#i just have lots of thoughts

[linkbetweenlinks]

You previously mentioned that Link would adopt Mineru's stone and title as the sage of spirit. But what exactly does that mean in this context? As in what abilities/powers does he get from it?

WELL the stones in general simply amplify the powers the given users aready possess and have no powers of their own. The stones can also CHANGE its attribute to suit the user (much like how Ganon was able to change his stolen stone's attribute from time to darkness).

I'm gonna work on the basis that the stone Link holds remains a spirit stone. This can be for many reasons: he has the continuously reincarted hero's spirit, he was able to hold the previous champions gifts (and still see them in general), he can summon the current sage spirits, he can see other types of spirits (koroks, blupees, satori, fi, etc), and previous incarnations of Link being able to enter the spiritual/sacred realms.

So what does Link get from the stone? The continued ability to summon the sage's spirits. Also Mineru was able to separate her spirit from her body and possess objects. I'd like to imagine that with the stone, Link could do this to. Imagine Link/Wild (still being able to summon the construct) clocking out of his body to control it, the chain would be in for a shock 😂. I also believe he'd have an affinity with spirits as well, being able to see and speak to them. Another thing is potentially spiritual healing, which is just a fancy term for healing magic. Much like LU Hyrule, he can heal himself and others (though perhaps he hasn't realised the latter yet). This is part of what could make him now immortal.

#sorry went off the rails a bit there #I just have lots of thoughts #I'd like to hear your thoughts too though #linked universe #lu #lu wild #tears of the kingdom #botw #breath of the wild #lu headcanons #totk #totk spoilers

[lightning-macrine]

Izzy Hands is not a cut-and-paste villain and deserves to grow and change

No okay so I hate it when people try to make Izzy out to be some sort of master manipulator and possessive monster over Ed because he tried to leave!!!!! He was packing his stuff!!! He was preparing the dinghy!! He APOLOGISED for saying all those things!!!! And even after they survived, after Ed and Stede’s plan worked, he still accepted and owned up to the disrespect he’d shown his captain and tried to leave/resign as he said he would.

That’s what the significance of “I need you” is, instead it’s actually Ed (possibly unknowingly) manipulating Izzy into staying with him because he knows he can’t go on without Izzy. He tells Izzy his ‘plan’, he “promises” (he doesn’t use the word promise but he highly highly hints at it and that’s how Izzy takes it:“he promised me”) Izzy a ship of his own if he stays. Izzy would have been perfectly fine leaving before this (he was practically docile!), before he was lured back in by Ed’s promises, Ed’s manipulation.

What Ed wants to keep Izzy around for (killing Stede himself because he can’t do it or keeping the ship running) isn’t fully clear but what is is that Ed knows what to say and what to do to make Izzy stay. Which is what makes me so frustrated when people demonise Izzy as some jealous hag (of course if we’re following DJ’s idea of him as a jilted spouse that’s certainly an aspect) because there’s multiple layers to just how spurned Izzy can and should feel here.

We know that Ed’s slowly become more and more distant, not telling Izzy and the crew what his plans are, and whichever plans he does decide on are dangerous and risky (ie. attack a Spanish naval ship!). We also know that Izzy has been the one handling it all the past few years. So of course he’s jealous that Stede and the Revenge crew are suddenly getting all this attention and affection when he’s been fighting tooth and nail for scraps of it for years. Of course he feels neglected when Ed continues to not tell him any plans (oh but he’ll tell Stede!) and the one plan he was told of progressively gets less and less likely to happen. It’s betrayal. A betrayal of his (and Fang and Ivan’s) trust, a betrayal of the years of work and energy he’s put into his role both physically and emotionally, and a betrayal of the lives of the crew members who died on his orders.

Of course, I’m not saying all his actions and reactions are justified, his ratting out of Stede to the British navy is definitely done out of spite and with malicious intent as well as with his genuine belief that he is protecting Ed (ie. sending Jack out to separate him & Stede, bargaining to keep Ed free), but I am saying that there’s no underlying dark evil master manipulator plan in all this. For as much as Izzy acts like a hard-ass, he’s very much controlled by his emotions and his pride. He wants to keep Blackbeard alive and get things back to how they were when they first started, so he works to do so. I truly don’t believe that he has a desire to keep Blackbeard under his control (look at how happy he is post-toe scene, his captain just mutilated him and he’s smiling, he doesn’t care what Ed does to him so long as his old captain comes back) but genuinely wants things to go back the way they were.

It isn’t healthy of course, for either of them, and part of his arc should be learning to accept the kindness and softness that Stede taught to Ed, which I do think is possible in season 2, purely because I do believe he’s not this unredeemable monster villain, but rather a very flawed and very human character who for all his faults has some valid reasons for the things he does.

#izzy hands #ofmd izzy #ofmd analysis #long post #i needed to rant sorry #hope y’all enjoy this! #I just have lots of thoughts #about my poor little my meow meow

[danhausensboots]

OK so I’m probably fantasy booking the hell out of this but I had many thoughts after the house of black return and them attacking and involving the orange cassidy and the best friends/danhausen

It looks like they were attacking everybody once they returned. But I also feel like malakai might be targeting Orange Cassidy for a shot at the all Atlantic championship. I can’t remember exactly but I think malakai either had the championship or was in the tournament for the championship before he took a break. It only makes sense that the best friends/danhausen might get caught in the crossfire and the whole thing could turn into a feud between the two factions. And honestly? I’d be super stoked to see it because I think theres a huge contrast between the two factions aesthetic wise (besides maybe danhausen lol) and it could lead to a lot of fun dynamics.

Not to mention Julia hart would be a perfect match for Kris stat when she is able to return. I could also see (and hope to see) danhausen getting the black mist at some point. Whether it be in a match or while he’s doing his goofy stuff. Can you guys imagine Danhausen just completely turning on the best friends and going full evilhausen again? Or flip flopping between the two factions Jekyll and Hyde style? It would be so fuckin fun to see nice danhausen with the best friends and evilhausen fitting perfectly with the House of black. Dude doesn’t even have to wrestle for that to work. (Also I noticed lots of folks thought danhausen was about to appear tonight instead of hob. Just goes to show that persona could totally work with hob.).

Just lots of fun opportunities for matches and character work.There are just so many possibilities and I hope this is the direction they’re going in. If not then whatever I’ll go stand in the corner lol

#all elite wrestling #danhausen #orange cassidy #house of black #chucky t #trent barreta #malakai black #brody king #rambles #buddy matthews #Julia hart #Kris statlander #rocky romero #aew #the best friends #make it happen Tony please #just let us write the show #I just have lots of thoughts #why wasn’t danhausen there #why did they twist my expectations like that #why am I jumping to conclusions and fantasy booking the jester of aew in real matches and real feuds #because it’s fun that’s why

[technitango]

seriously though the smiles during all the intimate scenes in kinnporsche

#I just have lots of Thoughts #on the intimacy of smiles #kinnporsche

[antisociallilbrat]

One of my many thoughts about Bill is Denscom or Bill/Ben because Bill shows love with acts of service and Ben shows love with words of affirmation and I feel like those are what the other needs. Ben is sweet and can reassure Bill when he's down on himself and Bill is thoughtful and will move heaven and earth to do whatever Ben needs from him. Ben writes him poetry that Bill keeps in his room and Bill draws for him and Ben has them hanging on his wall.

A denscom thought??? In my inbox??? How was I this blessed 🥲

No but I completely agree with you on what Ben and Bill’s love languages are- and I’ll add a thought to this.

When they first get together Bill insists are doing everything for Ben. Carrying his books to class, driving him around town, making his plate of food, ect ect ect. It’s just little things but in Bill’s cold home he knows how much little things can mean, and he kinda goes overboard at first. Richie definitely cracks some jokes. “what? Is Ben’s arms suddenly broken? Is that why you’re doing everything for him?”

But Ben thinks this is so sweet so he constantly showers Bill in praise and eventually, Bill mellows out. Yes he still loves doing anything to make Ben smile but he stops…what’s the word? Coddling him? I just think it would be sweet if Bill was just a little too enthusiastic about how he shows his love when he first gets together with Ben and Ben being relentlessly patient with him.

Also you mentioned one of my favorite head cannons! I love Ben writing poems for Bill (and the other losers) and Bill drawing doodles of Ben <3 Ben thinks Bill draws him better than he actually looks and Bill disagrees bc that is how he sees Ben <3 <3

#im sorry #I just have lots of thoughts #thanks for the ask though! #they always make me happy <3 #sam answers asks #denscom #bill denbrough #ben hanscom #richie tozier #eddie kaspbrak #mike hanlon #beverly marsh #stanley uris

[jinshubrainrot]

"ah, its not that bad.."

tbh i did look up male shrine maiden outfit but miko wouldn't be that nice to offer him that

#genshin impact #aether #yae miko #shrine maiden #i just have lots of thoughts #and it shows #art #digital art

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[indigo6f00ff]

need to share an experience i had 30 minutes ago

(edit: thanks to @walks-the-ages for providing and reminding me to put alt text, sorry it slips my mind alot lol)

#my hands are still shaking to be quite honest i could not put a lot of effort into this. #but like. brain. why did you do that #literally i have been like hopelessly obsessed with de nonstop thinking abt it for the past couple of days it is Scaring me #it is terminal its soooo fucking chronic #disco elysium #kim kitsuragi #for anyone who wants to know i bumped into some guys car that was stopped for a school bus. i think my brain errored and thought #my foot was fully pressing down on the brake pedal but it wasnt. #i am like 99.99 percent sure neither of us had any major damage to our cars but we still filed a police report just in case #because insurance do be a bitch. dudes back bumper was scratched lightly and my front license plate has a dent now #also literally my first ever car accident that ive had ever yippee yay

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

#cw: suicidal ideation #cw: suicide #cw: self harm #cw: mental health #cw: depression #i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it #i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague #it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves #so. please dont #for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic #with the state of the world as it is #having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful #but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full #and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead #i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us #there is no fix-all #and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile #i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it #thank you for reading #and please stay alive #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

[imma-lil-sunshy]

I'm gonna say something kind of into the void here, and I know there's this great popular post already on tumblr abt how truly makeup is not empowering or anything of such moral standing but genuinely a social construct that is damaging (the post says it so much stronger and intellectual and I want to reread it rn) but my take here was just going to be that this trend of little girls wanting high quality makeup and having skin care routines before they've even properly hit puberty actually is damaging. good hygiene is great, obviously that's a given, and yes hobbies are fine and ppl are interested in what they like that's fine. but I see comments on those tiktoks abt kids in sephora or wanting makeup and then see actual vids of ppl trying to defend or say that kids "have no where else to go" and I'm sorry but I think kids shouldn't be getting makeup, not the high dollar value kind and not to look like influencers and not to fit in with the crowd. there's no empowerment here or self expression, it's consumerism, it's capitalism, and probably patriarch thrown in there too why not. obviously not shaming the kids for wanting this but I am side eyeing parents hard for their complicity and then also ppl who say it's not a big deal, makeup is a hobby and it's self expression so it's fine, bc again... I refer yall to that masterpiece of a post that's on this site somewhere and I can't find it rn lol

and also I quotation marked the no where else to go aspect bc I grew up in an entertainment desert, didn't have internet till I was well into tweens, and I def agree internet wise it sucks to be a kid now bc they don't have kid only spaces any more, but irl like I didn't have a place to go and be a kid either really? I would walk around the mall and go into boring stores with my friends and just walk and talk and chill. kids still have videos games tho and movies and TV, just bc they don't want to buy things in Claire's now doesn't mean Claire's doesn't exist bc it very well does. and really I think the main issue is their behaviors in these stores. I was not harassing workers to make them find me products that I don't need and holding up lines to pay for 900+ dollars worth of products.

anyway I'm rambling to vent so do not perceive this lol

#i just have lots of thoughts #and yes i am a makeup girlie bc i hate the way i look #but !!! i recognize the issue there and agree eith aforementioned post full heartedly

[inkskinned]

the thing is that they're so fascinated by sex, they love sex, they can't imagine a world without sex - they need sex to sell things, they need sex to be part of their personality, they need sex to prove their power - but they hate sex. they are disgusted by it.

sex is the only thing that holds their attention, and it is also the thing that can never be discussed directly.

you can't tell a child the normal names for parts of their body, that's sexual in nature, because the body isn't a body, it's a vessel of sex. it doesn't matter that it's been proven in studies (over and over) that kids need to know the names of their genitals; that they internalize sexual shame at a very young age and know it's 'dirty' to have a body; that it overwhelmingly protects children for them to have the correct words to communicate with. what matters is that they're sexual organs. what matters is that it freaks them out to think about kids having body parts - which only exist in the context of sex.

it's gross to talk about a period or how to check for cancer in a testicle or breast. that is nasty, illicit. there will be no pain meds for harsh medical procedures, just because they feature a cervix.

but they will put out an ad of you scantily-clad. you will sell their cars for them, because you have abs, a body. you will drip sex. you will ooze it, like a goo. like you were put on this planet to secrete wealth into their open palms.

they will hit you with that same palm. it will be disgusting that you like leather or leashes, but they will put their movie characters in leather and latex. it will be wrong of you to want sexual freedom, but they will mark their success in the number of people they bed.

they will crow that it's inappropriate for children so there will be no lessons on how to properly apply a condom, even to teens. it's teaching them the wrong things. no lessons on the diversity of sexual organ growth, none on how to obtain consent properly, none on how to recognize when you feel unsafe in your body. if you are a teenager, you have probably already been sexualized at some point in your life. you will have seen someone also-your-age who is splashed across a tv screen or a magazine or married to someone three times your age. you will watch people pull their hair into pigtails so they look like you. so that they can be sexy because of youth. one of the most common pornography searches involves newly-18 young women. girls. the words "barely legal," a hiss of glass sand over your skin.

barely legal. there are bills in place that will not allow people to feel safe in their own bodies. there are people working so hard to punish any person for having sex in a way that isn't god-fearing and submissive. heteronormative. the sex has to be at their feet, on your knees, your eyes wet. when was the first time you saw another person crying in pornography and thought - okay but for real. she looks super unhappy. later, when you are unhappy, you will close your eyes and ignore the feeling and act the role you have been taught to keep playing. they will punish the sex workers, remove the places they can practice their trade safely. they will then make casual jokes about how they sexually harass their nanny.

and they love sex but they hate that you're having sex. you need to have their ornamental, perfunctory, dispassionate sex. so you can't kiss your girlfriend in the bible belt because it is gross to have sex with someone of the same gender. so you can't get your tubes tied in new england because you might change your mind. so you can't admit you were sexually assaulted because real men don't get hurt, you should be grateful. you cannot handle your own body, you cannot handle the risks involved, let other people decide that for you. you aren't ready yet.

but they need you to have sex because you need to have kids. at 15, you are old enough to parent. you are not old enough to hear the word fuck too many times on television.

they are horrified by sex and they never stop talking about it, thinking about it, making everything unnecessarily preverted. the saying - a thief thinks everyone steals. they stand up at their podiums and they look out at the crowd and they sign a bill into place that makes sexwork even more unsafe and they stand up and smile and sign a bill that makes gender-affirming care illegal and they get up and they shrug their shoulders and write don't say gay and they get up, and they make the world about sex, but this horrible, plastic vision of it that they have. this wretched, emotionless thing that holds so much weight it's staggering. they put their whole spine behind it and they push and they say it's normal!

this horrible world they live in. disgusted and also obsessed.

#this shifts gender so much bc it actually affects everyone #yes it's a gendered phenomenon. i have written a LOT about how different genders experience it. that's for a different post. #writeblr #ps my comments about seeing someone cry -- this is not to shame any person #and on this blog we support workers. #at the same time it's a really hard experience to see someone that looks like you. clearly in agony. and have them forced to keep going. #when you're young it doesn't necessarily look like acting. it looks scary. and that's what this is about - the fact that teens #have likely already been exposed to that definition of things. because the internet exists #and without the context of healthy education. THAT is the image burned into their minds about what it looks like. #it's also just one of those personal nuanced biases - #at 19 i thought it was normal to be in pain. to cry. to not-like-it. that it should be perfunctory. #it was what i had seen. #and it didn't help that my religious upbringing was like . 'yeah that's what you get for premarital. but also for the reference #we do think you should never actually enjoy it lol' #so like the point im making is that ppl get exposed to that stuff without the context of something more tender #and assume .... 'oh. so it's fine i am not enjoying myself'. and i know they do because I DID. #he was my first boyfriend. how was i supposed to know any different #i didn't even have the mental wherewithal to realize im a lesbian . like THAT used to suffering.

[clown-owo]

been replaying the Portal series I think this is where its heading

#i haven't drawn in like. half a month. which listen i know i don't post much here but i do draw a lot #i have another blog. but also sometimes i just don't post things. i draw for myself #just got burnt out from working on an animation final 😔 #so anyway. eased myself back in with a silly comic about portal #my irl saw my shitty sketch and thought glados was painting chell which is very funny to me. #chelldos #but like. unrequited. glados is obsessed with chell. chell is not having a good time #portal #chell #GlaDOS #GlaD0S #my art #og post #1k #5k #10k #20k #edit: i made this post almost a year ago and it haunts me. theres a typo. chell is out of character. #because i couldn't come up with a good reason for her to be there in the first place #and this was a shitty ms paint replicating drawing that i did just to get back into drawing #i didn't think it would gain much attention #i was Wrong #anyway someone in the comments said this is what happens when you speedrun thats an infintely better setup for the punchline #EDIT 2: ok i fixed it fuck you

[stuckinapril]

friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me

#It’s just so different #even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol #in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps #if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it #esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends #no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr #u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS #meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life #this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation #like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !! #& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers #who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them #and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends #it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me #I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc #like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this #so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works #p

[verflares]

(click for higher quality!) draconified link concept ive been chipping away at this past week ..... here's my funny little compendium concept for him:

"A heroic spirit has taken the form of this bestial dragon. Unlike it's kin, this creature exhibits an extremely aggressive disposition. It appears highly territorial, and will relentlessly chase down those who disturb its skywide patrols - of which it seems to be endlessly searching for either a long-time vassal or foe. Unfortunately, it seems the spirit within has long since forgotten exactly who it was looking for…"

#now. how on earth do i begin to tag this. um. #link #loz #totk #totk spoilers #light dragon #dragon link #loz au #totk roleswap au #there . i'll add more if they come to me LOL #um i can talk about some of my insps i guess?? might make another post too #so mostly i just dont really like turning him into 'light dragon but male' and giving him slightly darker colours or something like that #this also obviously isnt exactly like the botw dragons either though and its a bit more of a mix of other creature concepts i enjoy #since everyone agrees he'd have a farosh horn i wanted to make him a kirin/unicorn :) which is why his tail looks like that #aside from the obvious eastern dragon insps and what ive picked and chosen from the botw dragons #and obviously this looks a lot like wolf link. thats on purpose #i wanted to give him some fierce deity design refs too but because this is so dark/earthy they didnt look very fitting #but honestly you could do a whole fierce deity dragon design on its own i think #okay lots of tags but IVE THOUGHT ABOUT THIS FOR A WHILE. okay. let me have this. #my art

[marisatomay]

the council has conferred and it has been decided that the most painful ages to happen to a person are 12, 17, 19, and 23

#source: it came to the council (me) in a dream #look. a lot of thought went into this actually and i stopped at 23 because my grandpa has a saying. #you have to keep kids alive until they’re 23. after that everything will start to sort itself out. #not that everything gets Good or even Better. just that after 23 everything is just. Less. you’re not 23 anymore. #idk it’s hard to explain if you’re not there yet.

[madamemiz]

sad: falling out of a hyperfixation

tragic: watching your beloved friends and mutuals fall out of the hyperfixation while you're still in it

#oughhhhhhh #this is about the dca fandom but also about every other strong fixation ive had over the years lol #i know it's normal and inevitable esp for less popular works or minor characters with little canon content #and there's nothing wrong with smaller communities of course those rock #but there’s just something special about getting into something at the same time as a lot of other people all at once #and existing in this chaotic fandom space that's just bursting with creativity and passion #i've been in fandom spaces for as long as some of you have been alive and i've only come across that sort of unbridled joy like #a handful of times at best #it's just a heartbreaking feeling to see real lightning in a jar fandoms like that wither away as people drift away #(understandably so!) #anyway don't mind me i'm just having thoughts #musing about fandoms past as well #that i too eventually moved on from but remember fondly even if im not active in anymore #also my music just aint hitting right so im just sitting in silence which makes me more Contemplative(tm)