#i hate this dont make me look at this any longer im tired

[luvyeni]

Hello!! I hope you are doing great and are having a good day or night~🤍

I apologize if this is confusing

I was wondering if you could do a skz headcanon (ot8) where you aren't dating but you are not just friends either. (Not fwb!!)

You don't have to do this and please take good care of yourself!!

—｛🎂｝NOT TOGETHER BUT NOT FRIENDS; W/ STRAYKIDS

pairings. OT8!straykids x fem!reader

wc. 1k

warnings. seungmin's lee know and jisungs are a little suggestive,

synopsis. moments with straykids when you aren't dating but just friends either.

—｛🍰｝... CHAN ⋮ calling you baby !

you aren't dating , but you both and everyone else know that friends don't just go around calling each other baby.

"baby?" changbin and han turned to each other, confused it was only you 4 in there so who was he talking to. "is he talking to us?" han shrugged , but it surprised them more when you looked up from your phone. "yes?" chan turned around , taking his headphones handing you his card. "can you please go get me something to drink from the vending machine." you stood up grabbing his card. "thanks baby , get yourself something to." han and changbin waited for you to leave, turning to chan dumbfounded. "what's wrong with you two?" chan said. "when did you two get together?" changbin asked. "what are you talking about, we aren't together." the two shared a look. "then why are you calling her baby? friends don't call each other that." he shrugged, he can't quite remember when he started calling you that. "i guess they dont." would he ask you out? maybe , maybe not.

—｛🍰｝... LEE KNOW ⋮ sitting on his lap !

minho is aware that you guys aren't dating , but he also knows that you wouldn't just sit on his lap if you were just friends.

"come here." lee know patted his thigh , telling you to sit down. you got out of your seat , making your way over to him , sitting down in his lap without thinking, he wrapped his arm around your waist. "what are you doing?" you turned facing him. "nothing i just want to feel you." he rested his chin on your shoulder blade , he kissed your neck , you sigh. "this is dangerous territory , we're friends aren't we?" he rolled his eyes. "sure we're just friends." he leaned into your ear whispering "but i don't think friends just casually sit on their friends lap even though there are plenty of seats."

—｛🍰｝... CHANGBIN ⋮ being over-protective !

you hate how over-protective changbin is, since he's always saying you're not dating.

"it's cold." changbin walked behind you , holding a jacket in his arms to wrap you around." you scoff. "im fine , go home." you walk a head of him. "not until i get you home safely, i don't want any boys flirting with you." you whine. "why not, why can't they flirt with me , you aren't flirting with me." you stop turn to face him. "why would i flirt with you , we're just friends." he wraps the jacket around your body , you whisper into his chest. "friends aren't this overprotective from boys."

—｛🍰｝... HYUNJIN ⋮ back hug !

you say you aren't friends , but han know friends dont whispering cute shit into each other's ear

"what are you making, beautiful." hyunjin came up to you back hugging you, whispering in your ear. "this is for him." you pointed to han who sat at the table. "i'm glad you two finally got together , i was tired of watching you to pine after each other." you two both laughed. "han we aren't together." you said, han was confused , friends hold each other by the waist, whispering sweet nothings into each others ears. "well you sure aren't friends, friends don't do that."

—｛🍰｝... HAN JISUNG ⋮ kisses !

you say you're just friends but han knows friends just don't kiss each other like that.

"give me a kiss." han poked his lips out. you planted a softed kiss on his lips. "another." you gave him another. "another" you sighed , grabbing the side of his face, giving him a longer kiss on his lips, pulling away. "why do you always ask me to give you kisses, we're just friends." you said , looking down at your feet. he grabbed you by your chin , looking you in the eye. "baby , i don't know what we are , but friends just don't kiss like that."

—｛🍰｝... FELIX ⋮ cuddling !

you and felix claim you two aren't dating, but hyunjin and lee know know you don't cuddle your friends like that.

"they have to be dating , there's no way they aren't." they watched you two cuddle on the couch of the practice room , scrolling through tik toks on felix's phone. "this isn't the first time either , yesterday they were cuddled up on the couch watching a movie." lee know said. "i know last week , he literally was on top of her and they were cuddling." you both felt their stares, looking up at them. "what are you guys looking at?" you spoke up. "you guys are cute." you and felix looked at each other, back to them. "we aren't dating." you went back to watching video. hyunjin scoffed. "friends don't cuddle like that."

—｛🍰｝... SEUNGMIN ⋮ getting jealous !

seungmin knows you aren't dating, but he can't bare seeing you with anyone else but him.

"seungmin stop glaring at lee know like that." han shook his friend. "why is he so close, jesus let her breath." he rolled his eyes , mumbling. "she was supposed to be here for me anyway. "seungmin , why are you acting like this , you and ＿ are just friends." friends don't call each other out at 12 am for a date to the convince store, friends don't give each other teasing eyes from across the room, friends don't almost kiss on the very couch they're flirting with someone else on. "friends don't do the things we do."

—｛🍰｝... JEONGIN ⋮ letting you lay on top of him !

jeongin thinks it's cute , but seungmin knows that jeongin wouldn't let a friend sleep on top of him like that

"jeongin?" he shushed seungmin , his eyes peering down on your sleeping body on top of his. "she's sleeping." he whispered. "well do you and your girlfriend want to go out for food when she wakes up?" jeongin was confused, you two weren't dating , i mean he didn't let anyone sleep on him , but you were different. "she's not my girlfriend we're just friends and sure we'll go when she gets up." seungmin scoffed. "not my girlfriend my ass you wouldn't let han lay on you like that."

©️LUVYENI

#skz imagines #skz headcanons #skz x reader #skz scenarios #stray kids headcanons #stray kids x reader #stray kids reactions #stray kids scenarios #bang chan imagines #bang chan x reader #lee know imagines #lee know x reader #hyunjin x reader #hyunjin imagines #changbin x reader #changbin imagines #han jisung imagines #han jisung x reader #lee felix x reader #lee felix imagines #seungmin imagines #seungmin x reader #jeongin x reader #jeongin imagines #bang chan headcanons #lee know headcanons #changbin headcanons #hyunjin headcanons #seungmin headcanons #jeongin headcanons

[hannahlovesluca]

i was wondering if request were open if it is i would like to request for luxiem angst to fluff (separately) where the reader overworks themselves to the point where their mental & physical health r really bad then like luxiem steps in and like try to like stop u which leads to an argument then uh fluff u can add plot twists if u like !! ( im sorry if u dont understand 😭)

Only if ur request r open!! If not feel free to ignore!! - 🍡

hi 🍡!! nice to see you back here!!

| warnings: shu’s is a bit suggestive

As soon as Vox had come home, he saw you still working on that goddamn outfit.

See, you were Luca’s mama. You designed all his outfits, his hair, everything.

Right now, you were working on making him the scariest mafia boss this godforsaken world has seen.

But if you spend even a second longer working on that stupid outfit, he was going to rip you to pieces.

You deserve more than just sitting at your desk, sketching, sewing, and even knitting now and then.

And he was going to see it through that you did get more than that!

“Y/N, hey, lets go to bed, yeah? It’s midnight already, love,” he smiles at you with that charm, the one you can’t say no to.

However, tonight was different.

Tonight was dedicated to work.

“Love, come on… please?” Milord was practically begging by now.

And who were you to say no to this handsome devil?

When you (reluctantly) agreed, he scooped you up in his arms and practically threw you on the bed before laying his head on top of your stomach, finally basking in the peace surrounding you two.

Mysta frowned.

You’d been streaming over half of the day…

What has it been now..?

He checks the time on his phone.

Eleven hours.

Eleven hours you have spent staring into a screen and simply daring to dream.

Eleven hours you have spent narrating god knows what and making stupid commentary.

Well Mysta wasn’t having it!

Not only was it bad for you, it was bad for him to go this long without kisses.

Mysta texts you to come to the living room, saying he had something important to say and it couldn’t wait until after stream.

After a few minutes explaining to chat that ‘your food had arrived’ you made your way out into the living room.

“Yes, Mysta?”

“End stream.”

“Huh- what? Mysta, no. I have to keep going, they’re expecting me to.” You deject with a small smile, insisting that you had to keep going.

“Y/N, they don’t expect anything from you. You’re their entertainment, not their friend. And frankly, you’re my ____friend and I think I rank higher, hm?”

Ike couldn’t say much.

He was just as bad as you when it comes to this, but his own tendencies be damned.

He was going to make you take better care of yourself.

Was.

It wasn’t to be taken lightly.

He slowly opens your office door, looking at you hunched over your desk and taking notes about god knows what, your hands shaking and your mechanical pencil almost out of lead after having using it for over five hours straight.

As soon as he had caught your attention, without sharing any words, he swept you up into his arms and held you for what felt like forever, but in reality had only been a few minutes.

(oh god im running out of ideas)

Luca hated every second of this; he hated seeing you so overworked, hated seeing you stressed… he just hated it all.

So,

He did the only thing that made sense.

He offered his hand to you and gave you a charming grin.

"Wanna dance?"

You look at him, horrified.

“We are not dancing, Luca.”

The golden retriever-like man pouts, crossing his arms.

“Why not, baby?” He asks with a pout.

You look up from your computer and look at him with a small smile.

You were so tired and you were sure you looked awful but his sweet smile and puppy dog eyes got to you.

You take his hand.

"Well, you got me, now. I can't say no to you. But we're gonna get some food and I'm not changing into a dress."

The man beams, happy that he'd gotten his way.

And with that, Luca takes your hand and immediately brings you in for your first dance of the night.

It's slow, soft and romantic, and honestly, the two of you can't take your eyes off each other.

"I missed this, baby," he whispers.

Luca pulls you close to him as the two of you sway in place.

"Me too,” you whisper back.

You lay your head against his chest and feel your stress and exhaustion melt away.

This moment was worth everything.

"You're beautiful." He says softly, kissing the top of your head.

(i genuinely dont know what to put..😭)

Shu loves that you love work, but by God if you spend another minute at that desk he was going to go insane.

"You know I'm a simple man," he says. "all I need is a little food and a little sun, and the rest of my needs are met."

He's laying out the blanket for the afternoon.

"And if you keep this up, my food and sun time is going to be at night."

You sigh, stretching out your back. You'd been at your desk all day, trying to figure out the final parts of the puzzle to the latest quest you've been given.

The strong mafia boss himself had come to you, begging you to complete this mission and find his missing son, and the people were starting to get nervous as he had been missing for a few days.

"I'm sorry," you sigh. "I know I've been at this forever."

"It's been nearly two hours," Shu snarls.

"Sorry, sorry," you sigh. "I can tell it's getting on your nerves." You stand up and stretch out, then smile at him. "What should we do this afternoon?"

Shu's lips twitch and curl. "It's too late to go to the beach now," he says. "And honestly, the weather looks pretty bad. I was thinking, though," he smirks at you. "Since it's our first anniversary, and I was thinking, well," he motions to the blanket.

You immediately go red, lightly smacking his arm.

“Shu!”

He chuckles.

“Kidding, kidding.” He wraps his arms around you and holds you fast. "Seriously though," he murmurs. "Happy anniversary, babe."

You melt and smile, holding onto his face. "I love you."

#luca kaneshiro #ike eveland #nijisanji en #luxiem #shu yamino #mysta rias #vox akuma #luxiem x reader #ike eveland x reader #luca kaneshiro x reader #hannahlovesluca

[meraxesmoon]

Ok, but... What exactly did alicent do wrong tho... Why do people hate her (in the show ppl calm down)

Her being married to viserys was ottos doing ... She didnt have a choice she was a girl who was manipulated by her own father...

Her attacking luke was because he maimed aemond... If my son lost an eye i wouldnt stop until the person who maimed him was dead

"but lucerys was a child" SO WAS AEMOND, and he has to live with the loss of an eye

And lucerys didnt even feel bad... He was laughing when the pig was served at the table at the feast years later

The only thing that you can get her with is not being a very good mother, that i accept but blaming her for defending HER SON... girl...

Now in the book...

I do think shes mother... She such a complex character shes flawed but understands her mistakes... Dont get me wrong she is still mean and vengefull to people she deems as enemies but she has more of a heart than cersei lannister (despite some people trying to say that she is the version of cersei in hotd)

Idk... Some people just see the targaryens as superior beings and skip over their faults because they have dragons and are cooler to watch

I do think rhaenyra is the heir to the throne... But that doesnt mean that she has to be likeable to someone... Or that team black is better because she has dragons... If they werent evenly matched the war wouldnt be one of the most memorable in weteros for years to come

Im sorry for the rant... But im just tired of every team black member calling her alicunt...like... Are you twelve?

Yeah, people like to call Rhaenyra this feminist in Westerosi history, but it's just not true (at least if you believe some of the accounts in the book). Rhaenyra stans are like very extreme about her, and as a joke, that's fine, but most of them are dead serious.

I recently saw a post on TikTok that said the Driftmark scene was just Rhaenyra being a victim, and that's the most chronically online thing I've seen in a while. If you really sit down and think about it, Alicent had every reason to snap. Like, I love Rhaenyra, but she really was getting away with murder. Like, she had three illegitimate children, obviously, and just expected everyone to act like they weren't bastards.

People also say that it doesn't matter that Rhaenyra's children are illegitimate because she's heir to the throne. That makes ZERO sense, especially if you think about how that's treason and against the laws of Westeros. Alicent has every reason to feel bitter and upset about Rhaenyra pulling wool over everyone's eyes.

As for Alicent in the book, I really like her as well. Unlike Alicent in the show, she is in a huge position of power. A lot of people don't realize that she ruled ten times longer than Rhaenyra and Aegon combined. She wasn't this small little pawn being used like she is in the show. I adore both versions, but book Alicent is such a boss ass bitch! Despite her coldness and brutal behavior towards the Blacks, Alicent loves her kids so much in the books. Like, she places her own crown on Helaena's head after Aegon is crowned, she has a lot of faith in her sons, and the fact that Helaena and her children visit Alicent visit her every night before bed definitely says something about how Alicent was with her children.

Alicent in the book is pretty young when she marries Viserys, not as young as in the show. I feel like she was still sort of a victim of Otto, even in the book, but she ends up taking power into her hands because she wants to protect her children.

Notice how the people who hate Alicent would like her a lot if she was in any other type of series. They just don't like her because she's going against Rhaenyra.

Targaryen supremacists are so fucking annoying! If Alicent were a Targaryen woman they wouldn't have a problem with her, and Visenya Targaryen is a prime example of their hypocrisy (she literally usurped Aegon's son lol).

I'm Alicent's biggest defender, and I'll stay that way <3

LIKE LOOK

SHE JUST WANTS TO PROTECT HER CHILDREN

#alicent hightower #rhaenyra targaryen #otto hightower #hotd 2 #hotd #house of the dragon

[yanderes-galore]

hi im back with new requests !!

basic request, since i dont know what to do for a spooky month one.

prompt 22 + 24 with rottmnt leo ? if its to much, delete or tell me ^^

Welcome Back ^^ It's nice to see you again! Aged up as usual!

Yandere! ROTTMNT! Leonardo Prompts 22 + 24

Pairing: Romantic

"They never loved you. Only I love you."

"Don't you believe in fate? Fate wants us to be together...!"

Possible Trigger Warnings: Gender-Neutral Darling, Manipulation, Stalking, Threats, Desperation, Forced affection, Forced relationship, Unhealthy behaviors because Yandere, Leo really just casually threatens people.

Leonardo was never one for personal space. At least, that's when it came to you. No matter what you did Leo would wrap himself around you in glee upon seeing you.

You asked his brothers about it and got an answer equivalent to "That's just Leo."

It felt more than that, however. The looks Leo gave you when holding onto you were too intense to be just friendly. He was always one for attention...

Although he takes it a bit too far at times.

Whenever you're around others he'll find a way to take your attention away from them. Talking with his brothers? Looks like Leo planned an entire day centered around you and him.

Being around your other friends? Leo gives you a call saying he needs some help at the lair. Help meaning attention.

Leonardo was someone who needed constant attention. You'd think he'd just ask his brothers to hang out or something. Yet he always picks you even if the time isn't right.

"They're always busy!"

"I doubt that... you think I'm NOT busy?"

"Well, maybe I just don't want to hang out with THEM right now-"

There were times you could barely pry the turtle off from you when you left the lair.

"No no no no! Stay a little longer, okay? I PROMISE I have things for us to do!"

He was always obsessed about you. The final straw was when you heard from your friends someone was watching them. How some of them even got death threats.

All signed with an L, nothing more.

To you, it was obvious who was doing this. It made your blood boil at the idea. Was he really this petty?

"LEONARDO!"

Leo flinches when hearing your tone, his brothers looking at him in confusion.

"Oh hey! What's up?"

"I need to talk with you, you're in so much trouble...!"

Leonardo gets up and follows you to a private area. Based on your expression... he could guess why you were mad.

"Why did you think it was a good idea to send death threats to my friends!?"

"Hey, I had my reasons-"

"WHAT reasons!?"

"They were taking all of your attention... you know how much I hate that!"

"That's taking things too far, Leo!"

"But they don't deserve you!"

"What...?"

Leonardo was getting fired up too. He does all this for you and him, yet you call it unreasonable!

"They don't love you like I do!"

Leo clings to you, bringing on the water works.

"They never loved you. Only I love you."

"Leo, get off me!"

"No! I'm tired of sharing... only we get to be this close! No one else!"

"You don't OWN me, Leo! Cut it out!"

You push him off you, only making Leonardo more desperate.

"Don't you believe in fate? Fate wants us to be together...!"

"Back off! This is over! I refuse to deal with you any longer!"

"You only need ME, (Y/N)! Everyone else isn't as dedicated to you like me!"

Leo's gaze was both hurt yet aggressive. You knew he was manipulating you. You couldn't let him get to you.

You turn away from him, only for him to portal in front of you. His eyes never left you. They burned with such a desperate intensity....

"We're not done here, (Y/N)...."

"Yes we are! I don't want to be friends with you, let alone romantic part-"

You stop talking when there's a sword to your throat. He was done being manipulative, now it was time for him to be threatening.

"Enough. All of this is necessary, alright? Now, let's try this again. Only I love you..."

He makes you back up to a wall, eyes swapping from intense to strangely affectionate.

"Nothing and no one will change that, not even you."

You say nothing, silently praying the sword will be brought away from your throat.

"Now. I do believe I have something prepared for us to do!"

He pulls away, turning before looking over his shoulder. A knowing grin is on his face. A silent threat for you to comply with whatever he wants.

"You'll come and hang out like usual, won't you? All because I love you?"

#yandere tmnt #yandere teenage mutant ninja turtles #yandere rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #yandere rottmnt leonardo #yandere rottmnt #yandere leonardo

[euphoricsunflowers]

comfort from vernon after a long day of work

requested!

word count: 600 she a lil short

content: gender neutral reader, angst (kinda), comfort, fluff, reader works in food service, food mention

if vernon is anything, he’s observant. he can always tell the slightest change in your mood, like when your smile drops just a little bit but you catch yourself. your image is perfect and prestine to the rest of the world, but only he sees the signs. only he sees the tired look in your eyes right now.

“baby…”he murmurs as you collapse into him for what should be a hug, but is mostly just him supporting you like your feet couldn’t keep you up any longer. maybe they really couldn’t. it all just really worries him, “are you alright?”

you mumble some answer he doesn’t understand, but he doesn’t push it. instead, he sits down on the couch, taking you with him. he holds you against his chest and your head rests on his shoulder. he feels the tension radiating off of you, it’s honestly getting him stressed too.

“can you tell me what’s on your mind?” he asks, hoping that you’ll tell him what’s bugging you and, even if he can’t do anything about it, he knows letting it out will be good for you.

“i’m so tired to being treated like an npc,” you say. he has to stop himself from giggling, but he knows you caught him, “i’m serious! people order a hundred things and get upset when their order takes forever like they aren’t killing the poor people who work there. there was a line out the door and we were so understaffed and my shoulders hurt so bad, hansol.”

he reaches his hands up to massage your shoulders without even thinking about it, like it’s an instincts “i’m sorry, love,” he says, “you shouldn’t have to work so hard that it hurts you physically.”

you don’t mean to ignore the things he says, and he knows you dont. he supposes he’d rather say the things you’ll never hear if it meant they made it out at all, “my legs are killing me and im just so drained. i hate being treated like i’m not a person because it took a little longer than usual for someone to get their drink. it’s not fair those people can do and say whatever they want while i just have to sit there and take the verbal abuse.”

his heart aches when he sees that look on your face, you really are physically and mentally drained. he could never want this for you, no matter how much he admired your work ethic, “i know, it’s not fair, i’m sorry your day was so bad and you were treated like that, i wish i could help more. do you want me to order you food? i’ll do anything, baby, you know i will. just ask me.”

“would you please order food? that would be amazing actually,” you say, smiling at him for the first time tonight. he stops for a second to take it in. he missed it, “i’m really craving pizza.”

even in the midst of a situation like this, he’s really in love with you, which he realizes for the millionth time. he smiles, reciting the memorized pizza order in his head, “of course. go do what you gotta do and i’ll lie out your favorite pjs and then we’ll eat pizza and watch whatever stupid show on netflix just dropped, how’s that?”

“perfect,” you kiss him before you slowly get up, slowly trudging your way to the bathroom as he holds the phone up to his ear to order. he looks over towards where you figure disappeared, and he wonders just how far he’d go to make sure the bad days always have a happy ending.

#vernon #seventeen #seventeen x reader #seventeen angst #seventeen fluff #vernon x reader #chwe hansol #ajshshshs im sorry this isn’t very good #i wasn’t feeling super inspired but i had to do i for u jupiter!! i hope u like it regardless #slay

[the-cat-and-the-birdie]

I keep regurgitating my OC in your askbox but you must know that Ansi is a liar, a swindler, and a thief (because it's fun pulling on over on the rich). She is actively swindling all of her coworkers out of their money via phishing emails or just giving a sob story to those who are particularly generous with their funds. (Don't feel bad they're all selfish, entitled, and egotistical. The Alchemax of her world is mostly just rich people who think that they understand science kinda like someone we know irl cougheloncough. They have too much time on their hands and too many friends in power. Ethics laws are pretty much meaningless. They only give her money to make themselves look better. They make a big stink about how they're making a change for their community and blah blah blah. Anyways.) If she doesn't need the cash she'll most likely donate it.

What's really funny is that she attempted to do the same as soon as she arrived at HQ. Much to Miguel's dismay. She got some of the spiders who live in an older dimension. Unfortunately after a while Lyla had to teach them about internet safety.

Ansi ended up scoping the place out to see what she could steal to sell for parts back in her home world since her scams were no longer effective. However she was so mesmerized by all of the tech there that she ended up keeping most of her stolen goods for herself to tinker with. Her and Hobie usually find themselves in the same areas snatching stuff and exchanging potential ideas for what to do with the parts. Disco has caught them a number of times with their pockets stuffed to the brim sounding like they got pockets full of loose change before they just pop back into their respective dimensions.

(Who am I kidding Hobie probably stays and denies everything when asked. Ansi is too tired to lie from lugging her loot around so she just goes straight home.)

I LOVE THIS SO MUCH

It would turn into like a whole operation cause game recognize game!!!! Disco would respect Ansi so much cause black spider-women gotta stick together and she lets Ansi get away with anything, sets aside parts for her cause she's like 'hell yeah fuck miguel he doesn't need it'

but with Hobie she's the OPPOSITE.

Ansi's like 'yeah Discos cool with it ur fine' then one day she catches him and he's thinking 'oh it's the groupie girl i wink and im outta here'

until Disco is like

"Is that Hobie Brown??? Is HOBIE BROWN over here STEALING???? That's crazy!"

Because Disco runs game in her own way and up until that very moment she was playing the airhead groupie card

Hobies like "????Surely ur taking the piss"

And she's like "You know what'd be crazy?? Me not having to pay cover at your show this weekend, rightttt? You know what'd be even crazier..me being VIP, rigghhttt?

cause for the first couple weeks of knowing her she let him get away with the wink and flirt thing cause she thought it was funny. but she works in a nightclub back home and she's NOT about to play that

Disco was raised by the Panthers so she knows how to collect and trade information like an informat. So she trades info and other stuff around HQ ALL the time.

She's the plug for anything - if you wanna hack ur watch she dont know how to do it but she knows someone he does, if u need to get into lylas systems for any reason she wont do that but she knows someone who will

but she doesnt accept cash cause she doesn't need it and she doesn't 'get into no mess'

(And this may sound unhinged but this is my favorite one jgkbdknbg)

My main HC is that the first time she does it to get into a show free but the next time she asks for his guitar pick cause she just wants it

she starts wearing it (which Jess HATES) but suddenly she realizes theres a couple girlies on campus telling her they'd do anything for one of Hobie's picks and then suddenly she's asking him for more

She starts giving groupies picks and getting information from every department and then like two weeks later the hobie brown fanclub is just a full on info network

Working with Jess and the club she collects all the underground info and shares the information with Hobie ON THE CONDITION that the club gets free entry into shows and he keeps giving her goddamn guitar picks

He'd try to get around it and be like "Diane, love - you're looking fit today :)) about that meeting with Jess and Miguel you were in-"

and she's just like "uh-huh-

"Where's the pick? And don't say you ain't got it on you, I know you do." Cause one thing about Diane is you ain't playing her. And Hobie goes along with it because 1) Disco is actually really trustworthy, 2) it's damn good info about the society, and 3) he thinks it REALLY funny to see people walking around campus trading and collecting his picks for the sole fact it pisses Miguel off SO MUCH.

Suddenly people are talking in meetings and whispering about guitar picks and trying to get their hands on rare, unique ones cause Hobie etches his logo into every one

and one day Ansi's hanging with Hobie and Disco comes up to him and is like 'Pick, please'. And Ansi watches as he hands it over and she's like "?????? What's happening here"

I have to PHYSICALLY STOP MYSELF HERE I CAN GO ON AND ON IM SORRY THIS IS SOOOOO LONG BUT PLEASE!!! I love this please send more!! I love hearing about Ansi and Hobie and causing havok and an underground rebellion in the Society!!! And sorry I got so carried away I just love this idea, you can send any you have, I'm down! They would all get along so well lol

#spidersona stuff #And IM ABOUT TO SEND U OC QUESTIONS IF THATS OKAY #spidersonas #spidersona #hobie brown x oc #spider-man #spiderman #spiderpunk #oc stuff #atsv #hobie brown

[thewarnerbrothers]

alright i gotta say something

you really cant do anything when you have a moderately popular blog huh

look. im a lurker at heart. i just happen to have one issue: not being able to shut up when im interested in something. thats the only reaaon this blog exists. i didnt come here to make friends, though i ended up doing that along the way

i dont want or need your pity. what i need is for people i dont know at all to stop putting me under a microscope

newsflash: i dont matter. follower count doesnt matter. at all. do you know what its like having thousands of eyes on you all the time? it sucks

i literally cant do anything

if i block literal strangers, they get mad and try to publicly shame me for it. if i try to settle disputes amicably in private, its seen as bad. if i attempt to be open and transparent with modding decisions, its bad. if i ask people to actually talk to me, they dont. instead they kick up a frenzy in private to coordinate a stupid mass hissy fit disproportionate to any perceived slight they may have endured. if i make friends, people take it personally. people see that as some sort of insult. i cannot be friends with everyone. i wont. this hurts strangers feelings, dspite me not existing for their pleasure.

some of you feel very entitled to my time. you dont own me. i dont owe you anything. ive tried to not lose the few molecules of my mind left on a regular basis because of some people who are no longer in this fandom, and some who still are. and man. i am just. tired. of everyone. all the time.

i think even more than the fact that this series was released (mainly) as a bingewatch fest, what killed this fandom was you

not necessarily you, whoever is reading this. i mean the fans. in general. some of you are so annoying, rude, inappropriate, and willfully lacking in social skills. youre over dramatic. youre moody. youre dramamongering. youre liars. youre bullies. youre self-ascribed victims. you dont care about other human beings.

youre repulsive, frankly

you are part of the reason people have been leaving the fandom in droves. the homophobia. the transphobia. the ship hate. the inability to treat other people with basic human decency. the manufactured scandals. shut up and grow up

you know why i barely interact with larger fandom anymore? ill tell you

waves of harassment to varying degrees ad nauseam

creeps who refuse to even try to keep their fetishes to themselves in private groups that include minors

abusers (most of whom are thankfully now gone)

people befriending me only to reveal that they dont actually like or care about me as a person

the most willfully socially inept people to ever exist

nosy jerks who literally cannot stand not sticking their nose in personal problems that have nothing to do with them

people treating me and my blog like im google adsense. im not a billboard guys

people deciding i am evil for no apparent reason? sdkjfalsdjfa

thinly veiled anythingphobia pretending to be socially just (hi homophobes who imply that being lgbt by nature is 'adult')

people who just make things up. all the time. just make up a lie, say it passionately enough. if you try to defend yourself, youre seen as guilty/suspicious. if you try to resolve things quietly with only those involved, you're seen as guilty/suspicious. cant win

wankers who need to learn why parasocial relationships arent actually meant to be embraced wholeheartedly

really lame one-off trolls tbh

the most fandom discourse-poisoned takes i have seen since su hatedom was at its peak

im just tired of being nice all the time? i think you guys just like taking advantage of people you imagine to be good targets

listen. i am allowed to do whatever i want, regardless of how you feel about it. the same thing goes for you. i tend to try to resolve things reasonably and rationally, but i wont pretend ive never gotten mad or overreacted or made a decision i regret. ive made that pretty known. i like to think i've grown, and ive gone out of my way to apologize to people.

however.

some of yall do not understand that just because your feelings got hurt, it doesnt mean you are deserve an apology or an explanation. sometimes it literally is just a you problem. a skill issue. you need to grow thicker skin. learn how to curate your online experience. get. over it.

lets talk about blocking, shall we?

blocking is great. i block people all the time. i block bots, i block tag spammers, i block people who make posts with rancid vibes, i block people who ive personally interacted with and no longer wish to, i block because i get tired of seeing someones posts, i block people who post things that trigger me, i block blogs with icons i dont like. there's usually no grand reason for it, aside from egregious cases where i've been harassed. its also usually not personal. i will block people who ive followed for years. i dont care. i dont know most of yall. i know i've been blocked by tons of people and that's okay! i would rather people who don't want to interact with me do that.

if you get blocked, thats it. dont attempt to contact me again unless i reach out. im not the only blog in this fandom. youll live without my posts. i am not the arbiter of all things animaney.

im just some guy

i know that the people who need to hear this most will not care nor will they actually absorb what i'm saying. ive gotten a lot of hate over the dumbest crap. im done. i think i need to stop trying to be so friendly, because some of you think being a little pissbaby is the only way to interact with others online.

cant wait til i finally explode one day and just delete everything

tldr shut up leave me alone oh my god its not that big a deal jesus christ

#if youre gonna treat me like shit regardless i get to be upset about it #bleh

[neptune-ian]

idk about you but I have such little relationship experience that I do not even have an ex, I do not get why some people online who are not in a relationship why they might react like it is such a must have? if no one is ever going to date me it is fine by me sure I might be missing out on whatever "romance" there is but honestly no one has taken a single interest in me whatsoever. so if I die being single then I die being single (& a virgin lol).

I think nowadays its actually harder to meet someone, first of all it cost so much just to go out and generally you need a social circle or some type of success or popularity to get any recognition from the other gender. The way women dress does not suit me one bit, but sadly I think I would have to alter the way I am somehow and that just makes me feel sad like I am not enough currently.

the sad reality is that if we do not wear makeup we do not get attention, if we do not wear skimpy clothes we do not get attention, if we are not loud and obnoxious we do not get attention, if we do not go out partying theres even less chances of meeting someone full stop in fact it sometimes feels like my existence gets ignored frequently. it really seems like such a hassle just to find a partner like if I were to ever date anyone I would constantly be fretting about how I looked or dressed or if the guy would just up and leave to find someone else bc I dont behave like every other girl or woman nowadays

if theres one thing I am exhausted about is having to fit in like every other woman who needs a partner then tney have kids blah fucking blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh that or it is like the feeling of not being able to be romantic enough due to lack of experiences. I honestly do not know of a single guy who would willingly date someone who lacks so much experience

trying to exist and not feel behind fucking sucks bruh im ready for this shit to be over with so I no longer have to fret about not having done it all like everyone else. I do feel like there is a portion of society that is getting ignored due to similar reasons but why should I have to be like every other woman? also you see in kpop how the women dont generally act how they normally would for example they make them so feminine and dainty or like they are porcelean dolls , honestly it is no wonder they get so much attention from guys cause they really are pretty but do I have to be pretty as well? the difference between many dancers and idols is quite astonishing and honestly i liked a lot of the dancers on swf more so than some female idols as they didnt force themselves to be dainty females who had to do aegyo and be cutesy innocent or pure lol

I do think it is just never going to happen for me like sure people might say everyone has a soulmate blah fucking blahhhhhhhh but at the same time situations come up where you may never meet them in this life or any life time so whats the point in even being desperate and I feel like even the younger generation of kpop idols are somewhat unable to not have some type of standard as well cause its the industry they are in. honestly a lot of the idols dont really so themselves much justice in that they dress similarly or act ro talk similarly theres not much that separates them from everyone else. If I had to also be honest some of tnem do come across as having blnd or typical personalities of someone who is rich and pretty like they dont have much else to show for (sorry just being honest) they would make for boring partners i tnink. esp if many young koreans think that being cute is going to get them a guy or that style that I cannot pronounce but its that overly girly style, yeah I hate that

sorry for my rambling but I am so tired of thinking about this shit

Well… I could say I am a lucky looser? Or just too selective. I have never been in a relationship and don’t even know if I ever will be but I had quite some romantic/unserious offers in my life… even when it was not offers, I just know that the guy is/was attracted to me. I always rejectef them or showed them that I was not interested in a relationship at all (which is a lie) or because I was not attracted to them.

I would not say it’s harder but men have their preferences and their likes of the moment. Woman have their preferences and what they look for in a partner for a long term. Basically it’s the same for both but I wanted to highlight the nuance between them. Nowadays people are too self centered or superficial do it feels harder indeed, but so many people (and in fact every human being) want a meaningful and long lasting partnership but they can’t find it because now everyone wants to be known, cool, popular, different, out of the box, free to the point of being amoral… which is a big stop to pursue a significant relationship.

But I agree with you, depending on the culture (in that case SK) and the time (21century) things change and are perveived differently so of course korean will have expectations tgzt are as unrealistic as other countries’s expectations. They value superficiality a lot… but many countries are the same as well (western celebs are an example too). It will change over time… but that’s what make things harder to meet your fs if you do have one.

However anon you may have not understood the power of free will. Whether or not you have a destined fs is not up to you, however what is up to you is your will to have an fs : your friend, colleague, enemy (to lovers), neighbor… could all be your fs if both of you want yo marry one another! They could or could not be soulmate but no one is forced to marry the destined person nor a soulmate. You can marry someone you don’t have any soul tie with and the married life coild be still wonderful compared to the idols (for ex) that may or may not end up with their soulmate. You do NOT have to be with whoever have been choosed for you in the spiritual realm, you are free to marry your destined fs as much as a soulmate as much as a person you just feel good with though there us nothing transcendent between the two of you.

#neptune’s talk #neptune’s anon ask

[wander-wren]

there’s always comment tips floating around tumblr but today it’s MY TURN BABEY i’m not covering Every Possible Comment, just my personal tips and tricks

pick a few default phrases. write them down even if you want!! my go-tos are “i love this so much” and “thank you for writing/sharing!!” and “omg this is perfect.” sometimes all of them together! i’m an overachiever so i usually go more in-depth, but just these sorts of things is great too

straight up just describe what you’re doing. “it’s 2am and im going to be so tired tomorrow but it was worth it i love this so much” (look theres a default phrase!!) “i’m sitting here crying into my chicken nuggets oh my god” “i laughed so hard reading this i woke up my dog”

if its a multi-chapter, try to predict whats coming! in a nice way, not demanding or “if xyz does/n’t happen i’ll riot” (unless its something guaranteed to happen, like “if [tagged pairing] dont get over themselves and kiss soon i’ll scream.”). esp if the fic is ongoing!! i’ve changed directions of longfics slightly bc of what readers predicted!! fanfic is a communal activity!!

speaking of ongoing fics: feel free to express excitement for future chapters but dont demand them, and DEFINITELY don’t let that be the only thing you say. “update soon!” is different from “oh wow i loved this bc xyz, cant wait to see what happens next!” the former makes it feel like a thankless chore, they latter feels like encouragement.

if a fic is not usually up your alley but you liked it, say so! just be polite. “i dont usually read [ship] but i was curious and i liked this bc xyz” is cool!! “i usually hate [ship] bc its gross/weird/toxic/etc and Other People always write [insert common trope] but this one was good” is less cool. you dont need to trash on the thing the author clearly likes, but it IS nice to know i could open you up to a new idea or something!

pick a line, any line, that made you laugh or “aww” or cry or get angry or ANYTHING. paste it in the comment box. write “this made me [insert emotion/reaction]” or “YESS/NOOO [character name]” or “oh my god i love this” or whatever floats your boat

if you want to go above and beyond, if i’m reading a longer work that i can already tell is gonna be a favorite, i just open the notes on my phone and copy paste all my favorite lines with my reactions as i go, then bam, ready-made comment

can guarantee (source: me) it will make a writer’s WEEK bc its like, barely any extra effort but it shows what made the most impact, and sometimes it makes someone see their stuff in a new light bc maybe they didn’t expect the line to hit that way! but woah! its so cool how different people experience art!!

also, comment when you reread. comment on older fics. if authors ask for suggestions or take requests, ASK. you get a thing you want, authors get interaction and cool fun ideas, it’s a win-win! everyone else is just as awkward and anxious and starved for human communication as you i SWEAR

also leave nice things in bookmarks bc that EXTRA makes my day when i remember to check once every six months. plus it helps future me remember why i bookmarked it

#wren wrambles #ao3 #comments #fanfiction #fandom #fandom etiquette #comment etiquette #i havent been getting bad comments or anything i only got one hate comment in my life #i just felt like putting this out there #and i kept thinking of stuff to add whoops

[lucy-fake]

thoughts on LSD

tw mental health and discussion of drugs

i have a tendency to fall back into habit. when im the one holding the reins for my life, it's so much easier to just do the same things everyday rather than to perpetually be planning out new things to do. this is problematic for a few reasons. for one, at the end of my life i don't want to look back and realize it was all a monotonous blur. but also, while my autism values having a daily routine, my adhd hates it. if i do the same thing everyday i eventually get bored and cannot bring myself to keep up with it. these two fight a war with each other, and the end result of that war is that i usually end up doing nothing at all.

every time i try to get into a healthy routine i slowly strip away all the little steps in it, one by one. one day i dont want to get up early, because im so fucking tired of getting up early, so i sleep in that day, and then one day becomes two, and then getting up at a set time is no longer part of my routine. i don't have time to take a walk one day, because i slept in late, so i stop doing it for one day, and then one day becomes two, and then taking a walk is no longer part of my routine. this also happens with brushing my teeth, eating a proper breakfast, taking a shower, doing my remote work, etc (i still do these things but irregularly). soon it collapses and all that's left is, i wake up at whatever time i wake up, and then i get on the computer, and when i get too tired to stay awake i go to bed. i eat when i cant go any longer without eating and i shower when i cant go any longer without showering, but those are more hindrances that get in the way of wasting time on the computer. i recognize this pattern but it's difficult to stop it, because it requires no energy to continue wasting time on the computer, and doing anything other than wasting time on the computer would be a devation from the routine i've now settled into. what a mess - even writing this right now is more than i usually do.

when i say wasting time on the computer i do mean wasting time. scrolling social media, chatting on discord, and sometimes watching youtube videos, but rarely anything else. there are lots of productive things i could use a computer for - i could do my work, i could look for other jobs, i could make videos, i could make mashups, i could write stories or scripts, i could learn the new skills i've been wanting to gain. but i don't. i could even do things not typically thought of as productive like watching tv shows and movies i've been meaning to, playing games i've been meaning to, listening to music i've been meaning to, but i'm usually not doing those either. those require commitment, and that commitment to doing something other than nothing doesn't vibe with the routine i've fallen into. besides, if i started a big project and it took longer than a few days to complete, i'd probably get tired of doing that too.

this all makes it out to sound like i'm depressed, and i'm not going to dismiss that as a factor - i have been depressed at points. but while my tone in describing this rut isn't particularly excited for obvious reasons, i'm really feeling fine at the moment. i had the motivation to write all this, didn't i? i think ultimately tho, when you've been alive for long enough to be an adult, it can just become more difficult to find novelty in the same things you've seen everyday for your entire life. there's a massive beautiful world outside but it's a constant unchanging presence so i eventually learn to tune it out. having community helps, but my irl friends are too far away to hang out with more than once a week at most, and all it takes is a few days of not messaging them for it to turn into months of not messaging them. and because this is my own life, i don't have anyone in charge of me who can make sure i do the things that will make me feel better.

…..at this point, if you're still reading, you might be wondering why this post is titled "thoughts on LSD". let's get to that now!! LSD and psychedelics in general are characterized in pop culture mainly as causing you lose touch with reality and get lost in a world of trippy kaleidoscopic hallucinations. that is something that they can do, if you take particularly high doses, and maybe some people take them just for that. but the visuals have always been the most boring aspect of them for me. i'm more interested in the less literal way that they can change how i see things.

i'm writing primarily about acid because while i think mushrooms are great too, i haven't taken a full dose of them in a while, typically just smaller doses while out dancing with friends (which can also do positive things for my mental health, but that's another story). what i like about acid is that it strips away all those feelings of habit. it makes everything seem new to me again. sure, it makes stuff look kinda Weird too, but to me there's a greater sense of appreciating things for what they actually are. there are so many little details to everything you've been conditioned to stop taking notice of. the cracked paint in my room is beautiful, the rustling of trees outside is beautiful, the whole earth is beautiful - this is all still true without the acid, but when i've fallen back into habit, i can forget to pay enough attention to notice it.

on acid those feelings of "i can't do _ because i never do that" are gone too. i'd been meaning to put up the posters in my room for ages but was always paralyzed thinking about how to start it. on acid, i want to put the posters up, so i take them out and start putting them up!! i want to clean my room, so i just get up and start cleaning - it's kinda fun, even!! i want to try out my camera at the park, so i grab my camera and take a walk there and take so many pictures because everything around me is so beautiful !! i don't come up with reasons for why i can't do these things, i just think "why don't i just do it?" and then i do it. and when i think that, i'm right - there's no real reason why i can't do any of these things normally. i just forget that sometimes when i get out of the habit of doing them.

this next bit is something that truly stunned me!! i've been on-and-off practicing my voice training for years and made some amount of progress but never fully got the hang of it. i understood what i needed to be doing to get it to sound better, but it was difficult to actually do it because it's such a departure from the way i've spoken for my entire life. one time on acid though, i forgot the habit of how i usually talk. i was feeling a lot of gender euphoria, and i felt feminine in my head, so i just went to talk and…. it was a perfect feminine voice. the one i had never been able to do. all of a sudden it was coming almost completely effortlessly because i had a chance to start from zero. NOW GRANTED, though i was doing the voice great for the rest of that day and in the next few days while i was in the afterglow from it, that ease did eventually wear off. since then i've been back to on-and-off struggling with being able to get it into the right place. but i'm definitely better off with my voice than i was before, and just the fact that that happened at all renewed my hope for voice training and gave me the push to keep at it.

i mentioned the afterglow in that last paragraph. i'm lucky enough to have not had a bad trip yet, partly because i take set and setting seriously and partly because i've never had a desire to push the dosage too high. so if all goes well during the trip i usually continue to feel good after the lsd wears off - most noticeably for the rest of the same day, but more subtly i'll be feeling rejuvenated for at least a few days afterward and have an easier time bypassing my usual mental blocks. one time i was even feeling wonderful and at peace for weeks after i took it!! but sometimes the next day is just a regular old monday. the afterglow isn't something to bet on, and if you take it often it'll probably begin to feel less and less magical. physically there's not much risk associated with taking acid too often, you can't overdose on it or anything, but liiiiikeee it just generally isn't great to become dependent on a substance to feel normal. plus the fact that it costs money.

in case it needed to be said, acid is not a cure-all!! as my weird transphobic plug once said, you can have the most profound revelations on psychedelics and it won't make a difference if you don't continue to work on yourself when you're sober. that's something i'm still struggling with of course, but i try to keep it in mind. and also this whole post was mainly focused on mental health since that's what's been on my mind recently, but i need to say it - psychedelics are fun!! it's fun to dance on them and watch movies and stuff on them (be careful with what u watch tho) and while you're on them it can just feel like everything is fun!! like, they are recreational drugs, i'm def not in denial about that. but people are already aware of that, and at least for me, they can be really helpful too.

the last thing i want to say is. while i usually try to avoid looking into the mirror on acid (a good rule of thumb, certainly don't try it if u dont know what ur doing), there was one time where i wanted to face myself and i did it. i was looking at my reflection, and at first i thought i looked nice, and my face started to morph to look prettier in response to that. but then the self doubt and dysphoria came in, and my reflection started to look weirder and more masculine. and as i was standing there i asked myself an honest question - "Yes or no, do you believe it that you're a girl?". i thought about it. and the answer was yes. then i asked myself another question - "In spite of all your flaws, do you love yourself?". i thought some more, and the answer was also yes. and in that moment, not only did my reflection become easier to look at, but i felt so much joy and relief. and while i still doubt myself from time to time, when it happens i try to just think back to that and remember. i am a girl, and i love myself.

soooo why am i writing this? um. i dunno!! i wanted to get my thoughts out, share my experiences, thought maybe at least one other person would find it helpful (sorry if you didn't!). tho i do want to make clear that these are just my experiences. if reading this makes anyone want to try lsd, please dont just rush into it with no further research. i've had great experiences on it, but some people have absolutely terrible experiences on it. even if you don't have a bad trip some people just might experience the drug completely differently than i do and wonder what the hell i'm talking about. it depends on so many personal factors. if you want to learn more, here is a good place to start:

#ramble

[lordmushroomkat]

hi sorry to place a mild rant here i just cant do journaling to myself. So i got diagnosed with pcos and i just got birth control to take. And i dont know how to feel about it. Im genderqueer but not ready to come out and like E was the only option they gave me and since im a teen i didnt know, still dont know, how, if, when i can tell these people that i dont think this is what i want. Im writing this right before im supposed to take my first pill and im scared. Scared i will hate it and will have to live with that because i just cant come out. But im also scared it will make me feel better. Do as my mom says and make me less tired, less cranky. Im scared that when she says that she is doing this because its the best for my health, that she is scientfically right. And my dr even mentioned how i didnt seem to care about anything they were talkin about (pills-side effects, “benefits”) but like after the fact i realized that i could have said that i didnt care because all that she wasnt going to improve my life in any fucking meaningful way. Like body hair? Love it. Or well i would like to remove some not all of it, and not feel like in removing like stomach hair that i was agreeing that i was a women or that hair is disgusting. Because i would remove hair for myself ya know. Not for the preconcieved idea of who i am and how i should look. And acne? If i cared id actually put my acne cream on. Fertility? Dont want children, and they talked about unwanted random fertility but im ace and sex repulsed. Beyond the first visit they didnt even mention cancer. Ive been telling myself im going to take these pills to prevent cancer in uterine lining. And im scared to look up how true thag is. I mean on how e decreases these helath risks. Im scared theyre right. Im scared their wrong. I will fucking riot if they are lying because that means this is for nothing. Im scared it wont give me gender dysphoria, scared i will have dysphoria because it wull peel layers off the dissasosiation i face. and before all this i was planning on making my mom a presentation about intersex people and gender. Because shes supportive just a littl confused and not radical, im radical because grief has made me angry and i want to let her in on it ig. But i dont think i can do that anymore. Because i would have pointed myself out as intersex. Imply she could be too if she liked the label. But im scared that her being cis, and having struggled with weight and eating when she was a teen (and that pcos effects weight) would mean she would hate the idea. Would call me wrong or cite drs. She told me to shave under my arms once, for the convience when traveling light on vacation so that deodorant worked better?? And hours after she said it i realized if i existed for ease i would crase to exist. But im worried whats a good ease for her would be a killer for me. Idk anymore. i guess any advice? But that will probably be to come out and i dont think i can do that. any research or resources that proves im allowed to be angry? I think im just looking for people to tell me im normal for feeling this way. Having a bad day. Thanks for any.. help? Hope this wasnt triggering or anything, i just saw that you were nonbinary with pcos too- and yea. Okay bye

I really don't know if I'm the right person to answer this. I was already out as non-binary for years before I got my PCOS diagnosis. When they said "take these pills" I asked about the other options and they gave me none so I simply refused to take the pills. But I'm like,,, I don't super care about the negative affects of PCOS. I'm casually suicidal all the time and I'll keep living for my family but if something kills me I'm pretty alright with it. I don't really expect to live much longer than like, a handful of decades and like honestly the world is on fire so it'll probably be shorter. So like, my perspective on this is not necessarily a super healthy one? I'm fairly apathetic about my own existence.

But like, I understand your struggle here with wanting to explain the PCOS=intersex connection to your mom but knowing she'll respond poorly because she also has PCOS.

I really don't have any solid advice here. Just... I guess, consider really carefully how you want to feel in your body. If you've been enjoying the superficial changes the PCOS has done to your body with this weird little second puberty, maybe you should consider advocating for yourself a little more firmly about it. Your future health is important but so is your current comfort in your body.

#PCOS intersex #gender experiences #queue

[captainadwen]

my investment in genshin this time around has been much much shorter lived than expected

this is just a sleep-deprived 5 am rant bc i cannot sleep

i mean, part of it might be spoilers but also the lack of building up to plot that I missed (since my friend played some of the story while using my account as an alt). the issue is that i dont care enough about inazuma’s plot to look it up and see what happened. like ive met ei. i did her second quest. i know enough about raiden shogun to guess. i dont give a single fuck about kujo sara so watching her short-lived fallout from ideology is frankly unappealing. kokomi i liked only bc of a fancomic and the in-game version is much more disappointing. i still forget gorou exists. doing kazuha’s quest is frankly wasting the time i spend alive. i think there’s other characters in inazuma but i keep forgetting who they are so it’s like, whatever

why are itto and shinobu the only two characters from inazuma i actually like???

it is just impossible for me to be invested in inazuma story, and the same issue is happening in sumeru. sumeru the problem is a mix of spoilers but also that i am SO DONE with the traveler having three personality traits

1. i single-handedly saved countries. pay my allies no mind. isn’t it great i owned the jade chamber and that the anemo god is still awol and whatever the fuck went down in inazuma?

2. busybody

3. omg, sUCH a HERo

i really hate it!!!

every time i think im getting invested the focus shifts from characters and their interactions (i thought!!! little sick rich lady and body guard pyro lady and dancer hydro lady had a nice thing going on!!!) back to the traveler and their bullshit quest to go see the dendro archon (for what???? honestly if the writers REALLY cared about the story the motivation would stop being flimsy-ass lets travel teyvat uhuhuh and more ‘that dainsleif fellow is my closest link to finding my awol sibling and if i cannot find my sibling or the god that yeeted us here then by GOLLY i will track dainsleif and other khaen’riah survivors/relics across teyvat until i find one of them again)

(which like!!! could work really well for inazuma and sumeru bc 1. vision stopping might be sus enough for traveler to suspect abyss involvement. but also they got hit really bad by the cataclysm and 2. i havent done the quest yet but there’s a huge-ass ruin guard??? just lying around??? also the irminsul tree links whatnot)

MY POINT IS

i really hate that there’s no motivation to travel around and i hate the boastful traveler and i hate paimon’s screechy voice (i went back to see clips of mond and her voice is SO MUCH LESS SCREECHY) and i really, really fucking despise the grinding

why does every new character need a specific artifact. why do we have to grind so much. if i want to use any of my cast of characters i have to grind the fuck out of them first or they die in three seconds or do nothing. heaven forbid your character scale off anything but attack or hp with how rare things like energy recharge are. like

i thought it was just that i disliked fighting games. im kinda bad at them. and i dont like genshin fighting. i keep wanting to play a ton of rpgs (assasin’s creed, mass effect), but i get tired thinking about fighting. but then i realized, im like 40+ runs in on hades and still going strong. and that game is pure combat.

i just hate games where the combat feels meaningless

at least in hades i know each run brings me slowly closer to escaping the underworld. in genshin after grinding for a full hour (a bit longer than a long slow run in hades) i’ll be lucky if i got anything of use. maybe if you just fight bosses for ascension materials. otherwise get fucked

it just exhausts me and not even puzzles or exploration can make me not feel tired at the idea of playing (And god, i hate the aranara quest run around collecting seeds things.... it could be worse but it could also just be lile. a puzzle instead of dash dash dash con)

anyway i think imma take another break, probably shorter since genshin is what i play when i am bored simply bc its there and easy and i can quit after 5 mins with zero progress lost. a realization brough to you by the realization i was only logging in to get primos for nahida, who i have not met and whom spoilers did not endear me to (also she’s a kid character and except for klee i universally am extremely indifferent to them), whom i was told is “ultra good” for fighting and spiral. and who i’d still have to build up. on the off chance i win 50/50

yeah, no

#anyway the fact that every genshin player who likes the characters and the story just has an elaborate version of the plot and characterizat #where things are actually good #explains a lot about the hugely disparate characterization styles in fic and comic #aLSO ON THAT NOTE #the huge cast of pullable characters from the get-go is such a bad move story-wise #bc u do not have enough time to get invested in a character before they ship you off to the next money grub #like i get why they do it #gatcha game and all #but like #mond and liyue each kept a cast with you side-by-side from the start #mond it was jean starters diluc and venti #so 6 characters #and liyue it was childe and zhongli #so 2 #and the others got peppered in as needed #but inazuma kept punting you off to new gatcha waifu every three scenes and sumeru is doing the same #ffs

[highcourts]

(In continuation from the last one 😌, no art this time cause m tired)

Human?? No. Its Wonder. My name isnt Human, dont call me that.. please i mean! Like i dont call you Fairy man, I’ll call you Jesse. Or prince Jesse? I dont know what you normally go by. Literally just kind of going off what i’ve heard others say-

Still I’ll shuffle on inside while i go on my half-logical rant to this poor prince. I’ll only get quiet when im actually inside & looking at everything in absolute awe because- like- i’ve never actually been inside anywhere this nice before?? This is cool-

Yknow- Jesse, Prince- whichever- i kind of expected a swift death or something from you. I didn’t really think i’d get inside.. where can i go now? :0?? Can you show me around?

the nerve.

jesse's back was facing you, and god – was he thankful. one look at your face and he would've impaled you then and there, then go about his day like it was nothing. because you were nothing. your death would mean nothing.

he ignores the sudden ache in his heart, because deep down – he didn't want to lose you.

yet if he didn't lose you , you'd be his downfall. his ruin. he won't go down so easily. he never will, not anytime soon. not without you beside him.

whatever.

don't expect him to follow your orders , knave.

"well then, wonder.. "

he lived to surpass those expectations, after all.

some scatterbrained sack of spoilt flesh you are. giving him your name so freely, urging you to call him that same exact name. do you not know what you have just gotten yourself into?

he doesn't think he can stand you any longer.

one.

" first & foremost , to be able to address a prince by his first name is impossible if you're a lesser. address me as either prince jesse or your highness. i will not stand for anything else , here on. i demand your utmost respect. "

he enunciated his words in a way that demanded no arguments, hoping your tiny little human brain would remember. if you were stupider than he had assumed, he'd just drill it into your brain. or he'd just drill into your brain. depends on how irritated he gets with you.

two.

he witnessed as you went silent, and smirked. the diamante palace has always had this effect on visitors, and he was glad - it filled him with pride to know his kingdom remained beautiful through all these years.

I love you.

three.

foolish human, if you had irked him enough to be at his mercy during the first meeting - he would've made your death slow & painful...

" ... i am no murderer , not today atleast. "

one day , he will soil his hands with your blood.

" i let you in because you intrigued me. nothing more, nothing less. " he stated, evenly.

four.

" you will be shown around, if that's what you so wish, but not by me. i'm sure you forget that I am a prince , wonder . i have endless duties. " looking around, he spotted a nearby servant and beckoned them over. then, he leaned into them closer and spoke in an indistinguishable language. the servant nodded. jesse's gaze settled onto you once more.

"they will be the one touring you throughout the castle, but for now –" jesse's eyes softened the tiniest bit, exposing what he thought was subtle annoyance - on the contrast, actually. it showed you he seemed to care.

" it is late, twenty minutes to midnight. " he revealed. " put yourself to rest. "

you did, guided by the servant [ whom you came to know as eden. ] to one of the palace's very luxurious guest rooms, of which only the noblest deserve - yet who were you to need to know that ? you're just happy you got somewhere to pass out.

meanwhile, jesse stood still. in that same hallway.

seething.

he hated you. alot. for making him feel like this. to feel like you, a stupid, weak, mortal's equal? disgusting.

he'll make sure you know your place.

hello everyone ! friendly reminder that if you do not imply or plainly state that you are in an established relationship with jesse, he will have homicidal thoughts and mistake his love with hatred, since fae do have a hard time processing their emotions and do sometimes have a lack of empathy.

he is in his ✨️ villain era ✨️ /hj

#faetown #faetown interactions — jesse #4town x reader #4town jesse x reader #jesse x reader #4town #turning red x reader #jesse 4town #4town jesse #turning red 4town #turning red #disney x reader

[thoughts-and-gayers]

ive been thinking about civil rights recently, specifically trans rights, as thats a marginalized group im a part of thats actively being hurt. i see people talking about the awful things done to trans people, the hate speech, the bills signed into law that make it dangerous for us to even exist. its terrifying to me, to think that im going to be leaving high school and entering a world that actively wants to kill me.

i just watched jessie gender's multi-hour video on jk rowling, and it articulated so many of my thoughts about transness in our. current society that i had no idea how to say. one thing she emphasized was how talking about these specific people, these little one-off incidents, is counterproductive. obviously things like hogwarts legacy and "what is a woman" matter, but should we really be talking about them as much as we are when anti-trans bills are passed faster than we can keep track of?

the way our society is right now, short and snappy thoughts about those tiny 24 hour stories are the only thing that gets attention. when you talk about trans rights, youre saying "dont support harry potter", youre not saying "stop the us government from actively hurting trans people".

but people dont listen when you talk about the big stuff. talking about the latest drama is much more entertaining than talking about the actual horrors that people are facing. we're at a point where we can call pointing and laughing at bigots a form of activism.

its so much easier not to learn about the deeper issues. for non-marginalized folk especially, supporting the marginalized celebrity is a lot easier than addressing systematic issues. but we dont get that privilege. we have to go to bat for the big shit, with or without allies. we dont get the luxury, the privilege, of not taking the time to understand and address bigotry and its sources.

im so tired. its exhausting even just learning about everything thats happening. and im not out of high school yet, so theres not a lot i can actually do out there. im trying to learn everything i can about everything thats happening, and its just so exhausting, all the time. on top of that, i also spend my energy on educating other people, trying to get them to understand what's taken me hours of work to get to myself.

and as a white person, i cant even imagine how much harder it must be for POC, especially when they exist at intersections of queerness, womanhood, disability, and/or more. im trying my best to learn about specific struggles that don't necessarily apply to me, but theres so much that a lot of the time i dont even know where to start.

cis, straight, male, white, abled, allo; people who fall under these dont have an obligation to learn about any marginalized group theyre not a part of, especially if theyre not a part of any of them. but they can still go online and say "fuck celebrity x" and get lauded as the pinnacle of allyship. they can make short, snappy, performative displays of their helpfulness without putting in any of the work to actually help. they have the privilege to do so. i as a white person have the privilege to do so, even if i try not to.

im so scared to go out into the world after i graduate and face all these inequalities, to try and deal with the horrors that high school and the internet have only been a small taste of. the most i can do is learn as much as i can before then, but i lose the motivation to every day when theres so little i can do to help; when the people who can help choose to do nothing anyway.

and this post, the closest thing my hungover ass can get to an in-depth analysis, likely wont get any attention at all. its not short, its not snappy, its not entertaining. its just a teenage nonbinary lesbian ranting about existential dread for way longer than he probably should have. and no, this isnt me begging for a reblog otherwise youre a bad person. saying stuff like that doesnt help anyway, since people would just snuff it out of spite instead of looking at the overall message. its just the way things are, not just here but everywhere.

im just so scared, and tired, and sad, and angry, all the fucking time.

#marie long posts #trans rights #civil rights #activism #queer rights #trans #hogwarts legacy #jessie gender #transphobia #bigotry

[abysslll]

listening to the dazai playlist! forgor if u sent link or not n too lazy to check so im just hoping the "dazai osamu vibes" one is the right one

idk whats been saying in the first song but wooo! woooooo!!!!! adventure!!!!!!!

the GUILT this man has is violent. i am choking on it. but like guilt in a very numb way if that makes sense? hes done horrible things and hes just fucken desensitized by it at this point that he cant even bring himself to feel bad about it, but some part of him still hurts.

anger issues he explodes constantly. very slow work up before it just goes bOOM

revenge. hunting down the people who hurt him

i already know this mfer does not wanna live but ive still gotta mention violently suicidal and self destructive. idk if ive asked but do we know why he has so many bandages?? constantly flipping between killing himself and fucking over life and living

very fast speeding connections in which he gets attached and gets hurt? when he does really connect to someone they mean a lot to him. keeps promises like hell and fuck. he has strong bpd vibes.

religious trauma?

sommmeeeeeetimes a little cuckoo crazy coco puffs. like really insane and violent and overall he turns into someone you dont want to be around. he can disconnect from everything around him easily so at that point, he doesnt care what happens

sexy

boogeying these tunes are so good and i feel like there should be a lot more pure screaming in this playlist like dazai probably listens to screams of anguish while falling asleep

very sneaky scary little man i think he would like guns and should not be trusted around weapons of any time. very smart also.

GET MENTAL HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!

walks around in life just really angry and resentful towards everything idk why hes still alive but maybe spite or just pure hate towards everything he cant even bring himself to really die. feels very unloveable and alien (okay fine yes i did read no longer human by the real osamu dazai)

mfer is always wearing a damn mask to please people!!!!!! stop people pleasing!!!!! be normal!!!!! or actually dont i think neither would be very good

his trauma made him angry and mean and unpleasant to be around instead of soft and caring and strong and hes so so angry about that and like. idk what his trauma is but its giving Why Would You Do That To A Kid vibe

fucked up morality. good or bad? who knows!

suuuuuuiiiiiccccciiiidaaaaallll i see you im so tired and last words of a shooting star. feels like all would be best without him around but doesnt really wanna hurt the people he cares about too much (though he wont let himself admit this)

AUHGOAUHGOAUGHAOUGHAOGUHAOGUHUAHGIAUGOUAHGO

reading through this grinning and laughing like a madman YOU ARE SO RIGHT FOR THE MAJORITY OF THESE OPINIONS!!!! i am going to go through and give way too detailed responses to most of this bc i am very normal here we go

numb guilt is SO TRUE for him i don't have a better word to describe his views like there's this scene where he's talking to kyouka and she tells him she can't live anymore because she's killed 35 people and he looks so sad when he says "so what? what's a mere 35 people?" bc hes killed HUNDREDS and he doesn't even really feel bad for it while this girl is in despair from a (relative to him) small amount

no anger issues actually but you've made me REALLY want to see an angry dazai now so i'm gonna have to write that revenge fic ���

it is not said why he has bandages but there are two major theories in the fandom, one is that he self harms and doesn't want other people to see and the other is that he's actually the Book which is hard to explain concisely but is a reality-altering book that everyone in the series is trying to find. whatever is written in it will become reality so it's a theory that all the writing is on his skin and he's just kinda hiding in plain sight! nobody knows for sure tho

HE DOES HAVE BPD VIBES

he totally does switch personalities in canon, like most of the time he's all cheerful and woo happy go lucky eyehey and then whenever he's facing off against the villains or doing something a lil morally wrong he just completely shuts off any kindness he might have mustered it's fun to see but also yeah. Scarey

he absolutely would just listen to straight up screaming you are so right

crying at sneaky scary little man that is the best description of him i have ever heard and i am going to steal it for dialogue in the fic i'm writing rn. he should NOT be trusted around weapons but for some reason he's like the only guy in the detective agency who has a gun

i think thr people pleasing is better than his true self lmao 😭 idk if he even has a true self at this point tho </3

i almost wish we knew what his trauma was in canon but i prefer it being a mystery bc 1) i quite honestly don't think they could write whatever it was without making it seem underwhelming for his character bc tragic anime backstories are So common and he's so much more fucked up than your average anime character and 2) people write the most horrific fics about their versions of his backstory and i love reading them sm. i want to read them forever

thank you for listening !!!! hope u enjoyed and i will get to peyton's playlist tomorrow if i have time :DD <333

#bat <3 #endless asks #my playlists #<- i THINK that's my tag for this #idk #bsd tag

[alcorian]

can people with dyscalculia help? im 18, autistic, and trying to figure out if i have it. it would be really nice if some people who know they have it could read this and give their opinion on whether i should try to get evaluated.

i’ve always hated math and struggled with it, and yet i was in advanced classes in middle school..... which i HATED. then, in high school, i got mistakenly put in the intermediate class for kids who struggle with math, and saw...... little to no change in how challenging it was. i did get bored with how slowly we were introduced to concepts, but my ability to complete the homework in a timely manner never improved. and i tend to do math slower than my peers--i even requested a time extension on my ACT because i finished all the other sections with great scores every time, but could only get like halfway through the math section at best. the one time i remember finishing a test first in class, i was proud but surprised. but looking back i think that test had a lot of questions about the concepts we were being taught rather than arithmetic, which also surprised me because in my experience math tests are mostly solving problems, not answering questions about math concepts. there have also been times that i’ve finished my classwork before anyone else, but also looking back this usually happened because i was working while the teacher was talking instead of taking notes. (my thoughts are very very fast and unfortunately my teacher does not talk as fast as my thoughts, so in pretty much all my classes, i just end up working ahead while listening to the lecture so i can pay attention and not get distracted)

i understand the abstract concepts behind math just fine, and even like them, but i kind of struggle with it at the same time. i do things like addition slowly and multiple times to make sure i got it right, sometimes counting on my fingers. i cannot memorize my times tables, ive completely given up on that. i still count on my fingers at 18, which i didnt realize wasnt normal because im completely unobservant. i hate mental math and calculators are my saving grace. i dont trust myself to do mental math correctly. i struggle to hold numbers in my head, especially long strings like phone numbers or addresses, which is part of what makes mental math so hard for me (and thats why i use my fingers or write it down). i forget things like phone numbers instantly. im not very good at reading analog clocks, but that might be because we’re moving more towards digital clocks everywhere. i also heard that dyscalculia can be associated with difficulty telling right from left, and thats a really embarrassing thing ive always struggled with--i need to hold up my hands to remember (left hand makes an L) and if i cant do that i have to imagine writing something and hope im imagining the correct hand doing the writing, lol.

but despite all this-- i feel like maybe i dont have it. maybe im just looking for an excuse to explain why i suck so much at math. theres also the possibility that im just overly anxious about getting a wrong answer and thats why i do everything so slowly and count on my fingers and stuff--so i can be sure im not getting it wrong. i do understand how numbers correlate to amounts, and its not like im totally incapable of mental math. i can do it, i just struggle with it, especially if i have to hold a number in my head for any reason. like, while writing this post i went and did basic multiplication problems in my head (from a website) and got hung up on 7 x 6. and then i got it wrong. this is the part where i’d normally make excuses like “oh im tired, oh its the end of summer so i havent practiced,” but honestly, im pretty sure most people my age should be able to do simple multiplication like that no matter the time of year. so. i dunno. also, i was able to get the other problems correct, but im pretty sure i was taking longer to do them than an 18 year old should. and i was counting on my fingers again.

and like. i think i like math in theory. algebra looks logical and satisfying, and it IS, except when i have to actually divide, add, and subtract, then i can practically feel my brain beginning to overheat like an overworked computer.

moving things from one side to the other to isolate a variable? yes. good shit.

havint to do subtraction to get there? now its not so fun. i think this is the part that actually gives me a headache. i never really thought about which part of algebra was frustrating me, but now that i know dyscalculia is a thing, im starting to think about the arithmetic vs the abstract concept behind it.

anyways, if i have dyscalculia its probably more mild seeing as i can still do mental math and i can still do arithmetic, its just unreasonably hard for me for no discernable reason.

#dyscalculia #autism #learning disability #alv posts