#i hate feeling like this

[wolf-and-raven-dreaming]

Apologies for not updating the comic. I had been given some blows in my professional life that just hurt to even think about, and now I have to redirect what I thought was my calling.

I just need some luck as I have been getting beat down for the past 3 years, I'm beyond frustrated. I had lost the one person that I could talk to back in 2021, and it still hurts. I had been laid off of the one job that I truly loved since being hired in 2020; I'm beating myself up over it even though it was not my fault. Even trying to apply for jobs isn't what it used to be. It's scary.

I'm not stopping the fan-comic. This is my focus; but right now, I just want to know where my life is going.

Every time I see a reblog or message of my fan-comic, it lifts my spirits. I love reading every tag as they are just clever. Even getting my first fan art was amazing! You guys are so talented.

I may not feel like working on the comic right now, but I know you guys want more.

There will be more.

I promise.

#life is tough #i hate feeling like this #i wish i could wave a wand and this all will finally be resolved

[jemineye]

chronic fatigue is not talked about enough. your body doesn't function properly, you can't think straight, most times you can barely keep your eyes open. a lot of times you feel like you're out of your body, but can still feel pain if you have any. and if you do, your pain feels much worse. your body is so tired of fighting that it just gives up

or maybe its just me

#i hate feeling like this #chronic fatigue #chronic illness #chronic disability #chronically ill witch #chronic pain #disabled witch #physical disability #disability #disabled #cripple punk #rambles

[original-punks]

trying to find motivation 😮‍💨

#i hate feeling like this #but i gotta do it regardless #time to continue #excuse my face i feel like death #original-punks

[thefallennightmare]

self-doubt has been kicking my ass today. I hate feeling like this and feeling like I'm not good enough compared to some of the things I've seen; even though I know I am.

#tina talks #just rambling my negative thoughts. #i hate feeling like this #my stories kick ass #i know they do

[mogs4rt]

you ever open up and vent to your friends- which you don't usually do - and then feel weird about it the next day, because you just poured out the dark matter in your brain and heart and now they know how to get under your skin, because fuck

#girlblogging #this is a girlblog #girlblog #girlblogger #girlhood #what the fuck #vent #i hate feeling like this #i hate feelings #love my friends #but ew vulnerability #tate langdon #ahs #ahs murder house #communication issues #probs trust issues #really it's fine #girl hysteria

[louudthoughts]

it's getting hard to be happy.

#i hate this #feelings #emotions #spilled ink #lonely thoughts #sorry for being depressing #numb #personal #i'm so tired #i hate feeling this way #i hate feeling like this #i hate it here #female writers #writers and poets #writing #writers on tumblr #writerscommunity

[charliethinks]

i’m not feeling alright.

#i feel so numb #i can’t be happy #it’s christmas and i feel nothing #i want my life back #i hate feeling like this

[coffeeinthecoffin]

I get so annoyed at people who bitch about their problems but aren’t capable of handling them on their own (or just don’t do it because they don’t try due of fear) because I had to grow up before I was ready and manage it on my own as a literal child so why are you incapable of working through it as an adult effectively instead of sitting in your misery and doing something about it on your own???

And then I remember that I shouldn’t have had to work through it alone, and even though people are mostly capable of just moving on, they shouldn’t have to be alone through their struggles

Yet I just can’t help but feel irritated hearing people not be brave enough or strong enough to do it on their own, especially as adults. It’s genuinely repulsive to me and incomprehensible at the same time

#I hate feeling like this #like why can’t I just be fully sympathetic about it #no shit this sounds mean it’s my bpd thoughts setting unrealistic expectations #cluster b #bpd #actually bpd #borderline personality disorder #actually cluster b #bipolar 2 #bipolar disorder #actually bipolar #generalized anxiety disorder #mental illness

[bearhugz]

Being a Jack-of-all-trades is really a double-edged sword.

Sure, you can be generally good at certain things, but when it comes to actually succeeding in life with these skills, it's not enough, and there really isn't anything to fall back on either because there seems to be a ceiling on your general skill-set that prevents reaching a state of mastery or even intermediacy.

I just wish I knew what I could succeed in.

#rant #will be deleted later #weighing heavy on my mind #i hate feeling like this #but it happens often #idk what to do anymre

[delicategravesoul]

I feel like I'm trying too hard but still getting no reward for it. What do I have to do to get your attention and praise?

#i hate feeling like this #bpd obsession #bpd #bpd vent #actually mentally ill #actually borderline #actuallybpd #actually obsessive #obsessive #obsession #obsessive thoughts #unhealthy obsession #lovesick #bpd fp #bpd favorite person #bpd shit #bpd feels #bpd stuff

[bittenbonez]

>tries to be sexy consentually >gets response >actually nvm i hate being sexy i never want to interact like this again i feel like i want to kms my heart feels like it got blown up

#mdni #actually cptsd #actually ptsd #abandonment #i hate feeling like this #i havent done anything nsft with others in awhile bc preformance anxiety #i feel like everyone hates me

[youchangedmedestiel]

Today is a day when I feel like crying about those two idiots in love.

Today is also a day when I have my period.

(Jensen saying Dean's biggest regret is that he couldn't save Cas doesn't help AT ALL)

#destiel #deancas #dean winchester #castiel #I don't want to work #I just want to cry on the floor #in a corner of a dark room #sobbing like dean in that dungeon #where apparently he regretted that he couldn't save cas #even fluff could make me cry right now #i hate feeling like this #jensen is not helping #I need today to be tomorrow real quick #my personal experience with destiel

[devnmon]

my classes start on wednesday… i do not want to do this again.

#feeling very discouraged bc my projected year to graduate was last spring and im just not feeling it anymore #i hate feeling like this

[fallbeforethefight]

I know I'm not "compare her to sunrises and sunsets" pretty,

that my body doesn't fit anyone's ideals.

I know I am so unlovable, undateable,

that you need to remind me of it in conversation when I haven't even entertained the idea of us being together.

But fuck,

I also know somewhere there is an alternate universe where I am enough for you.

Where I don't have to compartmentalize and divide my emotions into boxes,

keeping lust and friendship on the shelf,

while hiding anything more in a locked basement where I can't risk accidentally opening it.

And sometimes,

when I can't sleep,

I allow myself for a moment to wish I was living in that universe.

#and to think this all came tumbling out of my head because of a like on an instagram reel #jealousy is something else man #eeeeeeecccchhhhhh #i hate feeling like this #when i cant even name the proper feeling #personal #mywriting

[lonelylavender3]

I hate when I start to crush on people like wdym I have to actually express my feelings😓😭

#i hate feeling like this #crushing is so annoying like why😭😭

[selfindulgentfandomstuff]

Crazy how I openly state in my DNI, DONT interact with me if you share my main f/os that I’m not comfortable sharing, and people STILL interact with my posts!

Just had someone who who f/os Data (my first and most beloved f/o to whom I am married) interact with me and fuck man, I feel like absolute dogshit now I’m not gonna lie. Blocked, obviously but still..

#vent #tw vent #vent tw #SORRY IM SORRY FOR BEING LIKE THIS #IDK WHY IM SO POSSESSIVE SOMETIMES I REALLY DONT #I HATE FEELING LIKE THIS #not only do I feel intensely jealous but I also feel awful about feeling that way in the first place. like I feel so guilty for feeling this #anyways reminder that if you romantically f/o any of the characters I list on my pinned as not comfortable sharing #I REALLY don’t want you interacting with me #Aauughh trying to cool down… sorry again guys