#i hate this so much lmao

[mitsvriii]

starving

↳ ❝ [aventurine x reader ¡! ❞   『 ↳✧･slightly angsty, reverse hurt to comfort undertones; word count: 510       ↳ possible ooc aventurine, use of aventurine's real name, have barely done the 2.1 quest so apologies for that, mention of aventurine's past's complications, not proofread !! under the cut for possible spoilers -༉‧₊˚✧

“Do you trust me?”

Glancing up from where he was picking idly at his food with a fork, Aventurine furrowed his brows as his gaze directed at you was tainted with confusion, “Sorry?” Biting the inside of his cheek at your sigh, he ducked his head down in slight shame, “Sorry I…no I trust you.”

“Then why aren’t you eating?” With a heavy exhale Aventurine shrugged as he set his fork down. He was hungry and absolutely despised whenever he let food get too cold or even going as far as not to eat it; especially when you had been so excited to prepare him something out of a new recipe you found. 

“Kakavasha.” Your tone was firm as you went to rest your hand on his, pulling away slightly when he flinched at the sudden contact. “Kakavasha I’m not going to poison you or anything of the sort, you know that, right?”

At his lack of response a frown tugged the corner of your lips down, “Here, I can fix you something else or go order you something if you don’t want to it.” As understanding as you were, he couldn’t help but feel guilty even though he knew he shouldn’t. It wasn’t his fault. That’s what you told him the first time he had freaked out about eating something that you had cooked for him. 

He was always starving you when it came to your relationship. First, it was the newfound trust of being comfortable enough around you to start dating you, then it was the worry that you didn’t want to be with him for benefits, after that he knew that his lack of affection was a problem. It wasn’t his fault. When he explained that he had “issues” you simply told him that it was okay and left it at that. 

Even though he was starved of almost everything under the sun, whether it was freedom, lack of nutrition, lack of food, lack of love, and so much more, he truly felt as if he was starving you of love and affection. Although he knew you would lay into him if he said it aloud. When he built up the courage to tell you why he was so distant, he was surprised when you shed as many tears as he did as he told it. 

With a shake of his head he snapped his eyes to meet yours, “No, I can eat it. Just give me a second.” With a comforting smile, you went ahead and started to eat yourself, not wanting to pressure him further by not eating until he did. As he bit into the dish, he felt himself relax as his anxiousness faded when he felt or tasted nothing wrong with it. Maybe he could finally stop starving you of trust, and in return, he could be fed with love. Although a starving man can only hope that someone generous would come along and give him something to satisfy his hunger, he knew you were sympathetic enough to feed him for a lifetime.

#🍙 - honkai star rail writings #・ nouveau livre ˎˊ˗ #i hate this so much LMAO #aventurine x reader #aventurine x you #hsr x reader #hsr x you

[fivehundredsporks]

there i finished it lol

#trigun #millions knives #i hate this so much lmao #but i had to fucking make it #if anyone is going to mock my wife its going to be ME

[colesterstrudel]

#notmychampion

#I hate this so much lmao

[thefixer]

me , tries to delete the old blog so i can use the url for my sideblog ...

tumblr : **THIS PAGE DOESN'T EXIST.** redirects me to my blog....

#* out of chara . #i hate this so much lmao

[lovvelorrn]

so last week while i was feeling anxious about my job and performance i had to work on an impostor syndrome project and this week that my period's late and i'm anxious about that i have to work on project about the menstrual cycle and becoming one with your cycle etc so i just gotta ask: who's laughing at me

#i hate this so much lmao #tbd #i'm honestly not worried about being preg bc ✨precautions✨ but what makes me anxious is the WHY it's not coming #like it's not good that it's been 8 days since it should've been here #it makes me worry i'm sick or something #i think also that the more i worry about it the worse it gets but i can't help it WHERE ARE U ????

[itsthislake]

“The Summer Day” by Mary Oliver.

HAPPY LATE BIRTHDAY ACE!!

Support me on ko-fi! ♥

#happy birthday ace! #portgas d ace #fire fist ace #monkey d luffy #one piece sabo #sabo is here in spirit for the most part #one piece #one piece comic #op fanart #lake's art #something something the duty of an older brother #man i almost got this done in time lmao #i love Mary Oliver's poems so much you've no idea #the summer day is like my third favorite poem ever i think #i finally learned how to draw fire for this lol #love the cowboy hat. hate to draw the cowboy hat #do not repost #lmao i just noticed i put the wrong number in the bounty. it's supposed to be 30.000.000 not 300.000.000

[cynicallyneutral]

naruto: this one’s for u babe *misses*

#narusasu #sasunaru #naruto #sasuke #lmao -this is so lame its funny’djfhfjgjg #i hate drawing sasuke fuck his fukcim hair #idk how to draw that bitchkdhfjff #my art #round fox baby #naruto’s boyfriend #is that my tag idek anymore]lmaoooo #damn #sasuke is a constipated mf #but he’s very much in love with his boyf

[vaguely-concerned]

So much of Garak as a person starts to make sense once you know his childhood was a fucking gothic novel. His main playground was a graveyard and he'd play pretend by perfoming improv eulogies to an imagined audience. For a long time his main touchstone for most important figures from recent history is 'oh yeah I know about that guy my dad buried him. great flower arrangements for that one'. He finds out later his 'parents' are actually a brother and sister who had to get married to avoid the utter shame and social devastation of having a child born out of wedlock, and they live in the basement of his biological father's house. (the madwoman in the attic vs. the tiny elim in the basement.) His biological father calls himself his uncle and locks him in a closet whenever he fails to live up to his insane and unpredictable expectations and everyone just has to act like that's normal and expected, and his will hangs over everything at all times, unseen but always felt keener than anything else. The father who actually raised him grows the world's most beautiful (and as it turns out, most poisonous) orchids and keeps the mask of a god hidden in a box in his work shed. Everyone in the house is choking down secrets like it's the only air they know how to breathe anymore.

What I'm saying is that right from the get-go this guy never had the faintest shot at turning out normal, so I'm glad that by middle age he's found a way to get a bit silly with it as he continues to be deeply deeply not normal about anything ever <3

#guess who's reading a stitch in time! #star trek ds9 #elim garak #a stitch in time #star trek #ds9 #I will make a monster post of asit thoughts eventually but just. jesus christ!!! what a start in life lmao #tolan and tain seem to have been... well not exactly friends probably but to have had some connection beforehand #did tain know him or mila first??? how was mila and tolan's sibling status presumably not known publicly? #at what point during all of that did tain start to have sex with tolan's sister. the more you think about it the more fucked it gets lol #under the circumstances... shoutout to tolan and mila for not leaving him somehow even more fucked up interpersonally than he is #and no thanks to tain for anything ever I hate him so much

[carpetbug]

at my core i’m a marigami lover first and foremost

excuse the roughness I was too lazy to fix it up. and i had to redraw it like four times before it looked right

#carpetbug art #miraculous #miraculous ladybug #ml #miraculous fanart #marinette #marinette dupain cheng #kagami #kagami tsurugi #marigami #kagaminette #i thought the og outfits for this drawing meme were so fitting for them so i left those as is #they are my world ❤️ #hehehehehe i both love and hate this drawing lmao i fucked a lot up but also i salvaged so much y’all don’t even know #it’s been a rough drawing day #i prefer girls

[comradekatara]

babygirl..... goth gf....... knife wife

#id in alt text #avatar the last airbender #atla #mai #art #mart #she would hate me for using so much orange lmao. which is why i did <3 #this was so fun to paint #not tagging this oldergaang even tho she is probably slightly older here just bc i didnt significantly change her design so it doesnt count #anyway she means so much to me...... one of the first characters that ever got me saying 'shes just like me fr'

[sunlit-mess]

I don't hold grudges, that anger feeds into self-loathing instead.

#messyr #vent art #vent post #just confusing things I wanted to get out #as much as i want to 'hate' them- i cant #no matter how bad they get- i always forgive them and it hurts. But why does it feel wrong to feel hurt- that i'm not supposed to feel hurt #my mind has been altered so much idfk what to think and feel abt sometimes LMAO #one of those birds in a gilded cage AHAHA #learned helplessness #bpd #sometimes i wonder if i get out of this cycle of abuse

[lotus-pear]

regret

#literally excuse the shitty anatomy and cell shading i was thinking abt chuuyas reaction to what he'd done and i decided to make it skk #bc skk copium :') #the way i've hated dazai so fucking much but i still cried like a bitch when he died #he's not dead the bsd fandom has this phase like the elevator chapter where we're like ''dazai's not gonna make it he's done for!!'' #and then he comes back next chapter like surprise bitches yall thought i was dead lmao #this chapter fucking HURT for skk shippers tho like we rly lost this time around huh #deluding myself into thinking that chuuya used gravity manipulation to slow the bullet #bc we didn't see a bullet hole behind dazais head like when chuuya shot his shoulder even though the bullet to his skull was fired at close #the reason theres a wound is bc the compressed air that was still fired was enough to wound him #and the shock wave that followed caused him to pass out bc of the sudden tension to his head intermingled with the blood loss and poison #we also know dazai can control his heart rate at will so maybe he can drop his pulse to zero for like thirty secs #enough to make fyodor believe he's dead #in the event that all of this is untrue and dazai rly does die the way my entire being will go numb and cold and dead #knowing that fyodor will most likely use dazai's death as a weapon against chuuya effectively chaining him to his side #like bffr chuuya may dislike dazai but that's his partner his reflection the boy that makes him desperately want to be human #dazai is the embodiment of chuuyas humanity and once chuuya loses that tether to his human side he will snap and the facade will shatter #and we will truly see chuuya unhinged with nothing more keeping him bound to his mortal shell #this wasn't the skk reunion we wanted asigiri what the fuck :( #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #nakahara chuuya #chuuya nakahara #osamu dazai #dazai osamu #skk #soukoku #lotus draws

[vodid]

@blitzbee-week || life or death — that's the difference between megatron appreciating him, isn't it?

prev comic || fanfic

#BlitzbeeWeek2023 #blitzbee #maccadam #ah yes. a ship week .......they hate each other. #jk jk but this is pre-relationship ghsdfsfs #i'm late but pls enjoy i lost so much sleep for this LMAO #it was worth it! #transformers #bumblebee #blitzwing #vart #color! in vodid art! scary! #vulnerability fic

[feketeribizli]

ficsúr birthday post ‼🍓☘🐞🍬💥

#hosszúficsúr #ficsúr #hosszú #this is the ocs tag #GUY IN MY HEAD!!!! BIRTHDAY BOY!!!!!!! #context for the second pic is that hosszú hates wearing anything but sweats. but he loves his bf (and has a bad taste but they both serve) #return of the yassified lidl sneakers lmao. in fact the whole fit is built around them #i love them so much waaa idk what to say!!!!! #my art

[rawbones]

sorry i have a thing tonight so i can’t get anything done

#i hate this so much lmao #i do not have to be there for EIGHT HOURS

[von-karmas-a-bitch]

#had to take sprites from spriters resource and resize them myself bc the fandom wiki has pathetic excuses for sprite rips lmao #at some point when i can be bothered i may just. make my own webbed site. just to spite the fandom wiki. i hate fandom so much 🩵 #krita is free and so is the magic wand tool guys. idk what ms paint bullshit you all have been doing but it needs to stop #upload better sprite rips i am BEGGING you #anyways time for normal tags now #franmaya #my shitposts #franziska von karma #maya fey #shitpost #ace attorney #edit: i fixed the maya sprite before none bar one person reblogged it thank god #would have been a tad embarrassing to post an imperfect sprite and then go on a tirade abt shitty sprites clogging up my search results 🫥 #there is only one small gap on that maya sprite and it's easy to miss #obviously the magic wand tool did not detect the background colour of the spritesheet WITHIN a sprite oops