#i hate myseeeelf

[noiivvern]

I HATE MYSEEEELF I NEVER WANNA COOK AGAIN

#they’re good tho. just took fucking hours

[bwunnipaws]

i hate myseeeelf ha ha haaa

[infectedpaul]

iiiiiiii hate myseeeelf and i feel angry at everythingggg

#dex says things #time to get high #🌧️

[jiangwanyin]

would be absolutely amazing if i didn't take everything personally, alas

#i hate myseeeelf #whenever anyone expresses even slight displeasure with something or someone even if i have no idea if it's directed at me in the #first place my brain just goes 'omg they hate me' pls where's the off switch 😩😩 #ironically there's actually something inherently narcissistic about this because why do i even assume everyone is always thinking #about me?? why should everything even be about me? and yet............... #don't mind me i've just had a . weird day and i'm tired and feeling a bit hurt and bitchy and a bit sick and had a conversation #with my mum that made me a bit uncomfortable and i'm probably reading too much into things but also what if i'm not blegh #i live in constant fear of being too much and being left behind and unwanted and disposed of but this is fine this is fineee 🙃 #angie.txt #need 2 stop overthinking but idk how 😐

[freehologramreview]

why tf is my art so 

UGLY

#delete later #everything looks wrong I hate it #I hate myseeeelf

[eddiemunsonspantschain]

I fucked up. I fuuuuuucked up. I apparently mid mixed my bleach? (I was sure i had it even.) so i have A LOT of over processed hair. A bunch of it has broken off already. I covered it in coconut oil. I can’t buy something to fix it atm. So I’m just leaving it be. I’ll put the dye in to kinda...hide it? But I’m also gonna cut spending of it. I don’t cut it all off bc I’d have one hell of a big side shave. So it’s safe to say my hair is gonna be left alone for awhile

#rampager speaks #i hate myseeeelf #ive been having bad luck al day

[daisybees]

god do any of y’all get like super tired and just when you think you’re about to fall asleep you jolt up with the energy of a thousand men? it’s midnight and i feel like i just downed 6 cups of coffee

#i hate myseeeelf

[havuhcactus]

Have you ever just wanted to be that light in someones life, but your current situations won’t allow it?

#personal #i HATE MYSEEEELF #fuck

[frankpunisher]

i want to rip every negative thought ive ever had out of me and never think again

#i hate my fuckung self #someone get me a megaphone #I HATE MYSEEEELF #txt #a whisper

[elitheradguy]

so Ive already almost cried three times today and its not even 9am

Fuck my liiiiife

#shut up eli #i didnt think looking for a job would be this bad #i hate myseeeelf

[kyungcheek]

question: why am i so ridiculous/stupid/pathetic?

#just had the stupidest fight and now i cant sleep/stop crying #its 1am and im stupid #i hate myseeeelf #tp #ignore me #update: its 2am and im still stupid

[an-droid-girl]

everything is temporary and nothing is real

we all exist in a state of transience

#system message #[singing] iiii hate myseeeelf! i hate my flesh prision! i hate my brain and all it’s neurons! #i hate my spirituality and the fact i can’t escape it! i hate that i can feel my spirit guide’s eyes boring a hole into my head! #[begins dancing a fun little jig] i hate that i am the boy who stuck his finger in the leaky dam and now there are more holes to plug #but i only have two hands! #la de la de lee de lee la di la di lee!

[thankyouforreadingmyusername]

Do you ever just look at yourself or think about yourself and you're just like

Damn.

Who would ever like me?

#i am traaaaaash #i hate myseeeelf 🎶 #i could go on with a long list of everything wrong with me but thatd take too long lol

[sovereignofmysoul]

 three

 i hate christmas. i don’t have money for presents and i hate myself too fuckn much to let people buy things for me when i can’t ffckn reciprocate  

 i hate myself but im no longer suicidal except when i fucking remember that every fuckn person i hang out with needs fuckn therapy but won’t go because???????? they hate themselves???????? but me the most??????????? i fuckn guess i dk

 it’s so f u c k i n g hard to apply the ‘communication’ part in the phrase ‘communication is important for a healthy relationship’ when you’re the only. one. trying. to. communicate.  but HEY maybe i’m being the clingy possessive fuck that everyone loves to hate and i’m angry oh i’m so fucking angry i’m so fucking a n g r y god, why am i always so angry i want to fucking kill a man but like not REALLY NSA because like??? i’m not a murderer or - you know what, whatever the president sucks and i honestly hate the man just take me away from thi fucking life i’m leading like no one even fucking cares anymore honestly did they ever. just. fuckn nsa come get me and take me to jail honestly at this point i don’t fckun care. at least in jail i get healthcare.

#l i t e r a l l y fucking fight me #self hatred cw #mental illness blogging #[singsong voice] i hate myseeeelf and wanna dieeeeeee #i hate this time of year #i don't have money for presents and i'm a n g r y i' angry i'm fukcing a n g r y #i'm so fucking ANGRY

[starcoe]

I will let you down

#vent art #my art #rick sanchez #rick and morty #im sorry i just relate to rick a lot lol #i hate myseeeelf lmao

[skinnyghosttears]

May 14, 2021

12:34 am

Ngl I feel demotivated af because I just crave food so much. I'm keeping repeat in my mind "Focus! Remember why you are doing it! Remember how happy you are seeing a lower number on the scale! Dont binge!" but holy shit, even thinking how bad I felt phisically after I binged (I was literally in pain) doesnt help.

1:12 am

Hunger pain and I cant sleep :)

It makes me laugh that its easier for me to resist to literal hunger than cravinv something randomly.

I feel sad rn but also happy at the same time.

8:44 am

Feeling better now, I think im gonna try cloud bread staying under 400kcal for the whole day. There is no point even in eating this low, so I'll see later.

I feel less bloated and kinda hungry and its not even 9am 🥺

9:34 am

Well im 60,15kg rn. Feeling not so good.

11:00 am

Burned 300kcal, now I'll wait lunch for weight myself again...

Thinking about really skipping dinner since I'll do sweet cloud bread at lunch...

At least I feel less bloated than yesterday.

12:53 pm

The scale keep switching between 60 and 59,95kg. Im still sad, I was expecting a lower number, but I should reach it before monday.

I will exercise more today btw so if should be fine.

Ok this cloud bread turned out so cool, the whole thing was 437kcal which is a lot, but I made 2 big things, and next time I can just use half of the ingredients. The problem iis that chocolate chips are so high in calories and I didnt find anything better.maybe I can just use something different next time, maybe blueberries. Btw its cool because its obv sweet but it calm my cravings a lot and I can eat it slowly. Now Im waiting for mom to come back from work for eat the second piece so I can show her lmao.

For dinner I will eat a tomato with some pritein cheese so I can stay under 500. I will drink so much water.

3:51 pm

Decided to add marmelade, the entire jar has 104kcal and I'll reach 588kcal for the whole day.

I prefer to do this, taking a tsp sometimes from it then risk a binge or cry for hunger pain. Plus I will exercise later.

Its better to do like this rn, I prefer to see my lower number again the day after than risk another +4000 binge, especially because it always happen when my parents are not at home and they will not be here for 2 days.

5:57 pm

Ate half of the marmelade, I'll save the rest for later. Still craving pop corns lmao, Im thinking about reach 800, idk. I hate myseeeelf.

9:14 pm

I was doing so good but my brother placed chips on the table at the atart of dinner so I ended up eating those and an ice cream.

Im at 1122, Im gonna exercise until I'll faint.

I hate myself so fucking much, I can already feel the disgust when I'll step on the scale in the morning.

11:58 pm

Burned a total of 1300 on the cyclette today. I feel full but because water, I had 3 liters today. God I will not weight myself until lunch tomorrow, and I will exercise in the morning.

Im tired of being sad.

#ana #thinspiration #thinspo #thin #skinny #ed #weightloss #eating disorders #eating problems #eating diary