#i have so many projects like creatively

[clover-46]

the writers on here making the miguel fics need to remember his fangs inject paralytic venom hes not a real vampire it was just a joke in the movie 😭

oh but i still want him to bite me don’t get me wrong idgaf if they have venom 🤷🏾‍♀️🤷🏾‍♀️

#the copious amounts of smut i’ve seen with this man and the fangs is crazy #y’all need to tone it DOWN wheres the fluff omg?? #there’s like so many smut x reader fics clogging the miguel o’hara tag and people can express their creative liberties or whatever but it’s #getting CRAZY #like why is almost nobody talking about his character and writing an analysis on him #AND WHY ARE SO MANY FICS WRITING HIM TO BE SOME FERAL AND MEAN BEAST #firstly it’s feels racist to write a brown latino man that way. #second it feels fetishiz-y with how people only sexualize the fuck outta him and talk about nothing else when it comes to him #to add onto that people are drawing him with a MUZZLE on #at first all this didn’t really register in my head as bad but after seeing so much i see it 😭 #also some spanish speakers have said people are using incorrect spanish when writing dialogue for him and thats kinda funny #don’t use google translate please 💀 #miguel o’ hara #spiderman 2099 #across the spiderverse #i also saw someone say miguel would not be a good partner or something and i just know you didn’t pay attention #and i wont go into why because its spoilers but we have seen him be soft and happy with someone he cares about it’s just trauma that has #made him mean and depressed #he was obviously projecting onto miles in the movie when he acted like that let’s be fr #why am i writing a novel down here idk i just wanted to talk about it a little #i love the smut (trust me) but pleaaseee don’t start being fetishize-y

[boyfriendunsolved]

the new video was greatly needed if watcher had any hopes of staying afloat. unfortunately, this backpedaling does not change the fact that

1) high production "television quality" content is what they want to make

2) this content is evidently not what people want to watch (even post-apology i'm seeing a lot of people saying they liked bfu better than anything watcher has produced)

again, if they have a clear vision of what they want to make, that's great. but unless there's a market for that content, then it's not going to turn a profit, or break even for that matter. yes, artists deserve to be paid for their work, but art is always bought by people who want and have an interest in said art.

im an artist pursuing my dreams too, but i don't expect people to buy my niche paintings just on the principle that i am an artist creating what i want. if i wanted to make money from this and turn it into a business, i would take commissions and specifically create what other people want. that is what having any kind of artistic job is about, unfortunately.

it's great if what you want to create and what people want to see overlap, but that's not always the case. and i really fear this is the case with watcher and they won't pivot enough to fix any of their problems

#here's an example #i know gmm is a way bigger company but #rhett and link do gmm stuff #but occasionally produce something a lot more involved and creative that is inspired solely by their wants #those videos dont do nearly as good as gmm does #but its an outlet for them to still have some creative control #and the people who like those videos love them (im one of them!) #so it is possible to both produce content that is profitable and to make content that pleases you as an artist #you just have to find a balance with it and unfortunately watcher has no balance at all #like even watcher's 'lower quality' work uses so many resources like. guys theres a reason youre bleeding money #and people giving you $6 isnt going to fix it #they need an overhaul #cut back to basics to find their footing before trying these super ambitious projects that they're not sure will pay off #watcher #im talking again

[uncanny-tranny]

Honestly, going into your WIP pile to actually go through it and see what you actually want to finish can be really helpful, especially when you don't judge yourself and try to learn why that piece became a hibernater in your WIP pile

Some questions I ponder when I look at a WIP is:

Is this project turning out how I want? If not, what about it don't I like?

Do I or did I have fun when I was starting it?

Will I actually use it or enjoy it when I'm done?

Do I like the material now?

Do I see myself enjoying the product after it's done?

Were there, or are there, time restraints preventing me from finishing?

Is this out of my current skill set, and am I okay with that?

If I could change one thing about the WIP, what would it be?

I know plenty of people won't incorporate this into their own WIP and crafting journey, and that's okay. But I know so many people who hibernate their projects for many reasons and feel guilty about it. I hope this might give people ideas about why they hibernate projects to prevent that type of guilt from eating away at their conscious. This (creating) should be fun, and if you're spending a lot of time feeling guilty or ashamed, it can be hard to continue doing the things you like.

#art #fiber art #knit #crochet #(but this applies to a Lot of crafts and skills and whatnot. i direct it towards knit and crochet because that's what i had in mind) #honestly i think i'm going to frog one of my WIPs because i just don't want it anymore #i don't like the pattern or the method it calls for and i don't like the acrylic material it recommended either #freeing yourself in the way you keep and permanently retire a WIP can be really healing i think #because then you can accept that you have the *right* to refuse to complete something which doesn't spark joy #i think many times people hibernate projects which spark anxiety or frustration for whatever reason #so sometimes you hibernate a project because you are anxious about not having the 'right' level of skill to complete it for instance #that's a generalization but i found personally that exploring *why* i hibernate things can lead me where i want to be... #...and lead me to explore what it is that fulfills my creativity in the way it needs to be honed #there is NOTHING wrong with never finishing or frogging a piece. in fact i implore you to do it if you want

[icewindandboringhorror]

recent lounging babey images

#he's so floppy recently and I hope it's just the heat. I think wamr weather makes everyone floppy and loungy #a beauntifulle boye... #cats #STILL working on posting some drafts. finishing new poll adventure.. other things... It's just hard with the weather and other things going #on. I've had a few more doctors appointments and other things to do recently that have to be done in a time limit #so I hvae to use my extremely limited energy working on that instead of doing the things I'd really rather do. :T #Main focuses though are keeping up better with doing and posting costumes + sculptures as main creative things. at least finishing the #main poll adventure story. Reworking the game I kind of abandoned for a few years. keeping up with game videos and a few other side things. #Especially the game though. I've been in a really worldbuildy mood recently. I just wish that was easier to manifest into something. I've #now put the worldbuilding slideshow reading video on pause for a while because it's SOOO long to do #and I think I should prioritize making games and stuff instead. but still other things. IT's just kind of like.. I have a whole world and #everything very built and planned out but now.. what do I do with it? what's the best way to share that? factual slideshows just going over #the information like a dictionary? make it into a game? write short stories? do art attached to the world? etc. etc. ?? There are so many #potential avenues I end up kind of flip flopping between them a lot because none really seem more beneficial than the others and they all #seem equally enjoyable and also equally hard so. It's like?? I guess just do what the hell ever and hope I made the right choice in terms o #cost benefit and reward for my time lol. ANYWAY.. Also why I'm in my 'trying to make friends' era still because I think having other creat #ive friends can help you find direction like.. people will meet each other and then go 'hey lol just for fun lets start a project together! #and then like 5 years later it's genuinely become something. etc. having other people to help weed out ideas and start small creative teams #together and etc. I feel is a very beneficial part of networking or whatever but also I have the social capacity of a stale bread roll and #am also inherently unrelatable to seemingly a majority of people due to my hermit wizard swag (detachment from general society and hyper #focus on fantasy worlds in my head gjhghj) so trying to meet people as a grown adult with social issues is Very easy and fun (it is not) #even very basic things like my core communication style is so incompatible with a lot of people it's like.. hhhh... People in this modern #age have GOT to stop being afraid of phone calls and/or text that is longer than 6 paragraphs. Work with me here. I WANT to talk to you. bu #I do not know what your emojis mean and it's physically impossible for me to type less than 85 sentences. please.. hhjgjgb #AAANYWAY!! I am working on things when I can given the circumstances (SUMMER).. hopefully some costume pictures and stuff soon. :'3 #I've not forgotten about my art and etc. - as usual I just am bad at social media and also functioning if it's above 65F lol

[iambecomeabook]

we need more representation for the people who want to be a part of nanowrimo so bad but do not have the capacity for it. bc personally trying to balance being a full-time student, mental health, a job, and writing over 1,000 words a day is rlly difficult and i have tried for three years to participate but can't ever finish it.

#nanowrimo #nano 2023 #writing #creative writing #writeblr #writers on tumblr #writers #ok but like those of y'all that do it pls tell me ur secrets #also november is just a bad month like i have so many projects and essays due then bc finals are coming up #ily's posts <3

[spacedlexi]

so I just found your blog, and I have never published a game, but I do know about coding and I was wondering if you'd be up to colaborate to make the farming sim someone brought up in a recent ask you answered 👀

coming back to my computer to see the overwhelmingly positive responses to my underbaked farm sim

if people are really interested in working on the technical side of it maybe i'll think about collabing with a team in the future 👀 which sounds WILD to say i never planned on it actually being able to take form. but just know that i have... a LOT in mind for how i want it to work...

#i have so many notes about the game design and like how the town Functions #but its.... quite ambitious........ #all of the responses i got have made me want to go back and work on it some more. its basically my creative emergency project #ive been designing it for like 3 years #farm sim by gay people for gay people. its what we deserve #replies with lexi #incognito

[slasherscream]

really wish people would read blog rules more, it makes running blogs like this very low reward and you feel like a machine if people aren't commenting and aren't even abiding by one of the, honestly, very few and politely phrased rules i even have

#then i'm left trying not to respond like a bitch when the rules are there in the first place so i don't have to have negative interactions #with the people who come to this blog #like keeping it 100 you write for yourself but you write for ENGAGEMENT and COMMUNITY #and these days in fandom there really is no community #for any fandom across the board #people see something and move on #that's bad enough at killing fandoms #but the fact that a creator can have really only one super hard rule and it gets disregarded every day #day in and day out! and i really mean it this rule gets broken in my inbox DAILY man! #i write for a lot of small fandoms or smaller characters i love the characters i'm happy to do it #but i have an adult job. college. friends. family. my own original creative projects #and even if i don't respond to the asks where people are blatantly violating /again/ #one of my FEW rules #it's exhausting to even see it !!! #it makes me not feel like a person #who cares what the girl behind the screen asked me not to do? right?? but i'm about done #i'm only at my breaking point because i've had this blog now for what three or four years?? #and no matter how i phrase the rule people break it #no matter how many reminder posts #it's exhausting because it's an every day daily thing #idk maybe i'll feel better abt it in the morning but i'm getting exhausted tbh #exhausted as in this blog might be going BYE BYE i wont delete i think you'd have it up until tumblr goes away but i am getting pissed off #TRULY pissed off bc it's been years of me asking cmon now

[ilovedthestars]

stars!! re: your tags on the post you rb'd about wizard uni/wizard tech school: may i recommend Year of the Griffin, by Diana Wynne Jones (the woman who forced Tolkien to keep lecturing instead of fucking of to work on his books by continuing to attend his terrible uni lectures) as a book leaning hard into the wizard undergrad lyfe. One of the main protags is a griffin from a loving family of human wizards (this book is loosely the sequel to The Dark Lord of Derkholm, the fantasy pastiche) and the book follows her and the ragtag group of friends she makes at uni as their various unique problems interfere with the process of studying magic and making friends at university. It's been a while since I last read it but it features terrible profs obsessed with going to the moon, a pirate invasion, philosophy of magic debates in the cafeteria, and a really sweet moment in the middle of an action-packed climax where the main protags have to talk out their feelings to fix the big magical life-threatening problem. I highly recommend!

(wish I knew a book that went the wizard trade school route, but alas. if you hear of a book like that please tell!)

tumblr I need a "mark as unread" option for my inbox because the moment the little dot went away I forgot this ask existed. oops. sorry verso I read this and appreciated it and then forgot to reply 😅

(the wizard uni/trade school post)

That book sounds amazing, thank you for the rec!! The post made me really hungry for like, relatable-to-my-current-life uni shenanigans but with magic, and now I'm so curious what Undergrad Life(TM) adventures this book contains and if any of them will resonate. Either way it sounds like it's full of very fun shenanigans. (Now what I really need is a book about wizard art school. Someone should write that.) Anyway, thank you verso, this is going on my tbr immediately :)

#stars answers #book recs #tbr #seriously. wizard art school. I want this to be a thing so bad now #if I'm basing it fully on my own experience then it should be like #a subset of the wizard uni that's equivalent to the art school #all the artificers are busy with magical calculus and the humanities wizards have to write so many papers #meanwhile the art mage's homework is the equivalent of 'paint a value scale' #that or they have multiple monthlong creative projects that they have to design from the ground up going on at once #.......my semester is going great why do you ask #hmmmmm color theory as an element of spellcasting though. that's definitely something..... #tag for tags

[archduke-enver-gortash]

my wild theory for why this change might be happening is that they’re making gortash less ‘flirty’ (really just manipulation but that’s not the point of this) to somehow like. pave the way for a fucking romance or something which i. uhm.

there perfect image that explains my feelings on the matter

#how many times do i have to say it. just more scenes of gortash being horrible #i know they said they would never do it on that con a while ago but idk man #look guys sorry for being annoying but being creative is like. the most fun in the world to me #and if i had to scrap my favorite creative project ever i’d just. idk i’d probably cry real tears as pathetic as it is lol #that’s why i’m so worried

[crest-of-gautier]

i put her in miitopia bc why not!! based off the p25th anniversary nuis.

#miitopia #lizz.jpg #hello everyone. this is my new side project because i want to explore other creative avenues that make me happy outside of drawing #i have a minto nui mii but havent gotten around to sc-ing him yet #i really enjoy working with the mii maker!! #eyes are definitely the hardest thing for me... i find that the more stylized the eye is the easier it is to recreate :D #i'll consider giving access key later when i've made more or if i have a way of being like 'hey these are the miis *i* specifically made' #because i have a bunch of miis downloaded from other sources but idk where all of them came from... ue ue ue... #i kinda wish i placed the eyes higher up but oh well cant do much about it SDKLHDS #there r so many stickers. she looks a lil sillie from other angles. but its ok. fun game

[outeremissary]

Having one of those weeks of "is this the monthly Malaise or am I about to have a real mental health rut"

#I think I feel a bit bad for not having seen success for a bit on a large project or one for other people #my to-do list... I'm trying #think I just feel socially weird too. as usual I would benefit from touching grass #I know I've been on more than is good for me lately and I'm just trying to distract from not liking how creative projects are going #or feeling lonely but not very socially confident for a while #for me social media is generally an extremely poor substitute for other forms of interaction (including other online interaction) too #it's like candy. it's fun in moderation but the more of it making up your diet the sicker you feel #and socially ambiguous in a nerve wracking way with how uncertainly part private/part public it is #especially on tumblr where so much interaction is indirect and one way. it's not how I function best I fear #it can be fun! I enjoy it much of the time. but it can also be very stressful and confusing. #a solid 'touch grass' (or touch snow) time is likely approaching if I feel weird a little longer haha #but jeez! I should knock some stuff off the list first. #I'm up too late tonight. I know that. lack of satisfaction on projects I know #okayyyyy I'll maybe prep one last thing (sunk cost fallacy) and go to sleep properly like I should've ages ago. morning will be rough. #I do miss the ways people interacted on Twitter #rambling #you should know half the time I have some way too long tags it's because I meant to say one thing and then just kept going without thinking #I think I talk too much online because offline I don't talk very much. not many people to talk to.

[milo-is-rambling]

Omg yesterday at my moms therapy I said how well I had been doing and feeling like I can actually handle life and my mom was immediately like “that’s because you’ve been taking your meds regularly again” and like completely brushed off any progress I had actually made and I had to be like yeah totally that’s it that’s why exactly when I haven’t taken my meds for a week straight in idk how long

#I was like yup totally that sure is why I’ve been feeling good totally #not at all that I’ve been spending time to do things I like and journal and process my feelings in healthy ways or that I am consciously #making strides towards regular person sanity #and she fucking brought up adhd meds again like FUCK OFFFFFFF HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO SAY I DONT WANT TO TAKE THEM BEFORE IT CLICKS #I. DONT. WANT. TO. TAKE. THEM. they are a tool in MY mental health toolbox bitch back off my toolbox I know you fucking live adhd meds and #won’t shut up about them but I am happy now and I don’t like my brain on adhd meds and the only reason you want me on them is because you #like me more when I’m doing stereotypically productive tasks so you’d rather have me cleaning the house and not doing the shit I love than #you would have me not taking my meds and making art and writing poetry #like god #she just doesn’t fucking get it #I cannot create when I take adhd meds. that part of my brain just like dissolves. #the way I work is that constantly I have a million projects on the back burner in my mind and when I get inspired I make one #when I take my adhd meds I can’t just pick up a fun project I don’t get those ideas I can’t write poetry I can’t make art it’s like it sever #severs the line between my creative mind and my regular mind and I have nothing in my life that I need to be THAT focused on right now #but I have my perscruption still! like if I ever need it it’s there but that’s not your fucking decision that’s mine and you need to back #off my brain because it is a delicate fucking ecosystem up there in my head and I’m not going to fuck with anything until I have to #god. sorry. went on a bit of a rant. I am just so sick of arguing over my mom wanting to control the way I medicate myself. I am an adult #and she is not inside my brain so she needs to listen when I tell her how things affect me #she takes adhd meds like twice every day and hates the feeling of not being on them but I just don’t like them and she won’t fucking drop it #okay I am getting mad about adhd meds and my mother right before I have to be in the car with her all morning i need to relax #we’re going to psychic we’re gonna have fun #we’re not going to argue about this again.

[punk-pandame]

also rarepairs ily 💕

#there are sooo many rarepairs im interested in #and i really enjoy the challenge of trying to make pairing them make sense #i just have so many wips i havent been able to get to them all #i think theyre so fun and sometimed just one creative post can convince me to ship #i have a huge ongoing outline for a gaaneji longfic #AND a gaahina alterate universe version of that fic #theyre gonna be HUGE projects and i dont have the bandwidth but i wannaaaaa #all sparked from ONE (1) fanart #like alfnghdhjckel

[icewindandboringhorror]

a quite simple outfit, trying to use the little blue and white apron thing (which is actually a dress I think, that I just leave un-buttoned in the back and added an apron-like tie to lol)

#self #mori kei #jfashion #NOT really but like.. it's.. adjacent I guess.. forgive me .. I may try using tags again though I kind of got out of the habit ghhj #I need to be... Seen to some degree. I want to start selling clothes and sculptures again to recoup the costs of having to euthanize my cat #and stuff . but that won't be very successful if I have like.. 15 people to sell to lol... #the eternal Hermit Conflict where you hate attention and Being Percieved in general yet in todays capitalist society it is nearly #a necessity to have some form of social network or media presence especially in creative fields. etc. etc. ... kicking screaming wailing #sobbing so on and so forth.. tearfully punching the cold mossy stone walls of my evil wizard tower... #I was also thinking of maybe opening a few sculpture commission slots and maybe Tumblr Blazing that post or something #but.. again.... sobbing crying interacting with the general public oughhf ouuch -500 HP #why can't I just be approached by some wealthy 65 year old woman who is nonsensically infatuated with my art for no #reason and gives me like $10.000 a week for food and art supplies and etc. and I can go fuck off into a cabin in the middle of nowhere #in the uk and just be left alone to work on my projects without even needing to build any form of connections or social presence because I' #already set for life and can just get funding and connections whenever lol.. WHICH not to be ungrateful like obviously I still appreciate #anyone who follows and interacts with my posts. I dont mean it in a 'grrr fuck all of you imbeciles I wish I could delete my blog!!!' or #whatever hhjkjk.. I just mean it more in a like.. I am very socially inept and my mental illness gives me severe social issues so any situ #tion where I'm expected to self promote or network or interact with others generally is nightmarish and stressful for many many reasons #and if I could somehow skip that part and just go straight to being a famous author or somethin.. that would be cool. Which I know EVERYONE #hates networking and stuff but I mean like.. on a level most people could not possibly comprehend.. I am not just an 'introvert'. I am like #doctors declare me incapable of functioning in general society very poor mental health prognosis probably should have a caretaker at #some point type Hermit lol.. ANYWAY ghbhj... alas.. I also feel weird about the sculptures in terms of what to charge for them #and always have which is part of why I stopped selling them. If I charged a fair even like $15 an hour many of them would be like #close to $150+. and nobody is going to pay that for a decoration. that doesn't even factor in like.. supplies or time spent communicating/s #etching the concept (if a commission) etc. etc. I thought it'd be better to just auction them then and let people pay what they want inst #d of a set price but etsy doesnt allow auctions and is it weird to just.. link people to an Art Ebay or something lol.. #AAAANYWAY.. the outfit.. I still love these shoes. they're nice and a little Older Style looking. always into pastel florals too lol #(everything is thrifted as usual. excited about the shirt because it's so puffy! it was in the halloween section though ghjhj.. like when i #s october and they make the special aisle in goodwill for 'Costume' clothes even though theyre all just normal stuff I would wear ghg)

[journen]

Heyo guys! I did my first booth at a convention this past weekend. Here are some pictures.

It was a smaller local convention. My booth set up was a bit rough 😅 but it got the job done, and i will improve it in the future! It was a very cool, and socially exhausting experience for me 🤣 but definitely worth it!!!! I met some very nice people too, and then on the final day my friend joined me and we fucked around with those figurines HAHAHAHHAHA. Had to include some pics of them lol.

And idk if anyone will be in the area, but I will also be attending Montreal Comicon in 2 weeks! My booth number is 2031. Ive never been to this convention before, but it’ll be an experience!! I’ll share some more information next week if you guys are interested. Anyhow i really hope you don’t mind the irl post!!!

#i kinda had no idea what i was doing but it ended up going quite well!! #and more people than you’d think who exhibit at these conventions are just local buisinesses or just people who are gettig their buisiness #or prohects started and are dipping their feet i to the industry #projects* into* #like the city i was in was not too big in comparison to other cities and theres just so many talented creative and nerdy people HAHAHAHA IT #WAS ACTUALLY SO WHOLESOME🥺 and i feel lucky to have participated #anyways sorry for the rant #and thank you Vera again for the mini general kenobi figurine i love himmmm #journen speaks #montreal comicon #montreal #ottawa popx #convention #artist alley #montreal comicon 2022 #art prints #also got to talk to so many 501st cosplayers #its actually kinda sick 🤣 #my art #artwork #star wars art #star wars fan art #obi wan kenobi #obi wan kenobi art #sw obi wan kenobi #sw commander cody #codywan #action figures #kenobi series #irl

[cinna-bunnie]

GOD. I forget how much fun writing can be. I don’t actually like the semantics of writing out dialogue n stuff (yet?) but I really love coming up with lore and background information and putting a bunch of stuff together for references. 

That metroid dread post and my lil rant in the tags has only further inflamed my desire to make that story I have in mind REAL. I wanna do a Volume Zero type of story in webcomic format so it flows p nicely but def have some reading I need to do for reference.

I have my silly little google doc going though and idk I think if I can stick with it as a thing I keep coming back to for a creative outlet it’d be really fun as a way to work on both my drawing and my writing.

I figured at least while I’m being indecisive about the actual art style I could work on getting some other details together that will guide me later on.

If u are a metroid nerd and r interested in seeing my lil guiding document I would love 2 share a link (⁠´⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠.̫⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠`⁠) right now it's just some stuff hastily thrown together in the middle of my shift but i think it's shaping up into something Fun so far

#hhhhhh look. #a week off from work is not enough. #I need a paid YEAR to seclude into a mountain (with internet) so I can solely work on my art uninterrupted by life's responsibilities. #it's an exciting ongoing project of mine though and the actual reason I got into digital art to begin with #Metroid as a childhood/all-time favorite series too just idk. It's nice to have a deeper way to engage with it as a universe. #Like at this point there is def a certain gameplay style players are expecting that I think kinda locks it in a box ykwim? #like there are SO many interesting little pieces of lore that are just fucking small besides-the-point footnotes and i'm like WHAT?? #AND Y'ALL AREN'T GONNA EXPLORE THAT FURTHER AND PLAY WITH IT?? EXPAND UPON IT?? #but look if /i/ can work myself up to being able to explore and expand upon it that is extremely satisfying in its own way #and idk aaaa. i'm just rly pumped. once u start writing (or drawing. or anything creative) it's sooo hard to stop but i have to WORK #ಥ_ಥ anyways.... just wanted to word vomit about my excitement here and what i'm up to. Sapphic art is its own kind of lovely and fun #and so is furry art. but i rly wanna get into this and get it going fr.