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r4v3nzcr0ws · 6 months

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every time my bf tells someone we’re dating or kisses me in public i get so excited. like yay hes not embarrassed to be seen with me!! he likes me!!! <33

#boyfriend posting #i have low self esteem #and low standards #i will cry if im shown any amount of kindness ever #i love my boyfriend

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tomcat-reusables · 7 months

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Breaking news: local man not as good at the one thing he’s good at as he previously assumed he was. Identity crisis can be expected within an hour, more at 10.

#artist struggle #fuuuck #i have low self esteem

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jackinabox3764 · 3 months

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traits

people often inherit traits from their parents. my father always said i looked like my mother. she was an alcoholic; absent in my life. so i dyed my hair.

i guess i am like my parents. i do look like my mother and her addictive ways. i do look like my father and his bipolar tendencies.

my sister criticizes me for the traits from our parents, calling me names such as control-freak and narcissist. i try to change, but she doesn't stop. the words weigh heavy on my shoulders, tugging me down until i hit rock bottom. i cry.

-Jackson Foster

1/5/24

#poetry #parents #jackson foster #Family sucks #I have low self esteem

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cosmichero69 · 4 months

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JUST HAD THEATER AUDITIONS IM CRYINGGGGG (not really) WHAT IF I DONT GET SOMETHING AJAGDHJFJFJF

#theater #audition #musical #musical theater #i am freaking out #aaaaaaaghhh #i have low self esteem

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remirixjones · 8 months

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I hope to one day have the confidence of an Asian dad.

#its all i want #i have low self esteem #shitpost #asian dads

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kindnessoverperfection · 9 months

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Please, if you can, take a moment to read and share this because I feel like I'm screaming underwater.

NPD (Narcissistic Personality Disorder) stigma is rampant right now, and seems to be getting progressively worse. Everyone is using it as a buzzword in the worst ways possible, spreading misinformation and hatred against a real disorder.

I could go on a long time about how this happened, why it's factually incorrect (and what the disorder actually IS), why it's harmful, and the changes I'd like to see. But to keep this concise, I'll simply link to a few posts under the cut for further reading.

The point of this post is a plea. Please help stop the spread of stigma. Even in mental health communities, even around others with personality disorders, in neurodivergent "safe" spaces, other communities I thought people would be supportive in (e.g. trans support groups, progressive spaces in general), it keeps coming up. So I'm willing to bet that a lot of people on this site need to see this.

Because it's so hard to exist in this world.

My disorder already makes me feel as if I'm worthless and unlovable, like there's something inherently wrong and damaged about me. And it's so much harder to fight that and heal when my daily life consists of:

Laughing and spending time with my friends, doing my utmost best to connect and stay present and focused on them, trying to let my guards down and be real and believe I'm lovable- when suddenly they throw out the word "narcissist" to describe horrible people or someone they hate, or the conversation turns to how evil "people with narcissistic personality disorder" are. (Seriously, you don't know which of your friends might have NPD and feels like shit when you say those things & now knows that you'd hate them if you knew.)

Trying to look up "mental health positivity for people with npd", "mental health positivity cluster bs", only to find a) none of that, and b) more of the same old vile shit that makes me feel terrible about myself.

Having a hard time (which is constant at this point) and trying to look up resources for myself, only to again, find the same stigma. And no resources.

Not having any clue how to help myself, because even the mental health field is spitting so much vitriol at people with DISORDERS (who they're supposed to be helping!) that there's no solid research or therapy programs for people like me.

Losing close friends when they find out, despite us having had a good relationship before, and them KNOWING me and knowing that I'm not like the trending image of pwNPD. Because now they only see me through the lens of stigma and misinformation.

Hearing the same stigma come up literally wherever I go. Clubs. Meetings. Any online space. At the bus stop. At the mall. At a restaurant. At work. Buzzword of the year that everyone loooves loudly throwing around with their friends or over the phone. Feels awesome for me, makes my day so much better/s

I could go on for a long time, but I'm scared no one will read/rb this if it gets too much longer.

So please. Stop using the word "narcissist" as a synonym for "abusive".

Stop bringing up people you hate who you believe to have NPD because of a stigmatizing article full of misinformation whenever someone with actual NPD opens their mouth. (Imagine if people did that with any other disorder! "Hey, I'm autistic." "Oh... my old roommate screamed at me whenever I made noise around him, and didn't understand my needs, which seems like sensory overload and difficulty with social cues. He was definitely autistic. But as long as you're self-aware and always restraining your innate desire to be an abusive asshole, you're okay I guess, maybe." ...See how offensive and ignorant that is?)

Stop preventing healthcare for people with a disorder just because it's trendy to use us as a scapegoat.

If you got this far, thank you for reading, and please share this if you can. Further reading is under the cut.

NPD Criteria, re-written by someone who actually has NPD

Stigma in the DSM

Common perception of the DSM criteria vs how someone may actually experience them (Keep in mind that this is the way I personally experience these symptoms, and that presentation can vary a lot between individuals)

"Idk, the stigma is right though, because I've known a lot of people with NPD who are jerks, so I'm going to continue to support the blockage of treatment for this condition."

(All of these were written by me, because I didn't want to link to other folks' posts without permission, but if you want to add your own links in reblogs or replies please feel free <3)

#actuallynpd #signal boost #actuallyautistic #mental health awareness #narcissistic personality disorder #people also need to realize that mental health professionals aren't immune from bias #(it really shouldn't come as a shock that the mental health field has a longstanding pattern of misunderstanding and mistreating ppl who ar #mentally ill or otherwise ND)#the first therapist i brought up NPD to like. literally pulled out the DSM bc she could barely remember the criteria. then said that there'#no way I have it because I have low self-esteem lmaoooooo #anyway throwback to being at work and chatting with a co-worker. and the conversation turning to mental health. and him saying that #he tries to stay informed and be aware and supportive of mental health conditions & that he doesn't want to be ignorant or spread harmful #misinformation. and then i mentioned that i do a lot of research into mental health stuff and i listed a bunch of things. which included #several personality disorders. one of which was NPD.#and after listening to my whole ass list he zeroed in on the NPD and immediately started talking about how narcissists are abusive and #he knew someone who had NPD and how the person who had it had an addiction and died from the addiction in a horrible way and he #was glad he did #fun times #or when i decided to be vulnerable and talk abt my self-criticism/self-hatred bc i knew my friends also struggled w that and i wanted to #support them by sharing my own coping methods. and they both(separately!) started picking and prodding at my npd through the lens of stigma #bc i'd recently opened up to them abt having it. they recognized self-hatred as a symptom and still jumped on me for it. despite me #trying to share hurt vulnerable parts of myself to help them and connect with them.#again..... fun times

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sakuraluck · 7 days

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when i said i wanted to understand whatever’s going on in ivan’s head, i didn’t mean like this 😭😭

#alnst ivan #alnst till #ivantill #alien stage #ooooh boy turns out ivan’s self esteem is pretty low in terms of love #makes total sense but it’s not what i expected from someone who looked so in control of what he wanted and was willing to pursue from till #he loves humbly which was my first intepretation of him before we even got round 3 #it’s changed since then with more (mis)information leaked by vivinos to misdirect our understanding of him #so to get this clear dialogue of his final thoughts is really… clarifying #and terribly sad in a way #ivan loves till so much and is entirely aware that he hasn’t been the most gentle of suitors #god i have many thoughts about this #ahhh ivan baby your feelings aren’t shallow at all

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iamtrulyahotmess · 2 years

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so I just redownloaded Tumblr. broke up w gf less than a week ago, found a rebound guy right after and it resulted it in a lot of sexting, which is weird because I'm ace and I don't really like sex I just like the idea of someone liking me enough to have sex with me, and I also like intimacy which is weird because w this guy I was fully like no strings attached cause that heart broken Gemini ass seemed like he'd get attached I mean he was literally on discord which would be the first red flag but then anyway we agreed to stop at some point and now I'm friends w my ex ? ish ? idk.

anyway the point is I was maybe watching smth spicy and there was some alone time involved w hands doing things and I realised through it I don't want sex or a gf, I just need someone to hug me like they really mean it. like someone to hug me in such a way that I can tell they actually give a shit about this hug. like what the hell is this w my mommy and daddy issues and them neglecting me and also everyone around me hates hugs. I just need someone to NEED to hug me ykno. I'm really bitchless rn

#love #I'm dying #i can't spell #i read books #I'm not dumb #i have low self esteem #i should read smth that doesn't destroy my sanity #the word sanity reminds me of sanitary which reminds me of diapers

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aroaceleovaldez · 6 months

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honestly Percy and Nico's dynamic is made even funnier when you take into account how Will is written in TSATS. Like, oh okay then, Nico just has horrible taste in men and keeps getting smitten with boys who loathe everything he stands for. Percy stopped being Nico's type because Percy started to respect him too much. Cupid is yelling at Nico to raise his standards while Nico scopes out the latest guy who will treat him wrong to take on a date to the Underworld.

#pjo #percy jackson #riordanverse #nico di angelo #will solace #TSATS #the sun and the star #Cupid: YOU CAN DO BETTER || Nico: You're right! I *could* do worse! || Cupid: *NO*#Nico's self-esteem is so low he thinks people who respect him are a deal-breaker. Cupid Reyna Hazel and Jason screaming in the bg #Nico handshake emoji Leo. ''i know they dont like me and want me to get rid of everything that defines me. but they're willing to date me''#Leo's desperate for approval so he has an excuse. Nico doesnt care about fitting in though so he's just doing that to himself for no reason #these boys have so many problems but it's kinda funny. and makes for interesting narrative

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im-totally-not-an-alien-2 · 1 year

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Cullen: *trying to distract Ras Al Ghul for his sister who he just found out was Blue Bird* Why do you worship Lazarus anyway? What does it give you?!

Ras Al Ghul: It gives me endless life and eternal youth.

Cullen: But I bet it can't give me a boyfriend.

*Lazarus green portal opens up in the sky and shoots a guy down at Cullen feet*

Ras:

Cullen:

Nightwing:

Bluebird:

Robin:

Cullen: Dibs

Robin: That is a demon. A pit demon.

Cullen: and I called dibs

Phantom: ????

Phantom: I know a place if you like burgers

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heckitall · 9 months

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One | Two | Three

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you ever need someone outside your family

to make you have the hard conversations

whether you want it or not

cuz same

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also! warm water/ice/smelling something strong (like lemons!) can help ground people who are having a panic/flashback

i swear by the warm mug of water

#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #rottmnt #rise leonardo #flashbacks and veterans #tw low self esteem #tw panic attack #tw flashbacks #the stranger has been revealed!#its an axolotl!#also this is where i start talking about myself #fun fact: i have combat ptsd #okay not actually a fun fact #but we are a few weeks away from the event that started this all for me #i relate a lot to leo in the movie that made it hit a little too close to home #i was a newly made leader and given a small team of 7 #and sent into a situation that was lose/lose but we didnt know that #i didn't know that #i made a lot of really dumb decisions and #it was not okay #all 8 of us came home which is the lowest bar possible #im the only one that ended up any kind of injured so i take that as a win but also not great #anyway #not to bring some serious undertones to all of this #but this was SUPER theraputic for me #also why i will probably never write/draw a bad!future au #too real for me #even the scene of them shooting the technodrome was hard and its cartoon violence ugh #heck draws

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mxtxfanatic · 4 months

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Luo Binghe really was entirely too forgiving about the whole abyss thing. Y’all talk about how the peak lords must have felt going through hell and high water for Shen Qingqiu, just for the man to still end up with Luo Binghe? Imagine if Luo Binghe had friends and they knew exactly what Shen Qingqiu had done to Luo Binghe over all those years 😬

#svsss #anyways it still bothers me how the entire sect treat lbh #despite KNOWING sqq abused lbh even if they don’t know about the abyss #like imagine if lbh was your friend telling you about all this #and ending the story with ‘and i still want to marry him 🥺’#i’d be sending over every ‘how to know you are in an abusive relationship’ text i could find!#we would be discussing how low your self-esteem has to be to accept such treatment!#like this is absolutely wild!#(what’s even wilder is sqq also still tryna protect lbh while laboring under the assumption that lbh was destined to be a tyrant)#‘as long as he’s happy’ headass #I imagine that if both groups weren’t convinced that their friend’s partner was one wrong move away from putting their friend in a coffin #they’d have much to lament about together

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wigglebox · 9 months

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