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generalsmemories · 9 months
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[ Request ] It's a rainy day out.. what do Jing yuan & the reader usually do in this weather?
This could be HCs or a drabble ( Please make it the fluff genre )
Thank you! :) ( LOVE YOUR JING YUAN LAYOUT BTW )
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the pitter patter of the rain
✧ jing yuan x gn!reader
✧ synopsis: under the gentle sound of rain there's only you and jing yuan... along with mimi of course.
✧ content: established relationship & fluff
✧ a/n: guess who absolutely lost it upon hearing this man speak in the special program for 1.2? yes. it was me. so here we are. i bring forth a gentle fluffy piece today. and EEE THANK YOU! THE HEADER ONLY TOOK ME LIKE 20 MINUTES BUT IM GLAD IT'S TO YOUR LIKING ANON !!!
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Jing Yuan loved when the weather in Xianzhou were set to become rainy throughout the entire day. It would mean a certain set of events were more than certainly bound to happen.
He would be able to avoid being at the Divine of Foresight and doing paperwork with easy accesibility for everyone else to come and find him, because no one likes to travel back and forth in the rain.
He could stay home when he negotiaties the terms with both Qingzu and the other commissioners on a set amount of papers he has to look through to further advance the Xianzhou.
He would have your undivided attention (if he manages to shoo both Yanqing and Mimi away) because you too, liked to stay inside when it rained.
And as he expected, the first and second point came to pass without any trouble, but as he slid the door open announcing that he was home, he was met with silence. He was sure that the rain wouldn't stop Yanqing from traveling to the training grounds and continuing to swing his sword, to which was proven true when he noticed that Yanqings' shoes were missing from the entryway. As Jing Yuan ventured further inside the house, he was able to hear the gentle breeze rustle through the curtains, the wind chimes loudly ringing from the added wind from the pouring rain.
And outside laying on the wooden floor of the veranda while gazing out towards the koi pond in the garden were you. You were just out of reach from the splattering raindrops to hit you, but close enough to hear the rain hit the rocks, roof and pond. You were also clearly awake, Jing Yuan could tell by the hand that is threading through Mimi's mane whose head was resting on top of your stomach, while the upper body was covering your lower half like a blanket.
Truly a serene view, but his third point had yet come to pass because you hadn't even greeted him home.
Which meant that your attention was solely on Mimi and the splattering of rain hitting the ground or pond in front of you. But not him.
So with a small chuckle he made his way over to you, "It's quite saddening to be met with silence when I announce my early return home, you know?" Jing Yuan tells you when he's within earshot, you merely turn your gaze away from the pond to stare at him, eyes crinkling as you give him a smile, "Welcome home, Jing Yuan," you say with a grin, "Although I knew you would come home early."
He knew you were already aware of the fact he would return early, so Jing Yuan doesn't comment any further besides setting down the scrolls he took home to read through beside your head. And as if on instinct, you crane your head up from the ground so Jing Yuan's legs can settle on the spot instead. The general merely places a hand beneath your head to ease the strain on your neck while he finds a comfortable position on the ground before he gently places your head back on his thigh. You hum in affirmation, shuffling a tiny bit to get comfortable.
Mimi lets out a growl at your sudden movements, and you stop moving around while letting out a laugh, ruffling her mane quickly before squishing the cheeks together and making the lion look at you, "Sorry Mimi ~ Did I disturb your nap?" you coo softly, Jing Yuan letting out a snort at the use of baby voice. He uses one hand to open up the scrolls besides him while his other hand is busy twirling your bunched up hair by his thigh through various loops around his fingers, "Mimi may have gotten her nap interrupted, but Jing Yuan is lonely," he coos absentmindely, attention still on the scrolls which makes you let out a laugh.
Letting Mimi's head fall back down onto your stomach, you direct your attention back up at the general, who looks away from the contents of the scroll beside him to cock his head to the side, his usual grin still painting his lips. Your arm reaches up to him, to which Jing Yuan is quick to bend his head so that you can pat his head and thread your fingers through his hair, brushing away the bangs that cover his other eye to get a proper look at him.
"Why is our general acting so cute today, hmm?" you wonder out loud, Jing Yuan freeing his fingers from your hair to cup your cheek, thumb caressing your skin softly, you merely turn your head a bit to kiss the inside of his palm, "Because the general hasn't gotten his words of affirmation for his hard work today," he jokes back.
And as Jing Yuan watches your body shake with constrained laughter, his gaze softens. Breathing in the humid air from the rain that's starting to pour down hard - such serene moments with you could truly only be obtainable by the amount of work he has done over the years to keep Xianzhou peaceful.
As mundane as it is, he's somewhat glad that he's put himself in such a mundane routine for the sakes of moments like these.
"There, there, our cute general has done so well today," you praise, ruffling his hair, "What does he want for a reward for his good work, hmm?" you joke, to which Jing Yuan playfully rolls his eyes, only moving his thigh a bit as a signal to make you arch your neck up so he can lean down further and connect your lips.
He truly loved the rainy days onboard the Xianzhou.
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cleostoohot · 2 years
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MY VOID STATE SUCCESS STORY (🦩 anon)
Before I went to bed I played my favorite law of assumption videos just to boost my motivation. Once I was done with that I basically gave my self a pep talk saying why wouldn’t I get in the void, I was made to be successful and have all my desires, if other people can do it then duh I can do it because I am special. I played a meditation by kim velez (seen from another success story) it was a long video so I knew it wasn’t going to cut off. I got into a comfortable position since I knew I wasn’t going to be able to move. I counted to 300 and said affirmations after each number. I can’t remember all but I definitely used ones like the void state is so easy, I get into the void state in 2 minutes, everything is easy for me, I am in the void state already, and more. At some point my hands felt gone in a way. I imagined that feeling spreading throughout my body as I continued affirming and counting. Once that finally happened it really clicked to me that I am actually doing it and that void is real and without a doubt I said the void state is SO easy to enter then that’s when I felt a complete shift and realized I was in. I only said the affirmation I have everything I desire right now then intended to wake up at 8am when I’m ready to get out of void but I low key stayed in longer because it felt so peaceful. Like it’s so unexplainable for me it was such a nice feeling like I wouldn’t mind entering every night just to feel that again. Even if I don’t plan on manifesting things. So on to what I manifested 
🌼 Completely changing my appearance. From head to toe. My desired face was different features from different celebrities so I was nervous about looking weird but I look 10x better than I imagined. For my body I manifested ruby roses body but with bigger tits. I also changed my skin tone to be lighter and even.
🌼 Completely changing my family. I changed their appearance to fit mines so I wouldn’t look adopted or something. Also I changed their personalities so we can finally have a great relationship and lastly I manifested an older brother and little sisters that are twins. I already had enough siblings but I wanted more.
🌼 My boy friend. I used to create scenarios with him in my head to fall asleep and now I fall asleep to him rubbing on my body. I had the biggest crush on him before and thought I’d never have him now he’s all mines and better than ever! I was going to manifest that we already been dating for 2 years but I didn’t know how that was gonna work so I just manifested that we was already dating for a week before I successfully shifted I guess you can say.
🌼 My own car and a new house. It’s not a big ass mansion it’s just a way bigger and cuter house than my last which I love! I got my own bathroom attached to my room and never have to worry about siblings ruining my bathroom again. And I got a car that my parents let me do whatever I want with! I can leave whenever I want, come back whenever I want. I am really living my best life with no rules.
🌼 Being really good in sports. I wanted to be one of those athletic girls so I manifested being super good in basketball, tennis, volleyball, and cheer. 
🌼 Other than those I manifested clothes, money, longer hair, different personality, always smelling so good, and literally so much more. 
I can’t thank you enough cleo 💓 I think I will go back in void tonight but idek what to manifest. Maybe it’ll be a family vacation to somewhere super expensive lol. 
the rubi rose body part made me giggle cus that’s literally the dreammm bod omg😭🙌🏽 IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!! i just know your living it tf up. vacation suggestions- you should go some where in the caribbean’s 🤎🤎
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marchsfreakshow · 2 months
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Poems - The Speck [James Patrick March]
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Drabble //fluffy to all hells
Part 4 to add to the Poems collection. Find the other parts in my masterlist. <3
Yet another poem to add to your collection, and your confidence is through the roof with this poem. You just hoped James felt the same.
Your perspective!
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I was vigorously typing when James appeared back in our room, blood still dripping down his face and clothes. "Darling!" He smiled. It made me jump a little as I looked away from the bright screen.
"Hello." My head cocked to the side slightly as I stared at him. "Not had time to clean up yet mister?" I giggle, putting my laptop down and walking towards the man. He shook his head as he pulled me close. Occasionally, i felt the small drips of blood on my own clothes while we hugged. Not like I cared, I was writing a poem, finally, to get published in a poem competition in the newspaper. Maybe some recognition to the garbles of words I call poems.
"Not yet my dear. Sally told me your news before I could do anything else." A small grin appeared on his face.
"I'm working on the poem right now."
"Can I read it darling?" I nodded in response. "I'll read it out loud yes?"
He started to read the words on the screen outloud as I watched him.
"The speck. It appears again. The white little cloud, floating in my eye. I itch for it. My eye burns. My brain is in love. My heart hurts." Hearing him say the poem outloud made me feel slightly embarrassed, but I just gulped and kept re-reading the poem while James spoke it.
"Oh why must I be so divided? This speck. Why is it important? This piece of dust, that is still in my vision, has no reason to leave. But I blink. And you disappear again. Maybe you'll disappear again. Maybe my brain will fall. Fall to my heart. Bye bye speck. You're nothing special. You're a white cloud."
The meaning of the poem never hit me, until James read it. Thinking about people before James, and how they didn't mean much. He smiled once he finished the poem, and looked from the laptop to my own eyes. The dead stare. Was it a good or bad stare? Whelp "Yeah..?" I asked quietly.
As soon as i spoke, he held me again, bringing me as close as he possibly could be. I took this as a guess that it was a good poem. "You're going to win. And change the world." He whispered to me. It felt like I was frozen as we hugged. Affirmations were never my strong-suit, past and present. Constantly getting put down for what i wrote all the time shattered me.
Despite the negativity that lived in my head, i smiled and kissed James' bloody face. "Thank you James. I really appreciate the positivity."
"You're perfectly wonderous my sweet bird, i have full confidence you will win this competition." He kissed my hand, what a gentleman, and let me go so i headed back to my laptop.
Sighing, i typed, refined and re-read the poem about a million times before it was sent off. A breath of relief let itself out of my mouth, and i shut the laptop, laying down. "Im so proud of you my dear."
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spitinsideme · 1 month
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Damn, your diagnosis was spot on! 😭 You just psychoanalyzed me like some sort of tumblr psychiatrist! I was trying to be purposefully vague about a some stuff, too, but you saw through me like a fucking window and even spotted stuff that was piled up in the back of the closet. It's been so long since it happened, I forgot about the abandonment issues, but yeah, that makes a lot of sense. Touch does give me that physical feel of security. 100% very touched starved for women! I think about it all the time, but don't talk about it because I worry about making people uncomfortable (I had some touch-adverse friends). I'm definitely into more feminine types, like you said! It kind of juxtaposes how I look ig. I like women! Love them even!! Very gay for them!!! I think about them all the time! I appreciate your diagnosis! It's cleared some stuff up for me and given me a lot of positive affirmation! Thank you ☺️
WOOOO FUCKYES LETS FUCKING GO !!!! II FUCKING LOVE PSYXHOANALYSEING PEOPLE I DONT EVEN DO IT ON PURPISE I JSUT NORICE A LOT OF STUFF ABOUT MY FRIENDS BECAUSE I WANT TO MAKE THEM FEEL LOVED AND SHIT AND WOO ITZ IMPROVE MY PSYCHOANALYSING SKILLS.I GUESS !!!!
im so prous of myself righr now like go me i dont even NEED a psychology degree to become a therapist i do this shit on the daily just natural talent and i psyxhoanalysed you too theoigh your love of hands god im so fucking good ...
i am so happy i could helo you !!! somewhat, i guess, i think i juat pointed out soem 5hings that may have fuled your love for hands and feelings but im glas that those things i said helped you understand more about yourself !!!!
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intothecometverse · 6 months
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what (i think) helped me manifest a lot of stuff recently
HI ITS BEEN A WHILE. ANYWAYS, IM IN COLLEGE NOW YIPPEE [insert yippee creature here].
so basically life's been pretty good (whoa look, that's an affirmation there!). I've been chillin. haven't been too busy. and honestly the peace and quiet's been giving me time to like, flush away the negative thoughts I've developed during hs.
AND GUESS WHAT. i've been having more time to focus on my spirituality. and honestly there's been a lot of good things happening that allowed to be happier with my surroundings. and i basically just used those positive thoughts to spiral into more positive thoughts, and boom life is ✨SPOILING✨ me rn.
here's some stuff ive recently manifested:
2 ikea sharks: the big blahaj and the little blahaj :3
kandi bracelets!! (i put on my ig notes that i needed scene clothes n stuff, and the next day my mom texted me telling me to choose the set of kandi beads that i wanted cuz amazon was having a big sale!)
so basically: i focus on positive things in my reality -> im able to have more positive thoughts and therefore manifest more positive things in my reality
i want yall to try this (esp if ur struggling): find something good about ur reality. it can either be something ur really grateful for, people who make u happy, moments that make u happy, n so on and so forth. and just focus on that, and focus on how it makes ur reality the reality u want it to be. from there, u can think about ur desires and feel the same amount of happiness from ur current circumstances. use that positive energy from ur current happy moments and channel it into the mindset that u already have it all. (if u need me to elaborate more plz comment or something it's late and idk if im the best at explaining this lmfao)
anyways i'll be seeing u guys
-star
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xxcherrycherixx · 5 months
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“Blondie, time to get up! We have- are you ok?” Cupid asks concerened
Blondie lays in bed, her face halfway buried under her blanket and her hair a mess from tossing and turning. “I think im sick” cupid raises a brow “ like for real this time? You’re not trying to skip class again??” Blondie tries to nod but the movement comes out weak, cupid feels pity seeing the other girl like this. "well im guessing you're going to have to stay in bed, are you able to look after yourself like this? you need to drink, can you walk to the mini fridge fine?"
blondie tries to get up and ends up on her side with her arm laying limply over the edge of the bed, "no" she grumbles after the failed attempt. cupid hums and places her hands on her hips "well looks like we're both missing school today, im going to be your own personal nurse-" an idea hits her and she gets excited "wait a minute, i have the perfect outfit at home"
cupid enters through the portal mirror against her wall, she had brought a spare with her to easily meet up with her father back home and update him on how things are going. when she first brought it to the dorm room she had sternly warned blondie to stay away from it and thankfully everyone else who visits just thinks its a normal mirror so they don't pay much attention to it. she pops back in to the room a few minutes later in a new outfit.
blondie squints "what are you wearing" cupid gestures to her nurse costume with a flourish "i figured it would be fun to actually dress the part of a nurse! i have had this costume for so long but I've only worn it once, this is the perfect situation to wear it again!" blondie continues to give a skeptical look at the outfit, specifically the short hemline and red hearts replacing the crosses "i don't think nurses dress like that" cupid rolls her eyes "its a sexy nurse costume, i wore it for a Halloween party back when i attended my last school. but i thought it would be funny to wear it while im nursing you back to health" blondie groans once more and lets it go, her head hurting too much to argue.
despite the silly outfit, cupid takes the role seriously. fetching a bottle of water from their small fridge and making sure blondie drinks a sufficient amount of it. she gently lifts the other girl and sets her back into a more comfortable position so blondie can rest, and sits herself on a chair nearby scrolling through her mirrorphone and listening out for when blondie wakes up. a knock drags cupid's attention away from the device, she makes sure blondie is still sleeping soundly and opens the door "hey, i just wanted to ch- what are you wearing" cupid shushes raven and whispers "blondie's sick, shes trying to sleep it off" raven gives her a look " doesn't answer my question but ok" she replies much quieter this time, cupid rolls her eyes "blondie asked the exact same thing, its a nurse costume. i only have a sexy one, ok?"
raven just nods, accepting that this is the situation she has entered. " so blondie is sick and you're playing nurse" cupid give an affirmative nod "what illness has she got? have you given her any medication?" cupid replies unsure "i think its a normal cold, it doesn't seem too bad so i haven't given her anything for it" raven gives her a look " so blondie has a common cold, and you haven't given her a cure yet?" cupid looks lost "cure? there's a cure for colds?"
raven regrets visiting, she explains that the infirmary in the main building of the school has many bottles of it. cupid grows even more confused "we have a infirmary??" raven sighs and heads down to the main buidling to grab the cure, cupid of course stays behind with blondie since her attire isn't exactly appropriate. when raven returns cupid wakes blondie and gives her a spoon full of the liquid, and within five minutes the blonde is back to her usual self. cupid looks to blondie with a pout "why didn't you tell me there's an easy cure" blondie just shrugs "i was going to but then you left and came back in that costume and started pampering me, why would i want to go to class instead?" cupid "aww"s at the confession and raven decides she really doesn't want to be here anymore "right, you guys are fine, im gonna head back to class" neither girl notices, too busy focusing on each other.
the next morning blondie goes to wake cupid up, and discovers the girl has caught the cold "i guess it was the close proximity to you" cupid weakly explains, blondie sighs "i guess you want me to wear the costume?" cupid excitedly nods, not seeming very sick "yes please"
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astroluvr · 2 years
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Teen dad jack talking to his girlfriends baby bump?
thanks for your request! im writing this as a part of the noah storyline!
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"You know, according to a bunch of websites, he can hear us now." you informed Jack who was sitting at the foot of the bed scribbling in his song book.
"For real? Couldn't he hear us all before?"
"No, his hearing wasn't fully developed back then. It is now, though. We should talk to him and try and get him used to our voices."
Jack hummed before dropping the notebook to the floor and crawling up the bed. He smiled when he settled between your legs and rested his chin against your stomach.
"He can hear me now?"
"Loud and clear." you affirmed and Jack scrunched his nose.
"I don't know, it feels weird. Anything I say and do can have an effect on him already."
"It's cool, isn't it?"
"It's fucking terrifying, baby." he breathed out and your face softened in understanding. "He can hear everyone say how hard it's going to be for us. How you're not going to finish school and my rap career won't take off. My son doesn't need to hear that."
"We'll never be able to protect him from all of that, Jack. We just have to start projecting positivity now, so he doesn't give a fuck about the negativity later."
"You're right." Jack agreed, kissing the hand you had over your bump. "Give us a minute, alright?"
"I'll listen to my podcast." you giggled, preparing to play it as Jack prepared to speak.
"Okay, son. It's just me and you now, I guess. Well, your mom is here, but we'll just have to get used to that." he looked at you to make sure you weren't listening and was satisfied when your eyes were shut.
"Anyway, me and your mom went to look for a new home and I can't wait to bring you home to it. You're going to love it. You'll have the biggest crib and marble countertops. Way more room than this belly."
Jack chuckled to himself and rubbed his hands against your belly. Your eyes fluttered open and Jack just shook his head to say that you could return to your half asleep state. He smiled softly when you ran a hand against his head before scooting down the bed for comfort.
"I have a lot to do before you get here, baby boy, and a lot to do after." Jack admitted softly as he drew little shapes on your stomach. "But I'm going to do it for you and your mama and all the little ones that come after you because I love my family more than anything, bubba."
There was a particularly hard thump against your stomach that Jack could even see. Your eyes flew open and Jack chuckled before rubbing your side.
"Go to bed."
"You're riling him up, J." you said softly and Jack smiled.
"Almost done." he promised and you nodded before shutting your eyes again. "You wanna play soccer like your daddy, don't you?"
In return there was another softer kick that made him grin.
"Yeah, I'll teach you. Soon as you can walk, we're going to get some New Balances on your feet and have you out in the yard. I'll make sure of it."
Jack stared at your bump for a moment before back up at you. He saw that you had a soft smile and your earbuds were out. "I know I'm not supposed to be listening."
"It's okay." Jack said before kissing your belly button and moving up the bed next to you.
You turned to face him and slowly slid his glasses off of his face to put on the nightstand. "If you want him to play soccer, you better hope he doesn't have your vision."
"Hater." he whispered and you kissed his nose. "I'm going to talk to him every night. Even after he's born, I can't wait to talk to him and hold him at the same time."
"Yeah? What about when he's too big to hold?" you mused and Jack pulled you into his arms.
"He'll never be too big for his dad. Because I'm always going to remember him like this- a little bump between you and me."
"You're going to be an amazing father, Jack. I know you're doubting yourself a little because of our situation, but he won't miss a thing."
"Thank you, baby." he took a deep breath and kissed the crown of your head. "You know tomorrow, I think I'm going to get some books so we can read to him. Or maybe I'll get headphones and have him listen to my songs. Not the ones about ass and all that, though. Shouldn't learn about that through my music. You know what I mean, Y/N?"
Upon looking down at you, your mouth was hung slightly open to signify the deep sleep you'd been waiting on. Usually, Jack would've woken you up, but instead he shifted down the bed and met with your stomach.
"Are you up, little man?" he felt around for a kick and smiled when he received it. "Okay, good. How about for tonight's story, we do the first time I met your goody-two-shoes mama?"
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gaiaexploreslife · 5 months
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hogwarts x eternals dr!! —☆
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song to play while reading! —> ☆
name: Gaia Nymphaea
nicknames: M (“em”)
house: slytherin
height: 161.3 cm / 5’3.5 ft
best subject/worst subject: unknown as of now because I’m a transfer student.
but over the summer before the year started, I was taught basics of stuff I need to know
knowing me, I’ll probably be naturally good at anything that relies on intuition. As for precision… uh good luck to anyone next to me
ethnicity: white british and a little lebanese
(I have american accent tho cause I’m not actually british irl LMAO)
extra abilities: healing (ajak’s powers, though I got them very recently so I’m still figuring out how to use them)(more on that later), occlumency, and I sometimes get prophetic dreams (or dreams that give advice/wisdom/show me things I need to be aware of BUT ONLY VERY RARELY)
friends: @cosmicswan !!<33 the rest I’ll leave up to fate! (I kinda wanna be friends with the Weasley twins but they kinda scare me BWHAKSH)
family history: ~unknown~ for the most part MWEHEH
I think Imma make it so that I have wizard ancestors that were somewhat among the more prominent lines in the wizarding world, but somehow they ended up moving to America and they hid the wizarding world from their children (so they grew up as “muggles” without knowing of the wizarding world)
my backstory: ~unknown~ tehehe
basically I lost most of my memory after I almost got the life sucked outta me by a deviant one day when I was like 16
Ajak was there and healed me and kinda nursed me back to being okay. since I have wizarding blood and my magic was suppressed, when Ajak used her powers on the open wound from the deviant, my body absorbed/duplicated them. so yeah now I have healing powers too :3
since that I’ve just been vibing thru life having fun cause the eternals kinda adopted me since that
cause like I was left alone and without memory cause of that so I mean they felt bad just leaving me I guess 💀
(cause my bio family and anyone who knew me previously somehow had their memories wiped of me)
I mean I say adopted but basically maybe it’s like they take turns looking after me and teaching me things (like every few months I move to wherever a different eternal lives and they look after me for a few months then on to the next) (tho I’ve stayed with Sersi and Sprite in London the most)
OKAY THEN after like 2 years of that
they were like aye u should go to Hogwarts cause u got some magical skills SOOO I get to be a 4th year transfer student!
genetically inherited characteristics: uh no magic ones I can think of besides wizarding blood.
but for the characteristics from my CR I’ll keep: Tourette syndrome (I also have depression but I’m scripting that out cause :D)
- <3 -
— okie u can skip this next section if u want —
- ☕️ -
few of my characteristics: (more like a LOT of them actually 💀)
(this applies to my CR too so I guess this is also a get-to-know-me :3)
- very shy and quiet, tho when I’m sleepy or comfortable around someone I can be pretty talkative/bubbly and I’m VERY observant
- my love language is quality time (the second one would be words of affirmation)
- Im very positive + I see silver lining even in the WORST of times. I rarely get upset and I love spontaneity. I giggle and smile a lot, I’ve been told my eyes are super expressive
- I LOVE FOOD and sweets (chocolate specifically), I’m a very fast eater (but I’m allergic to peanuts/tree nuts. and bananas for some reason)
-I don’t cry easily, instead when I’m sad or stressed I get INSANELY sleepy and tend to go off on my own and nap
- I’ve been described by people as soft spoken.
- tho if someone’s a shitty person I get very cold cause >:) I’m not about that
- I mind my own business, even with friends. I dislike and stay away from shallow minded people. I’m literally just vibing and like to do my own thing. I hate when people are judgey towards others
- AND I HATE gossip. if I hear someone being judgey for no good reason BOOM they’re on my “stay away from” list >:D
- I’m usually off in my own world
- I also love dressing however I want/making cute outfits! I love my jewelry that I’ve collected over the years. they all have personal meanings <3
that’s all for now ^o^ sorry this was a LONG post
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queenofcoquette · 1 year
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Hellooo! I wanna ask something. If it's okay? I have loads of questions so please excuse me, I have loads of things going on rn and I'm just a mess... how do I get back my life together? Like genuinely how can I find myself? How can I love myself? How can I find my aesthetic? How to save money? How to find my vibe? How to find your archetype and how to find your attachment style? I'm really sorry if that's a lot. I'm lost. Hope you're having a great day! Take care of yourself! </3
ofc its okay! since there are a lot of questions i might not be able to give the most in-depth answers, but i'll try to get right to the point <3
getting your life back together: it starts with little steps, and knowing what you want to achieve.
self-reflect more often
work on your weaknesses
write down the habits you want to get rid off
write down the habits/hobbies you want in your life
begin to slowly incorporate these healthier habits (consistency always goes further than intensity)
finding yourself: this one is probably the hardest since you never really find yourself per say, you're always changing and evolving, so it's sort of like a journey
visualize your ideal lifestyle
connect to old hobbies/try out new hobbies and find a passion
create a moodboard to find what appeals to you
work on building healthier habits
loving yourself: this is enough tough one, and breaking through the levels of self-hatred can take a while. so work on identifying thoughts and correcting thoughts
think- what do you not like about yourself?
what are your insecurities and why?
when you have self-hating thoughts, identify it and stop the train of thought
begin to say positive affirmations, even if you don't believe them at first
find self love accounts
stop making self depricating jokes/comments
aesthetics: finding an aesthetic is another thing that changes a lot. like two years ago my style was way different than now, because styles always evolve and change.
find style inspo (i use Pinterest to make moodboards)
find people who's style you look up to
combine styles and aesthetics, you don't need to stick to one
saving money:
seperate wants from needs- do you really need what you feel like buying?
i also have a tendency to impulse buy (which im working on) so think and reflect before spending
set saving goals
finding your vibe: i think this one connects to aesthetics, but i'll focus on like your overall vibe, like your style, your lifestyle, personality, etc.
find people you look up to/ traits in people you look up to
think about healthy habits you want in your life
begin to explore different hobbies to add into your life
think about your goals and how you're going to achieve them
your dream you is inside of you, so wake up each day and show up as them
finding your archetype: this is a question i'm not too sure how to answer, since i just found out what this was after your question lol. for this i found some personality tests and psychology tests, so i hope those help! i don't know much about this topic but i guess read about the different archetypes and think about which one you identify with.
attachment styles: this is another topic im not too sure about, im so sorry! i guess my advice would be to research the four types, and see which one you identify with in your relationships, and how you act.
sorry that i wasn't too aware of some of these topics! in the future i'll try to make longer pins adressing these topics more in depth. in the mean time you're more than free to dm me about any questions. i hope u all are doing amazing, sending positive energy and all of my love :)
-a <3
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lost-my-sanity1 · 1 year
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gun holding in his tears.
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gun going out of his way to say he's when tinn didn't even ask about that. gun is trying to tell that to himself here. he's had it so rough for the last few days, constant worries, failures, and he's gone thru all of those with a smile in his face (or maybe not we don't know about that) but infront if tinn he's just trying to hold it inside. he knows himself that he's gonna breakdown any moment. he is trying to calm himself saying it's okay I'll practice.
self doubt clouding his judgment and mind but he's still trying to come off as a positive guy. "im not good enough for this industry" and "What if next year there's someone better again?" immediately followed by positive affirmations "I'll practice for next year" but his voice breaking in the middle of saying that and hus face crumpling with sadness gave him away. he knows that the breakdown is inevitable now so he tries to leave as fast as possible.
so when tinn pulls him back to prevent the accident, gun doesn't even look up once. he's already crying by then. "you're safe" "it's okay" these made him cry harder I guess.
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gardeniaphobia · 1 year
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The "Ultra-Wormhole" Method
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(This is my first real post on Tumblr omg *screams* I got this idea at 3am while thinking about how much I miss Pokémon USUM and I really wanted to share it with y'all because I tried it and guess what? I ALMOST SHIFTED 😨)
(Gamefreak if you're reading this, pls make an USUM remake on switch IM BEGGING)
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• turn on any music you want or a subliminal (i would recommend to listen to the ultra-wormhole theme)
• lay down comfortably (any position is fine!), close your eyes and start to relax.
• when you'll be relaxed, visualize yourself entering the ultra-wormhole and trying to search for the portal that will lead you to your DR on Solgaleo/Lunala's back (for those who don't remember what it looked like, click here)
• everytime you'll hit one of those orange energy bubbles in the tunnel, say an affirmation (e.g.: i am shifting, i do not belong to any reality, etc.) Do this until you feel like you're close to your portal/DR.
• when you'll be near your portal, you should start feeling like your body is getting sucked up (dw if you don't, it's totally okay!)
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That was all :) GO SHIFT NOW YOU CAN DO IT!!!
- Gardenia ♡
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azure0112 · 9 months
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Manifestation idea: Lets say you want to change your life with new beings in it, some at your responsability like animals and plants and others in your life such as a new community, environment, friends (and what you can call your family). With your current circumstances, you cant, there is no (healthy) space for that. How do you change, in order to align everything perfectly, as they need you, you need them, and you all are meant to be together?
hmmm
so I'm assuming the question asks me how I'd affirm to add plants/animals and also new people into my life if my circumstances aren't in my favour. (please comment if this isn't what you meant and elaborate on what you actually meant 😭🙏)
Before i begin, here i assume i have perfect self concept and 0 limiting beliefs, and have mastered law of assumption and hence have full power to change any aspect of my life.
and as an extra note, whenever i affirm, i will probably also affirm that my manifestations come fast, i have a good mindset, i can ignore the 3D, i have no negative consequences for my actions, everything goes my way eithtiut affirming too, etc. cuz i feel like these add-ons are quite good during manifesting, cuz even if you didn't affirm for something, you'll still get it (affirming for good stuff i mean)
and of course, tons of safeguard affirmations. I don't mean this for self promotion but honestly safeguard affirmations are so handy for not letting your manifestations get ruined 😭😭 so sorry if it seems like im talking abt it too much.
as for adding plants/animals:
well I'd change 3 main things i guess
changing the environment around me
changing the opinion of the people around me into positive ones
and then at last i actually manifest the animals and plants
cuz in the end, animals and plants are also living, breathing organisms that need a proper environment to raise them well. so I'd mostly focus on either adding something to my existing environment which makes it ideal for growing plants/animals or just change to a new environment. of course, the people around me must also be open to the new addition, so I'd affirm for that too.
And just for an extra safeguard, i would affirm for good health of the plant/animal, affirming that i take good care of them, and also affirm that there are good vets and pet shops nearby (in the case of animals) and that i have enough resources at home to take care of the plants/animals.
all of these are pretty specific, but really in the end, no matter your circumstances, you can get anything you want. I can be living in a hut in a rural area rn and i could transfer to an amzing city with a house in a thriving locality with a pet-friendly and plant-friendly(?) house.
as for community/friends/family I'll mostly focus on shifting houses or schools or maybe even cities/countries.
given that my current circumstances are very contradictory to my ideal circumstance, I'd prefer to change one aspect after another and slowly see my life change for the better just for that slow burn satisfaction lmao
(specifically said slow change here because if you wanted, you could just affirm to wake up in your brand new reality with everything already in place.)
if it's changing schools, i would affirm for:
overall good/safe atmosphere at school
good classmates (personality-wise)
good-looking classmates too (if you want haha)
no social anxiety
no bullies
ideal level of popularity
ideal friends who are a good influence
ideal social events (not always necessary, but it makes the process of meeting new people easier)
fun days at school, no boring ones.
And as an addition, just in case
good teachers (so that i don't get in trouble much)
good grades (again for not getting in trouble)
immunity to bad influence (dr*gs, v*ping, etc)
lenient parents/guardian/whoever you live with
If it's a new community, then I'd say getting into clubs/classes/ a new neighborhood (basically moving houses) would be a good start.
aff ideas:
safe, open, loving community (here community refers to all the examples i mentioned)
your new community gets along with you and everyone you know well (to avoid any sort of disputes that may happen in the future)
easily able to talk/create friendships
meet ideal type of people (values, likes, dislikes, etc)
cultivate ideal skills/talents in new community (in case of club/class)
ability to easily make friends
meeting the people in your class/club even outside the class/club (like hanging out together and stuff. basically not limiting your interactions to only within the club or class)
ideal social events (for the fun and ofc meeting new people and getting closer to the ones you already know)
if you're with your family/friends whose mindset contrasts yours, you can also manifest a positive mindset change for them so that they also add to the good atmosphere you'llhave in your new surroundings, and won't cause any disruptions(for those who think its not possible, it is)
as for getting closer to family, we can affirm for
family living close by
easily able to talk to family and share your thoughts, worries, everything.
good relations within family
solving of all family disputes
cool/not orthodox/ not strict or boring relatices
relatives your age
relatives with similar interests
good bonds with family
meeting people of your family often
going out with family (can even include going abroad)
and so on
and for everything, you can use blanket affirmations like having long-lasting positive relations, long healthy life for your family/friends/plants/animals etc.
so yeah i really hope this answered your question 😭🙏
this is the first time I've ever answered a question here on tumblr and i hope my answer is up to your expectations 😭😭
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hawkinsp0st · 2 years
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Hey bestie (can I call you that?) have you ever been through the anti-byler tag, not the like mikhail posts or anything, but actual anti-byler stuff? what did you think? it made me rather sad :( like i get we can be really opinionated but that doesn't make us delusional or obsessed
you guys are all my besties so yes ofc <3
first of all, im so sorry to hear it made you sad! be sure to look after yourself <3 watch something happy, spend time w friends/fam/pets, read some fluff, hang out in the byler tag and post some memes with us :-)
yes omg…….i went in it once like a month ago……..honestly, the arguments lacked compassion and were also weak af just narratively, the vibes were really annoying and bad so i forgot most of what i saw LOL !!
the main thing i saw was that 1. bylers are misogynistic towards el, 2. bylers are making something out of nothing essentially, and 3. that it’s unhealthy for will to be so attached to mike and he needs to move on.
i laughed so hard at these arguments when i saw them bc i’m a walking contradiction of all 3:
1. i didn’t give af about byler till s4v2, because literally all i cared about was el and nancy and max and joyce……i adore the female characters on this show w my entire soul……….so bylers being misogynistic? my lie detector test determined that was a lie !
2. i didn’t even know byler was a ship that existed till s4, and the only reason i noticed it was bc while watching s4, mike and will had several romantic moments LOL……the duffers byler’d me! i wasn’t searching for an mlm ship and grasping at straws just to make that happen, which is what a lot of antis seem to think we’re doing (aaand the tone with which they express that is often homophobic/condescending).
3. before i was a critical thinker i kinda agreed with this i guess?………but then i rewatched s1&2, and watched the van scene & milk monologue. so basically, i’m convinced antis just do not watch the show. mike’s love for will is already life affirming as it stands, even pre requited feelings—“you make (me) feel like i’m better for being different.” aka mike literally makes will feel okay about being different and being gay when no one else in the show has made him feel that way outside of joyce & jonathan. that’s amazing, and i’d argue that mike has an overwhelmingly positive effect on will 24/7 (except during their fights). he defends him against homophobic bullies in s1 even when he’s not around. he never leaves his side in s2. even in s3, once he learns the mindflayer is back, he drops everything and becomes the Party leader again all bc he trusted what will told him. and in s4, we find out that he makes will feel good about being different. please lmk what’s unhealthy about that.
sorry this is so long, but in conclusion: you’re correct, we are not delusional or obsessed. we are just enjoyers, and smart watchers, of media :-) much love my dear !!!!! <3
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Did he fall in "love at first sight" w u? U said he liked u when u first met. Was it personality or looks
uhh yeah i guess it was looks first and then he kept talking to me and he liked my personality more and more. i ask him if he still loves my personality and he says yes even tho im weird. i ask if he thinks im pretty and he says yes
we js haven’t been able to match up our love languages. his is quality time and mine is words of affirmation and physical touch. 
we can’t touch as much bc we js go to a school that was always on our ass abt touching each other and that also kinda led to the downfall of things. he also just doesn’t talk much as he used to. he’s not in school rn so he’s at home w his dog doing nothing but playing games and then ill text him and sometimes he’ll come see me and then other times it’s js meh
he doesn’t say as much as he used to. he doesn’t pretend to love me though. i js think he’s a quieter person in general bc when he’s having a particularly extra good day, he’s more affectionate with me and he always likes to tell me stuff and he’s kind of stupid at times.
i think his way of showing me love is by tickling my throat at random times, slapping the back of my head with an empty sleeve and then biting my cheeks and my nose. instead of kissing me, he’ll js lick my whole face and i found this behavior annoying instead until i figured that’s js his way of showing love … and i love him so im not gonna sit here and complain if he wants to bite my nose a million times
he doesn’t even do it with his teeth 💀 he’ll cover his teeth with his lips and then bite my face so he doesn’t hurt me
he thought he poked my eye on accident yesterday and he immediately apologized and held my face and expected my eye to make sure i was okay and then kissed (licked) my eye after.
i asked this loser if he would peel an orange for me and he’s like “hell no” and then the next day, he posts this,
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he has 47 pairs of crocs btw. i asked him for flowers and he ordered me yellow tulips and im positive he was getting ripped off bc he refuses to tell me how much he spent on them but a few days ago he found out that tulips aren’t my favorite so last night he apologized for not having my valentine’s day flowers and that he feels terrible and stupid
and he works in the floral dept at work so i was like “babe it’s okay, you make bouquets at work. i think i would love one that you make” but he’s js too nervous and critical of himself
and then he kept whining about how he felt like such an idiot when some guy came and bought the last set of hydrangeas and he had to keep a straight face the whole time 💔 bc he now knew those were my favorite
yesterday he said “i just want you to be happy and not be angry. you’re always angry” and he has a point. i am usually always angry… that’s kind of my default mood and if he does something, i get really annoyed.
i think i put a lot of pressure on him as well and i explode a lot when i get excited…
i think we’re just grumpy at times. yesterday he was like “we’re like an old miserable couple” and i was like “except we’re not old. we’re js miserable”
and then he sulked and pouted the whole time and i did too and the poor guy in the elevator suffered with us
but despite all of this, he always treats me like the most fragile thing ever. he’s always too scared to be to rough. his hands always hold me softly and he wipes away my tears with his thumb and he kisses my forehead every chance he gets.
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💜 Journal
18 June 2023
Introduction
I really want to start using this account for my pleasure. I mean, it’s already for my pleasure, but I’m always bogged down by worries that my posts are macabre or just overall unsexy. So! To try and break that vibe of “I don’t feel worthy enough for the space I made for myself”, I’ve decided to make this! Every time I have a notable sex experience, I’ll note it here, maybe with a tag, maybe with a reblog. If not to be more comfortable with the idea to express myself, then to hopefully get myself hot and bothered again jandjckslkcns
I guess with that out of the way…
Today’s intrigue! Soundgasm: revisited
So I’d only tried Soundgasm two times at this point, both were from following rabbit holes on Tumblr, haha. They were an odd mixture of hot and laughable. I think I even posted about the first time I’d used the website and was directed to some dude narrating like he was a soccer player? I didn’t mean to yuck anyone’s yum; I was just amazed that soccer could be someone’s yum.
For additional context, I’ve been struggling a lot with gender recently. Well, “recently” is better defined as “an ongoing backburner struggle I also don’t want to bother people with”. Point is supposed to be that masculine affirmation really…gets me, you know? As in, being affirmed as masculine, not necessarily someone masculine affirming me— ok, you know what?
Heart of the matter is despite my self doubt and loathing, I listened to this audio; it’s a transmasc JOI. And it?? Was so fucking good?????? God I’ve been thinking about it all day; what a wonderful fuck it was. It definitely helped that I’d used my toy during (even though it wasn’t part of the instructions, oops). But hhhhhhh ok ok lemme ramble about this
Spoilers ahead I guess?
I’m not really a masochist but there was a part where he told me to slap my cock and MHHNNNNNNNNNNNNJESUS FUCK I’d never felt so pathetic but soooooooo good. I think I straight up started WHIMPERING dear lord
Oh god or when he asked me to pretend like I was fucking someone and then he mocked me for looking so desperate?????????!?? Degradation is usually so bad for me but this just made me so hazy and dizzy and!!!!! I swear if I had a tail it’d be fuckin WAGGING right now
OH GOD OR WHEN HE FUCJED WITH TIME GODDDDGSHSGDHDHSJLSA SO there was like a 10 second countdown but he kept filling it with filler words or rushing the numbers and hhhhhhhhhnnn I couldn’t help but be so obedient and wait so patiently
OH OH IH!! AND!!!!! A really big part of me using the toy was that it’s um…. ///// a toy I basically made myself ….. it’s just a thick Sharpie and makeup brush wrapped together with medical tape and topped off with a new condom per use (thank god I go to a sex-positive college that basically throws condoms at students). I’m really really embarrassed about it because it’s kind of my baby but when I told my friend about it, they (lovingly yet really embarrassingly) pitied me and it UGH IM RAMBLING AGAIN HOKY FUCK The point is that this thing was embarrassingly big the first time for me but this time it slid in like a CHAMP and it wasn’t like it hit certain buttons right, but overall every moment just felt like heaven???? It only burned for the first few minutes this time (just like in the fanfics!! Ugh, it’s downright horrific that that’s where a majority of my sex education comes from), and I used a lot of lube to help it (because I actually got enough lube this time 🥲)!!!!!! I was really dumb and didn’t stock up on condoms and lube before school let out and I’m distraught because that means I can only really use my baby like… two more times and then I’ll be in a dry spell. But it’s like now that I’ve gone in I don’t think I can go back but I’ll have to and uGHHHHHHHHHHH but it’s probably good that I don’t use it a lot because it tends to leave me like…this, hahahaha. Like all still horny about it hours later
I forgot what I was talking about….god I want to listen to that audio again. I want to feel like that again. It was so good. Fuck.
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You are the main character of your life
i am feeling more and more confident everyday the work ive been doing on myself i can literally see in other people i am learning to not let other affect my light as much because if i can them uncomfortable they can fuck right off they do not need to be in my energy i am feel more comfortable in speaking my mind being more present and aware. Starting to meditate atleast once a day for 10 minds. Practicing gratitude and Journaling along with self love affirmations in the morning and working on my tarot when i have the time its still alot to fit into one day i also want to start going for walks its just so hard to fit everything i have created a positive playlist who knew so many things were wrong in my like i guess i really just loved the pain but i didnt realise that pain attracted all the wrong things and now here i am trying to let go of that energy and its slowly working ive also started working on my sacral chakra which hopefully will help me release my negativity on intimacy and help me eat more i have started getting more of an appetite then before also cooking now seems more fun as i look at it as if im creating something even tho not all of it goes into my stomach but its still a start it is helping me enjoy life more this journey is starting to get more fun i cant believe i was just sitting around and wallowing in my depression thinking ill just get out of it one day i just realised i didnt like the way others were percieving me that really nudjed me hard to make a difference espeacially in the environment that i work in they think im competitive no maam i just simply focus on myself yall are the fuckin problem loooool i just do my own thing & i fuckin love it and their starting to notice but i could care less cause everytime some craves my acknowledgement i just focus the attention back on myself & loving myself first & then the other person im learning to put myself first and then others because you are the main character in your life god damnnnnn.. Thank you Jesus. Thank you spirit guides who knew i never needed anyone else just me my self and i & my team<3.
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