#i guess im emo now

[pigeonsareevil]

Man, i dont know wether everyone noticed this and im just dumb and oblivious or if im being completely delusional but i think im realising why Dutch trusted Micah so much even when Hosea and Arthur complained about it.

I think what he thought, was that this is going to be a similar scenario to many other gang members in the past when they first joined.

Im not sure but thinking about it, there are many people in the gang that i feel like when they joined, Hosea and Arthur weren't happy about, but they proved themselves to the gang and changed for the better so the older members accepted them.

Hell, this could have been the case with Arthur too. Hosea mentions he was a wild delinquent when they took him in but he changed and that makes me think that Hosea originally didnt want Arthur to join them, but Dutch saw something in this feral orphan, took him in and soon enough, even Hosea grew fond of him. Even came to love him as a son.

I feel like it took a lot of convincing from Dutch to let Arthur stay but when he did, and he saw the man Arthur became, Dutch probably started believing that there is good in everyone and everyone is capable of changing for the better if they are given the chance, that is of course, if he didnt already believe in that.

That is probably how we ended up with many of the gang members who cause a bit of trouble or aren't really contributing to the gang or just the ones Hosea and Arthur arent really fond of. Specific names that come to mind are Bill, Sean and Swanson. Now im definetely not saying i dislike these characters. Nor am i saying that Sean or Bill dont contribute or that Arthur and Hosea dislike Swanson or Sean or anything like that but you get the idea.

Dutch, to me, seems way more open to strangers and troubled people, good example of this is Sadie, he didn't even hesitate about taking her in, she was in trouble and needed help, he didn't care that he didn't know her and she could potentially figure out who they are and tell the law about them (she wouldn't do that of course but someone else could have been in her place, you know) or Maybe even Kieran, who used to be member of their a rival gang but people told Dutch he saved Arthurs life so he let him stay with them. Of course they didnt trust Kieran as much but just the fact that he let him live after, even more, he let him live AND stay with them when he clearly didnt't have to shows that he is way more trusting of strangers whereas Hosea and Arthur are way more protective of the people already in the gang, protecting them from these strangers.

Seems to me like Dutch saw Micah, says the man saved his life? I think? And thought: "there is some goodness inside this person, he just needs an opportunity and a place to change for the better, even if Arthur and Hosea dont agree and say i should cut him loose, what kind of person would i be, preaching about giving people who were wronged by their life and this country a second chance yet throwing this person away after messing up a few times. It took other people in this gang months, even years to change and they did change, Hosea and Arthur used to complain but now those people are a part of their family so why shouldn't i give this person a chance?"

This of course, could have been the case had Micah actually wanted to change from his habbits and break away from his past but i think it is clear that from his dialougue he is happy being just the way he is. He just kept telling Dutch he wants to change so Dutch would let him stay and and Dutch, believing him, dragged the whole gang to destruction because of this, because he put so much time and effort into trying to help, change and save someone who didn't need it

#i wrote this on school breaks with minimal amount of sleep so sorry if this is stupid and gramatically incorrect i wasnt really checking it #i just had this thought while reading fanfics last night about Hosea and Dutch meeting Arthur #Hosea not wanting him at first but growing to love him and Dutch having to convince Hosea to let Arthur stay #guess i saw some parallels in that #there is probably more i could say about this but im forgetting it so ill update this if i figure it out #dutch van der linde #micah bell #arthur morgan #hosea mathews #red dead redemption 2 #rdr2 #stupid emo mango lover ate my brain #now he lives in my head rent free #im not complaining though

[jesse-cosay]

I had to name Jesse's friends for the fic I'm writing, so I hope you all know that the redhead hair is Travis. The one with the hat is Trevor. The one with shorts and gauges is Anthony.

I repeat.

RED IS TRAVIS!

HAT IS TREVOR!

SHORTS IS ANTHONY!

#im emotiomally attached to one of them #guess which one it is #:) #😭😭😭 #im not your dream #Yellow's writing #hes my oc now just like Blake #I need to stop adopting emo boys to project onto

[stewiefanumtax]

(WAKE ME UP) WAKE ME UP INSIIIIDE (CANT WAKE UP) WAKE ME UP INSIIIIDE

#jade harley #homestuck #jade homestuck #jade harley homestuck #emo i guess?? #i should sleep #nah thats stupid #im gonna play roblox actually #i wanna clip my figernails but i like the tappy tap noises they make #sighhhhhhh #im gonna stop yapping now

[dawn-the-rithmatist]

I’m. So fucking glad that I tuned in to tonight’s CR just in time for the revelation that FCG has a soul, he’s alive, and his sudden realization that- oh god, he matters, he has to live. Sure he’s already been living, but it’s different now that that life has value.

Just. god, the joy and hope and horror and “I’ve seen all of you living and it looks… hard” and it is hard, the rest of them immediately tell him, but it’s just the same as what you’ve been doing already, and of course you matter-

Guys I am not okay

#critical role #cr fcg #cr c3e36 #WHAT A MOMENT TO TUNE IN ON #IM A BIT EMO ABOUT IT #the dawning realization that you are worth just as much as everyone else… holy shit #dawn speaks #oh fuck I guess I gotta tag spoilers now huh #cr spoilers

[argumentativeaxolotl]

Okay wait but “her name was Lola she was a showgirl but that was thirty years ago when they used to have a show now it’s a disco but not for Lola still in the dress she used to wear faded feathers in her hair” but make it Chick Hicks.

“His name was Chick Hicks he was a racer. But that was several years ago when they used to have him race. Now it’s a TV show but not for Chick Hicks, still in the fire suit he used to wear faded sponsors in his hair.”

I’m actually tweaking I havenet slept in a long time take this fucking shitpost tweakpost whatever the fuck. Schizopost?????? This feels like a schizompost ngl

Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh fic update soon

#cars 2006 #chick hicks #cars 1 #humanized cars #humanization #shitpost #im insane #i’m a little sleep deprived ngl #I’m severely sleep deprived ngl #what tje fuck #prompt????? #he’s emo now I fucking guess #copacabana #her name was lola

[yonpote]

do yall.... use the dnp calendars by the way? @ anyone who's purchased one before? honestly i share my moms paper calendar cuz we usually need to know what we're both doing anyway, but ive also wanted a personal physical calendar to actually use as well. maybe i could buy stickers for birthdays and stuff so they can still be cute fhjdhdj

#im just never sure if i want to do shit with my merch ever lmao. like #i wanted to cut thumb holes in my back from the dead shirt just to make it reeeal emo #but i wasnt sure #and now im like AHHH DO I WANNA DOODLE ALL OVER DNP'S DUMB FACES OR NOT #its not like im ever gonna resell this stuff. i mean never say never i guess but i really dont want to

[astrocarbon]

i got delulu over my crush on a thirty year old man but my older sister reality checked me and i think im normal again

#and now im back to being emo #which. i guess is better than delulu #im more comfortable being emo. it makes sense to me

[todayisafridaynight]

twitter having 'national girlfriend day' trend tonight is so funny like how did they know i was thinking of masato

#snap chats #he's still my toxic girlfriend sorry #i was sitting by the road today and being emo As Per Usual and i thought about comin on here like #'maybe if i looked at pictures of my evil toxic girlfriend ill feel better' #maybe i should just draw him... idk im not really feeling like. EXISTING tonight #i keep hoping ill die from high blood pressure soon and its just not happening like cmon....... dont play with me like that blood pressure. #ok bye im gonna. idk. #drink matcha ig #i called my dad just to say hi because im trying to do that more and i just ended up crying like a BABY #and he just told me to eat cause he knows me and he knows i hate myself and that means i Wont eat 😔 #i mean he said a LOT more obviously but yk.. the eating part's relevant since im talking about just drinking matcha and calling it a night #prrroobbbabblyyy not the best hting to do.... not when thi smatcha apparently got creamer and sugar in it The Fuck #I DIDNT KNOW THAT my disappointment is immeasurable... i just wanted pure matcha tyvm... #maybe i should start odering it online since i know i wont find any locally... #but those are plans for when i have money and dont feel like lying on the side of the road #for now uhhhhhhhhhhhhh i GUESS i'll have tea... and quiche... so i dont disappoint my dad.... #he'd never know but i'll feel bad.... ok bye... #we'll see what i do in the next couple hours but one things for certain i WILL think of my evil toxic girlfriend <- masato

[yamatonikado]

ya'know what's f**ked up? the fact that I STILL get chikaita brainrot even though i haven't viewed, touched, or interacted with ANY kind of A3 media in what feels like years? when did they stop updating the EN servers? it was before that even. and yet despite this itaru and chikage live in my brain rent free tending to the chikaita brainworms in my brain content garden. i cannot escape them and their messed up relationship.

#help is this what a true otp is? oh no #to me and im sure ive made this clear by now theyre the type of pairing that are on and off bc #dramatic emo voiceover: we're no good together but without you im no good #chikaita #is this ship even still alive in canon i have no idea whats going on with a3 anymore like do we still get chikaita doki doki moments #does the source material still provide the viewer/player with these strange chikaita moments that feel impossible to digest unless #thru a shipper's lens? i have no idea but i will ship them till i die i guess #chikage utsuki #itaru chigasaki #im gonna bite my fist i can never let em go

[charmingbrute]

sad because it seems like i wouldn't be able to do the mindless relic grind i was planning and i'm too lazy to just keep doing rouls for tomes especially when it's all i've done for so many months even when i had every job maxed out. endwalker msq is good but as a whole, the expansion has been a massive let down

#ooc. #will never forgive people who complained about eureka/bozja #now this is all we'll get and im emo #i guess i wont be taking a break from writing 🥹 #so y'all gotta deal with me

[entropys]

oh yeah my emo teenager phase is done 💛 sick and twisted 3 weeks i am normal again

#emo teenager as in emotional and insane #july worst month of the year so far even tho its my birth month it should’ve been the best but this is why it sucked #bc nobody gives a shit and i will always be alone 🫶 #its fine im fine i am NORMAL now 🙏 #also i like increased my savings so i have enough when we move therefore i have no money so depression was really enjoying its stay i guess

[halflingkima]

wait wait wait wait wait

lestat knew they (claudia) were planning to kill him. Not just the night of the gala but the whole time (or almost). he planned their trip knowing that they wouldn’t take it. coffins that lock from the inside.

mets-moi dans mon cercueil. louis. louis!

#i had a LOT of feelings abt how claudia used/included louis in her plan to kill lestat #and now compounded by lestat doing the same................. #also im tipsy and cannot fully comprehend them rn but holy shit #im. insane about this :) #currently watching tag #also still emo about him not hearing their thoughts #bc if he could have. he would know. that louis's job was to simply. Be In Love with lestat #and that. he was #and lestat at least could've genuinely enjoyed that goodbye without ANY second guessing #im either too drunk or not drunk enough for this #thoughts #iwtv

[stinkrascal]

caspian and wolfgang literally own the same fuzzy jacket and they literally have the same middle name (its samuel) you cant tell me theyre not boyfriends

#theyre BOYFRIENDS. they are #theyre not but in my heart they are #sorry anastasia. im sidelining you now #jk i love anastasia so much. i love them all equally theyre my favorites #the best throuple #theyre not a throuple but imagine #anastasia collects emo bfs #emo gfs too. i decided shes not straight. im not gonna do that to her #the strauds are only allowed to have two straight children and its the two i find most boring. lucien and nikolai </3 #except i like lucien a lot more than i like nikolai. nikolai is actually kinda a shithead #lucien is a super sweet and just wants to take care of his shy wife and i adore him for that. hardworking king #nikolai looks at his own girlfriend and hes like Eh. ok i guess. ASSHOLE #i miss straud so much im working on poses right now and im sooooooo excited i drank so much coffee SO MUCH COFFEE #goodbye now i WILL finish these poses TODAY i WILL post straud content SOON. SOON!!!!!!!!

[brine-in-my-eyes]

guys i think my art blog is going through a phase

#my art blog just put on black eye liner and black nail polish and said ''WERE EMO NOW!!!!!!! </33333333'' #i might as well????? i mean like #my aesthetic blog is kind of tis own thing and then my transition into pixel art is another #so i guess this is a good time to experiment or somethin #im not permanently doing pixel art or somethin #but idk i just want something like this #ALSO IM PUTTING MYSELF IN MY ICON!!!!!!!!!!!! #its so weird looking at myself #but i like how me turned out i guess? #just some guy lmao #kinda edgy :P

[shittywriterbrain]

apologies to everyone who has to interact with me today or tomorrow because i just CANNOT be normal about hamlet and i WILL be doing this inside my head

#i have very complex feelings about fangirling over hamlet because like #its the best known play ever i think. like. yeah #like if i said oh my god do you know what makes you beautiful by one direction its so good i cannot be normal about it #but on the other hand. why should i care i should just enjoy this and not imagine that someones judging me the entire time #like yeah i guess for people who are into theater as well its like “basic” but who cares if youre basic yk this whole striving to be specia #is tiring and useless #and also. i could not tell you why i love hamlet. do Not know. i guess bc its drama and gay and emo i think thats why #i have no great theories about it i could not write an essay on hamlets character #i have however made a powerpoint about why hamlet is gay #im just ranting in the tags now i realise #sorry #hope you didnt read through all that #anyway #another one for the void #caspian is obsessed with hamlet

[rottytops]

i guess its like. i can be angry about all the opportunities ADHD cost me OR i can be happy about just how much i accomplished even with my silly wacky gamer brain

#like idk i got to work for my dream company for like 3 years #and live off my art for a while too #and now that im medicated i can do so much more like its only gonna get better #i guess i just wish i wasnt so old when i got medicated but #i was talking to my irl friend and she said everyone moves at their own pace and it working out the way it did was ultimately for the best #i just need 2 pick up the pieces of my life.......... #wahhh im all emo