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#i hate myself for this
authoreetea · 1 year
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two birds
sullys x sully f!reader
summary : two birds by regina inspired this so bad, lo'ak is your twin brother and you were his world but instead of neteyam, it was you.
warning: ANGST, lo'ak being so sad and desperate.
note: avatar has made me so depressed istg every time i remember nete dying i SOB. THEN I REMEMBER THIS SONG AND I SOB EVEN MORE. i used to think people lie when they say they cried while writing something they made BUT NOW IK ITS REAL CAUSE I'M SOBBING 😭
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sullys stick together. that was the shared motto of the sully family and you all lived by it.
you and your siblings were close but you and lo'ak are closer, probably comes with sharing a womb together.
neteyam was like your mentor, he was always there ready to help you with anything. while kiri wss your confidant.
jake always thought you were a miracle child, being so different compared to nete and of course, your twin brother. you were his princess
lo'ak adores you, he was always so over protective of you and as were you. usually lo'ak does the rash and impulsive decisions while you kept him on his feet to think rationally
yet right now, you were the one making rash decisions.
as you stood on the ship that was filled with sky people, lo'ak had dragged you three into saving spider, after you guys grabbed some guns for protection.
once you guys have finally retrieved the human boy, you sighed in relief thinking all would go well but quite the opposite happened.
you were steps ahead of neteyam and you saw someone about to shoot him by his neck, and you didn't spare any time to think when you yelled
"nete! look out" you yelled as loud as you could, and jumped in his way. you felt the impact of the bullet hitting right above your heart, it took the air out of you as you and your big brother jumped down to the water with everyone else.
"y/n/n! you're bleeding, why in eywa's name did you do that!" neteyam was panicking, trying to put pressure on your wound as you bleed out, painting his hands crimson.
you coughed out, "i couldn't let them hit you, nete." your breathing became shallow and your pulse slowing.
you see lo'ak was already crying as he went to carry you to the rock nearest. "dad! help, they shot y/n. please come help" lo'ak cried for help, his voice was shaking and he was scared for his life.
he can't lose you, you were his best friend. you were two peas in a pod. two birds on a wire.
you smile at him. "oh lo'ak, i'm so proud of you, tsmukan (brother)." you said, your voice hoarse.
this just made his eyes tear up more, he was crying a waterfall at this point. "y/n please. you can't do this to me. to us." he pleaded with you as he noticed you were getting drowsy
neytiri and jake got to where you were and the yell your mother let out made you wanna reverse everything. "no, no no, y/n. stay with us, princess." jake whispered, his eyes blurring with tears as he looked at your form.
neytiri rested you on her lap as she cried and prayed to eywa.
"everything's gonna be fine. i love you guys." you whispered, your eyes getting tired and starting to close.
lo'ak yelled no and tuk and kiri were sobbing by your side. tsireya was crying, she finally had a new friend and she was gonna lose you.
"come on y/n! you can make it, please you can't leave me. who will stop me from my stupid decisions if you're gone? my tsmuke." lo'ak cried, his head on your chest and he hated how he could hear your breathing slowing and your heartbeat decreasing.
you smile, looking around at everyone. memorizing their faces as you knew this was it.
"i'm sorry brother, i am tired. but i do not regret doing this at all. sullys stick together." you said, looking at lo'ak and brushed your fingers through his hair.
lo'ak cried into you as he felt your last breath. looking up at your face, he saw you have closed your eyes and he yelled.
neytiri kissed your forehead and sobbed as well, jake rubbing her back to comfort her.
jake was trying to keep a strong face for his family but his own waterfall of tears betray him.
he caresses your lifeless face and his tears fall. he whispers, "i'm sorry baby girl. rest now."
"oh dear eywa, why do you do this to me." neytiri cried out loud. she was tired, she had lost so many and now you.
everyone was mourning as they lost you
no room will ever shine as bright as it did when you walked in. no place will be ever as joyful without you.
lo'ak felt as though he just lost half his soul, and he hated the feeling. the empty feeling as his heart just keeps dropping.
tsireya tried her best to comfort him but she herself was bawling.
this was really it. they hated it but they knew they'd had to live with it.
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fuckthemforthis · 6 months
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You have seen nothing. You have heard nothing. (Bojaner alert)
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miya-akiko · 1 month
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just imagined abt asher and babe got into a car accident and almost died but darlin and sam found them when they were taking a night walk
when darlin called david and told him what happened, david heart drops.
he almost lost asher for the second time.
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katinkulta · 7 months
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GO BACK TO BED
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mokozroach · 4 months
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you just got erik‘d
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vampirecave · 3 months
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Hey y'all what if I revealed the WORST fixation I've ever had (and currently still have, tho this art is from a few months ago I think??) Oh and note that I DO NOT SUPPORT THE EUPHORIC BROS!! I've never bought the Banban games, only watched playthroughs.
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yeah that's right banban got to me. and so I made my own lil rewrite and redesign except I can only draw humanoids so uhh shrugs?? anyways shout out to goat banban instead of devil banban cuz i feel like it makes more sense-
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EUGH I HATE THAT I LOVE THEM
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chilwellspulisic · 1 year
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Olá 👋😸
y/n and Pulisic arguing cuz After years of relationship they are no longer each other's priority (like Chris always with friends and y/n focusing on work)
you decide the ending.
I love your imagines. 🤗
Mercy |CP 
Pairing: Christian Pulisic x Reader 
Word Count: 1,667 
Authors Note: I broke my own heart writing this one!! I couldn't have an argument and a sad ending, it was one or the other. Sorryyy!!! Thank you to anon for requesting this but also damn you for making me hurt my boy Chris! Thank you for the lovely comment! I love writing these one shots you guys request, please request...they are OPEN!! 
Warnings: angst. Heartbreak, true and utter heartbreak  
Song inspiration: Mercy – Brett Young...prepare to cry if you listen to it  
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Have you ever been in love? Have you ever been so in love that you know it's time to let go?  
In the eyes of the public and all their friends, Y/N and Christian had the most perfect relationship, it was perfect from the outside. The pair of them were so in love...or so it seemed. They were so happy...or so it seemed. In the comfort of their own home, behind closed doors, things were different. They loved each other, they really did, the sex was still phenomenal that was a fact, but they weren’t each other’s priority anymore and they were always arguing over one thing or another. They never spent time together and as much as they loved each other, the hard truth is that they just did not belong together anymore. 
Y/N had decided that today was the day they needed to finally accept what it is and leave. She sent Chris a quick text when she was on her way home:  
Y/N: hey, when are you home? We need to talk x 
Chris: just walked in. I know we do, I already know what it’s about, you don’t need to explain x 
Christian and Y/N have been together for 4 years, they were each others first real love, the kind that makes you feel whole, they one that always feels like home but recently all Christian did was hang with his friends or play football, which is understandable, it’s his career but when he was off he was always with the lads. The last time he went home to visit his family, he went alone. But Y/N wasn’t completely innocent in the downfall of their relationship. She was so focused on work, constantly in the office or her home office until stupid hours working on getting a big promotion and when she wasn’t working, she was with the girls. They used to always be together, they would do anything to be together but now, they just couldn’t care less.  
Y/N walked through the front door and the smell of fresh lasagne hit her nostrils, making a smile creep onto her face. He made this dish on their first night as a couple, it’s fitting to be made on the last. She went into the kitchen to see him pulling the lasagne out of the oven, a small smile hitting his face when he saw her. He loved this girl but as the old saying goes, if you love someone set them free.  
“It smells lovely” Y/N smiled at him, making his heart ache. He wanted to hug her, to kiss her, to keep her but he knew what she wanted, he needed to accept that and understand that not everything can last forever.  
“Well I know how much you love it, it only made sense” He smiled back, painfully, feeling like a truck was running over his heart over and over again 
They just looked at each other for second, taking a minute to examine each other's facial features, knowing this would be the last time. Neither really wanted to let go. They wanted to turn back the clock and fall back in love. They wanted to make it work. Maybe this was just a case of misunderstanding? One of them thinking the other wants this and sacrificing the love they have? As much as everyone wishes that was the case, it wasn’t.  
Dinner was awkward, they sat across from each other at the table. A silence filled the room, normally not an awkward one but today was different. Today was hard. Today was the day their hearts were going to break. Y/N didn’t know how to start the conversation and neither did Christian but someone had to Christian opted for it.  
“Y/N, if you’re going to break my heart, just break it. If you made up your mind to leave me, please just make it fast, but if you love me, have a little mercy with it” the tone in his voice was heart breaking, his eyes didn’t even reach hers, he couldn’t bear to look at her.  
Her eyes welled up, knowing this isn’t what she wanted, it was what was needed “Chris, I don’t know what we are anymore, I don’t understand our relationship anymore. Sometimes we’re lovers, sometimes we’re best friends and others, I feel like I’m just a stranger to you. One day you pay so much attention to me and the next, you’re out with your friends completely ignoring me. I love you so much, I always have and a part of me always will but I can’t live this life anymore. I can’t be in this distant relationship when I’m right next to you. I’m not your priority anymore and you don’t seem to be mine...” Her tears fell, a few falling from Christian’s as he was trying to think of what to say next, he wanted this to be painless but to lose the person you love more than life itself, now that’s the worst pain a human being can possibly feel. Heartbreak is inevitable but it’s painful. 
“I..” He started, stopping himself to think for another second or two, before continuing “If I lose you, I can’t love you anymore, it won’t be my place to but I can’t hate you either. I just need...need to nothing you, I need to feel nothing for you and I need to not think about you. I need to not care about you but the problem is, I don’t know how to do that, I don’t think I can do that. I’m sorry that I let you down” His voice broke, his tears fell from his eyes. His hands flew up to his eyes, not wanting her to see him this vulnerable. He was done, this hurt him too much, his chest was tightening, he stood up from the table and started to head to the stairs when Y/N stood up. “Please don’t come after me, I just want to be alone right now. I can't lose you like this. I can’t set you free if you’re stood in front of me” she sat back down defeated, letting out a breath and flinched when she heard the bedroom door slam shut.  
They both knew this needed to end. The only issue is, one of them had accepted it and one of them couldn’t handle the thought of it, I guess that depends on whose side of the story you are looking at. Sometimes holding on to something that is no longer there, does more damage than holding on to what could come back. It’s not so easy to walk away from someone when they have made their way into every cell of your body. When they have taken over every thought. And when they are responsible for every good feeling....as well as every bad feeling you have ever had. No one, not even the doubting part of either of them could make them feel bad for loving passionately. They tried and they hoped desperately to have the love they both read about in countless novels...and they did for a while...but life isn’t a fairy tale  
Y/N went and sat on the sofa, crying into a cushion. Christian was upstairs crying into a pillow. In that moment, the pair were the same, for the first time in a long time. They shared a feeling. They shared a love. They shared a heart break.  
Y/N looked towards the stairs when she heard Christian come down, her heart skipping a beat when she saw the bag on his hand, knowing it was a few of his clothes. He walked over to stand in front of her 
“I’m going to stay with Mase for a few days, he said it’s fine. We can talk about what to do with the house another day but you can stay here until we sort it out” He knelt down in front of her, his eyes puffy and a deeper brown and bloodshot, his cheeks red, the tear stains on his freckled face. His beard slightly wet from where it's soaked up his own tears. His hands cupped her cheeks as their eyes looked into each other's “I love you Y/N, I always have and I know I always will. You were and still are it for me, you are all I have ever wanted and I’m so sorry I let you down and that I stopped making you a priority because I know that I should’ve noticed and I should’ve made you feel loved. There’s no excusing it. Just know that I didn’t want things to end but I know I have to let you go, it’s time. I love you my angel” His voice was no more than a whisper, if there was a single noise in the house, no one would’ve heard it. He pulled her lips into his, a final kiss. One that was longing, when he pulled away, their lips hovered over each other’s, eyes closed, for a few seconds before he got up, walking out of the door, leaving his heart and love inside with the girl he thought was finally his happily ever after.  
Y/N didn’t know what to do, her brain processing the fact that her forever has just walked out of the door. Leaving her sitting in a big empty room, staring at an empty wall. Tears started to fall uncontrollably down her cheeks, the taste of them filling her tastebuds, her eyes stinging from the amount of tears she had. The thoughts were going round in her head like clockwork:  
‘What did I just do?’ 
‘Why did I let him go?’  
‘Why did I stop a flame that was still flickering? All it needed was a little more spark’ 
‘Why did I let my life and my world walk out of that door?’  
This day started with her thinking that this was the right thing to do, now as she sat alone after he sacrificed his own heart so she could be happy, she wasn’t so sure... 
A/N: I wanted to make this longer but I couldn’t keep breaking my heart. I feel like this needs a part two, please let me know what you think? 
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Thinking about this and…yeah
Giovanni’s Room, James Baldwin // Black Sails (TV)
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konigsblog · 5 months
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my ‘dinner’ usually contains starbursts and lucozade, before i gag and chug water desperately in an attempt to fix the excessive sugar ... 😕
no wonder im so weak when im basically getting no protein wtaf😨
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aejilynx · 10 months
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before and after pic, so cute!
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edwardnygma635 · 1 year
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I look into the mirror😎😎 I am beautiful 😍😍😍😍😘😘💚prettyboy💚me
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shaniacsboogara · 1 year
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Oops new pfp
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(Regular image of Ryan Bergara)
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honeygrahambitch · 10 months
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Census taker Will AU
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thrillofhope · 1 year
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“And I would be your dark queen?” She sneers at him, but there is something almost mournful in it.
Halbrand steps to her, at once angry and desperate. “Not dark,” he corrects her, a hand stroking the porcelain skin of her cheek, flushed red. “Beautiful.” He directs her gaze to the sunrise, Anar bloodying the sky. “Terrible as the dawn.” His hand rests over her heart, as though he can feel the conflict, the tempest in her very pulse. “Treacherous as the sea.” He gesticulates to the trees that surround them, to the mountains in the distance. “Stronger than the foundations of the earth.” Halbrand grasps her hands in his as he makes his pledge. “As I do, Galadriel, all shall love you and despair.”
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etrevil · 8 months
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I'm so sleep deprived that I can only think of Fyodor coming out of the shadows to see Dazai and him saying Massimo's infamous line of "are you lost babygirl" and oh gosh I need sleep.
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On a more poetic note, this signifies how depsite both having "demon" in their monikers, Dazai - who is trying to change for good because of Odasaku's wish - though is foggy, is in the light. He's trying his best, and if you read the manga, you know and understand that he is.
I'm so proud of how far he's gone 😭❣️
And then there's Fyodor being an emo wench but we love him regardless <3 (or love him because of it idk)
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iofrostvigilante · 12 days
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Sorry 🫢
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