#i have never recovered from this moment

[robobee]

you ever think about how Henry cheng, severely claustrophobic, deliberately and actively spent YEARS putting HIMSELF into dark crawlspaces and literal basement manholes just because he couldn't handle the idea of being forced into that position again. do you understand how seondeok raised to be Like That from the beginning. [shakes you by the lapel] do you understand that THEY HAD HIM TELL HER EVERYTHING THEY WOULD DO TO HIM!!! AND SHE SAID SHE WOULD NOT PAY FOR DAMAGED GOODS!!! AND HENRY SAID THIS WITH A LAUGH -- A LAUGH!

#trc #every time i reread that part of trk i go insane for a solid month #rn ive been thinking abt those several siblings hes estranged from #do they have any idea? imagine jokingly wrestling ur little brother and his eyes go wild with the rage of a trapped animal #smth smth humans being the only animals so desperate for sel preservation theyll break their own fingers to get out of a trap #henryposting #henry cheng #when gansey has that quiet moment of oh. He Is Not Joking. i lost it i did ive never recovered

[fairyroses]

requested by @lexkent: the scene in "Shattered" where Lana sees Lex on the ground in the stable sitting curled into himself, and she looks anguished to see him in such a state, and she's so kind and compassionate to him

+ bonus Lana, after literally almost dying:

#thank you erin for requesting this because these scenes are incredibly underrated #like the moment where lana hands lex the drink and he smiles up at her with such an innocently adoring look....... many thoughts head full #(yes I know it all goes horribly wrong right after that but shhhhh) #she's just soooo soft and gentle and sweet with him and it's hitting all the best hurt/comfort buttons in my heart 🥺 #just look at all the comforting touches!! lex almost never receives that kind of genuine affection/positive physical contact from other ppl #I think it's also worth pointing out that lana decides at the end of the ep that being around *clark* is dangerous and she should avoid him #but she never expresses a similar sentiment towards lex or blames him at all for what happened #and a few episodes later she even tells him that he could have visited her while she was recovering #......god I still can't get over the fact that her first words when she wakes up in the hospital are 'how's lex' like I really could cry #she's the best and I won't hear a word to the contrary #smallville #smallvilleedit #svedit #lana lang #lex luthor #clark kent #lexana #dcmultiverse #sv 3x08 #my gifs

[prolibytherium]

I hope they continue with Dennis' kratom usage . I have always longed to have media representation for those of us who got addicted to drinking green slop instead of properly medicating themselves, in the form of a guy from the poop show. Ever since I was a little girl I dreamed of this

#The first time I watched that episode I was actively drinking kratom the moment it got mentioned and almost choked on it #I mix mine with minute maid or sweetened sparkling water though (cheap) if I was enough of a freak to spend 5$+ on bubble tea as a #mixer I would never have recovered from seeing myself represented so scathingly #iasip

[completeoveranalysis]

[4]

I just have to say I LOVE the Instant Synchronised Murder Faces that Fai and Kurogane are whipping out any time anything even slightly unusual happens. It’s EXTREMELY warranted for where they are, and also just slightly hilarious whenever it’s like… a door opening. 

BUT INSTANT SYNCHRONISED MURDER FACES I SHALL HAVE!

I suppose you could say the giant doors they had to open in Koryo were the tiniest bit foreshadowing this moment. Oh it’s even the same battle party too! Sakura didn’t come with them that time either, so it was just the four of them storming a giant forbidding castle controlled by an evil wizard who was watching them magically from a distance.

If there is acid anywhere inside the ruinsI’m allowed to start yelling. 

Oh! Also! In Koryo the inside corridor of the castle had a repeating hallway - kind of like a time loop, but a far simpler one. And when they visited the Memory version of the Clow Ruins in Recourt the hallways also randomly changed in size and shape, as if time and space were unstable - which is far more relevant now than it ever was before.

I can't believe they've done this.

#We’ve never been here after all #But by giving us visibly similar images and scenarios #It FEELS like we have #Like we are ALSO in a time loop #Like all of our adventures have been echoes of this moment displaced in time #Liveblogging the Reservoir Chronicle #Vol 188 #Tsubasa #Lava Lamp Guy #Mokona #Kurogane #Fai #The only downside is that #We are not given the opportunity to see Kurogane punch down a wall #WHICH I AM SURE I WILL RECOVER FROM EVENTUALLY

[lmaowh-at]

Girls don’t need therapy. they need their dead lover to come and possess them on their wedding day

#i have never been normal in my life. not for a single moment #the dybbuk #but not that dybbuk #marc chagall and this play is a fatal combo for my brain. im not recovering after this drawing #10 hours tracked time😭😭😭😭😭 אלוהים ישמור #art #digital art #illustration #digital illustration #taking a break from drawing for the next week fr #🧩

[uncanny-tranny]

One thing I hate most about enduring the scars of abuse is that I just... never trusted that something as fundamental as love and care could exist in a pure state, unadulterated by fear and isolation. It felt like every little aspect of humanity twisted into itself until all I could recognize was this cold, unfeeling mass of horror. You pick up the pieces and have to learn how to step back into the waters of love, and it's so damn scary, yet people look at you with this look that says, "how dare you be suspicious of love?"

I just want others to know that it's not easy to recover - it never really is, is it? People expect that you'll accept love right away, that you won't be afraid of positivity. But that's unrealistic and unreasonable and unfair. People who are in this stage of recovery aren't selfish, nor are we trying to insult the love the world has for us. We are wounded, and we are trying to protect ourselves, and yes, it might seem counterproductive, but please realize that this might be the only way we know how to survive right now. And to the person reading this who may be going through this: I'm proud of you. If you cannot run head-first into recovery, you may walk, or crawl, or claw your way into it, you may scream and sob and laugh. There is no right answer to recovery.

#recovery #abuse #abuse tw #inspired by a post i read elsewhere that broke me a bit #and the reason i resonated with it were completely different but it still... i felt that same way for years and i never could notice it #everybody expects you to bounce back from trauma but... the trauma has personally disabled me and has warped me for years #and yes i am trying to recover but this has taken most of my *life* to do #and i wish more people recognized the effort it takes. some people aren't ready for this huge commitment and that is OKAY #if you aren't ready to recover or you are recovering slowly: you are welcomed here. it's okay. you aren't judged. this shit is hard as fuck #i admire the courage it takes for you to be here now. i adore the brief moments our spaceships have passed by

[purplepixel]

Since you are a fan of rise and you do like that Raph. What’s your opinion on 03 Raph and 12 Raph?

Oh ho ho!! I'm actually glad you asked this bc I've been thinking about it a lot lately.

2003 raph is prob one of my favorite turtles in 03. I've only watched the first two seasons of the show, but I love his snark. He has some of the best comeback lines and his dynamic with Mikey is one of my favorite aspects of the show. His "yo mama" line is something I think about a lot haha.

Now 2012 raph. Ohhhh boy him. Having gotten through the first three seasons of 2012, my perception of him has changed drastically. If you showed me just the first two episodes of 2012 (and like...first half of season 1) I would've told you raph is a horrible brother who is nothing more than a bully. But I've watched three seasons of 2012 now and SOMEHOW he's become one of my favorites. Maybe it's bc they soften him a bit in later seasons. Maybe it's bc sometimes I'd sit there and be like...damn he has a right to be angry (I will actually never forgive splinter's "lesson" in s1ep3). Maybe I like really flawed characters? Idk. But as someone whos first introduction of the character was rise/2012 fics, I've now since grown an appreciation for him. 2012 had an extremely rough start with his character, since ya. He was a bully and oftentimes extremely out of pocket with insults. (but honestly all the 2012 turtles were. Raph was just the biggest offender). But like all raphs he's secretly a big softie that's masked by a rough exterior. 2012 raph is what happens if that softness is made fun of and seen as a weakness instead of strength. (Also if the writers don't understand the difference between banter and bullying until like season 2 coughcough) So ya, he's one of my favs now. I have way too much to say about him

#I'll never forget mikey walking in on him playing with his action figures #or him taking over as leader when leo was recovering from a coma #that has some of the most wholesome raph moments #he cares he just doesnt know how to show it #all the 2012 boys need therapy #bc damn nobody told them to process their feelings properly #SPLINTER #again #ill never forgive him for telling his other brothers to gang up on him with insults as a lesson #i didnt even like the character when i saw that and went what the actual fuck #i have so many thoughts about 2012 #2003 tmnt #2012 tmnt #pixel replies

[hecksupremechips]

Honestly though I think it’s really a bad sign when I look at Shin Tsukimi and literally feel like he’s a self insert 😩

#the klock keeps ticking #yttd #i wanna replay yttd so bad but i also like Gotta play other stuff with the time i have akskks #but yeah the brainrot this specific character has given me idk if I ever really talked about it but it was BAD #i like obsessively played the game in like 3 days and it was not a good idea lol but just like shin #i had to take like a week to recover from this guy cuz i couldnt stop thinking about him and how hes just like me fr #first off just the very inconsistent personality hes got going on that is very me he has these different personalities he wears to cope with #all the traumatic shit happening hes both so helpless its comical and so manipulative its terrifying #and idk its really interesting how like good and bad he is at being manipulative like hes very smart and can analyze weaknesses and lie so #good not even he knows the truth but hes also grasping at straws he doesnt think things through at all #like the second main game he just didnt prepare at all hes fumbling his way through everything its going so bad #he just wants to go home he wants to outdo the game makers but hes being used by them so bad he wants it to STOP #and its just the way that like. it hits so hard cuz you know hes really not a bad person not at all he doesnt want any of this hes just #being horribly manipulated and doing whatever he can to survive but its also really scary how #well hes able to lie and manipulate and claw his way through but hes also weaker than a grade schooler #and you never forget that either and as much as he cheated his way through he still failed it was all just a cheap trick in the end #and all of this hits very hard like his personality is eerily similar to mine and just the way he thinks and acts #cuz im the same like im weak and a dweeb who likes funny cats but im also emotionally detached and observant and selfish #but where it hits the hardest is his relationship with midori like oooof that one was too real just like #the first person who was ever his friend was horribly abusive and treated him like a child and didnt respect any boundaries #and he just got sick pleasure out of seeing shin be upset and he was like. a groomer #and shin was fucking relieved when he died but also kept his scarf and adopted his personality to survive #and still goes by sou after ch2 and the scene that gets me the most is when shin ai is asked about his relationship with midori #and you can just SEE how horrified shin is because his deepest shame his abuse is being shared to everyone without his consent #and hes reliving it all in that moment and literally seeing who he used to be experiencing the abuse #he just curls into himself and like covers his ears and pulls his hair thats literally what i do AAAAAA #im just so grateful for the direction they took this character kokichi ouma wishes he was shin tsukimi so bad #and yeah just like damn. its scary how similar i am to shin like damn i really am going through it huh oof #I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I WILL DEFEND HIM WITH MY LIFE HE DID ALL OF THAT STUFF YOUR HONOR BUT LISTENNNN #have you considered that hes cute and smart and weird and maybe just needs friends who arent assholes

[iridescentis]

The fic is finally here! This idea came to me in a fever dream I do not know how I got here but I loved writing it, so here it is!

#i could not think of any way to describe this #it wouldn't be hard to but my brain is fried #also this is an hour later than i meant to post it #because i accidentally closed the window of the fic and had to put everything into a new work again #i needed a moment to recover from that #i do not enjoy ao3 tagging it is very good but i am very lazy #oh and yeah i don't know if i have mentioned this before but it's supposed to be a ramtteo fic #the shipping is very mild because i got carried away BUT THERE WILL BE MORE #there are plans in motion never fear #soy luna #ramtteo

[kyouka-supremacy]

I really, really like the Black Lizard family dynamics and I adore chapter 77, but in my personal headcanon Gin is that kind of resentful person who doesn't allow second chances when their trust has been betrayed and would never forgive Tachihara once they find out he was actually a spy working undercover in the mafia

#I like to headcanon - even though that's very far from canon - Gin and Tachihara having this kind of sibling dynamic– #which is very different from Gin's relationship with Akutagawa #Where as Akutagawa is their older brother who's very protective of them‚ but also kinda distant (cause that's just how Akutagawa is... #Though he's trying to get better) #With Tachihara they are a lot more in sync and make this couple of chaotic siblings– #who are close in age‚ immediately get each other and talk in their own language that is only theirs #That's the (consciously inaccurate) way I like to interpret their interaction in chapter 5– #because that exchange and death treat are hella siblings things to do ahah #Gin x Tachihara is nice but honestly wlw / mlm Gin/Tachihara is even nicer lmao #But yeah the point is that Gin felt very close to Tachihara and trusted him deeply and to find out it was all a lie... They'd never recover #And it ends up hurting Tachihara just as much because in his days at the pm Gin was his greatest relief and sustain #the only person he felt he could show his true self to and suspend the acting for a moment #So in a way Tachihara DID show his true self to Gin #but in the end it won't matter to them because they were kept in the dark of him formally working for the hd still #So yeah. Angst :// #Perhaps all of this deserved to be mentioned in the main body of the post lmao #gin akutagawa #michizō tachihara #tachigin #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd headcanons #mine #Maybe Hirotsu had guessed something was up with Tachihara #– I like to imagine he's that kind of person with emotional intelligence who can read people really well - #But decided not to say anything to cherish the moment they had left of that little fake family #;;;;;; #q.

[lewisainz]

i love reading your tags on anything and everything cause you're always telling your own little story, like what's going on in your day n everything and i just find it so cute and nice and so you!! i just had to tell u rn ahahha <33

ouughhhmy god . had to go kick my feet in my room for a bit after reading ur message … i almost proposed…. this is like a celebrity reacting to a dm

THANK YOUUU 😭 YOU SO :(( SWEET (♡⸃ ◡ ⸂♡) 🩷🩷

#i love to talk and i have no friends 👍 THE LOVE I RECEIVE FROM TIMBLR MUTUALS … IT CURES ME. WAHH. #.asks #my week has been made by ur kindness. i shall never recover from this moment. happy dance‼️

[dogco11ar]

the ‘real’ de-petrification process…… aka unyassifying all the characters designs

#is it bad that i kinda hate it. #it just marks the moment that petrification becomes a toy to inagaki rather than like. a traumatic event. #like whatever. i know the reframing is important to utilizing medusa as a healing mechanism rather than a weapon. #but it never truly becomes one it’s obsolete after a couple uses (to keep the characters at a manageable power level) #edit bc i came back an elaborated more: #idk. petrification just seems like a really huge thing to recover from mentally as an individual and as an entire species as the direct targ #*target of a phenomenon that would have insane ramifications. #like as a scientist and someone who met directly with the medusas on the moon the rest of the world will just have to trust senku kohaku and #stanley aren’t lying. (depending on what information they choose to share) gen literally made propaganda to control how the other #unpetrified people thought about senku as their leader #THERES JUST SO MANY IMPLICATIONS AND QUESTIONS i don’t think inagaki could answer all of it but a concept as grand as this deserves intense #consideration #gen does become a diplomat for that reason but that’s a lot for one person to carry!! i want to see what those conversations were like!!! #d.s

[madamescarlette]

Your sense of belief! In the good! in the world! You once believed in ME

#lyrics #yesterday was like the floodgates i kept walking around today trying not to cry over this one line crashing against me like a wave #maybe if i have one single favorite lyric from this album it's this #aksdjfhakshfjh catch me making a breakup song about me and my old self like the self-absorbed idiot i am! #my revealing thought for you today is that maybe hits different is so special to me because it's like the funny version of cornelia street #(funny like black humor like the grim humor you feel when you almost pass out on the floor of your house) #(and you can't do anything about it so you have to laugh at it otherwise how will you get up again) #remember when she was like i don't know if i can write breakup songs anymore when i'm happy? and then she wrote cs & the rest of lover #and they were like. the blueprint for the webspinning of folkmore #i loved (still love) cornelia street for a very long time because to me it's like it holds eternity in it even when admitting #to the reality of loss. it's almost like a breakup song because it carries within itself that vow of never-recovering #never moving past this. always returning and turning this in your soul because nothing will ever be this again #and i think hits different is so special because it IS that moment in cornelia street; her running out not knowing if he'd ever come back #it's her living if i ever lose you i can never return to the home that we shared #it has that same gravity because it contains now the same reality of loss and that loss in real time #but at the same time it's so precious and sweet because it still carries the same love that made that vow real! #she can't move past it because it will be with her forever! it is the gift given to her and she doesn't know #what to do or where to go when she's got to let go of it! so she's reeling and trying to figure out where on earth to set the love down #anyway. this turned out much longer than it ought to be. i hope you're doing well tumblr and thank you for reading if you did <3

[pepprs]

like . omg i know i need to stop POSTINGGGG but god thinking abt the argument w my parents last night and all the implications of it hurts so bad it’s unreal it hurts literally so bad. and it is ruining my life in so many ways and ive been fighting back tears all day bc of it. Lol

#purrs #i think im a burden to everyone and that everyone thinks im stupid and young and naïve entitled selfish annoying etc etc but really it’s #just my parents who think that and the fact that they do means that there is something fundamentally wrong with me so i carry that into #every relationship im in and isolate myself and hold back from saying how i feel and setting boundaries and i am so sad and tired all the #time that i never talk to anyone and i beat myself up for making mistakes and for having thoughts and feelings and i hurt the people who #love me by denying myself to them and not believing in their love and it fucking sucks and i hate that i will never fully recover from the #damage and i hate that the damage is over the STUPIDEST fucking shit in the whole world that is literaly nothing compared to some of the #horrors in the human experience like it’s just 2 bad fights with my mom and my brother being born and my grandma dying and how my mom did or #did not parent me 100% to her best ability during all of those moments and suddenly im fucked in the head for life over DUST BUNNIES. over #DRYER LINT. CRUMBS! specks of dirt. like are you kidding me. catapulting myself into the nearest viper pit rn i think. but also it’s 1:30 am #and i am working tomorrow and ive had an exhausting soul crushing week and i need to go to bed and i am running away from everyone and #everything in my life and it just is a hard time to be a person right now anyway so like maybe i need to just go to sleep and reblog some #posts and play animal crossing in all my free time and throw my phone into the river and be normal for 2 seconds. ok. #* 3 bad fights w my mom. but also a lot more but especially those 3 ♥️

[kaserolly]

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#moving on and recovering from mental breakdowns has got to be one of the worst things ever #i went through one last night because my mom wouldn't stop bitching about sth that im too scared of sharing #ans i simply just... couldbr take it anymore bhhhug i literally exploded #literally years and years of having to deal with so much stress and mental abuse #and me not knowing how to control amd express myself jughyg #i never cried sp much until that moment... i was done with everything vhghjh i literally couldn't handle anything in that moment #eventually dad came and tried to calm me down and mom apologized a lil but it was just htghyfgt #i hate myself i hate that i cant control my emotions at all i hate that im scared that no one cares about me or that im not taken seriously #i need to go now cuz im at uni and i must pretend that nothing happened bhghhgh #idk if i have a future ahead of me im scared of everything idk what to do anymore #delete later #sorry for this rant hyfhyy but im so close to exploding in the uni bathroom my mind cant handle thus gyfhjghhhggggg

[ragnarot]

THOR'S VICTORY AGAINST LÜ BU will always be ... upsetting to me , to witness . Because , while I knew that Lü wasn't going to win , Thor shattered his legs , tore his limbs off & then decapitated him . all done with the Mjölnir , as you could expect . He pulverized this man into the afterlife . Watching Thor win is like watching a mortal human trying to stop an oncoming train . There's even pieces of Lü's splattered flesh & blood still on the Mjölnir when Thor finishes . need i say this again , but thor is his father's slaughterhouse son .

#lads ? i have just never recovered from these moments in particular #THEY ARE JUST SO BRUTAL #gore tw #violence tw