings for Castiel since they filmed the video and he’s very happy to keep it that way. 

He’s sat in the living room watching the new episode of Dr Sexy when Castiel comes through the door after his last class of the day. He looks tired and completely adorable. 

“Hey, man. Got an email today, we’re through to the next stage. You free tomorrow afternoon?” 

Castiel doesn’t reply straight away. Instead he trudges over to the couch and flops down next to Dean. The dude must really be as tired as he looks because he sighs and rests his weary head on Dean’s shoulder. 

Dean resists the urge to rest his head on Castiel’s in return. “You okay there, Cas?” He asks, looking down at Castiel’s head of dark hair. 

“I’ve had a long day. That last final nearly killed me. I swear to god.” Castiel groans. 

As much as Dean loves Castiel, the dude can be a real drama queen when he wants to be. 

“Come on, man, you’ve aced all your finals and you know it. You’re the smartest guy I know.” 

Castiel abruptly lifts his head from Dean’s shoulder and looks his friend in the eyes. “Thank you, Dean,” he says, sincerity shining in his eyes. His eyes seem to flicker down to Dean’s momentarily but Dean is sure it must just have been the lights or something. 

Dean swallows and coughs before he does something stupid. “Anyway, you free tomorrow then?” 

Castiel clears his throat too and shifts away from Dean’s personal space a little. “Yes, I am free all day. I was just planning to sleep now that finals are over. But it’ll be nice to see what happens with Charlie’s research project.” 

Dean nods. “Awesome, I’ll text Charlie and tell her we’re free.” 

Text sent, Dean returns his attention to Dr Sexy, who is making out with yet another intern on screen. What Dean wouldn’t give to be one of those interns. 

He almost forgets that Castiel hasn’t actually left the living room until he feels a soft weight fall onto his shoulder again. He looks to see that Castiel has fallen asleep on the couch next to him. Now Castiel’s head has slipped down and rested itself against Dean’s arm. 

Any normal roommate would wake Castiel up and tell him to go to his room and get some sleep. But Dean just can’t bring himself to disturb Castiel’s peaceful slumber. Finals must have really knocked it out of him. 

And if Dean gets a little joy out of having Castiel this close to him, well that’s no one else’s business but his own. 

*  *  * 

“Okay I just need you guys to sign a few documents before we get started.” Charlie explains. “I know you’ve seen most of these before with the other studies but there’s a couple new ones in there so make sure you look at them carefully. Dean.” She raises an eyebrow at him. 

Dean looks up from where he’d been scanning the papers Charlie handed them when they walked into the classroom. His face is a picture of perfect innocence and offence of being accused of such things. 

“Don’t pull that face, Dean. Charlie is right, you can be rather lackadaisical with important documentation.” Castiel says, his eyes never leaving the papers he’s reading. 

Trust Castiel to know exactly how Dean would react without even looking at him. And lackadaisical? Who even says that? God, Castiel is such a fucking dork. 

Papers thoroughly read and signed, Charlie takes Dean and Castiel into a smaller room with two stools next to each other in the middle. A pretty simple set up compared to some of the things they’ve been part of. 

“Take a seat. It doesn’t matter which seat you take, just make sure you’re both facing me.” Charlie instructs. 

Both boys do as asked. 

“Okay, from now on neither of you can talk to the other. You can only talk to me. Understand?” 

Dean and Castiel give identical nods. 

“Good. This is the first stage. There is another one after and we will give you more information about that once this one is finished.” Charlie continues. “Much like your video submission, for this round you will be answering questions based on living together.” 

Dean tries to concentrate on what Charlie is saying but the stools really are close together and Castiel’s knee is knocking against his own. The small spot of warmth from the other man both relaxes and makes Dean anxious at the same time. But Dean daren’t move his leg away. Castiel would wonder why he’d moved away and probably get a little pouty frown on his face. The same as he did the night before when Dean had finally got up from the couch because he needed the bathroom. 

“And remember, the main rule of these questions is: what happens in this room stays in the room. Got it?”

Dean swallows and nods. He’d missed a bit of what Charlie had said but he’d probably figure it out. 

“Awesome. Let’s begin.” Charlie smiles. “First question: what do you like most about living together?” 

Dean knows what he’d like to answer but he’ll never confess. Instead, he goes for a more playful answer. “I like that Castiel gets free donuts from his job at the coffee shop.” 

From the corner of his eye he can see Castiel roll his eyes. “I like that Dean has a brother that I can have much more intellectually stimulating conversations with,” Castiel replies with a smug face. 

Dean would argue but he’s not allowed to speak directly to Castiel. (And to be honest, his brother may only be eighteen but he is freakishly clever.)

Charlie smirks and shakes her head as she writes down their answers. 

“Next: What do you hate most about living together?” 

This time Castiel gets his answer in first. “I hate that Dean leaves dirty socks around the apartment.” 

Now Dean rolls his eyes. Castiel is always nagging Dean about his socks. They didn’t need to come all the way down here for Castiel to get that off his chest. 

“I hate that you always put the empty milk carton back in the fridge. It’s gross dude.” 

Castiel levels Dean with a look that says ‘you do that too and you know it’. 

Dean just shrugs. 

After another few questions, the first round is over and Charlie allows them to have a break. Only they’re still not allowed to talk to each other so they go into the first room and sit at either ends. 

Dean is tempted to text Castiel from across the room but he knows Charlie would be hugely pissed if she found out he broke the rules. 

Soon enough, they’re called back into the question room. 

When they enter they’re met with the same two stools but this time there’s a solid white screen between them. 

As they take their seats again, Castiel disappears behind the partition and Dean suddenly realises why it’s probably there. It’s probably an attempt to be more honest with each other because they won’t see the other’s immediate reaction. 

“Okay,” Charlie begins again, “it’s the same rules as before. I’ll ask you some questions again. And remember: what happens in this room, stays in this room.” 

Dean takes a deep breath. He hates being reminded of that. As if Charlie knows he’s not telling the full truth. Which, of course, he isn’t. But they don’t know that. 

“First question: what has been the worst thing about living together?”

Dean internally rolls his eyes, how can he think of another bullshit jokey answer?

His thoughts are stopped by Castiel softly clearing his throat on the other side of the wall. Dean can do nothing but look at Charlie sitting opposite them. She seems to be sending Castiel a kind smile. 

“The worst thing,” Castiel begins, “was that you were hurting so much when your mom died and I couldn’t do anything to help take the pain away.” The end of the sentence comes out in almost a whisper. 

Dean is overwhelmed. He feels like he’s been punched in the gut. He doesn’t often talk about his mother’s death, not even with Castiel. That was one of the lowest moments of his life. But Castiel had been his rock. Cleaning up after him when he was in depressed moods, dragging him out of bars and shoving him in the shower to sober up. God, Dean would have flunked out of college by now if Castiel hadn’t saved him. 

“You did just by being there, man.” Dean whispers, tears coming to his eyes. He takes a small breath and sits in the silence for a few moments. “Dammit, you promise that whatever happens in here, stays in here?” He asks Charlie. 

“Well, from my point of view, yes. I will not discuss the details of your answers outside the parameters of the study, and your names will be anonymised when your data is used in the final report. However, it’s up to you two if it carries on with you outside these four walls. 

Dean takes a shaky breath, letting Charlie’s answer wash over him for a moment. 

“I would never judge you or be angry at you for anything, Dean.” Castiel’s kind voice rumbles through the partition. 

And if that ain’t Castiel summed up perfectly, Dean thinks. Castiel is the most thoughtful and selfless person Dean has ever met. And Dean loves him. 

Dean feels like he might just burst if he doesn’t finally put his feelings into physical words. 

Castiel would forgive Dean of anything. It’s that thought that pushes Dean to take a final, calming deep breath and jump. 

“Fuck it, you wanna know the worst thing about living with Cas?” Dean asks, rhetorically. “It’s that every day I look at him and see everything I could ever want but can never have.” Dean finally confesses. And once the floodgates are open, he finds that he just can’t stop. “It terrifies me that one day he’ll leave for someone better.” 

Dean thinks he can hear a soft noise coming from Castiel’s side but he’s not done. 

“And the thing I really hate the most having Cas as a roommate? It’s that my fucking heart breaks a little more every time he walks through the door because I know one day it’ll be the last.”

Dean can’t bring himself to look at Charlie so he looks down at his hands, nervously playing with them in his lap. 

No sound comes from Castiel’s side and Dean closes his eyes in defeat and sheer regret. He’s ruined everything for sure. He should have known Castiel wouldn’t feel the same. He should have just kept it to himself. 

As if to prove Dean right, he hears footsteps in the quiet room. Footsteps that he’d recognise anywhere. 

Great, Castiel has left which means Charlie’s research is probably ruined too. 

Fuck, shit. Can’t Dean get anything fucking right?

Only, when he listens more carefully, he notices the footsteps aren’t retreating. In fact, they sound like they’re coming closer and closer to Dean. 

Dean finally opens his eyes and lifts his head to see Castiel standing in front of him. The overhead light is positioned perfectly behind his head and creates a ring of pure light around him. 

Castiel silently lifts a hand to Dean’s chin, cupping it ever so slightly. Dean can’t help but fall for Castiel all over again, just looking into his eyes. 

“I know Charlie didn’t ask it yet but would you like to know what I love most about living with you, Dean?”

Dean nods, eyes never leaving Castiel’s. 

“It’s that I fall in love with you more and more every day, and I’m completely helpless to stop it.” 

Dean can’t believe what he’s hearing and assumes this must all be a dream. 

Dream or not, he’s not taking any chances and letting Castiel slip away. 

Dean pushes himself up from his seat to meet Castiel’s lips and bring him into a kiss. 

This definitely isn’t a dream, Dean thinks, he’s never felt something so intense in his life. 

They finally part once Charlie awkwardly clears her throat, reminding them that she’s still there. 

They still don’t turn their attention to her though. Instead, Castiel rests his head against Dean’s and whispers between them “This definitely isn’t staying in this room.” 

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TWD 11x07: Promises Broken - Analysis

How did everyone like episode 11x07? This is going to be pretty short and sweet today. Right off the bat, I have less to say about this episode that I did about last week's. I've also seen episode 8 already, and it's phenomenal. I’ll have a lot more to say about next week’s as well. 11x07 is one of those episodes that sort of transitions between big events. They are still definitely some interesting developments that I’ll talk about. But not as much detail to go into.

***As always, spoilers abound below for 11x07. Don’t read until you’ve watched!***

There were two major Beth callbacks that really grabbed my attention. I'll talk about both of them and then briefly about what happens at the Commonwealth. Tomorrow I’ll do Details as usual and honestly the rest the week may be Asks. Not only because I don't have much time this week to get new posts written, but also because the Asks are really building up in my inbox and I need to get them all answered.

First major Beth saw tie-in I saw:

We learned more about Elijah in this episode. I no longer worry about him being a plant or mole of any kind. He does seem to be disappearing at random times, but we learned in this episode that his sister was killed in the attack by the reapers (actually, we already knew that), but more specifically that she's a walker somewhere. He wasn't able to put her down.

In the opening scene, a teenage girl walker moves toward the group and Maggie kills her. She says that this young woman was Elijah's sister's best friend. We learn that Elijah’s sister is still out there somewhere.

If that's not a huge tie to Beth and what we believe happened during the missing 17 days, I don't know what is.

Later in the episode, as Maggie and Elijah are leading the walker horde toward Meridian, he looks over and sees his sister as a walker. It was somewhat reminiscent of Michonne in 4B. But mostly, it just screamed Beth to me.

Obviously, in this case, Elijah was able to find his sister and she truly is deceased. It was difficult because when he sees her, they are leading the walker horde, and therefore he couldn't actually put her down. If he had, it would've gotten the attention of the rest of the walkers and he and Maggie probably would've been eaten. But he started to cry, and Maggie held his hand. I thought it was very sweet and poignant. But I also couldn't help but think that Maggie is so very sympathetic toward him because she knows EXACTLY how he feels.

Second major Beth callback:

This one came through Daryl and Leah's storyline. They find a young family, who Pope tells them to kill. But Leah has an intense emotional reaction, especially when she sees the couple's son, who looks like he's probably not too many years older than Matthew was. She defies Pope’s order and doesn't kill the family. Instead, she tells the father and son to run away. The mother, who was badly hurt, and probably wouldn't have survived anyway, asks Leah to kill her. But Leah, still upset, can't do it. So, Daryl does it for her.

He walks up to retrieve his arrow and covers the woman with a blanket. This was a direct call back to the Rich Bitch walker in Still, who he covered the blue tarp to appease Beth. Remember that after Lenny was killed by the Claimers, he also almost covered him with the tarp, but then ended up not.

In this scene with Leah, Daryl then turns around and says, "Leah, I gotta tell you something." Obviously, he was going to tell her everything and try to bring her in on his plan. He doesn't end up doing it because just then Pope radios and tells them to get back to camp. (I assume that's because they see Maggie’s walker horde coming.)

I can't help but think that everything about Leah reminded Daryl of Beth in this scene. She still wearing her blonde ponytail, she got emotional about the situation and had sympathy for the family. The fact that she reminded him so much of Beth in that moment is probably why he covered the deceased woman. It was an almost unconscious action because he was thinking of Beth. And that is why he decided to trust Leah, even though he didn't actually do it.

You might say that we have a bit of a Darth Vader situation going on here. Daryl is trying to figure out whether there is still good in Leah and whether he can trust her. That's why he's always watching her interactions with Pope so closely. He sort of wants to turn her to the good side, or TF’s side. And no, I don't think it's because of anything romantic. AK has said that's over with. But that doesn't mean Leah can't be helpful to him in making sure that Maggie and the rest of the group survive.

So, what this is probably going to come down to is Daryl finally showing Leah his hand, and then it will depend on whether helps him save Maggie and the others or turns on him and outs him to Pope. MSF next week. Just sayin’. ;D

Let's talk briefly about the Commonwealth.

We had this really weird sequence where Eugene and Stephonie are clearing walkers, but they see two younger people walk by who are being a little bit snotty about being near where walkers are.

Later, they see these two kissing under the pavilion, with walkers coming up behind them. Eugene runs out and saves them from the walkers. Another one shows up while Eugene is arguing that the young man, who turns out to be a total tool. Stephonie kills that walker, spraying the young guy’s girlfriend with blood.

While watching, I couldn’t figure out where this was leading. It was just so bizarre. Yes, Eugene and Stephani saved them from walkers, and yes, they were being jerks about it, but why would there be walkers near them while they were on a date anyway? Why did Mercer lead them to a place with walkers nearby and then leave them alone? I just wasn't quite putting it all together.

We then learned that this young man is Pamela Milton’s son. That's why he so entitled, because his mother runs the community, so he thinks the world owes him something. Because Eugene hit him, poor Eugene finds himself in this in a cell again.

I didn't really put together what was going on until Hornsby showed up and said, "Now the price is higher. We need to know the name of your town and how to get there."

So, yeah. It was all a set up. They're wanted Eugene to do something else they could punish him for because they're trying to get the name of his settlement. It's no different than what they were trying to do in the interrogation. So, these people are pretty diabolical. They realized the interrogation wasn't working. Eugene's group wasn't intimidated by them and they knew they would get answers that way. So, they set up first the radio and then the situation with Pamela Milton’s son in order to try and force Eugene to give them the name of the name and location of Alexandria. 

At the end of the episode, it sounds like Eugene is thinking about caving, but we don't know whether he did or not in this episode.

Another thing of interest is that the real Stephanie who Eugene talked to on the radio seems to be Pamela Milton's receptionist. She and Yumiko did have some interaction in this episode.

Beyond that, we also did have a really interesting conversation between Maggie and Negan. Though there wasn’t much that was TD about it, I really did enjoy that scene.

I also still think they’re setting up something with Father Gabriel, but I’m still at a loss as to what it is.

That's it for today. Like I said, short and sweet. I'll be back with details and any developments from the talking dead tomorrow. How did everyone like this episode?

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imo, the show was often unilaterally focused on Piper, but only on what she could do for others (Piper the wife and Piper the mother) rather than who she was as a person. Piper's individual characterization was lost sometime around s5 as soon as she got pregnant, and being a mother and wife pretty much became her sole defining characteristic for the rest of the series. I would be very interested to hear what you define as Piper's mental issues/trauma, bc as you say it doesn't get said enough

this has been in my inbox forever and i’m just getting around to it so my apologies.

but okay. so. yes. i think a lot of tv shows fall into this weird place where like. all of their characters begin with these kinda vague personalities because you’re just getting to know them. and as the show goes on, you pick up more pieces and stuff . and that’s great. that’s interesting and entertaining and it takes you on a journey and all. but often what happens is many shows fall into this pit where writers either get lazy, they change, or whatever, and the actors are tired of playing the part or whatever . and like. the characters become like. caricatures of themselves. and it just gets exhausting to watch because they’re not like. real people anymore.

Piper's individual characterization

so now for the charmed thing. so from the beginning. i have loved piper. like she’s the middle sister, overlooked, quiet, reserved, pessimistic but also realistic, gentle, thoughtful, all that. we see right away that she loves to cook .. she’s so happy her family is back together. she kept in touch with phoebe behind prue’s back. but she’s loyal to the both of them. her first idea was to have a reunion dinner when phoebe came home. she’s literally so cute n she deserves a hug. but no like. as we go on, we see that she wants to be good, she wants a stable life with no more loss, she Loves Love !! like. she wants to just be happy , open her own restaurant n just cook. she’s also so shy .. definitely panicky and anxious. and she doesn’t trust herself. she’s skeptical of everything, and she’s very thoughtful when it comes to big situations. even in the early days with leo and into season 2, she mentioned a few things about like “i’ve been thinking a lot about this...” and you can see she’s good at communicating with people. she’s also got these other dimensions to her like . she is interested in lots of cuisine types, she loves to read (and is a camus fan !!) , she drives a jeep (which i wanna know how she got bc i have questions), when she found out she was a witch her first thought was just . i need to go and see if i am still a good person . and she went to church. prue was surprised to learn that piper enjoys knitting. in the early seasons (especially mid-late season 3) we saw her with her plants and all. she’s just this natural peacekeeper. but like. we literally got a crying scene in the second episode because she was so conflicted about this. and she’s such a deep and complex character that i fell in love with so fast . and like . literally my favourite fictional character to exist . genuinely holly breathed so much life into piper . anyway . so. here’s the thing.

being a mother and wife pretty much became her sole defining characteristic for the rest of the series

like. piper was who i described above. and like . i kinda think . a bit. that like . the writers . especially in s4 . were like . hmm well  . she’s just lost prue, she’s gonna be grieving . and like we need more for her. so. she’s been married to leo for the better part of a year, been with him for like . 3 years. so. let’s maybe consider giving them a kid but not just yet . just Content kinda stuff. so anyway they drop little hints in here and there starting in like . 4x07 i think? which . brain drain really paid the rent . fully just. holly did so well. but like. that ep was just. a neat way of looking into her mind and seeing the horrors of manipulation and gaslighting and everything . and of course holly knocked it out of the park. but at that point, they were kinda like . hmm . kids ? and they started toying with the idea, having piper and leo consider it, talk about it, they had paige and phoebe ask about it , all of that good stuff. as you do. made for some funny tv at some points. and like . i really, really Get It . when piper’s like . ahh the baby wouldn’t be safe around here !!!! like. Girl, Valid . your sister just died and like . you went on forever about how she was The Most Powerful One . The Strongest One . and yet she still died . so she’s like ??? am i next ?? and like obv it doesn’t make sense for her to jump on this train of like . i’m gonna have a kid !!!! so she’s really valid in her thought process there. and like. after having wyatt . i think the writers really . idk. couldn’t do waaay too much with her character anymore because i feel like . to an extent, anything she does will be scrutinized bc i’m not just . saying this . i rlly feel like sometimes piper’s the easiest to hate. like idk why but i loved her. but anyway. if she stays at home with wyatt and doesn’t wanna fight demons n all . then she’s selfish towards her sisters n she’s awful n prue wouldn’t have let her do that !!!! etc . but if she fought demons it’s like . uh sweetie you have a child . really ??? why put yourself in a situation that might have you ending up like patty 2.0 ... bc i could do a Whole post on how patty’s situation messed piper up the most. but anyway.

it’s the way i’m fully rambling so if you’re reading this . i love you . anyway okay . so . i think in a tv show you’ve gotta kinda check boxes. the best tv shows have characters you see yourself in . you relate to them. you hear them and understand their decisions and actions and thoughts. the things they do just makes sense 2 you. so like. with prue, anyone married to their job could relate to her. any oldest sibling could see themselves in her, you know ? she was hard-working, committed, logical, protective. and with phoebe, anyone who couldn’t “settle down” in their early 20s related 2 her, anyone who felt like the outcast of the family, the “screw-up” .. right. makes sense. she was so kind, caring, had-your-back kinda girl. we all love those. paige was like . the new kid, trying to fit in, creative, curious, and definitely a lifelong learner. and then there’s piper who was shy, resistant, really just wanted to be normal. and loved. and i think everyone could kinda identify with at least one of the sisters regardless of where you stood in your own family. so as the show went on, it’s like . they still want you to keep watching and keep being able to identify with them because it’s not like they’re humans with normal lives so they’ve already kinda lowkey got that going against them . so their more “human” and normal lives... we’ve gotta be able to identify with them to be able to invest time. so they had prue always working, having trouble balancing love and work, looking out for her family. we had phoebe kinda living her life, getting her career going, then kinda wanting a family. we had paige learning magic and being super interested and involved and then getting married. and we had piper who had her career pretty early on, got married, and had kids. like. i think the big thing is the marriage and kids. and when you’re a mother . the only mother really in the show, the show lowkey centres around you . like. for starters, the show usually is in the manor, and if you’re a mother, you’re very likely at home, esp with young kids. so i think that alone kinda was like . huh yeah . won’t see piper out waaay too much anymore i guess !!! but no like . there’s That. that’s kinda. the thing that really can’t change with the show . like. piper’s got kids now and a husband and very, very likely . her life will be centred around her home. which. listen she’s wanted that i think - the stability . she’s wanted that forever. and this is the form it came in. but i should stop rambling here and cut to the point .

Piper's mental issues/trauma

disclaimer: i’m not diagnosing her, i’m just speculating based off of my own experiences with mental health

so. okay. very early on. we saw that anxiety. like. yes . she was nervous about like a whole new life experience . or whatever we’re gonna call it when you figure out you’re a witch . but like she was Anxious . like. crying in the attic over being a bad person . needing phoebe to talk her down by telling her she’s such a caring person, she’s always doing things for other people . and then there’s the whole anxiety that comes with. my family’s falling apart because my sisters are fighting so i use really awkward methods of getting out of things . like using humour as a coping mechanism !!! which. gave us some iconic one-liners. but that’s beside the point . anyway. point is. early on, that anxiety was there. there’s an ep in season 1 where she’s literally entering a panic attack in her kitchen and phoebe’s using a menu to cool her down. like. Yikes! and then she’s just. her awkward self around everyone but that’s endearing and is just part of her personality . and i think a lot of the anxiety stemmed from childhood. we heard a few times about how prue and phoebe had boyfriends growing up, were always pretty and popular and all. phoebe was popular, too, just, in the other crowd. but nonetheless, piper faded into the background, doing well in math - well enough to go off and be a banker . and like. she sacrificed a lot for grams. she stayed in san francisco ... we all know the girl had the marks for stanford or something . like. though . still, i think she liked the stability of home and prob would’ve stayed . but in 3x17 she’s all !!! grams !!! the doctor said no caffeine !!! and when grams was taking the pic of them outside and she had an episode , piper was all !!!! shallow breaths !!! like. it was clear piper was the one taking her to the appointments and footing the bill. like. she literally became a banker just bc it had benefits n stuff. like. poor girl really thought . anyway that’s a whole spiral. but no. like she really sacrificed The Most for her family and everyone still thought she was selfish for wanting to move out . when like back then grams was literally ... sick ... and prue was out here moving out and phoebe was nowhere to be found . so. that . definitely would have added to her anxiety about even wanting to do anything for herself because she’ll be perceived as selfish in a heartbeat. even if it’s not Mean . it’s just. she’d never risk it. but there’s the anxiety. there are a few lil things here n there about how she gets nervous n stuff, she represses things (3x07 i think was where phoebe said piper represses her anger n just sucks it up n does whatever) . she literally cancelled her doctor’s appointment Twice . anyway. it still angers me. then in season 7 . patty and victor were like . oh she had night terrors that were so bad we took her to the doctor ! and i just ... honey . baby. she thought she caused the divorce. at 4? 5? she watched victor leave on her 5th birthday, watched a demon attack her, grams, and victor. prue said she didn’t cry at patty’s funeral and i’ll make a safe bet that piper did. and i think growing up without patty was strange for sure. prue had more memories and phoebe had none. and piper had fragments of this person everyone loved . and she was stuck between knowing her and not knowing her. and when patty was sent to her for her wedding day, (as well as in 1x17) . both times when patty hugged them . prue and phoebe hugged her, eyes closed n all. while piper was on the outside, eyes open . looking numb as all hell . and you know. i rlly think she was Giving Them That because phoebe didn’t get her and prue kinda . in a way. lost more of her . if that makes sense ?? and i just. patty really was like . they sent me to You. and 5 seconds later . piper’s like . they sent mom to Us !!! and it’s that idea of sacrifice and never having anything for yourself because she was never just . given anything for herself . everything in her life has been a sacrifice and as a mother, that’s perpetuated. she can assume that role with more of a purpose . like. people won’t really feel sorry for her now as the “forgotten” sister, they won’t try and coddle her or anything. and another thing. control. piper craved stability and control. i think while cooking was something she loved, it also gave her a lot of control . she could control her whole kitchen . even in season 8 .. maybe vaya con leos actually . leo mentioned how much piper craves control. and the control motif makes sense with her powers too. like. piper craved control so much that her powers allowed her to control things down to the atom. so there’s the whole anxiety and needing to control things to ease her anxiety and all. there’s That whole thing.

and then we get to the infamous season 5 fearless spell . ms girl really sat in the attic just writing everything on the wall and it’s the way i screenshotted it and like . zoomed in and tried deciphering it . and like . there’s words like “stop” and i think “sister” is in there a few times, so is “loss” or “lost”. when i watch it next i’ll grab a cap because it’s . disturbing. girl was so scared . literally was writing a spell to get rid of her fears . she also writes Fear . as in. capital F . and like. yeah that’s deep but i do it too like i emphasize words with a capital letter . and like holly marie combs might just have quirky n fun writing but like ... capital F . for Fear. for real . that’s . trauma !!! and she also was having panic attacks at the beginning of season 5. let’s not forget those. which ... we should’ve gotten more of an explanation for . i hope that girl is getting help bc she was Going Through It . and in season 7 when zankou reads her diary . firstly. we Knew this girl kept a diary like . for Sure . she did. and just that little excerpt of when prue died . oops. i’d pay big money to see the rest because again i just think she’s got such a complex mind and like. i’d be so interested to read that. and i think everything re: prue is just Awful for her. like . idk if this is just something quirky i noticed but obv we know prue died in may 2001 . but at the end of 4x03, when piper goes 2 paige’s work 2 bring her muffins !! soft !!! the calendar on one of the desks reads july 2001 ... and i really just. ms girl. i Know they prob just filmed the ep in july but it honestly tracks that she’d be so awfully upset about everything and just . barely able to do anything but cook . for 2 months. like. honey. baby. i wanted 2 just cuddle her bc she was so sad. and like. she tells paige she’s having “good hours” and “not so good hours” . she’s going by the Hour . by the Hour . just. need i say more . i’m so . but no like. if anything like i could see her having like . depression where she’s high-functioning and like just . walking depression i guess ?? like . not even after prue. i think in general. like . she definitely has a melancholic temperament and a type 6 enneagram (the skeptic). that’s For Sure . but i think. just. she’s always just had time to think bc she’s always alone, reading, knitting, cooking, tending to her plants, all that. and i just . think. she has issues. and i think prue knew that. of all people. and i think her knowing that . and then dying. destroyed piper. she lost the last person that was truly a constant in her life . like they shared a roof over their heads forever. and then she was just . gone . and piper was suddenly left to pick up the pieces . and become the oldest sister . and i’m So glad she didn’t fully assume her personality. i’m glad she stayed as piper . just. she’s more cynical and snarky and defensive and cold and that’s okay. she’s hurting. she’s always gonna hurt . and i think it makes her human . she’s pessimistic and sad and has a short fuse at times . but just. again. i love her to bits and i think those issues make her more relatable for me. because while many like to say she became selfish and a negative person and just . awful to be around . i’d say the opposite . i won’t sit and apologize or justify things. also i don’t think piper’s done anything wrong . i just think she’s hurt. she’s been wronged so many times. and she’s .... scared. i think she’s scared . and in season 5 “sympathy for the demon” we learn her true biggest fear is her happiness being stolen away. and like . it’s not that she’s scared she won’t be happy. she’s scared all of the good she’s got will be taken from her . and that’s . terrifying . so . i see why she’s so snarky and bitter and tired and all . she’s terrified of things being taken from her like they have been her whole life. and as i watch the show i really like to just keep that in mind as i get further and further in because yes. she did become a mother and a wife and we saw her arguing with leo a lot and their marriage falling apart and That Whole Era . we saw how it kind of took over her life but i think it happens . i think she even said at one point . i’ve been so many things to so many people, i don’t know who i am anymore . and i think it sums her up perfectly. she doesn’t know who she is because she’s someone to everyone . she’s just. nobody to herself except this scared little girl who just wants Something . Anything . to make sense . some Stability . and her babies, her husband, and her sisters . are all she has for that idea of stability to make sense in her mind. and it was an easy hole to fall into - the Mother - but i think she jumped in. because at the Very Least . nobody could take that title away from her . regardless of how hard they tried .

#i really cannot believe i did an entire ted talk #like did anyone actually read this #if you did . wow #piper halliwell deserved better #tw: mental health #tw: depression #tw: anxiety #tw: panic attack #but no listen #she deserved so much better #holly paid rent #ask me #charmed #ramble #💌

[thewanderingace]

Hawkeye 1x05 reactions

⚠️ Spoilers below ⚠️

Hell yeah were starting with a Yelena flashback! And it's Yelena going and finding the widows and releasing them from their brainwashing!!

God I fucking love her so much!!!!

She's so happy about Natasha being back in her life. Look at that smile. "Shes good."

Yelena leaving the room as soon as Sex and the City is mentioned. Big aroace mood.

Oh shit she did get snapped and this is a crazy view of what it was like for them. Literally five seconds. Shit. My heart

Ohhh no!! "I need to find Natasha. Can you help me find Natasha?" 😭😭😭😭😭

Kate crying! But she clearly understands why Clint sent her away and I love that! I love that it didnt resolve into some nonsense misunderstanding cause I hate those. She understands Clint did it to protect her. I hate seeing her cry though. That hurts.

Her mom is sketchy af. Just saying.

YELENA IS THE BEST! This entire thing between Yelena and Kate in her apartment is just perfection. I love her. Her "Hi", making mac n cheese, making fun of Katie's lack of forks, inviting her to eat, joking talking about American christmas and visiting New York and eating reindeer and then BAM! It's assassin Yelena and then BAM its Natasha's grieving sister. Florence has RANGE

Love Kate's defense for Clint. Love that. Love her. Yelena makes excellent points too.

I just have a lot of overall feels right now for so many of these characters.

Kazi and Maya are kinda cute together.

Awww Clint just falling asleep on grills couch while petty Lucky. That is everything to me. He's just so fucking tired. Let him rest. Both physically and emotionally. It's been a week and this man is TIRED. And I loooove that hes cuddling Lucky. Like, yes. Do that more. Lucky is a good boy and cuddles with a dog is the best.

Clint went to Grills!!! Awww. And he's been watching over Lucky.

THE COSTUMES!!!! THE COSTUMES ARE RIGHT THERE!! LET ME SEE THEM!! AHH NO I GOTTA WAIT ANOTHER EPISODE!! My edcitment is high.

Yeah Jack still creeps me the fuck out and also Eleanor is SHADY

Oh my god. Oh no. Nononono. Clint 🥺 He's talking to Natasha. At the Avengers memorial. Oh my god. He's literally on the verge of tears. I'm gonna cry.

"Natasha. I really need to talk to you right now. You were the bravest of us all, weren't you. Loyal. Stubborn. You always had to win, didn't you. And for a stupid orange rock. I've replayed that a million times over in my head hoping for a different outcome. But I do my best every day to earn what you gave me. I just wanna say....I just wanna day I miss you. And I'm so sorry for what I'm about to do."

I had to post that whole thing because I am SOBBING 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Kate calling Clint so many times that she fill his inbox. And her saying that she fucks up sometimes and then immediately breaks something trying the coin trick is peak comedy.

Tracksuit Bros are always hysterical and I love them.

I....I might die. This show is gonna end me. The feels for Nat, Clint, Yelena and Maya are gonna kill me.

Clint called Laura! I LOVE THEM. BEST HUSBAND AND WIFE EVER!!! Not only does she know exactly what he's gonna do cause she's smart and knows her man but the trust and love here is so perfect. I'm crying at the sadness between them and the resignation and the fear that something bad is gonna happen to their family. They both said I love you this time. Help me

Clint put the Ronin suit on. Shit is he gonna kill Maya so Fisk doesn't get involved (I mean he obviously doesn't because of Echo but still)

Clint just taking everyone out in ninja mode is crazy.

I LOVE WATCHING MAYA FIGHT!!! LOOK AT HER!! SHE'S AMAZING!!! Using her prosthetic to kick his ass is perfect. I cannot fucking wait for the Echo series because I need more Maya in my life. God I love her. She's so smart and skilled.

Ahhh oh my god I'm dying. Love the asl usage and the fact that Clint is still a beginner signer so she has to read his lips.

Ooooh they did go the comic route!!! That Fisk ordered her father dead and hired Ronin to do it!! 

Kate saving the day!!

Was the informant Kazi!?!?

Anyone else getting more and more hyped for Echo with each episode because I SURE AM!!! I love Maya!!! I cant wait to have a whole series about her!! Severely disappointed by the lack of Maya in the tag though. Might have to make some Maya gifs myself when I have time.

Lol she ordered and uber to pick them up

Whump alert: looove that he holds his bleeding arm this whole time. I love to see it.

God he just looks so tired. LET MY BOY REST!

CLINT DOES KNOW WHO YELENA IS!!! AAHHHHH NAT DID TELL HIM ABOUT HER!!! Of course he wouldnt recognize her. Also the tiny "okay" when Kate told him broke my heart.

Lol all back ar Grills house. Love it. So happy we're getting so much Grills content. And Lucky!

Its already such a lighter atmosphere. Clint you are so much happier when Kate is around. I love it. She brings a little more light and silliness into your life which you desperately needed. She's good for you.

YELENA!! Looooving this outfit!! Ahh shes following Eleanor

AAAAHHHH SHUT UP! I mean called it but confirmation of Eleanor is a bad guy but instead of contessa SHE'S WORKING FOR FISK!!! AND THAT IS VINCENT DONOFRIO!!!!

Poor Kate 😭 Clint please take her to the farm for xmas. Her and Yelena.

Omg. Look at this in the credits. I love it.

I can't believe there's only one more episode!!!! I want more! So much more! I love this show so much please don't end.

#marvel #hawkeye spoilers #hawkeye #hawkeye 1x05 #spoilers #stephs stuff #my reactions

[almaasi]

reaction post typed while watching SPN 15x18 “Despair”

WOW TODAY SURE IS A DAY, HUH

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04:40pm

Y’ALL

I KNOW WHAT HAPPENS

I KNOW WHAT’S COMING

BUT AM I PREPARED?

my post leading up to this: https://almaasi.tumblr.com/post/634003656411381760/i-have-seen-the-spn-spoilers-okay-okay-okay

i found a faster torrent and there are 7 minutes until it’s done I’M GONNA GO WANDER AROUND FOR A BIT BRB

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04:51pm

window is blacked out

i am as ready as i can be, i think

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04:52

HERE WE GO

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omg so much has happened irl i fully forgot what happened at the end of the last ep so THANK U RECAP

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BILLIE JUST

BOMBED THE EMPTY

WITH JACK

:0

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05:00

just as i was thinking “aaah billie’s probably lying, jack’s capital D Dead” THERE’S JACK

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JACK’S BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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05:05pm

nice shot

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05:07

CHARLIE’S PARTNER IS GORGEOUS AND THIS IS SO HAPPY

they better both make it to the end and out the other side or istg

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OH NO WHERE DID BABE GO

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babe is named stevie

BRIng STEVIE BACK

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05:09

THIS PLACE IS CALLED KIM MANOR

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we’re like 1/3 of the way into this episode?? damn

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cas and jack hanging out on the hood of the impala like the brothers did all those years ago

good family talk spot

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05:13

high quality face

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05:15

cas: WE DON’T CARE ABOUT YOU BECAUSE YOU’RE USEFUL OR--

cas baby yesssssssssssssssssssssss

these are the words cas can say because he knows them for himself

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05:19

THE DOTS ON SAM’S PHONE CHAT WITH EILEEN

DISAPPEARING

OH...................

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05:26

DONNAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

oh i wish we’d had more donna and jody :/

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05:29

dean’s gonna lose cas and then it’s gonna be the sam+charlie+dean “i just lost my lover” club :c

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05:34

just thinkin about the ending of the final episode

the only two endings i really want are:

everyone we love is somehow alive and they drive into the sunset

they all die but wake up in heaven and there’ll be peace when you are done

or some combination thereof

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05:37

billie: i didn’t hurt your friends

yeah i thought not

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bobby vanishes and my eyes flood with tears

that last look between him and sam........

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wait when was donna from another universe??? or did she die at some point

WOW I’VE FORGOTTEN A LOT

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05:42

dean: “what do we do, ca--- my heart”

.......

yep

i’m not ready for whatever’s about to happen

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I’M SO !!!!!!!!!!

BECAUSE THE FACT THEY JUST WON’T DIE

AND THEY ALWAYS COME BACK

IS THE SEMI-BOSS FIGHT

I’M LOVING THIS

EVEN THOUGH I HATE IT

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05:46

this sure is a screenshot huh

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05:49

/mutes discord bc this needs all of my attention

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05:51

cas’ eyes are starting to tear up and he’s smiling as he starts to talk and ohhhhhhhhh here it comes

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05:53

there’s.

literally.

a wall.

between them.

talk about SYMBOLISM

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jensen’s pupils are so wide right now holy shit

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“you are the most caring man on earth”

dean looking at these words like it’s news to him

;~;

cas

thank you for saying these things we’ve all been yelling at the screen for years

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05:58

DEAN HAS CAS’ BLOODY HANDPRINT ON HIS JACKET

........i can’t let myself believe that was it

THERE WILL BE MORE

SURELY

like

in no conceivable world do the writers get this far, give us THAT, and have it never be mentioned again or properly resolved

hello yes i’m waiting for the magic ritual where cas’ bloody handprint plays a part

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06:02

yeah i mean

if they saved the whole world multiple times over

everyone’s gotta go

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oh dean................. oh no

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GOD

THAT REALLY WAS SOMETHING HUH

i feel like my full reaction is reserved 

because this was half a story. this was one-sided and it was just cas’ monologue. dean has things to say

THIS IS OBVIOUSLY NOT OVER

i know people (misha??) has said it’s a permadeath but i do not believe that, and i don’t believe anything anyone says about what’s coming tbh

i got an anon in my inbox a few weeks ago who correctly predicted this, saying they knew someone on set, but like......... the real ending would be top secret and anything that gets out would not end up in the inbox of some fic author along with a bad vibe. (i didn’t answer it, not wanting to stir up shit.)

that anon said cas isn’t in the last two episodes. except that can’t possibly be true because we, the audience, can see people in the empty, and cas still needs to yell at the empty, and death is in there too... and the empty just wants to sleep so we need to see that too, and cas would be there.

THERE’S MORE TO COME, KIDS

two episodes left

i’m wary of the next one because it’s the deadly duo writing, but they seem to be okayish these days so maybe it’ll be fine

but the finale..... fingers crossed <3

fingers also crossed for a blue georgia, north carolina, and pennsylvania <3

/goes back to cnn livestream because I WANNA WATCH WHEN GEORGIA FLIPS

also. back to spn for a sec. i’m a leeeeeeetle bit mad that the gay black woman disappears first. like i know everyone died but. haven’t we had enough of that??

10/10 even so BUT THAT DOESN’T MEAN IT COULDN’T HAVE BEEN BETTER

eh. this show is what it is, and i just gotta accept that, BUT ALSO I THINK WE’RE GENUINELY GETTING SOMEWHERE WITH DEAN AND CAS HERE

but only so long as this actually has a conclusion

which it must do

because this is very much an emotional cliffhanger. cas just emotion-dumped and then fucked off so dEAN’S GOTTA PROCESS AND THEN CHASE HIM

OBVIOUSLY

BECAUSE THAT’S HOW LOVE STORIES WORK

we didn’t watch 15 years of this thing only to be given half of what we wanted in the closing moments, and then get left left high and dry. the writers/producers are clearly willing to give us canon love confessions, and they're not gonna get as far as this, with a finale as tense and dramatic as this, and be like lol dean's straight and only likes cas as a friend........... after he’s dead and died for the joy of their love........... that's beyond madness

and dean needs to SPEAK. there are so many things he’d never said. and he needs to say them to cas. he was basically silent in this conversation and you can’t just say that’s their ending. it’s not their ending.

AND LIKE

IF THIS SHOW AND THIS FINALE AND THIS SEASON HAS PROVED ANYTHING

IT’S THAT NOBODY STAYS DEAD

AND WHATEVER THE WRITER INTENDS, THE CHARACTERS HAVE THEIR OWN DESIRES AND DRIVES

AND FOR THAT REASON, GAY LOVE WILL PIERCE THROUGH THE VEIL OF DEATH AND SAVE THE DAY

#spn #spn spoilers #15x18 #despair #Elmie watches things #season 15 #Destiel #canon Destiel #post of postiness #love confessions

[emsylcatac]

Unpopular opinion: Adrien had ever right to react like he did in Syren.

strongly agree | agree | neutral | disagree | strongly disagree

(Why hello yes did I order free tea in my inbox?)

I will detail this one even if I think other people have done it brilliantly at some point already. (Update: I realise it’s super long because I don’t know how to do short apparently but anyway).

And I’ll remind first thing first that both Ladybug & Chat Noir received their Miraculous at the exact same time. Both have been untrusted with something big and asked to risk their lives to save the day - with a partner aka an equal. Meaning that at the beginning, there shouldn’t be anything indicating one has more information about their power than the other.

Chat Noir has never shown jealousy at Ladybug’s role as the “leader” of the team; yes he has already questioned her choices and plans (Antibug, Gigatitan to name only those) but he has been overall pretty okay with her taking the lead.

And it was all fine until Collector aka the episode where Marinette meets Master Fu.

I don’t want to start again the whole “it’s Fu’s fault / it’s not his fault bla-bla-bla” debate on the matter because it would be way too long so I’ll just put myself into Adrien’s shoes and ask you to do the same here; taking the whole of season 1 into account where both heroes knew globally the same things, let’s see season 2:

1/ Collector: his partner comes to him to tell him his father is Hawkmoth with no proof. Cool, great… He trusts her, alright, but… It already feels that there’s a wall between them (😏); something hasn’t been shared nor discussed and it’s about the guy they’re both supposed to fight and risk their lives against. He actually let it slides but still, it’s important to take that into account. Especially since it concerns… His own father.

2/ Sapotis: Ladybug comes with a new superhero out of nowhere. Cool, new friend! He reacts pretty well towards Rena Rouge and doesn’t questions her presence; after all they’re in the middle of a fight and the help is most welcomed. Still, no idea where she comes from and his partner actually doesn’t let him know afterwards. But ok maybe there was no time and she’ll tell him about it later.

3/ Syren: here we go. End of a mission, pound-it denied because the new hero has to leave… And Ladybug can know who she is and still hasn’t given him more info he might have expected. And apparently not him? When has this been decided? When has he been consulted for that? Is he not trustworthy enough? Those are all kind of questions he can and is completely in right to ask himself.

Because another reminder: who in Adrien’s daily life never tells him a thing regarding, oh I don’t know, his own mother amongst many other examples? Yeah right. So he’s constantly used to it.

Now about the “controversial” reactions Adrien has in Syren:

1 - First “controversial” reaction: snapping at LB for being in the dark

When I watched the episode and finally saw the boy snapping, I was really like “THANK PLAGG it’s happening!” because it was about time.

So him snapping at Ladybug, not knowing the very existence of Master Fu, is to me not only logical and well-due but also healthy (yes I can say it). He is not passive in his role as Ladybug’s partner and as a superhero – he asks for his right to exist in the team, to really be part of this team, he imposes himself for once. Last time Adrien questioned authority was in Origins to go to school.

So whether Ladybug deserved to be at the end of his snapping or not isn’t the point: he had every rights to express himself, even if it was angrily. Because in his shoes I would have been angry too and I don’t think I’m the only one. It’s unrealistic to think he would have just continued to follow her blindly especially since the unbalance in knowledge & access to the information is getting more and more prominent at this moment in the season.

2 - Second “controversial” reaction: the Plagg bribing

Basically Adrien rightfully asked information to his Kwami that Plagg indeed had but couldn’t tell him. Again, the question isn’t whether Plagg can tell him or not: it’s that Adrien has the right to express his annoyance at not being included in what he should be included into.

The whole bribery with the cheese was to me quite obviously some bantering between the two; just like you’d do to a sibling or a friend who very obviously hides you something and be like “buuuuut tell meee I promise I’ll make you a cake in exchange!” or something. That’s all. That’s the vibes I got from the bribery. It’s not as serious as some people like to make it sound. (also it’s only cheese he’s bargaining for… Anyway.)

3 - Last “controversial” reaction: threatening to give up his ring

So after being told again and again that he can’t know for some [insert lame excuse] reason, despite having snapped and let known his feelings, he is once again abandoned by Ladybug for some secret thing he is deemed too untrustworthy to know (again, I am putting us in HIS shoes here: I am not accusing Ladybug or Master Fu of anything, just letting you guys know what he must have felt at that moment so I’m placing myself from his point of view).

Paris is flooded. He can’t do anything. Add to that low teenager self-esteem and feelings, mix it up, boom! A defeatist Chat Noir.

Was he right to threaten to give up his ring? No, not completely. But it’s him having reached his limits because he feels powerless and nobody seems to want to give him enough information so he can actively participate and help in finding a solution. He has nothing to work with there.

I don’t think he would have really given up his ring; or if he had, he would have regretted it right after (we’ve all been in this situation when we’re angry; we take rash decisions that we KNOW will hurt us but we still do it only to regret it once we’ve calmed down.)

Saying that he was ready to let the Parisians die by giving up the ring is… Not true at all. First because if the people are in danger it’s because of Hawkmoth not Chat Noir (gotta do a repeat of LB’s speech in Origins there but: well tried, but let’s not reverse the role here), and 2nd because at this very moment there was literally nothing he could have done. Was it a bit far fetched and a kind of whiny teenager reaction? Sure, a bit, I’m not saying it wasn’t. But considering ALL that happened in the episode and Adrien’s character backstory… Yeah I can get where he came from.

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Anyway I’m going to stop here haha but Adrien showed us this episode how human his reactions were, and I’m not saying it in a “he showed flaws so he’s human” way but in a “we can ALL relate more or less to his feelings of demanding the RIGHT to know things he should as the supposed EQUALED partner of Ladybug” way.

Thanks for the ask & sorry for the long ramble aha ♥

#ask #its-me-ya-girl #ask game #ml fandom salt #adrien #chat noir #hope i was clear it's late & i'm tired hahaha #syren #ml analysis #ml ramblings

[cower-before-power]

IM PASSED THE 100 EPISODE MARK IN BLACK CLOVER!!! too bad its during the saddest fight yet☹️☹️☹️ the fight between magna vanessa and luck☹️☹️☹️ WHEN HE WAS CRYING???? pls baby luck running to his friends and passing each memory of him meeting the bulls. im rlly crying abt this. STOP IT WHY IS HE ASKING IF HES STILL A BLACK BULL OF COURSE YOU ARE STOP CRYING OH MY GOD OH YM GOD OH YMGOD i cant help but wonder abt how bad all of these ppl are gonna feel when theyre back to humans☹️ ok so i’ve been typing some of these as i watch but i got rlly into the show and i forgot to keep typing. holy. shit. lauren… So Much Is Happening. there is not a single BREAK HERE???? ok so the house?? its moving henry MVP, also ive learned that the royal family (like the one with the king not the silvas or vermillions) uses light magic so my theory abt real licht being a traitor is gone lmfao i thought i was rlly smart for a minute😭😭 this show is so crazy my head hurts. also finral just punched his little brother WHICH HE DESERVED. i am the leader of the laryngitis hate club. AND THE SILVAS???? nozel has redeemed himself. he is now on my simp list HE AND NOELLE ATE!!! everyone being surprised at noelles growth is my kink i cant get enough. i teared up when noelle asked if magic was supposed to feel so freeing. can u imagine how much she hated her magic since she couldnt control it? man💔 THE FIGHT WITH GAUCHE TOO?? hes such a tsundere i know he loves the bulls WHO is he trying to fool. when he was like “i dont even like u guys i only live for my little sister” and everyone was like “😐 girl obviously. youve made it clear u only love marie, but WE love YOU” if that doesnt make ur heart happy then idk what could😮‍💨 and the dream world?? captain dorothy is INSANE. WHO KNEW SHE COULD HAVE SUCH MAGIC😭 A WHOLE DIMENSION ONLY SHE CAN CONTROL??? sally carried that fight btw i love her and i love the crazy scientist trope sm. OH AND CHARMY???? PART DWARF??? she went crazy against rill i love to see it. also fuegoleon and mereoleona are my favorite siblings in all of anime i think i love them so much. idk if that’s covered everything up to where i am now but so much is happening ALL THE TIME my head feels mushy. but this story line is crazy. i think i might be almost done with this arc? now that theyre in the shadow palace all they gotta do it defeat the elves!!! and there are only like 3 left!!! things are looking up lauren!!!!!!!!!

Hi friend!!! I’m actually answering this before there’s another in my inbox, go me!!!

I wanted to cry too when Luck was crying, he felt so bad he hurt his friends!! And when Magna hugged him and told him of course he was still one of them 😭😭😭 these Bulls just love each other so much.

Finral vs Langris Part 2 is probably one of my favourite fights of the whole show. Not because it’s super showy or anything, but because it’s so meaningful. Despite what a little dick Langris has been, Finral doesn’t give up on him. He loves his brother and is not going to let him be overtaken. When he screams “Come here Langris!” and literally punches him back to reality, it’s honestly one of the best moments 🤣 and when they are knocked out and like they are reaching for each other 😭 there’s a lot more I could say about them but I don’t want to spoil anything coming up!

Gauche is a damn liar he literally loves everyone, so stop pretending you don’t, Gauche!

You literally mentioned so many fights I can’t comment on them all 🤣 but yea, so many great moments for our favourite characters! But I will say that Dorothy was a surprise for me, I was not expecting her to be so bubbly haha.

Keep on enjoying my friend!

#asks #replies #anon #bc anon #lauren’s sweet potatoes

[severelystrangereader]

Hiiiii!!! oml i'm glad you're back!!! i was getting kinda concerned but i'm so glad youre backk!!! (i really missed you

haha ikr, it was so hard for me to choose too :') and NOO OFC I DONT HATE YOU, I CAN NEVER HATE YOU!

okay so, i'm assuming you've watched tfatws ep 2.. if you havent.. THERE MIGHT BE A MINOR SPOILER IN THE NEXT SENTENCES!! WEE WOO WEE WOO

anyways, do you have any opinions about the new tfatws episode? any reactions perhaps? (im in love with karli) i would love to hear your thoughts and opinions about it! (if you want to ofc)

(also.. small reminder, if you need to take some time off of tumblr, feel free to do so!! i love you very much and i'll always support you!! <3)

(im also very sorry for this very long ask)

Yes I'm back!! (Well sorta. Life's kinda rough atm but I'm getting on when I can) I'm lucky I opened this so I better give an answer before the new episode drops in like, 10 minutes

*sorta spoilers if you haven't seen episode 2 of tfatw*

I literally had SO MANY thoughts about episode 2.

First off really love how they are addressing the racism that black people face and that not even black superheroes are immune (what they did to Isaiah literally brought me to tears tbh) and the cop scene really did capture the systemic racism that is so deeply ingrained in our society. we are acab in this house

John Walker?

I HATE this guy. Certainly not my captain america, no siree. Don't get me wrong, I welcome wyatt russell into the mcu, but god DAMN do I hate his character

Now karli?

WE STAN. Erin Kellyman was absolutely fantastic in star wars and I can tell that she's going to kick ass in the mcu!! I can't wait to see where they go with her character and the other Flag Smashers

but why she gotta do redwing like that :'(

aND WE GOT THE THERAPY SCENE

Which yes, did break my heart but we're not gonna talk about that rn

Anyways that's all I got right now and I'm looking forward to the rest of the season because this has quickly become my favorite tv show!!!

Also can I just say that you are literally the sweetest anon ever! (I got your other inbox saying that this one was you 🧃, lol) your asks always lighten my mood and I thank you for that 💖

#literally you're the best #🧃 anon

[dear-yandere]

—ask collection!

a collection of mostly very old chats and sweet asks that i never got around to answering! thanks for the patience and love!! 

beware, fairly long post... woops....

chat asks.

darling: Eu-jin is best boy. Change my mind.

vanya: i am physically incapable of fulfilling that request, how dare you do that to me... i’m biased since he’s my own oc, but i would die for my (very best) boy eu-jin... who can resist such a gentle yandere that loves you so whole-heartedly?

that reminds me! he’s actually based off of kuroyuki and gekkamaru from the otome nightshade, so if you want similar characters by any chance, do check them and the game out ♡

darling: I was watching the dub for Part 5 of JoJo's Bizarre adventure yesterday...Mista called himself Daddy and I like- sdfghjfgsdhnhnmj!! My heart can't take this--

vanya: WAIT HE DID???? i’m not even big on daddy kink and reading that made me go 😳 this is vital information to know... what episode was this??? for research purposes, of course. gotta perfect my yan! mista, after all~...

darling: for yandere songs, have you heard of the major to minor covers by chase holfelder :O? the way he delivers the lyrics in some songs (betty, all i want for christmas), added with the key changes to minor, is really fantastic, and gives a stalker-ish vibe imo! and he's a really good singer in general

vanya: i have!! a good chunk of them are actually on my personal yandere playlist, so i end up hearing them frequently when i’m writing!! i haven’t been keeping up with his uploads recently, so ‘betty’ is completely new to me and just, wow???????????? this man is an absolute god send for us “romantic” horror fans... ♡

this ask gave me such a lovely idea, though, darling: assigning yandere types/mbti based off each of chase’s minor key covers. i think i’ll do that just for you. ♡

darling @blossomiich​: I reread some of your old character interaction asks and saw the one with Jotaro hugging his Darling after a panic attack and the elephant seal plush reminded me of the iconic C H O N K Y ringed seal plushie that was kinda trending and I can totally imagine Jotaro having one of those >w< that's so adorable!

vanya: i honestly don’t remember that interaction, but then again i don’t remember most things hmghng so i looked it up and

j...just imagine star plat hogging it and not letting joot cuddle with it 🥺 the duality of man...thank you for this cute image...

darling: Umm, sorry for asking this. I'm just curious because of your bio language in your header. Are you Chinese too, perhaps?

vanya: no worries!! i’m mixed guyanese (indian, chinese, & possibly black and/or portuguese), but my family only celebrates (or rather, acknowledges?) our indian descent, since the majority of our family is predominantly east indian. 

my header is actually a quote from a danmei novel (and one of my all-time favorite fandoms), tiān guān cì fú (heaven’s official blessing)!

darling genki stan anon: Omg you're writing for free now, i didn't expect that one lol. It's a cute show innit? Not a nagi stan but I feel like nagisa has that kinda unsnapped personality that would make him peak delusional yandere material lolol like oikawa but less threatening and without his head being up his own ass 😂. Hope you're doing well!! -gsa

Gdjsjs im such a fool, i think my last ask said something about not thinking you'd write for free when i literally just pointed out kisumi on your sideblog LMAO my bad 😅 😂 also ill hold back on the gen chan requests because ive already asked so many in the past! Thank you though 🥺. Also feel free not to post this, it can just dip into my onesided chats with my lil flower 💐 so long as you receive them im fine 😌 -genki stan anon

vanya: nagisa isn’t my favorite (kisumi is), but gods if he wouldn’t make a great yandere. honestly, out of the iwatobi boys, nagi is probably the most unhinged. i wouldn’t peg him as delusional, at least not at first; i think he’s very lucid and knows exactly what he wants and how to manipulate people in order to get it!!! kisumi is fairly similar now that i think about it... i might... have a type...

please feel free to send in gen-chan requests whenever you want!!!! i’m kinda super asocial, so it’ll take me a while to answer, but i love getting asks from you since you’re so sweet and excitable!!! your little flower reads and cherishes them all!! 🥺

also darling genki stan anon: Sorry for spamming you with asks hdjkdks, u dont even need to reply im just kinda brain empty venting here whether you recieve them or not 😂 i just needed to confess that while yes i am #1 gen simp, and he is undoubtedly my fave oc of yours but that Ilya tentacle smut had me very much so highkey kinda 👀, had to re read the genki oral style drabble to bring my head back. He dont even need to worry about luca bc that man a thot. I think therin is a thot too but like lowkey, a classy thót -gsa

vanya: omg i’ve kept this one for forever mnmghngh i might’ve even answered at some other point, now that i think about it... but i just 🥺 gosh i hope i find my muse soon, because i really wanna write you a genki fic 🥺 hhhh

the ilya tentacle smut was so in character for that boy... i have no clue how to write monsters, much less tentacles, but i’d honestly do anything for him 🙏 kinky russian boy...

therin is definitely a classy thot, the kind that only bangs the finest concubines then turns around and slut shames you for banging the very same prostitutes gbfmngnfg rules don’t apply to him, in his kingdom...wish that were me tbh ✊😔

sweet asks.

darling one: i've read almost all of your dazai and chuuya fics and i love them so much!! your formatting is also super aesthetic just a question, i saw on your kofi that you also draw so i was wondering if you drew all the header arts?? bc they're all super pretty :) have a great day!

darling two: Just wanted to say love the writing and the way your format your posts is so aesthetically pleasing. One day I hope my posts looks half as good as yours because I legit can't get over how pretty and organized it looks.

vanya: omg thank you so much!!!! one of my bffs, yue, is to thank for the formatting and aesthetic choices, really! if you wanna see more of her aesthetic formats and posts, she actually runs a few blogs! you may know her as @milkscafe​, formally @milkaaton! i adore her and her aes choices so much 🥺

as for the headers, i don’t draw 99.98% of them! i have drawn a couple, but they’re so few and far in between since i almost never finish my art wips haha... my older posts are lacking proper credits because i’m an absolute idiot, but i’m slowly working my way backwards to credit them all where possible! they’re all indeed super pretty!!!

have a great day yourself, my love!!

darling: THEY’RE NOT BAD CONTENT, I LOVE THEM ALL

vanya: this was in response to a now-deleted lil blurb but i kept it in my inbox because i wanted to say i love u very much and seeing this ask each time i open my inbox makes my heart skip a beat ♡

darling: Listen I love your writing, you inspired me to start it myself! I've always loved to write, and read of course but your style and concepts just stick with me. If you where to write something besides Yandere content/fandom content and started your own series? I would read the shit, out of it. I'm always nervous to interact with my favorite writers because you know, I'm afraid of the impression I'd leave but I just wanted to say this anyway! 💞💞💞🔫😳

vanya: wowowow fgfnmgnfmngfg that’s such a high compliment my brain just gmfnbgmnf go boom fogjfngnfg and thank you for the interaction, us writers truly appreciate it no matter how awkward or nervous you think you may be / come off!!!

darling one: As a writer, your post struck a nerve with me. I don’t send feedback to writers I like nearly as much as I should (and certainly not as much as I’d like in return as a writer). So, as such, I’m going to start doing that when I can, starting with you.

You are an incredible writer. You were one of the first yandere writing blogs I found and you’re still one I check in on regularly to see what you have been working on. You can portray a sense of suspense and intrigue in a natural way that many other writers - published ones included - struggle with. You delve into the darkness without it feeling forced, and you have an amazing grasp on the psyches of the characters you write for (which is a quality I adore in writing and strive toward myself).

I’m not great at ending these things so I guess.. you keep doing you? Because the you is great and I appreciate it.

darling two:  hey. i'm here to tell you that from the bottom of my heart i love you and your writings. i really admire your writing skills. you inspire me. one of your posts once saved me from a nervous breakdown. thank you for everything you do. you're a wonderful person. good luck!

darling three: I wanted to tell you that thank you for writing such wonderful beautiful writings and that you take time to edit and write I hope you are taking care of yourself 💖❤

darling four: Thanks. I was having a hard time and deleted all my apps, but as soon as i opened my phone my first instinct was to look at your blog and i got my motivation back. Thanks (:

darling five: Hi ! I just wanted to say I really enjoy the stories you write and how they are detailed so well ! Stay safe and I hope you have a good day/night ! ლ(╹◡╹ლ)

vanya: ahhhh, these are very old asks mostly dating back to my “tumblr writing community is dying” post, and i’ve kept them this entire time because i’m just so starstruck. i have no clue how to reply to compliments, so i’m not sure what else to say besides that these asks made me very happy and got me through a few insecure moments!!! i’ve actually been feeling a little down about my writing recently, mostly because of lack of motivation / inspiration, so revisiting these really warmed my heart, so thank you truly ♡ i’m certainly keeping the originals in my inbox until the end of time!!

darling @monstrously-obsessed: psst, this local cryptic mom thing send all of their love for you 💕

vanya: your local herbo says she loves you very much momster 🥺 mwah

also, to the anon worried about my safety:

thank you so much for pointing that out!!! it hadn’t even crossed my mind when i made those ocs, so i appreciate your concern! i was contemplating revamping those two as is, so this is a great place to start! thank you again!!

#asks collection #not a fic #vanya rambles #[ vanya LITERALLY rambles ] #[ life's hard when you're this asocial i swear fgmnfgnmfg ] #[ now to answer concept asks ]

[regali-s]

Of course you can call me venom! I can’t decide what emoji but what about you choose out of this selection🧋🐉🦕🦋🫀 ? I don’t know why I chose them they’re just pretty lol

I KNOW RIGHT she really be embarrassing us all herself sometimes (like we were rooting for you damn) I would love to see a screenshot of what your currently reading! At least that way I won’t be flooding your inbox all the time wondering whether you read this or not lol can’t wait !

I just tried aniwatch and I turned off my VPN to access the website but I...can’t find any videos ¿ I don’t know what’s going on but it’s okay because I checked out animekisa and that does work so THANK YOU AND THANK YOU TO YOUR SISTER

Vava and vinida? I’ll check them out I can’t lie i have never heard of them but the only artist I listen to that sings in mandarin (I’m assuming They’re singing in mandarin when they’re not in English because I have very VERY small perceptibility of the difference between Korean Japanese and mandarin from Korean media, Japanese anime and *Taiwanese/Hong Kong/Chinese films I’m sorry I’m dumb) is Jackson Wang, most of my other Chinese (+Asian in general) artist are Chinese-American and sing in English and that is probably symptomatic of my own attitudes + prejudice and a larger conversation about Asian representation in media but I’m rambling I’m sorry

* I AM NOT trying to insert any opinion on that geopolitical minefield i just don’t know what term to use lol they speak mandarin or a branch of it is what I’m trying to say

Part 1 ?? Of how many?? Lol the album has 20 songs (don’t worry it’s only an hour long and there are like 5 ? Intermissions I think) oh those are some bangers I think my favourites off the album are oh no!, spaceships, Charlie Brown and greatness !

I WILL ALWAY ACCEPT AFFECTION AND I AM CASHING IN ON THIS OFFER MA’AM MWAH <3

i think i i’ll give you the boba! 🧋 so your tag’ll be venom.🧋 from now on 💛 i’ll put out my webtoon’s list soon! i’ll tag you on it

ouuuuuu sorry about aniwatch, but i’m happy animekisa worked!! i hope the ads aren’t too bad for you ;;; i know they get annoying and at this point i’m just immune to em i don’t even get upset whenever they show up. but hopefully now you can watch horimiya!! (i gotta catch up to that.... i missed two weeks’ new episodes)

vava and vinida sing in mandarin yes! and jfjfjgh don’t apologize for speaking your thoughts! if you ever wanna talk more about it i’m willing to listen to you 💛 it seems you’re really passionate about the topic! (and you def don’t have to apologize for rambling cause i do the same thing too)

djdjfjgh i dunno it literally just said “part 1” on the playlist it gave me when i looked him up for dead annie 😭 maybe if i search him up on spotify instead i’ll have more luck so i’ll try today and let you know!

AND THATS PERFECT CAUSE I HAVE LOTS OF LOVE TO GIVE YOU

#matters of the court 🌹 #venom.🧋

[throwing-roses-into-the-abyss]

Gooood morning! Cherry magic anon has awoken. Thank u for answering my anons. I choose cherry magic cause it’s at the top of ur pinned post and I googled the premise and I was like well that’s ridiculous, I gotta watch. Anyhow I have a question, what do u recommend I watch now?

I like hurt/comfort, fluff, humour, pinning, happy endings and cat content. Also maybe one that’s finished so that I don’t have to wait (I’m very impatient)

good morning!

“that’s ridiculous, I gotta watch”  see now there’s a type of reasoning I really like. that’s how I pick my shows very often too lmao. I did assume you meant bl series specifically, since I guess that’s my Thing now. 

but also ngl, people have asked me for recs before and never got back to me so I have no idea if I give good recommendations or not. there’s also sadly a distinct lack of cat content in bl world. 

I do know that ingredients has a cat episode? Ingredients is like a series of short vignettes (usually between 10~15 minutes but it varies) with only the vaguest hint of an overarching plot in the form of the most excruciating slowburn. It’s very very cute and fluffy, but also still ongoing, with a new episode every other week on saturday. 

my engineer is, frankly, very dumb and ridiculous and not everyone’s cup of tea, but it has a lot of heart and is v cute. SO. MUCH. PINING. There is a cat but only in some of the flowershop scenes. (Yes there’s a flowershop - this series goes for allll the cliches, puns, bad sound effects - tbh I mostly kind of tolerated most of that for the sake of ramking and tharafrong - and my girl tingting). it’s finished and you can watch all of s1 on youtube on the official channel. some couples don’t have a happy ending yet, but we’re getting s2 next year so fingers crossed things’ll turn out well. 

also fair warning: lots of people - rightfully - dislike the bohnduen storyline, so be prepared to be VERY annoyed at them. but ramking make up for a lot. also hot damn that ramking kiss was unexpected in many ways.

I’d also recommend History 3: Trapped. It’s ridiculous (cop & mob boss fall in love), but there’s a lot of humour, domestic moments, a shit ton of hurt/comfort, the cutest side couple, and a surprisingly well-written and intriguing plot too. There is blood and violence (and sadly lacking in cats) so be warned for that, but other than that it’s one of my all-time favourite bl’s. 

and finally if you want something cute that’s also incredibly good representation of lgbt people and our struggles and that very bluntly discusses them, go watch gaya sa pelikula. 

actually go watch gaya sa pelikula anyway, it’s SO GOOD. I recommend that one to absolutely everyone regardless of whether they watch bl or not. just. that one. it will rip your heart out, but you’ll thank them for it. 

whatever you choose, please feel free to come back into my inbox to shout about them! I love getting those messages

and to all the other anons who have ever asked me for recs: COME BACK. I NEED TO KNOW WHAT Y’ALL THOUGHT. 

#bl recs #this got long and rambly I'm sorry #I hope you'll like one (or more) of these! #let me know! #Anonymous