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bruh-changbin · 7 months

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pamplemousse

pairing: yang jeongin x afab reader

genre: smut + fluff (minors dni)

warnings: mentions of food (grapefruit lawl), oral (f receiving), fingering (f receiving), kissy, that's it

word count: 1.5k

a/n: SHORT I KNOW but i'm busy and lowkey wasn't feeling this while i was writing it but was also too stubborn to scrap it and also havent posted for skz in like eons so here also first jeongin fic yay enjoy and lmk thoughts

you’ve always been impartial to mornings.

they’re so boring.

and desolate.

and……. ugh.

who would rather be up at the ass crack of dawn being productive instead of getting a couple of extra z’s in? your boyfriend would, much to your dismay.

being a vehement night owl has been an integral part of your persona since highschool, when papers and essays that in hindsight were not all that important kept you up late into the night. the ink splotched sky dotted with milky white stars a solace from the glaring blue light of your laptop that dried your eyes and gave you a headache.

in post-secondary you never strayed from your nocturnal ways, often times only crawling under your covers to get some rest when the sun had started making its way up the horizon. whenever asked your greatest weakness the first word that always comes to mind is procrastination.

still, there’s something so hauntingly beautiful about being awake and alone in the late hours of the night. you’re able to gaze upon the moon and the pale glow she casts upon your surroundings. you’re able to take in the sounds of the world when people are removed from the equation. you’re able to ponder, allow your thoughts to swim around in your brain without interruption. all of which is washed away when tinges of orange, yellow and pale blue begin to streak the sky in the morning.

ergo, you were somewhat disappointed upon the discovery that your lover does not feel the same way; quite the opposite actually.

to be completely fair jeongin’s schedule is to blame for his early rising, but it makes no difference to you. most mornings you wake to an empty bed, hands feeling around before your eyes are open to search for a warm, 5’10” body and instead being met with cold sheets.

of course it’s not the worst thing in the world but still, it’d be nice to bathe in the warmth of the late morning sun while wrapped in jeongin’s buff arms - morning sex is also a plus, should the opportunity arise (which it almost never does due to you usually waking up alone).

this morning you wake up to an empty bed, as per usual. the screen of your phone lights up when you tap it and tells you that it’s nearing 11:00; you spend a few minutes scrolling through your socials before forcing yourself to get up.

you laze your way through your morning routine, making sure to wash your face and make your bed and throw on some clothing with more coverage before making your way downstairs. upon entering your kitchen you spot a plate that’s been placed on the middle of your counter with a spherical object of some sort on top of it - a grapefruit. half of a grapefruit, to be precise.

it looks refreshing, with the flesh a pretty pink, the veins white and spongy, the rind a pale yellow that’s waxy to the touch. crystalline specks of sugar are melted into the juice, the sweetness a contrast to the bitterness of the fruit.

you indulge yourself by digging in with a silver spoon, scooping out coral coloured chunks of fruit and placing them in your mouth, leaving a tart coating on your tongue and the back of your throat. syrup slips past the corners of your lips and you lick it away, not wishing for a drop of the fresh juice to go to waste.

despite there being no note or whatsoever you know this was jeongin’s doing; and you know that he had the other half before he left this morning so in a way the two of you still had breakfast together (not really). of the small things he does for you in your relationship this is easily your favourite - knowing that your brain is barely operating when you first get up and head downstairs so he makes it easy for you to nourish yourself before starting the rest of your day.

looking after you is second nature for jeongin, who tends to act as if you’re a precious baby bird who fell out of its nest and needs help getting back on its feet. you don’t mind it of course, and he knows where the line between pampering and coddling lies and rarely crosses it (you’re not actually that reliant on him, and he knows that). being the youngest in stray kids means he’s constantly being taken care of, and he just likes to do the same for someone else - that someone else being you.

he’ll massage your back when it hurts, run to the convenience store when you’re craving something specific, dry your tears when you cry over a sappy rom com that you forced him to watch with you.

he lets you play with his hair and help him choose his outfits. he’ll wrap his arms around your waist and kiss his way down your neck when you’re doing the dishes. he’ll fuck you in the middle of the night when you wake him from his slumber, claiming that you’re too turned on to fall asleep and his body is the only thing that can satiate you.

the devotion he has to you is constant, and you can feel it in the way he talks to you, takes care of you, touches you. through this you’ve learned his quirks and nuances, how to tell what he needs and when he needs it.

much like tonight, when, after coming home from a devitalizing day of practice, you can tell that all he wants is to feel your warmth and you his. the pads of his fingers are rough as they slip under the hem of your shirt and smooth against your sides and your back, his pouty lips coming in contact with your jaw before pressing against your own. with movements that have an undertone of urgency jeongin guides you towards your shared couch in your shared apartment, his arms bracing your frame as he all but pushes you up against the cushions.

with his chest flush against yours you inhale his scent, dragging your fingers through his hair and whining when his teeth pinch your bottom lip. the grip he has on your restless hips is strong, and when he glides his tongue against yours and you swear you can taste the faintest hint of grapefruit juice in his mouth.

the warmth you lose when jeongin pushes himself off of your body is only worsened when he pushes the fabric of your shirt up to expose your tummy, his curious fingers dipping into the waistband of both your pants and panties, both of which are stripped from you when jeongin drags the fabric down and off of your legs.

you instinctively clamp your legs shut, yet you allow jeongin to pry them open with his firm grasp and position himself in between your limbs. his pupils swallow up the rest of his eyes as his gaze falls upon your bare cunt, tongue flicking out to wet his lips as he kisses and nips his way down the flesh of your inner thighs.

your pussy is sticky and wet with sweet nectar that jeongin laps up and swallows down like it’s the best thing he’s ever tasted. his tongue pokes and prods at your flesh, your cunt clenching around nothing when he teases your clit by flicking it with the tip of his tongue.

“baby~ don’t tease,” you huff in annoyance as jeongin refuses to focus on one place for more than a few seconds. his right hand moves from where it was perched on your hip to allow his index and middle fingers to toy with your now dripping hole, only slipping inside once you’ve whined and complained enough.

he continues to suck on your clit as his fingers dip in and out of your pussy, causing your stomach to churn and your heart to flip in your chest as you writhe in pleasure. your breath hitches in your throat each and every time the silver rings at the base of jeongins fingers graze your hot wet cunt, his digits now surely coated in your arousal.

his fingers keep thrusting and his tongue keeps teasing and soon enough you’re cumming all over him, moaning aloud into the open space of your living room as your orgasm slowly ebbs away.

the sight of jeongin making his way up your body after tongue and finger fucking you is one to behold, with his pout swollen and pink and coated in your juices and his hair a mess from the way you were tugging on it. his cheeks are flushed a subtle shade of rosy pink, much like the colour of the grapefruit you shared this morning. you pull his body against yours and kiss away the sweetness on his lips.

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snow-143 · 7 months

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Water Coloured Tears | Jeon Jungkook

four- don’t waste my time (1.2k words)

Caffeine. What I need is caffeine, a lot of it, I decide. Maybe a pint of ice cream too.

I woke up at 9am. I'm not sure why, I never wake up early unless I absolutely have to, but when I took a look at my phone the call had not long ended.

I wish I could say that I've been productive in the past four and a half hours but that would simply not be true. I've been pacing around my apartment, more than likely disturbing my roommate.

More than likely is an understatement, I definitely disturbed him, he made that obvious when he came storming out of his room to throw a pillow at my head. I suppose I owe him a thanks considering that the well aimed pillow is what made me finally leave the apartment.

Which brings me back to my first point, I need caffeine, it's all I can bring myself to think about on my way to the café. Favouring the thought of the bitter liquid rather than the anxiety filling my chest.

At least with me getting there early I'll have time to mentally prepare myself. That's what I was hoping anyway. I even brought a book, hoping I'd have time to read a bit to distract myself, but no. Fate clearly had plans to give me a heart attack instead.

One might think I'm being dramatic, which I'll admit I do tend to get lost in my emotions a bit. However, I'm not being dramatic when I say my heart stopped. Will I ever get use to seeing his stupid face again?

Sighing I make my way over to him, not before sending a longing glace over to the counter.

When I finally reach him he's staring directly at me, looking like a deer in headlights. You'd think that I had forced him here by the way he's peering up at me.

'Quit looking at me like I'm holding you for ransom,' One thing about me is that I am not a morning person in the slightest, I may have been up for hours now, and maybe it's not even morning anymore but from the very little sleeping I had I would die to go back to bed right now. So in my eyes it is definitely still morning and I am in no mood to be looked at like I'm forcing my presence on somebody.

'Sorry,' his voice is small, timid. Although, I'm glad he's shifted his gaze from me I can't help but feel guilty at my harsh tone.

Deciding to distract myself, and him, I move the conversation onto the project instead, 'So, are you wanting to start taking photos today or just go over what we want the over all project to look like?'

And there's that look again, that's when I realise he's brought nothing with him. Not the camera, his laptop and not even a note book or sketch book. 'Jungkook, please tell me you havent dragged me here just to waste my time.'

'I havent dragged you here just to waste your time?' His expression is far to sheepish for me to even entertain the idea that he might be telling the truth.

'Enlighten me then, what was your plan when you invited me here?'

When no reply comes I stand up to leave, 'Message me when you're actually ready to work on this project, until then don't waste my time again.'

At least I'll save money on the extortionate prices of coffee on campus.

'Hey, wait a minute.' Without me even realising he's spun me around to face him again, holding my wrist much like he did after we got paired together. 'We can at least go over what we want the project to look like while were here.'

Sighing, I meet his eyes, actually meet his eyes instead of avoiding them like I have been, 'Only if you pay for my coffee, Jeon.' At this he smiles.

'You and your caffeine addiction.' It's said as a mutter. As an inside joke. A joke we used to share.

Without even waiting for a reply from me he's already making his way to the counter. I amuse myself with the thought of what he's going to order me, the picture of him trying to find something to order for me is a funny one. I just hope he picks something I'll actually enjoy.

Before I know it he's setting a drink in front of me and taking his seat opposite to me.

Looking at my drink my smile vanishes. He got my exact order. My completely bazar order that everyone questions me on. Even my favourite cookie to go with it.

My smile is back, a sad one now. Sitting here with him now feels far to familiar to when we went to visit colleges together.

I would always insist on visiting the cafes, and well he would amuse my request. I would insist that I couldn't go to a college that didn't have good coffee.

Now that I think about it we came to this café back then, sat at the table just left to us. Now it's occupied by a couple, giggling over a shared slice of cake.

I wonder if that's what we looked like back then. Wonder if there was someone in a situation similar to mine now looking at us with resentment at our happiness. I know that that's what I'm feeling right now at least. And I know that It's petty of me.

'So, I'm sure you've already got plenty of ideas for this project. What are your thoughts?' His words snap me out of my trans, bringing me back to the current situation.

He's right, I've already got so many ideas.

My favourite being that we make pieces that seem loving but you can change them to look heart broken, but also some show loving pieces mixed with the dark side of love. It'll show both sides of being in love, the ups and the downs.

I also want us to work on one of the pieces together. To show that a relationship is a partnership. Although, a massive part of me is against this as it'll mean more time spent with Jungkook, I'm willing to suck it up for the symbolism.

The rest of the time is spent with me telling him my ideas and him adding onto them. He didn’t fully understand what I meant at first but when I gave some examples me caught on pretty quickly.

I try to ignore his smile when I reveal that I've already gathered some reference pictures so we can be on the same page for the project.

As our professor said, they need to be cohesive and I'm not taking any chances on messing this project up. Even if that means I'll have to work closely with Jungkook.

'See, I knew you'd already have this all planned out. You don't even need me at this rate.' God did I wish I didn't need him to pass this assignment.

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a/n: ik the art project doesn’t make a lot of sense rn but it’ll be more clear on what she’s planning when they actually start

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keibea · 11 months

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thank you both @simstuition & @nectar-cellar !!! TWO WHOLE ASKS WOWOWOWOWOW

putting this under read more since most have probably seen these if youve followed me for a while BAHAHA

to some, this won't come as a surprise, but my most fave post of all time is still this one:

i just popped off with this one (in my opinion LOL) and ive never been able to create anything like it since.

a few other notable mentions from the sims 3:

the "finn" one i still love to this day, i was trying out more simple editing, and i think it turned out just how i wanted it. the elodie in the field one is something i wanted to recreate for ages, and im very proud of the final product! i find that it takes a while to learn to love all your posts, even the ones you hate, but im getting better! the last one is from the collab i did with three of my besties, and i absolutely adored how it came out. it was one attempt at doing something proper photography-esque and im really proud of my attempt!

this one above is probably one you guys havent seen, but i did post it on reddit. i try not to post my gameplay because i tend to get bored easily and it never lasts long. or, as is the case a lot in sims 3, the save gets too laggy to play. i think with this save, it was a bit of both, but i still adored this wedding picture of my two sims.

and from sims 4 (weirdly quite a few more?? i thought i would like more of my sims 3 posts but guess not)

the statue photo is one of my all time faves. when i was editing, i was like, this is actually awesome jessie im so proud of you. and the top one was eli and elodie in sims 4, and i just loved the lighting and elodie's hair flowing. if you have any pics you like of mine, id love to hear...

thank you to both again for asking me to do this, i feel like looking back on your favourites gives you a lot more confidence about what you can do. a reminder that despite what my thoughts keep telling me, im not so horrible at this, and i can be proud of things that ive made. i feel very inspired, so hopefully maybe i can produce something...but first assignments, UGH!

#replies #sorry for babbles #and the soppy bit at the end WHOOPS #i love you all #have a most lovely day/night

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is-jan-jan-is · 4 months

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Dawn of Dc fucking slaps my dudes.

I've been meaning to make a post about the Dawn of Dc for quite a while but haven't due to depression and 80 hour work weeks.

My pull box used to be one third marvel, one third dc and one third indie. Nowadays, with marvel focusing on more of those godawful movies it's producing more and more garbage. Meanwhile, dc-who has been struggling since the 90s-seems to have found its stride. My box is honestly two thirds dc and one third indie.

I've maybe three or four marvel titles. Captain marvel, mckay's avengers run and ewing's thor. I did also pick up Sentry but havent read it yet. I was about to deep dive into the fall of the house of x stuff but the whole 'Genocide' storyline is in bad taste to say the fucking least. With last year's Symbol of Truth sam wilson run over i dont have much more marvel stuff catching my eye.

Meanwhile I'm collecting most of dc's catalog. The Dawn of Dc rebrand has been phenomenal through and through. Part of it is due to color coding which my autism especially likes. Mostly, it's great storytelling.

Here is how I would rate the Dawn of Dc titles I've been collecting so far on a scale of 'bruh' to 'BRUH'(all of the ratings are made up terms):

*******Spoilers*********

Jon Kent Adventures of Superman: absolute banger...if not a tad formulaic. If seems poetic to have Jon kent-a product of Joshua Williamson- fight injustice superman-a product of Dan Didio. Dan famously hated legacy characters and loved the idea of fascist superman so-get fucked Dan. 11/10 because he beats him with a hug

Action Comics: fuck yeah dawg. It's been great. The wholesome super family shenanigans, the inclusion of Kenan (finally) on top of just damn good story telling. 10/10 would super again.

Superman: BRUH. So, after years of piss poor 'superman' books we get the warworld saga (certified banger) followed up with this delightful story from Josh Williamson. All of the classic villains get the correct treatment. Lex, parasite, banshee-with the current 'Chained' reveal. Im so glad somebody understands how to write superman. This has genuinely become a title i look forward to every week. 10.5/10

Superboy Man of Tomorrow: Certified Banger. Listen, Connor Kent was the first love of my life. 90 percent of my personality is Teen titans and Young Justice was always my favorite flavor of teen titans. Either way I was always going to love a boom about Connor Kent. That said: this book is pretty good. It clearly skews young as far as its obvious intended audience but it was still fun.

Steel: CERT-FIED BANG-ER! God I love Worf. I'm glad that my boy Steel is getting the proper treatment. Michael Dorn does a damn good job. It was a good run, just read the last one (6 out of 6) today.

Powergirl: fuck yeah dawg. I love powergirl, and this series is not as annoyingly thirsty as previous stories. She's presented as a complex yet baddass character. Her motives are complex and her actions are badass. I also like that she's part of the super family officially.

Blue Beetle: Certified Banger. Pretty damn good. Once again it's a tad formulaic but still a fun read. 8/10

Green Arrow: Certified Banger! Pretty damn good, tbh. I love the fact that my boii Roy Harper is back. Pretty strong familial vibes all around. 9.5/10

Green lantern: bruh. Listen, I only picked up this title originally because it held the preview to John Stewart's 'War Journal'. Its well done, don't get me wrong. Jeremy Adam's is an asset to D.C. at this point. Quality wise, it's a knockout. Unfortunately, it's also Hal Jordan. He's as much of an unbearable p.o.s. as he's ever been. 6/10.

Green Lantern War Journal: BRUH!!! Fucking Slaps. John Stewart is back at it in an incredibly endearing story. I was really interested to see where they would take it after Gregory Thorne basically made my boii a demigod. The ultraviolet corps are super interesting and the b plot with his mother is heart wrenching. 100/10

Green Latern Alan Scott: fuck yeah dawg. Pretty good. Love the gay representation. Been meaning to get back into JSA stuff. Haven't read the huntress or sandman stuff yet but might after this.

Hawkgirl: absolute banger. Ngl, they kinda phoned in the antagonist but that's ok. Its a fun read about a cool character we've always wanted more content on anyways. Also Jadzia is god tier. 8/10

Wonder Woman: BRUH!!! I've never been a huge fan of Diana honestly but this story had me hooked from the beginning. It's a complex, heartfelt political intrigue. Tom King can do NO wrong. 20/10

Birds of Prey: absolute banger. Super fun to read. I definitely look forward to it every month. I love cass and I love barda so- 11/10

Batman and Robin: bruh. Listen, I love Joshua Williamson but all the love in the world won't make me tolerate Bruce fucking Wayne. After the catastrophic mess that was the Gotham War event we get this run by Joshy boii and Simone DiMeo. It's a decent little story which I follow only to ensure that Robin is OK. The breakout star of this title for me was DiMeo's art. It's so kinetic! Honestly, the art is the only reason this isn't a 0/10. That said...6.5/10

Outsiders: Fuck yeah dawg! The this series only has two issues out so far but it's been fun. I love Kate abd Luke respectively and together they are lots of fun. Also this title seems to lean in to the whole 'superhero fatigue' thing. So fuck yeah! 8/10

Nightwing: BRUH!! Tom Taylor has been in charge of what is honestly the best Superhero title on the market for the past couple years-and its Nightwing. His Grayson is charming, endearing and resilient: All of the good qualities of his deadbeat dad without any of the bullshit brooding and class warfare. This Dawn of Dc title feels different because it's less a relaunch and more a continuation. It's a super interesting deep dive into the BludHaven lore that Taylor began teasing years ago. Also pirate Dick Grayson-90/10

Titans: BRUH. 10/10 MY BOIIS (boiis is gender neutral) ARE ALL GROWN UP!! THEY'RE IN CHARGE. THEY RUNNING SHIT NOW. Seriously it's very good.

Titans/Beast World: heartbreaking but ill allow it. Crossover events are always iffy, we'll see where this goes. So far-7/10

Cyborg: fuck yeah dawg! I love cyborg and I love to see him getting his own title. It's been a good one and I can't wait for the finale next month. 9/10

Flash: BRUH! So far it's a very good Wally story but we're only a few issues deep. I like the Linda subplot. 9.5/10

Speed force: fuck yeah dawg. MAS AND MINOS ARE BACK!!!!! listen I was almost ready to write this series off as another story pandering to the youth. There is a Panel wherein someone describes the scene as 'bad vibes' and is told-'bet'-in response. That said, Joshy boii is clearly happy to be writing Wallace and Avery again AND MAS AND MINOS ARE FINALLY CANNON LETTSSSSS GOOOO!!!! 7/10

Jay Garrick Flash: fuck yeah dawg! Pretty good so far. I love Jay. Love the addition to his family. 7/10

Spirit World: BRUH! Crazy fucking good. I ADORE the way this title handles deadnames. Cassie, Envoy and John make a pretty good team and this depiction of the afterlife is really neat and engaging. 15/10

City Boy: BRUH! A+ for originality dudes. I love this character's motivation, powers and personality. This title genuinely makes a positive impact on the overall dc universe. 10/10

*note* I tried to color code the titles with the corresponding comic colors but tumblr mobile didn't have yellow so

#dc comics #dawn of dc #batman #superman #action comics #hawkgirl #dc flash #teen titans #superboy

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dcisanerd · 1 year

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Ramblings about God of War: Heimdall Addition!

Note: Heimdall won on the poll if you couldn't tell💀 I thought I would get no one voting on it but DAYUM I got like 20 votes what. Yeah,,, I hate Heimdall so much. He sucks so much. He SUCKS. I HATE HIM

☆ Heimdall: The product of the All Father ☆

Heimdall was an absolute arrogant, short citied, incredibly perceptive, JERK. All of these traits cause the downfall of Asgard. The worst part is he's the most sane of Odins sons. Why is he like this?

Odin is why he's like that. I think when Heimdall was way younger, he was being a jerk to someone because yk, kids. Odin should've corrected him and told him why it was wrong and what to do instead, but no. Odin never corrected anything Heimdall did unless it effected him directly. Actually, he encouraged the behavior. He thought it would be useful to him, for some reason.

Heimdall had so many opportunities to save himself in his final battle. But, his divine dignity couldn't handle defeat.

Kratos tried his hardest not to kill another god. He has been trying to change for Atreus. But then here comes Heimdall, tempting him to kill him. Kratos has pitied him enough to let him go without dying (correct me if I'm wrong, I havent played this part in a while) twice, but Heimdalls stupid little ego couldn't take the fact that he got pitied by the god killer.

Heimdall just kept pushing him. If he shut up for two seconds he would probably be alive for the next game. When Heimdall fell to Kratos for the first time, he was about to let him go. Heimdall said something that set him off, and he lost his arm for it. Kratos pitied, he went like oooooh no I'm attacking you again rinse and repeat two times until he dies.

Just an fyi: if he shut up he would be alive; if he was alive he could protect Asgard; if he could protect Asgard he would be able to protect his home, his pride and joy.

AND once he dies, he doesn't even get recognized for his long lasting loyalty to Asgard and Odin. ODIN DID NOT CARE AT ALL.

I mean, we all know he uses the poor guy like a lapdog. But AT LEAST some slight sadness or mourning for your dead son that just got his face bashed in to an unrecognizable bloody mess fighting for you.

But alas, all we got from him was "Heimdall is dead. Do you know anything about that?"

Not a slight bit of emotion. Factual. Interrogative. Quite literally a pawn in his little game. Not sad in the slightest.

No funeral, no condolences, no nothing. Atreus even said everyone hated him. Well, yeah. But even the most annoying jerks don't deserve this. Soooooooooooo yeah idk what else to say. In conclusion Heimdall sucks but he doesn't deserve what happened to him.

Note 2: AHHH I FINISHED IT. omg I'm so sorry this took so long. Ive been so busy and honestly I kinda got writers block for a little. I'm thinking about making a Pokémon "leaks" type of thing so if you're interested in that let me know🐡

#god of war ragnarok #gowr #gow ragnorak #atreus #heimdall #i am unwell #thor #heimdall gow #I hate Heimdall #odin #god of war

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rosabienfuerte · 1 year

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I have a question, I've recently realized that posting my art on social media has led to me sort of obsessing with how that art is received and leading to my emotions about that art, and the art I make in the future, to be affected. How do you manage the problems that posting your art on social media can bring to your mindset/creation process while still posting your art on social media? You've spoken a lot about this,but still regularly post your art on here, how do you feel about this at the moment etc? Because I do quite like sharing my creations with the world, I just wish I didn't immediately get weird about it

Hello... Oh wow.. honestly i struggle with it like every day and have not found a solution to this.. unfortunately whenever i post i am mostly doing it compulsively / out of addiction for the feedback / out of fear of becoming irrelevant (+ also i need to open comms officially soon so i need people to like.. know that i draw) but even aside from the financial stuff its just like ..insane.

in my opinion.. what is probably hardest about this, aside from the fact that so many people need to be on social media and turn themselves into products in order to make a living , is that we rely on it so much for things that are genuinely and infinitely valuable (art , sharing what we make with other humans ,connecting) and because of the way the internet has become we are supporting these crucial aspects of our lives in the least ideal ways possible..

im not sure.i struggle with this every day really i recommend checking out this person's words on the topic of artists and socialmedia

my main focus ideally is to try to be outside even if its hard and work out and be in nature then i regain clarity little by little. right now my brain feels like its fried ive been on my phone all day. so.. im not sure. Definetly look into people's personal websites outside of social media like the one i just linked. but.well. I havent mademy own yet ive been putting off learning html ............... But yes personal websites seem like an infinitely healthier way of sharing artwork /generally expressing ourselves online far away from all this mess &addiction. Its always crazy to me when i visit any social media after going through neocities pages i like because we dont realize how artistically limiting this set structure is at all.. "content"= goes within the container

#asks #god sorry my reply is basically. i dont know #i actually have installed instagram just now to post stuff.:(#and because theres so much stuff i cant keep up with without instagram #irl friends and such #how insane is that #anhways #i wish you the best with this we got this we are all stronger together

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wintermutal · 6 months

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i think. if i didnt have work for a bit. i could just recede from the world and write and it would iron out quite a few of my neuroses. like it would wrinkle many others but i think like. if i just spent like a few months writing it could help me but i kinda missed my chance on that one lmao, i wrote during covid but i didnt have the sort of urgency that comes with handling ones own time when you work 40 hours a week as well.

the good news is that im writing and reading in my free time again since i quit my second job. im trying actively to write more on encouragement from my therapist because its a more healthy outlet than what else ive been doing. thats where the 'i could fix myself if i could just do nothing but this for a while' stuff comes from, but unfortunately i think quitting my job and just writing is infeasible on many levels, which is a shame.

i keep telling myself i need to work on the actual book part of the book itself, but i keep gravitating towards the other stuff instead thats just pure indulgent fic, and i find myself writing right before i fall asleep again, which i havent done since college, and unfortunately i am learning about myself from this. for years ive drawn a hard line between 'productive writing for a potential audience' and 'fic-esque writing thats just for me and noone else to enjoy', but now that im writing again with the intent of Fixing Me the fic stuff do be revealing truths about me as a person, such as what i enjoy and how i think about myself and how i wish i could be loved, even if it is uncomfortably soft, and again i have to wonder about how the mindset of discriminating between these two forms of writing affects me.

ive written hundreds of thousands of words of the soft stuff over the years ive been writing in this universe, and i dont consider any of it productive just for the crime of it being soft. what is the rhetorical and literary use of tenderness? why do i feel uncomfortable with the idea of merging the hard and soft sides of my art? is it because i feel like my 'real' writing continuously lacks structure and vital components, while i dont feel the same about the other stuff, because i dont hold it to any standard of care and nobody has to see it but me?

the end result is partially like, i need to accept that art is part of human nature and i as a person need to write for my brain to be okay, even if its produced without the intent of ever being shown to another person, because the value of art is not just determined by others. but this is a very hard thing to accept

"what is the rhetorical and literary use of tenderness?", though. i think thats something interesting to think about so thats what im taking from this tumblr dot com text post

#vandal.txt #writing

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unironically i started playing honkai seventeen days ago just for aventurine and I think I'm physically ill for this man. like gahhhh hes so silly. i have nearly 80 pulls thjat ive spent literally all my time grinding for, and I'm at 60 pity and I will literally kill someone if I lose the 50/50 .90% of gamblers quit before they hit jackpot and similarly 90% of Honkai Star Rail players quit before they win their 50/50. 90% of Honkai Star Rail players quit before they get E6 Aventurine. I need him so bad. Like I wouldn't be mad if I lost the 50/50 to like, Clara or something because I already have her from standard banner and I love her a lot, but if it were to literally anyone else I'd just start mauling people yk. I don't even know what that one kid's name is but he has blonde hair and swords and he's from the Xianzhou Luofu (not that far in the plotline, havent met him yet) but if I lose my 50/50 to that kid I might just die.

Listen I'm not his number one fan, I wouldn't daer to insinuate that I even am, I don't even want to like, fight people for that title. I just really like him and I wanted to thank you for all the Aventurine content that you've been churning out. I'm not sending this on main because I don't want to be clowned on but yeah this is. Really Unhinged. Sorry.

Also I like Dr. Ratio more honestly. I like them both equally but Aventurine isn't out yet so the only thing I'm staring at is Ratio. I have to run around as Clara (not a bad thing, I really like her!! She activates my parental instincts) because if I play as Ratio I will just stop doing whatever I'm doing and stare at him. It's been ruining my productivity.

listen to me. that blonde luofu kid has made me lose 4 times. if i see his ass a 5th time later today i’m going to start tearing the doors off people’s houses.

i didnt even realize how much aventurine stuff i was making until another ask mentioned it and i checked his tag and like half of the top posts were ALL MINE 😭 sneaky little blonde son of a bitch snuck up and took over my brain while i wasn’t paying attention. i have literally been having dreams about him. just 7 more hours now

i was actually messing with my ratio build earlier. he does ok i guess but he could be better… but i do have to admit i saw his design revealed like a year ago on reddit and i was like Oh my god?? like alright. slay i guess. and now i tell anyone who will listen that he’s a worm. what a weird guy… though i am a fan of his rubber ducky collection.

clara is who i got on the starter banner too ^_^ i wanna work on building her some more but im trying to build. every single character ever so its taking me a while to get back to her T_T

#asks

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HI LEE sorry you're bored.. hmmm okay. are there any of your ocs who havent interacted with each other who would be fun to throw together somehow? under what circumstances/in what setting would that be the most fun/interesting? and like. how would you picture the interaction going

OH MY GODD????????????????????????? lily u rule always ANSWER BELOW THE CUT!!!

DANGANRONPA CHARACTERS ONLYYY

sae is the oldest danganronpa oc ive got and also a teacher so if i put her in a room with any other oc she immediately becomes the Wise Old Mentor. ryobe especially treats her like that one pocket mirror michael jackson post where he asks "sae should i get the meal or just the sandwich" and she so wisely from the corner replies "get the fries sonny ..... you will need the energy in the coming days 🙂" and ryobe tears up

WAIT STOPP HOLD ON I JUST REALISED THAT I CAN MAKE ALL OF THESE GUYS GO TO SCHOOL TOGETHER BC THEYRE ALL DANGANRONPA CHARACTERS ok yea so hopes peak is where they all meet. dr:50th are in their final years and billie is JUST starting out but sometimes hangs out with them bc yoshito invited her to their table after he saw her sitting all alone and felt terrible. she just does her homework with them LMAO

naomi goes and hides in sae's classroom soooo often because sae a) doesnt care to get in her trouble for it and b) can either talk so much as a distraction or just sit on the other side of the room and leave naomi alone for the entire period depending on what is needed. theres probably been multiple times where naomi has gone "ok i need to get to my next class thanks for letting me stay here ms sae" only for sae to wake up and go "oh....................... you were here? yea ok good luck in algebra :)"

they interact with each other already in canon but this just needs to be said. rie and yoshito form a study group early in the year and occasionally invite mika or naomi if they really need motivation to do better at school. yoshito and rie realise this study group is actually really good and slowly invite the others into it but the more people they invite the less productive it becomes until they eventually have created two study groups: one with their friends and one with just the two of them again LMAO

ANDDDD FOR FUN BECAUSE IVE BEEN REALLY INTO DND/DND-RELATED MEDIA. bringing my dnd characters into the mix with my danganronpa ocs is extremely funny and also i love giving my ocs dnd stats ALWAYS. grins :)

elese and erin (glamour bard) would be so fucking funny because elese is just sooooo immediately petty for no reason???????????? and pippy truly could not give less of a shit. like there is zero reaction to any of elese's passive aggressiveness. elese can be like "woowwww pippy... that song was certainly loud! 😃" and pippy would go "THANKS!!!!" and then minor illusion a bunch of confetti around the two of them while theyre trying to sneak through a dungeon

and while we're talking about elese i do think she gets instantly humbled by rie (eloquence bard/pact of archfey warlock) LMAO. they both have very similar means of persuasion and speak very noble-like despite elese being the only one actually from nobility, however rie is juuuuuuuuuuuust ever so slightly more persuasive. juuuuuuuust ever so slightly able to get people on her side with her charm (and the silver tongue feature). it drives elese a bit mad but she cant actually complain about it until the moment she figures out rie is a warlock and she throws her hands in the air and yells I KNEW IT (she did not know it). but then once she gets over this i can see the two of them bonding over quite a lot in their life i think :)

since we're putting the same classes together nowhere and sae (path of tempest barbarian) are also cool. cuz nowhere isnt necessarily one to repress her emotions, she just unfortunately has quite a lot to be mad at and BECAUSE she gets angry her magic tends to go everywhere. meanwhile sae absolutely spends a LOT of time going through the adventure thinking that she is a strength-based ranger because she absolutely refuses to go into a rage during battle. so he spends so much time thinking to himself "hmmmmm well i do hold the knowledge one might expect from a ranger but i am incapable of certain magical feats that rangers have.... 🤔 oh well guess i am a late bloomer 🙂", while also greatly assisting nowhere in rearranging her thoughts and where she's expressing anger. and then one day during some huge climactic moment sae actually finally rages and it's terrible for so many people and shes like Ohhhh Wait Nowhere Help. Hellppppp

putting tinni and naomi (scout and THEN phantom rogue) is like putting two scared deer together except one of them is actually for real a deer

OK THATS ALL I GOT FOR NOW i love dnd/baldurs gate aus alwaysssss i do think however a few of these people would have a heart attack if a tadpole went into their brain but thats a problem for another time. BYE THANK U LILY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#ask lee #lottiematthewsgirl #oc: billie #oc: sae #dnd: elese #dnd: nowhere #dnd: tinni #dr: 50th

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hii here's a whole lotta lore about an oc I haven't talked much about yet <3 his name is caspar freedman. u will never be able to guess what his last name is referencing (its actually a reference and also kind of a pun w lore i still havent mentioned yet)

slight cw for themes of dereality and mentions of feeling as if one is being stalked. this guy starts tweaking for a bit

CASPAR'S BACKSTORY

caspar himself went through several phases of mental decline leading up to his disappearance in the 80s. he was a furniture salesman, one of the few running a small shop in a since abandoned mall, and living a comfortably quiet life alongside his wife and son.

a shipment came to his work one day. an antique chair from an unknown manufacturer, made from a material that was quoted as being "cold to the touch" and "not quite wood". naturally, he didn't think much of it, and had put it on sale for a brief period of time before opting to take it himself - a decision that was questioned by his wife and promptly dismissed by Caspar.

his family began to notice strange behavior not too long after. he'd stay in the chair for up to 12 hours a day and refused most requests for him to move, though heading to work as usual. any conversation made with him during this period wouldn't have rang any alarms, being about as chipper and polite as he usually was, only with occasional odd reference to a company by the name of "Morning star". Questions regarding this were answered with some variation of "i don't know".

Unsure of what to do, his wife left it be, occasionally urging him to visit a doctor if he felt any pain at all. This persisted for a few weeks with no noticeable changes in behavior.

His wife and son woke up late one night to the sounds of construction in their own home. investigation led to the finding of Caspar, panicked and spouting largely incoherent ramblings, nailing boards over their windows. he claimed to have seen a group of men, around 6, staring at him from the outside. he fought and pled with his wife not to go out in vain, only for her to come back with nothing. not a single trace of anyone being there, let alone 6 people.

he refused to go to work the following morning. refused to even go out and seek a doctor. any attempts to phone for help were met with sudden and uncharacteristic outbursts of violence from caspar, shouting something about "them" being everywhere and that his only chance for survival was staying inside. he didn't sleep since then. he sat in that chair all day every day, mindlessly staring at the advertisements playing on tv.

a month of this dragged on until he was gone. all of their furniture, all of their clothes, they woke up to find them wiped clean with not a single trace of caspar in sight. police investigation never went beyond an unsolved missing persons case with no leads, and neither his wife or his son had received any closure, though on occasion his son would confess to seeing him. in the backgrounds of certain advertisements, he saw a man resembling his dad, pale and abnormally tall, staring directly into the camera from a distance. In certain shots, given favorable lighting and distance, he said to have been able to make out a somber expression on the man's face.

POWERS

as mentioned above, Caspar was granted some sort of psychokenetic abilities following his disappearance. these are best seen during his own advertisements.

alone in the late hours of the night, an ad may abruptly interrupt the current television program running. This ad is said to be staged in a very retro looking mall, set to the tune of relaxing jazz music while a strangely pale man advertises deals on a wide range of products, mainly furniture, for absurdly low prices. it's relatively monotonous, spanning about 2-3 minutes with no major changes outside of the occasional strange occurrence in the background (ie, someone else in an identical suit walking into frame and standing completely still until the end of the ad). the ad closes with an address to an abandoned mall popping up alongside very specific instructions on finding a particular door.

as a side note, others who've walked in during the ads run time saw none of the aforementioned, only static and garbled noise.

MEETING CASPAR

if the viewer follows the directions correctly, they will be given quick access to a run down furniture store through the back of the mall and greeted by Caspar, usually after a brief delay in any reaction at all.

He is said to be rather polite and patient with those who enter, reassuring his guest to take their time in their decisions and offering insight whenever prompted. this friendliness is in stark contrast to his abnormal height and proportions, stiff movements, piercing light blue eyes and his unnaturally flat way of speaking, but aside from his appearance being relatively offputting he poses no immediate danger.

all products sold are cold to the touch, feeling as if they were made from some sort of metal and merely painted over afterwards. aside from the name of the manufacturer, "Morning Star Inc.", caspar gives no meaningful information about these objects when asked.

purchases go smoothly. if the object happens to be too large, he'll reassure the buyer that it'll be delivered in time. If they don't, for whatever reason, have the sufficient funds, he'll accept whatever they're able to give. if the buyer doesn't actually buy anything, he may appear slightly irate, but will bid them farewell regardless. they'll continue to get his ads until they eventually cave or until he deems them to be a lost cause. any attempts to visit his store after this are thwarted by a barricaded door.

THE SYMPTOMS

in spite of how the buyer felt about it beforehand, any furniture bought induces intense feelings of pride and joy in their purchase, making the buyer more likely to brag and advertise the manufacturer to others. they may even interject into completely unrelated conversations just to speak about it.

the second phase is when the paranoia kicks in. the buyer, regardless of where they are located, will constantly feel as if there are eyes on them from afar. they may act irrationally and pin the blame on other people, flee from crowds or develop conspiratorial beliefs about the government or higher entities.

their pleasure with their recent purchase will only grow during this time, being their one and only source of comfort. however, if they or someone else manages to remove the furniture, all will return back to normal.

the third phase is irreversible. the buyer will begin seeing tall, dark figures in the distance, the only discernable features being their pale white faces and the vague outline of a suit. they can and will appear anywhere while outside, forcing the buyer to remain hidden inside their house.

outside intervention has no effect; the men disappear when others come close and leave nothing but footsteps that lead to a dead end.

this phase can go on for days, months, even up to a year in some cases, before the buyer and all of their possessions will mysteriously vanish, leaving an empty home behind.

THE OTHERS

Caspar is not the only one. In fact, he's one of the few people to be seen in these advertisements. similar phenomena have been reported with radios, videos, essentially any means of audio/visual entertainment dating from modern day back to the early 1980s, all with a different face doing the advertising. descriptions of the individuals seen in the ads have all turned out to be eerily similar to local missing persons cases.

#flea talks #flea's ocs #oc: caspar freedman

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system-of-a-feather · 11 months

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I'm sure I've said this before but just day 458 of me being really tired of how much gender dysphoria / trans help and advice / trans therapy / passing discussion centers around "what other people think" and the internalized idea of what a (insert gender) is and dismantling it or whatever cause like fair that fits a lot of people's issues and helps them but literally so little of my dysphoria comes from wanting to match some image of a man or a nonbinary or literally anything. I don't want to be like anything and quite frankly I don't care if other people don't see it - I just want to fucking be an honest version of myself and this fucking garbage body (I'm redirecting shit to aggression, don't correct me on this) just is a chronic fucking lie and I hate it. Like I'm just so tired of this shit and I'm on burn out break for most aspects of this other than my responsibility to never bend on our needs which is easy enough considering I'm still plagued with this shit and bending on it would just make shit worse

But I'm so fucking tired of working on this shit. It's been number one - maybe two at certain points in time - on my list of goals and priorities to work on and break down for three years and the bodys and brain have been at war about this for like 5 years and I'm tired and just so fucking tired.

I'm glad we are making great progress and I'll grit my teeth and keep biting my way to where we need to be and Riku will make their tortoise yet productive crawl carrying my ass on a wagon when I'm just sitting here biting at anything that gets in our way - but god its exhausting.

We got the hysterectomy and thats honestly great, but I think our brain said thats one source of dysphoria taken off the list, time to make room for *checks list* Other Dysphoria We Havent Had In 3 Years and Actaully Until Now Were Confidently Proud of Being OK With and now we have to consider top surgery which with the history of complications we had when considering it before means a lot more system talking and navigating if this is dysmorphia, OCD, or dysphoria before taking a direction and then all the fucking medical crap and work crap and relationship crap

And Riku and Ray have said and set them to divide the two out so I can get a break from the fucking headache all this has been, but 1) it doesn't keep me from looking and seeing how fucking exhausting everything ahead of me is because I can see it and 2) from still trying to plan and plot my way around all my issues because I do it withoout thinking due to how I - as a part was raised - and I can't really turn it off so I can't really properly take a break until I'm satisfied that I did my due diligence.

As a part I'm garbage at accepting help or letting anyone give me a break or anything and while I'm A LOT better with it in general with Riku and some parts of the system, often when I get like this I get a lot worse which is the catch 22 of hell cause the more I need support and need a break, the less likely I'll accept either so

Great moods and great feeling

Lowkey maybe I should drive to Florida and do shit I can't say cause it'd be a good distraction and relief and be possibly a little productive (JOKING)

But god am I tired.

Anyways I'm gonna go get shit to help Riku and Ray make progress on their ends cause I really can't sit by and not be actively involved in solving my issues, even if "I" am.

-XIV

#alter: xiv #trans #trans vent #dysphoria #gender dysphoria #vent #vent tw #transmasc #transmasculine #transgender

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lalala-hyuponia · 9 months

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as much as it didnt feel like i did anything this month definitely has been the most art-productive ive been in quite a while ! d ang! havent posted some of them but you get what i mean as heavy as art fight responsibilities were, they definitely were an excuse to do more art, which worked

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gemsmrt · 2 years

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Xiao goes to the Weinlesefest

i havent written in a long time but i cant get this thought out of my head. sidenote, i just started genshin back up recently and had only done the chasm quest a few days before the weinlesefest event started.

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While travelling through Qingce village Xiao meets a familiar face, "What are you doing here traveler?"

"Xiao! Fancy seeing you here. How have you been?" The traveler attempts to make small talk, but Xiao ignores them.

"I thought you were going to Sumeru?" Xiao states bluntly.

"I actually already did. Its a long story, but a friend I was helping needs a lot time to rest, so I came back to Mondstadt to help out with the Weinlesefest."

"Why would you need to help with a Mondstadt Festival?" Xiao says with confusion.

The Traveler laughs, "I suppose I don't need to, but one of the Knights of Favonius needed help securing products for the stall they're running. This is why I'm here, to secure unique goods to sell at the festival."

"I see, I hope I am not interrupting anything."

The Traveler shakes there head, "Not at all, I had just finished making a deal and was going to head back to the event." There's a pause in conversation, where things start to feel tense, "Why don't you join me for the festival?"

Xiao's body starts to tense, feeling confused and flustered, "What?"

"I assume you are done reflecting on your fallen brothers and sisters? I thought it could be a nice change of pace for you to join us." The Traveler smiled, they seem to have ulterior motives in this.

"I am a protector of Liyue, I cannot just leave on a whim." Xiao tries to reason.

The Traveler shakes their head and grabs Xiao by the wrist, "You are one of many protectors of Liyue, surely you can afford to take time to yourself?"

"But I-"

The Traveler cuts him off, "The land has been calm and peaceful, no? Otherwise you wouldn't be so casually strolling around."

Xiao knows this to be true. He sighs and states, "I don't want the people of Mondstadt to be harmed by my presence."

The Traveler chuckles, "The people of Mondstadt are tougher than you realize. Please, spend some time enjoying yourself."

"Fine. I shall accompany you." Xiao reluctantly gives in. As both the Traveler and Xiao head towards Mondstadt Xiao notices the Traveler almost skipping, "You could at least pretend not to be so excited."

"I just wasn't sure if I could actually convince you," the Traveler giggles, "Sorry."

"I-it's fine." Xiao stumbles on his words. No one has been so happy to be around him for such a long time.

As the two make it into Springvale Xiao sees all the decorations, his eyes almost start to brighten.

"Feel free to look around and grab a drink, I need to go speak with the stall runner to let him know what goods were secured." Before Xiao could get a word in the Traveler has already run off. Xiao thinks to himself how they always seem to keep themself busy.

"Ohoho and here what do we have, a foreign traveler, come to Mondstadt?" The strums of a lyre come after this tune, Xiao turns his head to see what looks to be a boy sitting at the bar.

"Aren't you a little young to be drinking?" Xiao exclaims, unsure of what to make of the boy in green.

The boy in green whisks himself up and out of his chair like a breeze through the wind, "Though you may not believe it to be true, I'm older than most, including you." The boy starts walking closer to Xiao, making Xiao feel flustered. He has a hard time gaining his composure.

"Would you stop speaking in rhymes? It's getting quite irritating." Xiao says with a look of disdain on his face. He can't help but feel he has met this boy before, long ago.

The boy's Lyre dematerializes in front of them, "Apologies, I am a bard, after all. My name is Venti, and you might be?" Venti gestures towards Xiao with his hands.

"X-Xiao." He can feel himself blushing. He hasn't ever met someone quite so extravagant in their demeanor. "You might want to take a few steps back."

"Oh? And why would I do that?" The bard grabs Xiao by the wrist. "Come, there's a most delicious dandelion wine you would love, I'm sure of it." The bard takes Xiao to the bar and orders two cups of wine for them. "So, Xiao, where have you traveled from?"

More small talk, normally Xiao would hate this, but did not mind it coming from the bard. "From Liyue."

"I love Liyue! Maybe when this festival is over I can come visit you there, where do you reside?" The bard exclaims with much joy in his voice.

"Well, not anywhere, really. I-" Just as Xiao was about to discuss he was interrupted by his familiar friend.

"I see you found my favorite drunkard." The Traveler giggles.

Venti musters the saddest face he can possibly think of, which actually doesnt look that sad, "Heyyyy that's mean!" Both the Traveler and Venti giggle.

"Sorry, Venti." The traveler turns to Xiao, "Are you two getting along?"

"I think we're getting along quite swimmingly! Wouldn't you say, Xiao?" Venti exclaims to the traveler.

The Traveler rolls their eyes, "Thank you Venti, I'm sure you are loving this. I was asking my guest. Xiao?" The Traveler turns back to Xiao, who looks quite disoriented by this interaction.

"We are getting along." Xiao smiles, chuckling a bit to himself.

The Traveler notices Xiao's demeaner is lighter than before, "I see. Well, Xiao, if you don't mind I have to go check on a friend in the Knights of Favonius headquarters. This could take me some time, do you mind staying here with Venti while I take care of this?"

"Who said I wanted to stay here with Xiao?" Venti says, laughing, clearly drunk.

"I'm taking that as sarcasm since you already seem to be fond of him." the Traveler claims, "Xiao? This okay?"

Xiao, even more flushed than before at the Traveler's statement says, "Yes, this is a fine arrangement."

"Glad you agree, well I'm off!" Once again Xiao watches as the Traveler runs off on another quest.

"They really do keep themself busy, don't they?" Venti says, watching the traveler run off, "I wonder if it's so they don't think about their missing twin as much."

Xiao, slightly distraught that Venti would just say something like that out loud, "It's not the worst way to cope, they're waiting for a friend to rest in Sumeru I believe."

"I see, so that's why they made it back in time for the Weinlesefest." Xiao notices Venti's smile drop for a moment, "Well, that's of no matter to us at the moment." Venti's smile rises agian, "So, Xiao, I have gotten to know you a bit, is there anything you would like to know about me?"

"You said you were older than me, and I find that hard to believe." Xiao asks without a second thought, "What did you mean by that, who are you really?"

Now it is Venti that's getting flustered, "Would you mind accompanying me to Windrise? I'd like to pray to the statue of the seven."

Xiao, extremely confused, "What? But I-"

Venti comes right up to Xiao's ear and whispers, "I promise to answer your question, but I can't do it hear. Please, will you come with me somewhere more secluded?" Xiao, as red as a tomato, jut nods and follows Venti.

They make it to the statue, Venti gestures for Xiao to come sit under the large oak tree with him.

"I'm sorry to make you come all the way out here, I know this is not what you intended for during your trip." Venti says, seeming to have sobered up during the trip to Windrise.

"It's fine, really." Xiao starts to relax into the tree, "I didn't really have many intentions coming here."

Venti chuckles, "That's a relief." He lets out a big sigh and continues, "To answer your questions, I am the God Barbatos of the Wind. I have lived thousands of year."

Xiao's eyes flickered, "You really expect me to believe that?" He wasn't really sure what to believe.

"Oh? You don't believe me?" Venti turned to Xiao with mischievous eyes, "I'm amazed you don't remember our meeting during the archon war."

Xiao's face turned cold, he finally did remember. He remembered that night so well, being saved from insanity by the God of Wind's melody. He never saw the face behind the God of Wind, but at this moment, he knew this was the same one that was there all those nights ago. Still, he needed assurance.

"If it was truly you that was there, play me the melody, the one that saved me." Xiao looked down into his lap, fist clenched with what he could not believe.

"I suppose I cant say for sure this is a life saving melody, but a bard is happy to play a tune from one's memory." Venti's flute materializes, Xiao recognizes it in an instant.

As Venti plays the tune from those centuries ago, Xiao feels the curse of his madness being lifted, feels the rage seep out leaving his body. Xiao tries to stand only to fall to his knees in front of the bard.

Venti stops play when he sees this, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to h-"

"You didn't hurt me, you are saving me once again." Xiao interrupts, "Please, continue." as the bard continues reluctantly, Xiao feels the pain and sorrow he felt leaving. Finding out what happened with Bosacius left him with more pain and anger, which Xiao was not sure how to heal from. Hearing this melody, meeting the God of Wind again, has left Xiao with a feeling of relief, something he has not felt in so long.

As Venti finishes his melody he rushes over to help Xiao, "I never thought this tune would do anything like this. I hope you're okay." Venti lifts Xiao's arm over him.

"Barbatos, I-"

"Venti, if you will." The bard interrupts.

"Apologies, Venti, I am glad to have met you hear today. Thank you, truly." Xiao says in almost a whisper.

Venti smiles while carrying Xiao, "No need for thanks, it's all in a days work. Come now, let's get you back to Mondstadt so you can rest."

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please be kind thanks bye

#xiaoven #venti the bard #genshin fanfic #xiaoven fluff #xiao alatus #Xiao #Venti

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frankieplsrelax · 1 year

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one of the best ways i love myself is through my showers. whether its a shorter shower to just get the dirt off or my absolute favorite once a week everything shower. tonight i got to pamper myself w an everything shower while a lil drunk and a lil high and jeeeeeesh i love being able to love myself so tenderly 😌 i have long, thick, and dense hair with a weird mix of curl/wave patterns and textures that i still havent quite been able to figure out how to care for but tonight it cooperated in the shower with so very little tangles and i didnt have to fight with it. and i love the way the scent of my lavender jasmine soap mixes with the orange honey of my other soap and the way the scent of my purple shampoo and my regular shampoo compliment each other. and i love how burning hot the shower is. and i love carefully shaving and the fun music i play. and i love when i can get out of the shower and take my time, new scent in the wax melter, fairy lights twinkling, air drying my body while i scrunch in my hair products, dancing around to soft songs while holding my cat. painstakingly detangling and braiding my hair. then working out all the aches in my body with my lavender lotion. picking out warm, soft pjs thatll feel good against my freshly pampered skin and brushing my teefies. i just love to love myself and give myself the kindness and tenderness the world so ruthlessly withholds

#frankiesworld #abt me #happy

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usermaha · 1 year

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CB Thoughts

This album is if Eternally was an entire album.

The actual shock to my system that was Devil By The Window??? the jaw was on the floor the whole runtime i kid you not

i dont know the lyrics?? Its All English from the sound of it?? All i can hear is Soobin and Soobin sounds angelic

This album is very tied to the narrative or theme. Which makes me really happy bc i was kinda expecting to get robbed out of the storytelling teased by the promo stuff.

I was jumping up and down in glee when i heard the intro to Sugar Rush Ride DARLING IVE BEEN WAITING FOR YOU SINCE DECEMBER

You know every txt cb has a part in the melody/production thats so good its almost pure coke and they build the entire song around it and its kinda repetitive but you dont complain bc its so good you cant get enough of it?

WAIT the vibes of CYSM’s thing (you know what i mean) and SRR’s intro are quite comparable

Up until the prechorus she is tons of fun and there are so many good vocal moments i dont know who’s who yet bc its happening too fast

But the chorus is a little short of a disaster to me the puncture of the energy to the empty chorus??? you mean to tell me i dislike a txt chorus what is happening??? Its gonna take me a while before i get around this song, even if i actually do. Which as a moa is a real shame.

Im really really excited to see the whole choreography

Okay all of this is very sexy. The narrative is “being tempted by the devil into a psychedelic bliss that is actually a hoax/dangerous but its irresistible”. I suppose that angle was always present in the concept but i didnt expect it to be played this upfront.

Sigh i should have known when YJ was shirtless. Everyone said Angry Soobin from GBGB was a shock SLUTTY SOOBIN??? Did i even type that phrase?? Txt is constantly challenging their concept and image and this is the more jarring one yet. They would’ve done an edgy concept that was a given but i legit never couldve imagined them this way.

i shall not speak any more of this, and i am respectfully looking away.

Yeonjun’s “What did you do to me, sugar” 😵 i still havent figured out my favorite line but this might be it

Happy Fools has a Balance Game energy. And i do not like Balance Game so. ://

and the feature really took me out otteokhe

Tinnitus is kinda fun kinda groovy… and also very sexy

Farewell Neverland gave me Lonely Boy. And Lonely Boy is one of my favorite songs from txt so this one will definitely be a at the top of this album

MY PETER PAN-

This pretty neatly fits my theory that they are visiting Magic Island (Neverland in this context) for a final time for closure.

Throughout txt’s discography there is this headstrong argument supporting escapism, that’s what the concept of Magic Island is about. “Run away with me.” And at this point the illusion of escapism finally crashes. We must go back home.

Honestly heartbreaking you can hear the bittersweetness in their voices

But i was expecting the Cat to eat them or something none of the action in the middle :(

When i heard Minisode 2 for the first time my gripe was that its not doing much in terms of interesting or unique. But here its’ inverted; this album experiments and pushes the envelope, and im happy for that, but for me it doesnt stick the landing

but again the album might grow on me as i slowly get around each song. It has happened before with txt songs. But this is how it stands right now.

Member-specific points:

Soobin era. From Devil By The Window ive called it. His falsettos are in full form here and i love to see it

It feels like Yeonjun’s existence as an idol was destined for a moment like this. He unhinges his jaw and never retracts it back. HIS VOCALS TAKE ME OUT every cb day dont sleep on YJ’s vocals please this has been a PSA

Beomgyu’s vocals in Farewell Neverland he is such. an emotional singer he sings with so much heartbreak in his voice

Fuck Taehyun honestly he sounds better and better every cb and for what. For me to bias him harder??? Fuck him.

Huening Kai plays the sexy so right its almost wrong he is such a fantastic idol and performer he is a chameleon he carries any and every concept with such ease he has it all truly

#dubaddu #the name chapter: temptation

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