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How I See You/ 2

Pairing- Yoongi x Named Reader

Word count- 5.3k

Includes- Angst, marking, fingering, oral, pussy eating, cum swallowing, missionary sex, love making, squirting, multiple orgasms, fluff

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Two days later

Yoongi POV

Standing in front of her apartment door, I breathe in then ring the bell, hoping she won't slam the door in my face when she sees it's me

She should

I let her get hurt, I let Mia scream at her, say those things to her, threaten her

I didn't check to see if she was ok

I know she was bleeding but I didn't do anything but hold Mia back

I let her get in her car and drive away, not knowing if she was in any condition to drive

I'm a horrible person

So if she tells me to fuck off, I deserve it

The lock turning takes me out of my thoughts and I hold my breath, so scared

The door opens and she's there, looking at me in bewilderment

"Yoongi?", she asks, sticking her head out and looking in the hallway, "Is uh...is Mia here?"

I shake my head, whispering, "No Jo"

I'm trying hard not to break down as I look at her

Her left eye is black and blue and she has a huge bandage on her right temple

This is my fault

She was hurt because of me

Because I just left her that night we were together, because I avoided her calls, her texts

If I just answered her she wouldn't have come to my house and she wouldn't be hurt

"Uh Yoongi? What...uh...do you need something?"

"Can I come in?", I ask

Hesitation fills her face, "I uh...I don't think that's a good idea. I don't want Mia coming after me. I'm not really able to fight right now"

I shake my head, "I'm not with Mia anymore"

"Huh?"

"I broke up with Mia. She'll never hurt you again. I swear"

She blinks, "You broke up...why?"

"I..I can explain. Can I come in?", I ask again

"Uh, yeah, ok", she nods, stepping back, letting me in

She closes the door then I follow her to the couch where it looks like she was laying with the blankets and pillows

She sits, turning the TV off as I sit next to her

"Vegging on the couch?", I ask

"Oh yeah", she nods, "I wasn't feeling too good after Mia...I went to the doctor. He told me I had a mild concussion and I should rest for a few days"

"A concussion?", I gasp

She was hurt worse than I thought

"Just a baby one. It's not a big deal. I'm fine. Just need to take Tylenol for the headache, keep the lights dim", she says, looking anywhere but at me, "And I get a few days off of work so that's always a plus"

"I'm sorry", I whisper, hating myself for letting her get hurt

She's my best friend, I've always kept her safe and I failed her

"It's not your fault Yoongi"

"Yes-"

"No, it's really not. You couldn't have known that Mia would hit me. Or that I'd fall down the stairs. You didn't even know I was coming", she insists, "It's not your fault and I don't blame you so don't blame yourself"

"I don't think I can not blame myself", I tell her

"Well...stop it", she says

"I'll try"

She nods, an awkward silence that was never between us before rising

"So uh....you broke up with Mia?", she asks

"Yes"

"Why?"

"She hurt you Jo. She hit you, she yelled at you, called you horrible names", I say in surprise, "She threatened you to keep you away from me"

She couldn't think I would stay with someone like that

With someone who hurt her?

"Yeah but...you...you didn't say anything", she says quietly, "You didn't tell her to stop or argue with her. I assumed you.... agreed with her"

I look at her, horrified that she thinks I would actually agree with her staying away from me

"No Jo! Of course I didn't agree with her!", I say adamantly, "Everything was happening so fast and I was trying to make sure she couldn't get around me to get to you. When I turned around, you were running away"

She shakes her head, "Ok but that's something that you could of forgiven her for. After all you did cheat on her, she was hurt and she just reacted. I can say I wouldn't have flown off the handle either"

"You would never hit someone", I point out

She shrugs, "I'm not a fighter"

Yeah she is, just not in the physical way

"So that's it? You didn't even talk to her about what she did? You didn't try to make it work?"

I take a breath, psyching myself up to tell her the real reason why I broke up with Mia

"Jo, what happened with Mia...her hitting you...that was just the last reason I broke up with her", I tell her, "The truth is when you came to my house, I had already broken up with her. That day"

"Wait what? Really?"

I nod, "About an hour before you showed up, I told her about me and you. That we slept together. And that it wasn't working out with me and her, that I didn't want to be with her and we should break up. She was screaming at me for forty five minutes when you came"

She looks at me so confused, "Uh ok. I still don't get it though. Why were you breaking up with her at all? You didn't tell her you cheated on her all this time so why tell her at all? And from what she was yelling at me, it seems like she was going to forgive you and stay with you"

She was but I didn't want that

It was over a long time ago with Mia

Her flirting was getting to me and I tolerated it for as long as I could

She convinced me that she was as good as I would ever get, it was just flirting and if I complained about it she would do it more

That's not what a relationship should be

And that night with my best friend opened my eyes

"She would have forgiven me, if I wanted to stay with her"

"So why didn't you?", she asks

Facing her, her beautiful dark brown eyes lock on mine and I lean forward, pressing my lips to hers

Fire races in every nerve in my body, the world falling away until it's just her

Just like it did the first time I kissed her

She kisses me back for a second before pulling away, shock in her eyes

"I broke up with her because I want you", I confess, "I love you"

Her eyes widen as her mouth parts slightly in surprise, "What?"

"I...I don't know Jo, it's like that one night just opened my eyes", I tell her, "I had...been feeling....jealous, I guess, of the guys you went out with. And the day Hongjoong came to the bar with us? I was so annoyed he was there. I was infuriated every time I thought about you sleeping with him that night because I knew you were going to. I didn't even care that Mia was flirting with him"

"I...what?", she says, her mouth hanging open and it's so fucking cute

A cute little fish

"I convinced myself I was angry about you sleeping with him because he was your ex and I didn't want him to hurt you"

"That...wasn't the reason?"

I shake my head, "No. After we...I knew it was because I had feelings for you. Because I'm in love with you"

She gapes at me, "But you stayed away from me for over a month! You ignored all my calls, all my texts. I thought you wanted to end our friendship"

I shake my head, "I...I was scared ok? That night with you....it was the best night I ever had. The things you said about me...the way I just wanted you the entire time...the way you wanted me, it freaked me out. I didn't know if you really felt anything for me and I wasn't sure if I should take the risk to see if you did. I didn't want to mess up our friendship. The entire time I was away from you, I was trying to figure out what to do"

"I...I had no idea. I thought you regretted it", she says softly

"Never. I never did. I was just-"

"Freaking out?", she says, smiling softly

I nod, "Yeah. But I missed you so much, I just wanted to be near you and I couldn't deny it or try to talk myself out of it anymore. I called Mia to come over and I broke up with her. You coming over that day was pure fucking coincidence"

I couldn't believe it when the door opened and she was there

I thought my eyes were playing tricks on me

Until Mia hit her and I saw her fall

Then I realized that she was really there and I had to keep Mia from hurting her more

"I knew you were hurt Jo and I wanted to come here right away but I was worried you blamed me. I didn't know if you wanted to see me or not, so I decided to give you a few days", I explain, "But I'm going crazy without you. I was so stupid, so blind, I didn't see that my perfect girl was right in front of my face"

"Perfect?", she whispers, blushing

I nod, "Perfect. You're perfect Jo. Everything I could ever want in a girl and so much more. More than I deserve"

She shakes her head, "You deserve everything Yoongi. You're worth everything and anything. I told you that"

I nod

She did

That and so many more things I didn't think anyone saw in me

But she does

Taking her hand, I hold on tightly, "Jo, if you let me, I swear I will never let you get hurt again. I swear I will protect you. I swear I'll show you everyday how much I love you. How much I want you. How much you mean to me. Because you mean everything to me"

She smiles softly, tilting her head as she looks at me, teasing me, "Yeah I think I can let you do that"

A huge smile bursts on my face as I realize she said yes

She's mine

"I love you Yoongi", she says, those words sending my heart into overdrive, "I always have and I promise I'll show you how much you mean to me too. You're the only one I ever wanted"

"You have me jagi", I assure her, "All of me"

Pulling her to me, I kiss her again, happiness taking over as electricity runs up my spine

Her arms move around my neck and it feels like I'm home

Getting her in my lap, I stand up to make my way to her room

Her lips leave mine, pressing kisses into my neck, right into the spots that feel fucking amazing

I make it to her room, getting us on the bed

We fumble with our clothes, pulling them off and tossing them all over the room

I don't care what is ripped, where it lands as long as it's off her

When we're both naked, I sit up, looking down at her in awe

She is so fucking gorgeous and I don't know how I didn't see it before

How I was so fucking blind

Not only is her face stunning, her body is gorgeous and her personality is perfect

She's perfect

I run my hands on her body, my fingers tracing the sternum tattoo she has

When I first saw her naked last time, I had no idea she had tattoos too

She has none that are visible but under her clothes she has a lot

Her sternum, her ribs, her stomach, her thighs, her back

So many vibrant colors, so many lines for me to trace and kiss

And I will do that but right now I just want to be with her

She's mine now, I have so much time to study each tattoo she has

"You're so beautiful", I tell her, lifting my eyes to hers

Her cheeks redden as she looks at me shyly

I've never seen her look shy before and I fucking love it

Leaning over her, I kiss her soft sweet lips, a soft sigh coming from her

Smiling against her lips, I kiss her, then move my lips to her neck

"Yoongi", she moans when I kiss a spot in the crook of her neck, "Don't stop"

I kiss that spot, licking her skin then sucking slightly before letting go

"No, please more"

"It'll leave hickies", I tell her

Not that I would mind covering her in hickies but I don't know if she's want that

"Leave them", she says, surprising me, "Want them. Please"

I just nod, going back to sucking on her skin

I slide my hand down her body slowly, feeling her skin tremble

I like that a lot

Moving my lips to a different spot on her neck, I suck again as my hand moves to her pussy, feeling how wet she is

My god, she's soaked

"So wet for me baby", I murmur, leaving another hickie a few centimeters away from the last one, "I make you like this?"

She nods, whimpering, "Yes. Always Yoongi. It was always you. Always you"

I'm so happy to hear that and also so surprised that I didn't see her feelings for so long

Such an idiot

I could of had her all this time

I could of been happy all this time

But now I will be

Better late than never

"I love you", I whisper into her skin, now leaving hickies across her collarbone

"I love you Yoongi", she moans

God, I can never get enough of hearing that

Kissing further down her chest, I suck on her skin as I slowly push two fingers in her cunt

I feel her pussy suck my fingers in, clenching so tightly, a loud moan coming from those gorgeous lips

Kissing and sucking on the skin of her boob, I move my fingers, pulling them out then shoving them back in

"Yoongi!", she cries, her body shivering as I start finger fucking her pretty cunt

Her pussy waters my hand, making a loud wet sound as she takes my fingers

I move my thumb to her clit, rubbing quickly as I bite down on her boob

She cries out in pleasure, her hand snaking into my hair and tugging hard

Burying my fingers inside, I press hard on her spot, her body arching and shaking, calling my name loudly

"There Yoongi! Please!"

"Of course jagi. Anything for my baby"

Massaging her spot, I play with her clit at the same time, moving my mouth around her nipple and sucking softly

Her hips move, meeting my fingers, making them slide in deeper and hitting her spot with every wet thrust

Her little clit throbs under my thumb and I can't fucking wait to have it in my mouth

I've been craving her since the last time, desperately wanting to taste her again

Switching to her other nipple, I play and nibble on it, adding another finger, her hole stretching to make room

"Good girl", I murmur when she moans and her cunt clenches around my fingers so hard, "Gonna clench like that around my cock?"

"Yes!", she cries, her body shaking as she cums, squirting all over my hand, "Yes, yes, yes, Yoongi!"

I keep moving my hand through her orgasm until she finishes

Letting go of her nipple, I lift my head, satisfaction in her gaze

She lifts her head, her mouth against mine in a hot kiss, her tongue already down my throat

And I answer in kind, my tongue against hers

She holds me close to her, her fingers bunching in my hair and I can feel how much she wants me

Like I can touch her desire for me

It's something I haven't felt from anyone in a long time and I'm so grateful I'm feeling it from her

From the girl I love

Pulling gently away, I smile, kiss her cheek, then starting from her neck, I slowly lick down her body

"Fuck, Yoongi", she murmurs, her skin trembling under my tongue, her sweat tasting so good

I reach her open legs and immediately lick along her pussy so softly it's like I'm not even touching her

Her thighs quiver around my head as I run the tip of my tongue in barely there licks

"Yoongi", she whimpers, goosebumps rising on her thighs under my hands

I move my tongue along her slit, the tip opening her swollen pussy lips, tasting her juice

So good

Dropping my tongue down, I circle her hole, feeling her pussy try to pull my tongue in

Giving in, I sink my tongue inside her, moaning as she clenches hard around me, her juice rushing into my mouth

I swallow, pulling my tongue out, then moving back in slowly, feeling her cunt throb

Each pulse is going straight to my incredibly hard cock

Swiping my tongue up, I lick her clit, a loud moan escaping her, her hand plunging in my hair, holding my head on her

I get the hint and lavish her throbbing clit with lick after lick

Her hips move, grinding her pussy against my face, soaking me so much it's running down my neck

And I just revel in it, sliding my tongue down and burying my face in her pussy

"Yoongi", she cries, her back arching as I continue to pleasure her

I could literally stay in between her legs for hours

And now that she's mine I can

"Baby", I murmur, rubbing the tip of my tongue against her clit again, "Wanna taste your cream"

"Fuck", she whimpers

"Please jagi", I ask, sucking on her clit, feeling it throb against my lips, sending pleasure down my spine, "Want you to cum in my mouth"

Speeding up my mouth, I tug on her bump harder and faster, her entire body shaking on the bed

She's close and I'm so excited

Giving her a long suck, she screams my name, her hips snapping in my face as she cums

I immediately drop my tongue down, into her hole, feeling her pussy cum all over it

I moan loudly, the pulses feeling so fucking good, her sweet sweet cream filling my mouth and I swallow eagerly

"So good jagi", I moan, between swallows, "So fucking good"

When she finishes, I continue to lick her cunt, making sure I get every last drop

Then I press kiss after kiss up her body, her skin jumping against my lips

Getting to her lips, I kiss her, moving on top of her, her legs wrapping around me

I sink my aching cock into her pussy, moaning from the relief I feel, her cunt opening slightly for me to slide in then latching on tightly

"Oh god", I whimper against her lips, "So good. Fuck so good"

The pleasure of just getting inside her is intense, just washing over every inch of my body

Sitting up, I open her legs wide and watch her cunt take my cock, her tiny hole splitting open so wide as I bottom out

"Fuck, Yoongi", she whimpers

"Feels good?", I ask, my breathing increasing

"Yes, fuck yes, so good", she cries

"Fuck, you don't know how much I wanted to see this pussy wrapped around my cock again", I murmur, loving how good we look together, "How much I wanted to be back inside you. Feel your kisses, your arms around me, your skin against mine. You were all I thought about this entire time we were apart"

"You were all I thought about too Yoongi. I just wanted you. I always wanted you"

Now I know

I had no idea before but now I know

And I'm completely hers

"I'm yours now jagi", I assure her, "You can have me anytime you want. I promise"

"You can have me too naekkeo", she whispers, a huge smile bursting on my face from the pet name

"I want you now jagi", I tell her

"I want you now too Yoongi"

I nod, pushing her legs to her chest, I pull my cock out of her warm pussy, then burying back inside in one shot

That one move snaps something inside me and I start moving fast and hard

She screams my name, her pussy so pretty on my cock

Her swollen pussy lips petaling open, her little clit throbbing, her cunt soaking me thoroughly

Her clenching around my cock is so tight, the bliss increasing with each thrust into her

I'm sweating so much and I push my hair back off my face

I swear I've never been as sweaty during sex as I've been with her

She just unleashes something in me, a desire for her that I've never felt before

I need her

I need to be with her

I ram my cock deep into her, making sure I hit her spot, listening to her yell for me to go harder

Which I do

The sound of our skin hitting each other gets louder the faster I move, her cunt creaming my cock like a fountain with each hit to her spot

Just coat after coat of pretty cream, a thick ring of it forming around the base of my dick

Such a fucking pretty sight that I know I'm going to want to keep seeing again and again

Everyday

"Your pussy looks so pretty creaming my cock like this", I murmur, watching her hole strain around my thick base

"Yoongi", she cries

God, her screams of my name are so fucking beautiful

I'm not used to having my name screamed

Ever

Mia never did it

And the first time Joanne screamed my name when she came, I was floored

But then she did it again

And again

And I will do anything to hear that

To hear her scream, whimper, whine, whisper my name

During sex and outside of sex

Just hearing her say my name, in her gorgeous voice, fuck I love it

I crave it

Her body arches and move my arm around her, holding her against me, ploughing her into the bed

Her eyes are watery, some tears falling down her face as she looks at me with completely fucked out eyes

I smirk, increasing my movements, feeling her cunt strangle my cock

"Cum for me jagi", I tell her, pounding her tiny pussy, splitting her on my dick, "Want to feel you fall apart on my cock again"

She whimpers, her fingers twisting in the sheets so hard, her body quaking with each thrust

"God baby, I crave it", I egg her on, "The whole month I just wanted to feel you cum all over my cock. Squeeze my dick so tightly as you throb and completely soak me"

"Oh god, baby", she moans, so close

"Can you give it to me?", I ask, "Please, give it to me"

I want it right now

Burying deep into her, her body squirms as she cums, her pussy clamping and choking on my cock

"Yoongi!", she screams, her pussy gushing cream, utter pleasure hitting me hard

I choke back a yell, pushing back my orgasm and just feel the intense pleasure

I can't, it feels too fucking good

I feel her hands grabbing at my arms and I let go of her legs

She pulls me down on top of her, her lips crashing against mine, kissing me desperately

Her hips start moving, grinding on my cock, her small hands on my back, clinging onto me

I meet her small thrusts, slipping in deeper, loving the way she takes my cock so easily

Her hands slide slowly up and down my back as we move together, her fingers leaving a trail of fire in every single molecule of my body

I run my hand up her body, her skin trembling under each of my fingertips

I move my kisses to her neck, loving the soft moans coming from her

Lifting my head, I watch her in pleasure, watching the way her body shakes for me, the light sheen of sweat on her body, her hair wet with it

She's so fucking beautiful, so ethereal, like an angel

She is

My angel

"So beautiful", I tell her, her eyes moving to mine, "You're so beautiful Jo. My beautiful jagi"

She smiles her gorgeous smile, my heart racing, the breath leaving my lungs

"I love you Yoongi"

"I love you Joanne. So fucking much"

She nods, "So much naekkeo"

She kisses me passionately, her hands moving around my neck, her fingers burying in my hair

As I kiss her, I move up a little, my arm sliding around her, pulling her up with me, keeping her right against me, skin against skin, my lips and tongue locked onto hers

I slam my other hand on the bed, holding us up as I roll my hips slowly, burying my cock inside her again and again

I can feel every inch of her pussy open for me, feel every drop of cream on my cock, feel every suck of my cock as she tugs me inside, every spasm

I feel every move her fingers make in my hair, every press of her lips, her tongue against mine, every bead of sweat mixing with mine

All my senses are tuned into her

After a few more strokes, she orgasms, her pussy fluttering around my dick, utterly wetting me

"Yoongi", she whimpers, leaning her forehead against mine, her breath against my lips

I let the ecstacy run over me and I bury inside her, my cock throbbing as I release in her pussy

"Joanne", I whimper, the pleasure so fucking phenomenal, I can't stop the shaking my body is doing, "Jagi, fuck, so good"

"Mmm so good", she confirms, then presses a soft kiss to my lips

I kiss her back as I finish, just wanting her lips, her body against mine

Pulling out, we lay down, cuddling into each other, kissing as if we're never going to stop

And the best part?

We don't

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One month later

J POV

"I'll get the drinks naekkeo", I tell him

"You sure? I can do it", he says

"Oh stop baby", I say, leaning over and kissing his cheek, "I'll be right back"

"Ok jagi", he grins at me

Kissing his soft lips again, I get up and make my way to the bar

Yoongi and I decided to go out tonight, to the same bar we came to with Hongjoong and Mia

This place had bad memories with Mia's flirting and Yoongi's jealousy of Hongjoong and we decided to come here together to make happier memories

It's working as we're having a really good time

Just hanging out in a booth, sipping drinks, snacking and being together

I get to the bar and order our drinks

Yoongi and I have gone from best friends to boyfriend and girlfriend seamlessly

After all we're basically doing the same things we've done before except now we're together all the time and we've added kisses, cuddles and hand holding

And sex

Lots and lots of sex

I'm watching the bartender make Yoongi's drink when I hear, "Hey", next to me

I turn to find the man who was flirting with Mia next to me

Jae

Grinning a stupid goofy smile

I roll my eyes, then look away from him

"I know you", he says, "You're the girl who told me to fuck off when I was flirting with that girl who had a boyfriend"

"Uh-huh", I snap

"For the record, I didn't know she had a boyfriend"

"Uh-huh"

This bartender needs to hurry up

"So-"

"No thanks", I answer

"Uh what?"

"Whatever you're going to say the answer is no. So you can go"

"Oh playing hard to get huh?", he smirks

He actually smirks and it takes everything in me not to smack him

I don't need a lawsuit

"No-"

"Let me buy you a drink and I'm sure I can change your mind"

Ok, now I'm done

"Do you see that man over there", I ask him, pointing to Yoongi, who's glaring at Jae

"The guy with all the tattoos?"

"Yeah him"

"I see him. So what?", Jae says

"That man is going to kick your ass after I finish doing it first"

Jae raises his eyebrows in shock, "Excuse me?"

"That's my boyfriend and he will not hesitate to kick the shit out of you so I suggest you fuck right off"

He scowls, "You don't have to be such a jerk"

I scoff, "You should learn to take a fucking hint. Or you know, listen when a girl tells you to fuck off. Otherwise you'll get your ass handed to you"

"Wow, tell that guy my condolences for having you as a girlfriend", he snaps

"Yeah yeah, fuck off already"

He scowls, then walks to the other side of the bar

The bartender hands me my drinks and I take them back to her table

"Who was that?", Yoongi asks quietly as I hand him his drink

"Some loser who wouldn't take no for an answer until I told him my boyfriend was going to kick his ass"

His eyes widen in surprise but then he chuckles, "You didn't"

"Oh I did naekkeo. You saw me pointing you out and I told him you'd kick the shit out for him. After I was done doing that too"

"Of course jagi", he laughs

His arm moves around me and I lean against him, so happy to be in his arms

"You know I'd do it", he says softly as I take a sip of my drink

"Hmm? Do what?", I ask, looking at him to find his eyes already on me

"I'd fight anyone for you jagi", he tells me, "Anyone who tries to take you from me.... I'd kick their ass with no questions asked"

"You don't have to worry about that baby", I assure him, "I would never choose anyone over you"

"I know jagi but if someone tried....I just...I can't lose you. I never did anything when it was Mia and that's because I didn't feel anything for her like I do for you. You....I love you more than anything in this world. You're my everything Jo and I will fight anyone who tries to hurt you or tries to take you"

I smile, happy that he loves me as much as I love him

"I understand baby", I tell him, "And just know, I'd do the same. Any girl who tries to take you...I'm gonna knock them out"

He laughs, "Ok baby. But you don't have to worry about that either. I don't care about any other girls. I only want you"

"That's good", I smile

He smiles his gorgeous smile, my heart pounding faster

He's so fucking hot, anything he does turns me on

Like right now he's just sipping his drink and I want him

Making up for lost time I guess

"C'mon naekkeo", I whisper in his ear, running my fingers in his soft hair, "Finish your drink so we can go home and I can fuck you"

His eyes widen, he downs his drink and smirks, "Done"

I giggle, "Oh baby boy wants to be ridden huh?"

"You have no idea", he murmurs, "Get up now"

"Yes sir", I smirk, standing and taking his hand

He gets up and ushers me out of the bar and to the car

Once we're in the car, he takes my hand, laces our fingers and starts driving home

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Dozens of Songs: Tag Game Meme

Thank you for the tag love @thebiwifeonao3 💜

Rules:

12 songs you've recently listened to (include a lyric that you like maybe)

12 ships (can be solo or platonic) that the songs loosely remind you of

Tag 12 people to do the same

Whether you've been tagged or not, you can send an ask with the song and pairing to create a work based on the idea. The theme is 12, so could be 12 characters, words, paragraphs, chapter - anything!

See my playlist below the cut:

1. "Shadows of the Night" by Pat Benatar - B'Elanna/Seven (Star Trek: Voyager)

You said, "Oh girl, it's a cold world when you keep it all to yourself." I said, "You can't hide on the inside all the pain you've ever felt." Ransom my heart, but baby don't look back 'Cause we got nobody else

2. "Islands in the Stream" by Dolly Parton & Kenny Rogers - Mark/Susan (ER)

But that won't happen to us and we got no doubt Too deep in love and we got no way out And the message is clear This could be the year for the real thing

3. "Snow on the Sahara" by Anggun - Beverly/Picard (Star Trek: The Next Generation)

If your hopes scatter like the dust across your track I'll be the moon that shines on your path The sun may blind our eyes, I'll pray the skies above For snow to fall on the Sahara

4. "They Don't Know" by Kirsty MacColl - Kerry/Susan (ER)

I get a feeling when I look at you Wherever you go now I want to be there too They say we're crazy but I just don't care And if they keep on talking still they get nowhere

5. "In My Life" by The Beatles - Harry/Tom (Star Trek: Voyager)

But of all these friends and lovers There is no one compares with you And these memories lose their meaning When I think of love as something new

6. "Chasing Shadows" by The Corrs - Philip/Elizabeth (The Americans)

Nothing simple anymore He said to me, "Can we go back to before?" The child appears Hate this girl that I've become Needy apparition Wring my heart like a dishcloth

7. "The Whole of the Moon" by The Waterboys - Data/Tasha (Star Trek: The Next Generation)

I spoke about wings You just flew I wondered, I guessed, and I tried You just knew

8. "Power Over Me" by Dermot Kennedy - Stan/Nina (The Americans)

So we hide away and never tell You decide if darkness knows you well That lesson of love, all that it was I need you to see

9. "Little Lies" by Fleetwood Mac - Tom/B'Elanna (Star Trek: Voyager)

Although I'm not making plans I hope that you'll understand there's a reason why (Close your eyes, close your eyes, close your eyes) No more broken hearts We're better off apart, let's give it a try (Tell me, tell me, tell me lies)

10. "Freefall" by Sharon Corr - Luka/Abby (ER) hehe help me Zoë

I am half-asleep and dreaming I'm awake but I'm not breathing I am shooting out the lights And I'm drowning in the lies I am flat against the surface I am scratching on the ice And I am fighting for my life I'm fighting for my life

11. "24 Hours" by Andrea Corr - Riker/Deanna (Star Trek: The Next Generation)

I'm not the only one that loves you Hey, everyone does You've got a map of your past Engraved on your face But your strange heart is the heart of a boy

12. "A Memory" by Doppler - Alicia/Jason (The Good Wife)

You're crying out for lightning All I give you is rain I'm the gloom in your afternoon Waiting for the sun to fade I'll take the West and you can keep the East

Tagging @sapphicsandscience @cloudsnbones @artificialconditions @everybodyknows-everybodydies @laura-elizabeth-legaspi-weaver @flutter2deceive (let me cheat by tagging just half a dozen here ok lol)

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barachiki's fanfiction cover contest winners post announcement thing!

Hello my friends! Since speaking to you last, I've finished up the covers and have been in touch with all my winners. Here's what they won in a book style mockup!

DISCLAIMER: I will not be linking these stories, just offering the names and authors on the covers. Some of these stories are rated mature, with some serious scary or adult themes. Read them at your own discretion and heed all warnings and tags.

@meetinginsamarra : For this one, there were a lot of details they wanted on the jacket, s making it less bulky and showing that it was worn by including a rip, the decal and slogan, the earring, the bracelet, the blood, the lip piercing, most of these details i lovingly put in but are hardly seen in this mockup. That's ok, I know that they are there ;). It was a ton of fun. I think the hardest thing was John. Finding something in the right pose and having the scrubs to be changeable to the right colour is tricky!

@johannadc : this one was a ton of fun when I finally found some pieces that were good to work with. These two were originally some young hipsters on their phones. Lestrade's head was replaced a couple times but it was the right choice, in the end I think it tells a fun visual story. A tiny detail you probably won't notice is that I used probably four different Lestrades to make his neck and face. They are all so barely used, we're talking minuscule opacity, but I needed it for a natural jawline.

@chriscalledmesweetie : This one was great to work on. I learned a lot about spooky light value and doing a lot of 'less is more'. I had originally started this piece with way more overdone water overlays and blatant tentacles, but in the end, it looked much spookier with the looming presence of the tentacles in the background approaching unseen. The sign was really fun to put together as well, it has one of my favourite things to image search, "grunge texture". Just find some grunge to put on something and it instantly looks old and worn!

Thanks to everyone for participating and letting me have some fun.

My participants were all fabulous to work with. I hope they had fun as well. Look out for this contest to come again in the future. Maybe with more warning next time, and possibly more obvious rules.

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The Reaper and the Death Angel Part 46

Series Masterlist

Part 45

Contains: Violence, death, blood, angst, combat, any extremely violent scenes will be marked with XXX as usual, smut(oral sex M and F receiving, fingering, P in V.)

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Jax sees the Death Angel firsthand

One month after Jax took over

"How does this work?"

You smiled and passed Jax the mash potatoes, "well you guys get to spend a few days on a superyacht cruise. The boat looks and acts like a normal ship but it's a proper battle ship below deck. When we get to the coast, the boats will take me and the other to the compound and what happens happens."

"Do we get to watch?"

You shook your head, "yes Happy, if you want to watch us terminate Lobo Sonora you can watch on the screens. We'll have helmet and chest cams so you'll be able to see everything."

There was a beat of quiet, "how many people are going?"

"Three four man teams, eight men and four women including me. The op won't take more than an hour and then we'll be back and heading back to the US. We have state of the art weapons and the best protective gear money can buy, it's going to be an in and out kind of thing so pack your swim trunks and sunscreen because the people that choose to come can enjoy a quick vacation before the slaughter starts."

*****

"I got you guys a private suite, down the hall and to the right. The walls are pretty solid but I wouldn't be too loud since there are dorm rooms on either side of you."

You nodded, "thanks Billy, I guess we'll see you at lunch."

Jax insisted on taking the bags to the room and helping you unpack, "gee, this is nice."

You shook your head, "well, it is a superyacht. We'll only be gone for four days so you better enjoy yourself."

Jax huffed and pulled you into his arms, "does that mean I've got you to myself?"

"No, I have an op to plan. I'll be around a lot but you'll have to keep yourself entertained too. Again, Jax, it's a working superyacht, go swimming while we wait for people to arrive, we even have deep sea fishing rods, you can catch me dinner."

Jax chuckled, "alright, you make some fair points. When do the others get here?"

"On the way down there, we have to make it look good so we'll pick people up along the way, but they're all Anvil people so I know them and they're solid."

Jax nodded, "good, is it weird to say that I'm happy you invited us?"

You shook your head, "no, it's ok to be curious. Just be ready to see a lot of blood and death, I know you think you're good but I don't want you to be scared of me because you've just watched me kill twenty people."

"I could never be scared for you, I can't say the same for the others."

You huffed, "are you any closer to finding new members?"

Jax nodded, "the Nomads are disbanding, three members want to settle in Charming."

"I'm sorry you need more people, I've heard how hard to can get to manage a charter with a lot of members."

Jax shook his head, "I've got you to keep them in line."

You huffed, "yeah, something tells me that my input won't be appreciated by those not in the know about what's really going on. Clay gets out of the hospital today, there'll be people there to collect him to let him know where he stands."

*****

"Are they going to bring him here?"

You shrugged, "probably, if the powers at be think he needs to know what misbehaving will get him."

Jax huffed, "let's hope, the more scared you of he is, the better."

You shook your head, "no matter what I do, he's not going to be scared of me. It's about him knowing he's a dead man walking."

Jax spent the two next days exploring the ship, bumping into the people who were going on the raid. By far, Jax's favourite place was the training facilty, he spent his time watching you spar and shoot or give out orders about the upcoming operation.

"CAN YOU TWO STOP IT." You laughed, your relationship with Jax had become the talk of the boat, Jax didn't seem to mind, taking every hard back slap and comment about his dick being huge in stride.

"You are so hot."

You shook your head as you untaped you hands and wiped the sweat off your shoulders, "you just watch me beat the hell out of someone, how is that hot?"

Jax shot you the Teller smirk and leaned in to whisper in your ear, "because you can do that and yet you whimper just from me being this close to you."

"You're just jealous Underwood that I've got a hot piece of ass and you don't." Jax did his best not to go red, he wasn't embarrassed. It was clear to him how close you were with the people you had hand picked for the mission. He had been stopped more than once and told that it was obvious how happy he made you, people would tell him that they had never seen you this relaxed, that they were grateful someone they cared about had found someone good.

"Come one Darlin, I finally caught you that fish you wanted, the cooks are putting your lunch together now." When you walked out to the kitchen, Clay was there with Bobby, although Bobby was only talking to him because they were sharing a table.

Jax directed you to sit down and five minutes later, a cook was bringing a grilled fish out. "Wow, I'm impressed, there's even enough for both of us."

Jax chuckled, "well, there isn't much else to do, nice boat or not."

You smiled, "it's really yummy, I say we should take Abel out but you know how I feel about boats."

The mood changed, "it's happening tonight, then we'll be home. I'm still surprised you're afraid of the water."

You shrugged, "I'm not afraid of the water, I'm afraid of the ocean."

Jax smiled and reached his hand out to hold yours, "Abel would be happy to go with you anywhere, I mean, the kid thinks you're the best thing that happened since sliced bread."

*****

"Are you jealous?"

He huffed, "nah, kid's got good taste."

Jax noticed the change in the air as the sun set, then people were making their way to the bowels of the ship. Jax watched as they set up the screens and mission specs, he recognised director Vance but there were other men who caught his attention. You had walked over from the table where you were pointing out maps to the other, "who are they."

You smiled, "the old dude is Leroy Jethro Gibbs, good dude, the bald one is William Rollins, head of the DOJ, he's an ass."

"What happened to his eye?"

You huffed, "Frank did it after that op that got Travis' legs blown off." Jax smiled softly, you hadn't talked much about it, only that you have never been so sure you and your friends were going to die that day.

*******

"Is he going to be a problem?"

You shook your head, "nah, he's only here to keep everyone happy. He doesn't even have to power to give orders." Before Jax could ask more, you were being called into another room, which was locked after everyone else went inside.

"Russo, l/n, Underwood and Bowler are team leaders for the initial approach. When you come to the building, you'll split off into two groups, then Underwood and l/n will be at the head with Russo and Blower as your seconds."

There were soft nods of acknowledgment around the room, "expect heavy push back, overhead drone footage taken this afternoon shows at least seventy men, most concentrated inside. You are to keep quiet for as long as you can so there will be lots of wet work."

Billy smiled, "that's easy, who's handling the explosives?"

One of the women raised her hand and Billy relaxed, "thank God, at least we won't have to worry about anyone getting away."

She chuckled, "well, we are dropping a bomb after we leave, I've just got to make sure the huge concrete building goes down."

The room relaxed, at least there weren't going to be any preventable deaths. "alright everyone, you know your roles, get ready, say goodbye to our friends outside then meet by the inflatables."

"Do we have medical ready to go?"

Vance nodded, "that and a chopper if someone is too injured to come back via boat, this isn't an active war zone, your orders are to get as many people back home as you can even if they might not make it."

******

When you came out half an hour later, you were dressed in all in black with body armour, armed to the teeth. "You look hot."

You huffed, "of course you'd say that. I need to put my war paint on, I'll be back in a bit." Jax watched you disappear into the bathroom, he could tell that everyone was getting ready to leave, Billy was in the corner sharpening his knife and there were a group praying to the side.

XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

When you came out, the others were already making their way to the boats outside, "you don't need to watch if you don't want to, you're going to see some pretty violent things."

Jax shook his head, "I'm not going to run away."

You smiled and handed him your engagement ring, "keep that safe, I'm gonna want it back when this is done."

The boat ride to the Lobo compound was made in silence, Jax watched from the screens, his eyes focused on the view from your cameras, his ears zoned in on the beep beep of the heart rate monitor on your chest. Kip sat next to Jax and leaned in close, "she's going to be fine, this would be nothing for her."

Jax held his breath as the boats stopped in the sand and the teams split off, then it started, it was like watching a group of wolves stalk a herd of lambs. The first guard went down with your knife to his back, a stab and twist had his lungs collapsing around the blade and with one last stab to the neck, he was dead.

"Contact made." There were a handful of clicks the Kip explained was them letting you know they got the message. Jax heard the same sentence spoken over the radio over and over again, sometimes he could hear what else was happening, the wet sounds of a knife entering the skin.

"Power's been cut, move ahead."

He could hear gunshots in the distance, the chatter over the radio pulling your attention away, "contact left."

He heard your radio click and there was a bang closer by as then the man next to you lifted his gun and fired off a shot, "good job dude." The surrounding area was cleared quickly then the teams were meeting up at the door.

He could hear the men inside talking and the group split and went off in two directions. A man with a gun came around the corner and was met with a bullet between the eyes, you slowed down and put a hand up, waiting for someone else to come out. As your group rounded the corner, a gun came into view and you took the gun, yanking the man onto the ground before cutting his throat.

"We have our orders, save your bullets and don't make too much noise."

Next to Jax, Kip shuttered, "what does that mean?"

Kip paused before answering, "it means most of the kills are going to be up close and bloody." Jax watched as someone came from the back of the group and placed something on the door, seconds later, it was coming off its hinges.

To Jax's surprise, the conversation between everyone wasn't just about the mission, it was about everyday life. There was an exclamation as you sidestepped a man with a large blade and plunged your knife into the man's chin.

"Holy shit, how big is Teller's cock?"

You giggled, "I'm not glorifying that with an answer."

Jax was going red, "does that mean it's small?"

He saw your head cam shake, "his penis is perfectly adequate."

There was a beep, "someone just went company wide, everyone's about to hear this." Jax was grateful for Kip's input.

On your side of the compound, the fighting was equally mixed. Jax could see that Kip meant by up close and bloody, the glimpses he saw of everyone showed that you were all covered in blood. There was a noise and everyone turned their head to look, Billy raised his gun and shot a man in the chest, the man behind him jumping out of the way.

"Did you hear that, guys? Teller's got a horse cock."

You huffed, "I swear to God, if you fuckers don't shut up about my love life I will frag all of you and finish this myself."

There were a lot of chuckles and the sound of more gunshots, "we've cleared the first two rooms, one's looking a bit suspicious."

More chatter and bang "room cleared, moving on."

As your team advanced forward, Jax recognised the sound of a cocking shotgun but someone dying on the floor popped up and the seconds that it took to kill him pulled your attention away, it was too late to act by the time the shotgun came from behind a door and fired. Jax watched as your camera showed you hitting the ground and he could hear Billy yelling to clear the room as he dragged you to safety.

"It happens all the time, I can remember shaking my vest out after long fire fights and finding a whole shit load of spend bullets. She only went down like that because shotgun blasts knock the air out of you more." Jax gave Kip a curt nod and went back to the screens.

Jax was holding his breath as he watched the heart rate monitor, his eyes going from your camera to Billy's as he stripped your vest, "I'm fine, the vest caught everything."

Billy grunted, "let me check anyway." Jax realised his breath as Billy opened the vest and found nothing. In seconds, he had you redressed and back in the game.

"You good?"

Jax didn't know if he wanted to answer, "yep, keep it coming." Jax swallowed, it sounded like you were in pain. And it did keep coming, but the onslaught started to slow down and the radio chatter calmed from a mix of yelling about enemies to light banter. The groups met at the top of the stairs and the woman who blew the entrance door stepped forward again.

"Once the door's open, I think we should top off the incendiary grenades with a flash bang."

He saw your head turn, "why?" In the room

Rollings didn't look happy, "we don't really know what's going on in that room, we should shock any stragglers."

Before you could respond, Rollings did it for you, "no, it's not worth it."

Two men tossed in red painted grenades and Jax could almost feel the heat coming off the blast, there was a beat of nothing before a flash bang was thrown in and once that past, the team entered the room.

"I agreed with my operative, we'll throw the flash bang."

There was a beep, "shit, she just turned off his mic." The woman placed another bomb on the door, this one much bigger and everyone stepped back while she set it off.

Bang bang

"FUCK." Jax stiffened as he watched the man next to you take a bullet to the leg and then someone behind you was shooting a moving shape, "good call with the flash bang, let's ID these bodies and hope one's our man then let's head home."

Jax relaxed as the burnt bodies were turned over and looked at, "hey, over here."

True to Kip's word, Jax calmed down as the teams split again and went through the halls, checking for survivors and laying bombs. Jax's hands finally unclenched as you loaded into the inflatables again.

Everyone walked over and looked at the body by the soldier's boot, "that him?"

You knelt down and looked at the face, half gone, down to the bone from the fire, "yep." Jax saw Kip relax as well, "it's done, they'll blow the place and come back, the guy who got shot will be fine."

XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

"We're done here, sent in the drone." Jax didn't know how long it would take but he watched as everyone on the boats turned their attention to the rapidly disappearing shoreline then there was a huge blast that rocked the boats.

There was a shift in the cameras, and half were turned off and then the helmets were removed. When Jax saw everyone's faces without covers, the amount of blood was shocking, you looked like something out of a horror movie.

Jax hadn't looked at Clay the whole night, even though he was in the room. When he finally turned his attention to his former step-father, he was pale and looked close to falling to pieces. Jax couldn't help himself from taking a shot at him as he walked to the deck to greet the boats, "I bet you're regretting all your decisions so far."

*******

Jax waited in the warm night air for ten minutes, his heart racing ever faster as the water started to ripple. He couldn't help the smile on his face as you arrived, he leaned down the ladder to help you up but you waved your hand, "there's a lot of blood my love."

Then you were walking up to him and taking his hand, "I got to go to medical, wanna come?" Jax stood and walked with you, mindful that you hadn't showered or changed. The walk to the med bay was quick, men and women were lining the hallway, "I'll be out before you know it."

"I can see that, you gonna go clean up?"

You nodded, "yeah, got to debrief first and get checked out by the doc then I'm going to have a very long hot shower, then I'll be yours for the rest of the night." Jax followed you back down to the mission room and watched as you and the rest of the team went back into the room, then came out a little while later.

You chuckled, "yeah, shall we head back to the room?"

True to your word, you were out in twenty minutes, "all clear?"

You nodded, "some bumps and bruises but the shotgun blast didn't do any damage."

Jax smiled and pressed the quickest kiss to you lips, "you need a shower, there's blood and body bits all over you."

******

You weren't lying about the shower being long, Jax was planning to stay and talk with you while you washed but he got a call from Sam which surprised him because he was still on his honeymoon.

"Is everything alright man?"

Jax could hear the birds in the background, "you still want to be with my sister?"

Jax was taken aback, "of course I do, why wouldn't I?"

Sam huffed, "because seeing her kill a whole bunch of people might have put a damper on how much you love her."

"I watched the whole thing, it changed nothing. You finally going to get it in your head I'm not going to break her heart?"

Sam chuckled, "I am now. After watching her work, I don't think I have much else to worry about. I know she'd kill me for saying this, but you've finally got my approval."

"She's always been a mother bear, ask the guys. I will say this, you've probably come to the same realisation yourself, she will kill anyone who's a risk to Abel, even if that's you." Jax had a shutter run down his spine but he knew it was true.

"Gee thanks, I didn't know it would take so long."

Sam's tone changed, "be careful Jax, she's still my big sister. You wouldn't be the first man to leave when he realises that he's not the most dangerous one in the room."

Jax took a deep breath, "at first, it was a little hard but after what happened with Abel and Hayes, I'm grateful one of us is a trained killer."

"Yeah, I know. It makes me love her more."

He could hear Sam smiling, "that's what I wanted to hear. Now, I need to get back to my wife. I'm sure you'll have fun in the empty house while we're gone." Jax hung up and went back to the bedroom just in time for you to get out of the shower.

Jax didn't know how to answer but knew how he felt after beating a man in the ring. You were tearing at his clothes, Jax didn't even pick up that you were naked as you climbed on top of him and bent at the waist, biting on his skin until he grunted.

"How you feel…."

Jax was being slammed against the door, "wound up." The kiss was all teeth and tongue and Jax started to wonder if this is what happened when a sailor finally succumbed to that siren's call.

"What's gotten into you?"

You smiled against his skin and shoved him onto the bed, "what do you think."

When you reached his cock, Jax placed his hands on your cheeks to give you the go ahead. You sucked his dick like you were trying to win a bet, Jax didn't have a chance to collect himself as you pushed him closer and closer to the edge. He was grunting and groaning like he was dying as he came in your mouth.

"Easy there Darlin, you look sore." Jax could see the growing bruises on your skin

"Nothing hurts." you kissed down his body, stopping to bite him as you went. Jax wondered if this is how you felt when he was in one of these moods, but there was something more to it, he felt like he was in the room with a hungry animal.

Jax watched in awe as you sat up and wiped your face on the back of your hand, "you good?"

Jax's breath caught in his throat, "am I good? Woman, you are going to kill me."

You smiled, "at least you'll die happy."

Jax was going to go hypoxic from how fast the blood was trying to get back to his dick, "can we take a few seconds? I think I might faint if I get hard again this fast."

You smiled softly and pressed a barely there kiss to his chest, "sure my love." Jax relaxed a little and took the momentary break to take back his breath.

"You are the hottest woman to ever exist."

You shook your head, "why, because I just kill a whole bunch of people and came back covered in blood or because I'm great at sucking your dick?"

Jax huffed, "you're a brat."

You shifted your hips and ground yourself over his quickly hardening cock while Jax's breath caught in his chest. You placed you hands on his chest and Jax ran his hands up and down your arms as you rubbed yourself on him.

The smile you gave him made his dick twitch, "what are you going to do about it?"

Jax smirked, "what do you think?"

He pulled you closer to him and placed his hands on your waist, "this doesn't feel like you're doing anything."

Jax chuckled, "you seem happy where you are, I'm not going to kill your buzz."

"What were you saying?" You leaned down and bit his shoulder, Jax grunting and thrusting his fingers hard into you, "you really are in a mood tonight." You moved your lips and bit down on his chest by your hand and Jax crooked his fingers to rub your G-spot.

"Let me help you Darlin."

You smirked and lifted your hips, "ok."

Jax's hand moved to your center and he ran his fingertips through your slit, "you're always so wet for me."

You shook your head, "ego, ego, I'm just well hydrated." You went to continue to tease him, but his thumb met your clit and he slid two fingers inside you.

Jax didn't think it could get any better as you reached full speed in record time, Jax doing his best to stutter out for you to take your time but failed. You shifted your hand to gain more leverage and Jax was painfully aware that your fingertips were just below his neck.

"I want more."

Jax chuckled at the assertiveness in your voice, "well, come and take it." Jax removed his fingers from you and put both hands on your hips while he grabbed his cock and slid down over him, Jax head dropping back against the pillows.

He was fast approaching the edge again, he usually prided himself on his iron self control but this was something else. In hopes of not bruising his ego, he reached a hand down and rubbed your clit, smiling as your pace stuttered. "That feel good Darlin? You like to act all tough but I can feel you squeezing me."

Jax smirked at your moan, "yeah, you like to act like you're all put together but I know the truth. When we're all alone, like this, you can't even keep your thoughts straight."

"Careful Jackson, I'm not the one who's doing math in their head." Jax swallowed, you weren't helping. He was stuck between the urge to sit back and enjoy the ride and take back control and feed his ego. You decided for him as you came around him, Jax lifting himself up to kiss you while the finger on your clit kept going, "Jax, fuck."

Jax grabbed your hips with both hands and thrust up into you, grunting and groaning like an animal as he pulsed inside you. He fell back and you fell with him, Jax taking your hand in his and kissing your fingers, "are you alright? You're shaking like a leaf." You smiled and he rubbed your hand in hopes of slowing the shaking.

"I'm out of adrenalin and the raid drained my blood sugar, the shakes are totally normal."

Jax smiled, "well, I saw chocolate lava cake on the menu, you want me to get you some?"

You kissed his chest and rolled off him, "let's just call to the kitchen and ask, I want to stay here with you."

Jax reached over, grabbed the phone and called the kitchen, "what can I get for you."

Jax gave the menu a quick look, "two french onions soups, two servings of crispy roast potatoes and two chocolate lava cakes please."

The chef chuckled, "I'm guessing you two worked up and appetite." Jax was confused, "thin walls, the whole boat knows what you were getting up to."

Jax laughed and rolled on top of you, "I'm about to."

Jax went red, "I'll bring it round when it's ready, you kids have fun until then."

When Jax looked over at you, you were smiling shyly, "you having fun, you insufferable man?"

******

"You ready Abel?"

His little voice came across the video as you walked out of your room with Jax, "yes, show me, show me."

You moved the phone around, "so in here is where they take seawater and turn it into fresh water so we can drink it."

Jax took the phone and spoke to Gemma, coming back soon after, "as much as I enjoyed this time away, I can't wait to get back."

Able asked so many questions, "is it cold?"

Jax smiled, "a little, but only on deck." When you walked out and showed Abel the clear blue shy, his little eyes went wide.

"Wow, there are no people."

You nodded, "there's no one for miles."

"You and me both."

******

"Alright sweetie, we have to go get the puppies from uncle Derek and then we can go home."

When you picked up Abel from Gemma's place, he looked tired. "Did you have fun with grandma?"

He nodded, "grandma let me make pancakes everyday."

You swallowed, you have given her plenty of Abel's favourite foods, "that's good, you ready to come home?"

He smiled and wrapped his little arms around you, "yes mommy."

*****

"Sam and Ima get back tomorrow so we have the house all to ourselves."

Jax smiled, "oh, I wonder what we're going to do with then?"

You shook your head, "wasn't all those times on the boat enough?"

Jax kissed your neck, "nope, you'd never leave the bed if it was up to me."

Of course you both spent the night with Abel and the dogs, Abel falling asleep in Jax's arms as you all watched TV, "I think we all better call it a night."

Jax picked Abel up and carried him to bed, "you think Gemma let him stay up all night?"

You nodded, "I'm guessing she was too drunk, the whole house smelt like old wine."

Jax's face fell, "yeah, I know."

You settled into bed and put you head on Jax's chest, "when do the runs start?"

Jax stroked your face, "two weeks, it's a week at a time but we won't be doing many." Jax sounded like a week was far too long.

*****

Jax turned on the TV on the wall and wrapped his arms around you, "penguins or B horror movie?"

You shook your head, "there's a documentary on those gross jello foods from the sixties."

Jax smiled, "sure, we'll watch it, it might bring back some memories."

Beep beep

"It that Abel?"

Jax's voice was hoarse with sleep, you had put a motion detector along with the monitor so if he got up and came towards the adjoining door, you would know, "give it a second, he might just need a few minutes." But then Abel was knocking on the door.

You got up and let him in, Abel wiping his damp eyes, "what's wrong sweetie."

He sniffed, "I had a bad dream, can I stay with you and daddy tonight?"

You smiled and picked him up, "you wanna be in the middle?" He nodded and climbed in Jax snuggling close to him.

"What was your bad dream about?"

You lifted the cover and Abel buried his face in your chest, "the monster."

Jax put his arm over both of you, "where did the monster come from?"

Abel sounded scared, "the jungle, grandma was asleep and it was on TV."

You swallowed "well the monster can't hurt you, it's only a picture. Did you tell grandma you were scared?"

*****

"I tried but she didn't wake her up."

You could feel the anger coming off Jax, "you're home now and we'll always wake up if you want a cuddle, do you think you can go back to sleep?"

Able nodded and rubbed his eyes, as he fell asleep, you looked over at Jax, "we'll talk about this in the morning."

"You need to talk to your mother about her drinking and Abel can't stay with her if she's not going to wake up when he needs her."

Jax nodded, "I'll talk to her, if we go away again, Opie and Lyla can take him." You swallowed, "alright, I'm going to put Abel into the daycare at the museum. She can't be around him when she's like this."

******

"Can you hold off a bit and let me talk to her?"

You took a deep breath, "ok, but this is her last chance."

"Hey Juicy, this is the second time this week you've been by. Does it have anything to do with my new intern?"

Jucie's eyes went wide, "ah, no."

You shook your head, "she asked after you. You want me to make an introduction?" The soft smile he gave you was enough of an answer.

You brought him into the exam room and Jessica smiled, "oh hello, my name's Jessica."

Juice took her outstretched hand and shook it, "this is Juan but everyone calls him Juice. I have things to do so I'm going to leave you kids alone."

Juice looked concerned but Jessica put her hand on his shoulder, "come on handsome, you wanna help me file?"

"Ok then, let's hope they're a good fit because you do not have enough people for all the shit you have to do."

Jax came looking for Juice an hour later, "how long's he been here?"

You smiled, "a while, Miss Warren is keeping him busy, do you want him back?"

Jax grinned and shook his head, "nah, just tell him the nomads are here for a visit."

Part 47

Part 47 picks up at the start of season 5 which will be the last season I am writing for. Please comment and reblog if you feel inclined.

#the reaper and the death angel #Jax teller #sons of anarchy #sons of anarchy imagine #fluff #soa #jax teller #sons of anarhcy fanficton #sons of anarchy fluff #jax teller imagine #jax teller fanfiction #jax teller x you #jax teller x reader #jax teller x oc #samcrow #jax teller fluff #charlie hunnam #fix it fanfiction #jax teller smut #charlie hunnam imagine #charlie hunnam fanfiction #jackson teller

[fifteensjukebox]

Hey hello how about 01, 12, 3, 5, 8, 13, 21, 34 and 55 for the HORRIBLE ask game. This year.

hiiiiiii anon! i haven't gotten an anon in ages this is so exciting <3

also sorry i'm answering so late i explain it in the middle but i had a family outing and i thought mobile would let me edit

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? i do! my mom's my best friend in a way i'm sure is annoying to people who don't, and my dad is annoying but he is the best dad i know

03: Do you regret anything? biiiiiig question. i try not to. i try to tell myself i needed to do things to learn or whatever but i'm always wondering how else things could've gone and second guessing things as i do them

05: What is your relationship status? very much single. if you want to hear about my latest crushes you'll find it in my "vie" and "lore" tags but i'm sure they're not going anywhere so shoot your shot!

08: Played any sports? my dad coached a soccer team i was on when i was 4 but i was more interested in the dandelions on the field… outside of required gym class stuff (which i did not enjoy) i've enjoyed tennis and beach volleyball with my family (18 y/o brother included)

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? i think my record is 36, the last day/night/flight home from seeing my now-ex tumblr gf

well. if anything (back to earlier qs i could say i regret the whole met-online-ldr thing but it was good when it happened and im seeing it work out so well for friends so it could've been worthwhile in the long run!

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? irl i don't entirely hate anyone but i have some strong mixed near-hate feelings about the exes (and one not-yet-ex? i think? they're on the way out) of people i care about, and a certain ex friend of mine (if she makes the next move in reaching out i might be able to find it in myself to forgive but at this point it won't be as easy as it could've been)

21: What are your plans for this weekend? tbd but probably festive family things? extended family christmas dinner is on monday and we'll do our gift exchange that morning (speaking of which i need to get ready rn to leave for our family brunch followed by mall trip to shop for secret santa - my parents+18 y/o brother+i do a mini secret santa - well mini in that there are only 4 names but we have a generous budget bc it's usually our main/only source of gifts amongst ourselves. i got my mom again this year and she made it a little too easy by requesting a specific pair of raybans that make up most of the budget, but i'll get creative with the rest) we're also going to the distillery district for the vibes on thursday and my dad's taking these 2 days off work so collectively it all feels like weekend plans. maybe i'll go skating on the actual weekend! i haven't done it yet this season and i miss it

update here is that i didn't find anything for mom except the raybans so i may be going out alone to shop more on fri/weekend

34: Who/what was your last dream about? damn. the one time i don't write it down. oh! ok the last one i remember was one where a version of my ex bestie and i got back together so to speak but she was being overtly manipulative and i had to decide if i was ok with that? which. thanks subconscious! way to mix her with the bitch i had a crush on in middle school! real ex-bestie would never do that but i think it's created some irrational fear where before i just had sadness that i was mostly over (to briefly recap the situation there, she's depression-ghosted and blocked me before and she did it again earlier this year but it hurt more bc we'd been closer leading up to it than we had before the first time)

55: Are you mean? i think i can be really petty but people take it hard because they think of me as being so nice, so i know of some people who'd say i'm mean

thanks again for asking anon! i hope you're having a wonderful holiday season <3

#now that i think of it some might consider it mean and/or petty to say allthat about ex bestie but she is mean and petty (affectionate) #we always encouraged that in each other <333 #towards mutual enemies i mean #anyway thanks again-again beloved anon #vie #les messages #anon

[keepthefrank]

on the enormity of love and desire when you are alone

lucille clifton "climbing" | richard siken "birds hover the trampled field" | diary of franz kafka, jan 24 1915 | laurie halse anderson on 'moby dick' | 300122 by @ryebreadgf | richard siken "litany in which certain things are crossed out" | jenny holzer inflammatory essay "untitled (oh lord when you are alone)" | mitski "love me more" | richard siken "planet of love" | haruki murakami "norwegian wood"

#been thinking about this for a while #web weaving #richard siken #franz kafka #desire #jenny holzer #ryebreadgf #nicholasbraungf #i hope it's ok that i've included your work! it won't let me tag you :( #webweaving #litany in which certain things are crossed out #planet of love #you want to die for love #the enormity of my desire disgusts me #mitski #love me more #mine

[yuujispinkhair]

Enchanted to meet you - A Taylor Swift themed collab for your anime faves

This is my 500 followers event. Thank you so much to all you lovely people who decided to follow me! I love Taylor Swift, and her songs are an endless inspiration for dreaming about my anime faves and thinking about fics I want to write about them. So I thought, why not make a collab out of this! I hope you are as inspired by her lyrics as I am. I wanted to add a little fun idea to it, so I decided to make song groups based on the different tropes and Alternate Universes they make me think of.

The groups are as follows:

Mafia AU/ Crime AU / Bodyguard AU

Friends to lovers / Secret lovers / Friends with benefits

Enemies to lovers / Forbidden love / Fake dating AU

Fantasy AU / Royalty AU / Historical AU

Coffee shop AU / Flower shop AU / College AU

Heartbreak / Hurt and comfort / Second chances / Angst

Soulmates AU / Weddings / Domestic bliss

If you want some examples for the different tropes and AU's just send me an ask and I'll gladly help! You will find the songs further down under the cut. Please read the rules! This is an 18+ collab. Minors don't interact.

The rules:

You must be 18+ and have your age in your bio or pinned post.

You don't have to follow me to join

The deadline is Yuuji's birthday on March 20

The fandoms you can write for are Jujutsu Kaisen, Tokyo Revengers, and Attack on Titan. It's ok, though, if you want to add another fandom. Just let me know.

You can write safe for work/not safe for work/dark content, but please tag it appropriately and also put content warnings in the description of your fic.

The minimum word count is 500, but there's no max word count.

The characters you write for have to be aged up so they are at least 18.

Pairings can be character x reader or character x character. Polyships are fine too.

Character repeats are allowed, but each song is only available once.

I put the songs into groups that I think fit them. If you want a specific song, though, and want to write it for another group, it's ok too. Just let me know so I can change it.

The songs are supposed to be an inspiration for the story you write. You can include the lyrics I picked or use another part of the song. Or you don't include the lyrics but just write a story that represents the feeling the song gives you. Any of that is fine.

The pronouns used in the songs can be changed, of course.

If you have another Taylor Swift song that you'd like to use, you can join with that song, too!

To join:

Read the rules

Send me an ask with the character(s) and fandom + song you want to write for + which trope/AU you want to write. (For example: Fushiguro Toji of JJK + So it goes + Crime AU)

(Since I am going to write a Yuuji Royalty AU with an arranged marriage trope for this collab, I want to ask you to not request the same combination because it would give me huge anxiety aaahh, I hope you understand! Arranged marriage is open for other characters, though!)

You can start posting as soon as you like. Please tag me in the post.

Make sure to tag your content appropriately if it contains smut and/or dark themes. And include a content warning in the story description.

The deadline is March 20.

The songs:

Here's the Spotify playlist

Mafia AU/Crime AU/Bodyguard AU:

Ready for it?:

But if I'm a thief, then he can join the heist, and We'll move to an island, and he can be my jailer

Cowboy like me:

I've got some tricks up my sleeve Takes one to know one You're a cowboy like me

I know places: @crybabysano Sanzu Haruchiyo x Reader: Serial killer, Crime AU

Baby, I know places we won't be found And they'll be chasing their tails trying to track us down

So it goes:

You know I'm not a bad girl, but I Do bad things with you

No body no crime:

I think he did it, but I just can't prove it No, no body, no crime

Friends to lovers/Secret lovers/Friends with benefits:

Dress: @hoobish Mitsuya x Reader: Friends to lovers: Falling like the stars

Say my name and everything just stops I don't want you like a best friend Only bought this dress so you could take it off

You belong with me:

Dreaming 'bout the day when you wake up and find That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

Cruel Summer:

I don't wanna keep secrets just to keep you

Paper Rings:

I hate accidents except when we went from friends to this Darling, you're the one I want In paper rings, in picture frames, in dirty dreams

You are in love: @naviavu Sukuna x Reader: Friends with benefits

One night, he wakes Strange look on his face Pauses, then says "You're my best friend" And you knew what it was, he is in love

It's nice to have a friend: @lovesatoru Jean Kirstein x Reader: Friends to lovers

Church bells ring, carry me home Rice on the ground looks like snow

Enemies to Lovers/Forbidden love/Fake dating AU:

Don't blame me:

Don't blame me, love made me crazy If it doesn't, you ain't doin' it right

Illicit affairs: @officialbunnie Eren x Reader: Forbidden love

You taught me a secret language I can't speak with anyone else And you know damn well For you, I would ruin myself A million little times

Treacherous:

And I'll do anything you say If you say it with your hands And I'd be smart to walk away But you're quicksand

Wildest dreams:

He's so tall and handsome as hell He's so bad, but he does it so well

Blank space:

"Oh my God, look at that face You look like my next mistake Love's a game, wanna play?"

Sparks fly:

My mind forgets to remind me You're a bad idea

Fantasy AU / Royalty AU / Historical AU

King of my heart: @yuujispinkhair Itadori Yuuji x Reader: Arranged marriage, Royalty AU

And all at once, you are the one I have been waiting for King of my heart, body, and soul

Love story:

You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess It's a love story, baby, just say, "Yes"

Enchanted: @unlit-memories Itadori Yuuji x Fushiguro Megumi: Fantasy AU

This night is sparkling Don't you let it go I'm wonderstruck Blushing all the way home

Begin again: @mitsuyaya Fushiguro Toji x Reader: Reincarnation AU: Affinity between the past and the present

I've been spending the last eight months Thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end But on a Wеdnesday in a café, I watched it begin again

Today was a fairytale:

Can you feel this magic in the air? It must have been the way you kissed me

Ivy:

I wish to know The fatal flaw that makes you long to be Magnificently cursed

Wonderland:

We found Wonderland You and I got lost in it

Coffee shop AU / Flower shop AU / College AU

Mine:

You were in college, working part-time, waiting tables Left a small town and never looked back I was a flight risk, with a fear of falling Wondering why we bother with love, if it never lasts

Betty:

But if I just showed up at your party Would you have me? Would you want me?

Everything has changed: @florasuno Itadori Yuuji x Reader: College AU

All I know is you held the door You'll be mine and I'll be yours

22: @manjiken Geto Suguru x Reader: Coffeeshop AU

It feels like a perfect night For breakfast at midnight To fall in love with strangers

Heartbreak / Hurt and comfort / Second chances / Angst

I wish you would:

I wish you would come back Wish I never hung up the phone like I did, I Wish you knew that I'd never forget you as long as I live

The last time: @betheydocrimewrites Fushiguro Toji x Reader: Heartbreak

This is the last time I'm asking you this Put my name at the top of your list

Death by a thousand cuts: @seychellse Okkotsu Yuuta x Reader: Hurt and comfort

My heart, my hips, my body, my love Tryna find a part of me that you didn't touch

This love:

This love left a permanent mark This love is glowing in the dark, These hands had to let it go free, and This love came back to me

I don't wanna live forever: @pookiepoodle Itadori Yuuji x Reader: Hurt and comfort: I just wanna keep calling your name

I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home

Soulmates AU / Weddings / Domestic bliss

Invisible string:

And isn't it just so pretty to think All along there was some Invisible string Tying you to me?

Call it what you want:

I want to wear his initial on a chain 'round my neck Chain 'round my neck Not because he owns me But 'cause he really knows me

All too well: @fandomcrysis Gojo Satoru x Reader: Soulmates AU: All the hours I lost

And maybe we got lost in translation Maybe I asked for too much But maybe this thing was a masterpiece 'Til you tore it all up

Speak now:

Don't say yes, run away now I'll meet you when you're out Of the church at the back door

Lover: @seychellse Kugisaki Nobara x Reader: Domestic bliss

Can I go where you go? Can we always be this close? Forever and ever

New Year's Eve:

But I stay when it's hard or it's wrong or we're making mistakes I want your midnights But I'll be cleaning up bottles with you on New Year's Day

I have a lot more songs for this collab, so if you need more inspiration, I'll gladly help!

The pronouns of the lyrics can be changed of course! This collab is for all sexualities and gender identities, and I'd love to see some diversity. If you have any questions you can send me an ask anytime! I hope some of you will join and we'll all have fun writing!

[ye4gerismarchives]

the bachelorette chp 4, p1: visiting connie’s family

an: hey y’all! this coming to a close end 💀 i mentioned this in a different post but i will not be active for a while. i’m traveling! i know y’all are rolling your eyes and groaning rn because that means a bachelorette chapter won’t be dropping for a while. i’m getting started on your next date and i’m hoping to get it done by tomorrow. it should be the shortest date! i’ll be working on your final date during on my trip and it should be done by the time i comeback! but i definitely will have the boys and the gang answer your questions and read your thoughts! link at the end of the chapter!

tags: black, fem reader

tag list: @taybird

Things were now different since proposals were nearing. From now on, there were no more breakfasts with Mikasa and Sasha.(why did i lie?)They were sent away so that they would intervene with your 'boyfriends'. And even if they were around, you wouldn't have been able to catch them.

Today you were woken up early because you would be traveling to Regako to meet Connie's family. You were already familiar with Connie's family, so he already had an upper hand.

Connie was very excited to get out of the house once more and to see his family. He was doing this with you, so it made things better.

"Martin and Sunny are gonna have so many questions, you know?"

He had been driving for an hour and there were a few minutes to go. In the past hour, you and Connie joked about a few things and then you napped.

"Yeah," you reply.

"My mom never lets them watch dating shows but for this time only, they're allowed to. So, they're curious. They'll probably ask how we're allowed to be in love...cause we're friends. And they'll be curious about being on camera as well.

You purse your lips. "Connie, you're one of my three boyfriends. Yeah, you're my friend but you're my partner too. In a week, if you end up staying, you'll be proposing to me, and if I say yes, you'll be my husband. You need to let go of this 'friend' thing and actually be my boyfriend."

Connie is silent for a moment. He opens his mouth again but his voice is quiet. "It's kind of hard to do that when there are two others. This whole thing has been easy for Jean and Bertholdt. They're die-hard romantics. I'm...I was your friend. I only know how to be friendly with you."

"So, are you saying you aren't into me romantically or what? We don't have to do this. We can drop you off at home and I'll go back to the mansion."

"That's not what I'm trying to say. y/n...I do want a future with you, I just don't have that same advantage as Jean and Bertholdt. And I mean...wouldn't you want your spouse to be your best friend and not a stranger?"

He was right. Bertholdt and Jean could do everything in their power to make you theirs but you don't know them.

"Connie, if I wanted, I'd stop everything and marry you right now."

Connie looks over at you and smiles. "I was hoping you could say that."

"I love you."

Connie's face drops. "Huh?" He slightly swerves on the road. You grab onto the upper car handle and giggle. "I love you, Connie."

This was the first contestant that you admitted you loved.

"Love you, too," Connie replies. You weren't sure if he meant it because he didn't include an 'I' but the rest of the time you spent with him would determine if he truly loved you.

It was still daytime when Connie finally reached his house. The camera team was right behind.

"You know...I don't feel so comfortable with Martin and Sunny being on camera. I mean, what if I don't win? It'll be so embarrassing for them," Connie said.

"They're kids. I think they're facing will be blocked out. Don't worry," you reassure him. You get out of the passenger seat, so you could get the suitcase in the back. Connie popped out of nowhere. Your hand was reaching for the trunk and he grabbed it. "Don't worry about it. I'll get it, ok? Let's just go say hi to my family and get things over with."

Connie didn't let go of your hand and lead you to the front door. The camera team followed behind and other crew members continued to prepare themselves.

Connie rang the doorbell and as soon as that happened, you could hear fast footsteps approaching the door. You could only assume that it was one of the kids. The door swung open and your prediction was right. The person in front of you was Sunny, who was now eight. She was the darkest of her siblings and her hair was in locs. But most importantly, she was adorable and had the biggest smile on her face.

Martin came up behind her. He was thirteen, brown-skinned, and was growing his curly hair out. "Hi, y/n," he greets you. "Damn, so no 'hi, Connie. We miss you big bro'?" Connie cuts in. Martin rolls his eyes and Sunny greets her older brother and jumps into his arms. "You're getting heavy! At some point, I won't be able to carry you anymore!"

The image of Connie and his sister turned into Connie and your possible child. You could see him not struggling to hold your infant and throwing them midair. You'd like to think that baby would be happy and wouldn't complain for most of their life. You imagined the baby having your looks and Connie's personality.

Your daydreaming was interrupted when Martin tugged on your hand. "My parents in the kitchen. Come say hi."

Of course. One thing about the Springers is that they love to eat and feed other people. During the holidays, Connie's mom would make food and give meals out to the less fortunate and Connie's dad was a monster on the grill. Before the show, you would come over and you would leave with like a month's worth of food. The Springers were also party people. They'll celebrate anything. These were the people who would probably play a part in wedding planning but let's not get ahead of yourselves.

(EXTENDED PART)

The Springers had sat you down in their dining room and the camera team wasn't too far behind. Mrs. Springer sat in front of you and was ready to start asking questions.

"How have you been? I've been keeping up with the show but...how've you been?" she starts. "I'm doing just great Mrs. Springer. Kicking out three guys does make me feel lighter," you joke.

"Oh good! I did like that Eren boy though. He's so handsome."

Mr. Springer nudged his wife and she rolled her eyes. "Should we start planning for your wedding?" he asks.

"Well, I don't have a fiancé yet. But do start expecting an invitation. Even if I don't end up marrying Connie, I do want you all there. You all mean a lot to me."

The older Springers let out an 'aw’.

"Can I be a flower girl?" Sunny asked. "I'll have to ask Levi but I would love for you to be my flower girl," you reply. The thought of that possibly evil little man did bring a nasty feeling in your mouth.

"So, how long do you plan on staying?" Mrs. Spinger asks. You and Connie looked at each other. Connie decides to answer this question. "Just for tonight. She has to meet another family member tomorrow."

The faces of the Springer family drop. "Oh...you don't think this is going too fast?"

"It's...it's going fast. For me, this show just started. I'll be married in two weeks if the engagement can last that long."

You haven't even picked out a dress or taken a look at one. You wanted to start planning badly but you needed to figure who you want to be with.

The Springers decided to move on from the wedding topic and started to talk about their kids' accomplishments.

You spaced out as they spoke. This could be you one day, with a big family, or even just Connie. You would come home from work and discuss your day with him, you would cook with him and just be happy with him.

link!

now voting for your boy is required. i know the questions for the boys is required but if you’ve asked a question, feel free to ask another OR let me know that you have!

#black!reader #jean kirstein x reader #aot x black! reader #bertholdt x reader #connie spinger x reader

[katedrakeohd]

A Very Merry Birthday (6)

[Masterlist]

Rated: Mature 18+

(3 🍋s on fire, because we're talking threesome here.)

Characters involved: (TRH)Drake & Kate Walker, Preston Davis the bodyguard.

Content warning: Sexual situations (dubcon, masturbation, threesome), swearing, angst, fluff.

Word count: 6000+ (buckle up, get your popcorn and prefered beverage ready)

Prompts included: From Wacky Drabbles- ( they appear bolded in story, but not necessarily in order)

#82 - I didn't realize I needed your permission.

#84 - Just keep moving.

#85 - Do you want me to leave?

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Tagging:

@darley1101 @sfb123 @mom2000aggie @fluffyfirewhiskey @jovialyouthmusic @sirbeepsalot @kingliam2019 @no-one-u-know @nikkis1983 @glaimtruelovealways @texaskitten30 @bbrandy2002 @marshmallowsandfire

Drake leaves Preston alone in his room to get changed. Standing in the silence of the hallway all he could hear and feel were the sound of his blood rushing through his ears and the thud of his heart in his chest and throat. 

Being alone with Kate was his favourite way to spend an evening, and now he had invited another man over to participate. He was still unsure how this night was going to go. The thought of watching his wife touching another man in a sensual way was outside of his comfort zone. He had to trust Kate to not take this too far. He also had to keep himself from wanting to murder Preston for taking pleasure out of touching and kissing his wife. And somehow he had to find pleasure of his own if he was to perform adequately to please Kate. Fuck, this feels all kinds of wrong. 

He sees Preston come out of his room with his hair combed, dressed in trousers, but in bare feet. Drake gives him a wry grin and runs his fingers back through his own hair to fix it. Preston's rakish good looks were already exaggerated by the thickness of his mustache and the scruff of his stubble, making Drake feel less masculine with his shaven cheeks and neatly trimmed hair. He suddenly understood how Maxwell felt about Drake showing off his chest hair at the beach, or when he rolled up his sleeves to do a strenuous task. Drake's stomach was suddenly in knots and he wished he had some whiskey to take the edge off his nerves. He doesn't know what to say to the mountain of a man standing next to him, so he just acknowledges him with a nod and then knocks at his hotel room door.

"You don't have your key?" Preston asks, keeping his voice low.

Drake shakes his head, speaking softly, "No, I gave it to her."

From the other side of the door they can hear Kate ask with a playful sing song tone of voice, "Who is it?"

Drake leans against the doorframe and then says, "Room service."

The door opens and Kate looks them over with a smile on her face, "Hello."

Drake grins, "I believe you ordered the two for one entertainment special."

Kate steps back to allow them to come into the room. "Yes, yes I did. Come on in."

After Kate closes the door behind them there's a brief awkward moment as the two men glance at each other and then toward Kate expectantly. With a gentle smile, Kate walks over to Drake and stretches up on her toes to give him a kiss on the cheek. He wraps his arm around her back to hug her to his side and she rests her hand on his cheek, whispering in his ear. 

"You've done well, my love. Why don't you go off to the bathroom, brush your teeth, and freshen up a bit while I talk privately with Preston for a moment?"

Drake looks quickly to Preston and then lets go of Kate, keeping his voice low, "Are you sure? Maybe I should stay."

Patting him gently on the chest, she grins, "Don't worry. We'll be fine. I'm not going to start anything while you're gone."

Drake looks between Kate and Preston, trying to fight the uneasy feeling in his gut. Walking over to the bed he keeps an eye on them as he sits down to take off his shoes and socks. "No funny business, Preston. I know very well how irresistible Kate can be."

Preston smirks at him, shoving his hands in his pockets. "I promise to keep my hands to myself, sir."

"Good."

After Drake disappears into the bathroom, Preston breathes a sigh of relief, relaxing a little. "Is he always like this?"

Kate grins at the bodyguard, leading him further into the room. "Drake's complicated."

She sits down on the end of the bed and he settles down into the comfortable armchair opposite. 

"Do you mind if I ask you a personal question?"

Kate shrugs, crossing her legs and arranging her skirt around her knees. "You can ask."

"What's it like to be married to a guy like him?"

"It's interesting, sometimes infuriating, definitely intense, and absolutely incredible."

Preston chuckles, "That's a lot of 'I' words to describe someone."

Kate glances toward the bathroom, wondering how much Drake can overhear.

"Trust me, Drake's the whole alphabet. The only drawback is that he just won't shut up about his feelings."

Preston chuckles again, "Good one. I know I have some 'a' words to describe him too. But I'll keep those to myself."

Kate nods, "Considering that he's your boss, I think that's smart. I want to apologize again for hurting you. I was afraid if I hadn't stopped things that Drake might have hurt you worse."

Preston looks down at his lap, "You could have just slapped my face again."

"Yeah, I know. So are you still sore?"

Preston leans forward in his seat, resting his elbows on his knees, "A little tender, there will probably be bruising tomorrow, but not my first time taking a hit to the groin."

Kate appraises him over again, lifting her eyebrow, "So you've gotten handsy with an unwilling date before? You don't strike me as that kind of guy, Preston."

He shakes his head, "Nah, nah. I've just been dumb enough to play backyard sports without a cup."

Drake returns from the bathroom, "Oh yeah? What kind of sports did you play?"

Kate interrupts before Preston can answer, "Don't tell me you two would rather discuss sports, than play with me. If so, I'll just send Preston back to his room and you two can chitchat on the drive home tomorrow."

Drake shakes his head, placing his hands on his hips, "No, after all the trouble I went through to get him here, I'd rather see what kind of play you have in mind."

Kate glances between her two men with a smile, "Before we play we need to set some rules."

"Ok," Preston says, sitting back in his chair.

Drake nods, "But, don't forget about my stipulation that I brought up earlier."

"Which is?" Preston wants to know.

Kate sighs giving Preston an apologetic look, "Drake insisted that no part of you was allowed inside of any part of me."

Preston frowns, "That kind of reduces any sort of fun for me in this situation doesn't it?"

Drake folds his arms across his chest, "Well yeah, sorry to burst your bubble but I'm just trying to protect my marital relationship here. I don't want this, whatever it turns out to be, jeopardizing my marriage by turning into some future affair between you two."

"You know I'm the one who is supposed to be in charge here right? One night of fun isn't going to ruin anything. Trust me, Drake." Kate insists. "We've already been over this."

Preston digs into the pocket of his trousers, pulling out a foil condom packet, "And if you're that worried about what might happen in the heat of the moment, I did bring protection."

"See? There you go, Drake. He came prepared. Now let's get this party started. And as the Duchess in Charge, I am deciding our party games."

"Sexual party games, seriously?" Drake grumbles, rolling his eyes. 

Kate gets up from the bed, "Oh come on, Mr. Crankypants. I know you'll enjoy them, and besides I'll be explaining how we play each game as we go."

"Mr. Crankypants. I bet you were a barrel of laughs at birthday parties when you were a kid," Preston laughs.

Drake shoots him an angry glare, and Preston smirks back at him, "Speaking of name calling, that brings up an issue. If she's directing the action, I need to know how I'm supposed to acknowledge you both. In my job I use, 'Your Grace, Sir, and Ma'am.'  And I don't know if that works here, considering how intimate we're all about to be."

Drake breathes an annoyed sigh, jabbing his thumb in Preston's direction as he addresses his wife, "If I hear him saying your name in any sort of passionate or seductive way I'm seriously going to lose it. I'll kill him with my bare hands."

"Ok, fine. To safeguard Preston's life, and my husband's precious ego, I'll allow Preston to call me 'K'. Is that neutral enough?"

Drake nods and so does Preston. 

"And so he'll be 'D' then?"

Kate shrugs, "Works for me, but I'm still using both your proper names."

Drake folds his arms, "Ok, so what's happening first?"

"We undress of course, and I'm hoping neither of you are shy. Because I want you and Preston to undress each other. But I want everyone to keep their underoos on for now."

Drake sticks his hand in his pocket, grabbing a handful of Kate's panties. "Um, but you aren't wearing yours."

Preston swallows, "Sh..she's not?"

Drake pulls the lacy undergarment out of his pocket, "Nope. I took these off of her earlier."

Kate holds her hand out, "I'll take them back now."

He dangles them off his finger and then drops them into her hand. "So who is the lucky guy that gets to put them back on you?"

"The first guy down to his underwear gets to slide mine back on, but here's the catch, the other guy gets to take my dress off of me," Kate says with a grin. 

Preston pushes himself up out of the chair, an amused twinkle in his eye and a smile tugging at his mouth, "So one of us gets to touch you from the top down, while the other gets to touch you from the bottom up? I like how you play games K. Fun for everybody."

Drake steps forward to place his hand on Preston's arm, "Curb your enthusiasm there, cowboy."

Preston shakes his arm out of Drake's grasp. "If you're gonna get grabby then help me out of my clothes, D."

Drake turns to face Preston, staring him down as he untucked his dress shirt. The olive that Kate threw at him earlier falls out and bounces off Preston's foot. He looks down, "Is that an olive?"

"Don't ask," Drake mutters, undoing the buttons on the cuff of his sleeve, "I'm gonna help you out here, since you're dressed a lot more casually than I am."

Preston laughs, grabbing Drake by the sleeve to stop him from undressing further, "Hey, stop cheating. I'm supposed to do that for you."

Drake looks down at Preston's simple t-shirt and dress pants, and sees that he isn't wearing a belt. Damn, I want to be the one putting her panties on. Maybe if I take my time he'll get me down to my underwear first. Shit, that means he gets to touch her first. Damn you Kate. You're determined to piss me off with these party games.

Kate twirls her panties around her finger, "Come on you two, get with the baring of skin already. Don't make me take this dress off myself."

"I can't believe I'm doing this," Drake mutters, as he undoes the button on Preston's dress pants and then plucks at the fabric of his shirt to untuck it.

"Watch it there, D... I'm ticklish," Preston smirks as he works on the last two buttons of Drake's shirt. 

"Shut up, Preston," Drake grumbles, as he hears Kate giggle. 

"I didn't know watching two guys undress could be so entertaining. Keep going."

Preston undoes Drake's belt and dress pants next, staring him in the eye as he pulls down the zipper. "Lemme guess, your underwear are black too."

With a frown, Drake brushes Preston's hands aside. "Hands up, Meathead. I'm gonna pull up your shirt."

Preston's protest is muffled by Drake's yanking of his shirt up toward his head.  "Hey, the name calling isn't necessary. And ouch, you pinched me."

Drake makes sure to mess up Preston's hair as he tugs the shirt off of him and tosses it aside. 

"Hah, you're just jealous of my hair," Preston laughs as he brushes his back into place with his fingers.

Drake barks back, "Hardly, and your mustache looks ridiculous."

Preston shrugs, "Whatever you say, babyface."

"Hey! I'm fully capable of growing whatever beard I want. I just chose to shave before my date, and get a haircut. I..I wanted to look good for Kate," Drake argues, catching his wife's eye briefly, and then squaring off in front of his bodyguard again.

"No arguments here, Honey, but you're still overdressed. Preston, be a dear and even the playing field by taking off my husband's shirt. Then you'll see he has no trouble in the hair department."

Preston unbuttons the cuff on Drake's other sleeve and then peels back his shirt, letting it slide down his arms to the floor. Drake places his hands on his hips. The motion, combined with 

the weight of his belt and the phone in his pocket makes his dress pants fall down around his ankles. "Whoops, looks like I'm down to my underwear first."

Preston turns toward Kate, "He did that on purpose."

While Drake steps out of his pants, Kate shrugs and tosses her panties at him. "Here you go."

Drake tucks the edge of the lacy waistband into his mouth, mumbling as he relieves Preston of his pants, shoving them down over his ass. "There..ffinsh the rest of tht yrself."

Slipping Kate's panties over his wrist, Drake steps over to his wife. "Before I hand you off to him, and I'm forced to watch as he strips you naked, I want something first."

Kate licks her lips as he reaches up to cup her face in his hands, tilting her head back. "Oh, and what's that?"

As he leans in for a kiss the firm pressure of his mouth against hers almost hurts, making her whimper. He was determined to remind her that no matter how Preston touched her, he was the most important man in her life. When he finally pulls back, her lips are tingling.

He whispers a soft apology against her cheek when he sees her pained expression, "I'm sorry. Just please promise me something."

"What?" She whispers back, as he leans his forehead against hers, softly stroking her cheeks with his thumbs. 

"Make sure he asks your permission before he touches you anywhere. If he's rough with you in any way I'll never forgive myself." 

Stepping back, he sees her nod. "Okay," she whispers.

Turning away he glares at Preston, "She's all yours, but I'm warning you that I'm watching your every move. If I see your hands treating her with anything but the greatest of respect, I'll break your fingers and then I'll break your face. Understood?"

Preston nods, "Yes, understood. I promise to be as gentle as possible."

"Good. Oh and Preston?"

"Yeah?" He asks, as he steps out of his pants. His heart threatened to burst out of his chest, it was pounding so hard.

"Make sure she enjoys every second of it."

…

Drake's underwear weren't black afterall, they were blue. Preston's were grey. Kate's were black silk and lace. Drake was currently running them through his hands, and occasionally wrapping them around his fist. He watched Preston approach Kate, hoping he'd chicken out, or at least trip and fall on his big mustached face. His feet were big enough, but no such bad luck. Staring at Preston's back, with its broad shoulders and defined muscles made him feel small. Glancing down at the other man's large hands, he felt an ache in his gut over the thought of them being capable of touching Kate with tenderness. The way Kate's eyes traveled over Preston as he smiled at her, made Drake feel sick. He didn't want to watch Preston undress his wife, but at the same time he couldn't look away. He knew the satiny fabric of her dress wouldn't need much encouragement to slide down off of her, and after being tempted all evening by how great she'd looked in it; he was just as eager as Preston to see her naked.

Kate sized up Preston as he stood before her. Physically he wasn't much taller than Drake, barely an inch, but his posture was straighter. He seemed to tower over Kate, and her line of sight was mostly filled by the wall of his chest covered nipple to nipple by a golden mat of curly chest hair. When she looked up, his lip curled upward in a smirk, making his mustache twitch.

"I'm going to touch you Preston, are you okay with that?"

He sucks in a nervous breath and nods, "If it means I get to touch you back, then go right ahead."

Kate tries not to focus on the significant bulge in his underwear as she looks down, but it wasn't easy. She wasn't going to touch him there, not yet. She starts by stroking her fingers slowly up his arms beginning at his wrists. His fingers twitch, and she can't help noticing his chest rising and falling as his rate of breathing increases. 

"If you're affected this badly when I touch your arms, then what's going to happen if I touch you somewhere else?"

 

"I..I..don't know."

The amount of meat on his limbs was slightly more than Drake's but it was definitely more muscle than fat. Kate knew Drake's measurements off by heart because she helped him pick out his suits. If Preston were to put on Drake's clothes by accident, one flex of his muscles would split the seams. 

When Kate's hands make there way up to rest on his shoulders, his hands are still hanging by his sides. She pouts up at him and the desire in his eyes as he gazes back is obvious. 

"What's the matter Preston, don't you want me?" Kate asks, lowering her lashes and then slowly looking up to search his face.

His eyes widen momentarily in surprise at the unexpected seduction she was laying on him, "Is that a trick question?"

"No."

"You're either trying to kill me, or get me killed, asking me something like that."

"Well, answer the question."

Continues here ..>

#drake walker #choices #long post #drake x kate #henry cavill as preston davis #tw: dubcon

[sunarintoes]

Dear Whovever: [Kenma]

Synopsis: You and Kenma are both best friends and youtube gamers however you want to be more than just best friends so you decide to ‘man up’ one day and write a heart felt confession in a minecraft notebook before then putting it in Kenma’s personal chest.

WC: 3K

TW: slight swearing :)

[Episode one]

[recording in 3… 2… 1… start!] 

“Hey gamers, Kodzuken here with Tulip-but-make-it-yellow! I've done a few Minecraft videos with Tulip before, but thought I'll start a new series that will be posted every Monday.”

“It's called Minedays with Tulip and Kodzu”

“I- no, Tulip. I'm not sure what we’re gonna call it. But you guys will know- obviously since it's the title of this video.”

You whine and pout into the monitor, “Kodzu I think Minedays is a cute name.” 

Instead of replying Kenma rolls his eyes and hits you ingame. “Should we introduce the challenge and get it started?”

“Yeah that's a good idea!” 

“Well, it's about eleven am right now, we have until eleven pm to build a Minecraft house from a random topic,” he pauses and moves to the side to point to a sectioned spinwheel, “on this bad boy,” whacks the spinner, “we have eight different themes, in a sec I’ll spin it and whatever it lands on will be what we have to build.”

You let out a high pitched ‘hmm,’ “I feel bad for Kuroo and Hinata, they’re both going to have to edit twelve hours of footage down to 10 minutes!”

Kenma chuckles, “fifteen minutes actually.”

This time you roll your eyes. “Hurry up and spin it you fool! I want to get buildinggg” 

Smiling, Kenma moves back a bit and spins the wheel, after thirty seconds full of anticipation the wheel finally stops and its small arrow is pointing at- “Yes! Cottage core theme!” you yell out while Kenma groans. 

“Really? That's lame why couldn't we have ‘Lucifer’s Bedroom’?” 

You poke your tongue out to the monitor - which Kenma could see, after all, you are in a Discord call with him. “Don't be sad just because you're prancing in my turf…. Looooooser!”

Kenma playfully glares towards you, “You’re on! See you in twelve hours!”

Unfortunately, the difficulty of building a cottage core house in the woods - in survival mode, proved more difficult than planned. 

“We spawned in a desolate area huh? Barely any flowers!” you hear Kenma make a sound of agreement as you sink into your comfortable ‘gamer’ styled chair. 

“Don't tell me you've given up? Just because you can't find any flowers?” 

You scowl at his cocky tone however your mood does a one-eighty when you suddenly get a good idea. “Ok everyone! I know what I have to do! I'm going to restart in another place because this isn’t working!”

Kenma makes a sound of surprise, “you're restarting? It's been an hour already-”

“Yeah and we have, like... eleven more.” Kenma sighs in response, “better get a move on.”

For the most part, the two of you kept quiet - not wanting to let the other know how well you were doing. However one look at your phone only to see that your twitter has blown up, you decide to take a short break, after all it has been four hours of you sitting on your ass playing Minecraft. Once you open Twitter you're met with a barrage of tags and mentions - all of which screaming ‘KenYn’ and ‘Kodzutulip.’ You felt heat rise to your face, you - yes you, Ln Yn with the online alias Tulip-but-make-it-yellow, has a big, fat, humongous crush on your best friend and fellow youtuber - Kenma, aka Kodzuken aka the cutest guy in the world. To make it worse - or better, you couldn't really tell, was that many of your viewers shipped you with him - as did his viewers. 

You are of course, happy with this but you can’t help but wonder if Kenma feels the same way, does he feel weirded out by all this shipping content? Does he find it uncomfortable? Does he find it unsettling to be shipped with his in-real-life best friend?

“Hey Yn?” Kenma calls softly, “you've been looking at your phone for the past ten minutes and your face looks sad.”

You instantly look up to meet Kenma’s face and try to find the right words to say, “I… I’m just kinda tired and eventually got distracted!! Sorry Kenken!”

Kenma visibly cringes at the old nickname - the one you gave him in primary school, “if you say so… better get your head in the game though - my mansion looks epic.”

Your eyes narrow, “mansion? The theme is cottage core!” Kenma quietly chuckles in response, “a mansion can still have a fairy aesthetic, you should know that”

You huff in faux annoyance as you place your phone away and ‘get your head in the game’ just as he requested. “Be prepared to be crushed! I am the cottage core guardian!”

There are ten minutes left to your’s and Kenma’s excruciatingly long Minecraft challenge, your ass hurts from sitting on it for almost twelve straight hours - including bathroom breaks. When the buzzer rings the two of you step back from your respective buildings and make your way to the starting point - which had been marked by a stack of 20 or so dirt blocks. 

“Well that was twelve hours of eye straining torture,” you say as you stretch your arms. 

“You're tired already?”

“Kinda… I can't wait to go to sleep after this.”

“Weak, I’m playing Battlefield as soon as this is over.”

You roll your eyes and scoff, “this is why you look like a living corpse in the morning…”

Kenma looks you dead in the eyes and with a completely serious face he says, “yeah but you love it.”

You choke on your spit at his boldness, “y-yeah I guess.” 

If you were being honest, you were not the best at reading people and it was dark in Kenma’s gaming room, the only light coming from his three screen/monitor computer setup, but you think you see a light blush creep up to his cheeks. And you hate it, you hate when he says things that make your heart flutter, you hate it when he just sits there and the digital glow accentuates all of his delicate features, but what you hate most is yourself. You hate yourself because you have fallen in love with your best friend, you hate yourself because you know he doesn't like you back and you hate that you continuously give yourself a sense of false hope. 

“Yn… you want to stay up and game with me don’t you? ”

You sheepishly look to the side, ‘mayhaps.’

Kenma sighs looking at you with a soft face as he whispers “then I won’t play Battlefield and I’ll go to bed and so will you, ‘kay?”

You smile tiredly at him, “sounds like a deal.”

“We'll get back on at the same time tomorrow and we’ll do the final part of this video - the reveal. Until then.”

You smile and wave at the camera “cya soon~”

[recording over]

After your call with Kenma ended you got ready for bed but for some reason, no matter how tired you were, you just couldn't fall asleep - your mind was screaming obscene ideas that you couldn't help but contemplate. At first it was just wishful thinking but then came a thought that refused to leave, ‘confess.’ 

It was a tempting thought, but how? Surely you couldn't just say ‘hey Kenma I've liked you since high school lets date!’ yeah no, that was a horrible idea. Maybe if you confessed with some originality he would be more likely to accept but for now, you were going to do your best to go to sleep.

[Episode two]

[recording in 3… 2… 1… start!] 

In the morning you woke up feeling refreshed and excited for the day to come, Kenma had texted you and asked if you were feeling up to recording the reveal from last night and episode two today and of course you said yes. 

The video goes on without any troubles and soon you find yourself staring at the computer screen at eleven once again. 

“Remember to like, subscribe and comment below on who you think won this round.” Kenma’s voice is soothing - if you had to describe it you would say that it is silky like honey and smooth like dark chocolate; or maybe you would just say his voice is perfect. Kenma waves to the screen monitor, “hello? Earth to Yn! Are you dead or something? You look like a zombie.”

It takes a while to register, you weren’t really paying attention to the words he said as you were more interested in the way he sounded. You sit up and smile into the camera, “I'm awake… thanks for caring!”

He scoffs and swivels in his chair a bit, “I don't care about you, you're just my idiot best friend and flatmate.”

You playfully narrow your eyes, “well this idiot flatmate of yours helped you bake apple pie so you wouldn’t starve to death!”

“Hmmm, I guess. Well I'm going to head off. I'll see you later.”

You smile softly, “yeah I'll see you later, i'm just gonna stay on for a while.”

Kenma looks at you with an intrigued expression, “you're going to stay up longer? Better not be in this world, that's cheating. Want me to stay up with you?”

You roll your eyes and giggle, “it's all good I want to fix my house up in the other world. I'll see you tomorrow.”

He sighs, “if you say so.”

[recording over]

Your chair rolls back as you stretch, “maybe I should confess to him through a Minecraft journal…” you jump up. “Thats it! Thats a great way to confess! Its original and Kenma would appreciate it…. If he accepts my feelings that is…” 

You groan and slump back down into the chair, “maybe it’s best if I don't confess at all. No! I've wanted to do this for years! If he doesn't like me back it's all good! Maybe I just won't do this on a stream!”

You reach over to the bench and pull up your phone, “who to call, mmm ok let’s call Alisa I’m going to need some emotional support!”

“Hey gamers, Kodzu here in another Minecraft live stream, today we’re just in mine and Yn’s regular world and i'm going to build a house - a cottage to be specific,” he pauses and looks at the comment section; ‘no Yn isn't here right now, no Yn won't be joining this video, no I didnt know shes streaming at the moment, yes my favourite food is apple pie, yes I have a calico cat, no Yn is not my significant other, yes we are just friends.’ Kenma moves back and takes a breath, “wow you guys sure are interested in Yn huh? Maybe I should get them in more videos, might get more views that way,” he laughs a bit.

“Let's start off by heading to my base, I have the materials I’ll need there- oh uh what's this?” Kenma pauses as he stares at the foreign object, “I don't remember having a written book in my chest… maybe Yn went in here and put it in?”

Kenma stares at the book for a while before he opens it, only to be shocked. The comment section notices the blush on his face and continue to spam him with questions:

[kodzusbabe]: what's in that diary!!

[Kenmastan]: hahAAAHHA LOOK HE’S SO RED IN THE FACE

[piefacecutie]: ^^ omg you're so right @/Kenmastan hes so cute 💓

[Kenmaxyn]: I hope it's a confession!

[ynhater]: @/Kenmaxyn from who? Cause I didn't do it and I'd be the only one for Kenma oppAr

[kennismaken]: I hope it’s Yn! They’d be such a cute couple

[applepudding]: umm? Kodzu! Why did he get up and leave??

[ynhater]: babe come back!

[Kenmaxyn]: OMG MAYBE IT WAS YN !!!!

After your late night call with Alisa, you decided it would be best to just do it and then ignore Kenma for the day - well, not ignore him per se, just simply decline all his Discord calls and Facetime calls so you could put off being rejected a little while longer. You woke up with a throbbing headache that you could only blame yourself for, after all you are the dumbass who stayed up until God knows when just to write a heartfelt confession. Eventually the angst of waiting for a message from Kenma overwhelmed you and here you are now; streaming Overwatch to get your mind off of a certain someone.

“Ah no! Cant believe that stupid Hanzo got me! What a pain!” you frown at the screen and let out a sigh, “the round is over… bummer. Well while we wait an eternity for the next round I guess I should answer some of your questions… oh? I didn't know Kenma was streaming, no I’m not dating him… “ you feel your heart sink as you read the next comment; “what do you mean Kenma ran away after reading a book? Was he unhappy?”

The next moments felt like a blur, your heart was heavy and you felt tears well up in your eyes and somehow you missed the sound of someone breaking into your apartment and then your bedroom. Within a second you feel someone wrap their arms around you from behind, your body tenses up but immediately relaxes when you recognise the perpetrators scent; sweet yet salty, like caramel toffee.

“Kenma! W-what are you doing?”

“I like you too… I have for so long.”

Your eyes widen and it doesn't take too long for a smile to appear on your face, “I'm so glad to hear that.”

You feel him smile into your neck as his embrace tightens, “finish up your livestream so we can talk please.” 

“You don't need to tell me twice!”

It is eleven at night once again, but this time you’re not sitting alone in your gaming chair, instead you're sitting on Kenma’s lap - in his gaming chair as he slowly runs his hands through your hair and softly kisses your neck.

“So everyone’s pretty much freaking out over us huh?” you hum in response, “we’ve been officially together for what? Five hours?”

“Correct you are.”

You smile and hold up your phone while you continue to cuddle into him, “smile baby, I want the whole world to know that you're my player two.”

[Bonus - the love letter]

Dear Kenma,

This must be so strange - finding a journal in your chest. 

I have wanted to tell you this for quite a while and I guess I have never found the write words to say; or the right way to for that matter,

But I love you

I have loved you since our first year at Nekoma

It's been a while hasn’t it?

I'm sorry if this inconveniences you, makes you uncomfortable or makes you never want to see me again; 

Just let me continue for a little while longer because I need to get this off of my mind.

I love your smile - especially the rare one where you really smile, where your eyes crinkle and your cheeks begin to hurt 

I love your voice - it’s smooth and silky, like honey being spread across bread

I love your scent - it reminds me of salted caramel,  I can never get enough 

I love your mind - the way it works to make me laugh, make me calm and all else

I love your lips - not necessarily in a sexual way, but more so in the way you talk and speak, they move softly and slowly in a way only your lips could move in.

I love your body - how although you're hunched most of the time you still possess a fine elegance in the way you move. How at times it reminds me of a graceful swan floating down a lake. 

I love your hands - they are so pretty and dainty and soft, I want to hold them all day and all night

And most of all;

I love you

I love you in your entire

I could go ahead and pick the parts I love most and least but then you would no longer be you

I love you in your entire

Flaws and all

I know this may not be the most romantic, especially considering you’re reading this through Minecraft and I've never done this before but I had to let you know

Love 

Yn

Taglist: [open] @ladyrenart

note: sooo this is another style that i tried and i have mixed feelings about it :) also if you can’t tell,,, i’ve never written a love letter before :’)

#haikyuu #haikyu #haikyuu x reader #fluff #x reader #angst #kenma #kozume kenma #kenma x reader #kenma fluff #kenma angst #dear whoever #dear whoever: a haikyuu series #kozume kenma x reader

[xsixxx]

Bad Influence, Chapter Eight

Authors note: Hiya guys, it's been a while 🤙🏻 Sorry for the wait, I've had a rough few weeks, so I took a break from a lot of stuff, Tumblr included, but I'm back & I've been working on this chapter piece by piece. It was originally supposed to be longer but I've decided to split it into two separate chapters, which means at least the first part of ch.9 is written!

Thank you all for baring with me, I'm sorry for the wait!

So on with the goddamn show 🤟🏻

Warnings: Language, sexual tension, love triangle awkwardness, Beth being a super slut, loads of angst

Tags: @triplehaitches @freddiessmallnipples @queen-crue @scarecrowmax @lovesick-heart0 @littlesunnymoon @80sheart-strings @cranberribread @inthebackofmycarlaytheirbodies @deaconsroger @zoenicoles @crazysaladchopshop @ggorehorror @lunamadhatter99 @justtryingtoovercome @chaoticvybe @you-know-im-a-dreamer @eightiesrockbaby @valentines-in-london @xrosegoldwolfx @fupatroopaa @lilypetite88 @this-blog-must-be-the-place @ashleecrue @lauravic @dark-princess99 @unknownoblivion @mgkobsessed @antheasnow

(I've given up trying to find matching GIFs for the chapter so here's one of Erin Moriarty who is legit Beth in my head)

*Beths POV*

I rolled out of my bed, pulling on a tshirt & yawning as I went. I glanced across at the naked rockstar, asleep in my bed, which had become quite a common occurrence since the KISS tour ended for Mötley.

Vinces blonde hair lay feathered around his sleeping features & I couldn’t help that girlish feeling of excitement & smugness in my stomach as it struck me, as it does every morning that I wake up next to Vince, that this beautiful man that women threw themselves at, wanted to be sharing my bed.

I smirked to myself as I slipped silently out of the room & made my way into the kitchen.

“Coffee?” Came the always chirpy voice of Tommy, who was grinning ear to ear as he stood in just his boxers in the midddle of the kitchen, changing the filter in the coffee machine. I eyed him up & down, trying to muffle my giggle at the sight of his long chicken legs in all their glory.

“Please.” I mused back to him, smiling.

“Good night?” He winked, catching sight of my yawn as I draped myself lazily against the wall.

"Probably about as good as yours from the sounds of it," I sniggered, "I thought we were having a competition at one point!"

Tommy let out a loud, hearty laugh that immediately made me giggle. His happiness was infectious.

He poured out the coffee into two mugs before sliding me a sly smile as he opened up one of the cupboards & produced a bottle of whiskey. "Fancy making it Irish?" He chuckled.

"Tommy, it's like 10am!" I laughed, shaking my head at him.

"So?! It'll get us in the mood for tonight! You're still coming, right?" He asked as he poured way more than a shot into each of the coffee mugs & handed one to me. I rolled my eyes at his offer of corruption, but my smile betrayed my & I took it from him, more than willingly.

"Of course, you really think Vince would let me miss it?!" I snorted, taking a sip of what was, let's face it, 1/3 whiskey with a coffee mixer. I tried my hardest to keep a straight face as the alcohol hit the back of my throat & immediately warmed my chest, chasing away any remnants of lathergy I might've had. "He's desperate to show off for me, it's been so long since I've seen you guys play!"

"He won't be the only one up there showing off for you." Tommy said, smirking behind his mug as he took an impressive gulp without so much as a blink.

I feigned innocence. "What, are you gonna twirl around your little sticks to try & impress me, T-Bone?" I winked, sticking out my tongue cheekily as he playfully nudge my shoulder, his laughter ringing around the kitchen once again.

"You wish girly," he sniggered. "You know who I'm talking about."

I pretended to rub my chin thoughtfully. "I didn't know Mick had a thing for me.."

Tommy let out another infectious laugh that instantly had me giggling along with me.

"So," he started as we both composed ourselves & I took another sip of my drink "Does Vince know what you & Nikki have been up to then then?" Tommy winked.

I nearly choked on my mouthful of whisky as I clamped my hand over Tommys mouth, peering out of the kitchen door to check we weren't in danger of being heard.

I removed my hand from Tommys mouth to reveal a grin behind it. "So it is true!"

"What, n-no!" I stumbled, knowing I wasn't fooling him, not even close. I relented, sighing as I did. "Goddamn it Sixx, can't keep his mouth shut.."

"Oh, Sixx didn't tell me." He smirked, "I see how you guys act, it's not hard to put the pieces together, you hate each other a little too much." He laughed, his grin growing wider. "I'm kinda surprised Vinny hasn't figured it out yet either.."

I scoffed. "If Vince ever noticed anything other than pussy or his fucking hair, then hell must be freezing over."

"Babe, if hell is freezing over, it's only because you've been warming the devil's bed." Tommy winked again, chuckling darkly as I took a swipe at his arm.

"Ok, well A," I started, as my hand caught him just below his shoulder sharply, wiping that grin off if his face. "I am not sleeping with Nikki! We kissed once! And B, how do you know I call him the devil?!" I asked sheepishly, my face flushing red with embarrassment.

Tommys mouth grew wide again as he rubbed his arm where I'd hit him. "Oh Sixx loves that shit, he brags about it all the time to us!" Sniggered T-Bone, before noticing my face & visibly grimacing. "I said too much again, didnt I? Beth, I'm sorry! He doesn't take the piss or anything," he rushed, stumbling over his words, "you just know him, that sorta shit builds up his ego, calling him the Devil is probably the biggest compliment you could give that twisted fucker!"

I groaned aloud as I downed the last of my whiskey with one swift gulp, hoping it might chase away my memory of the last 5 minutes.

"I can't believe you know!" I moaned, hanging my head.

"I can't believe you thought you guys were being subtle!"

"T-Bone, you gotta keep this to yourself ok? I like how things are with me & Vince right now, we're having fun & I kinda wanna keep it that way. And, for the love of God, don't tell Sophia. I can't be dealing with her disapproval on top of my dad's & my sister's right now." I finished, shaking my head. Tommy looked at me with that cute, dopey look that instinctively made me feel warm & trusting.

"I promise, I won't." He smiled affectionately. I could tell he meant it.

*Later*

*Nikkis POV*

I winked as I approached the gaggle of girls hanging around the door that lead to the backstage of the Whisky.

“Nikki, look for me in the front row.”

“Hey Nikki, cant wait to see the show tonight.”

“What are you doing afterwards Sixx?”

It was always the same. The girls always sounded the same, saying the same things, hoping to be the one to grab my attention that night. They were all starting to look the same too. The same hair, the same tight dresses, the same fake smile plastered on the same forgettable face.

Didn’t matter to me though. I fucking loved it.

I stopped next to them, leaning against the wall & flashing the arrogant smirk that never failed & I watched as they fell to pieces in front of me.

“So, what are you girls hanging around back here for?” I asked, making them giggle.

They babbled away, doing their best to impress me with their answers as I shut off, letting my eyes & my mind wander. I was halfway done mentally undressing them when a soft, flirty voice cut through the noise of the groupies.

“Hey rockstar, what’s a girl gotta do to get backstage?”

I turned my head, my eyes meeting with Beths before they trailed down every goddamn inch of her fine self. She was dressed in an oversized Led Zeppelin tshirt, tucked into a high waisted black denim mini skirt & white sneakers. She definitely wasn't like all the rest.

“Just show up looking like that, angel.” I smirked, not able to stop my eyes tracing her every curve. I strode towards Beth, leaving the wannabe groupies behind me without another word or thought, took her hand & lead her through the door.

“So when’s our next therapy session, Doc?” I mumbled, wrapping my arm around Beths waist, pulling her close as we walked.

Beth let out a forced laugh, wriggling away from me & glancing around quickly, checking we were alone. “Nikki, that night was purely for research purposes, we are not making that sharing circle a regular thing.” She said, her eyes darting around, looking anywhere but at me

“How about we just make the last part of our session a regular thing then?” I mumbled, placing my hands on her hips & pulling her into me once again, leaning my face towards hers, closing the gap between our lips.

Beth took a sharp step back & finally allowed her eyes to meet mine, a look on her face somewhere between panicked & scornful.

“What’s the matter, angel? Worried your boyfriend is going to see us?” I mocked, brashly reaching for her hand, but she snatched it away.

“Yes.” She snapped, before checking herself, blushing pink. “I mean, not that I think Vince is my boyfriend.. Obviously.” She stuttered as I let out an offhand chuckle.

“I should hope not.”

“And what’s that supposed to mean?!” Beth retorted, her whole body suddenly stiff & defensive.

“Calm down doll, I only meant that Vinny ain’t the dating kind, I don’t want you getting you hopes up.” I shrugged.

“I’m not one of those girl out there you know,” she gestured towards the door that lead to the faceless groupies. “I don’t crave this bands attention & I don’t need it. Maybe its me that wouldn’t date Vince, ever thought of that?!”

I raised my hands in surrender to her over-sensitive tirade. “That’s all good then, because Vince definitely isn’t gonna date you darlin’, so don’t get used to your sleepovers." I replied, a little too harshly as I let my jealousy seep into my words.

Beths face went dark & her usually soft features looked twisted & angry.

"What's with you tonight, I didn't realise it was possible for you be more of an asshole than normal." She barked.

"And I didn't realise it was possible for you to be more of a stuck up bitch, but I guess people can suprise you." I hurled back, irritated by her defensive attitude.

"Real fucking nice Sixx, thanks. And just when I was starting to think you weren't all bad after the other night.."

"Oh, so you do remember the other night?" I cut in sharply. "Because here's me thinking it must've all been in my head being as you've been doing everything in your power to avoid me since then & pretend like it didn't happen."

"Oh grow up Nikki, I haven't been avoiding you. I've been working & hanging out with Vince, I'm sorry I haven't had much chance to stroke your fucking ego for you."

"I could probably free up some of your time if I went & told Vince that little promise you made me the other night. What was it again? Something about making me kneel before you'?" I laughed smugly as Beth's eyes flashed with fury.

"Christ, you just can't stand the idea of someone turning you down, can you?"

I let out a dumbfounded laugh at her bold pretension. "Remind me Beth, when did you turn me down?. Was that before or after you asked me to kiss you? Or maybe when you were up on the kitchen counter, moaning into my mouth." I asked snidely.

She glowered at me. "What part of me still sleeping with Vince & refusing to kiss you just now makes you think that I'm interested in you?"

I was beginning grow infuriated with her condescension, how could she just pretend like the other night didn't mean shit? "Tell me, is Vince really that good in the sack?"

"And what's that got to do with anything?" Beth fired back, irritated.

"Must be a good fuck if you're willing to get attached to someone who's gonna drop you any day now." I shrugged, pretending I couldn't care less.

“So that's the plan, he gets bored of me & then what Nikki? I move on to you? You get to sleep with me & ‘fufil my dark fantasies’, twist me into someone as fucked up as you so you feel a little less alone?” She spat venomously, her voice cold & sharp, taking me by surprise. My body went rigid as I felt anger descend over me like a mist. Beths face flushed pale as mine turned red, but she remained stubborn, folding her arms across her chest defiantly.

“Fine, fuck off with Vince.” I seethed, my jaw clenched & my mind ablaze with the thought of Vinnys hands on her, touching her like I’d not been able to stop thinking about touching her since that night he first took her home. “He'll get bored of you soon enough, I know I already am.” I finished bluntly, fixing Beth with a stone cold glare before spinning around on my heels & marching towards the backstage door. I leaned through, deciding I’d pick the first one that looked at me.

A tall, slender brunette in a tight red dress with fake tits & that usual fake smile glanced round, her eyes brimming with excitement when she spotted me.

“It’s your lucky day darlin.” I cooed, taking her by the hand & pulling her through the doorway & away from her fake ass friends. Probably for the best, they’d all hate her now anyway.

I turned back to face Beth, smug smile at the ready, trying to think up a shit-eating remark to say as I walked past her, but she'd already disappeared.

Fuck.

"So rockstar, where's your dressing room?" The brunette asked, her fingers finding their way under my shirt to my chest as she draped herself seductively around my arm.

I looked at her with uninterested eyes, my mind still entirely too focused on Beth.

I guess I could use the distraction, I thought, taking the brunettes hand & leading her down the hall & into the dressing room, untying my leather pants as we went.

*Later*

“And where the fuck is Vince?!” I yelled at Mick & Tom, tapping my foot impatiently as we all waited to the side of the stage.

“Not sure,” Tommy lied, badly, “I’m sure he’ll be here in a sec.”

“Pretty sure he’s in the toilet.” Mick mumbled, without looking up from tuning his guitar. Tommy nudged him nervously, but Mick just grunted, flicking him the middle finger without a glance.

I watched from the sidelines as Beth & Vince emerged from the toilet together, giggling like goddamn school kids. White hot jealousy burned through me, flooding my veins as saw them, hand-in-hand, disheveled hair & satisfied smiles plastered on their smug faces.

"Nice of you to fucking join us." I spat as they strolled over to us at their own pace, still laughing.

"Oh come on Nikki, we ain't due to go in for another 15 minutes, chill out man." Vince shrugged unconcerned, fueling my outrage with his nonchalance.

"You might care more about getting your fucking dick wet than you do this band Vince, but this shit actually matters to the rest of us, so either change your attitude or you can get the fuck out." I seethed, my eyes flitting dangerously to Beth, who had taken a cautious step back from me.

"Sixx man, come on," Tommy said, gripping my shoulder, trying to diffuse the situation. "it's not a big deal, we don't need this shit before the show."

I took a steady breath, trying to regain control over my temper. "Just go & change before you make us any later," I hissed at Vince through gritted teeth.

Beth lingered awkwardly as Vince waltzed off to the dressing room, unsure whether to follow him, stick around or simply leave. I decided to help her along with her decision.

"I think it's best you go." I said to her coldly, my bitter jealousy plainly obvious as I turned around & marched towards the back exit, desperate for a smoke.

"Nikki, wait-" Beth called out, following me outside into the cool night air.

"What do you want Lizzy?" I snapped, sparking up my cigarette & taking a long, deep inhale. "I've got nothing to say to you."

"I'm sorry-", she started, but I immediately interrupted.

"For what?! For fucking Vince & almost derailing my show?!”

Beths eyes narrowed. "I was going to apologise for what I said earlier, but yanno what, fuck you." She fired back, defensively. "Why would I be sorry for doing whatever the fuck I want with Vince, it's not like its any of your damn business."

"My fucking band, my fucking business sweetheart." I seethed, taking another long drag through my gritted teeth.

"No Nikki, just because they're in your goddamn band, doesn't make any of those guys in there your property, you don't get to lord over them like you own them." She replied, feeling brave.

"And what about you, huh? I fucking made you into this over confident little groupie & frankly, you're getting a little bit too comfortable around here."

"Excuse me?!" Beth thundered, her whole demeanor changing, "you didn't make me into anything, you egotistical prick!'

I smirked arrogantly, knowing I'd got to her. "You come to my gigs to see my band, you fuck my front man, snort my drugs, party with my guys. Who were you before you met me? A stuck up little princess who didn't know how to have fun. Face it doll, I fucking made you." I scoffed as I watched Beth's face flush red with anger.

“And what about your new piece of ass, huh? You gonna make her too?” She snarled. “You’re pissed because I fucked Vince but you’re a goddamn hypocrite Nikki, I saw you with that girl, taking her into the dressing room. I'm guessing she didn't go in there to help you with your fucking makeup?"

I paused, caught off guard, not realising my plan to make her jealous had actually gone to fruition. I couldn’t stop the sly smile from creeping on to my face. “What does that have to do with anything?” I asked, my voice changing swiftly from enraged to calm & deadly smooth in an instant, enticed by her hint of jealousy & eager to hear her answer.

Beth squirmed a little, realising the corner she’d backed herself into. She looked deliciously trapped.

“I just-” she tripped over her words as she scrambled for an excuse. “I just don’t get it, why are you so pissed that I fucked Vince?” She asked, diverting the attention for herself.

“Because I want you.” I said plainly, switching gears, my anger melting away as I watched her discomfort double as she tried to stay mad.

“What?” She asked, shaking her head in annoyance.

“Because I want you Beth. I’ve wanted you since that night I caught you doing blow in the bathroom with Tommy, the night that Vinny took you home when it should've been me. I want you & I want to be the only one that gets to have you.” I replied bluntly, smirking as Beths mouth fell open a little.

“But you don’t.. You don’t do the whole exclusive thing.” She mumbled awkwardly, still processing my words.

“You’re right. See princess, I’m selfish like that.” I purred, taking one last drag on my cigerette before flicking it away & taking a step towards her so our bodies were practically touching. “I don’t like exclusivity, but also, I really don’t like to share.” I breathed, our lips practically touching.

Beth scowled, suddenly finding her voice. “Well that hardly seems fair. You expect me to be loyal to you whilst you fuck every woman that shows you some attention?!”

I chuckled darkly, knowing how unreasonable I was being. “Pretty much.”

“You’re such an egotistical asshole!” She yelled, raising her hands to shove me away from her, but I caught them by the wrists in one swift movement & pinned them by her shoulders. Beths delicate features were twisted, her perfectly shaped eyebrows were furrowed in anger & her soft pink lips were pulled into a tight, thin line as she fought against my grip. She glared at me, eyes dark & full of hostility. Yet I saw a lingering passion in them. Her tight lips relaxed for just a moment & I saw her drag her bottom lip through her teeth, those dark eyes darting to my mouth. I smirked.

"You’re right, I am an asshole. But you still want to kiss me, don’t you, angel?" I breathed, tightening my grip on her wrists, grinning wider at her mixture of discomfort & pleasure.

Her lips parted slightly & I could hear her breath quicken as I watched her internally fight with her desires whilst I fought with my own. On the surface, we hated each other. I hated everything she represented, the fact that she didn't like my music & how she was like every other girl, sucked in by Vince's blonde hair & boyish charm. She hated my arrogance, my runaway lifestyle & the fact that I could see right through her good girl act & get under her skin like no-one ever had. And yet somehow, that hatred had paved the way for an attraction neither of us could fathom or understand. It was illogical, unwise & entirely unwelcome. But it was also intense, salacious & completely overpowering. We both knew we'd have to give in to it eventually.

She kissed me, unable to restrain herself any longer. I released my grip on her wrists & buried my fingers in her hair, pulling her closer to me. She tasted so damn sweet.

I pulled Beths hair roughly, tilting her head & exposing her neck as I placed hungry kisses along her skin as she moaned aloud, pushing herself up against me. I placed my hands at the base of her pretty neck, running my thumb across the skin gently as I brought her lips back to mine, dragging her lower lip between my teeth. She groaned into my mouth, rubbing up against me as I squeezed my grip around her throat a little tighter, smirking against her kiss as I did.

She was fucking delectable.

Just then, the backdoor to the Whisky swung open, returning us from our heady escape back to the dingy alley with a crash.

"Nikki, come on man, I thought you-" Vince started to say, before catching sight of us jumping a mile apart in a failed attempt to look innocent.

I coughed, trying to regain composure. "Yeah yeah, I'm coming."

Vince's face was like thunder, a mixture of outrage and betrayal turning up a storm. "Nah, doesn't look like you got that far." He spat

"Vinny, I-" Beth stumbled, walking towards him.

His eyes shot from me to her, disgust adding to the mix of emotions he was displaying. "I haven't got nothing to say to you." He said harshly, cutting her off. "& You, brother," he drawled sarcastically, "get your ass inside, we've got a fucking show to play, remember? Or do you care more about getting your dick wet than this band?" He quoted, bitterly.

"Fuck you, Vinny." I shot, shoulder barging him as I shoved past to get through the door.

"Fuck me? Are you fucking kidding, Sixx?" He screeched, quick on my heels. "You're out there grinding on my fucking girl & you're acting like I'm the fucking problem here?"

"Your girl?" I laughed crudely, "Since when does Vince Neil have a girl?"

"You know damn well what I mean. I haven't been hooking up with her for this long for you to just go & help yourself." Vince snarled.

"Well maybe Beths got her reasons for looking elsewhere." I sneered, getting brave.

"And what the fuck is that supposed to mean?"

"Well Vinny," I started, taking a smug step towards him, getting in his face, "Maybe if you satisfied her, she wouldn't come to me."

"Shut the fuck up Sixx, you know that isn't true!" Beth yelled, pulling on Vinces arm in a feeble attempt to separate us.

"Why else would she come running to me right after you'd finished fucking? Your bathroom fuck clearly wasn't enough for her so she had to come looking for someone that could finish her off." I suggested arrogantly, smirking at my own maliciousness.

"Vince, just walk away." I heard Mick say from somewhere, right before Vinces fist flew at my face.

*Beths POV*

I sat at the bar, drinking away my humiliation as I watched the two guys I'd shamefully kissed in the space of 10 minutes, up on stage playing a visibly tense set. Nikkis angry red cheek was glowing like a beacon for the whole audience to see.

"It's not like you & Vince were anything serious." Sophia said, serving me up another shot of tequila. "I mean, that guy has definitely been screwing around since you guys first hooked up."

"I know & if he'd caught me with anyone else, I don't think it would be a big deal, but it definitely crosses the line to go with one of his band mates & best friends really, doesn't it?" I groaned, burying my face in my hands. "Plus, I'm not exactly a normal groupie, Vinny is my friend, we hang out, he spends the night.." I trailed off, knowing I'd just put a definitive end to that.

"Why were you kissing Nikki?!" Sophia asked, raising her eyebrow knowingly.

"Don't start Soph ok, I don't need it." I replied, necking the shot & gesturing for another. "Let me just bury my shame in peace & fucking tequila."

"I don't get it though, I thought you were liking things with Vince?"

"I was loving things with Vince, I don't know what the fuck I was doing." I sighed. "All I know is that Nikki has a direct line to both my last fucking nerve & my emotional g spot apparently. Who knew they were connected?" I groaned, mentally scolding myself for the millionth time.

"You gotta figure out what you want babe." Sophia said sternly, disapproval written all over her face. "But what you've gotta remember is, neither of these guys are in this for the long run, so are they really worth it?"

I fell silent, sparking up a cigarette & looking back across at the stage.

"I want you, I need you

I want you to be mine tonight.

You need me, you tease me

Use you up, throw you away."

I listened to Vince sing, watched him prancing around, his striking good looks & flamboyant attitude on stage so appealing it made me weak.

Then I looked across at Nikki, dark & brooding, the complete opposite of what I thought my type was. He was conceited & rude, his lifestyle & interests were the furthest thing from my own & he pissed me off like no-one ever had.

If I was being honest with myself, I'd say that, up until tonight, he was right; I'd thought myself above Nikki Sixx.

But tonight had changed everything.

Tonight I'd realised that I wasn't better than anyone else, I was just as bad. Worse, maybe.

I watched Nikki pluck away at the strings on his bass, enjoying the sound for the first time. I let my mind wander back to that night he said he should've taken me home. The same night he promised to drag me down with him.

He'd been right about everything. I wanted excitement in my life, I wanted to have fun. I wanted someone to fulfill my darkest desires. I wanted someone to show me how to enjoy the dark parts of me. And that just wasn't Vince.

I watched Nikki play intently, that spark of desire igniting inside me once again. I wanted him.

My bad influence.

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Fell to sleep so it took some time to reply 😄 Woke up three times though when I started to cough my lungs out and I read your reply at 3am (it's 6am now).

Haha glad to hear that 🤩 I hope my work with my series pays off. And yeah… I know what you mean. Also it doesn't help when a motivation killer strikes as you remember the ratios and you're afraid your work won't be appreciated, getting 345 likes and 6 reblogs per chapter, and 2 of the reblogs are yours. You would think nobody is interested and then you get a reply to your newest part "next part pls" 😫 Like??? You clearly like it, but is it so hard to write "OMG this is so good, can't wait for the next part!!"??? Like people complain about not knowing what to say to writers so they leave a like to show their appreciation, but if you aren't sure what to say, you could just say "I really love this!" or variations of it, it can't be so hard. It's 100x better than just liking.

Of course, discussing about the piece/sharing your thoughts what was running in your head when you read it is even better ("omg!! The ship finally sails, I've waited for x and reader to kiss for so long!" or "aww, I hope y won't try to intervene x and reader's feelings out of jealousy. I understand they also have feelings for x but it still isn't right to ruin their crush's relationship and hope they get x instead 😞 I pity y too because losing your crush to someone else really sucks but planning to break their relationship with someone else is just so… raaahhh") or even some critique if the writer is ok with that but if someone doesn't know how to do that, just a few words of kindness and encouragement are good too.

And to your tags: don't worry, I clogged people's dashes too yesterday because I was praising my new moot's Kaz x reader oneshot and ended up discussing about the growing OOC'ness in a lot of Kaz pieces with her on the reblogs. I mean the smut pieces + the ones where Kaz is this innocent defenseless puppy who needs Y/N to defend him if someone touches him 😅 Like imo canonly, if someone would touch Kaz's skin, he would slap the person's hand away immediately or at least growl "don't fucking touch me" and if the person still wouldn't let go, he'd probably break their hand or leg with his cane before retreating to somewhere private to calm himself down as one of the worst things he's afraid of is being seen as weak and if he's immediately turning out to be a whimpering poor teenager upon touch, it's very obvious that he has a weakness.

Also it's stated in the books that he has learned to hide his panic attacks for the most part, just retreating in a dark corner where he won't be touched by anyone and he has made sure his reputation includes the fact that you're the biggest idiot ever if you go to sling an arm around his shoulders of something because it might turn out so you don't have an arm at all after that.

But I've seen pieces where Kaz completely freezes and basically starts to cry in front of everyone if someone touches him and then reader comes in a shining armor and defends him and then she helps him to his room and holds him while he sobs in her arms (as the reader is a Magic Girl who is the only one Kaz can touch and it has been that way from the start, reader just touched him once when they had just met and Kaz was like "😳 her touch doesn't feel unpleasant!!!"… that's some lazy ass writing if you ask me, or of course people have the right to write him as they please and erase essential traits from him and add new ones that make him soft and huggable but the cost is that a lot of people leave your stuff unread if you don't make them stay in character).

And I know this sounds mean but I've laughed at those pieces where Kaz whimpers and cries in reader's arms after his skin has been touched because the mental picture is so absurd???

Okay now I rambled about this to you too 😂 I'm just honestly pissed that some people don't even try to make him in character, I rarely come across good Kaz pieces because of that.

TELL ME ABOUT IT!! i feel like it's almost impossible to fully capture every aspect of a character, but you can at least try, right? and the things you were talking about earlier, with kaz being ok with reader touching him or breaking down so publicly? it physically hurts me. the bare minimum has not been meant.

but yeah, i know what you mean! i've gotten reqs in the past for very ooc behavior and i just Pretend I Misread It while writing or don't take it. otherwise it just feels like i'm making an oc that's eerily similar to a published character lol

#no but if you're going to write for a character #you have to at least try to make them resemble the character #sfoihdgioidhgoi i am not affected by ooc requests #EXCEPT THAT I AM #not writing