#i hate cptsd

[flomation]

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#my heart do b broken rn #I hate cptsd #I hate how much I yearn #I hate abandonment trauma #I’m trying really hard not to hate myself

[jatlokgwo]

once its 3am everything is a different dimention until i fall asleep or someone else wakes up

#ghhhhgggagg sleepy #slugpup squeaking #i hate cptsd

[mycptsdstory]

I hate having cptsd. I fucking hate it so fucking much

#cptsd #i hate cptsd #i hate having cptsd #i hate it i hate it i hate it

[n0-al-3n8y]

elliot summarizing appointment with psychiatrist

new hallucination came up during lmao was fun (no)

#elliot alderson #darlene alderson #mr. robot #mr robot #carly chaikin #rami malek #mental illness #actually schizophrenic #actually cptsd #actually mentally ill #schizophrenia #best series #comfort character #complex ptsd #dissociation #psychotic episode #depersonalization #depressing shit #i hate my brain

[furiousgoldfish]

I just realized that I'm hyper-focused on the moods, behaviours and point of view of any person that exists near me, for as long as they're physically close. For me to be able to focus on myself at all, I have to be alone. Any other presence means my entire world shrinks into figuring out what this person is thinking, feeling and what they might do. And I can't control it, I can't relax if there's anybody else in the room.

#i hate this #hyperfocusing #seeing yourself from someone else's pov #isolation #losing focus #cptsd #hyperfocusing to avoid bad situations

[frankiehasfangs]

You are not a bad person for your trauma response. It is not your fault that people hurt you and mistreated you; and that your brain didn’t know how to properly cope with that.

#mental health #ptsd #complex ptsd #cptsd recovery #trauma recovery #abuse recovery #hypersexual #btw if you fetishize hypersexuality i hate you #sex repulsed #asexual #hypersexual ace

[hatred-rage-and-repression]

Deep down I wanna be worse because I deserve it... I don't wanna be happy, safe, or loved. They are such alienated feelings to me... I deserve to live a life full of misery, because I am evil.

#self hatred #self hate #self loathing #depressive #depression #paranoia #paranoid #unlovable #i feel so unloveable #i hate myself #i am stupid #mother wound #i am disgusting #cptsd #trauma #coping #traumatised #traumatized #dysfunctional family #dysfunctional household #narcissistic abuse #mother issues #father issues #father wound #emotional abuse #physical abuse #psychological abuse #neglect #childhood trauma #personal

[lostmf]

Girlhood is seeing the hatred in your mothers eyes and have no idea what you did to deserve it

Being a woman is impossible

It’s hell

And most of the time it feels like punishment

Because your existence, your body, and your choices belong to every one in your family and to every entitled dick walking around

And when you refuse to follow them

You’re branded

And you have to learn how to see yourself all over again

Cause you have no idea what you are

All you know is what you’ve been taught

And to relearn your worth

Is a battle that doesn’t end

That you didn’t ask for

That is Girlhood

#female anger #feminism #girlhood #writeblr #why am i like this #tw depressing thoughts #truamacore #ptsd vent #divine feminine #barbie #women #generational truama #tw depressing stuff #wound tw #tw ptsd #tw abuse #i hate my existence #emotional abuse #abuse survivor #cptsd vent #i am in pain #spilled truth #fuck the patriarchy #witches vs patriarchy #witchblr #angercore #repressed anger #anger vent #vent post #womanhood

[baldurs-gate-official]

Seeing Astarion and thinking

#bg3 #astarion #c-ptsd #ptsd #seriously im so happy they did such a good job #i barely ever see good ptsd rep in general #so many ptsd characters get killed off as a sort of 'happy ending' and i hate it #and the rep for CPTSD is even scarcer #ive seen characters who *should* have c-ptsd but the writers just stick them with symptoms for regular ptsd #and even when there IS rep they stay away from the difficult parts of it #the ugly parts #the anger and the hard parts of healing #people want the gentle pitiable version usually #but this kind of ptsd involves such an emphasis on control #lack of trust #emotional dysregulation #its not pretty. its rough. its...terrible #i cant describe how happy it makes me to see those parts tackled #and tackled SO well #and he can have a happy ending #even though he cant walk in the sun...in a way it makes it happier for me to see #i have so many injuries from my abuser that will never heal #but i have to live with it and accept it #astarion has to do that too #but it doesnt make him less worthy of love #it doesnt mean he isnt worthy of happiness or that its unattainable #idk im just...not used to seeing someone have the same condition as me #ive seen very few characters outside of bg3 who had ptsd #and most of them were killed off #and it was painted as a happy ending for them and it makes me sick to think thats what people see for people like me

[bpdohwhatajoy]

I would do anything to forget that you exist

#ryan.txt #bpd #borderline personality disorder #I hate you so fucking much it makes me sick #cptsd #ptsd #trauma #traumatized

[ineffectualdemon]

People with NPD are human beings who deserve compassion, respect, bodily autonomy and rights as much as anyone else in this godforsaken world

People with "bad" mental illness are still people

Stop making narcissist your new word for demon you fucking assholes

And before I get another bunch of hate messages: No, I do not have NPD. I just believe in respecting the humanity of everyone, no matter their mental illness

#I am in the ven diagram of bpd-cptsd-autism #npd folk are my cousins #us less 'pretty' mental illness need to stick to gether #mental health #npd #npd stigma #narcissistic personality disorder #I keep getting hate for it but I will keep arguing #because I hate the way people are dehumanised

[lobotomyladylives]

I think bpd is a bullshit stigmatizing label thrown at women to pathologize what is very obviously a response to prolonged childhood trauma and would be better labeled as C-PTSD. that being said my god I am bpd as fuck

#my sister just snapped at me bc i said i dont want to do a ton of physical labor for the job she signed me up for which apparently does i #in fact involve a lot of it. and her being mad for even that moment sent me spiraling so badly & i had the reaction i often do where #i start hating both her & myself terribly & want to isolate forever #i think she hates her new job & is taking it out on me but it doesnt matter bc i cant handle being yelled at #and the fact thst it took me till adulthood to realize thats bc i associate it with my father is crazy. yeah its just the cptsd like #everything else. and whats nutso is how i continue to think my trauma Wasnt Bad Enough for ptsd . #just bc he didnt beat the shit out of or molest me i feel like i dont even have a right to be this fucked up #not that it was only him. being bullied at school really did not help. i guess now that i think about it the problem is that until #i was a teenager i literally did not feel emotionally secure anywhere. home or school. always the ticking of a bomb in the bg #the inevitable moment my dad blew up over nothing or i overheard my peers talking about what a freak i was #i dont know why it still hurts to think about. im so far removed from it my life now couldnt be more different #well thats the stupid fucking thing about childhood isnt it. those are your very first experiences with the world & other ppl #i do know my view of romantic relationships was irrevocably poisoned by my parents & that is never going to be undone. so cool

[mortemappetens]

Poor Satoru. If he isn’t reminded of Toji, then he’s reminded of Suguru. There’s just no escape.

#jjk #jujutsu kaisen #megumi fushiguro #gojo satoru #jjk crack #cPTSD is no joke #except with gojo. then i do laugh #i dont hate and hate him

[n0-al-3n8y]

elliot and darlene

mood -_-

#mr. robot #mr robot #elliot alderson #darlene alderson #rami malek #carly chaikin #comfort character #best series #actually cptsd #living with cptsd #i hate my brain

[loislaina]

I'm not strictly aromantic or asexual (I might be demi however; I'm *still* trying to figure that one out!), but I support and love every single one of you. Your identity is valid. Your queerness is valid. YOU are valid. You're deserving of all the happiness in the world.

(this includes cishet aroaces by the way)

#aphobes fuck off #aphobes dni #aromantic #asexual #aroace #demiromantic #demisexual #also im just saying it's really f*cking hard to tell whether you're demi when you haven't had sex b/c your dating life is basically null #and as someone who has CPTSD it's even more difficult #because you don't know if your demisexuality/demiromanticism is coming from a place of trauma or you're actually demi #but enough about me #this was supposed to be about celebrating aroaces #because y'all valid as fuck #and i hate that this platform has so much aphobia on it #you're all beautiful people and please keep on keeping on #the world needs your voices

[twoheadedfather]

i am just so exhausted from doing this. it hurts to have to exist here

#vent #i just want to cry all the time #i think i've been having some really bad emotional flashbacks all week too #i say i think because like... i can never be 100% in myself but yknow all the symptoms check out #my mom is being so... my mom #i hate it here so much #i feel so hopeless #childhood trauma #trauma #toxic mother #toxic mom #childhood abuse #childhood neglect #parental abuse #parental neglect #cptsd #complex post traumatic stress disorder #complex ptsd