#i hate what this song does to me

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

I'm sorry I let down my guard.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #xue yang #xiao xingchen #God DAMN this scene was brutal. Season 2 episode 2 is almost nothing but misery and anguish #Helena by Nickle Creek does not quite fit the comic's vibe but it is absolutely a Xue Yang song so I linked it. #The change from “Helena don't walk away...(gentle)” to “HELENA. DON'T WALK AWAY (threat)” is fantastic. #And “Don't waste your pretty sympathy - I'll always be just fine”. Xue Yang core. #Okay now for the real meat. Disclaimer first: *I really like XY.* I think he's a great character. I think his actions consistently- #come from a place of deep trauma. While his reactions and actions put him in a villainous role he is still human about his hurt #and what I'm about to say is NOT intended to be a statement of causality or villianize a group of misunderstood people. #So with that said...Man oh man does Xue Yang have a lot of BPD traits. More that just 'character who is chronically manipulative'. #The impulsivity and emotional reactions and seeking stability makes him feel like he needs that control. What other choice is there? #The part that really gets me is how he *wants* to be safe and happy. But his past experiences tell him how thats impossible #He's the kind of person who goes 'if you don't like me then you better hate me for something substantial". All (pos) or All (neg) #''Love me entirely or Hate me. But don't you dare leave me or forget about me.'' #Not at all comfortable saying 'BPD coded'. Im not a psychiatrist. Just that he has TRAITS. Feel free to disagree or add your thoughts. #ppl with bpd also are not a monolith and everyone has very different experiences. Xue yang is very complex. People more so.

[lnmei]

The Prince of Tennis! 🎾💥

#my art #prince of tennis #I love prince of tennis ♥️ best franchise. to me 🫶 #my sibling is drawing the same teams and charas so we are going to compare our interpretations. we love prince of tennis! #we are the opposite. I find drawing cute faces and big eyes soo hard but that’s what my sibling is best at lol #my faves in seigaku are fuji and kaidou #hyotei is atobe hiyoshi and shishido #also yes I did yassify kabaji he deserves it I think. canon does him dirty -_- #rikkai is marui renji and nio #shitenhoji is shiraishi specifically bc his character songs are shockingly good loll #in fudomine ibu has my haircut so I like him. also I reject that tachibana is a natural blonde he is not #I also have most hated characters per team but let’s not get into that #ok I’m done for now excuse me…🚶🏻‍♀️

[luck-of-the-drawings]

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saw alot of comments on prev pages; saying 'i HATE that mean teacher! im gonna FIGHT HIM!!' & i LOVE the energy!! it WOULD be nice. to have that catharsis. but the story of young tidestrider is Not one of catharsis. it is a story of being so small and so special and sucking so bad.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #GONNA START FORMATTING MY COMICS BETTER. W THE PROPER 'PREV' 'NEXT' LINKS #REALLY DIDNT EXPECT TO CONTINUE THIS SERIES BUT AAAUUUHH MY BRRAAAIN MY BRAIN IS SO IDEASSS. I HAVE 3 OTHER PAGES SKETCHED OUT #NO PROMISES ILL FINISH EM ANY TIME SOON OR EVER. MY WHIMS ARE THEIR OWN BEAST AND I ONLY DRAW ON MY WHIMS #THAT BEING SAID IF U COMMISSIONED ME ILL GEEETT TO YOUUU IM SORRYYYY. ART IS AN EMOTIONAL RELEASE FOR ME N BABY I HAVE EMOTIONS. #ESPECIALLY ABOUT GILLION TIDESTRIDER CHAMPION OF THE UNDERSEA HERO OF THE DEEP.for the desc here i put smth that i typed up in the tags of #another thing i made. i gotta make a proper Baby Gillion tag or smth. eventually.. eventually...I LOVE DRAWIN THIS LIL BABY GUY.. #i also LOVE depicting the teachers as just being so fuckin mean. ofc theres variation in that. just like in all things.like the teacher her #idk if itll be mentioned but the octo lady is named Ms Octburn.an octopus pun based off the name of an actual councilor i had #when i was in elementary school i got bullied alot but teachers never did anything. i hated adults and didnt trust them. #but this councilor o mine was so genuinely sweet. i remember spending alot of time w her. she doesnt work there anymore. #but that one school adult that actually earns ur trust and is there for you when they can be.its SO important for a child i think #i hope she knows how much she helped me.youll see in the next page that ms octburn isnt perfect either.but she tries. they all try.somehow. #ALL these comics are gonna be inspired by somesorta experience o mine in the school system. school is so fucked up u ever thing abt that #AND GILLIOOOOONNN IN THE MOST FUCKED UP LITTLE SCHOOL OF ALL. MAINTAINED BY A CULT. CENTERED AROUND HIM. OUR CHOSEN ONE #I IMAGINE ALOT BANKS ON HIS SUCCESS. THIS IS THE WORLD. THE WHOLE WORLD. THE PROPHECY IS GOING TO COME TRUE N UR TELLIN ME #THAT ITS THIS LITTLE IDIOT THATS GONNA BE SAVING US? WHAT IF HE FAILS. IF HE CANT GET THIS RIGHT THEN HE WILL FAIL AND WE WILL DIE #WE NEED TO TRAIN HIM. WE NEED HIM TO LEARN. AND TO SUCCEED. OR ELSE WE'RE DEAD. WE'RE ALL FUCKING DEAD. I IMAGINE THAT MUST BE STRESSFUL #in other news i hope ppl actually giggle when they read these. they ARE intended to be comical. dark humor or whatever. like its also sad #this is intended to be a sad comic series. but a funny one too. does that make sense? god i hope so.saw some1 say they had flashbacks- #-reading this. like YES!! THE INTENDED EFFECT!! YOU GET ME!! i love seeing ppl get upset on this lil baby boys behalf. i LOVE seeing ppl- #-wail n weep n cry in the comments. i LOOOVE seeing ppl RELATE to baby gillion. and i love letting u all know that this wont be a happycomi #gillion gets his happiness arc in the actual show. this series is one of unfortunate events. teehehehe. do u guys remember that show #i keep listening to the lil songs from A Series of Unfortunate Events for inspiration. GOOD STUFF!! #anyway uuhh uhh thats all i got in my brain. for now. feed me ur comments give me ur input i NNEEEEEDD THHEEEMMMM

[maulfucker]

So fucked up that obimaul is a rarepair. What do you mean not everyone is obsessed with enemies to lovers with a Force connection, where one side is completely obsessed with the other who barely acknowledges him (but is just as affected)

#hm i should make an original post tag #obimaul #like. say what you want but obi-wan saw a random dathomirian zabrak and immediately went 'maul?? alive??' #he DOES care about maul he just doesn't actively seek him out like maul does #post prompted by this song that makes me think about Maul in his crime lord era‚ all the luxury of the world within his reach‚ #but none of it satisfies him because what he really wants is to find (and kill) kenobi #'another night up in the best suite; everything's gone wrong already‚ my body admits; dreaming so high the floor is the limit; #once again i got lost.. [...] another night i give myself‚ top of a skyscraper; i'm the king of the world‚ dreams for rent; #and when i look at myself i sigh with a low voice‚ 'i don't feel bad i just feel nothing'' #(<- song is são paulo‚ 2015 by jão) #it's a song about feeling dissatisfied with the life of fame because there's an emptiness he can't fill with sex drugs or luxuries #and from the context of the album it's likely he's thinking about a past lover he's still not over #so. imagine with me. #i might make something out of this. maybe. #but like. posting about songs that make me think obimaul thoughts. not very productive. almost no audience. #... and while making this post i've been attacked by yet another song with a very obimaul words #'lie to me‚ run from me‚ we swear it doesn't count‚ in this way of ours‚ but it's not because i hate you that i can't kiss you anymore' #<- pilantra by jão and anitta

[why-the-heck-not]

feeling very Devil Wears Prada "florals? for spring? groundbreaking" seeing the "Taylor's album has emotional range!! No other artist could ever!!!"-posts as if that's not also what every other (good) artist is doing, as if conveying bunch of emotions isn't the whole main part of the job

(emotions? in music??? groundbreaking)

#!!! I'm not hating on Taylor !!! I'm hating on swifties (some of them at least; the delusional ones) #like are u sure no other artist could ever. are u _fully_ sure #anyways I listened to it and it was fine; felt like 31 versions of the same song but I can respect that as a stylistic choice #that's just not for me (like she obv knows what she's doing & is good at it)) #(like Cigarettes After Sex does that too and no one's giving them shit abt it (probs bc ppl are pretty much only lukewarm towards them #and also the whole ''let's be unreasonably critical abt whatever a woman is doing''-thing)) #maybe the range is in the lyrics but I'm more of a ''I want to hear the emotion'' rather than ''I'll look up the lyrics to see what the #emotion of this song is''-type (can't hear lyrics in songs for the life of me without seeing them written out idk why #and that's very much a me-issue; not a ''bad music''-issue) #ttpd #april 2024 #2024

[littledashdraws]

soleil, daughter of azura

#fire emblem #fire emblem fates #fe14 #soleil #take two on the concept because i hated the one i did last year like 30s after i posted it #ponytail suits her so well!!!!! #the headcanon behind it is that she wanted to do her hair nice like azura. but she couldn't figure out how #so she just put it in a ponytail and left it like that #also soleil learning to waterbend in ways that azura never taught her is so dear to me #like azura's waterbending is so tied to her songs #and i always wondered how much of that is because she didn't have the time to learn otherwise? #i think soleil learns to use waterbending for more practical/battlefield things #she can't sing or dance but she sure does find joy in expanding what she can do with water

[dummerjan]

i just came across ai covers on youtube and people are requesting songs in the comments instead of getting enraged and i am further losing hope in humanity and turning to misanthropy

#meins #for a minute i got really excited about henning may singing take me to church :( #i hate people #have you no appreciation for or understanding of art? clearly not. #why would you want to listen to an ai generated song? even if it sounds like your favourite singer it's not them #it has no feelings to meaning to intention. it is empty and soulless #reading the booklet for sinéad o'connor's album of traditional irish and folk songs gave me so much appreciation for her #she wrote a little bit about each song. why she chose it or what it means to her. #it has added so much to my enjoyment of those songs and i think of it whenver i listen to it #they were chosen with intention with love with a deep appreciation for the music and lyrics and there is a story behind it all #it is art and love and human #i see aboslutely no appeal in ai generated 'music' or 'art' #and i hate that i fell for it for a minute #i was sceptical because i had never heard of henning may covering hozier and since it wasn't just 20-60 sec i am certain #i would have heard about it by now #and something was just a little bit... unsatisfying? something was missing which does apply to a lot of cover songs #(i could go on hour long rants about why people fuck up danny boy (and sinéad o'connor does it best (because she actually takes her time) #or trash madonna's version of don't cry for me argentina (again a song ruined for by everybody else but sinéad - once she has sung somethin #i have a hard time enjoying it by anybody else. the parting glass is an exception. hozier's version is phenomenal)) #but! henning may not giving it his all for a cover? unlikely. very unlikely. #anyway this concludes my tuesday night rant. rather here in the tags than some poor person's inbox. #or i would have kept fuming by myself for another hour or two

[gali-in-distress]

As a native Spanish speaker is so funny to me that Nicholas Galitzine speaks Spanish more fluently than Taylor Zakhar Pérez. I mean, whatever, I can understand Taylor not being super fluent in Spanish, it happens. But like... How did Nicholas end up not only being pretty fluent but also having such a distinct Spain Spanish accent??? How did that happen???

I tried searching Taylor speaking Spanish and I got more results for Nicholas instead 💀

I just find it so funny

#also most results for taylor were of him singing and first of all that's cheating! is not the same as speaking! #and most importantly I've seen that scene of him from the kissing booth #that Spanish is... flawed at best lol #i cringed so bad watching the scene in rwrb with Alex and miguel talking #because juan castano speaks perfect Spanish but Taylor's was so awkward omg why do they do this to these actors #only thing he said fluently was buenas noches cabrón #poor guy i mean the way they just box these actors based in their looks and last names #just let him do an american without having to be a López Peña Díaz etc or at least don't make him say anything in Spanish what's the point #btw no hate i definitely can understand why it's just so funny to me #also why the hell does nick Spanish with a Spanish accent lmao i guess it makes sense bc he's european but wtf is so distinct #i was not expecting it at all #this has been on my mind for months btw I'm normal about languages and accents #if you have any clips of taylor speaking spanish just let me know #genuinely thought it would be hot but all i find is songs

[lawfullyandlovely]

*sighs*

The comments for AKAA honestly breaks my heart

Like....someone literally had the audacity to say Haruka was never neglected and he's just some spoiled brat that thought of himself as 'weak, cute and lovable' therefore attention should never be taken away from him

And someone else said that Weakness was now 'useless' cause AKAA showed his 'true colors'

.......................We're talking about the same Haruka Sakurai, right?

#I seriously love listening to the song but the comments honestly are just hard to look at #Like....ppl were comparing him to real life psychopaths?? Saying lock him away and throw away the key? #Ughhhh his mischaracterization frustrates me to no end #I hate the two extremes of him being an uwu bby but the hate the selfish murder extreme even more #And like....I do call him התינוק שלי (my little bby) a lot but I do know his crimes #And he does too and came in feeling guilty! #And guess what? He still feels guilty! It's called 'He's latching onto whatever lifeline he has to make him think what he did is not wrong' #It's what traumatized ppl in denial do #feeling starved for comfort so I post this on my f/o blog #milgram haruka #haruka sakurai #sakurai haruka #milgram

[inmayshead]

Music moments I’m obsessed with that literally live rent free in my head since Hazbin Hotel eps have dropped, in no particular order :

Spoiler warning ahead for eps 1 to 6.

Just the entirety of Whatever it takes. Especially the French Canadian version, brings me back to a time I can’t figure out but I just know I LOVE IT. AND IM NOT ASHAMED TO SAY ITS MY FAVOURITE ONE.

Adam singing with Lute that Hell is forever (you know the moment) both in episode 6 and the first oneee it’s lovely)

Adam going on with his “fake” guitar solo thingy. Lovely.

Angel’s first sentence singing in Loser, baby. It’s PERFFF.

Lucifer’s violin solo. I’m obsessed. Add on it when Alastor starts with the piano. Just that but I could listen on and on (…I have. Thanks TikTok.)

CHARLIE AND EM SINGING TOGETHER TO THE ANGELS IM. MWAH. CHEFS KISS.

I’m also growing quite fond of Stayed Gone. Vox and Alastor just ‘arguing’ in that singing way- it’s great.

I think that’s all for now :> Will add on as episodes drop!!

#hazbin hotel #thoughts #random stuff #stayed gone #loser baby #hell is forever #hellaverse #songs #I cannot express what the lucifers violin pet does to me #it’s eating my brain #it’s literally just 3 seconds too I hate it

[ilovefredjones]

i really wish frozen ii’s ending was good bc the songs are amazing and the character development was so compelling until they RUINED it with the ending

#i’m still so pissed!!!! why the fuck does it leave anna as queen!!!!! grrrrrrr #like the whole POINT of frozen was that elsa belonged as queen of arendelle despite her powers and she and anna belonged together #so frozen ii’s ending….. it’s like ok what was the point of the first film????? #but goddddd some things never change?? into the unknown?? show yourself?? the next right thing???? GAAAAHHHHHH #songs that make me sob scream cry #god i hate that FROZEN is one of the things i’m Not Normal about #what is wrong with me #frozen #frozen ii

[gatoplaga]

Trying to figure out my Lamb design. Still needs some adjustments but I think I'm getting somewhere!!!

#dumpster gato #cotl #lamb #NDA by Billie Eilish has been stuck in my mind all day I love that song so much istg #I have so many ideas for a cotl AU but character design is such a struggle for me #sometimes it gives me such a bad time and I hate it a lot #but once I'm finally happy with designs it's so over #this one was made on my phone btw. I don't like doing stuff on it other than dumb doodles #I feel very limited so the quality of what I can do on it is... mmm well. Close to awful. But it does work for silly- #-not really detailed stuff so.. yeah

[fadedflora]

i have not listened to hamilton in like a week why is he STILL HERE

read the tags if you want to see me talk about musicals for a little TOO long

#this is no hate to you mr leslie odom jr #but i have most certainly listened to other musicians/bands more #anyways i'd say the rest is accurate #my bff and i have been doing a musical binge #started with wicked -> ride the cyclone -> shrek -> legally blonde -> falsettos #i cried twice at falsettos btw it's so fucked up (i loved it sm) #i've listened to wicked before but haven't actually *seen* it so that was nice #i've also heard a couple songs from ride the cyclone & falsettos b4 so i already knew they'd be good #and i've seen shrek the musical like 3 times bc i unironically love it #overall opinions: ride the cyclone might have my favorite cast of characters and i think falsettos might be my favorite musical now #fav songs (for funsies): #ride the cyclone: noel's lament / the ballad of jane doe / jawbreaker / space age bachelor man (insane song btw) #wicked: no good deed / popular #shrek: i know it's today / don't let me go / i think i got you beat / this is our story / what's up duloc? #falsettos: this had better come to a stop / i'm breaking down / four jews in a room bitching / a tight-knit family/love is blind #falsettos cont.: everyone hates his parents / falsettoland/about time #legally blonde: blood in the water / positive / ireland / chip on my shoulder / so much better / whipped into shape / take it like a man #legally blonde cont.: bend and snap / there! right there! / legally blonde / legally blonde - remix / find my way/finale #SORRY I OPENED A PANDORA'S BOX WHEN I STARTED TALKING ABOUT MUSICALS #i really should've posted this on my other acc oh well #okay i'm gonna shut up now im so sorry LMAO #falsettos #legally blonde musical #legally blonde the musical #shrek the musical #shrek musical #wicked #wicked musical #ride the cyclone

[klonoadoortophantomile]

okay idk how much art ill post exactly but. stupid album redraw w some ocs

#i feel like the zebrahead logo being replaced is stupid but . shut up /silly #scribbles #ocposting #i hate this drawing becuz now i like. dont hate this album as much as i used to #hshgshsgshdghs #i feel like zebrahead just does that to me where theres albums and songs that just Suck Ass vut after i listen to them long enough they #start to grow on me and then suddebly i actually like them. sigh /SILLY #uh idk what else to say tbh #this took a stupidly long amount of time cuz i wanted to like. sorta emulate the style of the cover obviously #also theres a billion mistakes but i dont do full drawings that often eveb if its just a redraw #so i cant be too hard on myself =P

[m-kyunie]

Left waiting, left wanting; why can't you see me

just imagine Sins Fate or Prayer [Banana Fish] playing & the text boxes flickering. Alma's symbolism goes so hard.

I'm on my hands & knees begging you to read the Alma Arc instead.

#dgm #d.gray-man #alma karma #eyestrain #i wanted to try smtg completely different bc its how I see Alma n I wanted to interpret that thru other uh. effects I guess! #n share some of the songs i think suit Alma's scorn n fire #this was inspired by Dress [BUCK-TICK] thats Buns introduced me to god the lyrics n visuals! watch the MV #just the anger that Alma possess is very female but like. queer gendered thirst way idk how to explain myself I hope u guys can understand #like Alma is violence born from female energy but his grace/charm is masculine. does that make any sense at all....... #anger takes many forms right but that brand of anger in the manga is distinctly feminine. 'Hell Hath no fury like a woman scorned' #Mitski & Atushi get it. they understand me. #anyway the songs i cut from vaguely in order from top down left right: #I Hate You [SZA]. Dress [BUCK-TICK]. Less Than Zero [The Weeknd]. #Me & My Husband [Mitski] First Love/Late Spring[Mitski] #actually can i recommend another MV that fits what I'm talking about: No Party For Cao Dong - Wayfarer #im sorry this ended up so long I just. i like to explain my thought process since I lack comic making skills lol

[hella1975]

assigning a character the highest honour like *adds go home by julien baker to their playlist*

#and by honour i mean pointing at them like TRAUMATISED! TRAUMATISED! TRAUMATISED! #like yeah relating to this song is a red flag actually. yeah it's one of the most personal songs in the world to me #and i actively am not allowed to listen to it some days bc it makes me significantly worse #even if im in a GOOD mood because of the layers upon layers of emotions ive associated with it #yeah i literally wont even blorbo post to this song even if it's accurate to a character because it's so personal #so they have to be REALLY FUCKING SPECIAL AND FUCKED IN THE HEAD to get this honour. enter touya #i made him a playlist im going crazy like yeah actually of course i was always gonna be weird about him #like he's got fire themes. he's got body horror. he just wanted to be good. he's ethel cain coded. he's georgia coded #he's got mommy AND daddy AND sibling issues. he's the only other character ive let even come close to mary on a cross #he's a waiting room girlie. he's an archer girlie. im tearing my hair the fuck out of my scalp #why does the first character ive latched onto this hard since CHUUYA have to be from mha of all things #like that's embarassing for me im embarassed to be here. and yet #touya todoroki #the thing that makes me sick about touya is yes the abuse he went through via his quirk and his dad etc etc #but also bc sekota peak happened when he was 13 right? and he's 24 now? that's 11 years unaccounted for #like ik it's confirmed his burns put him in a coma for 3 years and all for one and the dr guy just stapled his stubborn self together #which is something else i will YELL MY HEAD OFF ABOUT WHAT THE FUCKKKKK HE WAS A CHILD STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT #but im pretty sure it's confirmed that after 3 years he goes off again on his own? which still leaves him as a teenager? #like he straight up burns himself alive at 13 wakes up at 16 and reappears at 24 with dyed hair and piercings and a bad attitude #and im not supposed to wonder? or get upset? like i absolutely am leaning into the 'he was on the streets' angle bc i hate myself #and that's devastating and also what alternative is there logically like he has NOTHING #no home no money no name that he can feasibly use not even an appearance that will warrant anything but more cruelty #so youve got this child on the streets with injuries that absolutely cause insane amounts of pain daily he's literally STAPLED together #and he's completely alone and the only thing getting him through is this growing hatred and rage #like id set all my plans around killing the guy that put me there too actually just to fucking get me out of bed in the morning #I CANNOT STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM. WHERE WAS HE FOR THE PAST DECADE. HORIKOSHI PLEASE #I WANNA GO HOME IM SICK THERES MORE WHISKEY THAN BLOOD IN MY VEINS MORE TAR THAN AIR IN MY LUNGS #PIERCE MY SKIN NEEDLES TO WORN OUT RAGS THE FOLDS IN MY ARMS THE SICKENING BLACK AND I HAVENT BEEN TAKING MY MEDS #I KNOW MY BODY IS JUST DIRTY CLOTHES IM TIRED OF WASHING MY HANDS GOD I WANT TO GO HOME