#i just cant fucking help it. i am beholden to my massive emotions. nothing is worth crying over when you cry over everything.

[sameteeth]

nothing like crying in front of any school admin uncontrollably <3

#like why cwnt i experience emotions like a normal person why cant i cry myself to sleep or smthn. wtf is this public shit. #i gotta sniffle in an echoey public bathroom every 2-3 weeks like i dont get the frequent crier discount from tissue companies. #my chest gets all hiccupy bc im trying to suppress my crying and my voice gets all wobbly and i cant talk. but i do this often #so u would think i would get better at this. no. only worse. and i feel so terrible bc i dont mean for it to be like emotional manipulation #i just cant fucking help it. i am beholden to my massive emotions. nothing is worth crying over when you cry over everything. #my apologies to u joe u were a homie and got me tissues even as i insisted i was normal despite crying in ur office over u saying i cant #do a credit overload. im having a normal one. maybe ill make u cookies as an apology. #the worst is once i got ahold of myself and was ready to leave he told me i could drop by any time to vent and i started crying again and #couldnt talk. betrayal of the highest order. how dare u as an authority figure be nice to me. i will now be emotional about u always. fuck. #canis vents #god i just . im so frustrated.