#i had to start somewhere

[rat-presenting]

You ever just wake up from an incredibly graphic and realistic nightmare that was a pure psychological horror based on your own personal phobias and trauma and just roll over like “aw shit I got too hot last night I guess.” And then make toast like you didn’t just experience the nine circles of hell before 9 am

#textpost #I am not a morning person I never have been my sleep schedule is 11 pm to 11 am and. man #usually I wake up somewhere in there and fall back asleep whicu is when the nightmares start #it’s been awhile since I had one of those nightmares too I was starting to think I’d grown out of that but. no

[ruporas]

cheers to the future of humanity (and the future of us)

[ID: Digital illustration in color of Vash and Wolfwood from Trigun. The illustration takes place during the ship/home arc, specifically chapter 21. At the center, Vash is grabbing Wolfwood by the collar and pulls him into a kiss in the middle of a celebration. The pair is colored in vibrant warm hues while their surroundings are colored in cooler colors like green and teals. Luida, Brad, Meryl, and Milly are shown amongst the crowd, occupied in the celebrations as Vash and Wolfwood share a moment by themselves at the center. END ID]

#vashwood #trigun #trigun maximum #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #hospital yuri (explodeds) like any average vw enjoyer i will never get over that arc #specifically the scene where they heard the news of earth ships coming and did that little handshake they somehow conjured or #Had already. and then the entire ship had a party... meryl and milly started drinking immediately from joy and dragged vash and ww to get #wasted too and overall celebrate together. the chapter moves quickly just like how the hope was quickly withered out and died just hours #later when knives destroyed it. BUT IM JUST THINKING ABOUT IN THE MOMENT OF IT ALL bc in the same chapter #ww asks for a chance for tomorrow and then gets news of earth ships coming. in this same arc vash is thinking of all the things he needs to #resolve so his home doesn't get attacked so the people he love doesn't have to die and the humans he wants to protect gets to live. #i feel like deep down they both semi-recognize that it can't be this easy and regardless of earth ships coming- there's still a wait for #them to arrive and they have to hold out. and regardless ww still has a mission to follow through and vash knows knives would find out #but in that mood of celebration the entire ship brought in - they can at least let themselves relax for a moment and indulge #how they basically engaged with no violence for the few days they were on that ship coaxing them into domesticity... i feel like their #thoughts would wander to somewhere soft and all #allowing them to push aside the tiptoeing and tenseness and be sweet for a night #ruporas art

[chromaherder]

You know they’re never going to let him live it down

#byler #bylerweek2023 #byler fanart #stranger things #this was good fun i had fun #this started as a leyendecker study how did we end up with a 7pg comic #max and el are there somewhere in the room giving mike a hard time (affectionate) #i'm not much of a fanfic writer but gotta practice somehow ahuehe #fanart

[coolnonsenseworld]

❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

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I'm catching up with comms so in the meantime here is a page from KF 2022 PDF, which I drew to substitute for a NSFW post!

I hope you will have a great Monday <3

52 weeks of KICK Fridays - what is it?

It's 3 PDFs made out of my Patreon content where I published Klance each Friday (Kick Fridays) since 2020. You can buy them by lowest price Patreons could pay each year to see it (1/month) on my shop (payhip.com/mezzy). I publish something for each sold PDF 💞

#klance #laith #hi tumblr! #ughhh i ckecked out my folders and ive seen so many cute art i feel like o javent shared or #am reluctant to share because its unfinished #SO MANY its a struggle #thinking posting maybe just pilesnof doodles #though that poses a threat to a structure i had of trying my best to actually finish arr but #maybe there is an equilibrium in it somewhere #anyway let me know if we enjoy content or tag the year #if someone mentions renesAINcE im going to start spamming you with old art reblogs #😆 #its already tuesdsy when im posting btw #but draft has been done on monday so we are going with it #no one will know

[starwarjotta]

this is absolutely what happened in episode 2 of the Bad Batch season 2. yup.

#tbb spoilers #tbb s2 spoilers #captain wilco #had to draw that screenshot of wilco #I love all the clones #I hate when they introduce new clones and then immediately get rid of them like #I want them all to just go and start a clone rebellion together #long live the clones! #I refuse to believe wilco is dead #he's somewhere with rex and co starting a rebellion #star wars #the bad batch

[emylilas]

The Wheel of Time, S2, Aes Sedai of the Whiter Tower

#the wheel of time #wot s2 #siuan sanche #liandrin guirale #ryma sedai #moiraine damodred #leane sharif #verin sedai #rip maigan whose tag doesn't even appear #alanna mosvani #alanna was hell to make #I'm not entirely satisfied with this but it needs to be done so I can move on to other things #first WOT gifs had to start somewhere! #wotedit

[fruitsofhell]

I used to be one of those guys when I first joined the Kirby fandom, but everytime I hear a discussion of the series writing that starts with "So the Lore is InSaNe-" and not like, "Kirby has a fun writing style that takes advantage of its cute exterior to tell cool stories that reward player's curiosity and leave lots of room for imagination-" I cringe so goddamn hard.

I kinda just hate that people approach things that encourage investment when they don't expect it as inherently absurd. Like it is fun to joke about how absurd Kirby lore can be, but it really often comes with an air of disrespect or exhaustion rather than like, appreciation that these games are made by people who want to tell interesting stories when they could easily make as much money just making polished enough fluffy kiddy platformers. And when it's not met with exhaustion, it's met with - like I said before - that tone that it's stupid for a series like this TO have devs who care about writing stuff for it. Which is a whole other thing about people not respecting things made to appeal to kiddie aesthetic or tone.

Maybe the state of low-stakes YouTube video essays just blows cause people play up ignorance and disbelief for engagement, but like I STG I hear people use this tone for like actual narrative based games sometimes. Some people don't like... appreciate when a game is made by people who care a shitton in ways that aren't direct gameplay feedback. And they especially don't appreciate it when it comes from something with any sense of tonal dissonance intentional or not.

Anyways, I love games made by insane people. I love games made by teams who feel like they wanna make something work or say something so bad. I love that energy, especially when invested into something that could easily rest on its laurels or which obviously won't be taken seriously. I love this in a lot of classic campy 2000s games, I love this in insanely niche yet passionate fanworks, and I love it in the Kirby series and its writing. Can we please stop talking about it like it's an annoyance or complete joke?

#shut the heck up #kirby #kirby lore #fandom #midnight rambles #im quite talkative today cause my rambling bestie is busy #im also bitter cause im too burnt out to make the things i want to properly express my adoration for this series #but i can waffle about it ig #ive been relying on prose and essay ro express myself a lot in leiu of my usual creative outlets... #i always wanted to make a video edsay series about kirby lore with this expressed ethos #maybe i should just start with essay-essays somewhere #still need to replay all the games for that first though #more streams coming up eventually i swear #tag talking #i read a cool analytical article today that had the same tone as a video essay and i was like 'ah thats the origin of the essay part' #so now i wanna explore that world more of article game and media journalism and such

[kugisakiss]

i know i said i didn't have the time to draw but i've also been slacking off during work hours to redraw memes

#detective conan #dcmk #m23 spoilers? #started off with just kid then i decided to do a conan one and then obvsly i had to have them both together right? #m23 was so funny for this #makoto doing some inhuman shit down there somewhere #my art

[zarla-s]

[previous] [next]

So much stuff to work through! It’s a long process, but at least they have each other for support. Been a while since dream sharing has come up!

I figure they brought the bed up from their old house but haven’t gotten around to putting in the carpet, haha.

[index] [patreon] [comicfury]

#undertale #handplates #sans #papyrus #z art #z comic #i forgot papyrus had gloves on for this until i started coloring #had to go back and edit them in UGH #i should be asleep and instead i'm drawing maudlin comics about font skeletons gdit what is my life #the hot air balloon dream i came up with much earlier but never had a chance to put somewhere until now #somewhere gaster sneezes so hard he bonks his head on the table and knocks himself out for a few seconds

[fourteenthz]

VIERAPRIL 15 - SPARK

In the end all I hope for is to be a bit of warmth for you When there's not a lot of warmth left.

#wall of post sorry. crying too much to care rn. #viera ffxiv #vierapril #vierapril 2024 #ffxiv oc #ffxiv viera #wol posting #6.0 spoilers #hydaelyn #pls click the link listen to the most venat + wol song ever. #i've been meaning to use it somewhere and i'll probably use it again but i just couldn't skip it this time #as much as it sounds like venat i hear the wol's voice in it tbh... since hydaelyn has been 'dying' for a little while #so when the one thing you believe the most gives you everything you must try search everywhere to give something back #and then i like to imagine thesa settle for this. maybe she can't do much besides do hydaelyn's will but she hopes this brings her somethin #warmth. if you will. this song is one of the most thesa songs ever bc its just someone keeping herself busy and trying to be useful #the setting fire to your your own hair part IS SOOO HER. #and when the chorus comes with 'promise me you will start were I end' is SO hydaelyn's voice coded. literally venat core. #and thesa answering with 'yeah. i will. and in the end i hope I was something more to you too. some comfort' YOU GET ME????? #they love each other so very much. that's her mother guys. #i like to translate how /i/ never doubted hydaelyn to thesa lol girl is hopeful and loyal to her core. anyway. gushing my heart out here #had more screenshots but well guess 9 is enough. and a bunch of tags for this song bc i love it a lot. ilu 4 winds albuns. #the scions seeing this and some of them seeing thesa cry for the first time....... yeah. get her (emotional) (real) (i love her) #also the lowest you will ever see her ears <3

[emblazons]

So (because I cannot go three seconds without noticing new little things that tell the wider story in this show):

Let’s talk about how the music that plays during the S3 Byler fight is the exact same music that plays during the S4 conversation Mike & Dustin have with Lucas as they walk to class after the pep rally—

—and how that parallel gives us insight not only into how Mike (and his devotion to Will) has evolved between seasons 3 and 4….but also how The Duffers are evolving Mike as a character in the wake of the "conflict" of forced conformity they introduced in S3.

To start: here are snippets of both scenes where “Not Kids Anymore” plays, both in Season 3 and Season 4.

Now, even though Mike is present in both scenes, it’s not entirely obvious why these things would be parallels, given the radical difference in tone. That said: when we look at these scenes in their wider contexts, we see that they are both exploring the exact same issue, only with Mike on opposite sides of the convo each time—

—namely, whether or not its worth it for Mike to embrace conformity, given that there are behaviors/roles he is meant to fill when trying to keep up with being normal/growing up...and "society" says that DnD / nerdiness (and a refusal / lack of desire to participate in performative relationships) stands entirely apart from that.

Let me see if I can explain.

First: these things are parallels because they are asking us to compare the Mikes in each situation—to notice how he took Will’s words to heart, and decided on some level that Will was right, not him. How do we know? Because in the time between these two convos (aka the rain fight and then the first few episodes of S4), we learn that Mike has made a point to address and rectify all criticisms Will had of him & his behavior during the rain fight.

As of the very first episode of S4, we are shown that Mike is 1) paying attention to both the party/DnD the way Will criticized him for not doing (to the point of calling out Lucas for not prioritizing it the way he now wants to)—

—2) he is focusing on keeping closeness with Dustin (even to the point of judging Lucas for not doing the same), because Will accused him of ignoring Dustin as readily as he ignored him—

—and 3) he has entirely stopped "swapping spit" with El (to the point of removing her from a hug at the airport, kissing her on the forehead...and then never kissing her again lmao) while letting his relationship fall apart without much of a fight…right before apologizing to Will for letting El get in the way of their time spent together in the first place.

Basically: even though he is still struggling in many ways to defend himself from being bullied/being an outcast by hiding behind his relationship with El (the same way Lucas is with “being popular” and basketball), we can see that Mike has made clear strides towards embracing the sides of him that aren’t conformist, which is reflected in all of his decision-making in Will's absence.

Though Mike is getting older and the party “aren’t kids anymore,” them paralleling these scenes is showing us that Mike, at least on some level, has realized that growing up is not at odds with embracing the things he enjoys & his various identities, whether that be through playing DnD—

—wearing clothes he chose on his own—

—or willingly choosing closeness with Will over the performance of relationships with girls (the same way Will already had in Season 3, and Dustin reflected as well).

Now...this isn't to say that he's entirely succeeded at the task, given how many times we see him fumble through actually implementing these changes/revelations in himself, whether with clothes (hello 'shitty knockoff'), embracing his actual interests, or even letting himself want to admit he wants to be with/around Will and not El—

—on top of the fact that I've already talked (many, many times) about how the journey of "feeling like you lost" the Duffers took us on had Mike ending up in a position where "conformity" temporarily wins, how that plays into his relationship with El versus Will, and why it matters for his character even outside of his queerness.

Still: I think this parallel in particular is important to understanding his character because it rules out any idea that Mike is somehow oblivious rather than intentionally working through to the changes happening in himself, whether they be in regards to him re-choosing DnD, making decisions about his clothing for himself...or wanting to be closer to Will / not participate in "liking girls," which is what he gets projection-mad at Will about during the rain fight.

tl;dr: Mike has realized on some level that he wants to be more like / closer to Will than his S3 "conformity" self—and the war we see on his face throughout the season in conversations with Will has a lot to do with that, among other things.

This musical parallel in particular draws attention to the fact that there have been changes happening within Mike that he sees and recognizes—he just "lost" like every other character this season, aka failed at walking into a more secure sense of self / out of his "conformist" relationship in its entirety...which we'll resolve in S5. :)

#byler #anti mlvn #mike wheeler #will byers #mike wheeler core #this could have gotten SO MUCH LONGER and I know I'm gonna do a companion piece on lucas right after this but lmao I had to START SOMEWHERE #like? one day I'm just gonna have to write a fucking book on mike wheeler because I have SO MUCH TO SAY LMAO #my st commentary #st parallels #stranger things #st music analysis

[anonymouscheeses]

HEAR ME OUT!! VAGGIE IN A SUIT THING 😍

#hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel vaggie #vaggie #hazbin vaggie #art #fanart #artists on tumblr #digital art #hazbin #will likely flop becuz its not chaggie buuttt idc i love Vaggie smm 😭💜💜 #bruv. ik she is like kinda fem in hazbitch hoetel but like lets imagine when she goes somewhere formal with charlie she and her like to #switch between dresses and suits or etc. that is an excuse to draw vaggie in a suit thing but shhh this is self indulgent babes 🤪 #LESBIAN 😨 #GENUINELY SO IN LOVE WITH HER LOOK AT HERR YALLL. ANYONE ELSE A SIMP HELLO??? #where my vaggie stans at 😔🙏 #shes nervous cuz this is the first formal date she and charlie have had since WELL. before the early extermination was announced #I HAD NO IDEA HOW TO DRAW HER PONYTAIL BRO... I DREW FROM MEMÒRY FOR A BIT THEN GAVE UP THEN REDREW THEN DID LINEART AND REALIZED ITS SHITTY #also her bow changed colors becuz i like to think she has a collection of all types of bows to wear depending on her outfit 🥰 #vagina in a suit #yes ofc lucifer gave her it wdymmm 🙄 #idk what to tag so i started rambling 😭

[noxious-fennec]

It's pomegranate season :)

A redraw of this piece from around a year ago

#hello guys...(: #i started school back in mid September! its hell #and my chronic pain is rly bad these days i can barely do anything #and my next break will be spent at the hospital #but love and light at least we're trucjing along and getting somewhere hopefully #this drawing isn't exactly the most finished the most effortful what have you but its all i can guve you #confession time: idk if i have it in me to keep drawing the guys #dont get me wrong still adore them. but i feel a little out of it #maybe this'll change the second i post this but whatever. #i had an amazing time being active in the fandom you guys are so sweet and you got me thru rough patches <3 #I'll still be around just even more inactive #anyway i hope you enjoy this!!! #i feel like I've improves substantially which is good #fennec. art #cwilbur #dsmp fanart #my art #thx to everyone that's loved my art yall hold a special place in my heart #alright bye bye xoxo #ps esteemed mutuals and lovely audience never hesitate talking to me i am always around and i love ppl I'm just socially anxious

[gay-panic-at-the-disco]

Sing Shong should release an open-world RPG game where we play as Yoo Jonghyuk in the 0th Round. At first it's just us controlling him to do common game actions and challenges but then as the game progresses, we begin to be able to communicate with him directly and influence the storyline. And then when the game ends with the Star Stream falling, YJH will ask us who we are and why we helped him and there will be an automated text saying, "I am the Demon King of Salvation."

#omniscient reader's viewpoint #orv #kim dokja #yoo jonghyuk #demon king of salvation #i had a point when i started this ramble but i think i lost it somewhere along the way #not me typing sing shong as shing shing *covers face with hands*

[hey-its-puddlesock]

Family portrait

#I just started rewatching s1 so that I can watch s2 and I forgot how much I love these sillies #star wars #bad batch #star wars bad batch #omega bad batch #hunter bad batch #wrecker bad batch #tech bad batch #echo bad batch #crosshair bad batch #is it possible this drawing is a little juvenile for a kid who’s supposedly twelve? #maybe #but also I doubt the kaminoans had crayons lying around #she needs to start somewhere

[zhivchik]

#killer and healer #i thought of him during first episodes of spirealm because he's smaller fiercer and... unwaveringly smitten from the start #so a spirealm au (but in the future of the game world) where jyl got into the game to investigate the disappearance of teenagers #he had been punished for his behaviour and send to help somewhere else and stumbled upon this strange connection #and cyz decided to check that game his sister asked to buy