#i havent posted anything but complaining

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Me, while manically cleaning my room at 3:27am: I should make several large, life-changing, irreversible decisions.

#so ive been in a bad mental state lately #because of many things. but the biggest being (yes i know ive complained about this in multiple other posts) #that my best friend and my ex gf were fucking. without even asking or telling me. i got no heads up. just figured it out on my own #which sucked and now im not speaking to either of them #and when i first found out i was in a bad place physically too #i had a terrible ear infection that was so fucking painful #and i realized i could concentrate on both things. so i focused on healing #and then i remembered ny family is coming to visit for Christmas #and thats a lot to deal with. so now im focusing on cleaning the apartment. specifically my bedroom #so im manically cleaning at 3:30am while angry and stressed and trying not to focus on this thing that makes me really upset #and in the middle of cleaning ill suddenly think 'should i quit my summer camp job?' or 'should i move states again?' #its not good. but i havent acted on anything #AND in the middle of cleaning i found all of my meds #i havent been taking them for months. but i decided im gonna start taking them again #i have a few refills left but then ill have to find a psychiatrist. i dont want to. but its definitely for the best #im trying to get my life back on track and build and better it #but then something hits me and completely derails everything and makes everything so hard #so anyway im gonna go do some more cleaning and try not to make life-altering decisions. and maybe build a desk #btw i have to get up at 9am to take out my puppy. and at 11:35 i have to get ready for work. again its 3:30am #and im full of manic energy #tomorrow is going to be very bad but at least I'll have a semi-clean room

[meep--tm]

:)

#putting this in tags bc i dont want ppl to rb me complaining! #this is gonna sound vent-y because it kinda is?? but i havent had anything to post in so long bc art is just #SO hard rn #im working part time and as a disabled person it's really draining #and all of my artistic energy has had to go towards zine work #just so i dont miss deadlines #+ my ipad is like. the worlds oldest crying baby. it doesnt like me anymore #+ im so bad at connecting with/talking to people online that i kinda feel like im posting to.. no one... recently... #IDK! im okay! i dont need comforting i just wanted to throw smth out there for anyone who might follow my art close enough to care #im gonna be doing merch prep to potentially table at cons soon so hopefully that should give me things to share! #im just feeling a bit demotivated :( #ill probably delete this post in a day or two but theres ur lil Meepdate (meep update

[galpalkirk]

i haven’t read any reviews of the show or whatever but if anyone tries to say a league of their own is forced representation or anything along those terms let me tell you they’ve never been part of a women’s professional sports team

#a league of their own #the fucking reality of it #i havent read anything except one post saying people on rotten tomatoes are complaining along those lines and i’d love to tell them this #especially if they’re men because they certainly can’t argue that they’ve been on a women’s sports team

[dinerfries]

went to the dentist again and got high off laughing gas again according to my brain this is what i look like (ft. flowers)

#ribsy art!!!!!! #archive tag #sona #i guess #kinda vibing w/ it though.... #my brain really said #oh youre complaining about sonas???? ill give you a sona #haha #posting mostly for the fact i havent posted anything here in a whiillleee #and also because i like the trad a little #i like the scratchyness of it #should i tag like a cw? #cw high #<- does that work? #idk haha

[silenthillbunni]

it's literally soooo hard bc all i wanna do is whine nd complain rn but im keeping it in bc i know everyone's sick of me.......

#it's making me feel even more isolated nd lonely bc i actually dont have anything positive to say rn #all i want nd need is to complain nd bitch nd moan >.< #but i cant bc thats annoying and a burden!!!!!! so then im like hahah 😃😃😃 sure sure 👍 #nd just keeping it all to myself #my mom is SO sick of me #thats why i havent said a peep to her abt post surgery stuff #but ohhhhh i wanna complain so bad 💀💀 #ugh anyway back to pretending to be positive nd upbeat nd like im taking it all in stride or whatever 🤙

[jrueships]

that's right babygirl. never upset daddy.

#PLS IF U REBLOG THIS LET THE PEOPLE KNOW IM JOKIMGNF #IM SORRY IM ADDICTED TO TALKING LIKE A TRYHARD TIKTOK THIRSTRAP SOMETIMES #even at work/school itll just plague my mind sometimes 😭 #I HAVENT ACTED ON IT VERBALLY IN TJOSE SITUATIONS BUT IM STARTING TO GET CONCERNED #im either very Not good at acting on my thoughts or very Too Good #HELL #sometimes ill flinch when nothing happens or when smthing is 5000miles away #but if it's right in front of me and unexpected i just. wont do anything #BUT I HAVENT GOTTEN HIT FROM DOING EITHER. like luckily the thing is either a fakeout or misses 😭 #i was at a haunted maze with friends n this scary mf jumped infront of me and i just stared silently at him 😭😭 #NOT EVEN A 'IM GONNA STARE U DOWN STARE OOO GRR' but a ._. #BUT THEN IT HITS ME LATER THAT I SHOULD BE FEELING SCARED and then i have to be like 😭 wait wtf was that like 2 hrs later #it's either delayed or early girl i aint gonna hold u 😭 #anyways i actually posted this to complain abt sauce choosing an angle where i cant see the saucetitties #THEY LOOKED SO GOOD FROM THE SIDE YALL 😭 I NEED SOMEONE TO WONT HIM DAMMIT!!!!!! #plz.. someone.. top. HIM!!!!! #idk why but he looks very lesbian sometimes to me #him ant n ja .. radiate sexuality LMFAO #his hair is so cute here!!@@! #a kitty cat president advocating for all dogs to d*e #sauce

[erythristicbones]

at dnd on tumblr bc our cleric is in a big special gladiator fight to be the best champion of her goddess and, as the fighter who's usually there to tank anyone attacking her, waiting on the sidelines w/o being able to interfere is giving me anxiety

#jordan plays dnd #i havent been dnd posting much bc am always tired afterwards #but anyways im so anxious for stephs cleric 😩 #she's got our sorcerer in there with her bc theyre going for a majorly ranged battle #so like. theyre defs gonna be able to hold out for awhile #but im a lil worried about what will happen if the tougher of the two enemies gets too close to them #also i JUST got the feature to jump in front of ppl as a reaction and take the damage for them #pointe is hanging on the edge of the arena with big sad wet eyes like 'why i no get to hep teammate?? why no protec???' #lowkey funng tho that 4 of us in the party literally cant do anything #so we're just on our phones while steph n belle fight for their fucking lives #also funny that theyre the two who always complain about never getting to do much in our fights #since me n ford as fighters just go ham each battle #now our neglected cleric and sorcerer get a battle all to themselves <3 #fingers crossed they dont regret it

[post3l]

#wanna die. but thats okay #that anon DID get to me even if i tried to not care and im sure its because i had an awful day today #SIGHHHH whatever. whats done is done i wont post art ever again. or at least until i see some improvement #its weird though. they came straight at me just when i was thinking i was starting to get better at it. my profs were thinking that too #mehhhhh i need a hug. so much shits been happening to melately and im about to collapse #lost all my irl friends. some online friends too #im fed up being part of the student council. im so tired from staying up until 5 am doing my proyect and writing #still havent heard from my job at the gallery and i dont think the other museum is going to call back #i still need to find more scholarships and apply for anything i see fit. ill settle for spain if i have to #sorry for this huge wall of text. i have no one to talk about my feelings like this. so im just venting to myself #im sure no ones reading it anyways so thats nice. i just like to complain #whatever. whatever. i miss them so much #wordswordswords

[anxiously-awaiting]

mmm getting that stupid figure i want would be so much easier if i had a reliable way to make that money backlfdsf

#like if i had a job or comissions or smth then it'd be fine but augh #and knowing my luck if i do buy it #my fuckin. teeth'll shatter or smth else bad will happen and i won't be able to afford to fix it bc i bought it #this isn't anything like Important btw m just complaining #sppeaking of comissions i should delete that post bc its outdated and i havent gotten any in months fdslkfls #which is like fine djslf #i dont mind #im so tired but im having so much trouble actually sleeping for no reaosnfdksl #m gonna try again now tho gn

[monstrousparalysis]

I HAVE NOT SEEN YOUR NEW HEADER BEFORE THAT FUCKS SEVERELY

AKSNFKFNFKENFKSNE- thank you my love, isn't it wonderful? And oh so accurate to me at all times nowadays.

*slaps own head* this bad boy can fit so much obsession with a DND series! (and far too many ideas for it that won't let themselves out right TwT)

#rem's ramblings #questions for this bastard #man maybe i should post about some of my silly little horrible roleslaying ideas instead of just complaining that i dont talk about them #but also i havent posted anything 'problematic' for the fandom yet so im all nervous and shy about it 👉👈

[lovehoarder]

Damn,, you spend one day off Tumblr and come back w 55 notifs.

#im not complaining #but i thougbt i did something wrong bv i havent posted anything that was tagged recently. #its just an old post.

[crimsongrimoire]

happened to see this and i still can't believe people think this way for real. but then again they're all like 13 and don't really have any business on half that site anyway.

#crow.txt #not writing #bruuuuhhhhhh #i still cant genuinely believe this is a thought people have idk #that one other post about the ao3 Algorithm #surprisingly there was a world before those wretched things #i sure dont fucking want it to have one. i dont even read basically at all anymore but it would be to literally everyones detriment #nobody wins here. esp with klk. on one hand yeah more eyes on stuff. on the other #you will complain if you dont see something you like and make it the authors problem #which is The Issue. you mfs would be even more mindless about it. im ALREADY shocked when people just straight up #dont read tags at all Period. and then are upset when they get something they didnt expect or sign up for #hell even including ratings. like my brother in christ its there for a reason? its a different story if what you werent expecting #straight up wasnt tagged at all #but like...... idk. to be fair none of these people have made it the authors problem afaik. but. either way. #not to say i havent complained to friends who are also spiteful angry bitches about things i hate being in my line of sight #coughing. when i still lurked the blzblue tag. threw in the towel and never looked back. so good for my health. #but at least i was a spiteful bitch and refused to give anything by those authors the time of day ever like even if i gotorbidly curious #i will Not be contributing to your stats in any way form or fashion <3 #honestly didnt even know hate reading was a concept. if i dont vibe with too much of a fic ill just bail. not worth wasting the energy. #not even for like huge reasons just like. formatting. things too ooc. certsin pet peeves. thog dont caare

[nilesmoon]

"stop talking about celebrity drama!!!" I don't know who yall are following but I haven't seen any of them other than ppl who complain abt it so I think it's about time yall unfollow some ppl

#ever since i stopped caring abt celebrities life has been great <33 #get into idol media with batshit plotlines like me smh (this is a joke idol media is hell someone help me) #no but literally havent seen anyone post anything abt that trial and had no idea that it was happening until ppl started complaining abt it #tho it is very fucked up that ppl are turning a whole ass trial into entertainment like do yall have nothing to do??? #if u want court drama go play ace attorney lmao #anyways rant over dont even know why i made this post #nile talks

[orcelito]

I am also devastated by the small ass fandom of Persona 3, gracious fanfic writers give me my Goro and Ken Half Brothers content PLEASE

Hfskhfnd it's so good!!! I've only rly read one fic with that au but Not Gonna Lie it was uhhh my lead-in to akeshu lmfao.

So like I used to be an akeshu hater, that whole business of "He shot him in the head!! How is that romance!!!" Which like still fair but also it's COMPLICATED and I love the drama. I played royal and grew so much more attached to Akechi, and the boiler room scene happened and I NEEDED to see more of the boy.

I avoided akeshu for the aforementioned reason BUT there was this Ken and akechi siblings au which I practically devoured. This being like September 2020. And it was Great but it Wasn't Enough so I caved and started reading akeshu fic. Realized I Really Liked It. Blazed thru like Everything that fit what I was looking for within a month And Then decided to write my own lol.

THE FIC IN QUESTION.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/16933119/chapters/39786447

Is this one lol. Which if you've looked for Ken and akechi siblings content u Probably have seen it. I haven't read any of it since I first read it so idk what's in the recent chapters BUT. It ignited a love for Akechi in me that cannot be denied. Other ppl can totally check it out too.

#anonymous #ask #longer i go in this fandom the further that mindset gets. of hating akeshu. #i was Reaaaally hesitant to get into it. & to start reblogging it. considering how vocally against it i was before #not like going into tags or anything dw. just complaining on my blog. #but i reblogged a post. Tentatively. and nothing blew up. so i was like 'hmm ok!' and then absolutely SPAMMED it #and i havent stopped since lmfao #this all was entirely unrelated to ur ask and im sorry but it was related and the story wanted to be told #I TOO wish for more p3 fic tho. id even enjoy more crossovers to other persona games (in fact i want to write one) #if it werent for the fact that it's like.. at least half of the entire tag it feels like lmao #we p3 lovers gotta stick together. maybe someday there will be more of us...

[y0ur-l0c4l-qu33r]

ngl my reaction to having rlly bad heart palpatations is p funny 💀

like "bro i just felt like i was DYING that shit CRAZY"

#some doctor said i have svt but then some other doctor said i have pots so who knows #drafts #posting this for context bc im bout to complain about pots on my next post and havent said anything abt having it before