#i have so many lovely notebooks

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

the most Dog ever. or. dog shaped Thing ever

#four different versions bc i couldnt decide #i have been watching So Many jimmy dean & rowlf clips its not even funny #well. it is funny. its really funny. theyre hilarious #wellll. rowlf is hilarious. jimmy dean is funny as well due to Proximity #rowlf is the best muppet no one can convince me otherwise #hes Everything #scribble garnish #the muppets #rowlf the dog #rowlf #did i make him too curly? maybe. but hey who's gonna hold me accountable No One thats who #you'll never catch me alive! i'll curly-fy... curlify.... curl... ILL MAKE EVERYTHING CURLY MARK MY WORDS #no seriously. mark em. take out your notebook and write this down there'll be a test later #anyway i love how Blanket he is #every time i see a picture of his full puppet its like. thats a blanket right there #puppy throw... #you know that would be a good blanket idea actually? head and arms and the rest is just a pelt #rowlf skin for your floor!

[bigbrainbiology]

Navia doodle <3

#fanart #genshin impact #navia #traditional art #my art #I did NOT want to draw her hat #I love her design #but Mihoyo WHY SO MANY DETAILS TvT #So ye I deffo draw the heads a bit too big/unpropotial to the body when I do trad art #I have no lasso tool TvT #But I'm just gonna enjoy the process and try to draw more and more detail as I progress this year #new notebook specifically for trad stuff for hoyoverse characters bc why not #I have many note books for many purposes haha #been doodling recently so the next few days will have stuff scheduled to post!

[mister13eyond]

talking to a friend about getting back into art and i think the #1 most important piece of art advice i could ever get or give is just "figure out what is FUN to you"

like i think there is sooooo much emphasis on how to build SKILL in art but a lot of it really treats art like a job or like video game grinding, like it's this thankless job that you have to work at in order to reach a Threshold and i know it's not EASY to make yourself have fun but like

imo a solid 70% of the reason i create art is because the Act of Drawing is fun to me. it's fun problem-solving and planning and putting down lines and playing with colors and tools. it's fun to depict little scenes in my head or to create outfits or to find ways to fill the canvas. never forget that creating can be fun. sometimes it's hard and sometimes you have to battle through your own blockades to get there but the ultimate goal should always be to ENJOY it, to find what you enjoy doing and then do it forever. improvement will follow enjoyment.

i think especially with all the debate about ML image generation it's more important than ever to embrace FUN. if you're only focused on the end result it's so easy to get in your own head- to think about what doesn't look good or what skills you don't have yet or to compare yourself to other artists. but photography didn't kill the art of drawing and AI won't either because, simply put, there will always be people who want to do the physical act of making art because it's fun to do! using paints and markers, splashing colors around, doing shitty pen doodles, using the symmetry tool in your art program to do abstract mandalas that are just squiggles formed into patterns. do art like you're 5 and you've been handed markers to pass the time. do art like you're bored in class and you're keeping your brain entertained by drawing stick figure comics in the margins. do art like an absent thing, do art because it satisfies your brain. the goal is not to make something beautiful and perfect, the goal is to make something because your hands need to make and your body needs to make.

#i know and love so many people who have intense anxiety about their ability to create art and who are so hard on themselves about the result #and i think that's a REALLY easy thing to feel because creating is also vulnerable & physically difficult and there is SOOOO much to master #but i think for me the people who churn out 300 colored pencil front facing hands behind their backs oc doodles on lined notebook paper- #are the ones with the right idea. they're the ones i aspire to be like #i'm not saying i never struggle either bc tbh #as someone with depression and adhd there are times where the Act of Having Fun is simply not possible #sometimes i CAN'T enjoy things because my ability to feel joy is locked behind a barrier of my mental illness #so i don't think it's an Easy thing to do by far and I don't think you can just Magically Make Yourself Happy And Having Fun #but i DO think that experimenting in a low-stakes low-pressure manner until you find something that clicks in your brain helps #doing things for the sake of doing them is the only way to figure out which ones WILL be fun to you #not all of them will. some things will feel like a slog #but i think you have to look for the passion before you're able to face the slog #if you jump right into the parts that are Hard and Challenge Your Limits it's easy to spin your wheels and get stuck #but if you focus on the super small stakes and the things that are thoughtless and focused more on Sensation- #the sensory experience of mixing paint or the scratch of pencil on paper or the smooth way a specific pen makes lines- #then you can lose yourself in the physical aspect of it FIRST #and then once you've started really ENJOYING those sensations you can start learning new ways to use them #because now you have the drive to want to do more #now you have the desire to find new ways to apply this thing you like doing #long post #even longer tags #art #drawing #artists #art advice

[neeko-system]

SIGNALIS SPOILERS AND WHATNOT~~

finished my second playthrough of signalis, was going for the artifact ending. then loaded my save and got the memory ending. such a good game aaaa

the memory ending made me cry, it was really heartwrenching when ariane said sorry i dont remember, i just crumpled. watching elster be so exhausted was a lot.

not really sure if i understand the artifact ending. i feel like either its really vague (on top of all the other vagueness) or if im missing something. it kind of feels like a burial of arianes memory? like elster dies and we see ariane thikning about her and elster dancing in the wrecked ship? i’m not sure. maybe someone could give me their interpretation of it?

i also found out that theres a difficulty setting and really wished i had set it to survival before my second playthrough. woulda been nice!!! I do have one more ending so i might play the game again but might also just watch it on youtube and play the game again some other time(gotta let it ruminate so i can go back in with different eyes), I wanna get all the achievements anyways.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

all in all i fucking love this game a lot. very rarely do i replay a game so soon after playing it for the first time. its really tragic i’ll never get to experience this game for the first time again, but, so it goes. its such a beautiful game i will be thinking about it for a longgggggggggggg time. ive been wanting to talk about it so badly for so long but none of my friends have played it yet kyaaa!!! >_<

its crazy to me that the game exists the way it does. the style, the mechanics, the story, the music, everything about it oozes so much passion and care and thought. very few games have made me want to stare at every part of it to figure out how they made it look the way it did (THE GAME IS SO STYLISTICALLY RICH LIKE HOIW DID THEY DO ALL THAT) and the game mechanics are so nice to my brain, everything is so tactile and clicky and inventory management and ammo management and horror stratgey and the flesh and rust and death and love and lesbians and robots and anime!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

amazing game thank you rose engine, i hope they make more stuff because i really want to see it

edit:(thinking about the first time i played compared to the second. i was considerably less scared since i had a clue of waht was going on but the fear that i felt playing the first time was special to me. i really like games with stories about ‘time loops’ because the replay-ability is baked in in a cool way. especially with how the game throws information at you, viewing things again having experienced perspective shifts from information is really cool. seeing scenes again re-contextualized makes my brain go ^-^(hots quest ding sound) but going in completely blind and being afraid of everything (i especially remember being scared of the dream beach, i had literally no clue what to expect and it was nice) it all had a different flavor than the second time which is cool because i feel like i experience that kind of emotion change *with* elster. (girlie needs a FUCKING cuddle nap)

the way the game balances reality and the surreal i think is super neat. i love surrealist dream stuff a lot and i think that a video game is a super good medium for that kind of experiential stuff that really inspires me to wanna make video games. especially because then theres also this super nerdy sci fi stuff going on about robots and space regimes and magical tech(my favorite) and planetary systems and military systems and all that good shit. i similarly wanna get nerdy about stuff like military logistics while also telling a story about gay robots and girls that keep missing each other just barely in the space time continuum. i love that the game tells you a lot but also is vague and also says fuck you (affectionate) stop looking for answers and just feel it. it explains just the right amount to not feel esoteric while keeping enough vague to leave a lot up to interpretation/figure it out by playing it again/thinking about it. it plays with themes and reality and reoccuring symbolism and all that good shit that makes stories addicting to think about.) ((also one of the endings requiring beating the game once among other things that keep between playthroughs, yummyyy. games that know they are games/stories/worlds that are aware of themselves., thats good shit right there))

#willowposting #major ramblings #signalis #this game got my brain is a vice grip but far more sinister and far gayer #the brain rot set in deep and rooted very hard #can't believe one of the people that made the game is named yuri #its like they were born for this #i love games and stories that are so thematically dense they really get me thinkin #also god the soundtrack ive listened to it so many times #therse actually nothing i love more than the sound of metal pipes and industrial equipment #concrete and metal and pipes and bullets and blood and flesh #it really speaks to me #everything about it just touches my brain on such a fundamental level #the writing goes crazy #any game that makes me take out a notebook and start jotting down notes to solve puzzles is a instant fave for me #i love writing down codes and shit its so fun #also god have i mentioned the soundtrack #the dichotomy between the harsh metal and the serene piano melodies is actual crack to me #this game has been making me think about sci fi a lot #i wanna start drawing more because holy i need to make fanart of this game or i will explode #i gotta draw the girlies #its got a girl with white hair and red eyes like what am i supposed to do #playing the game isn't enough i need to become one with it in the flesh sea #ALSO FUCK #the game utilizing different perspectives swapping between third and first person #UTILIZING MEDIUMS FOR THEIR POTENTIAL AAAAA

[becca-e-barnes]

Imagine riding subby nomad Steve like this big hunk of pure muscle and strength but your riding him making him cum so much that your overstimulating him and he’s just begging “mommy please fuck, please cum for me mommy can’t take it anymore” and you lean towards his ear and choke him saying “be a good boy for mommy and take it, cum inside mommy again, I know you want to you fucking slut” as he lets out wimpiers and whines crying from overstimulation but he can’t stop cumming in your tight hole because “mommy feels to good around my cock”

Subby. Fucking. Men. What a dream. But like, overstimulated subby men?? Beautiful.

I feel like Steve would fucking adore repeating all the filthy little things you say to degrade him though. He'd call himself names and fuck himself half stupid, then let you fuck him until he's babbling and begging. He absolutely loves it.

He can hardly think straight, he's cum so many times. All he knows is that he doesn't have much energy left. He's exhausted and overworked but still rock fucking hard. His stamina is a curse sometimes and even then, he struggles to keep up with you.

"Mommy please. I can't cum anymore. It's too much. Feels too good." He knows you won't want to stop yet. You've gotten off plenty already, trying to hide your pleasure from him each time but he doesn't miss those telltale flutters of your body. Knowing you get off on using him just makes him cum harder because he's nothing if not a good little slut for you.

"You don't think you can cum anymore? Are you serious Stevie? You're such a little slut I bet you wouldn't be able to stop. You know as well as I do that you can't help yourself. You just live to keep your mommy stuffed full." He knows you're right. In fact, he almost thinks that if you ordered him to cum then and there, he could probably manage it just by getting lost in how your body feels around his.

"Be a good boy, Stevie. Cum for me again. Cum in me like it's all you're good for. Just a dirty slut who can't help himself." Steve's moans sound so broken, grinding himself against you because you sound so slick and messy it makes his mouth water.

"I'm a filthy slut for you, mommy. So p-pussy whipped. I'm a slut. Oh God, I'm a slut." He's whimpering, lost in the way his own voice sounds as he degrades himself.

Your hand clamps around his neck, your fingers flexing and oh God, he's gone. His cheeks are blazing, his muscles tense and strained.

"I can't cum, mommy. I can't cum. Please don't fucking make me cum." He sounds distraught as his head falls forward onto your shoulder.

"Colour, Steve." You demand and it almost takes him by surprise because he's shocked you can't see how much he's loving every second of this.

"Green. So fucking green." He pants. His head is empty, his body almost feeling like he's floating.

"Oh, you're sluttier than I thought. You almost had me fooled but I should've known better. Little whores like you love to be treated like this, huh? Love to be used." He's nodding in agreement because that's all he's got. Your body is still rocking back and forth on his length, a little faster than before but with the way you're squeezing his throat, he knows he can't last.

"Mommy, I'm gonna cum. Oh f-fuck, I need it. N-need to feel you cum first mommy, please." He begs but you can't give him the satisfaction, no matter how badly you need to.

"Do as I tell you, baby boy." You whisper, nibbling his ear before choking him just a little harder. "Cum inside mommy and don't fucking stop." Despite the fact he really can't handle it, he does. It seems like he's cumming for minutes on end, letting his sticky mess drip from you as he just pumps you full of more.

"I'm such a slut." He whines, seemingly cumming harder after admitting it and it's such a beautiful sight, you don't think you're close to being done with him yet.

#asks answered <3 #anon #becca writes spice #subby!steve #my head hurts #I have so many requests for stuff like this rn #and I love it #bc this is one of my favourites to write rn #I've been working in the coffee shop all week because I have holidays to use #and we have this one lil regular #who's 87 #and he's not great with names because there's so many of us #He calls me 'Saturday' because he says he only knows it's Saturday if he sees me in work #given that I usually only work Saturdays in there #He's the sweetest lil man I adore him #and then he gets out his notebook and checks it because he has all our names written down and after a minute or two I hear 'REBECCA!' #bc he remembered #he says this week must just be a week of Saturdays because I'm in all week 🥺 #idk he's just been on my mind tonight #he's the sweetest little man #we talked for ages yesterday because it was so quiet #I got so much of his life story it was actually really nice to just chat to someone like that #he's likes to sit at the table by the window because he likes to watch the trees 🥺

[sysig]

Just thinking about @10yrsy’s Things, y’know, casually (Patreon)

#Doodles #IZ #I know Things is long dead but I've been feeling rather nostalgic lately #Man let alone Irkens when was the last time I doodled a Latrodectus haha - and 10's style of antenna! It's all quite nostalgic #I'll try not to get Too sappy but it's hard when I was so inspired by Things! It had a big impact on me #Without exaggeration Things helped shape the trajectory of my life for quite a while - it's interesting to think about artistic influences #But gosh heck I don't think I've doodled anything of any of them since the song contest all those years ago lol #I like to think I've improved a bit since then lol ♪ Though the medium is quite different haha #Finally drew Nid! Only took a Very long time lolol #I do remember having doodled some Extreme roughs for a comic concept ages and ages ago but that's really all I remember lol #Maybe hunting down those old notebooks sometime would be fun haha #ANYway lol - enough reminiscing! There's all this current silliness! #Snarp was my favourite back in the day and I still like him a lot haha #He's a prickly little so-and-so! A cute and spicy lad! Always a fun ♪ #If ''little meow meow'' had existed as a term back then I would've used it for him lol he deserves it #It really is about the [unforgivable nature] paired with [unconditional love] hhh their friendship is still really cute <3 #Myk! He's always had the most gorgeous design <3 His eyes! My word! #Beauty like that really doesn't age - I was always a fan of the close up of his eye and his skin texture ahh #Probably no one remembers this blog's original icon but hmm ♪ Inspiration down many many avenues haha #Hopefully I did his eyes justice with my limited traditional palette haha #Had to show off his muscles a little too <3 Those gloves man he's just a pretty dude! #I did a bit of editing magic with Nid so if his eyeline doesn't quite match up just sshhhshshshh it's fine lol ♪ #Who's saying which and who's gasping hmmm who knows it's a mystery hehe #And ending off with those two again <3 It's their dynamic I swear I just jdslfdsf it gets me bad lol #Squish him hold him (gently (maybe not that gently)) haha

[elegyofthemoon]

(shows up a month or so later) ✨

i shouldnt have been surprised that kagetsu won the poll ALSKDJF as soon as i saw the first votes i was like "ohhh no"

so ANYWAYS kagetsu !! and a few other doots ive done of him i wanted to show :)

#doots #the other doots i wanted to do from the polls WONT BE AS EXTENSIVE #this was just special mostly bc i drew kagetsus before but never showed on main >_> #and then decided with a DIFFERENT poll 'okay lets just show all the kagetsu dootdoots' #so here you go. some kagetsu dootdoots #i have to look at the poll again i dont remember who i put LAKSJDFHALH #ANYHOOTS #the only reason why i finished this was bc SOMEONE DIDNT WANNA SIT DOWN AND FINISH HIS LECTURES (me) #so i had to compromise and find something to make me sit while listening. #and lo and behold. #fe engage #fe17 #fire emblem engage #fe kagetsu #kagetsu #damn i feel so silly tagging it w so many HRM but okay ! #ALSO i love the little winter coat he has in his notebook page i think we should talk about it more #hes freezing in elusia :/ bundle him up #also that one where hes like 'its exhilarating up here!' was something i drew #when i first got his line about how tall somniel is or something like that #BUT YEAH RAMBLING TOO MUCH SORRY LMAO

[basilacademia]

@partyhorn The slugs are so gender I had to become one The first art is mine but the last two are done by my partner! (The other slug in the last picture is theirs too! I got their permission to post them <3)

#i wanted to add more black but man i love orange and blue so much #so many color palettes i tried and i realize theres not enough black but maybe ill give him an alternate outfit that looks more #like the slug! #ANYWAYS;;ive wanted to post this for weeks but see <--anxiety #mebi's art #mollys future mishaps #sona: Cecil #other's oc: Nemi #booking it off to bed at top speeds #literally half of my notebook is MFM i have brainrot

[broke-on-books]

I think the universe just hates me personally (can't find my scooby doo comics)

#WHERE ARE THEY #i own like 5 individual issues split between SD WAY and SD & batman adventures and i cant find like 4 of them #this is important bc i just got this new app where you track which comics youve read and i need to be accurate bc yay lists and just aaaggh #also sidenote i think ive found my soulmate this one person leaves a review on each and every WAY comic and they EVEN AGREE WITH ME #literally they said they hated over the boardwalk and i was literally like 'i think im in love' #also i know you guys almost certainly dont know what that is. i have an insanely unporportional hatred of that story especially compared to #its relevancy to scooby comics much less scooby doo as a whole #however i hate it so fucking much its unreal. like pure rage. its worse than scooby apocalypse to me <<<<absolutely nonsensical opinion #anyways feel free to ask me about it (i dare you. i dare you to do it) because i WILL fume with rage and i think that must be heard #but i will not go into a scooby comics rant unprompted. because before i subject you to that i need to know that at least 1 person is #remotely interested lol #also to properly form my rant id have to make myself read over the boardwalk again 🤢🤢🤢 <<<again nonsensical response #and i wont do that for me but id do it for any of you in an instant #ANYWAYS WHERE ARE MY COMICS. LITERALLY ONLY MY SCOOBY ONES (minus one sd & batman issue) ARE MISSING #my far sector tpb? got it! the historical civil war comic i think my grandfather gave me in 5th grade? have that! the scooby doo comics? #gone. vanished from this plane of existence #actually i do know where they are. i have too many books to fit in my bookcase so theres a huge stack that takes up like part of a wall of #books and notebooks and folders and old school binders and other junk #................ #goddamn it im going to go through that aren't i #this is gonna be a total mess dear lord #if i die know that i got crushed by a huge tower of books btw #anyways now time to go thru a bunch of trouble to track down like 3 single issues i KNOW i own #blah

[britneyshakespeare]

can’t stop intellectualizing about barbie

#maybe ill post a rant later #tales from diana #it's funny. i've written a lot in my private diaries and notebooks about how much i love dolls and have always loved dolls #and what an impact they've had on me personally and wider popular culture #and why i view them as both products and art #etc etc etc #but i dont really try and convince others of those points even on this personal blog where ill rant about truly ANYTHING stupid i want #its not like im worried about anyone judging or tearing apart my opinions (my followers first of all would never) #(i dont think tumblr generally would either. maybe some pockets of tumblr but theyd have to find it somehow) #i guess for me its just a very introspective topic first of all bc it goes back to my early childhood and covers basically all of my life #and i dont assume the history of my life is something that interests most people very much #like most ppl dont really wanna hear about how many similarities i find between playing w dolls and writing poems #(altho ive written and posted poems on that topic before!) #it would be interesting specifically to ppl who know me well. which is probably why ive also talked about this a lot w my sister #kaily and i would literally play games of dolls that would last entire days for like several days in a row #playing w dolls was my FAVORITE thing in the world hands down as a kid. and it did so much good for me #but also barbie and other fashion dolls are so culturally and historically significant and impactful in many underappreciated ways #justice to all doll lovers. xoxoxox

[tangledstarlight]

i miss the fandoms vibes i had going on in 2021. all the thoughts. all the words to put to the thoughts. able to open discord and actually respond to messages. all the aus. man what a time

#and like. i'm perfectly content being back in my lil bubble of not actively engaging with the fandoms i'm enjoying #but MAN do i sometimes deeply miss the 2020/2021 jatp fandom vibes because i was honestly having a BLAST #and i made so many wonderful lovely amazing friends and mutuals who i now get to watch deceand into new fandoms😌 #anyway this is so random and brought to you by me finding the notebook i wrote the outline for the runnaway royals au in #rip to that fic i'm so sorry i really dont think i'll ever finish it 😬

[invinciblerodent]

the GOOD thing about writing my silly little stories by hand is that I can cross out words, and arrow stuff around, add asterisks, and little symbols, and comments on the margins, and basically I can just kinda futz with words. It's like the text is clay, and I don't have to fully commit right away to whether I want to make a vase or a teapot.

the BAD thing about writing by hand is that if I want to write more than one thing at the same time, I either need multiple notebooks, or just. SO many fucking sticky tabs. and there's only like FIVE colors.

#i have written “cont. from last blue” or “cont. from second green” so many times by now #squirrel writes #AND have started using google docs #AND the notes app on my phone #all to then second-draft everything into my notebook because i want it in the same place #AND if i want to post something i have to type it up which is ALSO a thing #sigh #i did this to myself and i love it but still #bitch bitch complain complain

[shehzadi]

i love my little characters that keep spinning their little hamster wheels of fate until they die! and in some cases even after that because SOME of us are stubborn assholes who refuse to let go

#kelsier i love you you have so many problems in that little brain of yours #mistborn #notebook #m

[morsmoon]

one thing about me. I'm a slut for notebooks. you want to make me happy? give me a notebook and I'll cherish it with my life

#i have so many notebooks. i love everything about notebooks. everything. #you do not understand. i am obsessed.

[forestofmemories]

i know the most uh. let’s say important matches are satoshi vs gladio and satoshi vs kukui but to be honest my fav matches aside from those are suiren vs mao and kaki vs maamane, they never fail to make me cry

#satoshi vs guzma too........ #when notebook of the heart starts playing i start crying #ari rewatches sm. again #the way they all give their all bc they want to win #bc they want to prove themselves #and show how much they've grown. how much they've learnt #it's about the chara development. i love those kind of battles #the alola league is so good..... #i have soooo so many thoughts my brain is so full #like. guzma repeatedly tells satoshi to give up. to forfeit the battle while he still can #and satoshi refuses every time. he will never run away from a battle #and then. AND THEN golisopod decides that no. he’s not running away anymore either #guzma notices this and decides to face his fears head on. it’s ok even if you lose. there’s nothing wrong w that #mao too. she didn’t want amajo to push herself too hard and was ready to give up herself #but thanks to suiren and amajo she gives her all to the very end #and maamane? deep down he knows he can’t beat kaki. and yet he tries. and he comes up w/ really good strategies actually #have i already said i love the alola league #people can complain all they want ‘aNyOne CaN eNtEr’ ‘ThAt wIn DoEsn’T cOunT’ #idc!!!! i’d rather watch battles that involve charas i’m actually invested in #rather than a random chara showing up just to beat everyone #anyway. #end of my ramblings adjshjsh

[lesbianyosano]

my bad trait is that i want fukuzawa to die

#not bc i hate him!!! i absolutely adore that guy #but if he died it’s gonna be sm funnnnnnnn #esp if fukuchi also dies #i love you middle aged divorced gay ppl </3 #but seriously like it’s clear this arc is abt changing the status quo in many ways #and that things aren’t going back to how they used to be #and asagiri went out of his way to establish kunikida as the next president when it wasnt strictly necessary #and it’d be a good way to introduce character development for most ada members #plus i’m so so curious to know how much his ability actually affects everyone #tanizaki mostly tbh but kunikida too #bc it’s so strange how he supposedly has to use specific type of paper that makes no sense #if this was the case how did he even figure out he has an ability??? we know his notebooks are expensive and hard to get #but most importantly atsushi will have to deal with the tiger on his own and let’s be honest that has to happen at some point #idk i just want this arc to end with a bang #and since i’m not 100% sure fyodor is going to die just yet (bc he pretty much has to at some point) this might be the way to go #txt.