#i havent really been on here much lately

[esaari]

🌸.

#oc #alek #hi i havent been around much lately #first piece of art in over a month so i am quite rusty #and i think i made alek a little too pretty here but i dont remember how to draw him.. or its just the hair that doesnt fit him #but continuing the tradition of drawing alek with my hairstyle so he must suffer #i havent had hair this long before and you sure do find your hairs *everywhere* and it is hateful #annnnyyway i hope u like im hoping to get more active w art but im also really enjoying viddy games as of late lols

[moeblob]

I have only seen their C/B supports and honestly I love them a lot. Alfred really out here just committing acts of treacherous friendliness with other royals from other kingdoms. It's wonderful to see.

#fe engage #alfred #ivy #just in case im gonna tag as #fe engage spoilers #just because idk how far people have played nor what supports they have seen #at first im like dang bro alfred out here at weird times interacting with ivy but then he says #we really gotta stop meeting at these times princess ivy in their b and im like yeah p much #then goes on to be pleasant but teasing but helpful all in one conversation with her and i just really love him ??? #also i am very fond of ivy i love her a lot #also what time does alfred go to bed i need to know because hes always already slept #when he meets up with ivy and dia ....... when they havent slept #alfred my son what are your hours of passing out and waking up #im only on ch16 so uhhhhh i made like one ch of progress lately lmao #then ive been doing some dlc battles and other paralogue fights

[imagionary]

Hmmm,, I haven't posted over here in awhile,, ahh (*´▽｀)

I normally post over on my Twitter,, I should get into the habit of posting over here again whenever I make stuff; I like using the tags to give more info about stuff; kinda like an optional read for those who want to know more?

#imagionary rambles #ttcc #toontown corporate clash #toontown: corporate clash #ttcc au #sorry sorry!! #I've been super busy with work lately ahh #so I haven't really been mosting much art over to Twitter either #but I wanna try posting over here some more cause there's lots I havent posted here

[seilon]

got another job interview tomorrow. pray 4 me

#it was originally for a busser or server job at a cocktail bar in a luxury hotel but the manager on the phone seemed like she wanted to #interview me for the position of host so. yeah #I’m a little intimidated by that role because I am not the most social person on earth to say the least but. I may be able to get used to it #and I will admit. I am kind of motivated by the pay and tips from being a host. cause holy hell it’s 18 bucks an hour plus tips #and that’s plus tips at a 4 star hotel. where the menu is pretty pricy and the people coming there Well Off. #I didn’t really consider that before but hhhhhhh……………that sure is enticing #hoo boy but anyway. a little nervous about this interview cause I’ve never done a host or server job before #but my conversation with the manager over the phone seemed to go pretty well i think so hey #kibumblabs #oh yeah I also cut my hair short last minute and i can’t tell if that was a horrible idea or not yet #it’s not nearly as finished as I’d want it to be but. here we are I guess #I havent legit cut my own hair (let alone this Much of it) in like. a couple years now I think #I think it looks fine but I’m just hoping I don’t regret it #I know it’ll grow out again eventually but idk #I did this kinda impulsively because of the job interview tomorrow. like I was kinda worried for such a nice place they’d be a little #picky with their appearance preferences and like. I didn’t want it to look like my hair was overgrown and unstyled like it was + most of #the bleached parts are cut off now so it looks a little more sophisticated I guess #but also I’ve been getting a little dysphoric lately because I haven’t been passing despite being almost 2 years on t and I think my hair #being longish wasn’t helping #now you can see my jawline and the haircut is more traditionally masculine and etc so. praying I am not called ma’am or anything at the #store or whatever anymore.

[fearforthestorm]

it is such a shame that rainstorms are a consistent migraine trigger for me because I love the rain so much but especially I love the way that the rain makes my city look. it goes all gray and lit-from-within at civil twilight and the skyscrapers at city center stretch up so high that the shapes lose definition and it's something that I am just so so fond of.

#not to mention the classic streetlights and wet pavement. thats always been a particular little thing that ive loved #it feels more like autumn than late winter today which makes me a little upset but driving in rain is better than driving in ice at least #im in a bit of a really strange introspective mood now that ive finally cleared the worst of the migraine #a lot of stuff has happened for me lately that i havent talked about on here at all just to a couple of close friends. #and im kind of. actively trying? to stop caring so much about telling people about things. #a couple weeks ago i did something that not a soul on earth knows. and they never will. and it was SO FREEING. #<- not anything bad or whatever just. a regular thing that happened that i didnt tell anyone about. #idk. im trying a lot more lately to worry less about sharing my life and more about just living it. its good i think. #youll probably still get luke. hyperspecific emotional/contemplative oversharing in the tags sometimes #but ive been doing a lot more things that im not telling anyone about. that exist just for me. and im gonna keep doing that. #.lyr

[astrxealis]

hiii :333 i think i am alive !! ( small update in da tags )

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #WOOOAGHHHHH HAVENT BEEN HERE IN AGES. WOW> #sorry guys im a straight a student in their senior year of hs... i have been enjoying real life ^_^ i miss it here tho. :( #will be active soon bcs school is gna end. fucking sobbing but we don't talk abt that #i am here instead of working on the uh. 2 group presentations i need to work on. and the 1 Solo presentation............. #which is crazy btw bcs it's a whole research event thing bcs im in stem ^_^ closing remarks heehaw. Just Me. #so i'm proud of myself & for better understanding myself lately but there is still sm i want to do!!! like On here <3 #in a much better headspace and life and etc. its good yay. #anyway hashtag wanna be an astrophysicist (a+ physics? ez. but also ive always loved math & astronomy) astronomer musician #author video game dev (future compsci student! or physics. still deciding.) uhhh psychologist philosopher blablabla phd one day #yay ^__________^ I MISS WRITING ON HERE THO and interacting w moots :P altho idrk how to get back into that shit #anywhere really but it's ok we find ways. man. i miss it here. before i get active again tho i should rlly makes lists to do and Fix stuff. #bye for now yay just a lil update from me !!! ^_^ it's been at least... 4 months? bcs i rmbr not properly saying happy new year on here HEL #raaaaaaaaaaaaa apollo is so back babaey the world is so beautiful & so am I. anyway. u all take care mwamwamwa

[wiredsmile]

i miss u guys sorry i disappeared again

#( mental health ?? idk her !!! ) #( fr tho ive just been really distracted lately & just ... havent had the time ) #( or energy to be here really despite hos much i miss suz & all of u + tumblr aesthetics for my writing. ) #( but discord has just been sm easier to manage .... ) #( sigh .... ) #̗̀ ♡⃗ 𝔬𝔲𝔱 𝔬𝔣 𝔠𝔥𝔞𝔯𝔞𝔠𝔱𝔢𝔯 | abi speaks ♡⃗.˳⁺⁎

[arrowsplayground]

if u saw me rb to the wrong blog no u didn’t

#/j #I HOPE YALL ENJOYED THE BIRDS. THEY WERE NOT MEANT TO GO HERE #tho that said i really should post on this blog again. i just havent been writing much lately #utmv hyperfixation kinda died out and im embarrassed by my current fandoms #i should do whump tho. i think i still have bthb?

[pepprs]

last few hours in boston :(

#purrs #conference tag #we literally just got here and now we have to go 😭💔 i havent rly felt as enriched by this conference as i have in the past (though there’s #still 2 more sessions to go to incl the closing plenary and we’re getting lunch in the station before the train ride home) but ive walked #around so much and have spent time with people i love and some people i miss. and have been on adventures i have been looking forward to for #a rly long time though i am kinda bummed i never made it down to fanueil square. but… idk what happiness feels like anymore but maybe for me #it’s just absence of misery and despair. or contented ness. i have gotten a little triggered from time to time these last few days and ive b #been lonely in my hotel room but MAN it has been nice to not be miserable and suffering and to take walks and to not go to every session (ev #even though i do feel bad abt it like i missed 2 plenaries and an afternoon concurrent session which is more than i usually miss) and to #be in this city which feels so much like brighton and so uncity like in some ways. it’s so charming and omg i went to harvard and it was #NOTHING like what i imagined it to be / feel like.. just a quaint artsy quirky town. and the rest of the places ive been have been like that #too. and people LIVE here every day!!!!! there’s a big beautiful world here both above ground and below!!!! and im gonna be late to #breakfast but… i just feel nourished and healed in a way i wasn’t expecting to. I haven’t been this far away from home in 3+ years and #it’s just been really nice being somewhere else and going on adventures and seeing things surviving. i miss my grandparents a lot and im sad #to not be visiting them and to be unable to visit them now lol but it’s just rly nice and special being here. im goingto miss it so much and #im trying to savor every second. i wish we had one more day here and im a little sad to be going home lol #* what i meant when talking about happiness earlier is that i think… i have been happy these last few days. for the first time in a really #really long one. and that’s nice. it’s good to be happy again. and good to be here

[britneyshakespeare]

im just gonna tmi-medication share in the tags real quick

#tales from diana #i want to preface this with i've been prescribed adderall as-needed for adhd for a fullllll decade now #don't come at me with anti-adderall or anti-adhd-medication bullshit im not here for it!! #but my health problems have been so bad and ive been getting the worst sleep of my life lately no matter WHAT i do #i can do everything right #and btw i do not take adderall every day. which is implied by as-needed but i want to stress again I DONT NEED IT EVERY DAY #only when i do like. work. which ive been doing less and less bc of health problems! #but even though i havent been able to physically work so much i still have been taking half-doses a couple times a week just to like. read. #just to have a brain to do ANYTHING when everything is so awful and my brain is so foggy #ive always *sometimes* cut my doses in half if im not doing so much. just to save it y'know. #and ive always also *occasionally* gotten worse or even a really bad night's sleep after taking adderall #most commonly i'll wake up absurdly early the next morning and not be able to fall back asleep #rationing sleep is always something ive been in the habit of doing anyway as a person w adhd. #sleeping 4-6 hours during the week and 10-12 hours on weekends. just to make up for the deprivation y'know. #but even lately cutting my regular dose in half. it's still too much. #my current dose btw is already half of what it was in high school! i decreased my dose already years ago #but yesterday i finally got the nerve to take. a damn quarter of my own pill #and i took the smaller quarter of the half i cut in half. #i was def taking less than 5mg of my damn medication #and i actually didnt sleep like complete shit! and i was also worried #it might not be so effective. #but it actually worked quite well. i had enough focus to read for several hours #i had energy throughout the day too #i sometimes try to do caffeine on days i cant/dont wanna take adderall but caffeine just does not do the addy things so effectively. iykyk. #i cant believe i have to be so skimpy w my own life-sustaining mental health medications just bc my physical health is so bad #but whatever. whatever! #im gonna take another quarter-dose today and finish pericles prince of tyre. have a great day everyone

[recklessmoss]

feeling myself steadily getting more stressed lately so i think it's best if i go on a social media break again and focus on myself and ko-fi things a lil. so discord for mutuals stands as usual but otherwise i'm prolly gonna make myself a lil unreachable for rn sorry!

#i'll respond to some dms i have here but otherwise yea #feeling a really bad mental toll on the fact that i've been having a bad burn out lately and havent been producing much of anything so yeah. #and i'm just all around in a shitty mood this past month and idk why and it bothers me to be honest. #anyways! yall have a great one I'll be around soonish once I have something to show

[tianhai03]

hey everyone. im not here to post art right now, i just have something on my mind that i kinda wanna ramble about, which i’ll put under a read more below bc its really long lol. i know this is kinda sudden but i promise its nothing serious. stick around if you’re somehow interested in listening to my ramblings, if not then thank you for reading this anyway, and thanks for all your continuous support :)

i cant remember the reason why anymore, but a couple minutes ago i felt like going through all the blogs ive followed on here. i only follow like 276 blogs if i remember correctly, it’s not much considering how i’ve been here since 2015. i probably felt like looking through it because i was reminded of an artist i follow here and i wanted to see if they’ve updated anything, i have no clue lol.

anyways i looked through the list, and i found a lot of artists ive followed since my early days in 2015, when i first started posting art. some i still remember fondly, some i have vague memories of, and others... i just dont recognize anymore. the only thing im sure of is that they were all artists i looked up to very much, artists who have also definitely motivated me to keep drawing just so i can be as good as them someday. im confident enough to say that ive gotten close to a lot of their levels already, and i am now very comfortable with drawing in a style that is uniquely my own. i have all these artists to thank for that.

but... another thing ive also realized is, most of them arent posting anymore. some have already stopped before i myself stopped tumblr briefly in around 2019, but a lot of them stopped at that exact same year. it makes me kinda sad, i remember looking forward to these artists’ drawings often, but a lot of them just kinda dipped out of existence 3 years ago, without other social medias that i can check to make sure theyre still around. it made me think about how hellish every year has been starting from 2019, it mightve only been 3 years but it sure felt like its been a decade. all i can do right now is hope that they’re still okay, somewhere in the world, still safe and still doing whatever they love.

and on the same note, i hope every single person who is still following me, who still constantly come up to this crumbling website, maybe even look forward to me posting my art; i hope you guys are doing well too. i know there are a lot of people who were from my old 2018 dmc days (since i came back to the fandom just half a year ago and a lot of people started checking up on me again), some of you guys were probably even from my earliest 2016 undertale days; whether you followed me 6 years ago or just today, i want to thank you guys, from the bottom of my heart, for always giving me kind support on the things i do. i am not joking when i said i wont be here right now if it werent for you guys. thank you so, so much.

#guess i just felt like getting sappy today. #im sorry if this makes anyone anxious; i promise i am totally okay and nothing bad is happening to me #it's just... sometimes you look back on your life to remember the things you've done that led to the life you have today #ive been doing that a lot lately. and i just wanted to talk about what ive thought about #i actually feel a lot better thinking about things like this. it reminds me of the reason why i started drawing in the first place #with how things have been lately especially with my own uni life; it gets so frustrating its very easy to forget why i liked drawing so much #but im not gonna forget about it now; even if i stop drawing someday i'll forever hold on to these memories #i probably sound like a broken record now but; genuinely; thanks for everything i really do appreciate it #allyrambles #long post #if youve read till here #through this long ass post ive been writing for over 30 minutes now #do me a favour and talk to a long time friend you have that you havent talked to in a while #yknow the ones. you were super close but then you just slowly stopped talking to each other? even though nothing bad happened? #do me a favour and just shoot them a message. a short one will do #even a little 'hey we havent talked in a while; just wanted to check up on you and make sure youre still okay' is enough #times are tough right now. it has been for the past 2 years for everyone #if you can do it; im sure it will brighten someone's day up; to know that theres someone out there who still cares #someone will appreciate the kindness #im gonna go now. this post has gotten way longer than i expected and its almost time for bed #i hope everyone has a decent day :) thanks again for reading #hopefully i dont regret this someday lol

[backslashdelta]

Might take a desperately needed Tumblr break ✌🏻

#I'm thinking a couple weeks starting tomorrow #I might pop on here and there but I think I'll try to give myself some space #just have a lot going on lately and feeling really overwhelmed #and this has been starting to feel too much like an obligation and I don't like that #I popped some things in my queue today though so at least there's that #I literally soent my entire afternoon trying to fill up queues for here plus gleesource and kba I am TIRED #also sorry to everyone who has tagged me in things lately but I haven't acknowledged them #my life is just a mess and I've seen things but just havent been able to respond #I do plan to come back to them eventually #and same to the asks in my ask box as well #ugh I just. I need a break so bad wow #can't believe I have to work tomorrow morning 😭 #mine #personal #I'll be back for the kba event for sure though #speaking of I still have so much I need to make for that U G H

[the-deadlock-south]

did i already talk about how surprised i am to find how much i like junkrat and hanzo’s interactions cause i’m surprised to find how much i like junkrat and hanzo’s interactions

#overwatch #overwatch 2 #tbh i mostly just think of that interaction where hanzo's upset and junkrats all :??? Whats Wrong :?? #and hanzo's just melancholy and 'thinking about what he's lost' and junkrat immediately just starts to think of shit #it's him going 'i have snacks !! you want some snacks ???' that makes me laugh but also has me like :')))) king :'')) #and i mean it might not be helping but it's the fact he's actually trying to make hanzo a little happier #even if it is in his own weird little ratboy ways it's sweet :') #their interaction where hanzo interrogates junkrat about his treasure gets me rolling every time too LMAO #speaking of treasure i love how when hanzo laments the loss of his inheritance junkrat just.... You Know Where The Loot Is Though Right... #BONUS FOR ROADHOG JUST BEING LIKE 'Shame :///' LIKE HE REALLY SAID 'could NEVER be me. i wouldve taken EVERYTHING' #but yeah im just surprised how much ive come to love them fellers- its not that i didnt like em before but the love's grown :) #i hope they get more interactions in OW2 ive been seeing people talk about them lately so maybe they did and i just havent seen em yet #heres to hoping hanzo gets more friends and junkrat continues being the little lovable weirdo that he is

[sonknuxadow]

Hiiiiii hello

#sorry for the inactivity and unanswered asks and things like that #i just have not been doing very well lately and havent been in the mood to do much of anything #i wont go into detail but these past 7 days have quite possibly been one of the Worst weeks of my entire life #but hopefully things will only get better from here. if september is not nicer to me than august was i will explode probably #maybe i will get back to flooding your dash with hedgehogs soon #also i know i dont owe anyone an explanation its not a big deal if i stop posting for a little bit etc etc #but im usually more active than this so i just wanted to make sure nobody thinks i died or something #ummm i dont really know how to tag vent-y posts sorry if anyone doesnt wanna see stuff like this

[rexscanonwife]

I may be a depressed mess lately but I still have my love for Rex and star wars as a whole tbh 🥺💖💖

#brie babbles #vent #i know i havent been really present lately #honestly sometimes i feel like a ghost and im sorry about that #ive just been so. worn down honestly #a bunch of life stuff like work and rent and shit things that no one can really help with #so im just dealing as best i can #i really really hope it eases up soon #cause i do wanna be active again and i wanna draw and post more!! #i have so much to say still #and my love for rex will always be here 💖💖💖 #and my love for kepler and for anakin and ahsoka and obi-wan!!