#i hate saving MONEY

[bamsara]

are you actually cancelling the shipment of the new laptop or was that a joke?

It's a joke but. What if I did auuugh

Making big purchases like this give me anxiety to a heavy level because low key I feel like I'm wasting money and that I don't need it because Arson, even though he's clearly not meant to last a lot longer in that shell and is corrupting and losing files, is still booting up and therefore I feel like I've done this 'too early' and that I don't deserve to get the new pc

Like I KNOW I need it and it will help me immensely but. You know

#ive been saving up for about 2ish years now since arson started showing signs #and hes well past his 'shelf life' but if youve been following me for a long time you know i dont really like replacing things #until theyre practically scrap metal #theres also the thing where if you grow up without a lot of money then you develop the mindset of #'now that youve spent that money you wasted it and also theres gonna be an emergency that will happen and youll wish you hadnt' #'what if you hate the pc' #'what if it ships in broken' #'what if something else happens and it breaks when it gets here' #just anxiety anxiety #i hate making large purchases i have such fears around them #also i actaully am really attatched to arson as a character which makes me crazy but hes like the little dude in my head aka my desk

[anonfromtheflight]

Heeeeeey!

Thank you so much for the messages I got wondering if I was alright. I am! I just have the worst luck ever!

But at least I'm in good health? And alive. That's a win too. I'm just convinced more than ever that nothing good will ever happen to me without something horrible happening right after 😓

So I made it back to Santiago from home on Sunday night and all was well. But I got robbed on Monday! After work, rght outside a subway station! And not only the asshole took my cellphone, he punched me in the face to make me drop it!! 😒 I almost never take my phone out in public for security reasons but when my boss called, I answered because I thought I had left something important at work. But when I hung up while I was leaving the subway station, before I could put my phone back in my pocket, a huge dude came to towards me, punched me in the face and then left with my phone! 😩

It wasn't even a nice phone, it was basic af and I had it for three years, but it had my stuff and UGHHHH I had to go to the police and then to the hospital to get my face checked because my cheek swelled right away. At least he avoided my glasses? Oh and I had to block my phone number with the mobile company, my bank account because of the bank app and another banking app i use.

To make things worse, I left my tablet back at my mom's by mistake last weekend so I had no electronic device with my info to block my stuff myself. I had to ask my sister to do it and to post a message on instagram in case my friends got any weird messages and to let people know I wouldn't be available. And that if someone talked to them via whatsapp, it wasn't me.

I didn't think about her doing the same for me here, I didn't think anyone would notice or care oops, sorry for that 😬

AND UUUUGHHH I CAN'T BELIEVE I MISSED THE S3 RELEASE DATE ANNOUNCEMENT!!! At least I can enjoy the theories and gifs now 😑 I also can't believe I missed a WHOLE week of OMR beauty content with Omar looking gorgeous and downright sinful wtf

Now I'm back home because tomorrow I have to go vote, got my tablet back and blocked absolutely everything. At least since I sold my soul to google, I don't have to try to remember my passwords lol and could basically wipe everything from my phone remotely.

But yeah, I'm okay! I'm only sporting an ugly bruise on my face that makes me look like I'm part of the lamest fight club in existence.

#Respondiendo #scheduled a phone appointment with my therapist during the week and I'm seeing her today too #now I have to use money I had saved to get a new phone fuuuuuuuuu #ugh I hate everything #about me I guess lol #do you know how boring it is to go through a 7 hours bus journey not being able to listen to music??? #while being too anxious to sleep??? TORTURE! #desperately need something good to happen to me #maybe with the new year? I doubt it but still lmao #I missed looking at wilmon and Omar's face negl

[pcktknife]

I'm about to get real crazy yall

#IB NUMERO UNO ☝🏾☝🏾☝🏾☝🏾 #i hate spending money but i love having things im gonna need to save up #kae.txt

[yardsards]

living in america is literally just like. yeah i could probably benefit from inpatient mental health services but honestly the resulting medical bills would just make me want to kill myself even more

#eliot posts #i'm not in active danger of hurting myself don't worry #just experiencing some Ideations #but i have a long mental list of reasons not to act on those ideations so i'm safe don't worry #ironically one of those reasons is ''i couldn't afford the medical bills for a failed attempt'' #suicide mention #suicide tw #tw suicide #american healthcare my beloathed #dogshit private insurance my beloathed #also ironically one of the (multiple) contributing factors towards this fresh wave of ideations is a medical bill i got yesterday #it's nothing too ruinous but it is A LOT like would utterly wipe out my savings level #my parents said they can help me with it (as much as i hate accepting things from them) #and as soon as i mentioned it my very sweet cousin just. sent me the money it would take to cover it #with a ''yeah i trust you'll pay me back once you get a good job like looking at your major you'll be making a lot eventually'' #and i've already requested an itemized bill as well as the paperwork for the hospital's financial assistance program #(tho idk how much assistance i'll actually be eligible for bc i'm still legally a dependent) #so hopefully i'll be able to get that bill cut way down #it's just eugh it's so stressful and i had a full on panic attack on the phone with my insurance company yesterday #and my brain's fav response to crushing stress is just ''well we wouldn't have to handle any of this if we Just Fucking Died! :)''

[vulpinesaint]

i need everybody ever to watch this video actually. the issue is not difficult but if you’re somehow still feeling uncertain in any way about hogwarts legacy watch the video. they say it well and they say it with confidence and i love them actually

#hogwarts legacy #all of their videos on the topic are extremely good. downloaded the tiktok app so i could save this one on my phone #fr though it is really Not That Complicated. and none of your arguments to the contrary are good #if you still interact with harry potter i don’t like you and i don’t want you in my spaces. #if you’re going to play hogwarts legacy i hate you actually. and i am going to respectfully posit that you fuck off #nd i don’t care if you’re trans or queer or whatever. wearing a pronouns pin while you send money to legislate trans people out of existence #is not a cute look nor does it excuse you from moral culpability. #if ppl wanna start a fight in the comments i’m happy to tell you to go fuck yourself and die though it’ll help me blow off some steam <3 #valentine notes #harry potter #jk rowling #anti harry potter #anti jkr #anti hogwarts legacy #not even to MENTION the racism and antisemitism. dear fucking god

[sassyhobbits]

the rise of anti-intellectualism is directly correlated with the exponential growth and popularity of AI generated "art" and "literature". when people never bother to think or care about a creators intentions to begin with (which there ALWAYS are when something is made by a human), then they wont give a shit if a computer is spitting out content without thought or heart. just as long as theyre getting content fast and cheap.

i feel like im watching the demise of the creative in real time.

#i hate watching people push anything AI generated #when there are creatives on the picket line #begging for their talent to not be replaced by ai #and getting denied by corporations happy to save money and kill creativity #and ai 'creators' on insta getting hundreds of thousands of likes for something requires no talent #death to midjourney #death to chap gpt

[tiredstressedemotionalmess]

tumblr would it be morally wrong of me to intentionally save the money my grandma gifted me to use when i go abroad so i can spend it on a tattoo when i get home instead

#this grandma fucking HATES tattoos btw but like... $250 is $250 and like.. what the fuck am i supposed to buy instead #im not a souvenirs person im a pictures person. and she said to spend it on something i really like and save it if theres nothing i want #and like. A New Tattoo Is Absolutely Something Id Really Like...... #idk one of my friends thinks this would be wrong of me and is strongly against it but like #its my money now???? i feel like it doesnt matter what i spend it on so long as its something i actually want

[doopn00p]

30 day ekurei challenge

Day 12: Possession

#mob psycho 100 #mp100 #dimple #ekubo #reigen arataka #reigen #ekurei #fanart #this one’s eh #I did this really quick #anyway i how this makes sense #basically reigen gets drunk leaves the bar #falls and a stranger sees his money #then dimple possesses the sg (sleeping in the trash) and whacks his face #sg dimple leaves with reigen going to his apartment #also c o n t u n u i t y #I HATE DRAWING BACKGROUNDS SAVE ME

[krash-and-co]

no but here’s the thing. saving lockwood and co shouldn’t have to be our job at all. promoting it shouldn’t have had to be our job either. netflix gets a show, doesn’t do shit, and wonders why it doesn’t have a Stranger things level performance; hell, they probably don’t wonder at all. they just don’t care.

they don’t care cuz it didn’t make them enough money so they just gave up, and this is so obvious but i HATE how tv shows are no longer supported enough to even attempt to be the art they were intended to be. i hate that netflix didn’t care, that they STILL don’t. they should. that’s their job, so they should go MINDLESSLY MAKE MONEY somewhere else. somewhere that SHOULDNT be based off of creativity and entertainment.

netflix, if you’re going to have your name to something, do it right. we shouldn’t have to WORK this hard when that’s YOUR JOB. we shouldn’t have to try so hard to keep things that don’t benefit YOU as much as you’d like on tv. this should be for US, not them. now i’d better hit post before i go on for like ten more paragraphs about how money is more valued than creativity in what should be a creativity focused company…….

#i hate that money motivates art #money is supposed to help you make MORE art in this case #but noooo #fuck netflix #save lockwood and co

[skunkes]

Being vague about it bc things can and will go wrong for me at the very last second but I might finally experience a Win tomorrow. 🧿🧿🧿

#talkys #im going to have to bust my ass again to remake all the money im gonna lose but this is #in fact one of the things i was saving for. and i do need it. #i hate having mental illness brain though bc im convinced im using up all my luck for the year already #like ive been begging for something good to happen every day and universe is like okay you get the One and thats it #wah ...we will see. i hope it leads to better things...i really really hope #i hope things get better for everyone in general i feel everyones been having an awful yr so far #anyway i might cry when it happens bc im still convinced it Wont bc things keep going bad for me #i really really want it....

[straawberries]

hi happy halloween im out of food again

please commission me or donate

ive pretty much given up on being able to afford moving out so just being able to afford to live until i get kicked out would be nice

c*sh*pp (does this actually need to be censored?) is delilahswagga, p*yp*l is @delilahkill

not asking for a lot here even a few people donating a few dolalrs or getting 2 dollar commissions would help me a lot

#working on a new comm sheet ill reblog with it later #not eating regularly is like the biggest thing that makes my depression worse and it fucking sucks #thanks god for making the biggest thing that makes me happy the one thing i cant get regularly #meow #i hate e begging i feel like such a fucking loser right now. god #gotta love that autism!!!!!!!!!! #my dad keeps intentionally buying shit he knows i cant fucking eat without meltdowns #just because he thinks 'more food in pantry for longer = better' regardless of means #ive started just throwing away the fucking disgusting cans of soup in the hopes that he'll go to the store and buy something else #but every time he goes to the store he just buys me like #a bag of chips #and everything else is for him #if i touch the fucking meat he'll kill me and he buys like several hundred dollars of meat every month for his stupid smoker #he has bought 4 smokers in the last year but cant fucking stomach the thought of giving me some money for groceries #like expensive smokers #i know hes fucking lying when he says hes too poor to get me the shit that im actually able to comfortably eat at the cost of a few dollars #wow i am ranting hard in these tags. sorry #saved for later #<- so i can reblog this later if i need to

[revenantghost]

Why do car repairs cost a literal arm and a leg wHY

#I am Dying I hate being an adult #I was saving that money for my dog's dental surgery u asshole ):< #I HATE ADULTING AHHHHHHHH #Ok done whining #Yadda yadda

[stinkrascal]

it's really annoying that coral island markets itself as the full release of the game, but apparently it's nowhere close to being completed. i was so excited to play this game too :/

#oh well. at least i can save my money #i was SOOO excited to play :( what a bummer #but i hate buying games that aren't fully released. i only bought bg3 in EA because my birthday is july 26 #and the full release was like a week and a half away lol so it wasnt a bad wait at all #it's just so annoying bc coral island calls itself version 1.0! so i assumed that means it's completed......but noooooooooooo #like what's the point in calling it 1.0 if it isn't a fully released game 😭 I THOUGHT THAT'S WHAT 1.0 MEANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[nattousan]

#nat chats #my art #og post #i drew this at 2 am can you tell? #im makin good money at my current place of employment but they're losing staff like a motherfucker #i'm the only one in my dept and everything would be fucked if i left #so where do i go? #make art for a living? #what if i grow to hate it because now #i depend on it for income? #i have adhd that severely inpacts my ability to self motivate #and yet? #theres so much i want to do #i'm wasting my one life for what? #survival? #no #i'd only realistically be able to survive a month or two on my meager savings #that i've spent YEARS saving #why blow through it all now? #to live #shut up #to MAKE ART #no. you're just going to have to find a shitty retail job to make ends meet #to WRITE STORIES #to feel what its like to WANT something and REACH FOR IT #TO LIVE TO LIVE TO LIVE

[jaxon-c6]

I don't know about you but that's how I felt during the Dead Money DLC, brought to you by Courier Six

#fallout new vegas #fnv #fallout nv #fallout art #fallout #fnv courier #courier six #courier 6 #dead money #fnv dlc #I seriously wanted sometimes load a save before I started the DLC... that's how much I both hated and loved it

[only-one-brain-cell]

PERIOD

#bridgerton #yes every Bridgerton lost their father and Violet lost her husband #but all of them expect for Anthony had been able to morn #while Anthony had to snap into the role of Viscount #imagine at 17 having to choose to save your mother or your unborn sister #man has severe PTSD not only from watching his father die but from that as well #I imagine that he will be extremely overprotective of Kate when she’s pregnant #of course Kate will know why Anthony told her why #also his mommy issues #how Violet had resented him for years #you can see it in s1 how she talks to him #it’s better in s2 but they still never got that closure until Kate’s accident #I love this man so much #every Bridgerton has had it easy (FIGHT ME) because of Anthony and I hate that they don’t see it #yes he’s cold towards his siblings WELL GEE I WONDER WHY #I hate their attitudes towards them EXCEPT for when Anthony paid for Ben to get into school that my dude was fucked up #you could have recommended him without the money and that would have been great