#i hope she is worth it

[pocketgalaxies]

We want to destroy my mother. (insp by @dadrielle)

#critical role #criticalroleedit #imogen temult #liliana temult #laura bailey #matthew mercer #gifs #* #*cr #cr3 #cr spoilers #angst tag #cr meta #nova shh #scheduled #3h12m c3e88 #18m c3e12 #3h17m c3e42 #3h42m c3e51 #4h20m c3e51 #1h35m c3e49 #i think this gifset might be a little bit unfair to liliana from a third party perspective but #i think it's Very Real for imogen. to feel like she reached out so many times and the loyalty there was so fucking flimsy #barely there to begin with and then gone in an instant as everything turned to red mist #thinking about how laura on 4sd a while ago said imogen is so fucking sick of it she's sick of having that hope #her reality is that her mother no longer has any loyalty to her and the pain of thinking she does isn't worth it anymore #:(((( #'help me.' 'this is for the best.' breaks my H E A R T :((((((((( #and matt's fucking Smile afterward. speaks a thousand words #thanks rj for the discord message that kicked this off!!!

[hongluboobs]

ur always chasin that damn Whale🙄‼️

#pachidraws #limbus company #ishmael #ishmael lcb #i pulled out adobe illustrator for this. i have like 3 comps i am supposed to do instead. but its ok bc i like this #fun fact! those fonts aren't imitations I genuinelt identified and found the limbus company fonts #off of memory/random chance #if ur curious said fonts are dimensions and bebas neue #both by Dharma type #Thank you graphic design major. this is the ONLY thing it's ever done for me #pachiposting #im so happy ishmael looks like this. shes so cool i love her. doing all that work on the hat with pen tool was worth it #this is all with a trackpad btw. if u even care (i was possessed i think) #i love ishmael i want her #hope u enjoy

[deimcs]

insp. by this post by @bladeofavernus ♡ / (Shauna Barbosa, Cape Verdean Blues)

AN INSPIRED DECLARATION, BARDIC COLLEGE OF FOCHLUCAN. I honestly thought my time as an artist had come to an end and all hope for further inspiration was gone. I come from months of fruitless research and abandoned music sheets, any spark of creativity flickering and dying by the time my fingers touched the strings. I was lost and couldn't find my way back home when suddenly, destiny came knocking at my door. Quite literally, I may add. I went to stay at my aunt's cottage outside of the city to see if some peace and quite would do my muse any good and I had the fortuitous chance of offering shelter to a group of weary travelers. They surely were a lively bunch and while I had fun entertaining guests after such a long time spent alone, Tymora's gentle hand came to save me under the guise of a young couple of most curious nature. A tiefling and a devil, by all means a nightmarish union if you were to give the rumors any credits and yet. They spent the night sitting quietly next to each other, letting the others take turns in keeping the conversation alive. I didn't mean to pry but I was mesmerized by the softness of their touches, the tenderness of their gaze. At some point during the night, the young man drifted off to sleep leaning against the girl's shoulder, she raised a hand to caress his scarred face with such unmistakable devotion it almost moved me to tears. It reminded me why I started composing in the first place: to wonder about the nature of simple things like love and companionship. If I ever see them again, I hope they'll know this song is for them.

#bg3edit #gamingedit #wylledit #tavedit #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #tav x wyll #wyll ravengard #nimue of eldervine grove #edits #i haven't been able to stop thinking about that post since the first time i came across it #i hope it's okay i linked it here! let me know otherwise! #it's all about the resilient healing energy wyll projects and deserves poured back onto him for me #nimue utterly respects him admires him believes in him and supports him without stripping any of them of their own agency in doing so #she has complete faith in him cause they both grew up knowing it's always worth it to not give up and try again #i'm glad i went with her first for my wyll romance cause with tariel things are way messier in my head

[k3ttu]

The dancestor ever

#i lied some of the others are cool too #meenah peixes #homestuck #homestuck fanart #hs meenah #dancestors #she should get to stab one (1) person she earned it #her braids were a pain in the ass to draw I hope it was worth it

[thetimetravellercat]

I could not resist the urge to sketch the Pangur (from @pangur-and-grim)! She looked so cute and mighty, I hope I did her justice enough 💚

#I'll be honest with you #pangur looks so absurd in her proportions that i decided to use a more geometric style #i hope this doesn't offend her fluffiness #love you Pangur #im glad your mouth feels much better #i also discovered just how hard it is to paint a *white* cat using watercolors #but pangur was well worth the trouble #also #i sent this to my sister and included the reference pic #and her reaction was 'i thought your drawing was oddly shaped but it turns out she is really just like that' #she agreed that she is really cute though #watercolors #sketch #my amateur art #cats of the internet #pangur

[thepoisonroom]

'I flirted with the idea that instead of being trans that I was just a cross-dresser (a quirk, I thought, that could be quietly folded into an otherwise average life) and that my dysphoria was sexual in nature, and sexual only. And if my feelings were only sexual, then, I wondered, perhaps I wasn’t actually trans.

I had read about a book called The Man Who Would Be Queen, by a Northwestern University professor who believed that transwomen who were attracted to women were really confused fetishists, they wanted to be women to satisfy an autogynephilia. And though I first read about this book in the context of its debunkment and disparagement, I thought about the electricity of slipping on those tights, zipping up those boots, and a stream of guilt followed. Maybe this professor was right, and maybe I was only a fetishist. Not trans, just a misguided boy.

About a year later, on the Internet, I come across a transwoman who added a unique message to the crowd refuting this professor. Oh, I wish I remember who this woman was, and I wish even more that I could do better than paraphrase her, but I remember her saying something like this: “Well, of course I feel sexy putting on women’s clothing and having a woman’s body. If you feel comfortable in your body for the first time, won’t that probably mean it’ll be the first time you feel comfortable, too, with delighting in your body as a sexual thing?”'

-Casey Plett, Consciousness

#this quote always moves me almost to tears when i remember it #i'm not a trans woman and i don't share the author's specific experiences with transition #but it really moves me that she frame transition as joyfully giving yourself permission to approach your body #not as something that has to be disciplined and deprived and made small in all these various ways #but as a means for experiencing pleasure and joy and delight and for insisting that our feelings and desires are worth #valuing and exploring and treasuring #i always used to think of prioritizing those things for myself as selfish and irresponsible #but who does it harm to want to experience pleasure in your own body? #it's such a beautifully simple and powerful switch to have flip in your head #and equally why are we forced to deny our own pleasure in transition and anything else related to our bodies in the name of moral rectitude #this is why i get so confused and pissed off when other trans people are fatphobic for example #like why are you so invested in politics of shame and disgust that never had any purpose other than #violently disciplining people as if they've violated moral codes by existing in a body #to say nothing of white people being racist in gay and trans communities #like again this system of violence is foundational to homophobia and transphobia #so why are you acting like it has nothing to do with you #even if you are unmoved by the urgency of other people's suffering which btw you should be moved by #what do you hope to gain by acting a collaborator and handmaiden to those systems #Casey Plett #she really is one of my favorite authors i wish more non-canadians read her #this quote is from a series of columns she did ont transition and every single one is a banger #i love when she talks about the people-pleasing elements of dysphoria and transition denial #she's so sharp about noting how many of us deny our own dysphoria on the grounds that others like and validate our bodies #that's how i always felt during my cis conventionally feminine era #it pleased other people so much and also that reception felt so hollow and joyless to me because i hated it #i get less of that positive feedback but that feels so unimportant next to the joy and pleasure i get to experience #said with the understanding that i'm very privileged in being able to prioritize those things without fear. but it was a switch flip #personal nonsense

[petrichorium]

pluvi begging you to expand on gojo not wanting what happened to his mother to happen to you 🙏

warnings: it’s all a dream so nothing is real aside from the flashback stuff but pregnancy as horror, (sewing) needles, implied gore/eye trauma, implied child harm, gojo is messed up yo!!! and its bc of his mama!!!

he dreams about her.

it’s an odd thing, really. gojo isn’t much of a dreamer—not much of a sleeper, all things considered, but it’s difficult not to give in when you drag him to bed and curl up in his arms. the soft rise and fall of your chest, the steady thump of your heart, the sound of your breath; it soothes him into slumber.

and he dreams about her. she was always young. he’s older now than she ever got to be. frail, thin; borderline skeletal, robes hanging from her body like webbing. she sits in a chair facing a window, swathed in moonlight, the silver of her embroidery needle glinting with each stab. her face is veiled. her stomach is swollen with child.

she doesn’t turn to him, but she beckons without noise. his feet take him easily to her, and he kneels at her side as she sets aside the embroidery hoop to let him place his head on her knees.

her hand is cold as it threads through his hair. it’s gentle, at first. then harsher a moment later. she grips firm, tugs him up by those electric white threads, stares down at him through all that elaborate lace.

he imagines she’s weeping beneath it. his mother never wept before him, but she was pretty in the aftermath, eyes puffy and pink and shining. they were a cold kind of loving when they regarded him. she must have been beautiful once, elegant and lithe and willowy, cruel like the heartless sea and sharp like a brilliant diamond, but whatever was there is long gone. he thinks all sons must empty their mothers, bleed them dry from within, because his was always a shell.

she trails her hand down the side of his face, and he turns into the palm and closes his eyes, and she is silent as she sets down her embroidery to lift her veil. she is silent and hollow and eidolic as her fingers brush down his jaw and tilt his head up to look at her.

but it’s your face that he sees when he opens his eyes.

it’s your hand against his cheek, your eyes pink and puffy and pretty, your stomach bulging by his own doing. it’s your fingers that pluck up the needle, still attached to a thread of brilliant cerulean, and raise it to his eye.

his mother never was able to pierce him with that needle. she stopped herself, each and every time, dropping it and tugging him close in shame. she never doted, never was kind, but she never did manage to harm him.

you do. he lets you. it’s only fair. whatever thing is in your stomach can’t be human—whether god or demon what does it matter, at the end of the day—and didn’t he put it in you himself? if his mother never got the satisfaction of spilling his blood, shouldn’t you?

but he wakes just as the tip pierces his iris, and you hold him in your lap, eyes wide with concern and not puffy from weeping, and you hold no child within you. your hands thread through his hair and they’re warm, your lips plush when you bend to press a kiss to his brow.

he turns inward to press his face into your (empty, blissfully vacant) abdomen. the wetness he leaves there, falling from his so very coveted eyes, is colorless.

he thinks it ought to be brilliant crimson.

#ask.🌧 #saintshigaraki #cw.pregnancy #cw.child abuse #cw.trauma #cw.gore #cw.needles #char.🌧 gojo #mine.🌧 #no children #tags will have some discussion of harming others & oneself as well as poor mental health in general pls be aware #i hope u like it beloved i am suddenly very self-conscious abt this one #there were originally more examples of her nearly-harming him but i ended up rewriting the snippet to focus on the needle thing #but in my head she...... had fits where she seriously considered maiming him but stopped herself #getting very close to it in many instances #idk. to me she was MEAN and stoic and gojo's obsession with her made his doting aunties and grannies beyond furious. thats what i think #and the only reason his clan kept her around was bc she was the only thing that could stop his tantrums #bc she was ambitious and cruel and she really did fight for him when needed. she could be scary. they rlly wanted her gone #n e way. ty for ur patience i hope it was worth the wait JKHADBFV

[kedreeva]

I love her little self soothing palp movement and how she tippity taps things.

Today was the first time she's been out in about 3 weeks- she holed herself up in a nice hammock to molt and just came out a week ago. I fed her once she kicked the molt out, and I've been sitting with her with the cage open daily since. Today she was brave!!

She's also practically doubled in size! She's SO big now compared to her i8 size. She's supposed to move into the bigger enclosure but I still have a few things to get and put in before she can go in, and she couldn't go in there until she was willing to come out of the sling box. I'm hoping she'll come out for a little daily now that she remembers it's okay, so I can move her in before her next molt.

#spiders #arachnids #arachnid #spider #jumping spider #willow #my pets #i really like this little gal #she's very polite #i will definitely be going back to this breeder to get another later #I'm hoping she breeds bolds at some point #i want a bold male #honestly wouldn't mind a regal male either #she says she has a harder time finding homes for the boys #since they don't live as long #but like? that's okay #I'm okay with brief but well loved lives #small things are worth knowing short whiles #she ships too if anyone is interested #if you're thinking of getting a pet jumping spider #these ladies are great for it #picking for temperament in their breeding

[zeldaelmo]

Ok, I already reblogged a post and said this but I know the zelink shippers would appreciate an own post about this, so here we go.

This is the German localization of Tears of the Kingdom. It's the last dragon tear, the moment just before Zelda's dragonification.

In English she says just before she gives up herself for (as far as she knows) forever,

"You must..."

In German, she says,

"Für dich..." which means "For you..."

A very, very different meaning and vibe, don't you agree? And the German voice actor, Julia Casper, manages to captivate such a bandwidth of emotions in two words that it still gives me chills. 👌🏻

#totk spoilers #totk spoiler #Totk #zelink #legend of zelda #i have so many thoughts #Zelda would never ever say 'you must' to Link in a situation like this #She knows how he suffered under the pressure of the kingdom 110 years ago #She wouldn't dream to put him in the same position #That doesn't contradict that he's their last hope because he kinda is #But she would not say you must #The way Julia Casper breathes 'Für dich' leaves no room for imagination #It is the desparate act of a lover trying to save everything even if it means losing herself #The Japanese original might be worth a separate post but I don't speak Japanese

[whereismyhat5678]

Oh @misdreavusplush 👀🗣️

Come get your m-m-man!! ✨✨✨

#Artrade #Pizza Tower #Pizza Massacre #PEPPINO FROM PIZZA MASSACRE IS LEGIT SO FUN TO DRAW STOP- #Also both the color palettes were my favorite part UGH 💖💖💖 #Don’t even get me started on Eyelashes #HER HAIR- although a little teeny bit tuff BUT SO FRICKIN WORTH IT LOOK AT HER- #She’s adorable and I love her she so silly 💕💕 (platonic) #I hope you like it!! 🫶💕✨ (Legit flabbergasted how you wanted to do an artrade with me. Thank you sm 🥹🥹) #Peppino

[sluckythewizard]

these are A BIT OLD but uhhh here check out these aggio doodles i did forever ago. still VERY happy w my colors :3

#this was back in uhhhh jan 2023!! hot dog!! and its still perfeclty good to eat! #i think kian and chip would get along. they could talk about feelings. kian could give chip the therapy he needs. maybe kiss? who said that #jay and rand could also get along i think. smoke buddies. cigarette fans. i bet they could play dnd together. or build a contraption togeth #also WAUHG the way i colored in kira here is SO PERFECT.. SHES SO SPARKLY N PRETTY. ALSO THAT HOOORNN i remember bleeding for that #shading is HARD lighting is HARD drawing a crazy unicorn is HARD but SOOOO WORTH IT I SITLL LOVE HOW IT LOOKES..... #waht else is there. oh yes the prime defender doodles #i love mark so much.... i miss being crazy and strange abt mark winters... i need to draw him killing more people someday #anyway i gotta go to bed soon to keep my sleep schedul on track but I DONT WAANNA!!!! recently relistened to bitb. that might release spore #im also chippin away at that am i in heaven animatic between workin on commissions. I GOT RLY FAR!! i think that i could finish it within #like. 3 or 4 more inspo waves. it wont be unfinished forevcer..... its so close... just 4 more full scenes to rly fleshh out #so basically another 2 years. YEAH BABy. in the meantime i have a backlog of things i can poast. i got plenty o drawings and doodles to sha #alrigh thats all the ramblin im gonna do for now. sleep well everyone hope shool or work goes easy on u in the coming week

[pocketgalaxies]

C3E37: marisha + nonverbals

#critical role #criticalroleedit #laudna cr #marisha ray #gifs #* #*cr #cr3 #angst tag #cr meta #nova shh #marisha ray supremacy #scheduled #2h45m c3e37 #i almost went blind staring at her face to pick scenes for this. worth it :) #sorry matt for making you look so red in the last one. it's bc your wife is pale and i wanted her to look good 😌 #OK FIRST. THE NODDING. listening to imogen...burning those words into her mind and playing them on loop....... #bc they are the only things that have brought any semblance of hope for what feels like an eternity of being trapped in this space #even if she doesn't believe them she can pretend to. a bandaid at best but something to ease the fear #and then 'can you get out of the tree' just the sliiightest hints of a head shake. a gulp. a 'god have i tried. god i wish i could.' #'god god god i would do anything to get out of this tree. how do i tell her that i can't.' #and then blatant doubt when it comes to fighting delilah #LIKE...after sharing this space with her for so long...of COURSE it chips away at her confidence like this...makes her feel weak #even if she thought she could fight her off in life everything is distorted now. has she ever even gotten close to fighting her? #it feels like an impossibility now. of course not. never not for 30 years has she been able to fight her. #and then as the cage closes...the flinch...the hyperventilation... #it's the hopelessness /everything/ here feels weak and scared and tired. like she was about to give up. like she still might give up. #i think marisha ray wants me to die <3

[swordmaid]

shri’iia mood board

#she is like if og fairy tale rapunzel was raised as an unsocialized but very loyal and rabid guard dog instead of a daughter hope that help #but so many thoughts of shri’iia and her unyielding devotion #since she /IS/ a paladin. and if oaths comes from a person’s conviction and less from a deity’s blessing #I think she can get rather intense lol. but now instead of following a chaotic evil spider goddess she’s now using that devotion #to follow her newfound broken oath (path to freedom)!!!!!! #also I think there’s something sauurr scrumptious abt her previous oath being a blessing from a goddess (which in turn she had to be devote #to 24/7 or else she won’t have access to her powers ) vs new oath stemming solely from her own will and conviction #I was reading up on the paladin lore and the idea that they just believe in themselves /so/ hard they just manifest their powers is #hilarious and frankly does not make sense but the thematic change of where shri’iia’s oath charges stems #from - from something transactional to something innate is compelling enough to me that I don’t care if it doesn’t make sense !!!! #also something about how her oaths is now innate and tied to her own conviction -> leads her to actually find her sense of self and self #worth again bc before she had NONE……. olivia wilde nod gif

[startistdoodles]

Visions

-First Part- -Previous Part- -Next Part-

HUGE thank you to @junebird24 for all her help with the coloring on this one!!

#pokemon #submas #subway boss emmet #galvantula #chandelure #joltik #giratina #submas angst #pokemon au #descendant au #descendant au comic #OK i think that covers everything #but yeah kicking of chapter 2 with some nightmares and contemplation #its been hard on him because what can you do when someone is lost to time? #its worth trying at least #thats what he would hope ingo would do for him #and again huge thanks to junebird for all her help she really elevated this comic and helped me out when i was super busy on other work #she went above and beyond and now that im gonna be working on this comic more it deserves a more polished look :) #o7 for her

[alchemania]

Finally got enough energy to talk about Furina's SQ and while I loved her and the troupe, MC and Paimon were .... Not Great. I talked about this with friends but in Paimon's case especially, the way they interact with Furina feels like people who just don't understand trauma and depression and then engage with someone suffering from both in all the wrong ways.

Talking about how much of a downgrade her house is from the opera house, making fun of how she can't cook, pushing her to act when she's set a very clear boundary and then guilt tripping her after she's stuck to her guns, shaming her for not being able to fight well (Paimon literally talks about how second hand embarrassment is overwhelming and I'm just like ?????), telling her she's "not acting like herself" when she attempts to open up and be vulnerable....it's just really rough. That and the MC asking "is something wrong" when Furina gets sad over Poission ..like bro people died and she couldn't save them and she's tearing herself apart over it. Those people are never coming back and you know it and you have the gall to ask her is something wrong??? Of COURSE there is!!

It just feels especially odd because we literally get to see all of Furina's suffering and Paimon in particular is. SO mean? Like she was more understanding with Wanderer and Ei and THEY'VE tried to kill us multiple times!! I don't get it, and honestly I'm very proud of Furina for refusing to waver. Let her rest!! She's tired and depressed and she needs time to heal; and honestly fuck Paimon for trying to make her feel bad. Furina's worked harder than she EVER will.

#as someone with depression and who's highly sensitive this story quest hurt a LOT because ive also encountered people who don't understand. #i've been told i need to get over my anxiety. i've been asked what am i so tired from since i just lay in bed. #so furina's character and how she was treated hit very very hard for me. she's isolating herself and not coping well but she is TRYING. #she's trying so hard and she equates her worth to her role. like she literally tells you that she serves no more use to anyone. #and i wanted to shake her so hard. because it's not about what she can do #she has worth simply because she exists. full stop. she is loved and she is appreciated just for being herself #her worth isn't decided by her power yk?? #i hope she can rest and heal and find some good friends - after the way mc and paimon treated her i honestly don't think they should be #or if they are; they'd have to work to earn her trust cuz good LORD. they treated her so weird and so tone deaf!! #i've seen a lot of people complaining about it too so im glad im not alone. #anyway. there is something wrong with me i have cried actual tears over furina please god she needs a hug #and to be told she did a good job and she can rest now and things will get better #4.2 spoilers #genshin impact #furina

[fairymascot]

every time i go looking for harlivy on ao3 i get 500 fics of mommy dom ivy. give me a break. this wilted broccoli floret of a woman cannot maintain eye contact with the grocery store clerk at checkout, what is she POSSIBLY going to dominate. wake up sheeple

#like yes i know there's approx 50 years' worth of canon where she subdues her victims with her pheromones and ties them up or whatever #that is not the real ivy. the real ivy lives in a bog and has not made eye contact with a human being in 12 yrs. hope this helps #poison ivy #text #my rambles #harlivy