#i havent even gotten past case 2

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for letting out our* indoor cat?

i (24 they/them) live with my mother (51 she/her) and my sister (29 she/her), altho both of us have moved out and lived on our own, but moved back into our childhood home due to economic/health stuff, mostly caused by the pandemic

during the time living on her own, my sister has gotten a dog and two cats. while we all love them and take care of them, i would be lying if my mother and i didn't expect her to, and be annoyed when she isn't, be their primary caretaker

both my sister and myself are against outdoor cats. i dont think its safe for the cat or the local ecosystem, and she agrees. one cat however does not care for our opinons, and tries to escape by any means, having learned to open doors, both with normal handles, and the garden ones, and we had to start locking everything up even when people are at home. due to his tenacity, he is always wearing a collar now, has been microchipped, and is up to date on all outdoor cat vaccinations just in case he does slip away

before you say we should take him on walks — we tried but he starts thrashing so violently in his harness he breaks out of it and runs off. trying to tire him out at home hasn't really been working, cuz he just doesn't want to play with us in the limited space — he likes getting chased

the issue is. i have migraines that have gotten much worse over the past year. i finally started medication about two weeks ago, but apparently it will only start showing any results after 2-3 months

one of the ways the cat tries to get us to let him out is by screaming bloody murder. i think you can guess where this is going

i asked my sister to take him to her room, and she has, but 1) we share a wall so it was still painful, and 2) she works from home, and after about 20 minutes she threw him out and said that sorry, but she just cant have him there. her door locks. mine doesnt. so even if i close the door he will open them and stand by my bed meowing as loud as he can

i was having a bad one. i-have-broken-a-bone-and-this-is-worse bad one. extreme photosensitivity and double vision, sounds hurting, nausea. honestly looking back at it, i probably shouldve called emergency services it was that bad. but i obviously havent been thinking clearly, and all i wanted was for the sound to STOP. so i let him out and went back to being miserable in a dark room

usually when he slips out, we tell my sister immediately, but i didn't. i guess she assumed he gave up. she found out when he showed up at her window couple of hours later

my sister is obviously majorly pissed at me. mam grew up with barncats, so she thinks cats should be allowed to come and go, but since its my sisters cat, she respects him being indoors — but shes annoyed by the racket, and thinks that its on my sister to find a solution, and being mad at me for this is her own problem. i feel really bad bc i really do think that letting hinm out like this is dangerous for him, but i genuinely felt like my head was going to explode

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

[boxheadpaint]

good: have been drawing a lot in my sketchbook lately, mostly with pencil. do you know how awesome it is to have a sharpener on hand immediately too. making smooth gem-ish shading is very fun and time consuming too, so its a nice way to distract myself. i need to get back into my pixel projects as well- i forgot that aseprite is still technically a steam game so my friend asked me why i have 6000 hours in it (i keep basically all art programs open to have them on hand fast). i want to get watercolor markers or something to make funny things more. i used to draw a lot back in school of course because it was easier than doing the actual work i guess- now i have some block about drawing traditionally where i forget it for a long while and also need to be in a very specific spot for it to be enjoyable (in this case thecorner of the living room couch). ill figure out how to use the scanner by myself at some point

bad: toenail is starting to hurt again, swelling, had a rough time yesterday with my heart blasting in spite of Actually No Anxiety for once and not even having a huge meals, just snacking until dinner (by which point i had weakened considerably but even before that when i had eaten it was like techno in there.) i still have yet to get the long ecg or whatever it is, though i do have a random app with the doctor on the 27th so maybe i can ask for a referral that isnt over an hour away from where i live. the gums of a tooth in the back of my mouth was hurting for a while but seems fine now, wasnt sure what i was gonna do about that so thats good. can go back to brushing normal now. still havent gotten lab orders.

the cats were grooming eachother on the couch a second ago and now theyre getting feisty and bitey and silly so i cant really stay depressed. dreams have been weirdly vivid as of late for better and for worse, even just during naps. makes it even more exhausting. for the past 3 weeks or so ive had a consistent thought whenever ive been stressed of "i need to go curl up in a dirt hole somewhere else", which while not good isnt the worst thing to think at least

2/20/2024, you can type a lot more with an actual keyboard

#diary

[ankhisms]

signed up for auditions for midsummer nights dream for another local theater group which i havent done anything with before (they havent had any auditions for any shows that i would be interested in/have any roles that would suit me until now) and i feel a bit nervous..

midsummer is a very special play to me it was the play i saw when i was little that made me fall in love with stage theater and got me started acting in the theater i grew up in, i was in a production of it in the theater i grew up in aroind 2016 as helena and i feel like that was one of my personal favorite roles ive done and i still do one of the monologues of helena for auditions but i dont really want to necessarily play helena AGAIN u know i just really would like. any part.

i hate feeling like im being bitter bc i dont want to be bitter or jealous or anything but it does kind of feel like in my local theater community 1. the theater college students of the big university are prioritized for roles because the uni has this weird thing where undergrad students arent allowed to perform in their shows which is frankly fucking absurd and on one hand i understand wanting to give the theater students experience due to that but like ive said before that theater groups arent upfront about favoring the uni students for auditions but once you notice that everyone casted in main roles is a student at the uni you cant stop noticing it yknow and theres been times where i know for certain that someone else who wasnt a uni student auditioned and couldve done the role better but was passed up for a uni student who didnt do as good of a job 2. in the theater that ive acted in its like they keep just casting the same 10-15 people in stuff even though theres a large amount of people auditioning and it seems like thats the case for the other local theater companies as well and its really frustrating because like yeah those 10-15 people are good actors, or at least id say most of them are, and the majority of the ones ive worked with are very nice people and good to work with and they deserve to get roles but its also like. okay i think maybe we should stop giving this one person the lead role every single time they audition and maybe give someone else a chance yeah.

all this to say im gonna try my best at my audition but im not about to get my hopes up when ive been auditioning for as many local things as i can for like the past two/almost three years now and have only gotten casted in two shows and then one special reading performance that i just did. im not about to give up bc this is my dream in life but it feels frustrating at times

[swiftfootedachilles]

Hi! You asked for an ask and I’m always down to ask so…do you have any headcanons about Mickey’s time in Mexico?

wow you managed to ask me about the only thing of this show that i HAVENT rlly thought about so hats off to you

uhhhh okay first, PRE-MEXICO. i think mickey broke out in the first place because he knew ian wasnt gonna wait for him. i think if ian didnt break up with him and dedicated himself to being a prison boyfriend (?) mickey wouldve stayed in. (i also think he wouldve found a skeevy defense lawyer who owes the milkoviches some debts and appealed his conviction bc lets be honest its total bullshit that he got locked away just based off sammi's unreliable testimony. like where the fuck was debby to lie under oath and say mickey was with her the whole time and she saw sammi take more pills than usual and go outside to move things. sorry im losing the plot this is NOT the time to discuss my s6 rewrite.) mikey haf absolutely no reason to stay in prison, stay in chicago, so i think after nearly 2 years of no visits from ian he just gave the fuck up. why not try to escape? hes smart, he can conjure up a decent plan, right? worst case scenario he goes back to prison, which didnt really fucking matter to him bc he was in prison anyway and he just. didnt care anymore.

so, he broke out and contacted ian ina last-ditch effort to get the love of his life back. he knew ian wasnt gonna wait for him, but at the docks hes obviously still shocked to hear ian moved on fast enough to have a boyfriend already. then ian agreed to go to mexico and mickey was SO READY to start LIVING HIS LIFE. he thought that would be IT. him and his lover in mexico at the beach, getting away from all the bad memories of chicago and having a place to START OVER!!! then ian changed his mind last minute and mickey was fucking CRUSHED. AGAIN. and all of a sudden now hes in mexico alone and all his previous plans went out the fucking window because he totally didnt spend the past few days rearranging his plans to revolve around ian being with him.

i dont really think a lot about mickey's time in mexico. i think he was sad. i think he was angry. i think he just did what he could to stay alive and try to move on but he never really didnt. i think he kept his head low and did his job in the cartel and tried to learn spanish but it was too fucking hard so he gave up on that pretty quickly and attached himself to the multilingual members of the gang. i definitely dont think he had a boyfriend. im sure he fucked around with other guys, but i also think he spent more time laying in his shitty apartment that he shared with like 4 other guys trying not to cry too loud thinking about what could have been.

i also dont think he worked for el chapo lmfao sorry to anyone who thinks that but the timeline doesnt even line up. and if he somehow did have a part in taking down el chapo he wouldve been put in witness protection. he probably wouldve gotten killed anyway tho

my dumb ass didnt realize he got a new tattoo until like deep into s10 and i gaslit myself into thinking it was always there LMFAO but i love that he got another tattoo there. i like to think this one was with a clean needle. i dont think this happened in canon, but MY mickey wouldve gotten a tongue piercing! perhaps other ones too. a couple other tattoos, a cartilage piercing, an eyebrow, his nipples. idk. just to change his appearance more. yeah. thats. the only reason.

anyway i think he got back into the US by working with an undercover cop and being a part of a pre-planned drug bust that included him being "arrested" and making it seem like he got extradited to the US only for being wanted. if he wouldve just waltzed into a precinct and said "hey i got dirt on this cartel" his as wouldve been killed so quickly. it needed to be a lot more covert so the other members didnt catch on and get rid of him. i do think eventually they probably figured out he was the anonymous witness whose interviewed were used in trial, which is why when he gets released in s10 the CO tells him the cartel is looking for him. sorry im going all Law & Order here talking about a s6 trial and now a trial against the cartel i need to stop

#if hea trying not to get tracked down he should probably get that tattoo covered up #i could go into my post-s11 headcanon of everyone needing to fake his death kinda like s1 frank but More. but i shant. i have to go to work #long post #wall of text #sorry yall but i dont want this to be under a readmore i want it to be all There!! #gallavich meta #shameless meta #shameless #asks #mickeysgaymom #will retead and edit if needed once i get to work and have a mfing break #ok to rb obviously #gallavichmeta

[nbroyalty]

So since the Good-Omens-Season-2-Leak-Fandom-War has started to calm a little in the past week or so, I'd like to calmly share my thoughts on the matter:

(ALSO OBVIOUS SPOILER WARNING, I WILL BE GOING OVER BREIFLY ABOUT THE LEAK, SO IF YOU HAVENT SEEN IT, DONT CONTINUE READING THIS POST AND EITHER:

A. GET OFF OF ALL GOOD OMENS MEDIA FOR A GOOD BIT IN CASE IT IS STILL OUT THERE (ESPECIALLY TIKTOK AND TWITTER)

OR

B. GO HUNT DOWN THE LEAK YOURSELF SINCE ITLL BE BETTER TO SEE IT THAN TO HEAR ABOUT IT

YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.)

I send my condolences to the living author, everybody working on the show, and anyone who didn't want to see the spoiler and are quite upset about it. I sympathize with you and understand that it fucking sucks to be spoiled (thanks amazon prime...)

On the other hand, I myself went out of my way to find the leak since I have no self control (if you're looking for it, search up the leak on YouTube and scroll through a few vids) and it has only further pushed my excitement for season two. I cannot wait to see the scene because all we have gotten to see was a small, blurry quip of the scene (or at least me from what I had found) and it is only pushing my love for the show, Aziraphale, and Crowley even more (thanks amazon prime!)

I've also come across many tiktoks talking about their excitement, but going out of their way to talk about wanting to see a kiss scene between them forever, causing a small spark in the community that only pushed the wildfire from the leak.

Let me be clear: They do NOT need a kiss scene to express their love, being ace, supernatural beings. I'm not saying they shouldn't have one and that I'm upset about it, if anything the opposite is true, but I hate that a good portion of the fandom feels like it is required. I would be just excited about them holding hands, or hugging, or even having one of their heads on the other's shoulder.

We don't NEED a kiss scene, but we WANT a kiss scene, if that makes any sense.

Again, I send comfort and apologies to the authors (dead or alive since Gaiman apparently said before it had always meant to be a romantic piece of media) for this being leaked and having no control over the wildfire, but I hope this doesn't sour or dampen anyone's mood when season 2 comes out.

#good omens season 2 #good omens #gos2 #gos2 leak #gos2 spoilers #neil gaiman #terry pratchett

[the-kipsabian]

Hey! I know its a bit out of the blue but Im reaching in hopes if you could possibly help boost/share the post i pinned for my cat? We desperately need some help rn, im so sorry if I did bother you, I hope you stay safe. Pls consider answering this ask privately or maybe send me a msg. 🙏❤️

you know what

no 🙏❤

hey kids, lets play a game of spot a scam again!! (i'd copy and paste the previous one but tumblr search is worthless and apparently that ask isnt tagged in my blog for some reason or just doesnt exist anymore buT ANYWAYS!!)

okay this is literally the same story ive seen before at least three times. its word to word the same. youre not even trying

reblogs only from original posts. they have gotten "smarter" tho as this blog followed me in attempts to try to show its "real". and yet they havent reblogged from blogs they supposedly follow, only from probably the top posts from some cat tag and only from original posters

their only original post as far as i scrolled (which admittedly wasnt very far as its obvious this is a scam lol) is the donation post. unsurprisingly

ive said it before and i'll say it again - they seem to target people in similar positions that they are supposedly in, trying to pluck that sympathy cord with "your pet is sick so you are sensitive and know how this feels". also bitch if im asking help to pay my vet bills what makes you think i can help you LOL

"pls consider answering this ask privately" lmao so what people dont know youre a scammer? NEXT

a simple search even within tumblr tells you people already know about this. the account, the story and the cat. you aint fooling anymore

if unsure kids, ask a friend and google things 👍 reverse image search, for example, is your best friend!!

also kids, in case youre asking "well what bad could a one little me reblogging a post even if its a scam do if i dont donate :/" 1. im sorry what and 2. it makes them look legitimate which they are not. the more notes the more trusted the source cause tumblr is full of idiots (sorry not sorry ive been here for over 11 years i know what people are like) plus you put your friends, mutuals and followers in a risk of participating in a scam. and have your name associated with it as well. do i need to go on?

anyways hi go report this blog and always be hesitant if someone you dont know asks you for donations like this. unless its a beloved mutual on your dash, reconsider. stay safe, thanks 💜

//update 1. seeing their blog requires a login lmao and 2. they only followed me for me to notice and idk if they unfollowed afterwards immediately or already blocked me so hey cool look guys a proven scammer <33 just fyi <3

#feel free to reblog this its fine i wrote a list for a reason lmao #and yeah block and report this scammer <3 #tabbybabuu #thank you for asking! <3 #tagging this for archival purposes maybe this time i wont lose it lol

[puniper]

honestly we had somewhat of a theory this could be a possibility but I don’t think its  the case because of a few reasons

1- Atom’s development is not a secret in any of the astro boy adaptations, first thing Tenma does when he comes up with the idea is announce it to the ministry and use a shitton of money on the project, its why he loses his job and disappears every time, if Atom already existed, everyone would know and Tenma wouldn’t just be able to go around in public (also Tobio’s death was a pretty public thing too, everyone would be confused about why he’s still around)

2- Before the timeskip, AI research was legally restricted and Tenma and Ochan’s research as seized, basically there are no completely autonomous robots in Tobio’s time right now (nor resources to make them)

3- Tenma has been with Tobio in Vietnam for the past 3 years and have been back to japan for a few days. Atom, in every version, is strictly made in the ministry of science, its kind of a staple of his creation, right now we havent even seen the ministry nor know if Tenma even works there 

4- The are other characters that in the manga that have gotten injuries to the brain and as result had to had part of them replaced with an electronic brain allowing them to exchange information with machines, it becomes kind of a big thing in the later part of part 1 (one of those is hoshie’s mom, aka tobio’s grandma’), and we know Tobio had to go to vietnam for some sort of ‘rehabilitation’ with an actual medical doctor so it could be that

5- The manga is supposed to be set 30 years before atom’s birth and so far only 20 years have gone by (its why tenma, ochan and shunsaku look younger than usual), we technically still have 10 years to go until atom is made

6- If Tobio is a robot Six and U-ran would notice it right away and they havent said anything about it yet

#sorry for the long response i just love info dumping about this mango because i rarely get the chance

[localvoidcat]

Hi 👋

I'm intrigued by your Mark Lives au. I'd love to know more :]

glad you asked!!! i havent talked about the full plot in a while so ill explain under the cut :]]

this is really long btw. was not expecting this

so in this au, the entire encounter with the alternate from vol 1 does happen. however, on that third night, mark runs out of bullets, and resorts to throwing himself out of his window in an attempt to both escape or to die. he ends up living (albeit, with glass wedged in his skin and a shattered leg) and he drives out of the county in an attempt at safety. its only once he's in the car that he realizes that the alternate (alt!cesar) decided to stick around him.

cesar also lives in this au, after a failed suicide attempt. however, due to the fact that they can't prove that the alternate was there in the first place, he's suspected of the murder of both his mom, and the disappearance of mark. both he and sarah end up getting out of mandela county later, both to help cesar avoid the police and to try and find mark, who everyone else seems to presume as dead.

the main story happens around seventeen years later, around the time of vol 2. mark's been subjected to the horrors for way too long, he's working at a cracker barrel (it was a joke. then it wasn't. cracker barrel mark heathcliff is very funny to me), and he thinks that his friend and or/family is dead. things get even worse for him when two assholes hit him with a van one night, and he recognizes them as adam murray and jonah marshall, who's wanted posters have been spread all around town. they try to convince him not to report them to the police, and end up offering for him to take part of the money from their most recent job. he accepts, and ends up sticking with them. they want to know why this guy knows way too much about the paranormal stuff they're hunting down (and why he carries that gun everywhere he goes), and he wants to see if they might be able to help with his alternate problem.

cut to later, when they get a call from this lady asking for their help in having her ghost cat move on. because it pays a lot, they accept, and they end up going to the house. mark immediately recognizes it as cesar's old house and begins to panic, but heads in with adam anyway. they end up staying there for the nights, everything's pretty much the same as canon up until adam discovers that the basement door is unlocked now. mark, in the other room, hears jonah yelling through the radio, and manages to stop adam before he heads in, saying that he'll go down there instead. reluctantly, adam accepts, and heads back to the car while mark goes into the basement.

once in the basement, mark realizes that the whole cat thing was a trick, like he'd initially thought, and ends up face-to-face with six and all of the other alternates in there. cue the typical psychological torture, six showing him images from the past, and a certain alternate that seems to be taking on his appearance. he's trapped, just like he was during his first encounter with alt cesar.

meanwhile, adam and jonah, while driving away from the house, get into yet another fight, adam saying that they should go back, and jonah wanting to do what mark said and not go back there in case it's not safe. they end up parking the car and beating the shit out of each other in the snow (as friends do, of course) before agreeing to think about it overnight and decide tomorrow. they go home, and with that their contract with the house is over.

the next day, who else but mark shows up at the door, claiming that there was nothing in the basement and that by the time he'd gotten out, they were already gone, and his radio wasn't working. they let him in, and shrug it off as just good luck.

three days later, they get a new call, this time about sightings in an old house somewhere near the woods. they head to the place, where adam ends up finding a chainsaw left by one of the people that lived there. against jonah's advice, he ends up taking it "for safety measures", and the three continue to search for the things reported.

they're all very on edge (with the exception of mark, who seems oddly silent during this entire thing), and in a moment of fear, adam attempts to use the chainsaw on something he sees moving. there's nothing there, however, aside from mark.

mark, who just had a chainsaw put through his arm. mark, who's blood appears more like wet clay the color of ink than blood. mark, who's face contorts to one replaced by a mouth of sharp teeth with a single eye in the back.

that's not mark, they realize, and immediately start running from the alternate, getting into the car and driving away. they decide to head back to the house where they left the actual mark, in hopes that he'll be alive by the time they get there.

when they get to the house, adam goes into the basement to find him, while jonah waits at the top of the stairs to make sure he comes back up. when adam walks into the basement only to see a tv with bullet holes through it, several alternates staring at him from the corners of the room, and mark passed out with that gun close to his head, he doesn't seem to take it too well. however, it doesn't say anything, and after some urging from jonah, drags a hopefully not dead mark out of the basement. they get him into the car and drive away before the alternate can catch up to them.

the alternate turns out to be the least of their problems when they hear sirens; one of the neighbors saw them dragging this guy out of the house and thought it was a kidnapping of sorts. now they've got both the alternate and the cop to worry about, and they manage to evade the police just enough to hide in a closed office.

this only works for a few minutes, before the alternate catches up with them, searching the room as it mimics mark's voice (who, for the most part, was screaming in the basement, meaning that this alternate is also screaming. that's not fun). the alternate ends up finding jonah, saying something to him, before adam, who still has the chainsaw with him, decides to try and fight the alternate, quickly realizing that they can't be harmed as he watches it get cut in half, only to reform seconds later and appear even angrier.

as if things couldn't get worse, who else but the cop that was following them, thatcher davis, shows up, ready to arrest the three when he sees the alternate and focuses on driving it away instead. it does eventually leave after getting annoyed with being shot at, leaving only mark, adam, jonah, and thatcher there.

thatcher, upon recognizing mark, panics a little because he'd written him off as dead years ago. at this point, they're all too tired to resist arrest, and end up going to the station. the three of them are asked about the alternate encounter, as well as other questions due to the fact that two are wanted by the fbi and one has presumed dead for around two decades.

thatcher calls sarah (they're still enemies in this au. sarah absolutely cyberbullies thatcher in this au), who doesn't believe that thatcher is telling the truth, but she shows up to the station anyways. the heathcliff siblings are reunited now, but there's still problems due to the fact that jonah's caught mad due to alt!mark (which is what we're calling the alternate from before), alt!cesar is still around, the three are still arrested, and also mark brought a demon cat with him from the basement. yeah that happens. the cat's named jonny and has an eye spine and he leaves alternate goop everywhere. mark why do you have that

im still working on plot stuff from here, but what i do know is that mark and cesar end up meeting again, all three get out of prison (whether legally or illegally i have no idea), mark and dave get to see each other again, and alt!mark gets to be a bitch to jonah, whos now dealing with mad.

so thats the majority of the plot so far, im sure there's things im missing or things i didnt explain well, but yeah! plot's changed quite a bit since the beginning, and im glad you're interested in it! im down to answer any questions :]

#mark lives au #HOOO boy this was. way too long.

[actualbird]

SPOILER FOR 7.2 TOT

i'm playing 7.2 of tot and i feel so shitty doing the trial part 🥲 my mind is like "leave Irene alone, she had the right to murder her abusers, it was self defense!!!", but i guess she framed another person for this. which is. not good.

still haven't gone through the trial, SO MAYBE i won't be dissapointed, but punishing an abuse victim just feels wrong idk

// main story 7.2 spoilers, cw abuse

yeah no i completely feel this, anon. like, im done with all of 7.2 and my feelings regarding the case that actually happened...there is nothing triumphant about it at all fr fr. even with the grant case back in main story 3, even if that shitty dude totes deserved to die, there was at least triumph in proving that harry grant (a genuinely innocent young man who had a future ahead of him) was innocent

here theres......nothing like that. theres this feeling thats like....hey, did we help anybody at all, here? like actually?

yea irene framed jun but my god, jun SUCKS!! AND HE DID KILL SOMEBODY ELSE!!! and everybody in her life was HORRID. genuinely, irene shouldve gotten to whatever she wanted!!!!

but thats....not how the law works. idk about terms, but im not sure this case counts as self defense since it was deffo pre-meditated and something something law (??? idk im not a lawyer). but thats besides the point, getting to the bottom of this case Sucks.

and this is something i wanna write a longer post about. cuz when i finished 6.3, i wondered how the game was gonna escalate things. the most obvious route was to make things More intense and dont get me wrong, 7.2 is intense. but not really in a high stakes way (neither mc or marius were in any real Danger, the hiding under the table doesnt count since the banker wasnt gonna like jaskvfkjsh KILL THEM OR TRAP THEM IN A DEATH CHAMBER ala ava kendricks). 7.2 is intense in how none of this feels....fair

i find it interesting from a story perspective especially since 6.3 ended with mc alluding to an anxiety about how bad spiderwebs outward. here, we see that, albeit in a much less Batshit Evil way that ava first exhibited. ava was forced into an impossibly cruel scenario and that pushed her to become an impossibly cruel person. irene was abused her entire life, she had enough so she retaliated. that bad ripples out

(sidenote: my genius gf pointed out that the past 2 cases we had involved abused/manipulated women pushed to the brink and…now thats an interesting pattern that i think is worth looking into!!)

but it's different in 7.2 cuz the "bad" honestly doesnt seem very bad given the larger context. this case did not feel morally rewarding because it wasnt fair

anyHOO, this response is a bit all over the place cuz tbh i havent gotten all my thoughts about 7.2 in order orz

#asks #anon #tot spoilers #cw abuse #irene shoulda walked free. i support women's rights and also women's supposed wrongs (IT WASNT EVEN WRONG....BUT LAW....)

[whitesandbrowns]

Day 1?

(I took a trip to a hill station with my boyfriend and some friends, might be one of the sweetest yet most heartache trip ever) Last was day 6 from 22/7/23 more than 10 days have passed and I have dealt with too much in the meantime. I have always been that friend who tells you not to give up and always believe in your strength and stuff like, "You can always change your situation, you have the power to do so. In any situation, if you are feeling stuck, you can always get out of it and always do what you thought you wanted to do. You have to stop crying for yourself and start working for yourself." this is something I used to tell my multiple friends. I always liked this advice of mine and I always thought it was the most logical and practical thing to do. I realized in this past week that, "just do it" advice does not work for everyone. The amount of things that were going on my mind, the amount of self confidence that I have lost The amount of self doubts and in all this time when someone just said you enjoy so much then why cant you put in the work. why cant you finish the work. And I did not have the answer. may be for the first time I was victimizing myself. Feeling sorry for myself. Felt jealous of the people who have normal things around them so they can focus on work or worry about work. where work does not exhaust them like the other things in life. where if they just kept focusing on the work, other situations would resolve themselves. I wish that was the case for me too. I felt so utterly jealous. and angry. and frustrated. and tired. In this one week, I have left my previous internship, may be had the worst kinda disappointment from my boyfriend, I mean i was the disappointment as he expected me to be better than how I was handling it, where he was not wrong. Leaving internship and cost me a terrible impression of myself in eyes of the person whose opinion meant too much to me. Now she has gotten that impression that I cannot even just explain and she would understand. So I am letting it be. but all these things, so tiring. I still havent told so many people about me leaving the internship. and man. I have just no energy whatsoever to deal with this. Right now I am just focusing on learning again, focusing on me again. luckily I still have freelance work so I will earn at least some money. I also need to find a job to help my family right now. And for some reason this was most relaxing thing ever. I did not feel like pressure, I did not feel like why me? why at this time when I just started my learning process again? why instead of supporting my education, you are asking me to support you? nothing like this came. in fact it was like, I am glad you asked, I was waiting for you to do so. May be part of me wanted this all along? not to pressure myself for studies but instead find a stable job? whatever it is, I am happy. I am focusing on learning new softwares and upgrading my skills. As well as my portfolio. I will start applying for jobs after a week or so. Will give out interviews by the end of august and may be start working by september. I remember it was the same time 2 years back when I was looking for my first job. good experience it was. I hope even now I will have a good one.

#studyspo #studyblr #study inspiration #dark academia #study motivation #100 days of getting better #100 days of productivity #100 days of self discipline #100 days of studying #get motivated #daily log #daily vlog #daily blog

[mynameis-a]

rambling about levels in apeirophobia because i have nothing better to do with my time!

i played this game religiously back in march/april, and i've gotten to know the levels very well. (i've been accused of speedrunning multiple times because of how quickly i managed to get through some of the levels /srs) but i havent played it in quite a while.

(and for those who don't know [aka most people probably]: apeirophobia is a backrooms game on roblox. seeing as apeirophobia is the fear of infinity or endlessness, i think its very fitting for a game about being trapped in seemingly endless liminal spaces)

(also this is very long i'm sorry)

level 0: lobby [4/10]

definitely not the best level.

once you get spotted by the entity, you really just cant get away unless you have the gamepasses that give you more speed and stamina (at least i think that would work? i don't actually have the game passes so i'm not quite sure)

i do like the layout of the map though. as long as i don't run into the entity, i can get through that level pretty quickly!

level 1: the poolrooms [7/10]

its very easy to do in multiplayer, but i can't do it solo. (thats most levels to be fair though)

i know the exact locations of all the valves you need to find! one of them is on the left side of the map, while the other 4 are one after the other along the right wall (leading to the exit). most people either don't know or forget about the 5th one, so i always go for that one. it makes the level go so much faster when the group doesn't have to go back and try to find the last one!

but if people are whistling and drawing the starfish towards the spawn hallway before anyone has a chance to get out, any like i have for this level just goes out the window.

and speaking of the metaphorical window,

level 2: the windows [5/10]

theres literally nothing to even say about this level.

its just 30 seconds maximum of running.

no obstacles, no entities, no nothing.

i mean its kinda fun to race the other players but thats it.

ranking this higher than the lobby because this one isnt annoying.

level 3: abandoned office [5/10]

i either really really like playing this level, or really really hate it. which is why it gets a 5/10.

when people do nothing but distracting the hound, leaving me to carry everyone else by getting the keys and buttons? those are the best. i genuinely love carrying in this game! i know where all the buttons are, and having someone take the hounds attention away from me makes it so much easier than if everyone was trying to find stuff at once! plus i know what buttons have been pressed and what keys have been found.

when i get to be the distraction, that's also not so bad! i like to lure the hound far into the spawn hallway so that the other players can run faster without needing to worry about it. sometimes i do die, i'm not that good, but being farther into thehallway also means i can immediately run to the exit when all the buttons are pressed!

when everyone is doing their own thing, that's when i hate it. no communication whatsoever. nobody knows who has the keys, or what buttons have been pressed, and everyone keeps dying to the hound. and considering as this is the majority of the servers i've played this level on, it just makes me not want to play it as much.

honestly, i would prefer to play this level with 3 people who have never even gotten to this level before that just let me carry them, than a bunch of "pros" that don't even realize that they have one of the keys on them.

level 4: the sewers [8/10]

this is the level that makes people think i'm a pro.

i have joined so so many rooms when people couldn't get past this level because its such a long and complicated maze (which it is) and the i show up and beat it easily.

i actually went to the wiki and looked at a map of the maze while playing it myself on a single player server. and if there's one thing i'm good at, its remembering random shit. in this case, it just so happens to be the way out!

i'm not perfect, there are a few parts that i keep forgetting where to go (and considering as i havent played this game for a couple months, i'm probably worse now.) but most of the time i still get through very quickly!

a singular point is being taken off due to me not having enough stamina to keep running. i already black out constantly in real life, i dont need that in a video game too! /lh

level 5: cave system [6/10]

i have mixed feelings about this level

on the one hand, the concept of the skin stealer thing is really cool! granted its kinda dumb in single player, but in multiplayer it makes it so much harder (in a good way). plus, i really like the map layout! even though i keep getting lost.

on the other, its just like the lobby in the sense that there's nowhere to hide from it. and since its the same size as a player, it can just follow you everywhere. also the bland white player model for the skin thing is pretty boring.

level 6: !!!!!!!!! [9/10]

another one i really like! one point off for not having enough stamina (like the sewers).

oh no! theres a large creature running after us! and the lights are all red! and theres loud emergency sirens going off!! clearly this level is extremely difficult, right? wrong.

it takes several seconds for the thing to actually start coming after us, plus its really slow. the red lights and sirens only serve to make you think its really dangerous.

most of the people who die on this level either dont know the layout and get stuck on the obstacles, are lagging and get stuck on the obstacles, or aren't good with the movement controls (mainly mobile or console players) and get stuck on the obstacles. once you beat the level once or twice, you figure out how it works and don't get stuck as often.

"but it sounds like its right behind us!" the entire map is us turning corners in a long hallway. if its in the hallway beside us (that we've already ran though), its going to sound much closer than it actually is, because its right beside us. not behind us.

this isnt actually me complaining about this levels difficulty. the fact that the entire level is designed to make you panic about a threat thats much more mild than you would expect? i actually love that! its purposely trying to stress you out and it works! (until you know about it that is)

maze + psycologically affecting the player + not needing to hide or gather items = 10/10 level in my book!!

but like in the sewers, i keep running out of stamina and blacking out. so minus 1 point for that.

level 7: the end? [9/10]

its a puzzle map!!!! and i've gotten really good at figuring it out!!

the only complaint i have is that the part with the book is soo time consuming. i have to look at the book, memorize a code, run over to the door, try the code, and pray that it works. otherwise its back to the book again.

thankfully, i have 2 monitors. so i can take a screenshot of the book, run to the door, and try all the codes i need without having to run back to the book.

still annoying though, so a point removed.

level 8: lights out [2/10]

there's only one level i hate more than this one.

its pitch dark, your flashlight does jack shit unless you're near a wall, and the stupid potato sack just loves camping the ONLY PLACE you can go to access the second half of the map. you know. the second half of the map where the exit is located???

like with the sewers, i have (mostly) memorized the way through the level. but unless there's someone distracting the sack thing, which typically there isn't, its going to take a long time to beat. if we even get that far.

also, there's occasionally a vine boom sound effect in the level. i have no idea why, but its a thing. plus one point for that.

level 9: sublimity [3/10] / [5/10]

this is my 3rd least favorite level, but hopefully the reason why has been fixed.

there was a glitch where, when you spawned, there is a large chance that you will end up stuck in the pool. completely unable to move. you just drown. and to make matters worse, if you respawned your screen just went completely black! you could still access the escape menu thankfully, but you couldnt even see the chat. your only hope was that someone didnt get stuck, and beat the level. because that takes you out of the "you died" screen without fucking up your game.

not including the glitch however, its like the windows. nothing really to do.

there's like 5 slides for the exit. i'm not sure if the different slides do different things, but i always just do through the purple one and it works.

3/10 because of the glitch, 5/10 if its been patched.

level 10: the abyss [7/10]

this level glitched out every single time i played it, but it was actually really funny.

the entities just. broke! they would occasionally move around a little but, but they never left the area that they spawned in. neither of them. you could even run up to them and they wouldn't even try and attack you! obviously if you run right up on them, you die, but that's different.

there supposed to roam around the map, and try to kill you once you once they spot you. so, you're supposed to hide in the lockers. but that glitch just makes it so much easier!

its annoying to try and find the keys in such a large map though, hence the lower score.

i've never actually played this level where the smilers actually work, so i don't know how the level is supposed to function. but with my glitched experiences, i like it!

level 11: the warehouse [8/10]

this one is parkour.

that's it, that's the level.

its difficult at first, but if you do it enough times you get used to the jumping physics of the game.

once you manage to get past the initial parkour and end up in the pretty easy maze, its smooth sailing from there! (unless you fall on the easiest jump like i did like twice)

its pretty easy to fuck up a jump and land in one of the lower shelves that you can't get off of without dying. but i'm not removing a point for that.

simply because its really funny to be speedrunning though the parkour and see someone in chat say "hey *user* look at me" and you look down and see them on the very bottom shelf just standing there staring at you.

level 12: creative minds [8/10]

i know where the paintings are, and where to put them, this is by far the easiest level to do in single player.

but i'm not going to talk about how the level works, i'm talking about the memorable encounter i had there.

my old avatar was mostly black (with some purple accents and white eyes). most of the entities in this game are pitch black. someone saw me turning a corner in this level and freaked out, thinking i was an entity at first. but what they said what that i was "too black". the other person on the server immediately called them out for being racist because they didn't have the context of black meaning #000000 and not the skin color. i got apologized to for an accidentally racist sounding comment about my roblox avatar on that level. i just think that was funny. especially when you add the context of me being very white irl.

level 13: the funrooms [0/10]

the entity teleports behind you. and if you dont turn around and look at it fast enough, it kills you.

there are 3 things that i am viscerally afraid of, and the third of those is being attacked from behind.

plus the creepily happy atmosphere just makes it worse.

i hope that the person who came up with this level gets a hole in their sock.

level 14: electrical station [6/10]

i haven't played this one very much, but its like the polar opposite of the funrooms. and simply because of that, it gets a 6/10.

level 15: the ocean of the final frontier [???/10]

what even is this level?

why are we on a boat?

how do we get off the boat??

question marks out of ten.

level 16: crumbling memory [3/10]

its like the lobby but worse. you can't see anything because of the black goo.

not much else to say

i didn't mean for this to be so long jesus christ 😭😭😭 very sorry about that

but anyways when the game updates and more levels get added, i'll reblog this with my opinions of those levels too!

so we'll see what happens then!

#i should play it again at some point #♡⊱a talks #apeirophobia #roblox #roblox game #long post

[fragile-soldier-420]

!!!!!!!!!!! TRIGGER WARNING SUICIDE MENTION 1!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

fucked up, i was doing so good at pretending i was ok, then boom! mainly cos i make everyone hate me n shit blah blah blah ended up slitting my wrists, me n boyfriend went from arguing to him being seriously worried.......... i collapsed lost concioisness i was pucking... i lost far too much blood, but then hospital sent me home this morning when htey didnt take no bloods, and i was fitting cos of blood loss last night, i told em iv not been eating so my animia is through the roof, amune system is shit too, but nah, im medically fit to go home. but in the mist of all this, i did realize one thing, iv been trying to kill myself since i was 11 or 10 n even though in the past 2 years the time between episodes has gotten longer, its still got to the point when theres not been 1 year since i was 10 that i havent tried to do myself in. but then i also realized, iv been trying this long, n had a fair few scares last night being the worst, im still not dead. maybe, even though i feel like i have no purpose, n life has been a never ending shit storm no joke, but maybe somethingg good will happen further down the line maybe when im a fair bit older, but if i wont die, there must be a reason, cos trust me, its not a case of not trying hard enough, its not a case of just do it, or if you really wanted to die you would die, there is clearly something stopping me, or someone stopping me from dying. dosent stop me from feeling suicidal sometimes, or having the thought process that id be better off dead. but it does give me hope, it gives me the streanth to keep fighting even though the pictures above is what i feel like, ill still fight, for me, my family/my pack n my beautiful boyfriend @madhatter606 im sorry u had to see what u had to see, especially with what ur going through too, but ill do this baby i promise <3

#depression #suicide #trigger warning #hospital #mentlehealth #demons #darkness #light #hope #love #anxiety #eupd #ednos #anorexia

[olivieraa]

btw

I cant stand spoilers

I mean it depends on how much I care about something or not. if someone wanted to spoil a big twist in a marvel movie I wouldn't give a damn.

I dont know how tumblr works anymore, I dont know if tags can still be blocked

I make two assumptions when I liveblog

that nobody is reading them. and that's fine. they've always been exclusively for me unless I put them into a character or ship tag.

someone is reading them, but its a curiosity thing, and I've just revealed a spoiler, and now they're mad that I ruined the thing

if its option 2, and you dont want snk spoilers, please block the #niece watches snk tag. if you dont want to ever see me liveblog, block the #niece watches anime tag

that's always been one of the main reasons they're there

however, I know how big snk is, and someone might not have gotten to it yet. a slight scroll online for me has tried to reveal spoilers to me and I've scrolled past them fast. I dont even follow those posters, they come up as "recommended", even tho I havent looked at anything anime related in years, so why its recommended I've no idea.

so I dont want to be that person to someone else, and I've tried to be vague with the scenes that shocked me, which I never used to do, cause no anime was as big as this.

but my liveblogging has always been this way to express my feelings in the moment. that's what I always ASSUMED a liveblog was, and so I may post something that's a major "oh, you just revealed a big thing" moment

so as a JUST IN CASE, pls block one or both of those tags

#again #I generally assume nobody is reading these anyway #but its incase of point 2.

[azumasoroshi]

he is my pride and joyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

HE IS MY PRIDE AND JOYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

#asoryuu is consuming my life #i havent even gotten past case 2 #and ive been TRYING to avoid spoilers but MAN #they're EVERYWHERE #and its making me lose my GODDAMN mind #every new plot twist and spoiler i accidentally uncover surprises me #and hypes me up for future cases #ive committed to only watching one lets player though #and hes great but he slow as hecc #hhhhrhhjghhgghghhh #god if i had money id buy dgs so fucking fast #ive fallen so HARD for the GAY LAWYERS #even more so than the regular ace attorney #how is that possible #theres like 7+ games of narumitsu content and ive only seen one case of asoryuu content #and yet somehow?? somehow asoryuu has my whole heart???? #fucking insane #asoryuu

[ariapmdeol]

introducing @gavinom​ and I’s DSMP Parahuman AU!! This is a superpowers AU based on Worm, a web serial by wildbow!!

This is a superpowers AU,,, with a VERY complicated story. There are 3 or 4 main POV/plotlines:

Tommy and Tubbo’s plotline

Techno and Phil’s plotline

Dream’s plotline

Wilbur’s plotline

also niki’s plotline bc i appreciate her so much

they’re all very heavily interconnected! There’s a connection chart here, but there’s much more detailed explanations under the cut!

basic worldbuilding info: the city that this story focuses on (Dream SMP) is run by the Dream Team! They’re a group of villains who took over the city after it was being badly mismanaged by corrupt officials. Dream has connections to Cauldron (human experimentation group looking to create artificial powers). SBI + everyone else all live in this city! Powers are common and have a classification system shown below, and people with powers are called Capes! Capes are divided into Heroes, Villains, and Rogues (who are neither heroes or villains). People get powers when they experience an emotionally charged or traumatic event or events called a Trigger Event! These events shape what kind of power the cape gains!

SBI Tommy and Wilbur are both Philza’s biological kids! Philza is a researcher with long hours, Wilbur takes care of Tommy, but all of them have something else going on! ages: Tommy: 16 wilbur: 21 philza minecraft: early 40′s?

PHILZA - Mover 4 Philza is a researcher working for an organization called Cauldron. Cauldron is experimenting on people in order to understand and create powers artificially! As he ends up more and more involved with both the research on powers and the affected people (called Case 53′s), including technoblade, he decides that he cannot tolerate this anymore, and plans to break techno and others out! He steals a vial labelled ‘Zephyrus’, drinks it, and ends up with wings! He and techno break out, unlock a ton of other cells (including Ranboo’s!), and end up on the run. However, both his sons are left behind... After months of being on the run, he and Techno finally decide that it’s safe enough to return. But hang on, why is the house so empty? And did someone just open the door?

Technoblade - Tinker, Brute 3 technoblade is one of Cauldron’s Case 53′s! His power is a Tinker power, which means that he can invent things! However, he can only invent what chat decides is necessary. This is seen as an EXTREMELY overpowered and rare ability. Most Tinkers have some kind of specialty that they’re limited to, or some other restriction that limits their Ability-Driven inventiveness. Techno’s only limit is his Chat, which can be convinced into a certain direction. He also has had a lot of physical changes like gaining claws, tusks, hooves, and a tail! Techno also has increased regeneration and resistance! He’s fiercely overprotective of Phil and the two of them are best friends! After months on the run, he and Phil return to Phil’s home, but something is off... Is that a Tinker’s lab?!

Tommy - Trump 6 and Tubbo - Tinker (Drones), Master 3 Tommy’s plotline is technically our main POV! He really admires his older brother a ton! Philza’s spent a lot of time away from home, so Wilbur ended up looking after Tommy a lot, especially after Phil went missing... wonder where he went? About a month after Phil vanished, Wilbur starts spending a lot of time away from home too, so Tommy spends most of his time with Tubbo! When Tubbo got his powers, it was... not a good day. Tubbo hadn’t been having an easy time at school, and it all kind of... got to be too much, so he triggered. However, they both quickly realized that Tubbo had gotten a Tinker power! He creates and can manipulate Drones without a remote being necessary! The two of them immediately decided to become heroes, and started making costumes and hero names and stopping minor crime! Very quickly though, they got into a situation that was too much for them. Tubbo got badly injured, and Tommy triggered his ability for the first time. Tommy has the ability to boost the abilities of people he cares about! He makes them stronger and loosens some of the restrictions on their powers. Tommy and Tubbo continue trying to be heroes when they come across Ranboo, and take him home with them! Hm? it looks like someone else is inside already, who could that be?

Wilbur - Master 4, Thinker 3 Wilbur is a very charismatic and scheming character! He cares a ton about his family, and does his best to look after Tommy. He’s bitter and angry at Phil for essentially leaving him to take care of Tommy so often, and he triggered after Phil’s funeral, over a month after Phil first vanished. His ability is illusion based! He can project illusions into someone’s mind, and can read people very VERY well. He realizes that his power is definitely a powerful one, and ends up becoming a villain! He goes to Dream, and asks for some territory to prove himself as a leader (and bc villainy is profitable shhh). Dream agrees, and Phantasm becomes leader of a territory called L’Manburg. On his villain team are niki, eret, and fundy! He doesn’t want to involve Tommy or Tubbo in this whole thing, and he has no idea that either of them are Capes. He ends up spending more and more time outside the house and running his territory. Fundy ends up looking up to him as a sort of older brother/father figure, and when Fundy ends up without a place to go, Wilbur sets him up in their villain HQ! When he comes home, he immediately notices something is up. His power had suddenly gotten... stronger? He opens the door and sees...Philza? 

Dream - Master 7, Tinker(?), Striker 2 Dream has the power to possess objects that he touches! He uses this +  custom Puppets to act as the unkillable leader of the Dream Team! Dream is heavily involved with Cauldron, and personally oversaw Ranboo’s experimentation. He and Philza knew each other as civilians, and he knows that Philza stole a serum from Cauldron, but Phil doesn’t know that he’s Dream, just that he works for Cauldron! Sapnap and George both don’t know about his involvement in Cauldron, though. Dream is looking for Techno, and wants to convince him to get on his side. He has yet to meet someone who can beat him and his ability, after all! That’s part of why he gives Wilbur territory to look after so easily - he’s confident in his ability to take Wilbur down. However, things might be more difficult than he assumes... As a bit of a side note, both Awesamdude and 5up are rogues, but he hires both of them for jobs and such!

OTHER STUFF THAT I HAVEN’T QUITE PLANNED OUT AS MUCH IN DETAIL:

fundy and 5up are in a ML style love square! 5up has a crush on Fundy’s villain identity, while Fundy has a crush on 5up’s civilian identity!

niki and ranboo are siblings! she became a villain with Wilbur to look for him. Ranboo has been missing for a very VERY long time, and doesn’t remember anything before Cauldron!

5up also tends to help out Tommy and Tubbo a lot? He saved them from a situation that was UH.. VERY OUT OF THEIR LEAGUE pretty early on, and decided “welp time to become a big brother”! he’s been teaching them how to fight, and Tubbo is really having fun with it

all the plotlines collide on the same night. Phil and Techno come home at the same night that Tommy and Tubbo are bringing Ranboo home, Wilbur’s been out for the past week and is only now JUST coming home after getting Fundy settled, and none of them know about the other person’s powers at all

it’s CHAOS because Phil’s been assumed dead and has just come back with WINGS and a tall and intimidating Technoblade, who immediately pulls a sword on them, Tommy and Tubbo still are in costume, Ranboo recognizes Techno and Phil as the guys who broke him out, and WILBUR is realizing that he’s missed a hell of a lot

and NO ONE KNOWS that ranboo is the one niki is looking for! not even ranboo

theres like. a whole timeline to this that i still need to draw/write out but TRUST US WE HAVE A PLAN

George is a Precog who gets prophetic dreams! They’re primarily impressions though, and he’s ended up in someone else’s dreams a couple times... If he uses his ability too much, he gets insomnia!

karl and quackity are both there too i just havent planned their part yet!!

sapnap is a high Breaker/Brute/Striker cape, I just haven’t narrowed down the specifics yet!

#dsmp parahumans AU #sleepy bois inc #tommyinnit #tommy innit #technoblade #philza minecraft #tubbo #tubbo underscore #dream smp #dsmp #mcyt #dsmp au #superpower au #clingyduo #aria draws #my art #THIS AU IS SO COMPLICATED I LOVE IT SM #worm au #WORM WEB SERIAL MY BELOVED

[aestheticsuwu]

🍃Blue Lagoon 🍃

@judahlux I wrote this , hopefully you like it

.... . ......

Coming out of the hut where they kept the wood safe and dry for the fire . Mr.Miyagi asked him to cut some , laying down the wood and starts to sectioned them to be chopped .

The old man was inside probably organizing their mess , he will blame it on Daniel later .

The omega himself was laying in the hammock , he was about to tease him about not doing anything like always until he looked at his direction .

He froze .

Daniel looked beautiful , His dark skin shined alongside with his hair . His lanky arms were behind his head , Johnny felt like he couldnt breathe.

Daniel turn his head toward his direction  , the smile on him made johnnys chest feel warm . He looked gorgeous until the omega opened his mouth .

" You know , you should do less starting and do more working . "

Spluttering in anger he throws sand in his direction , all he got back were more gigles .

Beautiful ,huffing at the idea more like little punk .

Focusing on the wood until it was done. Sweat was dripping down his back , the sun was  bright making his skin rosy from the heat .

" Daniel-san go get more fruit for dinner . Johnny-san come help Miyagi to move pot . "

 The old man walked right back to the hut , following him to help him . But he couldnt help to look back once more were Daniel was heading .

Shaking his head and blaming the heat for his behaviour  .

 After helping Mr.Miyagi,  he sat watching the old man finishing lunch for the three .

" Old man , do you ever look at Daniel and just feel annoyed .

" Daniel-san ? No , he just full of energy like puppy . Why ask Miyagi ? . "

" I dont know today he just .... nevermind . " He couldn't find the right words to describe it and he kind of felt embarrased .

They waited for a good while for Daniel to come back but he never showed up .He didn't want to admit but he had been worried , Maybe he had gotten hurt on his way back .

" Johnny , go ." Sometimes he felt Mr.Miyagi could read minds .

" ME !? "

" Hai , check the river . "

Springing up from his spot and started heading towards where Daniel had left earlier .

He told himself the gut feeling of being worried was because the punk was making them wait on lunch .

The omega was knowhwere to begin with , tired walking aimlessly he went to the river where Mr.Miyagi had mentioned .

Catching sight of the headband that Mr. Miyagi gave to daniel when he presented and sinced then he never not once wored it .

Never once to give up the chance to scold the omega he went forward to scare him but the second time of the day the words got caught on his throat .

He felt his face get hot , his mind was confusing him from the thoughts he recently been getting ever since his status was presented as Alpha .

His mind been catching every little thing that Daniel would do . How he whined of not getting to do hard work and then continued to whine when he did .

How when he would eat he would get all the fruit juice all over him when he was in a rushed to go swim .

Or how his wolf kept reminding him to get bigger and stronger , and felt big pride when the omega would notice .

 Not realising how sometimes at night he wants to hold him and touch him without feeling ashamed .

" Johnny !! Come join me the water is fantastic !! .

" While you were busy having fun swimming we were starving . This is why you get on our nerves . "

That pout wasnt going to make him reconsidered his argument .

" Johnny cmon , just real quick ."

He didnt know why he felt like doing what the omega wanted , his inner wolf making him go against his word .

Daniel wasn't lying , the water felt amazing to the days weather . Diving in to take a quick swim , rising up to shake off the water .

The boy infront of him was smiling , he himself couldnt help but to smile . Daniel started splashing water , that little punk tried to swim away from him but he latched on to his waist .

Both were face to face , those eyes reminded him of the book with pictures Lucille had taught them words and animals . Even since he was young he thought that Daniel had ressemblance to a deer .

Yeah , Daniel was bambi . His bambi .

He surged forward to kiss him , the need was killing him inside and once he did Johnny knew he couldn't get enough .

He felt happy .

Until he's pushed him away by angry looking eyes .

" Why did you do that , i was saving my first kiss for an alpha . "

" Im an alpha ! . " Was Daniel dumb , because he clearlt wasn't a beta or omega . If he was he would think Miyagi would have told him .

Daniel looked frustrated , but what he said next made him feel sad that soon turned into anger .

" But it wasn't supposed to be you , now you ruined it ! "

" You know what, I was doing you a favor . Nobody would want to kiss someone that looks like a wet rat ! "

He shouted as he got out of the water , he couldn't believe how stupid he was to kiss Daniel.

" Hey ! Not like your any better ! looking like a .......... "

Saving him the excuse to find the word to insult him with he continued to fight .

" oh yeah , then how come your always drooling as you stare at me . "

But that kinda didnt help when he's been lately staring .

" Haha thats the other way around !  . "

" whatever "

Mood being ruined walking past by the basket full of fruits not even bothering to help Daniel. 

Other alpha ? Why would Daniel want another alpha . It made his stomach upset and his hart ache , arriving to the hut he quickly goes up to his bed not longer having a appetite.

He was grateful that Mr.Miyagi left him alone for awhile and Daniel didnt kept being his annoying self .

When refusing to eat dinner , Mr. Myagi became worried .

" Johnny-san San okay ? "

" Yeah , just not hungry ."

" Miyagi make tea for maybe rut , just in case . "

Mr . Myagi was suprise after arriving on the island that his suppressants tea made it along with Books , knives and some clothing had not once touch the water .

Miyagi himself was a beta he didn't need the tea but Lucille was an omega so she did get her heats once every 3 months .

When lucille passed away when her bite mark started to fade meaning her husband had passed away . With her time left she taught Johnny and Daniel everything she knew .

Johnny was the first to present soon after Daniel presented but it was harder having an alpha around . Myagi knew a smell of an omega in heat made an Alpha Hungry for lust so he started to give them teas to help them with their heats and ruts .

The tea helped him a liitle but his wolf was restless knowing the omega rejected him making his scent stronger every minute he dwelled about it .

In the middle of the night he felt someone get in his bed , the smell of vanilla and cinnamon with a tint of sadness invaded his nose . Opening his eye to see Daniel crawling in .

" What are you doing , were not allowed to be in each others beds. "

Turning around quickly to see if Miyagi had woken up .

" Im sorry about earlier . "

" Its whatever , stop it .stop . Im not gonna fall for your bambi eyes ! . "

" My bambi eyes ? You havent called me bambi in a long time . Can you start calling me that again ? "

" I thought you said that you hated it . Are you blushing ? " .

" Stop asking questions . "

Daniel moves forward , he expected a kiss on the cheeck but he was wrong once he felt lips on his own .Soft and chaste,  it drove him crazy just by a 2 second peck .

" We can kiss whenever you want , but just that okay . "

Nodding , leaning forward to kiss the omega . It was hard to refrain himself while having daniel under him .

Holding daniel in the verge of falling asleep , he wished they wouldn't leave or that no one would could rescue them from their home .

The thought of not being with Mr. Myagi who raised and was a father to them left him sad but Daniel being with someone elses droved him mad .

He didnt want to share what was his .

TBC.

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