#i have a signed book from her that Adrian Bedford got for me years and years ago

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um cs pacat just said she loved my writing on instagram this is not a drill

#personal #cs pacat #she didn't name me #but i have the 'cs pacat shared your response to their question sticker' #and my question sticker was #'do any of the characters have childhood trauma' #(i know i know v on point question for me) #and then #AND THEN #AND THEN WHAT THE FUCK WHAT dslkajfdsalfkjsa #look you don't understand #i have a signed book from her that Adrian Bedford got for me years and years ago #i was there batman #i was there on livejournal when CP was still going chapter by chapter #and like #Pacat has been such a... role model and such a hero of mine #in the way she not only wrote amazingly #but dared to put it online for free for a really long time before she found her way to her career #and how she cares for her fans and for fandom and the spirit of all those things #and i'm just #what did she read #how did she find it #i have so many questions