#i have adhd and can't sit properly so i see him doing this and am like YES FRIEND

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I know you said for anyone, but tbh I really like hearing you talk about anyone so it's so hard to decide aaaa. So I present you 4 options, Hibari and skull of course, But I want to shake your head and see if you got anything mukuro and xanxus(you don't have to do all 4 just at your discretion). 🦾💄👻👽

Thank you so so so so much for asking!! I send an Ask to you in return! 💞

This got looooong! Because I did answer for everyone. Hope you enjoy!! :3

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🦾 A disability headcanon

Skull

Skull is giving me all sorts of vibes for Adhd and Dyslexia. The Adhd cause canonically that guy is not sitting still or paying attention. And to specify his dyslexia! He is absolutely multilingual. It's just that he is at completely different levels of being able to read or write depending on the language. He still can't write anything in Italian without making people around him act embarrassed on his behalf, but he can navigate around using streetsigns when he takes the time to read them properly!

Skull also has memory issues every now and then, because his ADHD is accompanied by occasional dissociation.

Hibari

This guy has Autism as well as misophonia I think. Autism because Namimori is his special interest, fighting is his hyperfixation, he stimms via pacing/patrolling, he does not get social cues and if you so much as touch his schedule/routine he will probably kick you through the nearest wall. Misophonia is just additional sound sensitivity. As in, he is unable to not focus on uncomfortable sounds. Hibari dislikes crowding because he can't deal with the sounds people's bodies make when they're eating and talking. It's distracting.

Also Fun Fact! Apparently, Misophonia is also called Sound-rage. That suits him nicely I think. :3

Xanxus

I am shaking my brain, so let's see!

Excluding the last Arc cause. The guy just really lost that, huh.

I'm thinking... PTSD at the very least. Whether he was aware during the time he was frozen or not, that whole thing is severely traumatizing and I think he suffers flashbacks whenever he gets chilly at least. Winter at the Varia mansion is absolutely heck.

Also... I think for a while after he was unfrozen, Xanxus suffers from involuntary age regression(A symptom, not a disability itself). Whether it's the trauma of being frozen or of suddenly waking up eight years older, he was not acting his physical age. In fact, I think the Varia Arc is a bit of a childish tantrum on his end. Hope he gets better soon. 😔

Mukuro

Yea, he also has PTSD. From his childhood as well as the Vindice prison. And he is blind in his red eye, at most he can differentiate light and dark on that side. He has insomnia because he doesn't want to wake up back in his cell. And I think the lives he's lived and the fact illusions are his whole deal, gives him a very similar experience to schizophrenia. 100%, this guy has scared himself with unintended/involuntary illusions on more than one occasion.

💄 An appearance headcanon

Hibari

His entire body is covered with all sorts of scars. Tiny ones, as well as a scar that spams the entire lenght of his thigh. He has gotten incredibly good at makeup to cover the visible scars, because he doesn't know what to tell people that ask questions. He also has miniscule scars on his face because... Have you see how messed up he gets in Canon??? Multiple times??? Like, yes sure, with some makeup, there is no visible difference, but he feels a pang of regret and annoyance when he looks at himself first thing in the morning.

Skull

His hair and eyes are flame dyed and nobody except him knows! Skull was born with bright, almost platinum blond hair and light blue eyes. When he went flame active, ways before he got any kind of fame, his purple got everywhere actually. Skull likes the colour tho, so he never felt the need to do anything about it lmao. There is one story cooking in my brain in which Skull gradually desaturated because of the curse and it pisses him off...

Also tattoos and piercings. Everywhere.

Xanxus

Pre freeze, he was often called handsome. Post freeze, he does not get nearly that many compliments. He thinks it's cause he's ugly now, but it's really just because he is more aggressive and visibly hate-filled. Eventually, his guardians start paying him random compliments, just because. It makes Xanxus feel a little better I like to think.

Oh also! Pre freeze he had a lot of moles all over his body. The scars cover some of them now, but not all, especially on his back.

(XS headcanon: Squalo likes finding/seeing stuff in his scars and moles like Xanxus's back is some messed up Version of the night sky. Xanxus will never admit that it makes him feel so pretty.)

Mukuro

Mukuro actually likes his blue eye better. That colour is so rich and beautiful... Sometimes he likes to just Illusion his red eye back to that blue, because it makes him feel pretty. Also he has all the gender. Whether or not he has boobs is a day-to-day decision, really.

👻 A headcanon about what scares them

For this one I googled phobia names UwU

Hibari

He has Agoraphobia (fear of enclosed, crowded spaces) and this fear expresses itself with a desire to brawl. He also has mild entomophobia (insects), which I headcanon because it'd be hilarious if Hibari saw a bug and jumped cause that startled him.

Hibari also has Mazeophobia (fear of getting lost) but he deals with that by just always having some kind of a map of the area on him. Needing an up to date map on his person, is why it sometimes takes him a few days to get to a battle (Simon Arc). Otherwise, he's fearless/has no good sense of self preservation.

Skull

Skull suffers from Athazagoraphobia (fear of being ignored, forgotten or forgetting someone) which heavily contributes to how annoying people perceive him to be. It also makes his memory issues worse to deal with for him. Skull has gotten into the habit of dedicating tattoos or piercings he gets to people he knows and likes. He never tells the person, but he likes having a reminder constantly on himself.

Skull also likes to say he has a rational fear of weapons and violence.

Xanxus

Xanxus has to deal with Cryophobia (fear of cold). This fear expresses itself through rage, naturally. If you see him shivering and looking irritated... Run.

Xanxus also has a mild case of Autophobia (fear of being alone/abandoned). This stems from his childhood, because when his mother handed him over to Timoteo, he did feel abandoned by her. This fear would express itself through a wave of sadness though. If his guardians abandoned him, Xanxus would be so hurt. May react angrily, but there is so much grief behind that anger.

Also Xanxus has Cleithrophobia (fear of being trapped). Because again, he was trapped in a popsicle for a while. If ever he was affected by temporary paralysis during battle, he would not be okay afterwards.

Mukuro

Mukuro deals with Atelophobia (fear of being imperfect) because I imagine as he was experimented on, he was punished for imperfections. It's not a paralysing fear of his, but it is something that's in the back of his mind as he schemes in his day-to-day life. He prefers making plans that cannot fail.

He also has Agoraphobia (fear of enclosed spaces). Yes, just like Kyoya, which I find amusing. For different reasons, but still. In Mukuro's case because he was in a glass tube for months at least, in Hibari's case because enclosed spaces are easily crowded and he doesn't like that. Mukuro's fear is more intense than Kyoya's. He will destroy anything and anyone that tries to keep him confined anywhere.

Also Mukuro has Pistanthrophobia (fear of trusting others) because why else would he act like he doesn't love his gang. He is terrified that they would use his trust against him, so he tries not to develop trust. But that's so difficult when people are so genuine and consistent....

👽 A headcanon about a weird quirk of theirs

Hibari

If you can't find him anywhere and it's late evening, check in the alleyway next to Takesushi's. He is probably holding open the dumpster there for stray cats. Yes, that routinely gets him whacked with Tsuyoshi's broom. He will do it anyway.

Skull

Skull is pretty gullible, which makes him susceptible to common superstitions! If you tell him doing something weird wards off bad luck or brings good luck, he will do that thing before his next stunt! One time Skull threw salt over his shoulder before a mission and that hit Reborn in the face. Which caused outrage. Every Arco called Reborn salty for the rest of that week lmao

Xanxus

Xanxus sleeps with three blankets and five pillows because he likes being cozy. And warm. He likes being warm above all else. The Varia routinely give him more blankets, just in case. One time all of Xanxus's blankets were destroyed by an attack and all of the Varia slept without blankets that night cause Xanxus stole theirs as revenge.

Mukuro

The weirdest quirk Mukuro has is probably that he has one completely ordinary hobby. So.... Mukuro's favourite past time is bowling. Because when he was way wayyyy little that was a family member's favourite thing to watch on TV. Mukuro doesn't actually remember why he likes bowling so much.

#katekyo hitman reborn #khr #khr headcanons #khr hibari #khr skull #khr xanxus #khr mukuro #Ask Game! #I shook my brain as best I could #for you 💞

[space-kittie]

I've been annoying my friends and family with this for weeks now but I absolutely can't overstate how much of a culture shock it is to work in a place in which your work is appreciated and your needs are being respected.

Like one of my bosses kept reiterating this week (because he got to learn a lot about my trauma and insecurities recently) how I'm a genuinely good employee and how I (the fucking adhd clown who was always being beat up for it in one way or the other) am already, after barely two months, one of the the more reliable employees to him, because he knows I do my job and I do it properly without him having to worry. Like??? Me??? R E L I A B L E?!?!?!

Okay.

And the next thing that had me like. Honestly lowkey surprised (?) today was kinda like.

Yesterday my district manager came to our store and like. I have pretty bad history with her, so I ended up getting an anxiety attack. Being at the checkout (and even if I wasn't let's be real) I opted to just suck it up and try to ignore it.

So this morning he immediately noticed I was off and I ended up telling him and the first thing he asked was if I told the others and asked them to let me go to the back for a few minutes. Which listen I realize is not a big deal, or at least it shouldn't be, but it was always ever just encouraged in theory.

So obviously I told him no and that I was just kind of doing my best to work through it and stuff because I didn't want to slow down the other and "it's not a big deal, because I was just a bit shaky and had trouble focusing/breathing".

And he just. Said that it doesn't matter if I think it's a big deal - I wasn't feeling well, and I deserve the chance to step away and calm down.

I even started to play it down more because like. I thought that he was thinking I was like. Idk sitting in the corner half dead but he...didn't change his mind.

"You were in distress and you shouldn't have to just 'suck it up'."

Bro???? Hello???????

Anyway he then insisted that next time this happens, I don't just try to ignore and take the break I need to deal with that because "There's always enough time for that, no matter how busy it is."

I just. Istfg. There's been so many times my bosses and some of my colleagues that also strongly support me almost made me cry right in the store because I just. Don't know. What's going on.

Straight up one of my colleagues that hypes me up the most keeps telling people she knows or even other colleagues and me how:

"I swear to God I keep wondering what's wrong with this girl. She'll run through the store like a possessed person and work her ass off just to turn around and say she's slow and not a good worker????" She knows why am like this btw, that's just how she talks lmao

Anyway I guess moral of the story is that there will be people that appreciate you and your efforts and want to see you thrive/are cheering for you. And when you find them you'll know very quickly.

#i just #these people are so kind to me #and I dont know how to be normal about that

[spacemagicandlaserswords]

The Clone Wars and Rebels

I mentioned this in my previous post and have been meaning to write about it in more detail.

I've never actually watched The Clone Wars or Rebels.

Not intentionally, it just sort of never happened. TCW was first released during a weird and rough part of my life where a lot of other things were going on and for many reasons past me was focused on other things. I'm not entirely sure where, or even if, I would've been able to watch TCW when it first came out. I think it might've been picked up by one of the TV channels but I'm not sure and I don't think streaming was a big thing yet back in 2008. I'm also pretty sure both TCW and Rebels would've been marketed as "animated kids TV shows' so I'm guessing past me just took it at read that it wasn't a show aimed at me. Ooh, how wrong I was. (I've got more thoughts about the whole "kids show" thing but that's for another time.)

Even though I've never watched TCW or Rebels, I still know the general gist of what happens. It's a bit hard to not be spoiled for a show that premiered 15 years ago. Plus, I have a frustrating tendency to spoil things for myself in my need to understand and find out everything about a particular topic if my brain latches onto it (dammit ADHD brain). So I know who Rex and Cody and Ashoka all are and I know how TCW ends and what happens at the end of Rebels. But I have no emotional connection to all these characters and stories, which is what I'm sad about the most.

Every time Rex or Cody appear or are even just briefly mentioned in The Bad Batch, people go absolutely completely and utterly bonkers. I can clearly see that they, and many others, are beloved characters and I'm sad that I'm not a part of that. That I missed out on desperately waiting for each new episode each week, devouring it when it aired and then excitedly screaming into the internet void about whatever just transpired. That I missed out on growing to love these characters and following their stories. That I missed out on experiencing all of this when it happened and am continuing to miss out on experiencing this as it continues in The Bad Batch.

A really good example of this is Echo. People seem to go absolutely postal about him but I'm just sitting here going "yeah I like the guy but why the reaction?" Of course, I now know why. I read about what happened to him but I never experienced or watched it. And I miss that. This is not to say that I don't like Echo. I absolutely do. Echo girlies please do not come for me. Tbh I think I may end up turning into an Echo girlie, especially after his very commanding voice, leadership and general badassery at the start of 'Tipping Point'.

Another example is when Zeb very briefly appeared in the most recent episode of The Mandalorian. People lost their absolute minds and I'm sitting here going, "who?". As I'm apparently incapable of not spoiling myself, I've since read up about Zeb, and then found out about Kallus and oh no, I just know this is a ship I'm going to fall into and be obsessed with. Good luck future me. Fare thee well. Enjoy it while it lasts.

So having never watched these beloved shows, it means I'm missing out on so much of the fandom reactions, relationships, emotions and how much these characters and their stories mean to everyone. And I don't want that to be the case. I want to know Rex and Cody and Ashoka and the 501st and the 212th and Jesse and Fives and Hera and Kanan and Zeb and Kallus and everyone else that I can't list because I'm trying to not spoil myself too much.

TCW and Rebels have been on my To Watch list for a while and recently, I was finally able to start watching The Clone Wars. I'm still only on Season 1 and was up to episode 18 'Mystery of a Thousand Moons' before I a) became hyperfixated on The Bad Batch and b) decided to pause watching TCW so I could come back to the series later on and properly enjoy watching it. And I am enjoying what I've watched so far! I've already got plenty of thoughts so I think I'll put those all together in another post before I dive back into watching TCW and then Rebels after that.

Because that's what I want to do with both of these beloved series. I'm watching them for the first time and I really want to savour and enjoy it. I'm going to be watching The Clone Wars and Rebels for the first time. I'm never going to get that experience ever again. I could just binge them all in one massive sitting but I don't think that would do the shows justice or be as enjoyable. I can't wait until each new episode is released each week like they were when they were initially released but I can enjoy them in my own way.

Which is why I want to turn my first watch through of these shows into my own little project. Something purely for me, for my experience and for me to enjoy and look forward to. I don't have much, if anything, left to enjoy or look forward to anymore so I'm going to grasp on to what little I can. And in this case, its watching The Clone Wars and Rebels for the first time.

I had planned on jumping straight back into it after The Bad Batch Season 2 finale but I think I'm going to need a while now to deal with and try to process everything that happened in that. But when the time is right, hopefully sometime SoonTM, I'll get back into watching The Clone Wars. My plan is to watch an episode and then write a reaction post with my thoughts/opinions/theories/general screeching about said episode. Once I've finished, I'll have this archive, a collection of posts and writing that capture the first time I watched The Clone Wars and Rebels.

I'm getting all happy and teary just thinking about it.

Given the large gap between season 1 and 2 of The Bad Batch, I'm hoping to be able to finish watching TCW and Rebels before the (hopeful) premiere of season 3 of The Bad Batch (please let there be a season 3, there's got to be a season 3, please). It'll also help the references that appear in other Star Wars shows actually mean something to me. I'm really going to need to have finished watching TCW and Rebels before watching Ashoka otherwise it just won't mean as much to me, and I don't want to miss out on that either.

I can't imagine there are many people left in the fandom that have yet to watch The Clone Wars and Rebels. While it does mean that I've missed out on so much, I'm also excited about it. I'm fully aware that there are going to be rough episodes (2008 animation is, well, dated) and that my emotions are going to be destroyed by Filoni et al. but I'm also really looking forward to it. To meeting all the clones and other characters and getting to know them. To learning their stories and going on adventures with them.

I get to watch The Clone Wars and Rebels for the first time. And I'm really looking forward to it. It's given me something to look forward to for the first time in a very long time.

#the clone wars #clone wars #tcw #sw the clone wars #sw clone wars #sw tcw #rebels #Star Wars rebels #star wars #the bad batch #bad batch #tbb #sw the bad batch #sw bad batch #rex #cody #ashoka #zeb #kallus #watching the clone wars for the first time

[sonnenflamme]

For the fanfic ask: 7, 8, 9 & 34

7 - What element of writing do you struggle with most?

Re-reading my own stuff and trying to find my mistakes. Because I really can‘t focus on it at all. Also the specific part of writing the „transition“ from the intro scene and story and all to the actual smut part.

8 - which character(s) do you find easiest to write?

Sid. Mainly because I headcanon him with ADHD and I often just write him the way I’d act when I wouldn’t mask. Also Jim because I’m awkward as well. I don‘t have to force myself to find ways to respond properly but I can write the way I’d probably misunderstand something etc. And Shawn‘s caring side.

9 - Which character(s) do you find most difficult to write?

I haven‘t tried out all characters yet so I can only guess. But any character that involves a lot of body language and mimic, as I have trouble reading it and describing something that actually means the thing I want it to mean is probably rather difficult. So I’m not sure if I‘d be able to write Craig properly. I also am nervous to write Paul, as he doesn‘t have all that much of a set character, and I don‘t want to do him wrong.

34 - copy and paste an excerpt you‘re particularly fond of.

(Deciding on what I’d use for this was fucking hard. So I’ll give you two examples. Both are from stories of my series with unusual kinks. I didn’t publish any of these (yet)).

The guitarist looked up into those blue eyes he adored so much. His faces froze as well as his whole body as he felt something. He tried to relax again, which didn't work exactly well. One ant was crawling over his thigh and now he started feeling more on his body, crawling  and almost tickling him, over his legs, arms, torso and fuck- goddamned they were starting to get under his loose, grey shorts. Control your-fucking-self, Root. It didn't work at all. And there he was, laying next to the person he loved with a fucking boner because fucking ants were crawling over his skin. Stupid kink.

„Hey, you okay?„ Corey asked with this soft voice Jim could listen to all day. Okay, he could listen to him speaking or screaming or anything all day. But this soft voice, it was just special. The taller guy tried to nod which didn't work well given to him still laying on the ground, so he tried to use words. „Mhm, I'm good." „Doesn't sound convincing to me." The singer stroked along the guitarists torso in a comforting manner and looked him in the hazel eyes, before slowly going down with his gaze. Shit shit shit shit!

(The kink of that is formicophilia, which is sexual pleasure from being crawled on by insects. I‘m of course not 100% sure if that‘s accurate as I don‘t share this kink, but I still quite like how this part of the story came out.)

„Why is it so fucking cold?" Mick asked, shivering and his teeth were chattering. „Because we are standing in the snow. Almost nakedly." Shawn's voice was extremely calm but Mick could clearly see that this was all just a mask, under which he was shaking and trembling and definitely feeling the coldness as much as the guitarist did. „Why did we even agree to that?" „Because we didn't know we were going to loose the bet, Mickael." „Oh my god, I hate you being like that." „Says the man that is currently complaining about it being 'so fucking cold' and 'why we even agreed to this'." Mick didn't know what he should answer to that, at the end, Clown was right. Oh how much he hated it if this old man was in his 'treating him like he was a little child' mood and then him being right. Argh.

„How long do we need to stay outside?" "60 minutes." And Shawn was still speaking with this calm voice. „How long did we do already?" „7 minutes." „Urgh."

„Hey hey hey, Clown! Wait! Where are you going to?" „Over to the bench there to be able to sit down without freezing my balls off." „Can you stop with that stupidly annoyed voice? I was just trying to start a conversation to make the time pass faster!" „You can't make the time pass faster." „I'm not a fucking child, I actually do know that. But it feels like it's passing faster." Mick responded and then started running after Shawn to sit down too.

(I know that I went out of character with Mick in the last part here, but I overall really like the conversation. I also totally think Shawn would be like this and Mick would be annoyed by it. This was the „intro“-scene for my story for psychrophilia , which is getting arousal out of being cold and/or watching others being cold/freezing.)

[hui-ing]

Hui sits however he wants and I think that's very big-brained of him

#pentagon #ptg #super five #hwitaek #lee hwitaek #hui #universe #funky lil gremlin leader <3 #i have adhd and can't sit properly so i see him doing this and am like YES FRIEND

[kiri-ah]

I really need to get this off my chest and if you see it that's great go on your merry way I just need to say it.

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So my brother. I'll call him Juan for the sake of anonymity. He's two years younger than me, 12 as of now (Feb 2021). He's been diagnosed with Autism and ADHD and although he's verbal he sometimes find it hard to communicate, take social cues, etc. When he was little it was.... Not good, but better. When he was little he was a terrible liar and pretty bad at getting away with things. Plus he was small enough that we could subdue him (we never hurt him on purpose I swear) if need be. He's gone through numerous surgeries to try and fix his right eyelid, which developed without the muscles needed to operate it properly. Even now he struggles to see with that eye just because it's harder to focus, like a bad camera. Or at least that's what I've inferred. Nowadays we've started medicating him, which has been an absolute life saver during the day. For the most part he can function close to neurotypical. However when the meds wear off... I'm not kidding when I say it's like the devil himself has sent something to inhabit him. He likes seeing how far he can push us, how far he can go with being terrible to us before we snap. The only things he cares about are his gaming computer and his tablet. Occasionally we see a touch of appreciation for us but they're few and far between.

On Tuesdays and every other Sunday, my dad goes to the basement to play dungeons and dragons online. This is great, he has a ton of fun and gets to socialize with people his own age. Unfortunately that leaves the task of putting Juan to bed for me and my mom. Sometimes it isn't too hard and he goes to bed. Other nights, nights like tonight, he goes feral. He seems to enjoy making us angry, seeing how far we can bend. The only leverage we have over him is taking away his computer but he knows we won't because we depend on it to keep him occupied as much as he depends on it to... I don't even know but he worships that thing more than God and we raised him Christian.

Anyway earlier tonight he came into my room and was laying on my bed, which is fine, but I asked him to leave and he wouldn't. I started poking his tummy, trying to convince him to leave. This is where the feral comes in. I think the average brother might play a little more but ultimately respects you as a human. Juan? Lol using Juan for his name is so fun Not so much. He grabbed my shirt and threatened to rip it if I didn't stop and, of course, stayed put on my bed. I told him that I would go downstairs and take his computer away if he didn't get off my bed and leave my room. My mom had walked away to get ready for bed herself at this point. He didn't budge even after I counted to five. So I came downstairs, to the basement where my dad is too get him to take the computer. On the way I had a revelation. Well not a revelation exactly but an old thought came back. I am utterly powerless. Even on days where he's good I have no power, I'm just happy that he's good. On days like this it hits home just how little I can do. How can you ask something of someone when they don't respect or pity you? He has neither respect nor pity for me. I doubt he does for anyone except my Grammy and my dad. I sometimes feel useless because of it, because I'm not good enough to help my poor mother in her struggles. I'm not strong enough. And then of course that insecurity bleeds into other areas of life.

I just needed to tell someone about all of this because I'm sitting here crying and God already knows so praying doesn't feel like the right thing to do. Maybe I'm being selfish and attention seeking. I can't find it in me to care; I just want to get this out. If you read this far down then thank you, I appreciate you. I ask that if you reply you don't write pity. I pity myself enough. Sympathy I will take. Plain old love is fine too. Prayers are appreciated.

Thank you,

Kiri

#autism #kiri complains #kiri's juan