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wreckofawriter · 5 years

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The Girl Next Door And The Five Times She Stopped Time

Pairing: James Potter x muggle!reader

Word Count: 3,433

Warnings: Swearing?, None fluffy

Summary: James slowly begins to fall in love with the girl next door

A/n: Sorry I havent posted in a while, this isn't really edited so ignore my mistakes, anyway, hope you guys like it!

James Potter can remember when he first met her. Her y/h/c hair was cut into a bob that ended just above her shoulders. Her deep y/e/c eyes were shining in ways that would make stars envious. She was wearing a soft blue dress that fell just beneath her knees, feet bare.

She leapt out of the back seat of an old Subaru and stood in the dewy morning grass outside of your house. That was the first time he felt time stop

Your eyes seemed to trace over every inch of your new home in slow motion everything else around you fading into white. As James drunk in your appearance.

Time resumed when you set into a sprint and darted up the porch, steps two at a time running through the front door and out of the curious boys view.

James was 10 years old at the time, you 9 but he could still feel his heart race watching you from his own yard. At the time he was sure that it was because of cooties. You were making him get sweaty and his stomach feel funny simply because you had infected him with your contagious disease.

So when his parents had a welcoming dinner for their new neighbors, he completely avoided you, only going near you when absolutely necessary.

You hadn't seemed to notice or if you did you didn't let it bother you in the slightest, you simply shrugged it off and opened some muggle book called 'The Hobbit'.

It wasn't until your family was totally set up when James realized something. He could see directly into your new room.

You had repainted the walls a joyful blue and covered them with colorful posters from muggle cartoons and books. You had purple curtains but they were knotted on either side of the two windows that now faced the young boy.

So he couldn't help it as he watched your small frame move around the room organizing nick-nacks or sit on your bed and read.

Quickly he began to feel sick again and promptly closed his curtains decided that you could catch cooties by simply watching a girl too.

By the time he was 11 he no longer agnollaged cooties as a factual illness so when he met Lily Evan's and he felt his heart speed up and his palms get sweaty he realised that he simply liked her.

But still something sat in the back of the boys mind when he glanced out the window of his dormitory hoping that there would be two rectangles of warm yellow light leering back at him to reveal a little girl perched on her bed a book that was much to thick for her age sitting open in her hand as she smiled softly at the pages.

Everytime James came home the room he gazed into changed, the desk would be in a different spot, or maybe the bed. There would almost always be a new poster on the walls the cartoons slowly dispersing and getting replaced with posters of bands or pictures of friends and family. But the one thing that always seemed to change the most every year was the girl who sat on the bed and read her books. But no matter how much she changed he would always feel that sickening feeling in his gut when he looked at her and he could feel his palms grow sweaty as he thought of you.

You had just gotten back from a partially damaging party. Your best friend had decided to lock lips with the boy you had been crushing on since the sixth grade. You prided yourself on your ability to keep emotions at bay so when you finally reached the safety and security of your bedroom you let your tears flow freely. Unaware if the pair of dark eyes watching you from next door.

When James saw tears spring from your eyes he felt sadness and fury take him. The simple idea of you being upset made him so himself. And there you were sitting on your bed tears sliding slowly down your cheeks. And once again time stopped seeming to slow down before coming to a halt as he watched your tears leave slow shimmering tracks down your y/s/c checks.

James had wanted nothing more than to go to you, comfort you. But there were too many things that kept him from doing so. The fact that you hadn't spoken in four years being the main one. Also the fact that he had been borderline stalking you for the past few years would be revealed. So he couldn't go to you which made him utterly disappointed.

That is when James realize that something was up. He didn't just see you as the muggle girl who lived next door but he was confused. The image of Lily seemed to flash in his head but he still stared across at you wishing he could help. Because he felt something different with you. But what was it?

A year later James had finally figured it out.

You had been in a partially happy mood. Your parents were out of town for the night and your older brother was at his girlfriend's which meant you had the house all to yourself. So you did the one reasonable thing to do when your home alone. You stole your brothers speakers and blasted music so loud you could hear your eardrums thumping dully in your head.

Fifth year had been one of the more difficult for James, tests had gotten much more difficult, his best friend had gone through hell and back with his parents and his whole love life seemed to flip completely upside down.

Lily had grown more and more unimportant as the year went on. Like over the summer he had simply fallen out of love with her, which was half true but the whole truth was that he had fallen in love with you.

He couldn't keep you from his mind. He missed you even though he barely knew you, he found himself glance out his window every day in a slim hope that you had somehow temported to the Hogwarts grounds and was now reading some 1,000 page horror book in the grass below.

Yet somehow he had managed to convince himself that he was still in love with Lily. He contorted his mind building walls between memories, blocking certain ones off. All of it was completely exhausting.

So when he and Sirius ascended to his bedroom after getting home he wanted to do nothing but plop onto his bed and pass out and that was what he was doing until he heard Sirius emit a low whistle.

"What?" James groaned pulling himself from his bed to see his friend smirking deviously out his window.

"You never told me you lived next to that." Sirius gawked biting his lip.

James turned and felt his soul leave his body. Over the year you had, well matured.

You had gone from looking like a 13 year old to looking like a 16 year old.

You had grown at least 2 inches, your hair was now y/h/l and you had well, gotten much curvier.

In a sense puberty had hit you like a 16 wheeler and now you were wearing nothing but an oversized t-shirt and a pair of lacy magenta underwear.

James mouth hit the floor as you pranced around your room using a hairbrush as a microphone. He could hear the dull thump of the bass from Rocketman coursing through your speakers. And once again time slowed to a stop as he watched as you flipped your y/h/c hair over your head in slow motion, leaping from your bed to in front of the mirror. Everything around you fade before suddenly snapping back to reality when Sirius let out a laugh.

You were singing the words, James only wished he could hear you. You pointed at the mirror and closed your eyes swing your hips as your lips split into a brilliantly wide grin

Sirius turned to James The poor boy's mouth hung agape his eyes the size of a snitch.

"Looks like you didn't know either." He chuckled.

"S-she looks s-so dif-different." The dark haired boy stuttered, his infatuation causing him to stumble over words.

"Clearly, she bloody hot." Sirius smirked watching you jump to your bed raising your hands above your head enjoying the view of the small lacy undergarment the action exposed.

"She's incredible." James breathed out dreamily snapping the other boys attention back to him.

"Woah, woah, woah. She's not the reason you suddenly lost interest in Lily is she?"

James flushed, his dark eyes flicking quickly to his friend before retreating back to your moving form. "No." He lied.

"Oh Merlin." Sirus groaned smacking his forehead, "Just when I thought you were going to stop acting like a love sick puppy here you are again in love with another girl you barely know."

"I'm not in love with her." James scoffed

"Sure. Sure." Sirius mumbled picking at his fingernails. "Quick question, what's her favourite color?"

"Y/f/c." James answered without hesitation.

"What about her favorite book?"

"Probably y/f/b." He paused for a second his eyes still trained on you, now dancing along to Bennie and the Jets. "Or y/sf/b."

"And her favourite band?" Sirius asked in an almost disappointed tone.

"Definitely Queen, although Led Zeppelin is probably a close second. Why are you asking me this?" James asked prying his eyes from you to land on his extremely exhausted looking friend.

Sirius just shot him a knowing glance both his eyebrows raised. Realization quickly dawned over James face.

"Oh no." He groaned, letting his head fall to his mattress. "I am in love with her."

"Bingo." Sirus spoke a pitying smile grazing his lips.

James just moaned sourly into his blanket. "I didn't even know I knew that shit."

"Let's go to bed man." Sirius sighed closing James curtains blocking you out.

As much as James wished to wipe you from his mind he couldn't help but feel disappointed as you disappeared from view.

For the rest of the summer Sirius made it his mission to reconnect you and James, as if you were ever really connected. Either way he made sure to make James as obvious as possible to you.

He introduced himself to you and made friends quickly. He was sure to have you come over as often as possible.

The first time this happened James damn near shit himself when you walked through the door wearing a bikini as he was getting ready for the trip he and Sirius had planned.

"Hey James" you smiled meekly, waving a bit.

"H-hey." He smiled back before shooting Sirius a glare.

"Y/n is going to come swimming with us remember I told you about it last night." Sirius smirked winking slyly.

"O-oh yeah of course."

Many other awkward interactions were induced by Sirius, including both of you getting locked "accidentally" into a closet together, you falling asleep on James shoulder, James and you falling on top of eachother and Sirius' personal favorite of yelling at the top of his lungs while James was changing and your window was open, causing you to look over and see James with nothing but boxers on red faced and angry as Sirius scrambled out of the room. (You would be lying if you didn't enjoy that one little bit.)

But just as Sirius was sure he was going to be the next matchmaker the two older boys had to leave, much to both of their dismay.

The whole year James could do nothing to keep you from his mind. The way you smiled stuck in his brain like glue, your laugh cemented to his skull. You were all he could think of so when he came back for summer after his sixth year he had never been more ecstatic.

James dashed up his stairs hoping that he might catch just a glimpse of you through his window.

And he did. He saw you laying on your bed, a laugh escaping a wide smile that was carved into your face. Your eyes were shining brightly, your y/h/c hair splayed across you pillow.

This broke James. It made him fall to pieces, heart filling with grief. Because the laugh wasn't because of him, the smile wasn't for him and the shine in your eyes wasn't directed at him.

He watched in agony as the red headed boy who leaned over you connected his lips to yours gracefully. The moment he wished more than anything could seemed to slow as if the universe was mocking him, showing him a nightmare that seemed to never end. Time had once again stopped as you wrapped your delicate hands around the boys neck and pulled him closer to you. He watched in pain as the girl he loved kissed another man.

Sirius had come up the stairs now and instantly saw the scene taking place behind the opposite window. He cursed under his breath quickly closing the curtains and turning to face his heart broken best friend.

James looked defeated, his mouth slightly agape, his eyes downcast and filled with sorrow. He blinked a few times before turning around and walking straight out of the room.

"Shit." Sirius mumbled knowing this wasn't going to end well, "James!" He called running down the stairs to find him reaching for the door handle. "What are you doing?" The long haired boy questioned.

"I have to stop her." James said turning to his best friend, a new look of determination etched onto his strong features.

"For doing what?" Sirius pointed out angrily.

"From kissing some freckled bastard that's what!" James shouted anger filling his dark eyes.

"You can't!" Sirius shot back harshly.

"Why in bloody hell not?!" James yelled taking two steps towards his friend but Sirius stood his ground.

"BECAUSE SHES NOT YOURS!" Sirius bellowed angry at his friend for being so blinded by love.

James eyes flickered with doubt before his entire face collapsed with it. Determination flipping to guilt then to misery as he realized what was really happening.

"I'm sorry man, you can't stop her from doing anything." Sirius sighed disappointment readable in his own voice.

Summer was suddenly a bleak occasion for James. Now that y/n had a boyfriend he had to become more and more accustomed to the presence of the "freaked bastard" who he soon found out was Austin Bostian. Austin was a muggle that went to the same school as y/n. Not that James cared. All he cared about was the fact that Austin got to kiss y/n and hold her and touch her.

James and y/n drifted away from each other slowly and painful over the vacation and to James it felt like his heart was slowly being torn in two. But seeing Austin with her made him dizzy and upset, he just couldn't bear being around her.

So when school finally rolled back around he felt a sense of relief filled him. Of course the image of you still burned bright in his memory he just did his best to bury it deep within the pictures of you and Austin locking lips or holding hands. It almost made it easier.

The school year was a strange one for James. He forced himself onto Lily more than ever, when truth was he didn't even want to go anywhere with her. Sirius of course knew he was really simply distracting himself, but he couldn't help but feel bad for Lily who actually seemed more into it than before.

Sirius' suspicions were confirmed when Lily finally answered yes to James catching everyone by surprise, especially the quidditch star.

James had then fled the scene only to return a few moments later and attempt to explain himself. Which of course failed miserably and a shit storm hit him in a wave. Most of the Gryffindor girls wouldn't even look at him anymore, claiming he was a monster who shouldn't lead on someone like that. Which of course he did. James had felt like shit and just wanted to go home the entire time. But the idea of seeing you and Austin again crushed the poor boy. So he played quidditch and a lot of it.

When he graduated it was bitter sweet. He wasn't sure what he was feeling anymore but he knew that he wanted to see you at least one last time. He needed to confess.

Now as he stood in front of your door he felt the familiar feeling of nervousness and embarrassment flush over him. He ignored the fluttering in his stomach and squeezed his eyes shut briefly before knocking twice on the door.

He heard the patter of feet followed by a muffled "I'm coming" before the door swung open to reveal you. Your hair was stuck up into a terribly messy bun, strands of hair hanging in front of your face. You had on a pair of athletic shorts and a Atari crop top that you had clearly cut yourself.

"Hey James." You smiled up at him either not noticing or caring that his cheeks were flaming red.

"Uh hey y/n." He answered suddenly realizing he had zero plan whatsoever. "Can I talk to you for a second?"

"Of course." You answered inviting him inside. You ead him upstairs to your room. Once inside Jmaes realized that after all these years if staring into your room he had never been inside it. It was decently clean a few items of clothing scattered across the ground here and there.

"Sorry for the mess." You muttered plopping onto your bed. "So what's up?"

James felt his throat close up. His hands suddenly felt extensively sweaty and he thought he might throw up.

"Well umm.." he took in a deep breath closing his eyes before snapping them open to meet your curious y/e/c ones. "I'm in love with you."

The room fell deathly silent, the faint hum of cicadas drumming outside.

Your eyes went wide mouth falling slightly open. "Y-you love me?" Your voice uncharacteristically high.

"Yeah." James mumbled quietly, "And I know that your with Austin and everything but I just, I can't leave without telling you."

You let out a small giggle, which in other circumstances would have made his heart soar but now he felt it sink into the floor. You were laughing at him.

"I'm not with Austin dumbass." You scoffed rolling your eyes.

That was much better than what James was expecting, "R-really?" He asked tripping over this words.

"Yeah. I broke up with him like a week after you left for school." You rolled your eyes playfully.

"Oh." James voice hopefully, "That's good." His eyes widened, "Not like good that you had to break up with him, just you know good that I didn't-"

You cut off his ramblings by grabbing his shirt and pulling him onto you. You smashed your lips onto his tasting mint. James quickly melted into the kiss placing his arms on either side of you to keep from toppling onto you as you grabbed his neck and forced your tongue into his mouth.

And for the fifth time in his life he felt time stop. Your soft yet rough touch making everything but you disappear. He could only feel you pressed hot against his skin, lips moving slowly against his own.

The spell you put him under broke when you pulled away gasping for air. "You're an idiot you know." You smiled, hands playing with his dark locks.

James shot you a confused look.

"I've been in love with you since you ignored me at the welcoming dinner your family threw." You explained. Causing the boys eyes to widen.

"Really?" He asked in disbelief.

You scoffed. "You are terribly blind. And you suck at flirting, I thought you hated me."

"What?" James asked confused.

"Well, I mean you ignored me and always got all weird around me. I thought you hated me."

"Oh." James cringed, suddenly realizing how his strange actions must have looked from your prospective.

You giggled, a heavenly sound before pulling the boy back down to meet your lips.

From across the street Sirius smiled widely watching his best friend.

"That girl seriously needs to close her curtains." He muttered still grinning as he turned away from the new couple.

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heartjwi · 4 years

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high school sweethearts — lee donghyuck

GENRE | fluff, angst

SUMMARY | farewell to you, my high school sweetheart

DISCLAIMER | includes cheating (minimal)

A/N | prequel for ‘where do broken hearts go’ pls dont roast me as i havent written anything in like,,, months oof + would recommend listening to bye my first as you read this !!! + this has nothing to do with jeno’s story this is just like how i want the feel to be comprende? comprende. i just wanted to include hyuck in this lil series cs he wasnt in dnyl so yes

all your life, you never thought you could meet someone like lee donghyuck. the epitome of a high school sweetheart. he was everything you could dream of. donghyuck was perfect in your eyes and will always be, no matter what.

you first met him when you were in sixth grade, when he first transferred to your school. almost instantly, you two became friends due to your friendly persona. it’s like you two just instantly clicked and skipped the awkward stage.

it didn’t take a while for you guys to catch feelings for each other. he was like your other half afterall. you remember it like it was yesterday, the day he asked you to be his.

“can i ask you something?” donghyuck holds your hand while you two sit in a dark playground late at night. “anything” you smile at your best friend. donghyuck nervously laughs as he stares off somewhere else. you feel his hand get damp making you chuckle. “hyuck your hands are sweaty” you chortled, letting go of his hand. haechan wipes his sweaty hands against the fabric of his sweatpants before taking both of your hands again, swaying them.

“i hope this doesn’t ruin our friendship” he starts, making you raise a brow. “what?” you asked. donghyuck clears his throat before finally asking you the question he’s been dying to ask you.

“will you be my girlfriend..?” he stares deeply in your eyes. you felt like the world stopped spinning for a moment, like you two were frozen in time. “it’s okay if you don’t feel the same way, just forget i asked” he says slowly, averting his gaze from you to his shoes, kickng the sand.

“hey” you cup his cheek, forcing him to look at you. “yes. i’ll be your girlfriend” you kissed his cheek making him turn red. “FUCK YES” donghyuck yells in triumph, throwing his fist up in the air.

“you know, i’ve been wanting to ask you that since we first met” he tells you as you two walk home hand in hand.

———

for the first half of your relationship, you kept your relationship hidden from your friends. not that it was a bad thing, you just wanted to enjoy your relationship in peace without anyone lurking in your business.

but as for someone like donghyuck who’s very much very open to the public, he publicly expressed his love for you for the first time in the middle of the cafeteria one day.

“attention y/n!” hyuck screams into the megaphone, almost bursting everyone’s ears. “what do you want donghyuck” you groaned, not liking the attention from bystanders. “i just want to say that i love you very much” he jumps down from the cafeteria table and hands you a bouquet of flowers. pretty much surprising everyone in school

and the crowd cheers as you take the bouquet of flowers from him and kissed him on the cheek. “and i love you too” you whisper in his ear, making him giggle.

ever since then, the school voted the two of you as the high school sweethearts.

———

just like you’ve imagined it, you never felt so loved by anyone else. donghyuck gave you everything he had. he poured his heart and soul into each thing he has done for you and you couldn’t ask for anything more. but as your relationship grows older, you found yourself growing distant from him more and more.

during the end of junior year, you felt like you lost the spark you initially had with donghyuck. after spending almost 4 years with him, it’s bound to happen, right or so you thought.

for donghyuck, the more he spent time with you, the more he is certain that you were gonna be his first and last.

“good morning, baby” he kisses your forehead as you enter his car. “hey” you mumbled, not giving him a kiss back. donghyuck frowns at your sudden change of behavior. you thought he’d never notice such change but in this case, he did. he does, he always notices every little thing about you.

“i’ll be going on a trip with my family” donghyuck starts, looking at you as he drives the both of you to school. “and?” you reply, scrolling through your phone. “i’m just saying i’ll be gone for a week..” hyuck finishes quietly, pulling up in the school’s parking lot. “that’s great i guess, hope you have fun” you tell him nonchalantly, closing the door before he could even reply.

—

and just like what donghyuck said, he was indeed gone for the week. with this, you have enough time to look back and decide if it’s worth staying with donghyuck.

you were currently in calculus, growing bored as time passes by. luckily, you sat next to jeno, who was the top student in calculus. “hey jeno” you whispered, trying to catch his attention. “hmm?” he hums, not taking his eyes off the whiteboard.

“can you help me with this? it’s hard” you pout making jeno chuckle. “y/n that’s literally our first topic” he grabs your notebook and starts skimming through them. “and you didn’t even take notes!” he points out making you red from embarrassment.

“but sure, i’ll help you” jeno flashes his infamous eye smile making your heart flutter. “thanks jen, you’re the best” you smile back, feeling giddy all of a sudden.

for the rest of the class, you got to know more about jeno and you even offered if he wanted to have lunch with you. completely forgetting about your boyfriend whatsoever.

as the days pass, you and jeno became closer and closer. currently, you were hanging out with him in a cat cafe. despite him being allergic to cats. “so tell me,” he starts, petting the cats nearby. “when did you and hyuck start dating?”

and almost instantly, all your memories of being together with hyuck flashed before your eyes. ‘did i seriously forget about my own boyfriend’ you thought to yourself. jeno notices you spaced out and snaps his fingers in front of your face.

“hello? earth to y/n?” he waves a hand over your face. “you know what, let’s talk about another thing” you faked a smile making jeno a bit confused. “okay”

later that day, you and jeno head over to the amusement park for a bit just to get your mind off things. “you seriously haven’t been to lotte world?!” he reacts. you slowly nod your head and smiled sheepishly. “well, i’m gonna have to show you around then” he proudly states before grabbing your hand and dragging you everywhere.

that was the first time you had fun in months. you stared at your hands that was intertwined with jeno’s making you blush a bit. you were about to lean your head against his shoulders before it hits you, you already have a boyfriend.

you instantly let go of jeno’s hand and felt tears brimming in your eyes. “jen can you take me home” you asked, not daring to look at him in the eye. “what? we were just about to get in the ferris wheel” he pouts. “take me home, please” you plead, finally looked at him in the eye. jeno notices your red eyes and gets the idea.

“i had so much fun today!” jeno laughs as you hold the corndog he’s been eating the entire trip back home. “i know, thank you for that” you blushed, wiping the mayo off the side of his lips. “you got something there” you giggled. jeno shows his infamous smile for what seems like the nth time today. “we’re here!” you tell him as you see your house in the distance.

“thanks again jeno, i’ll see you on monday” you kissed his cheek making him freeze. the realization hits you a second later. “fuck” you cursed, feeling nervous all of a sudden. “jen..” you say slowly. “i know, i’m sorry too” he says quietly. “we shouldn’t tell anyone” you tell him to which he reluctantly agrees doing. “i’m really sorry, please don’t tell hyuck” you plead one last time before leaving his car. “i won’t don’t worry” was the last thing you heard before you closed his door and he sped off.

after jeno drops you off at your house, you notice a familiar car sitting in your driveway. you went near it and found donghyuck sitting inside, blankly staring at his dashboard. hyuck notices your presence and unlocks the car for you to get in.

“so, how was your date?” he asks like it’s nothing. you felt your heart drop to your stomach. ‘he knows?’ you thought to yourself. you opened your mouth to say something but hyuck beat you to it. “you think i didn’t know about your whereabouts with jeno? i’m not stupid as you think i am y/n” hyuck says seriously, showing you his phone filled with text messages from your classmates.

“i-i can explain” you stammered, trying to defend yourself. donghyuck chuckles lowly, “save it. i don’t think i can take it listening to you right now” his voice cracks at the end of his sentence making your heart shatter into pieces. a tear rolls down his cheek.

“please, i swear it’s not what it looks like!” you cried out. donghyuck scoffs, “do you really think you can fool me? i’ve known you for almost 4 years. i know when something’s up with you and the fact you had the guts to do this to me after everything we’ve been through?” he yells out in frustration, hitting the steering wheel in the process.

“after everything i’ve done for you, you do me like this” he finally cries, making you speechless. you’ve never seen haechan cry like this.

“did you ever think of the consequences of your actions? seeing how happy you looked with him rather than me, your own fucking boyfriend? did you ever think about how i will feel about this if i see it? do you even think about me at all?” haechan rants, letting his emotions get the best of him.

“why am i even telling you this, look at you, you don’t even care” he chuckles again, avoiding your gaze. you wiped the tears falling from your cheek, “i do. i do fucking care” you sniffled. haechan turns his head to you and shakes his head, “you don’t anymore” he smiles sadly.

“oh yeah, i forgot i got you this” haechan chucks a fancy box onto your lap. you shakily grab and opened the box to reveal a necklace with his initials making you cry even more. “i got your initials to match with mine but i think it’s different now” he croaks. you shake your head no and tried to hold his hand but he swatted it away.

“don’t touch me” he says, “please” he wipes his tears. “hyuck please, i’m sorry! i swear it’s not what it looks like” you sobbed onto your hands. “you know, it hurts me seeing you cry like this” donghyuck stares at your shaking figure. “but after what you did to me, i’m not really sure anymore”

it grows quiet inside his car, just the sound of your sniffles can be heard. “i need some time to think about this— about us” donghyuck starts. “you’ll know when i’ve made up my mind” he finishes. you hiccuped, “please don’t leave me” making hyuck’s heart hurt even more. “i’m not too sure about that” he looks down.

you took this as a sign for you to get out of his car and out of his life as well. without saying another word, you stepped out of his car and silently closed the door. “i’m sorry” you murmured to yourself before stepping inside your house.

donghyuck stares at your back the entire time you went inside your house. hyuck starts his engine and leaves your driveway. “guess she never really loved me the way i loved her” he laughs to himself, ripping the dangling locket he had on his rear view mirror, speeding off to who knows where to clear his head and to fix his broken heart.

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septemberlikestea · 4 years

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i think my worldbuilding thought process was formed and heavily HEAVILY influenced by the fact that i have read so many warrior cats books since like. second grade? i think i stopped in sixth grade and now my shelf is STUFFED with those books and its covered in so much dust. i have a sticky note that i left for myself so that i would clean that shelf up. i still havent. its been there for weeks. i dont think i can even handle looking at those books i think they gave me some sort of secret special trauma. theyre so fucked up.

#me talking #like. im often thinking 'uh uh. do they need to eat. what do they eat. what resources so they have. how do they get food.'#like sometimes food isnt NEEDED for the story. i dont have to include that. but i DO #thank you warrior cats for making me a person that exists

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crowsent · 4 years

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How do you stay so cheerful? I read your tags and you seem like a funny and happy person. What's your secret?

had this ask for a while and i had no idea how to tackle this. lowkey no idea how you thought i was a funny and happy person from my tags since all i do is bitch about shit but uh. thanks? no idea how you got this impression of me but its very kind of you to say this. so. anyway.

im not cheerful. i havent been genuinely cheerful since the third grade. when i was in fourth grade i was already bitter and cynical and constructed so many walls around myself and my emotions that now, years later, i have no idea how to bring them down. by fifth grade, i became an angry and petty person. by sixth grade i developed trust issues. by seventh grade, i learned how to use humour to deflect everything and ignore the world. i think my first depressive episode was when i was ten. i straight contemplated whether or not i should be alive when i was ten and it only got worse from there.

me trying to be as kind as i can to others doesnt necessarily mean that im cheerful. its just that me being sad and tired and angry does not mean that i can be cruel or unkind to other people. its unfair of me to take out my frustrations about everything in my life on the world, so i try my best to be good and kind and be as respectful and courteous as i can be. the peppy excitable attitude i have is a farce so i dont bring in my negativity onto people who have nothing to do with my issues.

BUT. that doesnt mean that i cant try. people say fake it til you make it and thats what im doing. or trying to. im not actually genuinely happy but trying to keep my spirits up is infinitely better than just stewing in my depression. its a struggle to put on a smile and not say the first cynical thing that pops into my head, but i have to try. recovery is a process. its not a race, its a marathon. and for me, its a marathon with the goal being moved further and further away every so often. but if i dont at least try to run, then im never getting anywhere.

life is shit. for me at least. my depression is painful. i have chronic pains that sucks like a fucking turbo powered vacuum and sometimes i get suicidal ideations and have to lock myself in my room so i dont wander into the kitchen. but that doesnt mean that itll be shit forever. or that itll be bad every day. if today was something conjured from the depths of hell, maybe tomorrow would be good. or at the very least, suck less. so ill pretend to be happy, maybe crack a few jokes, and thatll distract me from the now.

and if my writing or my jokes or the comments i make brings a smile to someones face or makes their day brighter by a fraction or even makes them forget the present, even if its just for a little bit, then good. just because im miserable, doesnt mean that everyone else has to be. if i can make someone smile then im happy.

if youre struggling with depression or anxiety or something in your personal life and looking for a reason to be cheerful, then find a reason. any reason. maybe you have a pet. or maybe you have a fav show or book or something. maybe you have a hobby. maybe you have some friends you promised to hang out with or some chores you need to do or some yoga or singing or whatever. i cant give you a secret way to be cheerful because i dont have one. the method i use for dealing with suicidal thoughts is to lock myself in a room where there’s nothing i can use to hurt myself with and wait for the ideations to pass. that method might make things worse for you. it might not work. i dont know your situation. the only advise i can give you is to keep living. any reason to live is worth it. dont care what the reason is. hope. faith. love. spite. find a reason to live and live. the best i can say is that most of my joy comes from writing so try and find a hobby that you like.

tl;dr: anon. i try to just be as kind and positive as i can be and hope for something good happening tomorrow. kinda got derailed a lil bit there. sorry.

also. i feel like i should mention this.

im not cheerful and im not happy. im just a very good liar.

#crowsas trauma #crowsas answers #the fake it til you make it approach tho #it has merit. it has value. it can literally help you change your outlook #yknow how makin self deprecatin jokes over and over makes it second nature?#like the guess ill die memes and all that shit?#it actually impacts your mental health #the more you do it the more you believe it #until you cant tell if youre making a joke or an actual comment about your current state of mental wellbeing #saying im trash even ironically can seed something negative in you #and the more you do it the worse it gets #it becomes subconscious #so do the opposite #compliment yourself every chance you get #make note of something beautiful you see or hear or feel #focus on the good #my tactic of dealing with everything in my life is aggressive positivity #try that #no guarantee itll work but trying is better than not trying #im sorry i cant give you a better answer to your question anon #but try to be kind #be kind to others bc theres a special joy in helping someone else #and be kind to yourself #it okay if you dont feel happy all the time #no one does #but being harsh on yourself isnt going to help #so try and treat yourself w kindness too #tomorrow might be good #hang in there

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sunflowerrichie · 5 years

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my boy

chapter 1: eighth grade

“who’s richie?”

“he’s my boyfriend,” she began, her eyes glazed over and a pleased smile on her face. puppy love; something eddie would never get the chance in having with richie.

summary: ever since they met in eighth grade, richie had been disappearing for weeks (even months) at a time, leaving eddie to think they’re on bad terms; though, that’s not really why richie disappears.

warning(s): language.

author: richie (sunflowerrichie)

note: this book is based off real life events, so if the details are too exact, that’s why. i don’t know how many chapters there will be at the moment due to events after the 7th chapter not happening yet, but i will let you guys know when i’m going to post the next chapter.

word count: 2,076

ao3: x

tagging: @addimagination

“who’s richie?” eddie had asked myra, his doe eyes wide and questioning; he briefly thanked whatever god was out there that the girl could not see him, for she’d read right through him. if eddie could go back in time from where he was now, he would’ve never asked that simple question containing only two words, though he already knew this was another one of her unsuccessful boyfriends. there was a comic book in his hand, one he disregarded the second someone new was mentioned.

myra fixed her hair from where she was lying on the couch, responding quickly. “he’s my boyfriend,” she began, her eyes glazed over and a pleased smile on her face. puppy love; something eddie would never get the chance in having with richie. “he’s tall and lanky... got dark, black hair; i’m surprised you haven't seen him around, eddie.”

myra had met eddie in sixth grade, easily becoming friends with the hypochondriac. the smaller boy made a habit of wiping her desk down with cleansing wipes before she sat in it, and in return, she gave eddie platonic love. his mom loved her; for she was just as neat as her sweet eddie-bear and she vowed to make sure he’s taking his medication on time. she was much like sonia, actually; except for being a believer in ‘love at first sight’.

this wasn’t the first time she’s been head over heels for someone, nor would it be the last, but eddie was used to it at this point. each time, he’d make himself presentable for her boyfriend, and each time, they’d never show much interest in the asthmatic boy.

eddie hummed, feigning carelessness and turning back to his book. “is he in eighth grade, too?” he had asked, flipping the page over, though his ears were perked up and his eyes were no longer scanning the words printed nicely on the paper.

“yeah,” myra responded, her voice like she was up in the clouds, high on euphoria. she snapped back quickly, glancing down at the boy on the floor and catching his eyes. “you should talk to him; i think you would start to like him,” more than you think, eddie would learn to realize. before he could decline the offer, though, she was speaking again. “he likes david bowie... and what’s that one song you like?” she paused, her eyebrows scrunching together. “uh... something about the rains in africa?”

eddie perked up quickly, his hot chocolate colored eyes twinkling with the white marshmallows sculpted deep inside them. “africa by toto,” he had said, his cheeks growing hot. eddie kaspbrak loved music, he always had; and now that he would potentially have someone to discuss this love with, he was immediately hooked. he found out three years later, though, that it did not work out the way he had planned. he snapped out of his daze, his smile still apparent. “is he coming over?”

the girl grinned from ear to ear, unbelievably delighted that her best friend was keen on meeting her boyfriend. she looked down at her phone then, the screen lighting up and reflecting on her face in a green kind of glow, the color of her lock screen. “he said he’s on his way,” myra started. “he lives just down the street, so he’ll be here in a few minutes.”

the short boy was struck with a sort of fear then, subconsciously fixing his hair. he nodded, biting his lip and trying not to act suspicious (though this was normal for him; he was always afraid new people would think he’s too messy, too uncaring). myra didn’t seem to notice, though, and kept staring at her phone with a smile, typing away at the keys. at this realization, eddie stood up and coughed awkwardly. “i’m gonna go use the bathroom.” once he got an ‘okay’, he started walking.

when he came out of the bathroom after a few deep, calming breaths and a puff of his aspirator just in case, his clothes were freshly lint-rolled and perfect, his hair was combed and neat, and his teeth were nice and brushed. his fanny pack was around his waist, keeping him grounded and secure. he heard talking from the living room and walked into the doorway, his hands cupped at his front.

richie tozier turned to him, a wide grin on his face and his glasses askew. eddie let his eyes drift around the boy, taking in every detail he could in the three seconds he allowed himself to stare. richie had a grey shirt on, a white and navy blue hawaiian shirt draped over it. the fabric was loose on his skinny frame, and eddie noticed three cigarettes extended out of his pocket, making the small boy’s hands start to shake. his pants were black and tight, complimenting his long legs. and to top it all off, he had black and white slip-on vans over his green and purple socks. he didn’t match; but it suited him in a way eddie felt jealous of.

“like whatcha see?” the tall boy asked, making eddie blush in realization that he noticed the staring. before he could respond, myra spoke again, catching the asthmatic off guard. he had forgot she was in the room.

“richie, this is eddie,” she gestured towards him. “eddie, this is richie,” and back towards richie.

the glasses-clad boy grinned even harder, making eddie wonder if his face would split in half with the force of the grin. the smaller boy looked over to myra quickly, her giving him a smile and her eyes saying ‘this is normal, don’t be alarmed’. he stepped forward and stuck out his lanky arm, waiting for the small boy to shake it. he didn’t; he was afraid richie would think his hands were too rough (he forgot to apply lotion). “richie tozier.”

one week after richie introduced himself to eddie, the asthmatic was at myra’s house again, same as last weekend. “what did you get for number 6?” the girl asked, flipping her paper over and furrowing her eyebrows. she was across from eddie on her bed, both of them lying on their stomachs and going over their math homework.

“two,” eddie responded easily, writing something down on his paper. he then paused for a while, his hand hovering over his paper as he thought. “what do you want to do tomorrow?” he asked, looking up at her with hope in his eyes. hope that richie would come over again. hope that they’d have another chance to all watch a movie together (he had sat on the ground the whole time, though, trying not to pay attention to the sound of their lips smacking together every once in a while and the bounce of richie’s leg on the carpet). he hadn’t got that close to richie yet, for he’d have to take a puff of his aspirator every time he thought about it; but with richie’s loud mouth and his easy-going attitude, it was slightly easier than he thought.

myra hummed, looking up at him briefly before turning the page in the blue textbook. “i was planning to have richie come over at around ten in the morning,” she spoke, seeming to think them over as they floated out of her mouth. “is that okay?” she blushed slightly, looking back up at eddie.

the small boy nodded, pulling his phone out quickly to set an alarm for nine in the morning. he told himself he’d need time to wake up, but he knew deep down that he really only did that because he wants to look good for the taller boy. “that sounds good,” he smiled, glancing at the time quickly. he stood up then, grabbing his fanny pack and snapping it around his waist again. “be right back, i gotta take my medicine.”

the second it turned nine o’clock the next morning, eddie’s phone was ringing and the sound was echoing through myra’s living room. the small boy groaned and rolled over, shutting off his alarm and rubbing at his eyes. when his mind got a chance to catch up and his first thought was richie, though, he was up and rushing to turn the shower on.

when richie opened the door an hour later, he was grinning and his nose was a different color, the cold, november air outside making his skin blush red.

“spaghetti!” he yelled, immediately taking interest in the asthmatic boy, much to his surprise. “i was hoping you’d be here again!”

eddie blushed deeply, water pooling behind his eyes due to embarrassment. “hi, richie,” he spoke softly, the name unfamiliar on his tongue as he scanned the room for myra (he hoped briefly that he’d get a chance for the name to finally become familiar flowing out of his mouth). “uh, myra will be here in a second, she went to-“

the taller boy cut him off quickly, wrapping his lanky arm around his shoulders. “no worries, short stack,” he started, not coming off offensive but more... fond; as if he’d known eddie since they were in sixth grade, too. “for i, the one and only richie tozier, would not mind hanging out with my favorite eds!” he finished off in a loud, almost ear-ringing, voice, grinning down at eddie, his ocean blue eyes gleaming.

before the brown-eyed boy could respond with a ‘don’t call me that’ and a soft shove, myra was walking through the doorway and richie’s arm was unwrapping itself from his shoulders, leaving him with a heart that had plunged down into his lower stomach. “i see you two have made friends with one another.” friends. all they would ever be.

to that, richie nodded, the grin still on his face. does he ever stop fucking grinning? “we have, haven’t we, spaghetti head?” the words seemed as if they came from another planet, for the sound of blood rushing behind his ears was too loud for the small boy to process what richie was saying.

he excused himself to go use the bathroom then, and when he got there, he realized he might as well have been losing his mind. “keep it together, kaspbrak,” he said to his reflection, swallowing down a lump in his throat. “it’s just richie,” the name was still unfamiliar, “just myra’s new, unsuccessful boyfriend, richie.”

when eddie finally got himself to come out of the bathroom and walk into the living room again, he was stopped dead in his tracks. myra’s pinky was looped around the taller boy’s and words were flowing out of his mouth beautifully.

“-i promise, okay? i’ll always be here for you,” and then he was moving his hand up and extending his thumb to kiss. “i never break a pinky promise.” if only eddie would have known those six words would be repeating through his head painfully for three years afterwards. richie looked like a totally different person when he was serious, eddie then realized. he felt anxiety creep up his body with the question ‘i wonder if i’ll ever be in myra’s spot’. he knew he’d probably have an asthma attack due to richie’s eyes alone.

“me and richie broke up,” is what eddie heard five days later coming through his cell phone speaker, the owner’s voice broken and rough. “i-i didn’t-”

“wait, wait, what happened?” the brown-eyed boy asked, more curious than sympathetic.

“he pinky promised me!” she wailed, ignoring his question and making eddie move the phone an inch or two from his ear. “he said he never breaks pinky promises, and he did!”

eddie stopped talking to myra after that. not because of any particular reason, but just simply because of the fact that whenever he looked at her, all he could think about was richie’s arm around him and richie’s pinky promise and richie’s beautiful, blue eyes. the two boys never swapped numbers, so eddie had to spend the rest of eighth grade wondering if richie was ever really his ‘friend’, or if he was only taking interest in the hypochondriac because of myra.

what he didn’t realize until three months later, though, was that richie actually never did break his pinky promise. he was still there for myra if she needed him, but eddie guesses he lost interest in being something more than acquaintances. richie was good with his words and eddie was destined to be wrapped around his finger sooner or later.

#my boy #it 2017 #eddie kaspbrak #richie tozier #finn wolfhard #the losers club #jack dylan grazer #reddie #richie’s work #richie tozier x eddie kaspbrak

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washvngton-blog · 6 years

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❝ I grasp my anger and loneliness and hold it in my chest. It has changed me into someone I never meant to be. ❞ Josephine ‘Josie’ Washington, Kiersey Clemons, Sixteen, Incoming Sixth Year, Gryffindor, Cis-Female, Muggleborn, She/Her

here are some links: stats page, pinboard, application. there’ll be some triggers in this intro that i will give a heads up for at every necessary bullet point. they are terminal illness, cancer, death (of a parent), grief.

okay so i think her application gives a lot of information about josie and her background, so i’m going to keep this sweet and short & try to just give a short rundown of everything and add some more stuff!

josie grew up in a pretty normal family. one of those picket-fence, pretending-to-be-perfect families. she grew up in a calm neighbourhood in newport, was always a bit of an odd one out, with her love for black nailpolish and bands her parents didn’t approve of and the inexplicable things happening, but she was loved and life was stable and sometimes a bit dull, but good.

cancer / terminal illness tw. they found out that her father had cancer in the same month that they learned about josie’s magic. fucking ironic, right? add in the fact that josie was an optimist who had no idea what the limits and rules of the wizarding world were, and 11 year old her was convinced that she would go to hogwarts, find a cure and come back. that’s what would’ve happened if this was a kids movie, after all, and life kind of felt like a shitty movie at the moment.

death tw i mean, we all know about the statute. we all know that there’s limits to magic. josie was a child, too, unable to even perform magic that would be able to cure cancer if it existed. she kept trying to find answers, though, speaking to the matron and her teachers and reading books, desperate and convinced that magic could solve this, because it could mend broken bones like that. but he died, still, and all the denial that josie had found comfort in was ripped from her hands. ( this was in fifth year, around january, so it’s still quite fresh )

grief tw. and then there came the mourning. josie is stuck between denial and anger right now, tbh. it’s what she did while her dad was sick, too --- deny reality and rage against it, refuse it. she finds release in laughing things away and by beating bludgers and punching her pillow. being at hogwarts, so removed from home, allowed her to slip into denial more easily, btw. she’s kind of thankful for it, but also hates it. end of trigger warnings.

okay so there’s some background --- what about josie herself? she’s a hoot to be around, most times. impulsive, in your face, outgoing, present. she likes having fun. she likes doing stupid shit. she likes living. chaotic energy all over. such a stereotypical gryffindor that my gryffindor ass cringes at it.

on another hand, she’s gloomy and angsty and trying to stop being an optimist. josie has always had a short temper, too, and many of her negative emotions end up being expressed through anger. and she has some self pity hiding inside of her that she cant get rid of and she hates it.

josie is obsessed with fast food. she just loves hamburgers and fries. probs gets a cheeky nando’s v often. also just loves muggle culture which ties into this.

100% tired of the statute of secrecy and a lot of things about the wizarding world. would like to make a CHANGE. idealistic in her core, somewhere, hidden underneath her layers of edginess and being an angry teen.

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she really loves quidditch so much. she used to play football as a kid growing up and honestly she was like ... that’s kind of. the same concept but not rly but ITS IN THE AIR and she started to practise and got on the team in her fourth year and has been beating bludgers ever since!!!!

rly loves music as well, thinks jimi hendrix himself saved music and is convinced that he was a wizard. debbie harry owns her ass tbh.

constantly stuck between ‘ugh im such a soft icon, drinking chocolate milk’ and ‘i am going to fight the entire world with my ripped jeans!!’

curses like a sailor but who doesnt at this point in life

she wanted to do the st mungo’s internship but ehr grades were too low KDSJFHSD she’s so fucking bitter over it. idk what she’s doing now, i think she’s probably doing something more muggle-y but whomst knows! gotta figure that out. i do think she’d have a job, i havent thought about this lmao

josie isnt great in school mostly because she cannot concentrate for shit and is too chaotic??? thinks that the school system is stupid as well. she just wants to do shit! not sit in a classroom! damn! like she was def a better student at the beginning when stuff was so NEW but now she’s like .... excuse ....

idk she’s so chaotic she tires me

#holocene intro

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moonlightkth · 7 years

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11 questions

i got tagged by @limjaebum and @evalocity thank youfor tagging me and i love you both loads

rules: post the rules, answer the questions given to you by the tagger, write 11 questions of your own, tag 11 people

so i got tagged twice so the questions will be underneath the line cause this will probs be long

marissa’s questions:

1. if you had to get a tattoo right at this very moment, what would you get and why?

i would probs get a crescent moon either behind my left ear or behind my left shoulder because moons mean a lot to me (id explain why but thatd be long)

2. which fictional character have you always resonated with and why?

ok so i havent always resonated with her but i feel like it’s Vilde from SKAM. the reason being that we both feel as if our friends don’t care for us and because we both aren’t completely satisfied with our bodies and tried to fix it in a way you shouldnt

3. what is your all time favourite kpop song?

honestly probably hold me tight

4. if you had to be on a tv show, which one would you choose and why?

id probs want to be on the walking dead because honestly it seems like so much fun. and because i had a giant crush on chandler riggs

5. what was your last dream about?

i dont remember my last dream but i dream that i do remember having is me and my old crush pretending to date

6. what position in a kpop group do you think you’d have?

i’d probs be a vocalist and part of the sunshine line

7. if you could ask your future self one question what would it be?

id ask my future self to only do stuff that will make me happy does that count as a question lol

8. what is one movie you’ve seen that you will never watch again?

i dont remember what it’s called but im pretty sure it’s one of the scary movies. cause because of that movie i had a fear of something coming out of my toilet and biting my ass so i always used to check if a possessed alvin and the chipmunks were in my toilet

9. what is your least favourite song by your ult group?

i dont really have a least fave song but if i did it’d probs be n.o (even tho that song is a B O P)

10. come up with a nickname for each member of your ult bias group?

ok so these aren’t really nicknames but if i were friends with them i’d probs have their names saved as these (other than the ones i gave them for my fake texts)

jungkook - muscle bunny or honey thighs taehyung - bby pup jimin - soft mochi or also honey thighs namjoon - clumsy king hobi - the actual fucking sun yoongi - salt not suga jin - worldwide handome chef

11. favourite maknae + why?

im assuming this means actual maknae and not memeber from maknae line ok so i should probs say yugyeom cause he’s my bias in got7 but honestly probs sehun cAUSE THAT BOY WRECKS MY LIFE A LIL TOOOO OFTEN

Elo’s questions

1. who is your ult bias and bias wrecker?

my ult bias is my boy kim taehyung and my ult bias wrecker is probs park chanyeol

2. what’s the one kpop song you can’t stand?

don’t hate me but it’s probs that one exid song the one boy groups always dance to ya know

3. describe your best friend

ok so one of my irl best friends is one of the most awkward people i know. we’ve known each other since the third grade but we only started being close in the sixth. she’s honestly super weird and vv selfless. she may come up with ideas with bad intentions but she’ll end up cancelling those ideas cause she doesnt want to hurt anyones feelings. also loves icecream a lot. has once spray painted our old elementary school with “i love icecream”. has once told me that she likes tae cause they have the same nickname “v”

4. what did you want to be when you were younger?

i wanted to be a veterinarian

5. do you prefer reading or writing?

i love both but i prefer writing

6. what’s your favourite season?

spring !!!

7. what’s your favourite tv show?

i haven’t watched any tv shows in a while so ill just say the walking dead

8. if you could travel to one country and it would all be free for a month, where would you go?

either England or SK tbh

9. do you like sports?

i used to when i was younger but not anymore

10. what’s your clothing style?

a mess tbh i was gonna put a picture of something i would wear but that’s a lot of work but to describe it probs like yoongi or jk

11. what’s your favourite subject at school?

english

my questions !!

1. if you could have your ears pierced like a member from bts whose would it be? 2. what’s your current fave song from your bias group? 3. what is your least favourite subject in school? 4. if you could buy one kpop album rn, what album would it be? (not including her) 5. if you were in a kpop group, what position would you be? 6. if you could collaborate on a song with one person, who would it be? 7. if you could have one talent, what would it be? 8. if you were to have children, how many would you want? 9. would you rather own a hotel or a restaurant? 10. if you could have any colour hair, what hair colour would you want? 11. what is your ideal date with your ult bias?

im tagging: @minniesugakookies @the-chogiwa-to-your-ye-xing-de @icarus-mp3 @cringeytae @minsoakedme @ciutae @andjiminieshands @smol-tae and @baxngtan you dont have to do this if you dont want to!!!

#i answered all these already but it deleted omfg #so here is the shorter version lol #game #get to know me ♡#tagged

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pacman-tattoo · 7 years

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I got a notification that you posted a text post talking about your ocs? But you deleted it I guess bc I can't find it? I would love to hear about your ocs

i have…. many ocs. a lot of them i rp with @commando-76 so like, theres shit some of em have gone through!

ok im gonna put this under a readmore because i ramble a lot about my ocs bc i love em!!! so much!!!!

also how many ppl have notifs on for me what the heck

theres jaden and welton! my babes! jadens a huge bookworm who loves ballet a lot and kinda rly likes stars a lot, and welton is his best friend whos a gamer and i like to imagine he has a youtube channel and a decent number of fans? like, not too popular but he has a decent following i guess??? both have been my ocs for yea r s….

jadens kinda quiet and reserved a bit but he runs a book critique blog tbh and welton promotes it a lot on his channel. welton’s very extroverted and i guess its a sort of opposites attract thing with jaden when it comes to their friendship? welton would 100% punch a dude for jaden tho.

welton and jaden have been friends since they were like, 10-ish? they met and jaden was reading harry potter and weltons like ‘u look like him. i’LL BE UR RON WEASLEY!!!’ and it was the cutest thing ever because welton just wants to be his friend and??? that appealed to jaden and jadens like ‘yeah, sure, whatever’ and then jadens mom died and welton practically lived at his house to comfort him as best as he can and that’s when they kinda became best friends tbh and they actually dated in college :0 they broke up and are in happy relationships with other ppl but jaden is kinda pining for welton and gets anxious over his thoughts and i can guarantee u he’s had a panic attack bc he’s worried about these thoughts my poor son

theres sachiyo and avi - they’re friends with jaden n welton (and tekina (scotts oc) and deo (emma’s oc))! sachi i’ve had as an oc since like…. seventh or sixth grade and she’s come a lot way honestly. she’s a beauty blogger who loves her cosplayer bf and cooking! she’s also my prettiest oc imo. avi is a cosplayer who never sleeps bc he’s working on orders for other ppl and he likes to make sure he gets details down because details are important to him tbh! they actually met at a con and avi awkwardly called sachi pretty and she found him adorable because u get this tol cosplayer dude just kind of like…. w ow

they are v happy and share an apartment together and probably dance to owl city or somethin in the kitchen and its v sweet. avi’s a gentle babe who loves his gf a lot and considers himself lucky a lot and they’re just??? very cute and sweet and i love em.

those are like, my main babes honestly but there’s also icarus and melody :0 who i dont rly talk about but ill mention em anyway

icarus is my edgy hot topic son (who actually has a twin that works at a hot topic and gets teased over that shit because loki knows icarus’s tastes and clothing size so he’s just like ‘haha fuck u bro’ and brings him shit) who has…….. been through a lot…….. including: the death of a good friend, his twin’s gf basically being kidnapped for fantasy-related shit (she’s… connected to a nature god? thats the easiest way to describe it tbh), nearly watching his now-boyfriend die, and shit that involves his “twin” (who… is a reaaaaally long story) and his older brothers (tobias and paris, paris being a “””twin””” which, like i said, is a rly long story). let my boy rest even tho i wont. get wrecked, icarus. kind of an edgy fucker who gets in fights and smokes pot sometimes even tho his soon-to-be-a-doctor brother is like ‘icarus no’ (to both things) and he’s just??? a stubborn asshole honestly. why does he have a bf??? no one knows.

melody! is! my other babe! she’s a cutie who was kinda based off of a self insert i made with i was like…. 9-10 for the professor layton series and has come a rly long way since then. she loves her dads and her bf a lot even tho he is tRASH haha love ya scott if u see this makoto is not trash i love my boy and is just??? an overall cutie???? she likes cute clothes n stuff and she’s also been through a lot of shit and she doesn’t know… her bf is lying to her….. scott wtf….. why is makoto like this……….. honestly i dont blame makoto because she’d possibly dump him tbh

uh i guess if u… happen to have any questions then feel free to ask em i guess? i love my cuties and questions help me flesh em out i guess so :0

also thank u?? i like talking about my ocs sometimes and i havent even rly thought about them in months so

#tris has ocs #thats my oc tag now #genius. im good at naming tags.#ben-platt-deserves-the-world #bean answers things

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i-amusemyself · 7 years

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All categories. Every question.

Bloody hell!! 😂 Who on earth wants to know so much about me?? This could either be great or terrible! Thanks!Quick facts:1. Age: 182. Gender: Non binary i guess3. Sexual orientation: bi/pansexual but its complicated4. Zodiac sign: libra5. Best friend: @only-slightly-dangerous6. Height: 5'11" last time I checked7. Favourite colour: black.8. Hobbies: sleeping, self loathing and memes. In that order.9. Shoe size: 710. Eye colour: brownHave I... (this is gonna be a short section)1. Had sex? Nope2. Kissed someone in the rain? Nope3. Had a job? Yup! 3. I now have none smh4. Smoked weed? Nope5. Done drugs? Nope6. Drank alcohol? Yuup7. Broken a bone? Yuup, a couple8. Self harmed? Yh :/9. Caught sneaking out? Lmao nope10. Been in love? Doubt it, but I've loved very strongly.This or that1. Good morning or good night texts? Good night texts are cute as hell but they make me kinda sad so I'll say good morning texts.2. Sweet or salty? Sweet3. Chocolate or vanilla? Chocolate4. Fancy dates or casual dates? Casual dates all the way!!5. Airplane or drive? Drive6. Mountains or beach? ...mountains are cold but beaches have sand sooo? Both and also neither.7. Baths or showers? Baths! I miss baths!!8. Blonds or brunetts? Brunetts. I don't have *that* much of a type, but I never seem to go for blonds.9. TV or music? I love them both? ...ill say music.10. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? Mean girls. No question about it.Last...1. Person you kissed: idfk i havent kissed anyone, family or otherwise, in ages2. Text you sent: "you on your wayy??"3. Person you texted: my friend rowan4. Show you watched: doctor who5. Time you cried: a week ago ish?6. Song you listened to: always something by cage the elephant7. Shoes you wore: some black converse8. Thing you ate: chocolate 😄9. Thing you bought: does a bus ticket count?10. Time you took a selfie: this morning,, but we're talking unflattering via snapchatDo you...1. Tan easy? I dont go outside enough to know 😂2. Regret anything? There are a lot of things I wish never happened, but they kinda made me who I am sooo...I'd say most things I regret are things I've said and things I haven't.3. Want to get back with your last ex? I think its easier as friends, in the best way possible.4. Have trust issues? Hoo boiiiii yeah.5. Like chinese food? It's a fave!6. Believe in love at first sight? Nah, attraction at first sight though.7. Sleep with your door open or closed? Its open just a tiny tiny bit so I don't make noise if I leave my room but I still feel safe8. Type fast? I'd say so yeah9. Have pets? Yup!! 2 bunnies that I love sooo much and a crackers cocker spaniel called borris!!10. Smile at strangers? Yeah! I mean, im awkward af but if i catch their eye then sure, you never know who might need itSex and romance? (This sections gonna be even shorter)1. Relationship status: single as usual2. Are you a virgin? Yeah 3. Ever cheated? Been cheated on? I could never cheat, I've seen what it does to people and it makes me so so mad. And nah, thankfully.4. How many people have you slept with? See 2.5. Given oral sex? Recieved it? Nah6. Hot make up sex or slow romantic sex? ...would need experience to decide 7. Worst sex you've had: see 28. Best sex you've had: see 29. Ever had sex with more than one person at a time? See 210. Rate yourself as a lover on a scale of 1-10? 1.Someone you...1. Miss: ummm... no one majorly. I guess theres someone i like id love to see2. Love: my best friend3. Trust: i trust like 2 people in this world- see one and two.4. Live with: my mum5. Have kissed: my ex i guess6. Have slept with: no one7. Hate: besides trump, theres a couple of people that have fucked me over that still make my blood boil.8. Idolize: Kaitlyn Alexander 😶9. Need: idk, friends in general. 10. Have known for years: girl at my sixth form called ella; ive known her since before i could talk.Miscalleneous1. What did the last text you sent say? "AAAAAAAAA" ~ I got sent a cat video.2. Have you ever done a prank call? Probably when I was like 8 but nothing very successful!3. If you're drunk and can't stand, who's taking care of you? I wish I knew 😂 4. How long does it take you to get ready in a morning? An hour and a half, at least. That's excluding time for picking clothes and doing makeup etc.5. Behind the camera or infront of it? Behind6. Last book you read? The Five People You Meet in Heaven, but it was last summer!7. How can someone win your heart? Be so authentically yourself that I can be me too. And be honest.8. Did you lose your virginity before 18? Nah9. Do you like your handwriting? When I'm not rushing, sure10. Do you play any musical instruments? I'm grade 8 at the kazoo11. Where do you want to live when you're older? I kinda want to move to canada or denmark! So long as I'm living with some I love its all good!12. What's something you like about yourself?.......bloody hell....erm......I guess I like that I always try. I don't really know how I do it, but I'll always find that extra bit of energy if needed.13. Whats something that drives you crazy about yourself? Just like who I am as a person 😂😂😂 nah, erm, I hate it when I can't communicate what I'm thinking irl (im okay if I'm typing). Things tend to come out wonky and in the wrong tone or meaning the wrong thing and I just beat myself up over it for the rest of the week.14. Closest friend on tumblr? @only-slightly-dangerous what a surprise!15. Do you think you'll be in a relationship 2 months from now? I should be so lucky 😂16. Do you like when people play with your hair? Yaaaas17. Top 5 songs right now? Bloody hell, erm, right at this second? In no particular order: -Rats- Motionless in White-just basically the entire new miw album (as esp the eternally yours video 👀)-The Night We Met, piano version, on repeat.-No Rest For the Wicked by Cage the Elephant-Corpse Roads by Keaton Henson18. Spell your name with your chin: ywtkur. Wow.19. Trip to the bottom of the ocean or outer space? *banging fists on table* outer space!!!!! Yaaaaas!!

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rosyredlipstick · 7 years

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AAAA i love yuri on ice so much!!!! it makes me sooo happy to see that you enjoyed it

ANON I LITERALLY CANNOT STOP WATCHING IT

like ok. imagine. it’s midnight & u cant sleep. usually you just put on those vine compilation videos till u fall asleep bc u find them HILARIOUS. anyways. you on onto the youtube app and there it is. front page. the anime tumblr wont shut up about. you havent watched anime since sixth grade when your cousin made you watch death note. youre bored and u cant sleep and you hit play.

and it begins.

AND IT BEGINS.

long story short 4.40 hours later you’re crying over the couple skate sequence and your roommate is pissed you’re making so much noise. you immediately go on ao3. you fall sleep reading fic and wake up to a dead phone and an even deader soul.

and u start watching again.

yeah so i havent left my dorm yet and im rewatching chapter five rn

#personal #yuri on ice #im fucking dead

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starlillies · 7 years

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Rant about something that irritates you

ok a lot irritates me but. the treatment of teenagers ok like.

in school they either treat us like we’re dumb kids that dont know anything or they treat us like adults who have everything together and. i hate when teachers complain and are like “my class should be ur top priority” like ???? i have EIGHT classes. eight. and all eight teachers think their class should be my top priority like sorry no?? and everyone says school in general should be my top priority like even my parents will be like “youre only a teenager, you dont have any responsibilities. Youre only job is school” like excUSE ME??? my only job?? first of all, no. i have so many responsibilities its ridiculous. i go to school , im expected to get good grades by my parents and my teachers. im in at least 3 clubs in school, which is considerably less than most of my peers, ive been in girl scouts for 12 years and not bc i want to, no ive told my mom i wanted to quit since sixth grade, but she said i had to finish bc it would look good for college. ive been in bbyo (which i dont think most of u know of but whatever) since eighth grade, ive been on chapter board since tenth grade and this year im on regional board. i babysit during the week every week and sometimes on weekends. and thats not even factoring in friends and social activity and free time and relaxing, bc what teenager has time for that?? so yeah, i have quite a FEW fucking responsibilities. second of all, SCHOOL IS A PRETTY HUGE FUCKING JOB. its fucking stressful and yeah adults work longer hours and they dont get summer break and winter break and all that shit, but they literally dont even understand what school is like anymore. they say we have the internet and that makes things oh so much easier but like when was the last time they stayed up until 4 am writing 8 essays on poems for englsih class only to have the teacher decide not to grade them?? when was the last time they spent days studying a math test only to see that the teacher decided not to base the test off the study materials they gave u?? school is fucking ridiculous now like i refuse to say anything more. and then theres the college stress, which now starts at like fucking seven years old bc thats how hard it is to get into college now. and people have no respect for teenagers???? how can u not respect us when we’re supposed to get at least 8 hours of sleep a night but regularly get less than 4, when we spend hours and hours on activities we dont even like bc we want to get into college, when we literally throw our entire being into trying to do good in school but also sleep and also have a social life and also have a job and also spend time with our families and also take care of ourselves?? oh wait, we dont. do adults not realize theres a reason anxiety and depression and suicide rates have gone up? school and college and that bs aside, adults have no respect for anything we do we are ALWAYS the bad guys. if we dont like politics we’re “ignorant and uninformed and u should know about the country u live in itll be urs soon” but if we have political opinions we’re “political machines, brainwashed liberals, y do u care so much calm down how does this affect u??” like excuse me for fucking caring about my future. and if we’re on our phone for two seconds we’re “addicted to technology and oh my gosh go outside for once” like do u know what im doing on this phone? im talking to my friends bc i dont have time to do it in person bc of all the shit i have to do. or im doing my hw, bc we have apps for that amazing ik, so that maybe i can get a full five hours of sleep tonight. or maybe im playing a fucking game to relieve my stress for a few fucking minutes y do u care if i spend my free time crushing candy. or im reading articles about how the fuckass u elected as the most powerful man in the world is once again fucking up our country and my future. who cares wtf im doing its my fucking business susan. technology has been an amazing advancement to our society and also so many adults i know complain about “kids and their technology these days” but theyre literally on their phone ten times as much as i am like. being a teenager is fucking hard, ok? i havent even touched every topic but im tired of having to explain myself bc no one listens anyway

#this got long so i put a read more #but yeah i have a lot of feelings about this #school sucks ass #adults suck ass #being a teenager sucks ass #rant #ask

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airshipvalentine · 4 years

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1 (both kid crush and actual like... hormones and bullshit crush), 3, 12, 13, 16, 17, 35, 36, and 40. this is a lot and a few of the latter ones r kinda personal so if u don't want to do all of them understandable!!

ok these got Long so im putting them under a cut. thank you for sending, leo!! <3

1. What was the name of the first person you ever had a crush on? Why did you like them?

ok as for kid crush: i was in pre-k. i was, like, four years old, and my favorite color was blue, and i was REALLY passionate about it because a family friend had told me “but your favorite color can’t be blue! that’s a boy’s color!” and i was Mad. anyway, there was a boy in my class named harrison, and his favorite color was pink, so, logically, we got married because fuck gendered colors. we moved the next year and i haven’t heard of him since but i hope he’s doing well now

anyway the first one i really remember re: emotions was in third grade. his name way hayden, we were best friends, were mutually crushing on each other for like a year? i havent talked to him in a while but i follow him on instagram and i think he has a boyfriend now? so that’s cool. 3/4 of my 3rd grade friend group turned out gay, i guess

first post-hormones was in sixth grade. his name was noah and he was my best friend and we would text constantly. this was also definitely 100% mutual and i say this because we were writing self-insert friendfiction (as one does in 6th grade) loosely based off of our minecraft game with a couple other friends. anyway. both of our self-inserts had crushes on eachother. i read it recently and it’s not bad for middle school writing, if not kind of embarrassing? idk i have very fond memories of staying up very late writing this story.

first post-gay awakening was marina. (who i think follows me on here, though i don’t think she’s super active? if you’re reading this, hi marina! you were kind of my gay awakening!) this was seventh grade, i was very lonely, and she was very friendly and nice to me and we talked a lot during history class. i watched seven seasons of hetalia to impress her. one of my formative memories of that time was sitting together on a bed, playing a shitty hetalia dating game, and freaking out bc omg cute girl is next to me omg omg our hands brushed.

(first post-middle school is nell, who went to book club with me freshman year and is lowkey kinda still going on? im like 80% sure im the first girl she had a crush on and it was definitely a mutual thing at the end of sophomore year but both of us were too chickenshit to anything about it then. anyway this year she gave me a second edition copy of the portrait of dorian gray and we text about the homoerotic implications of bram stoker so like?? that’s something???? we’ll see.)

that was five and not one. but i had fun writing about it i NEVER get to talk about this shit thank you

12. Are ghosts real?

i don’t think so. i love them as a concept, i think they’re super neat, but i don’t think they exist :(

13. Are aliens real?

YES 100%!!!!!! the universe is far far too big for us to be the only living things in it!!!! i believe!!!!!!

16. What’s the saddest song you’ve ever heard?

god i don’t know.... i also don’t listen to a lot of sad music tbh. maybe justice/the once and future king from high noon over camelot? but it’s only really sad in context of the whole musical. autoclave by the mountain goats? good wife by mika? which is more of a bittersweet love song? that gay song from the lego portal game??? i really don’t know

17. How about the sweetest song?

finding something to do by hellogoodbye!!!! ahh i love it so much... the Energy... pure distilled feeling of running around doing shenanigans with the people you love. i am also a fan of die young, die dumb; not soon also by hellogoodbye

also sidekick by walk the moon!!! ugh i love it

35. What is the most important memory you have and why?

oh this is tough but interesting! not really sure about important but these are some of my favorites:

a couple years ago my family stayed at a cabin with my mom’s college friends & their families. one of them has a kid the same age as me, and we just, like, clicked instantly. we had the exact same brand of Internet Humor and we were both into video games and we just got along super well? idk those two weeks were so fun. i think about it a lot.

another one is at the end of last year, me and my friends stayed late at school to watch the school play, so we had like 4 hrs between the end of school and the start of the play. so we got pizza and played board games and played sandman on the school playground and it was just the best. (also me & my crush were holding hands for the entirety of the performance, which was nice)

+ just generally times spent with my friends

36. When was the last time you cried?

hmm a couple weeks ago i think? time is hard to measure atm. i was lonely. as one is.

40. Have you been on your first date? If so, how did it go?

no :(

#this is so so long leo im so sorry #but thank you so much for sending these i loved talking about them!#made me realize how little i get to talk about this kinda stuff haha #ask #yearning-hours

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katsvra · 5 years

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yyh and inuyasha !!!

hello miss falen!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thank yo u so mcuh omg such excellent taste in showss hhhh

yu yu hakusho

don’t watch period | drop if not interested within 2-3 episodes | give it a go, could be your thing | 5 star recommendation

fav characters: KURAMA!! and hiei, kuwa, yusuke, botan, koenma, keiko :o literally everyone i cant choose faves

least fav characters: toguro brothers!!! and also that one guy who kept beating up kurama after he was unable to fight >:((( and also i would include karasu because yuck but i also love his character design so :(

fav relationship: yusuke and keiko are super cute !!!!! and i love the interactions between the main 4 so much :((

fav moment: too many !!!!!

when yusuke absolutey DESTROYED that asshole that kept beating up kurama, what an absolute power move.

also !! like when yoko kurama’s “bang”? i dont know how to explain it but it like,,,, w woww love him

when kuwa was losing to that guy but he heard yukina and just immediately won the battle?? all that build up asdhjkasjkl

also all scenes where yusuke’s hair is down because Yes Please !

THAT ONE PONYTAIL KURAMA SCENE !! @ togashi why would u show us the potential of ponytail kurama and then never bring it back

that funeral scene for yusuke also Fucked Me Up

so many so many i could continue forever and i havent even finished it yet sahlajadjlks

headcanons/theories: ???????? none

unpopular opinion: ????????????????????

how’d you find it: miss falen you were live tweeting yyh and you were loving kurama so much and i got really interested because!!!! 90s anime !!!! and then i found out that kurama was a) a furry boy that was b) voiced by komaeda’s seiyuu and c) kinda looked like inuyasha when he is in yoko form and i was Sold

random thoughts: im really so glad that i started watching this and im surprised i didnt find it earlier!!!! its exactly the kind of anime i absolutely adore. i love the animation style so much,,,, like all 90s anime just looks really rounded and squish and faded if that makes any sense??? the characters are adorable and stupid but they all undergo so much growth ??? like their character change so much throughout the story???? and idk man the first ep made me cry and ive never not liked an anime that makes me cry. also im planning on watching the dub because apparently it is !!! really good!!!! so my game plan is to actually finish watching the series first and then watch the new ovas and then watch the dub so i can cry all over again good plan good plan

inuyasha

don’t watch period | drop if not interested within 2-3 episodes | give it a go, could be your thing | 5 star recommendation

fav characters: literally the entire main crew and also sesshomaru and rin and kohaku and koga

least fav characters: um i used to hate kikyo when i was a kid but like i dont anymore so i guess its just??? naraku now?? fav relationship: inuyasha & kagome !!!! literally my first ship ever, way before i even knew what that meant . they are just so dumb and cute :( fav moment: i have so many so like heres a list and also big fat spoiler warning ok

okay so like that ep with the thunder brothers and inuyasha thought kagome and shippo were dead and passing onto the next world and totally freaked out until he realized that oops the blue glow was shippos dad all along, idk that scene was so funny to me

also fateful night in togenkyo at the end where kagome thought inuyasha died but he comes up and makes fun of them for crying like an Asshole, inuyasha ur so dumb sometimes

any scene w/ human inuyasha bc human inuyasha >> literally anything

also i rlly love the scene where inuyasha turned full demon and was like in the cocoon thing and i dont even remember what happened i just remembered loving it because i love pain

oh also scenes where inuyasha and koga keep trying to look cooler than each other to impress kagome as if they werent the biggest losers in the world, ya those scenes are great

theres like so many more please i will keep talking if yall dont stop me i love inuyasha so much

headcanons/theories: u would think that i have some but tbh nah

unpopular opinion: i actually like miroku ! like im 100% sure it has to do with the fact that ive loved his character for 10+ years and im sure i probably wouldve thought very differently of him if i had started watching recently instead

how’d you find it: ok so like when i was 6 or 7, i had this friend that would come over and watch anime with me and in the evenings, all the violent anime would air on Bionix and we thought it was so rebellious to watch Older Kid anime so we would watch it every week and one week inuyasha came on and it was the episode where he got absolutely impaled by a demon tree (which is like every other episode) and i was so scared that i cried. anyways thats my first memory of inuyasha and i havent stopped watching it since, i love that show so much my dudes

random thoughts: what can i even say? this show was my entire life. it still is my entire life!! when i first discovered it in first grade. then in third grade i developed a big fat crush on inuyasha. in sixth grade, i was teased and was so embarrassed by it that i stopped watching the anime and reading the manga. in tenth grade when i heard affections touching across time and i was hit with such a strong wave of nostalgia that i binged the entire series that month. and then when i watch the very last episode and i cried because this show that had been with me my entire life just ended and it left such a big hole in my heart. i dont always talk about it but i will never stop loving this show and its dumb characters and its ability to lift my mood no matter what, its my absolute fave.

#sorry i got super cheesy with inuyasha but i just love it so so so much #also sorry for the essay #i do not know how to Shut Up #THAKN U MISS FALEN!!! for giving me an excuse to just absolutely gush about these anime #asks #warmyuki

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