#i have also apparently decided the tropical land outfit is THE murderer shinichi outfit kdhskdjhf

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"Here's to the greater good, for all..."

So I watched M16 yesterday and was instantly swept away by this shot:

Context be damned, I go absolutely feral at any official material that even slightly vagues at Conan behaving/being perceived as an actual Devil Child. Portrayals of morally dubious Shinichi gets points too, but this one really pushed all my buttons and I could not resist drawing something SOBS

Unfortunately the image in my head which was inspired by this shot was a lot different that what came out on paper, and I ultimately settled for the version posted before the cut. I really, really wanted to somehow tie Conan into the version of Murderer Shinichi I've been speculating about on occasion. How would his relationship with the Conan identity affect him? Not well, I imagine. If anything, Conan would probably be the deciding factor in a downward spiral, especially considering that Shinichi does not exactly take kindly to him even in official canon.

The degree to which he dislikes him is probably waaay exaggerated to the point of hatred in my own headcanons, but... Conan is like a symptom of a disease, or the disease itself, and searching for a cure that may or may not exist with it in tow like ball and chain must be maddening in every sense of the word. Sometimes I speculate that Shinichi's drive for revenge (or "justice," as he tends to call it in-show - interesting since he blatantly refers to it as vengeance when used in context with Haibara) is the only thing distracting him from whatever he feels towards his Conan identity. Haibara has made her feelings clear-- hating her reflection, for instance, knowing it is not really her-- but Shinichi seems to guard his true feelings about it a lot more carefully, or masks it behind apathy (as if this boy needs more facades skjdhfskdhf).

Anyway... the first iteration tries to get this across with an identical image, but Shinichi--or is it grown-up Conan?--sports the glasses. It sounded really good in my head but it just didn't parse once I actually had it down skdjfhskdhjf so maybe I'll think of something else later.

Gotta say this is so funny to me because Murderer Shinichi is turning out to be another HC I'm relapsing on from my babby Detco days, just without the overt supernatural spin bbbb

Not entirely sure I'll polish this one up, since the initial idea fell through ;.;

#art #dcmk #kudou shinichi #kudo shinichi #shinichi kudo #murderer shinichi kudo #wip? maybe #internal screaming hours #detective conan #headcanon #i have also apparently decided the tropical land outfit is THE murderer shinichi outfit kdhskdjhf #there's probably some symbolism logic to that - the starting point of his revenge story perhaps #murderer shinichi