#i honestly believe mars attacks shaped me as a person

[steadymongerbatscissors]

Leo Valdez And His Mistreatment

Recently I have taken some time to go back to some books and reread them for the hell of it. One of these books being the Heroes of Olympus series. Now the Heroes of Olympus series has been my favorites series overall yeah I know people think its worse than the others but I just honestly prefer the multiple point of views. Of course some characters could do with some fleshing out like Jason,Piper,Frank,and Hazel. My personal favorite of all the characters was Leo Valdez mostly because I though his fire powers were cool and he was a surprisingly deep character compared to fellow new characters.

But while reading I noticed multiple facets of his character that I felt did not need to be added or needed to be expanded on and this post I will tell you them all.

His Powers

I’m starting with his powers because that was the main thing that drew me in and in my believe sort of made Leo the person he was in the books. I mean without his fire powers he wouldn’t have accidentally killed his mother therefore never being an orphan and meeting Jason and Piper. This all say nothing about his frayed mental state.

So there pretty important but while also being important they are pretty inconsistent.

What I mean is that when Leo first uses his powers he had been purposefully not using them since he was 8 years old. This gives off the impression that has major control over his fire powers to supremes them for so long. Yet when they are on the bridge to the Wind God’s palace in the sky he suddenly loses control even though he realistically should have not done that since he had already shown he has major control over his power and wouldn’t suddenly lose control just cause he got excited.

Another problem his powers have is that they are supposedly super dangerous yet the only thing he does is throw a couple fireballs towards monsters and that’s it. Well except for when he somehow learns to nuke Gaea with his fire powers.

Wait what?

He learns to nuke somebody!

You see how his powers are super inconsistent. Like how do we go from fireballs to fire nuking a primordial goddess.

This problem seems to only exist for Leo since we get see Hazel get over her tragedy and control her powers to a far more powerful degree,Piper gets to hone her charm-speak so when she makes Gaea go to sleep it makes sense,and finally Frank multiple times throughout the series get to show off his shape shifting and how strong it is. So why does Leo never get this treatment cause we never see him actually hone his power and develop new ability’s from it.

Like your telling me the guy whose dad is the god of fire never once threw Greek fire out of his hands even though he is supposed to be the special fire guy.

His Appearance

Allow me to read you this passage describing how Leo looks.

“Leo looked like a Latino Santa’s elf, with curly black hair, pointy ears, a cheerful, babyish face, and a mischievous smile that told you right away this guy should not be trusted around matches or sharp objects. His long, nimble fingers wouldn’t stop moving—drumming on the seat, sweeping his hair behind his ears, fiddling with the buttons of his army fatigue jacket. Either the kid was naturally hyper or he was hopped up on enough sugar and caffeine to give a heart attack to a water buffalo”

To put the description simply he is described as ugly and extremely hyperactive.

I don’t understand why Rick wrote him that way because why does the outsider of the seven have to be the ugly and can’t sit still.

It’s not like any of the other characters are described as ugly unless their Frank before Mars blessing. Rick has Hazel literally think that Percy is a Greek God. Piper is the daughter of the goddess of love. Annabeth is described as a princess implying prettiness. Hell it’s not even kept to just the seven, Will Solace (the character with no personality trait aside from being a doctor and loving Nico) is described as being hot by Nico.

So like why does it seem that Leo Valdez is the only character described as ugly and hyperactive. Hell it doesn’t even make sense that Leo doesn’t have a little muscle considering he’s a mechanic and mechanics have to lift heavy shit all the time like realistically Leo would have a decent amount of muscle.

Note:Expanding on his hyper-activeness, we know that demigods ADHD helps them react to monster attack better and Annabeth describes Leo as extremely ADHD so wouldn’t that just mean that Leo would have like spider-sense and dodge extremely well.

His Character Connections

Why does everybody seem to hate Leo or at the very least try to avoid speaking with him. Like for real half way through the series Jason,and Piper completely stop hanging out with him. The only interaction they have after the Lost Hero is them going to Asclepius to make the Physician’s Cure.

Rick tried to have Hazel and Leo be friends because she knew his Grandfather or something but that is so flimsy. Frank hates Leo from the jump even though he started the beef by asking Leo if he was Sammy and getting mad every time Leo looked at Hazel. Yet there the ones he confides his whole plan to beat Gaea.

Percy is yet another person who doesn’t like Leo even though they are the basically the same person in different fonts. Annabeth seems to dislike having Leo aboard the Argo with the rest of the seven because she has no problem making fun of Leo in her mind by mocking him cause of his ADHD but then again that’s a bigger problem with Annabeth’s character than their relationship.

The only thing that seems to like having Leo around is Festus the dragon who Leo rebuilt after accidentally destroying him in their first quest.

I don’t care what you say just because Calypso insults Leo a little. It doesn’t mean that she hates him because she actually care like she really fucking cares.

So to recap Leo only has two people that genuinely like being around him and seven friends who put up with him and don’t really want him around.

Compares this to the main character of the last prophecy I.E Percy. Everybody likes Percy even people who realistically shouldn’t like him like him. Like your Reyna the girl who lost a home and was put on a pirate ship thanks to Percy had a crush on him just because he was a decent fighter. Yes right I call bullcrap.

Small Problem

Leo Valdez is a character who throughout the series has a lot of problems in his character. One problem is his treatment towards or more accurately why does Rick write Leo to be incredibly disrespectful even though he himself acknowledges how it was for his mom to get a good job just cause she is a women. One scene that I think emphasizes this problem is when the trio of the Lost Hero book meets the Hunters of Artemis. Now your expecting that since Leo himself saw how hard it was for mother just cause she was women would be extremely respectful towards the Hunters especially Jason’s sister Thalia. But nope he goes right up to Thalia and just says she’s hot to her face like come on Rick your contradicting yourself. Then in Trials of Apollo Rick has Reyna teach Leo about respecting women no like come on Leo since childhood should have know to respect women. I know you might be saying that’s just the persona he uses around people but like that doesn’t change the fact he should have already knew not to do that thanks to his mother.

Conclusion

In conclusion Leo Valdez is a character who could have been treated far better by the story,author,and the people inside the story. He is a wonderful character who in universe only has two people that genuinely want him around and deserved to have his powers explored more than just fireball. But sadly he is riddled with holes that shouldn’t be there if you actually look at his character.

#leo valdez #jason grace #piper mclean #reyna avila ramirez arellano #percy jackson #annabeth chase #frank zhang #hazel levesque #thalia grace #heroes of olympus #percy jackon and the olympians #rick riordan #long post #like fr Leo should have had insane fire power to really drive home how dangerous he is #like bro could actually murder somebody #caleo #pro caleo #calypso #trials of apollo #reyna ramirez arellano

[the-apples-were-monitored]

mars attacks is such a silly movie but it taught us all that the real power of music is that no matter how terrible a song is it’s still valid because even terrible music can save the world

#i honestly believe mars attacks shaped me as a person #i've seen it so many times #my girlfriend watched it with me yesterday and was like 'this explains so much about you' #mars attacks! #tim burton

[higuchimon]

[fanfic] Plans To Avenge

Camula swept into Haou's throne room, tilting her head in greeting.  Tearstains still marred her features but she'd made an effort to be presentable.  She wanted to ensure that Haou took her seriously.  Her rage had only grown over the few days that passed since she'd discovered Ruthven's demise.  Only now it had hardened into a spike of ice centered on her heart.

"Lady Camula,"  Haou greeted her, bending his own head slightly.  "A pleasure to see you again.  Have the years been kind?" 

She knew as well as he did that this was nothing more than empty courtesy.  She knew he wasn't the soft little boy that she'd first met in Celestia's realm all those years earlier.  She wasn't the idealistic teen she'd been then, either.  But this was as close to friendship as she thought herself capable of with a human - if Haou, the incarnate Darkness of Destruction, could even be said to be human.  He did bear the form of one for now, of course.  But that was musings for another day.

"They were, for a while,"  she admitted, taking the seat he gestured her to.  A quick glance around showed her that the years had indeed been kind to him - or he had ripped what he wanted from others.  She knew which was more likely, since he'd come into his power and his true nature.  The room wasn't very large, but the floor and walls were marble, softened only by rugs and tapestries of costly weave and materials, all in shades of dark reds and blacks, his favored colors.  She'd come by past dark, so there wasn't any sunlight in here.  Silver spheres of light hunt from the ceiling and set on the walls to illuminate the area.  One guard stood by each of the three doors. 

Perhaps in deference to their long years of having known one another, Haou wasn't visibly armed beyond his deck.  She respected that, and had done the same, as best she could.  Frequently a vampire could be considered a weapon all on their own.

One eyebrow quirked up on Haou.  "Yes, I had heard of your wedding to Ruthven.  I wish that I'd been able to attend.  But I was otherwise occupied."

So she'd heard - being a gladiator for Brron.  She'd not quite believed all the tales she'd heard during the years between their first meeting and now.  But if they were true, then he was exactly what and who she needed.

"But no longer.  When I returned home a few days ago, I discovered -"  Camula's voice broke off, a lump of tears lodging itself in her throat.  Her fingers dug into the arms of her chair and she pressed her lips together, fighting to get the words out.  "Ruthven - Ruthven is dead."  Her heart spasmed, knives of pain stabbing into her each time she had to think about what she'd found.  "I found him in our home.  None of the servants saw anything or anyone.  There were no traces of magic."

Haou leaned forward, his sharp eyes softening just the tiniest bit.  She doubted that anyone else would have seen that from him.  "Were there any other signs?"

She shook her head.  "It was as if he simply dropped dead.  But he couldn't have.  He had his duel disk on him.  Someone dueled him and he died."  Her fingers tightened harder, digging into the chair.  "I've never heard of such a thing.  Not a wound on him.  As if simply fell over dead."

Haou considered quietly, before he nodded towards her.  "You want my help to find who did this." 

There wasn't any way that she could have disagreed with this, even if she'd wanted to.  She nodded.  "In return, what do you wish of me?"

He leaned back now, head tilted upward, eyes closed as he considered for a few endless moments.  Then he said, "Eventually I am going to require your help.  You have heard of this little 'rebellion' that some of the survivors of my attacks have begun to form?"

She had.  It hadn't meant much of anything to her.  Humans were humans and how they ordered their lives and realms wasn't of much interest to those of the vampire persuasion.  It would all settle itself out sooner or later.

"I have been researching them - learning what they're like.  To see if any of them are worth standing in my army."  He chuckled a little at some thought she didn't know.  "There is one in particular that interests me, but that's not who I speak of now.  The one I am thinking of - perhaps you've heard of him?  Marufuji Ryou - the Hell Kaiser."

Camula's eyes narrowed for a breath. "Yes, I've heard of him."  She'd almost fed on his little brother a year or two earlier.  He'd driven her off, and she'd itched for the chance to avenge the slight ever since. 

"He is proud.  Very proud."  Haou spoke the words as if they were mildly offensive to him.  "I think he doesn't fear death.  So should the need and the opportunity ever arise, I have a fate planned for him that is worse than death, by his standards." 

Camula knew something of how Haou thought.  He wouldn't have brought this up if he hadn't wanted a particular talent of hers - hers or any vampire.  "You want me to turn him."

"In time.  He's not important enough yet for me to send you after him.  I have quite a few other matters to deal with before I wish to deal with him."  Haou drummed his fingers lightly.  "But I will have all of my servants search for anyone who may have murdered your beloved and when that person is found, you will be allowed to exact whatever vengeance you desire upon them."

Camula's heart didn't quiver, quite, but she smiled a fraction of a smile.  She hadn't felt relaxed or at ease or anything but endless rage since the moment she'd discovered Ruthven's body.  Not even giving him the proper rites had eased her fury.  This didn't either.  But it came at least a little close to it.

"Thank you, Haou-sama,"  she declared, bending her head once again, the deeper gesture that one who had pledged their loyalty to a higher power made. 

"I will have quarters set aside for you here, but you may come and go as you please,"  Haou told her.  "And I would like to introduce you to the Fallen Angels.  They are my closest allies."

Camula nodded slightly.  So she'd heard - that Fallen Angel Lucifer himself had sired Juudai, and he had been stolen as a baby from their care.  Tensions had been tight for years between Celestia's realm and that of the Fallen Angels due to that, but very little had come of it.  Celestia's armies, mages, and allies made certain of that.  Until Haou came into his power and everything had gone downhill from there.

At least for Celestia.

Dismissed, she departed to be escorted to her new quarters.  They were deep within the castle, far from any hint of sunlight.  Such a thing would not have harmed her, but the light did burn at her eyes, and she'd never been fond of it.  Haou clearly knew that very well, and she remained grateful for that.  She settled down in a chair and stared down at the ring on her left hand.

She would not take it off, no matter what.  She'd pledged her heart and soul to Ruthven and she would never regard another in the same fashion.  Slowly she closed her hand.

I will find the one who killed you.  And I will have my revenge.

Haou tried not to laugh.  He wasn't very good at it, but he managed to keep most of his mirth under control.  He'd honestly not expected his efforts to work out so well.  But they had, and the first steps to his future plans were taken.

Lucifer chuckled softly as he entered the room.  "I could feel your mirth as soon as I entered. What's amused you so, my son?"

Haou leaned back, grinning as widely as his lips could manage.  "Camula came to pledge herself to me.  She wants my help in finding whoever it is that murdered her husband Ruthven."

One finely crafted eyebrow flickered upward.  "Is that so?"

"I told her that I would help but I would want her assistance for whenever I should actually capture Marufuji Ryou."  Haou didn't really expect that to happen for quite a while, if ever.  He would have to either set out to do it himself - far more trouble than it was worth right now - or Marufuji would make some kind of drastic error to fall into Haou's hands.  A bit more likely but from what he knew of the other, it wasn't completely impossible. 

Lucifer chuckled at that.  "Fascinating.  I look forward to meeting her."  He settled into his chair, taking out his deck and regarding it for a few moments.  Haou smirked slowly.

"A duel later?"  He suggested.  Both of them did need to keep in shape - and Camula would never know who had truly done the deed.

The End

Notes: Juudai didn’t know that he’d eventually capture Johan and that would lead to Ryou coming to find him, which led to Ryou being revealed, captured, tortured, and turned. But he had plans for just about all of his enemies.

Also, I can’t ever decide between Camula and Haou as my favorite villain, so I wrote something for both of them!

#fanfic #higuchimon writes #ygo gx #gxmonth2021 #camula #yuuki juudai #haou #au: reversal

[lyranova]

A Fractured Diamond

Episode 5: The Escape

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So I have no excuses for this chapter. It’s very bad and I can’t defend it at all. The next one will be better i hope, but this chapter made me so angry that I decided to take a break from this series for a few days. I apologize profousley and maybe you all will enjoy it?

Word Count: 2,893

Warnings: Violence and Language

“ Eva...You ok…”

Neva frowned slightly, that voice sounded so far away, she felt like she was sinking further and further into a sea of darkness. She couldn’t breathe, she couldn’t struggle, all she could do was lie there as it slowly pulled her under.

“ Wake up...Neva...you have to wake up!” There that voice was again, it was calling to her, beckoning her to come towards it, a part of her didn’t want too. But the other side knew she had people that were relying on her, that needed her help now! So she opened her eyes and began to swim out of the darkness the best she could.

Neva couldn’t stop the small moan of pain from escaping her lips, she was hurting like hell. Her head, her back, and especially her stomach were about to do her in. But she felt a warmth envelope her and she opened her eyes to see Mimosa using her recovery spell, she looked around and noticed her Diamond protection spell was gone and replaced by a shell of water.

“ Oh good you’re awake! How are you feeling?” Mimosa asked, her happiness clear on her face. ‘So that was the voice I heard.’ Neva thought as she tried to sit up before wincing and laying back down. “ Stay still, you were hurt pretty badly! But luckily you’re almost healed so you’ll be ok soon.” Mimosa added.

Neva looked and noticed that the silver haired girl, Noelle she believed her name was, was standing in front of them with what appeared to be a magic item in her hand. She instantly frowned, so she was a water mage? That annoyed Neva actually, she knew the reason why it annoyed her, but kept it to herself for now. Neva then looked past the girl and her eyes widened.

Yuno and his friend, Asta, were currently fighting the mystery soldier. She sat up and, like the others, watched the fight in awe. She heard Noelle say something about Asta being able to nullify magic and her eyebrows raised in surprise. Neva had never even heard of that kind of magic existing before! It was quite interesting. She rolled her eyes as Klaus began trying to belittle them. Again.

“ Will you just shut up and be grateful they were here to help us?!” Neva finally snapped, causing all but Asta and Yuno to look at her in surprise. She blushed and rubbed her neck nervously. She hadn’t meant to snap, but she wasn’t going to apologize for it either. Luckily what she had said shut Klaus up, for a while at least, and they continued watching the fight unfold.

When Neva thought they had finally gotten the upper hand the mysterious man, Mars, she thought she heard Asta call him, decided to use one of his major spells. A giant suit made of crystals, that moved! She paled considerably, she couldn’t make anything like that in her wildest dreams! Let alone be able to move something that big! It made her realize how weak she truly was, and how much she still needed to learn.

‘There’s no way we’ll be able to be that! No way!’ Her mind screamed, but she was proven wrong as she watched them swiftly defeat Mars and his little crystal dolls stopped moving. She watched as Noelle removed her protective spell and she quickly stood up, but she made sure to stay on guard in case the dolls decided to attack again.

“ This treasure belongs to the Clover Kingdom!” She suddenly heard Asta shout, she couldn’t help the small laugh that escaped her lips. Even though he took one hell of a beating he still somehow managed to stay positive, she had to admit, it was quite inspiring.

“ You’re correct on that I will admit,” Klaus said suddenly before he bound Mars using his restraining spell. “ But it was the Golden Dawn who recovered the treasure, so this victory belongs to us.” Klaus added smugly, Neva frowned. ‘Seriously?! You want to bring up that petty bet now?!’ She couldn’t help but think with a shake of her head.

“ Great. Now they’re arguing.” She muttered to herself as she watched Klaus and Asta argue over how to enter the dungeon, she heard someone walk up next to her and she glanced over her shoulder to see Yuno.

“ Hey, you ok?” He asked in concern, she blushed a little, not really used to someone other than the Captain being so concerned about her. She shuffled her feet nervously before nodding.

“ Y-Yeah, I’m ok. Honestly I’m just really sore, but Mimosa’s recovery spell really helped.” Neva muttered, she noticed he still had that concerned look on his face and she smirked before placing a hand on his shoulder. “ Don’t look so worried, it’ll age you.” She teased before they were suddenly called by the others.

“ We figured out a way to get through thanks to Luck.” Noelle said before nodding to the young blonde boy beside her, Neva noticed her hair stand up as though there were static in the air.

“ How?” Yuno asked before crossing his arms, Asta smirked before rushing forward and breaking what appeared to be a magical barrier with his blade. Everyone couldn’t help but be amazed by it.

“ Impressive.” Neva muttered before walking inside the treasure room with the others, she had to admit she wondered what was inside here that was so valuable that both the Clover Kingdom and the Diamond Kingdom wanted it.

——-

Neva had to admit, she wasn’t sure this was what she was expecting.

A room full of gold, jewels, and valuable treasure? She had initially thought that maybe it was just a magic item that was being held in here, but after seeing this, she realized why both kingdoms wanted this treasure. Hell, she even wanted this treasure, and she wasn’t even a greedy person! She looked at the others and noticed they were just as amazed as she was about this. Neva decided this was the best time to explore and see what all was hidden in this place. Apparently the others were thinking the same as they all dispersed and began digging through the small mountains of treasure. ‘Maybe I’ll find a magic item that’ll make my diamond stronger, like that Mars guys!’ Neva thought as she began digging through the gold.

‘But, do you really want to be like him though?’ That little voice in her head told her, she stopped her search and frowned as it continued. ‘I mean, his magic is scary and dangerous, he enjoys hurting people with it. I mean, sure it’s cool and powerful. But do you truly want to be that kind of person?’ The voice questioned, Neva shook her head, of course she didn’t want to be that kind of person. But after seeing how his crystal magic was stronger than her diamond one, it made her angry, very angry.

‘I don’t want to be like him no, but how else am I going to protect everyone when I’m not strong enough to even defeat someone with a similar magic to mine?!’ Neva argued, that was the whole problem; she wanted to be able to beat someone who had a similar magic to hers. She had watched Yuno defeat another wind mage easily, Mimosa too, and even Klaus. They were all able to defeat enemies with the same affinity, and yet she couldn’t. It was almost embarrassing.

“ Hey, Neva right? Did you find anything interesting?” Noelle asked as she walked over, Neva blinked before looking up at the girl, her eyes narrowed. She seemed to like the girl so far, but her magic, that was a different story.

“ Nope. Not at all.” Neva said rather coldly, causing Noelle to jump a bit and make her own eyes narrow.

“ Geez sorry I asked.” She muttered before walking away, Neva let out a small sigh before going back to looking through the gold. When she suddenly felt a surge of mana come from the back of the room, she looked around the pile and her eyes widened.

Yuno was glowing. Literally. His grimoire and whatever object he was holding were glowing this bright green, Neva stood up and walked over to him as he returned to normal, but he had a confused look on his face.

“ What was that all about?” She asked him, he shook his head and held out the scroll to her.

“ I’m not sure, I picked this up and it had some writing on it in a language I couldn’t understand. But now it’s vanished.” He told her confused, she took the scroll and looked over it herself. It was completely blank. She made a ‘hm’ sound before finally handing it back to Yuno.

“ Hang on to it. Maybe Captain Vangeance can tell us what exactly this was.” Yuno nodded before placing the scroll in his robe. When suddenly they heard Luck shout.

“ Guys watch out!” But it was too late, Klaus, Yuno, and Luck himself were suddenly surrounded by crystal. Neva’s eyes widened before she quickly made a dagger out of diamond, as she went to try and cut Yuno free she froze. There was no way she’d be able to cut him out without hurting him. ‘Dammit!’ She turned to face Mars and she blinked.

“ He can use fire too?!” She shouted without meaning too, the others looked just as surprised as she was. “ Great. Now my magic is really useless.” She added as she walked forward a bit in front of Yuno so she could at least try and protect him.

“ What do you mean?” Noelle asked as she held her magic item tightly in her hand, Neva sighed.

“ Well, my Diamonds are made of carbon. Carbon burns. So if he has an offensive fire spell, he can burn my diamond which will cause a toxic gas to fill the air, and if I try to use my ‘diamond shell’ to protect us, he will literally cook us alive because diamonds are actually a good heat conductor.” Neva explained, she noticed everyone looked very confused at her explanation and she sighed. “ Nevermind its science stuff.” She muttered before preparing for the fight ahead.

——-

Things were not going as great as they could’ve been.

Noelle was severely injured, Asta wasn’t in great shape as he was knocked through a wall, Neva herself was pretty banged up, and the others were still locked in their crystal prisons. Neva had been trying to use her ‘Diamond Palisade’ to at least buy Mimosa some time to heal Noelle, but he kept breaking through them. Neva began to pant, she was getting exhausted.

“ Had enough yet?” He mocked as he continued to heal himself with his flame magic. Neva smirked, this entire time she had been watching Asta and the others not give up, so why should she even though she was exhausted?

“ Heh. Sorry, but I don’t think so.” She scoffed before closing her eyes. “ Paragon Armor: Effervescent Stage!” She shouted suddenly, this would use all the mana she had left. The armor was a product of a year’s worth of training, she hadn’t been able to test it out in a real battle though, so she wasn’t really sure how well it’d hold up.

“ So now you’re getting serious.” Neva smirked before suddenly sprinting forward. She suddenly appeared on Mars’s right side and she smirked, apparently he wasn’t quite expecting this. She quickly landed a punch to his face before sprinting again and clocking him on the other side.

This was the reason she loved this version of her armor. It allowed her to be quick and agile enough that she could easily block and dodge attacks if needed, but it also allowed her to land multiple punches in short succession. She had to admit, she was very happy at how she was able to take him by surprise and actually land a few punches. That was, until he grabbed her by the ankle when she went to kick him across the face. Her face paled while he smirked.

“ So predictable.” Was all Mars said before he threw her across the room. Neva heard multiple shouts as she landed in front of Mimosa and Noelle, her armor shattering in the process.

“ Neva!” She heard Mimosa shout, Neva was able to get on her knees and she shook her head.

“ I’m alright Mimosa, but I’m out of magic power. There’s nothing i can do.” Neva told her weakly as Mars approached them, they were screwed and they all knew it. She could hear the boys struggling to get out of their bonds and she smiled sadly, this was it for them, this was where they all died. Neva closed her eyes in acceptance, she didn’t want to watch as Mars sliced them in two.

But it never came.

Neva’s head shot up as she saw Asta suddenly appear in front of them ready to protect them, and she felt a huge gust of wind fly past her and hit Mars. She turned her head and her eyes widened, Yuno was able to break out of his bonds, but what was that next to him? Was it a fairy? She squinted her eyes to try and get a better look but couldn’t really tell. Neva watched as Yuno and Asta quickly ran at Mars and began to fight.

It was funny, their fighting styles were different, their personalities were different, and yet they were surprisingly well matched. Neva couldn’t help but admire their teamwork as she watched them, it truly was amazing that a boy who held no magic power at all, and one who seemed to be blessed by it could be so well in sync.

‘Finally! It’s over!’ Neva thought as they defeated Mars once and for all, she sighed in relief and the others cheered, she watched the crystal that held Luck and Klaus finally disappear. After a small exchange between Yuno and Asta, Noelle ordered Mimosa to heal him.

“ You don’t have to Mimosa, I'm fine!” Asta tried to argue but Neva shook her head.

“ No you’re not. Just do what they say, it’s a lot easier than to argue.” Neva told him, he nodded and let Mimosa begin to heal his wounds. Yuno walked over to her and held out his hand.

“ Can you stand?” He asked her softly, she nodded and took his hand. She noted how surprisingly soft it was, ‘Wait why are you paying attention to that kind of stuff?!’ Her mind shouted at her, she shook her head and tried to hide the small blush that crept onto her face.

“ Yeah, thanks.” She muttered before the room began to shake. “ Are you kidding me?!” She shouted before Yuno let go of her hand and created a small wind vessel for them.

“ Let’s get out of here.” Yuno said as they all climbed onto it, he turned to Neva. “ Do you have any magic power left?” She frowned for a bit.

“ I might have a little that's built back up, why?” She asked in confusion, it wouldn’t be able to make anything really strong.

“ Can you make a small cover above us? So that way if any debris falls it won’t kill us?” He asked and she nodded as she made a small diamond cover that floated above them.

———

Neva had never been so happy to be outside in her life! She wasn’t the only one who felt that way, since Mimosa and Noelle both had similar looks on their faces as well. They were able to make it out alive, barely at least.

“ Woo! That was an adrenaline rush huh?” Mimosa said with a small laugh, Neva and Noelle nodded in agreement.

“ The next time the Captain sends us out on a mission like this, I might just decline.” Neva laughed.

“ Yeah I won’t be as lucky with my captain.” Noelle said almost sadly before she seemed to look past Neva’s shoulders with raised eyebrows, she turned to loo and her eyes did the same.

Klaus was hugging both Yuno and Asta, apologizing for how he was treating them the way he had. Neva’s face softened and a true, genuine smile appeared on her face. She heard a small gasp next to her and looked to see Mimosa staring at her.

“ You’re smiling! I don’t think I’ve seen you smile even once in these couple of months that we’ve worked together!” She exclaimed in surprise before the others came over.

“ She’s right, I think it’s the first time I’ve seen you smile as well!” Klaus said as he pushed up his glasses, Neva quickly frowned.

“ I’ve smiled before!” She argued but Yuno shook his head as well.

“ No, I don’t think so.” He agreed with the others, and Neva couldn’t help but huff and cross her arms.

“ W-Whatever! Let’s just go home!” Neva said as she turned on her heels and began to walk away, she couldn’t believe her squad was teasing her about her smiling!

——

I apologize for the poor ending and I know I didn’t describe what her armor looks like and thats because I don’t really know myself, its gone through at least three changes, maybe I’ll try and draw an idea up or something. But maybe you guys enjoyed it, and i apologize if you didn’t! Hope you all have a good day~!

#a fractured diamond #oc neva #black clover #black clover fanfiction #black clover oc #i apologize it isn’t very good #episode 5

[octopusunoreverse]

Little white lies

Little white lies is a magazine created with the sole aim of capturing and reviewing movies through out the year normally printing 4 times a year quarterly, though the magazine has become more well known for its independent ethos and iconic, striking illustrative covers created by a new artists each time, deadicating its front section to upcoming theatrical release.

Sin City Issue 2 - Jul/Aug 2005   this one was one of the first early covers that stood out to me, reminiscent of early grunge comic styles used for the gritty Noir/Action graphic novels, fitting for the fact that the movie itself is based of the Sin city comics, the difference for this is that the artist for this cover has taken the features form the actor to then blend it with the style used for comics; heavy sett shadows sonf light shown but blacking out the ares where the shadows are completely in black and leaving the background showing through to show where the light hits, but they still show a lot of texture in the face by using what I can assume is almost like a dry brush texture, roughing up the face  implanting the idea that this character is ether rough character or dangerous, the artist also hints at the story itself with smaller type and illustration shown in the form of tattoos hidden under the layers of grime and of what I would assume are plasters, I do like the white negative look off it.

Marie Antoinette Issue 8 - Oct/Nov 2006  I personally like this one because the vibrant colours, hinting most likely to her more risky and existing life before she became romantic heroine that we know now in history, though its nice to at least learn more about the various females throughout history as there stores are normally erased or twisted, so for a historical drama I believe it works well, the one single figure of Marie Antoinette by herself standing out against the flat black background, making the character of Antoinette the main visual point of the illustration, because she is, looking at the portrait itself, id assume they took a image of the actor in their costume and thresholded it and then they most likely multiplied the layer so that they could then drawn underneath, similar to the techniques in the pen tool workshop.

Control Issue 13 - Sep/Oct 2007  the cover for this one I like the monochrome colours and black used, it gives this feeling of hollow pared along side the mood the thresholded image of the actor, I particularly enjoy the typography the font strong and bold in its shapes has these spirals exploding, visually interpreting it as them loosing control which I thinks works very well for a  sci-fi mystery thriller film, so meany lose ends left unsolved. the colour palette as I said before is monochrome which I think is a interesting handle on a typical cover the highlighting the character with lighter colours showing the characters important and stands out against the simple darker colour background and text.

Let the Right One In Issue 22 - Mar/Apr 2009 This Swedish romantic horror film reinvented vampier in the love film, because lets be honest most vampire movie suck, the artist took one of the iconic scenes from the movie and beautify painted it with water colours and pencil/graphite, the iconic light eyes of the character shine through as the, watercolour blood drips down her face ones again reminiscent to the movie itself, I like the use of the hair being used to silhouette  the face, the position/placement of the face itself it feels like its looking directly into your soul almost.

An Education Issue 25 - Sep/Oct 2009 I think this is a brilliant depiction of a coming of age movie, straight away introducing you to the main character, the bright pink hue, brilliantly used to show off the innocences of the character themselves, and that is pushed by the limited about of skin showing. the illustration itself seems to of been done with gouache paints considering the smoothness of the colours working together on the page, the hair, nose and eyes are my favourite, especially with the eyes and nose they have so much detail, you can see the youth in the eyes and the realistic look of them works so well and I love how the artist has used just shadow and light to detail the nose, and I like the hair personally because of the way they got light to reflect onto it as well as how it looks so soft and neat it looked.

Where the Wild Things Are Issue 26 - Nov/Dec 2009 I wanted to personally wanted to look at this issue was because it relates to the movie/book that I am looking at now, I think this is a brilliant concept for the movie I personally love the childish simple drawing, reminding me of childish drawings, and I like the idea of the ‘wild things’ climbing from in Max’s mouth, I think this is brilliant due to the fact that Max has problems of acting out in such a wild way. it also relates to the original poster for the movie ‘there is one in all of us’, I like the use of the colours are quite depressing in itself, but in the realistic view of the movie where in the ‘real’ world the character maxi is struggling with the divorce of his family.

Attack the BlockIssue 34 - Mar/Apr 2011 This one stood out to me both because of the colour pallet and the style of the outline. The outline themselves reminds me primarily of the linocuts, I think it shows the mystery and the lack of empathy for there assailants and how the gang themselves blend together when the character is all one colour. I personally loved the background/the sky it has beautiful speckles of stars and meteorite shower. I don’t particularly understand the Artists use of smoke, id have to assume that it has a impact or relevance to the story itself but it beautify shapes that fit with the Lino style.

Call me by your name  - issue 71- Sep/Oct 2017 I particularly like this illustration for this coming-of-age romantic drama film, though I personally don’t like cinematic worlds use of age gaps between their gay romantic relationships. but this particularly artistic interpretation, the oil pastils drawing dose defiantly scream coming of age movie and it also dose make me think of the link that combines with the main character being half Italian, the background flows but also seems to be pulled away from the page, maybe because of the fact that there is less gaps in the foreground, I also like there use of lighting its done well to be presented coming from the right side of the page. But the type that they used to show the title docent fit for the rest of the image, naturally I believe that the artists probably wanted to remove from the original type from the movie poster.

The miseducation of Cameron post Issue 76 - Aug/Sep/Oct 2018 I believe that this depiction of their movie, the colour used for the face is a direct reference to the film poster the yellows, green  and pinks. the background gives away so much for the movie and the elements and its relationships with the story of being sent to a conversion camp, and the coping methods that one turns to. The expression on there face is a well done illustration of Chloë Grace Moretz, I honestly recognised her straight away without knowing that it was her in the movie; back to the expression itself shows so much betray, sadness and heartbreak all in one, its an expression that is shown through out the film a common apparition.

isle of dogs - Issue 74 - Mar/Apr 2018  I personally loved this movie, the entire stile used in the cover in the magazine is in the same style used throughout the movie itself, the movie used these 2D elements through out the stop animation. the posters show off so meany aspects of the movie the setting of the movie ‘the isle of dogs’ the science group trying to find a cure for the ‘dog flu’ it hints to the open scenes that were done in the original Japanese style. This is a common aspect in this imagery it has little elements of the story dotted around this.

[hungline]

the first and, hopefully, the last

pairings: junghope, minor namyoonjin  genre: fluff, teenagers au, rated t  warnings: mentions of weed, underage smoking  words: 2000 

summary: Hoseok is seventeen years old, has known Jeongguk ever since the bunny-looking kid was born, and he has never been kissed. Luckily, his dongsaeng knows exactly what to do. 

“I can’t believe you’ve never been ki-” Jeongguk’s outburst was cut off when Hoseok clamped his hand down over the younger’s mouth.

“You don’t have to announce this to the whole world, Gukkie-ah,” Hoseok hissed, looking around warily as the other kids at the skatepark slowly looked away and returned to what they’d been doing beforehand.

Jeongguk struggled a bit to pry Hoseok’s hand off his mouth, and when he finally managed it, he kept his voice low in order to appease the elder. “Hyung, it’s nothing to be ashamed of. I don’t know why you’re acting like this.”

“It’s just embarrassing, alright?” Hoseok sighed, ducking his head as a group of sophomore girls walked past, giggling and shooting the two boys looks as they did. “It’s not like I really have a ton of options to choose from when it comes this anyways.”

“Because you’re as straight as a curly fry, hyung?”

“Precisely.”

Jeongguk laughed. “Look, hyung, it’s not like you’re the only gay guy in the entire world. Once you go off to the university, I’m sure you’ll be kissing dozens of guys.”

Hoseok hunched in on himself further. “What if I’m not good at it?”

“Good at what? Kissing?” Jeongguk chuckled. “Hyung, I’m sure that doesn’t matter.”

“And how would you know?” Hoseok asked, his voice marred with irritation. “It’s not like you’ve kissed anyboーoh my god, you have! Why didn’t you tell me before?”

The younger boy laughed nervously, scratching the back of his neck awkwardly as he did. “I didn’t think it was important news to share, hyung.”

And suddenly Hoseok was invading the younger’s personal space, like he usually did when he wanted a clear answer from Jeongguk. “Why? Did the kiss not go as planned?”

Jeongguk felt his face flush, because yes, the kiss hadn’t gone like he’d planned at all and he was barely at the stage where he could look Seokjin in the eyes again without wanting to vomit. To be fair, Jeongguk hadn’t really been in the right state of mind when he’d kissed his hyung. He had looted Jimin’s weed stash an hour before and when he stumbled downstairs to see Jimin’s older brother present, he’d been absolutely baked. He didn’t have a clue as to what had happened until Seokjin was pushing him away with a frightened look on his face because god damn it, Jeongguk was a fucking minor and Seokjin was barely a year over age and he had that weird thing going on between him, Yoongi, and Namjoon. And fuck, Yoongi was going to murder him when he found out that Jeongguk had kissed one of his boyfriendsーor whatever the hell they were since every time anyone asked, Seokjin would vehemently deny that he was dating neither Namjoon nor Yoongi.

So when Jeongguk had cleared his head, he returned to fervently apologize to Yoongi first before he begged for forgiveness from his other two hyungs, Namjoon and Seokjin. All three had easily dismissed it and Jeongguk breathed a little easier. Still, his first kiss wasn’t something he really wanted to share with Hoseok, his longest and closest friend. Hoseok had been in Jeongguk’s life ever since the younger was born (both their parents had the baby pictures to prove it) and it had really only been recently that Jeongguk realized he was crushing big time on his hyung.

“Hello! Earth to Gukk-ah!” Hoseok’s hand waved in front of the younger’s face, drawing his attention back to the present and to the gangly, long limbed dancer beside him.

Jeongguk blushed. “Sorry, hyung. I was just remembering it and yeah, it was pretty lousy for my first kiss.”

“And why was that?”

“I had no idea what was I doing,” Jeongguk twisted his fingers together anxiously.

“See! That’s what I mean!” Hoseok’s outburst surprised the younger. “I don’t know how to kiss. What if I screw up my first time and the guy never wants to see me again?”

And while Jeongguk’s heart twisted painfully at the thought of Hoseok kissing another boy, his gut clenched when he saw just how much this was bothering his hyung.

“Then he wasn’t worth your time to begin with, hyung,” Jeongguk sniffed, not really comprehending how someone could want to never see Hoseok again because he didn’t know how to kiss.

Didn’t everything else about the elder make up for it? Didn’t the way that when Hoseok blushed or laughed too hard, and his whole face turned a light shade of red, the freckle on his cupid’s bow became more apparent make up for the elder not knowing how to kiss? Didn’t the way he seemed to levitate off the ground thanks to his feather light footsteps make up for it too? And didn’t the way that Hoseok looked so cute when he wore his thick-framed glasses because he’d forgotten to get more contacts make up for it? Or didn’t the way that Hoseok had the kindest heart Jeongguk had ever seen do the trick? Didn’t Hoseok being a complete and total angel in both appearance and personality level out the fact that he didn’t know how to kiss? Hoseok was amazing, regardless of whether he could kiss properly or not. But if it really bothered the elder that much, then Jeongguk supposed he could just teach his hyung how to kiss. It was for Hoseok’s sake, after all. Definitely not his own. Nope, not all. Jeongguk was solely going to do this for the elder and totally not for himself. Yep, all for his hyung.

“I could show you how,” Jeongguk muttered aloud, before he could change his mind about his decision.

“Show me what, Gukkie-ah?” Hoseok asked, leaning into Jeongguk’s personal space again to hear the younger better.

Here goes nothing, Jeongguk gulped.

“How to kiss. I could teach you how to kiss, hyung,” Jeongguk said, his throat dry, hands sweaty, and body cold as he did.

“And how would we go about doing that? You teaching me, I mean,” Hoseok pondered.

Jeongguk visibly swallowed, wiping his hands on his shorts as he spoke. “Well, we could kiss until you get it right, hyung.”

Hoseok arched a brow at that. “And what if I never learn how to kiss someone properly, Gukkie-ah?”

“Then I guess you’d be stuck kissing me for the rest of you life, hyung. And I’m sure that isn’t what you want.” Jeongguk bit his lip because it was exactly what he wanted, to have Hoseok as his for a very long time, kissing the elder whenever he wanted, holding hands and going on silly dates together as a couple and not just as best friends.

“I don’t know. I think kissing you for the rest of my life wouldn’t really be that bad.”

“What?”

Hoseok laughed as he caught sight of the younger’s expression. “Oh, come on, Jeongguk-ah. You’re not a bad catch. You’re funny, you’re sweet, you’re very supportive, and you’re cute too. You’re my best friend and I don’t really think that anybody who got the chance to kiss you for the rest of their life would be upset with the fact. Honestly, Gukkie-ah. I thought you were smart.”

Jeongguk was five shades of tomato red and was surprised he hadn’t spontaneously combusted yet because Jung Hoseok had just said he wouldn’t mind kissing him for the rest of his life and then had praised him afterwards. Him. Jeon Jeongguk, the knobbly, bunny-looking kid with a weird haircut, mild acne, zero social skills, and was really only decent at dancing and sometimes, on the most rarest of occasions, singing. He was average-looking, he wasn’t as handsome as his hyung, but that was fine. No one was as handsome as Jung Hoseok, save for G-Dragon, but that wasn’t the point. The point was that Hoseok wasn’t all too opposed to the idea of kissing Jeongguk and Jeongguk had probably died because this just had to be heaven and Hoseok really was the angel that the younger had always thought he might be.

“So do I kiss you or do you kiss me?” Hoseok asked.

Jeongguk sputtered. “Here?”

Hoseok shrugged. “We’re best friends. It’s not like it matters if others see us kiss, Gukkie-ah. Some people already think we’re dating and it’s not like they’re wrong.”

“What? Who thinks that?” Jeongguk was at a loss with the income of the new information that Hoseok was giving him. “But hyung, we aren’t dating. We’re just best friends.”

Just best friends. Nothing more and nothing less. The thought made Jeongguk’s heart thump painfully in his chest.

The elder just chuckled and beamed at Jeongguk, gifting him with that megawatt smile of his that outshined the very sun. “Jeongguk-ah. We are not just best friends. I’ve known you since you were born and yeah, at first, you were like a brother to me, but now…it’s different. I don’t see you like a little brother nor as just a friend.”

“Hyung, what are you saying?”

“I, Jung Hoseok, like you, Jeon Jeongguk,” the elder smiled. “So can I kiss you now or what?”

Jeongguk nodded. Of course he did. Why would he tell the elder no when kissing Hoseok had been something he’d wanted for the longest time? And then Hoseok’s face was close enough to his own that Jeongguk went cross-eyed trying to look at him and then holy fuck. Fucking hell. Jeongguk just had to be dead. Dead or dreaming because Hoseok was kissing him. Jung Hoseok was fucking kissing him and the elder’s heart-shaped lips against his own were so goddamn soft and warm and Jeongguk was practically melting. Their kiss was sweet and gentle, just lips against lips, but Jeongguk heard both of their breaths hitching anyways.

Then Hoseok pulled away and Jeongguk felt warm all over because holy shit. Jung-motherfucking-Hoseok had just kissed him. Kissed him after confessing to him. And alright, maybe Hoseok wasn’t perfect. He had strong mood swings, sporadic anxiety attacks, and sometimes severe bouts of depression when he felt he wasn’t good enough. But that was fine. It was all okay. Nobody was perfect and Jeongguk had gone through a lot with the elder. It was fine if they went through more challenging things together in the future. It was cool because Jeongguk wanted to go through more things together. Hoseok was an angel and Jeongguk was smitten.

“Hyung, I like you too.”

“I know, Gukkie-ah. I’ve always known.”

Hoseok pulled Jeongguk into his lap. The younger felt his face flush when he realized that the other kids were staring at them again.

“Hyung.”

“Hm?”

“People are staring.”

“Let them. They’re jealous cause you have such a handsome and amazing boyfriend that they will never have.”

“Boyfriend?” Jeongguk asked, but then he laughed because holy fuck was Hoseok conceited. “I wouldn’t say amazing. Your kissing skills still need work, hyung.”

“Oh, yeah? Yours aren’t great either, y’know. I bet Seokjin-hyung cringed when you kissed him.”

“You knew?”

“Obviously. Seokjin-hyung apologized for it when he came to see me awhile ago. He, and everyone else, thought we were dating.”

“Why didn’t you say anything?” Jeongguk asked as he tucked his head into the curve of Hoseok’s neck.

“I wanted to wait until you were ready to tell me how you got fucked up and baked like a goddamned cake after rifling through Jiminnie’s stash and then tried to stick your tongue down Seokjin-hyung’s throat afterwards.” The elder grinned a fond smile that the embarrassed and mortified Jeongguk couldn’t see. “In other news though, I guess I’ll just have to keep kissing you until I get it right. Even if it takes an entire lifetime.”

And so, they did just that. Their lips grazed against one another gently in a way that set Jeongguk’s veins on fire. He smiled against the elder’s lips, so inexplicably happy that he just couldn’t stop grinning.

Jeongguk was certain he’d finally found his own personal heaven, courtesy of the angel named Jung Hoseok.

#junghope #hopekook #junghopenetwork #bangtan bookclub #kwordsmiths #btsguild #betareadernet #bts #fluff #p:hoseok/jeongguk #f:tf&htl #m: fic

[suwhat]

This is my gemsona Sardonyx! I used @astrotheology ‘s gemsona bio for her bio which is under the read more:

Also I’m open to suggestions and questions, so like if you think there is anything I should change about her or you have a question about her please let me know!

Name/Type of gem: Sardonyx (a type of agate)

Shape of gem: See above

Gem location: Right shoulder (sorry I couldn't figure out how to put her gem on her)

Weapon: Side-handle baton. When shes fighting she usually summons two of them. 

Any special powers?: She has excellent strength and stamina, and she can store things in her gem. (Not sure if all gems can store stuff in their gems because we've only seen Pearl store stuff in her gem so I’m just gonna presume it's a special ability)

Hair color: Apricot that gets darker at the ends.

Eye color: A dark red-brown

Haircut: Same as Holly Blue Agate (I think that all Agates naturally share the same hairstyle unless they choose to change their hairstyle)

Clothing: Same as Holly Blue’s but it has Sardonyx’s color scheme and has a yellow diamond instead of blue.

Any appearance quirks?: She wears white gloves that go a little past her wrists. Also when she is alone or with gems that she trusts, she changes the yellow diamond into a pink diamond.

Personality: She acts cold and distant to strangers and to gems she doesn't trust. She acts much more warmer when she’s with her subordinates. She’s strict and expects the best from her subordinates, but she isn't cruel. She bends the rules sometimes and does understands that gems do make mistakes. She cares about the gems that are under her command and she bases her decisions on what's best for her and them. She is a bit impulsive, like going on rescue missions without a plan on how shes gonna rescue them. She is also stubborn, refusing to give up on her goals and constantly questioning YD decisions (mostly behind YD’s back but she has questioned YD face-to-face. That’s why she and the others have been stationed at an outpost near the outskirts of YD’s empire. Homeworld is running low on Agates so that's why she wasn't bubbled or shattered). She’s a bit of a wet towel and has trouble with tasks that require creativity. She is genuinely scared of the Diamond Authority, and that is one of the very few things keeping her and her subordinates from leaving Homeworld’s galaxy. That's all I can think of for now.

Morality: Is this like a alignment chart thing? Then I would say she’s either True Neutral or Chaotic Neutral.

Likes: Her subordinates, Space, Pink Diamond, sparring with other gems, flying spaceships, her outpost, reading info logs, Onyx (another Agate due to the distance between their outposts they don’t get to see each other in person but they do chat with each other using communicators), Mars, and she is interested in technology (she has a soft spot for the robonoids).

Dislikes: Yellow Diamond (and her decisions, especially keeping the other Rose Quartzs bubbled), Rose Quartz, the Crystal Gems, the Diamond authority (she is scared of them as well), and (the fusion) Sardonyx.

Are they from Homeworld or Earth? Why?: She emerged on a planet that is located in Homeworld’s galaxy. She wasn't there long, but she remembers it being a red and dusty planet. The planet was later abandoned due to the low resources on it. Mars reminds her a lot of her home, that's why she likes it so much.

Rose Quartz or Diamond Authority? Why?: Pink Diamond. She is loyal to her only (even though she does know much about her). She hates Rose for starting the war and shattering her diamond. She hates the diamonds because of their unneeded cruelty and because YD had the other Rose Quartzs bubbled.

Role in war: She was a warrant officer of a platoon that had 30 gems in it. By the end of the war she had lost half of them. The 15 surviving gems are now her subordinates. She is also one of the few Agates that survived the war. Around half of the Agates who participated in the war were killed (usually by their own soldiers because of how cruel they were to them) or were captured by the CGs.

Do they know the Crystal Gems? How?: Yes. She fought against them in the war. She hated Rose for shattering PD, and she hated how Rose was too much of a coward to take the fight to homeworld. She hates Pearl and Garnet because of their fusion Sardonyx. She believes Sardonyx is a mockery of other Agates like her and she also blames her for the loss of her soldiers (Because of CG Sardonyx, Sardonyx was forced to retreat and she wasn’t able to go back to try and find her soldiers gemstones).

Do they know any other gems on the show? How?: Jasper is one of her subordinates, she knew Jasper needed some form of closure and that's why she allowed Jasper to go on the mission to check on the Cluster. She refuses to believe that Jasper is dead and that Jasper is still on Earth.  She is vaguely aware of Lapis and Peridot (she read the mission report before letting Jasper go) but she has never met them. The Rubies are recent additions (due to their streak of failing their missions) to her outpost. Eyeball asked her about Jasper and then the next day a Roaming Eye was taken and the five Rubies went mission. Sardonyx has not told anyone about the Rubies because she honestly can’t blame them for trying to go rescue Jasper. If she wasn’t needed at the outpost, she would have tried to rescue Jasper the moment she heard that she was stranded.

Could or would they join the Crystal Gems?: No, she might agree with some of their ideals, but she truly believes that the CGs are cowards and extremely cruel for a group that calls themselves heros. This belief has only strengthen because of what the Rubies have told her. 

Does your gem have any relationships with other gems?: She is the officer of a group consisting of 20 gems. The group is made out of 3 Jaspers (including canon Jasper), 5 Rubies (the Ruby Squad), 5 Morganites, 5 Carnelians, and two Cherry quartzs (in reality they are both Rose Quartzs. Sardonyx hid them in her gem after the Diamonds commanded that all Rose Quartzs needed to be captured and bubbled. She then lied on her report that the two were captured by the CGs and that she found two Cherry Quartzs in the Beta Kindergarten). She is also in a long distance relationship with a Onyx, but due to the large distance between their stations they rarely see each other.

Backstory: Not really a backstory but this is how she would fit into cannon. The Ruby Squad return to her station and tell her everything. Sardonyx and some of her soldiers (one of them being a rose quartz since RQs are designed to be medics), the Rubies stay behind cause after drifting through space alone and having near death experiences shook them all up to say the least. 

They arrive on Earth at the Strawberry battlefield, and they decide to stay there so they can figure out a plan of attack. The Crystal Gems hear reports of alien sightings at the battlefield, and decide to investigate. Pearl, Garnet, Amethyst, and Steven warp there and they find Sardonyx and the others. Of course a battle ensues, but unluckily for the CGs, Sardonyx brought several gem destabilizers with her. They manage to poof everyone except for Steven. 

Steven panics and summons a bubble around him, and the other Rose Quartz realizes that he has a Rose Quartz gem. Sardonyx and the others refuse to believe Steven is The Rose Quartz, and they think that he’s a Rose Quartz that emerged after the war. Sardonyx doesn’t want him to risk him getting bubbled with the other Rose Quartzs, so she takes him. They fly off before the CGs reform, and they stay in Earth’s orbit trying to figure out where The Rose Quartz is. That’s all I have so far. 

Anything else to add?: Sardonyx refuses to believe that Steven is The Rose Quartz, even after he summoned his shield and showed that he can heal other gems.  

#gemsona stats sheet #gemsona #long post #su oc #gem oc

[self-fulfilling-prophet]

Mass Effect: Andromeda 30 Day Countdown Ryder Meme

I’ve been super distracted with moving and the shit with my car, so here have a giant info dump for my Ryder(s). Day 15-9

15 Days: Delve into the Ryder family background - how is/was their relationship with their father, sibling and mother? Do they get along, hero worship, close twin connection, sibling rivalry, was it strained, was it distant, etc.

OH BOY ITS A GOOD THING I ALREADY HAVE A POST ABOUT THIS SAVED IN MY DRAFTS. I HOPE YOU ARE READY FOR THIS. (Note: I am very torn between good relationship with Alec (I’m very close with my dad, so the alternative is foreign to me?) and what we saw in the first 13 min preview of the very gruff, strict, standoffish military dad. So I’m building all of this with a grain of salt, as canon may knock it all down.)

Before their father got promoted and basically made it big in the military, they were dirt poor. Scott got braces and it pretty much broke the bank. Sara wore glasses, and by that time laser eye treatment is pretty common place, but they couldn’t even afford that. Being poor+ military brats that moved a lot = unpopular young Ryder twins. It also didn’t help that they were brilliant kids which glasses + braces = GIANT NERDS to the other kids. Scott and Sara were always super close because of this.

Scott was the poster boy for the miracle of puberty. Super awkward with his braces and a bad case of acne. But by the end of the Ryder twins junior year, suddenly he was a total hottie? Sara is confused and also jealous. Girls who made fun of the both of them were suddenly asking to be introduced to her brother. Scott blossomed with his new popularity, while Sara stayed the shy bookish girl. She still got teased and bullied, but god forbid Scott find out because he would BEAT YO ASS. Boy will laugh anything off unless Sara is involved.

Both twins are super genius level smart though, not just Sara. Sara is good at physical sciences (esp biology and chem), english, psychology, and humanities. Everyone thought she was going to be a doctor, and was super surprised when she announced she was enlisting. Scott is better at physics, math, and engineering. He also has a weirdly good memory when it comes to history and dates. (whether or not he recognizes the importance of said events or even cares is another matter) The Alliance wept tears of joy when he enlisted as an engineer.

Their father did everything he could to promote his kids education, which he saw as the most important thing. He trained them in self-defense since they were young, but started them on a specialized regimen based on his N7 training when they were a bit older.

It was actually Sara’s idea; Scott had been getting into a lot of trouble at and outside of school, and poor Alec was super stressed from work already. Sara insisted it was because Scott was bored at school and not being challenged enough. She suggested Alec give Scott some special one on one training. Alec agreed. For a while, it was just Alec and Scott, but after coming home from a few late night training sessions to find dinner already made, Scott realized how lonely Sara must have been by herself. So he swallowed his pride and insisted Sara be included too. Sara didn’t enjoy the training quite like Scott, but she did enjoy the strange “family time” together. (It’s either that, or when Sara first mentioned the idea, Alec insisted that Sara receive training too. She didn’t really want it, but she did as dad said.)

It isn’t until they both enlist that they realize quite how big of a deal their dad is. They always knew, but they didn’t KNOW. Sara is proud to be her father’s daughter, and just wants to make him proud (and not embarrass him). Scott is proud as well, but after countless comparisons to his dad, he starts to grow a little resentful of his father’s success. He goes from worshiping his father to wanting to escape Alec’s shadow and make a name for himself.

Training and being stationed for the Alliance was the first time Sara and Scott had been separated for an extended period of time. It was really tough on them both (though Scott tried to hide it). They chat and send messages as much as possible, with Sara still mothering Scott despite him being on a totally different planet.

There hasn’t been any word about the twins mom yet (HMMM SUSPICIOUS, WHAT IS THIS ABOUT RYDER FAMILY SECRETS HMMMMMM?????), so I don’t want to go building up a too serious headcanon yet, only to have it totally destroyed by canon. But my general thought is that she was a scientist that was working on the AI SAM with Alec. She died when the twins were fairly young. Alec became a lot more distant after, throwing himself into his work on SAM. No one would ever say it to his face, but a lot of people think he is using the Andromeda Initiative to escape his past/memories of his wife.

Also, something I’ve been thinking about lately: Are the twins Alec’s only children? Do they have siblings? (I don’t headcanon that they do, but who knows?)

14 Days: Describe some important or formative events in Ryder’s history. How did these impact and shape them?

-I’ve already talked about how being poor has made at least Sara thrifty and constantly worry about money, and how being bullied made Sara more shy and Scott both hate bullies and also be more protective of Sara. I imagine if their mother DID die when they were young, Sara would have stepped into a motherly role with both her father and brother. Alec never acknowledges it, and Scott only does in indirect ways (helping out with chores, making sure to thank Sara when she cooked, etc). ((One year he got her a mother’s day card. He meant it as a joke, since she constantly mothered him, but she got really emotional and absolutely loved it, thinking he meant it for real. He felt so bad, he never told her the truth. But he gets her a card every year now.))

The only other situation I can think of that is formative is one for Scott, even though it technically happened to Sara. The twins always walked home from school together, but Scott was a horny teenager, and he wanted to stay late at school to “hang out” with a girl. Sara wasn’t happy, but she started home by herself. On the way home, she was attacked by a group of thugs. She already had a few years of Alec’s training under her belt, so she was able to fight them off, but she did get a little beat up. Alec of course chose that day to come home early from work. Scott got home a bit later, and Alec immediately questioned why he wasn’t with his sister. Before Scott had a chance to reply, Sara covered for him, saying that Scott stayed late for a group project, and that she volunteered to go home alone. Alec was hesitant to believe her, but Sara never lied, so he let it go. After that, Scott made a point to make sure she was never alone when she was out, and became extremely protective of her. It also basically cemented his loyalty and friendship to his sister as the one person he could trust above all others.

13 Days: Why did Ryder join the Alliance military? Later on, what were Ryder’s reasons for signing up to the Andromeda Initiative? Were they seeking adventure (or glory, or a challenge), wanting a new start, running from something, following their family, trying to secure a future for humanity, did they simply feel railroaded into it, etc.

-For Scott, it was an easy choice. He idolized his father, and being surrounded by the Alliance his whole life, he couldn’t see himself doing anything else. He was chomping at the bit to enlist, having dreamed of being a soldier like his dad ever since he could remember. Sara’s reasons are a little more complicated. Even she isn’t 100% sure why she did it. Part of it is because of her father’s position. It was an easy in, and she grew up with people expecting both twins to at least consider following in their father’s footsteps. Part of it was also her being cost-conscious for her future. She knew she wanted to go to college and potentially study to be a doctor, and the Alliance had great education plans to help her do just that. There was also the subtle fear of separation and abandonment she had. She was scared that if both her father and brother were in the Alliance and she wasn’t, the distance between her and them would get bigger and bigger, until they were practically strangers.

- When Alec tells them that he plans to depart on the Andromeda Initiative, and invites them along, Scott and Sara have very different reactions. Scott is all for it; the chance for the great adventure and glory he hasn’t been able to get stationed on Arcturus. Sara honestly doesn’t want to go. She likes working with the scientists on Mars, and she is content with her life as it is. BUT, the idea of being left behind, of never seeing her family again? THAT is far worse than the uncertainty of traveling to Andromeda.

12 Days: How will Ryder feel upon waking up from cryo? Relieved, excited, scared, impatient to get going, lost, etc.

-(FIRST 13 MINS SPOILERS BELOW) At first Sara was relieved, mixed in with some disbelief and nervousness. She WOKE UP, which was good. It was a bit too much to wrap her head around the fact that they were in ANOTHER GALAXY at first. But then it was the fact that THEY WERE IN ANOTHER GALAXY. AND SHE WAS GOING TO HAVE TO HELP FIND A WHOLE LOT OF PEOPLE A NEW HOME. Not to say she wasn’t excited, but the nerves were very loud. When they crashed, Scott’s pod was damaged, and they found out their “golden world” wasn’t so golden, things got serious really fast, and that only upped her nerves. She was determined to do her best though, her thoughts with Scott the entire time.

-Scott is SO EXCITED. SO EXCITED. Like, golden retriever puppy excited. Here it is, his grand adventure! He was so excited to go exploring with Sara, dad, and the rest of the team!

And then they crashed, Sara’s pod got damaged, and his grand adventure turned very serious very very quickly. It was a bit like having a balloon popped, but Scott is committed to taking care of those still on the ship, especially his sister. He was still going to have his adventure, but it won’t be quite the happy, enjoyable, family trip he was expecting.

11 Days: Once in Andromeda, what are Ryder’s goals? What drives them?

-Sara’s main concern is making sure everyone on the Arc and Nexus are safe and find a sustainable home. There are a lot of people relying on her, and it’s a responsibility she does not take lightly. On a lighter note, she wants to learn everything she can about Andromeda, as everything about it fascinates her.

-Scott came out to have a good time, and is feeling so attacked right now. But honestly, he is committed to being a good pathfinder and finding a new home, though he may not be as serious as Sara on the surface. He just wants to ENJOY himself as he explores. That’s not too much to ask for, is it?

10 Days: Will Ryder ever miss the Milky Way? What things and places will they miss most?

-Sara absolutely does. She left behind a lot of friends, and a life she really enjoyed. She tries not to think about the fact that most everyone she knew is dead now, thanks to cryostasis and the traveling.

-Scott, on the other hand, honestly doesn’t miss much. He had a few friends, and he does miss them, but he wasn’t super close to anyone. He misses places more than people or things. The mountains their dad would take them hiking in. Those spots on the Citadel only someone who was born and raised there would know about. But he has new friends and new places to explore now.

9 Days: Did Ryder have any notable friends or connections in the Milky Way? How about past relationships? Which friendship or relationship was the most significant to them?

-Sara became quite good friends with the Prothean scientists she worked with. She found it nice not being the only “nerd” around, and not worry about what they thought of her. Scott made a few friends on Arcturus, but they were mostly “Wow this sucks, our commanding officer sucks, etc” complaining together because they were in the same boat kinda friends. I also headcanon that they both are probably close with some of the higher ups in the Alliance due to their dad (like calling a high ranking officer “uncle”), but that’s another “lets make sure canon doesn’t destroy the fledgling idea first”.

#mass effect #me Andromeda #mea #meacountdown #look ive been thinking about my Ryders for like at least 2 months #im trying not to get too attached to any headcanons but i cant help it #I WILL FIGHT CANON

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Save Me, I’m Drowning in Myself (A Non-Fiction Essay)

Her pulse stopped. Samantha used some type of hand-gun, and it was apparently a gruesome sight. The police came to my house on October 27, 2008 to notify my mother that my 14-year-old sister committed suicide. Her full name was Samantha Lynn Bell, but she preferred Sam or Sammy. I can’t explain what thoughts ran through her head, though she left a note that she could’ve been written years ago, for all I know. I can’t know or explain her thoughts, but I can say with unfortunate confidence that I know why she chose to sink rather than swim. Everyone has a lighthouse, but hers was as dysfunctional and dark as the sea in which she swam.

Trying to understand my family was like trying to find the shore in the middle of the dysfunctional, dark ocean. It wasn’t going to happen. Ever. My two oldest sisters share a father, then there’s Samantha’s father and finally mine. Sam loved her dad and was neutral towards our sisters’ dad. As for mine, all I can say is that she hated him- or so I thought. I remember the attempts she made to get away from our mother and my father. She ran away from home a few times and she hid in her room or stayed at friends’ houses until things got better.

As we both came to learn, running away doesn’t fix anything and often makes things worse, but dodging them doesn’t do any good either. My father was a problem we couldn’t run from or dodge. Both resulted in some form of abuse. Both of our parents were borderline alcoholics and did drugs. We hated them and, to this day, I find that I will put my parents’ pictures face down. I do it because I still hold resentment for them and what they did to us. I don’t remember it clearly, but I found the entry in Sam’s diary.  This entry unlocked the safe where I hid the memory and it became as clear as daylight.

“Dear Journal, Tonight, what can I say? Oh, I know where to start. Well, first Mitch shows up and decides to yell at mom… Mitch, he needs to control his temper…September 2005, or around there, Mitch shows up right after work, he got off early, and comes here mad as hell… he decides he is going to take it out on mom… the following happens in domino effect: yelling, name-calling, breaking dishes, and damaging the furniture, throwing mom onto a chair, not allowing her to move, making her let him spit all over her face, and using language that I never even knew existed. Later, I snuck the phone into me and Tayler’s room and hid it in my headboard. After lying in bed and listening to him beat my mother up and trying to keep Tayler calm, I hear a huge bang from downstairs that causes the house to shake.

“Next, I give Tayler the phone… I creep downstairs and catch a glimpse of mom on the ground and Mitch yelling and spitting on her non-stop. (Did I mention all the furniture is turned over and glasses are broken?) Quickly after seeing that, I grab a near-by umbrella (just in case) and he turns around because I bump some video tapes. Next thing I know, he jumps at me, takes the umbrella, and swings it toward me asking me if I was going to hit him with it. I say no and he lunges at me again and I run… Next [Mitch] just stops everything and screeches down the road going a hundred miles per hour. Next me, mom, and Tayler sit on mom’s bed, almost in tears, and try to comfort each other. Things like this had happened all my life, but it never got that bad.

Sincerely, Samantha Bell”

We all hated the fear my father brought to our lives and sometimes we hated him as a person.  People can change, but he wasn’t proving that. Honestly, I started to lose my faith in humanity. My mom would just sit there and take whatever he threw at her, which is why my faith was hanging by a thread. Sam felt like she was the problem in our family, but the drugs were changing our parents. She knew they were users. Later, she went to live with her dad, but he had no clue how to raise a teenaged girl. She felt like there was nowhere she fit in, so she decided to stop taking up space.

“Dear God, I bet it is hard for you to love all of everybody in the world. There are only four people in our family and I can never do it. Nan”

That is a thought that I share with Nan. When I was little, I thought my parents were the best. As I got older, I developed a fear of my parents. I resented the explosive dynamic they encouraged and them. Children aren’t supposed to be afraid of their parents, but they should be afraid of punishments.

Sam was one of the few things that I didn’t fear. I believed in her as my all-powerful force, but the ‘real’ all powerful force left me skeptical. I thought if God was real, He would relieve, or end, all the pain and fear of my early childhood. God heard my prayers. He chose a permanent and gradual solution. Slowly, unto my knowledge, my parents were dying and so was my sister. Sam’s death was the ‘solution’ to her problems, not mine.

My dad died of heart failure and my mother died of colon cancer. She refused to lose me, though she didn’t think that through. She knew the doctors would find out that she was a recovering drug addict and send the Department of Human Services (DHS) to take me away. We had already had DHS called on my parents for the Intimate Partner Violence (IPV) incidents. I believe my parents were excellent actors because they only received warnings. If DHS would have done something more than warnings, I don’t think I would feel so damaged.

I was a very timid child, but I still had a thorough curiosity about everything. I was convinced that there was something wrong with me and, so far, I’ve been right. Apparently, “depression, suicidal behaviors, anxiety, fear, phobias, insomnia, tics, bed-wetting, and low self-esteem” are problems that I shouldn’t have had. Unfortunately, the only one I have gotten over is the bed-wetting (Fantuzzo/Mohr, 27). I was afraid and suspicious of everyone, no exceptions. What kept me going was my lighthouse; my aunt had a lamp shaped like one. It lit a halo above her head as she slept with me, a child afraid of the dark. I loved her and still do, but she could only protect me for so long and only do so much.

Only the parents can prevent children from experiencing IPV.  Some cases of IPV start even before a child is born, when they’re in utero, and then the child may be scarred for life. “Infants who hear or see unresolved angry conflict or witness a parent being hurt may show symptoms of PTSD, including eating problems, sleep disturbances, lack of typical responses to adults and loss of previously acquired developmental skills” (Carpenter/Stacks).

These symptoms don’t simply disappear as the child gets older either. These develop into the two categories, internal and external behavior problems, and have symptoms like “social withdrawal, increased arousal, hyper-vigilance, exaggerated startle response, and sleep difficulties” (Carpenter/Stacks). I believe that kids with external behavior problems are better off. They take all their aggression and push it out through tantrums and sometimes fights (Fantuzzo/Mohr). I know I shouldn’t encourage bullying.  It’s hard not to when I know what the other side of the coin is like. From what I researched and experienced of the two, it’s easier to go to anger management classes than to a psychiatric hospital.

The children who develop in these violent homes have no idea that they’re damaged, they only know that they’re different from a majority of their peers.  Internal children, children with symptoms of internal behavior problems, are left in a dark room, where there is no furniture or light, and everything is a monster. Meanwhile, External children are in pit of snakes where everything is a threat and either has to be taken down or the children themselves get taken down. Both are always looking for a way out. They don’t realize that, they just do it. It’s called hope. Sadly, neither will ever find that blinding light called the sun because where they are, the sun can’t reach. Most people call it Hell, but the real Hell is inside the mind, where even their own thoughts seem to be attacking them.

These children never know that their parents are lurking in that darkness they trapped the children and themselves in. That ignorance makes them resent their parents for getting to be in the light. No one gets out unless someone intervenes and cuts through the darkness with the light from their lighthouse. Even if it’s possible, it can takes years for anyone to conjure up a light bright enough to cut through bulletproof darkness.

Social Services and experts should continue their studies and create awareness, but nothing will change with awareness alone. Children need to recognize and understand what they’re experiencing. Sam understood and she chose a different way to escape the pain. I hope no one else tries it because it’s not fair to those of us who are left behind. Those who are, often blame themselves. They hate everyone and everything even more or they stop trusting people.

I was one of the kids who felt responsible for the death of someone who gave up a minute too soon. Maybe we’re too young or have been hurt too much, but neither Nan nor I can grasp how to love the ones who hurt us. There are still lingering symptoms and thoughts that complicate my life, but I don’t struggle with things like bed-wetting anymore. That simple fact gives me hope. Someday we can all finally be illuminated in the beams of lighthouses. Then, we can use our own lights to shine on others to let them know it’ll all be over someday. Every ocean and sea has a shore and where there’s land, there’s people waiting.

Works Cited

Bell, Samantha Lynn. Personal journal. November 18, 2005.

Carpenter, Georgia L., and Ann M. Stacks. "Developmental Effects of Exposure to Intimate Partner Violence in Early Childhood:." Children and Youth Services Review 31.8 (2009): 831-39. 25 Mar. 2009. Web. Feb.-Mar. 2013.

Fantuzzo, John W., and Wanda K. Mohr. "Prevalence and Effects of Child Exposure to Domestic Violence." JSTOR. ITHAKA, Winter 1999. Web. 06 Mar. 2013.

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