#i just keep reminding myself that its exciting and good 😅

[rinbowaman]

Hey! Its my first time sending an ask hehe~ I just wanted to say that you’re such an amazing writer and your series are just sooooo good!!! 😍😍😍 I started getting into your account when I came across the smau for MRE and HHP and I gotta say, you got me hooked so bad onto Heethan that I end up loving all your Hee-leads so far! I’m so invested in HHP, SE7EN, DT and now TO! I’m honestly so excited to read a new chapter everytime you post hahaha! 🤭🤭

The main reason I wanted to send you this is cuz I’ve been having super stressful and bad days these past few days and its mainly cuz its my final year in college, final semester and final week actually 😅 and there’s just like sooo many final preparations needed to be done for my big final year project (having my big presentation today! soooo nervous) and its just been too much and too overwhelming for me and I didn’t wanna bother anyone with my anxiousness so I’ve been keeping it all to myself and having slight panic attacks and just started having random breakdowns as I complete my assignments. Reading your series, whether its new chapters or just rereading older ones have given me comfort, like I really felt alone but its like Heethan, Heelel and the Heebros have become my comfort characters. It’s just been so overwhelming for me and I didn’t wanna bother my family with it, I only have one other friend that I trust with my whole life but rarely see her, we’re all busy and I just felt like I’m falling behind in everything. Even though the Hee-leads might be like crazy obsessed with the reader, its like I really needed them in my life just to have someone to drop everything just to hold and comfort me anytime life becomes too much for me. I’m actually crying while writing this to you hahaha… it just feels like everyone around me is moving so fast and I’m stuck at the back picking myself up just because I feel so overwhelmed and anxious easily. Turning 20 this year is another thing that has me feeling afraid of adulthood, my mum is pressuring me into getting a job immediately once I graduate but I just feel like I’m not ready, or I’m just not ready to give up my teenage freedom and socialise professionally. Being such an introvert and shy and always thinking I’m just dumb and cant do work without help has been holding me back from wanting to grow and enjoy this new chapter in life.

So sorry for this long ass rant but i just really needed to let you know how much your stories, your Hee-leads have been keeping me going. Excited for the next chapters of your series! Hope you’re having a great day❣️

Omg so....I LOVE THIS.....this is so heartwarming and thank you for sharing it with me. Also, thank you for discovering my blog so you can write this to me, bc as you may have figured, receiving asks are just....its so nice. its a nice and wonderful surprise to hear from readers interesting in my work, wanting to know more about the characters and so forth. I am just beyond touched that heethan, heelel, and heebrows have made their way into your heart and to provide you comfort. in fact, reading your message had reminded me of a piece that i had started to draft (it was originally supposed to be a part of one of the HHP chapters but i never went through with it) but i still had it in my folders so after i finished reading your message, I decided to go back and actually finish it and format it specifically for you as y/n. I hope you like it. <3

Heeseung's Message.....

MDNI18+ content below the line.

Warnings: mentions of losing loved ones, fears and worries about the future, smut, car smut, unprotected smut, some....just some sadness....its a very heartwarming and touching piece.

"What's wrong baby?"

Noting how silent you were in the car, right after he picked you up, Heeseung rubbed your thigh, gently shifting your skirt upwards as he softly slid his hand up and down, enveloping you with warmth and comfort. "Something on your mind pretty baby?"

Placing your hand on his, you grabbed hold semi-tightly, keeping your gaze out at the window. You were hesitant at first, noting that Heeseung had a busy schedule of his own, was on his way of finishing his last year in college, aiding his professors, and of course, there was you....picking you up from classes, dropping you off every morning, taking you wherever you needed to go. You appreciated it but the man had completely devoted his time to everything else, you felt it selfish to bring any matters up to him....feeling that whatever time he did have left within the evening, he should at least have it for himself.

"It's nothing." You sighed out.

Glancing over to you, he furrowed his brows and quickly shifted the wheel, stirring the car over to a nearby parking lot on one of the campus buildings.

"What are you....?" raising up in your seat, you looked around before turning your gaze over to Heeseung, who steered the wheel with one hand and in a smooth motion, parked the car. Unbuckling his seatbelt, his gaze meets with yours before he reaches up and places his hand behind your head, softly grabbing onto your hair as he leans in and rests his forehead against yours.

"Whats wrong? Did something happen? Did someone hurt you? I wanna know. Tell me, y/n."

His eyes were wide and his expression was fierce with rage, however, before he further ventured off into a spiraling path of unhinged presumptions, you reached up and latched your fingers onto his collar, placing a dainty kiss on his lips. "Its not that....I promise nothing like that happened."

Raising his brows and tilting his head, he releases the gentle grip he had on your hair, and replaced it with a soft, petting motion. "Then why are you being so quiet? You seem upset, what is it?"

Looking down at the console for just a second, you raise your sights once more to meet his and began talking.

".....Are you ever scared about the future, Heeseung?"

His face was taken slightly aback as he raised both brows and looked at you with an intent look.

"Is that what this is about? Are you feeling overwhelmed about moving?"

Shaking your head, you looked down once more as you shyly clarified. "Nooo.....its not just that....its more..."

"Like what baby?"

"Like....after the moving.....finishing college, being in an unfamiliar country, not knowing anybody, making new friends, meeting your family, being apart from mine, learning a new language, finding a job after college, and what if I have to do more college? Or ...." pausing, you caught yourself drifting in verbal thought.

"Or....?" He draws out as he bids you to finish your statement.

"Or........what if....what if something happens and we........you know.....what if we just...."

Squinting his eyes slightly, his expression looked a little irked as he rolled his tongue in his mouth. "That's never going to happen y/n. You know that."

"Yeah but....."

"But what?" Slightly annoyed, he closed his eyes for a second, tilted his chin down, and lifted his lids to expose a rather stern and rather angry look. Yet the moment he saw that your eyes began to glisten, shining like diamonds as the tears started to build up, you looked down once more, unable to look him square in the eye as you felt the first tear break free and drip down on the leather padding of the console.

Watching as you faintly sobbed, he nearly felt his heart break into two. He gasped out a faint breath as he reached over with his other hand and cupped your face, no longer expressing a look of annoyance.

"Hey......why? What's making you think that way? Am I not showing you enough love? You know whatever it is you want, all you have to do is tell me and I'll make it happen."

"Its not that i just........there's just some things we can't predict about the future Heeseung......what if some day......what if you stop loving me......or worse.....what if something happens and I no longer have you? What if....just.......you never know.....is it wrong for me to hope for the best, but expect the worse? Because...you know that life can be so unfair some times....and I....I....I'm scared because....I dont even know....what I'm scared of sometimes. I wake up every single morning not even knowing how to live life because there's so many things that I think about....so many things that are thrown at me all at once and I just.....I feel like sometimes......I might fail......I feel like sometimes.....I will let you down.......I feel like its not the world, its me.........its me that's broken, not you or anyone else."

You gasped out tears and soft cries as you spoke straight from the heart. For the first time, Heeseung had sincerely considered if going to Korea was the best option, at least just for a second before he reminded himself of the future that he had waiting for him.....a future that would allow him to continue to keep you....safe....and with him.

Shifting his sights around on the floor bed of the car, his thumbs stroke your cheeks, wiping away the continuous flow of tears that were now coming down harder than before. Gulping down a hard swallow, he turns back to face you.

"Baby.........look at me....please look at me."

Looking up into his gaze, your eyes red, swollen, with eyelashes drenched and your face stained with wet trails of all your fears leaving their mark. With a soft smile, he calmly speaks.

"You're right.....that is tough. There's a lot that we can't control in the future....its precarious, and we're literally just pawns on the board of this silly game called life, where God and the universe are taking turns making each move. It can be cruel, unfair, and tormenting. Its something that we can either overcome with great strife and hard work."

"But what happens if we work so hard and it.....it just doesnt work out? What if everything just falls apart Heeseung?"

"We wont know unless it happens y/n......the thing about the future, as much as we want it here in the present, so we can see and view what it has in store for us, thats....just not the way it works. That's not the way we work....we're not designed to know those things. We didn't become strong because we cheated, we became strong and survived because we, as humans, learned....the hard way."

Looking into his eyes, your vision started to become blurry all over as the next set of tears built up. Smiling as he continued to wipe your tears away, he continues.

"Y/n....for thousands of years, people have fallen, lost, and suffered at the creativity of the universe. Yet we never gave up......people had an urge to survive. Which is why at times, even when the entire world was on fire, times where a soldier never comes home, a woman loses her child, or when a doctor just doesnt have a cure.....we keep moving....we get back up and learn how to walk again. I can't sit here and tell you that I know that everything is going to be great.....I dont know. But what I do know.....is this...."

Shifting his hands down to your waist, he lifts you with his core strength as his abdominal muscles flexed under his shirt. Bringing you over onto his lap, he sat you down in a princess style as he cradled you against his chest.

"No matter what happens....I'm going to be there. I'm going to be there and I'm going to help you, just like you're going to help me. I'll never let anything happen to you....and.....you never have to worry about me not loving you .....noooooooo pretty baby......that's never going to happen, not loving you would be the worst offense against Heaven and humanity. As far as if anything were to happen to me...."

The moment Heeseung touched on that part of the subject, you sobbed uncontrollably against his neck.

"Heeeeeey, come on now. Nothing's even happen, why are you acting like that's a for sure thing?" he chuckles out as he kisses your forehead. "Listen..." Taking your hand in his, he continues.

"I'm not going anywhere......I'm not. I know this because I know what is living for me......you. I will never abandon you. Even if something did happen, you know i'm always going to be with you. You know how?"

Shaking your head, he brushes your hair away from your face.

"Moments like this baby. Every time we talk, touch, feel each other, love, eat, sleep, kiss, and when I fuck your brains out...." gripping onto your waist tightly, he presses his forehead against your own once more. "All the things we do, they never leave. So.......if there is ever a time where I am not physically here......you're always going to remember how i feel..." gliding his hand from your waist, he reaches down and gently trails it upwards under your skirt, his fingers reaching into your panties.

"You're going to remember my touch..." kissing your neck, he latches his mouth onto your soft spot under your ear, and rings the tip of his tongue around in slow circular motions.

"You're going to remember my scent...." with his free hand, he reaches behind your head and gently pushes your face inward, causing your nose to become burrowed in his thatch of dark long, shaggy hair, inhaling the scent of his cool-mint cologne and his shampoo.

"You'll also remember what I taste like...." placing a soft peck on the spot he was sucking on, he tilts his head up slightly and brings your head down to kiss him.

"And best of all......pretty baby.......you're going to remember what it feels like when I fuck you......when I love you." Shifting your body to face forward, your back completely spooned by his chest and groin as you both remained seated in the drivers side, he spreads your legs open by pushing our inner thighs apart. You were so caught up with the sensual four play, you hadn't realized that he tore off your panties. Unbuttoning your blouse, exposing your breasts, he shifts you up as he levels his length to align with your slit, before proceeding to enter inside you. Feeling full of his flesh, you moaned out as the overwhelming sense of pleasure hits you........taking you away from the abysmal depths of your fears and worries.

Steadying you in a reverse cowgirl position, filing you, his cock melts inside you as he begins thrusting slow and steady, picking up the pace as your walls become more moist.

"You feel me pretty baby?"

"Y-yes!"

"Yeah? You gonna remember me forever?"

"Y-yes...yes! He-Heeseung!"

"You gonna remember what this feels like?"

"Yes!"

"What does it feel like baby? Tell me."

"F-f......fe-feels......ssss......goood......soo....soo.goood....ugh!"

"Harder or faster baby?"

"ugh! both! please both!"

Thrusting repeatedly, your body falls limp as he holds you upright, with one arm wrapped around your waist, and his other hand shifting a grip between your neck and your exposed breast, he muffles your moans and screams with his mouth as he swallows every single bit of your precious tones.

"Gonna cum for me?"

"Y-ye.....yes!...yes.......ugh! He-Heeseung!"

"Yeah? You gonna cum because you're a good girl?"

"Mmm!mmmmmm....mmmhmmm!....ugh!"

"You my good girl?"

"Y....yes!!"

"Yeah you are.......now fucking cum on me. Let me feel it."

Adding more depth to each thrust, you gasped out your screams of pleasure as he rams his cock deep inside, separating new found walls and extracting the moisture out of your body. Reaching orgasm and releasing all over his member, your thighs shake relentlessly.

"Good girl.....my turn."

Cupping your lower tummy, he pushes in and feels his thick length as it slides in and out, he found it amusing how your sensitive body could take him like this, especially feeling it inside you as he was doing right now. Jacking his member deep inside you at a rapid and hard momentum, he finally reaches his moment and with one last punctured thrust, he bucks his hips upward as he shoves you down, mashing your bodies together as he releases inside and fills your body up.

Pulling your head back as he latches his mouth on your neck yet again, suckling as your body bounces rigorously from the tenacity of his performance.

Feeling the pleasure of his tainted love, you somehow were to understand his message clearly, all due to Heeseung extracting you from your fears......which he had done before, back when Samuel sent you his email......back when you and Heeseung came together for the first time.....the start of your guys story. Just as he did back then, he helped you to understand, that the reality of what life gives, is never necessarily the ending to your story. The more he kept pumping into you, the more you were reminded of that clarity. Yea sure, you still felt scared, but knowing that if at first you dont succeed....reach happiness.....or if things just dont work out, you can and should always, try-try again. A lesson you were always reminded of, all thanks to Heethan.

Authors note: Lol, sooooooo...yeah this original draft did have some smut....and i was going to take it out but it was too crucial for me to do so. I hope you dont mind that. But, this chapter was originally drafted, back a few months ago. I had this thought in my head, since I have only taken a few college courses, and am about to start back up on it, I was feeling so dreadful and felt too nervous about doing well. I want to succeed in reaching my educational goals....but what also kind of bugged me was....will i still find time to write? I love writing, truly do. Mainly because it brings other people joy and brings out their most inner feelings. I had so much on my mind that time that i had began drafting this, but as i was writing it, i left it unfinished bc honestly, when i drafted heethan's message.....literally its like his voice was telling me what to write....i felt better. like it was a nice little reminder....realistic...very rational....and honest...but still positive and holds truth. there's a lot of things we can't control, but we should never give up. Its okay to be scared and to worry, that's natural, and that is exactly why people such as myself are here, writing these chapters and stories for you all because i know that there is such a thing called 'life' and sometimes....we just need a break from it to refresh ourselves. I know you have alot on your plate, but dont worry because everything will be more than fine. We have to pace ourselves, work hard, but also rest, and play from time to time. Eat and drink well, and finish strong. finish college, work with your mother and teach her to work with you, if you dont get the job you really want, no big deal. no matter what job you get, if its one you dont want, nothing lasts forever. just think that whatever you do now, it is only making you more marketable for the dream goal you have. I hope you continue strong because while you do have alot on your plate, you've been slaying....you've been killing it! and that's a major accomplishment in itself, last of year of college? woohoo! finish strong!

So now i should apologize for responding with the longest post ever lol. but i really hope this makes you feel better. Reading your message had reminded me of this piece and i am so glad you sent it to me because....looking at it now...and actually finishing it......this was something that was meant to be published and shared. bc it holds an important message for all of us. <3

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[fluffytriceratops]

Random facts about Monet. <3

Couldn’t help myself, I drew an older Monet. I love this bab so much. She deserves the world. Raph is definitely a proud papa. And Kristina feels lucky to have raised such a strong young woman. 😊❤️

I’ll be doing Nefertiri next, so stay tuned for that! ^~^

I drew this quite a while ago, I just never had the time/chance to post it. But since my job is done with, hopefully I’ll have more time to come online. See my pinned post for more details hehe. There’s quite a bit that went down the past couple weeks. I’m on vacation rn, so I won’t have a ton of time, but I’ll come on when I can! Expect to see a lot of spam from me because my notifications are overflowing— I’m talking way over 500 lol. So if I accidentally missed something you tagged me in, I apologize profusely. 😫 (also I am in no way trying to brag or anything about how many notifications I have, if it felt or seemed like that I’m sorry that’s not my intention I’m just trying to explain why I might miss something someone wanted me to see— 😅)

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Have a wonderful day/night! Sending all the virtual hugs to you!! <333

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- She was named after Claude Monet, a famous French painter.

- She is super strong, like really freaking strong. (Mystic power strong?) She can take a hit and she can deliver one too. When sparring with her sister (Nefertiri) she has to continuously remind herself to take it easy and not use her strength to its fullest. Otherwise she could accidentally really hurt her. This probably goes for other family members as well, especially those that are human and can’t really handle the brunt of her attacks when she is using 100% of her strength.

- Monet loves her strength but sometimes she’s scared she’ll accidentally hurt someone. (Something that’s happened on a few occasions, especially when she’s upset/angry or overly excited, she tends to forget how strong she really is) so she usually dials her strength down a lot if she can remember to. One of her biggest fears is to accidentally go too far and really hurt someone she cares for.

- Definitely a secret softy. Very few people in her inner circle have seen this side of her. It’s not something she’s comfortable with sharing. However, a lot of her family and friends knows she’s like this. She just heavily denies it. (Classic Raphael move hehe)

- She has anger issues and they only get worse the older she gets. She can be very violent and sometimes needs a reminder to take a step back and breathe. This is usually given to her by one of her family members.

- She is not afraid to put anyone in their place. She will speak her mind, no matter the consequences. Her bark is just as big as her bite. Monet is brutally honest and has a hard time keeping her mouth shut. She will snark the shit out of someone and loves a good banter. She loves to poke fun and tease people and doesn’t mind it if they do so in return.

- Please challenge her to an arm wrestling battle or spar with her. She loves it and will forever be your friend.

- Hates bitter and overly spicy or sour foods. She has an enormous sweet tooth. Loves baked goods, chocolates and candies. (All except the sour ones) Also prefers cold foods/drinks over hot ones. For example, iced coffee over hot coffee. Or milk/boba teas over regular hot tea.

- A good way to get on her good side is by bringing/making her something sweet. Whether you bake her some cookies or buy her a boba tea. Whatever. She might not show it right away, but she would be very grateful and happy about it.

- Loves to pull jokes and prank people, especially with her cousin Noa ( @rheawritesforfun ‘s OC).

- Monet is obsessed with horror/gore. She loves the genre, they’re always her favourite movies/books/video games. Halloween is her favourite Holliday. She goes all out for it. Candy and horror? That’s her shit! And it’s one of the only times she gets to be out on the surface. Which is awesome.

- Second favourite Holliday is April fools/Loki day. Everyone dreads the first of April because they know it’s about to go down. She prepares months in advance and anyone and everyone she knows will be suffering from her pranks. No matter who you are or how old you may be. No one if safe on that day. She goes all out.

- Bares her teeth at people often. Monet has sharp canines like her father, and sometimes they poke out of her mouth. But when she’s angry or in a bad mood, she will bare her teeth threateningly at people. Especially when she’s fighting.

- Queen of resting bitch face. Even when she’s in a good mood she’ll look the opposite.

- Often tells people to go fuck off or to go fuck themselves. Her mum hates her potty mouth, but Monet loves to curse/swear. She likes to come up with weird or creative comebacks too.

- Just like her mother, she is not the best singer. She’s definitely better than Kristina is, maybe even average? But she wouldn’t consider herself as someone with a good/great singing voice.

- Shows her affection with actions rather than words. Doesn’t hug often, but she will give head pats (or ruffle someone’s hair) as signs of her love and adoration. Same thing goes for fist bumps and secret hand shakes n stuff. If she is more physical with someone, they better not mention it because she’ll most likely immediately pull away and brush them off out of embarrassment. If someone continuously teases her about it, she’d snap angrily and storm off.

- Monet will get into a physical fight with someone. She tends to lash out and sometimes it can get quite aggressive. She gets better at storming off and walking away the older she gets, but it’s definitely very hard for her to do so. Her anger isn’t a party trick. It’s serious. And it’s something she battles with every day.

- She also tends to rant/vent A LOT to those she’s closest to. (Noa is definitely one of em lol) she doesn’t like to express her feelings openly to most people but she will to a select few. And those select few better be prepared for an ear full.

- HATES being bossed around and controlled. Especially if it’s involving someone she doesn’t like, or if she’s forced to do something she doesn’t want to. If it’s an order, she will do it. She’ll just bitch about it while doing so.

- Door slams are very common with Monet. And because of her strength, she has broken waaay more than anyone would care to admit. There’s a jar labeled “Monet’s doors” filled with cash from Monet because she usually has to pay for a new one. Or at least, help pay for one. It’s like a swear jar but with doors. They’ve given up on her swearing long ago hehe.

- Monet can be described as being erratic emotionally. She is daring, brave, and free spirited but she can also be quite sardonic and sarcastic. And of course, a classic rebel. She is very athletically adept, and can be quite friendly/kind to her family and friends. However, Monet is also very willful, stubborn, incredibly rude and aggressive. She is also the most relentless out of her siblings. It is her relentless ferocity that makes her such a deadly fighter.

- Monet loves to fight, wrestle, and trash the place. If there’s a brawl, she would love to join in the fight. Because of her passion for fighting, she would fight first and reflect and ask questions later.

- She can also be very cocky and competitive. When she wins games and duels against her friends and family, she will rub it in their faces, much to their dismay.

- Monet can be unpredictable, and her ferocious temper can sometimes frighten enemies even her friends/family. She can be very aggressive when trying to solve problems, even with her family and allies. Sometimes during training, Monet can get hostile, and she would do anything she can to beat her family in sparring matches. When she feels misunderstood or irritated (which unfortunately happens a lot), she tends to storm out and go topside or roam the sewers on her own. Despite the fact that her parents don’t like this considering it can be very dangerous.

- Despite all of this, she is the most loyal friend anyone could ask for. She will do anything, literally just about anything to protect those she cares for. Even if she might not ever admit it, in order to stay “badass” and “hardcore” and to protect her pride. She will do everything in her power to protect her friends and family.

- Basically she’s Raphael 2.0 (more so the other iterations, but still—).

- Because of her anger, and rebellious nature I do not believe she would be chosen to be the next leader. Whoever would be picked, she’d feel a bit resentful towards. They’d definitely have a bit of a rocky relationship. Especially if it’s a certain someone (cough cough Milo cough). (Another of @rheawritesforfun ‘s ocs). Due to their relationship already being a bit rocky lol. It’d definitely be a classic Leo vs Raph thing. And she’d probably be like “of course you’d get the role, you’re the former leaders son. I call favouritism.” Or something like that lmao. She’d defy his orders a lot, that’s for sure. Honestly, she’d defy anyones orders. Except maaaybe Noa. Cuz they’re as thick as thieves.

- Her weapon of choice would be the tetsubo. And she’d also always carry brass knuckles with her wherever she goes. Specially made to fit her hands by her wonderful uncle Donnie. She’d probably have a whole collection of them in her room somewhere. All of which she got as gifts, most likely all made by Dee. Unless she somehow got her hands on some regular human ones, then they’d only be there for decoration. Since she can’t wield them for obvious reasons. Along with the other classic side weapons the ninja carry (I.e. throwing knives, smoke bombs, grappling hook, etc.)

- Has two male pet rats named Zeus and Poseidon. They are her babies and she will die for them. And they were a gift she received from her Granpapi Splinter, and yes it was an ironic gift and she loved it for that.

- Like her ma, she also thinks Greek and Egyptian mythology is super cool. It’s one of the few things she’ll totally geek over. Another good way to get on her good side, get her to talk about it or get her a gift involving it. Even if it’s simply watching a movie with her. She’ll adore it.

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[crystaldwightsworld]

I know its been like 2 years since you updated Nerve so sorry if this is annoying!! But i just finished reading chapter 2 yesterday and today i accidentally found your tumblr account?!?! I'm so shocked, I think it was fate haha 😄

So anyway, I found myself thinking about your story for the whole day. I really love your writing style. I couldn't look away from the screen. You perfectly captured Ashley's emotions, I could feel her pain and her hesitancy towards Leon. And Leon... he's so gentle and tactful. He instantly makes you feel safe.

I just wanted to thank you for writing this, I noticed that you seem a bit unsure if your stories are good (you mentioned rewriting it a lot of times 😅) and I just want to tell you that THEY ARE AMAZING!!! You are very talented and I hope you have lots of motivation and inspiration to write more great stories in the future. ❤

No need to apologise, it's far from annoying. Maybe fate, maybe not, I did link to my tumblr on some of the chapters in my fics (actually went back and linked to it on all of them since I realized I hadn't been doing it lol).

It still baffles me that I get so many comments on the story and messages here on tumblr. You're not the first person to message me about it lol. Baffled because... you're right, I don't think it's that good xD. I know Leon x Ashley is far from the popular pairing but that's exactly why I started the story/ies. Not a lot of ppl write for them specifically and not a lot of ppl like Ashley to begin with.

I'm glad you like the story. I took a BIG gamble on that second chapter, speaking from Ashley's POV for most of it and sprinkling in a little bit of Leon's as well. I'm doing my best to keep them in what is in my mind, in character. Is a lot of it made up and merely speculation? Of course it is, we only know so much from lore and the games. I had thought ppl were going to hate it though, POV chatter from a character tends to piss ppl off for some reason...

2 years... yikes lol. Trust me, I'm just as disappointed as the fans of the fic are. The inspiration is there, stories that I'd like to write, one offs, au's, things that I already have started sitting in Docs, it's just finding the motivation. I've kind of lost my flow recently, IDK why. Nerve has some deep and dark subjects present in the story as well so it's a little difficult for me to write about something I've never experienced or have no experience in. It's a miracle if I can go back to the third chapter and manage to whip out a few sentences. Chapter three has been sitting in my Google Docs for quite some time, along with the other chapters or drabbles that I want included in the story. I've said it before but Leon and Ashley is always in the back of my mind, always on my mind in some form or another. Always reminded that I need to get the next chapter out. The new RE4 remake coming has really rekindled my interest, I'm really looking forward to seeing Leon and Ashley again. I'm hoping for more bonding moments, more banter, idle chatter and conversation. I about damn near cried at the second trailer reveal and game play footage. That spark is back, that nervous excitement you get in your tummy that burns (in a good way) with fluttering butterflies... I cannot wait to see them again lol.

I'm not going to guarantee when the next chapter will come out. I really have no idea. I can't write unless I'm feeling it and forcing myself to do it any other time just leaves me sitting there staring dumbfoundedly at the draft, knowing exactly what I want to say but unable to get it out into words on the screen. I guess... we'll see. I'm not giving up on it though, I refuse.

Thank you for taking the time to write to me. I'm very doubtful of myself and the stories so finding messages or comments from peeps that really enjoy the stories really reminds me that I'm too hard on myself.

To keep spirits up, I will reveal something from the fic but as always, it's always subject to change. I try to give out mini drabbles of things I'm for certain I want in the story.

Chapter 3

“Ashley?” He voices his greeting gently from above, hoping that it wouldn’t startle her. Her eyes peel open, finding Agent Kennedy standing over her in the dimly lit room. She acknowledges his being with a forced tiny smile followed by a pained whimper, the cramps from her period giving her hell. The headache had lessened but her head still throbbed, her pelvic region felt heavy with pressure and she kept sweating due to the frequent hot flashes. 

“You’re up early, graham cracker.” He says, the silly nickname making her grin as her tired eyes fall to the wall behind him. “Dumb question but you okay?”

Her throat is dry, feeling as if it would almost cave in on itself. She forces her gaze back up to his but only for a moment to shake her head no, reverting her stare back. 

“No? Do I need to get a hold of Marc?” Leon offers. Again, she shakes her head.

“No talking kind of day, huh?” 

Ashley had had a few of them and Leon had grown used to them. He knew better to bother anyone when all they wanted was to be left alone. He had experienced many days like that himself. She makes a pained expression, teetering on the edges of wince and bothered before shaking her head no again.

She sits up slightly, keeping the hot pack in place as she moves to the middle of the bed. She doesn’t ask and she doesn’t tell but only reaches her hand out for Leon’s, her fingers folding easily into his palm. She pulls for him, motioning for him to take the spot next to her. He smirks but doesn’t take it right away, the caution and hesitancy hard in his gaze. Her tired gaze grants him permission, tugging his arm forward again. He relents, taking the open spot next to her, leaving one leg to hang off the edge.

“Lay.” She mutters in her sleepy drawl and the request takes Leon by surprise.

“You’re being brave today, Ash.” He comments, watching her pat against the sheets to gesture for him to join her. Against his better judgment, he obliges and takes his spot, turning to lay back comfortably, the warmth from where she was radiating through his blazer jacket. 

Was it a good idea? Probably not. She doesn’t say anything though and neither does he, sharing their quiet moment together, the warmth of her beside him and the dim light of the room pulling at sleep strings he much longed to fall back into. He stared up at the ceiling, nothing but the sound of commercials and her breath meeting his ears. It was… nice. Peaceful.

<3

#asks #leon kennedy #ashley graham #leon x ashley #nerve #resident evil 4 #re4 ashley #ashley re4 #my writing #my fic #leon s kennedy #resident evil

[pashminalamb]

Oh! Okay I’m really glad and that’s a huge relief too. Oh ho ho ho I’m sure that NNN challenger idea is gonna be great I look forward to it! 😌 AHHHHH I also can’t wait for Bachira to be added into the series. I saw him the first episode and I was like “yes that one. the insane adorable one? yeah he’s mine now.” Asdhjkgfghh I love him so much. And those are some solid pieces of advice. I should probably remind myself of them more often. Ohhh what book? I recently went on a book shopping spree (that was my birthday gift) and got a whole bunch of books that I can’t wait to read once I have the time. The to-be-read list keeps getting longer and I’m like “…… but one more book wouldn’t hurt.” And then proceed to add 5 more ajshkjfdfcchjfdfg 💀💀. Anyways. Also kind of a random fact abt me but like I’m anime-only for Blue Lock rn and I KNOW WHAT YOURE THINKING BUT HEAR ME OUT. No I promise you didn’t spoil me. I’m a master at avoiding them now because I have this habit of like watching the first episode and then deep-diving into the shows tag on tumblr (x reader too ofc) and like seeing if I like the vibes. I have not yet gotten spoiled because I’m so practiced at dodging spoilers now. Anything that remotely even LOOKS like a spoiler I’m like “nope” and keep scrolling even tho it doesn’t get any easier each time 😭. So like don’t worry abt spoilers with me. But with this I’m always so excited for upcoming events and meeting new characters in the show. And especially with Blue Lock, cause like I’m a sports anime lover and the concept of Blue Lock is so different and new and it was so hyped up that I knew I had to try it. Fast forward to now and I have volume 2 of the manga and am waiting on my orders for volumes 1 and 3 😌😅💀. I’m still anime only tho cause I wanna finish the first season before I start the manga, that’s my policy. And like it’s so interesting how this show hooked me with the first episode (cough cough Bachira cough cough) and now I’m planning on reading the manga which is a huge surprise because I never read sports anime manga cause I feel like watching it is just more of a experience you know? Haikyuu being the only exception for me ofc. I’m currently in a mission to collect all 45 volumes. But it’s gonna take me a minute for obvious reasons. Anyways. But like Blue Lock just came in and swept me away. So like I’m really excited to see what happens in next weeks episode. Also your works were one of the reasons I decided to watch Blue Lock in the first place because they were so amazing to read even though I didn’t know any of the characters. Like your writing is just THAT good. So thank you for feeding into my new obsession 😌. Also I read in your bio awhile ago that you’re a November Scorpio? Happy early or belated birthday!! 🥳🎉🎂 I’m an October Scorpio so reading that was a pleasant surprise. Anyways. Thank you for your kind words in response to my earlier ask, they really meant a lot. Your blog is a huge comfort for me, all of tumblr really, but there are only a few blogs that I actually intact with because I love the vibes and energy and writing and the person behind it all (ie you), it’s just overall really comforting and makes me feel safe. ALSO do you mind if I give you my review and analysis of the episodes as I watch them?? Maybe occasionally?? I cant do that with your works yet unfortunately but I will try to as soon as I finish the first season or give into reading the manga before the season ends, whichever comes first. You can clearly tell that my self-restraint is on thin ice 💀💀. Anyways as always I hope your day goes good! *sends virtual hugs*

- ✨ anon

✨ anon !! ૮₍ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ₎ა

Oh yeah the idea I have for the NNN challenge is gonna be a tempting one but at the same time not everyone's cup of tea cause its kind of an old school idea; but at the same time. I know watching this thing made me go 'That's hot.'

Oh yeah i totally know that feeling of seeing someone and just falling for them. Like when I saw Yoichi I was all like 'he is so cute. lil blueberry muffin' and when I saw Kunigami I deadass went 'that's literally football bakugou and there is no way you can convince me otherwise. Cause just look at him, man wants to be a surperhero and looks EXACTLY like him, but he wasn't that much of an asshole' (he gets turned into one later during the series tho) Meguru looked so cute just lying on the floor and I kinda get him and his monster cause its a way of saying that he's in the zone (like the aomine and Kagami knb reference if anyone knows what I'm talking about?)

As for me; the moment I saw Aiku... I was like 'you have my attention.' But I knew something wasn't right cause I knew that this looked a little too good. Then i find out that he is a womanizer. And to add more onto that, he even got slapped and didn't care. He likes summer cause he gets to see girls in bikinis. And I was right about him liking baby chicks

Out of EVERYONE how is it that I get stuck with a person like this (me just proving that I fall for red flags) but i still love him and watch me defend this man .

(like even if you look at my track record with Haikyuu; likes Miya twins, Sawamura Daichi, Kageyama Tobio, Kuroo Tetsuro. Istg I'm asking for it)

So I'm currently reading Tuesdays with Morrie; its a heavy book based on the conversation between a dying teacher and his student and its based more on philosophy and the books I got were the old man and the sea by Ernest Hemingway, the alchemist by Paulo Coelho and books based on psychology. I have a very mixed taste and from the looks of it, its not very interesting is it? my personality is a mess and so is the aesthetic i roll with atp

Which books did you get? Must be some pretty good ones if you can't stop and you need to read 5 more? Is it a manga?

Oh yeah i totally get it. Reading a football manga and actually seeing it animated are two very different things (I wanna see how they animate Aiku cause I already got early spoilers for how everyone else looked. But aiku? I am waiting. I spoiled chainsawman for everyone and I was really surprised that Pochita's voice was so soft cause I was expecting something as deep as Daichi's voice? And same. Even if I get spoilers I will watch the whole thing; its a different story when i figure out the plot tho (i was forced to watch YOU despite predicting the entire plot of season 1 and season 2 in 5 minutes ; its the typical 'if I can't have you no one can' but I watched it anyway cause of my ex. couple goals ) I wish you luck on the journey of collecting all 45 mangas; cause even I wanna get bllk mangas ngl and I plan on buying one this week ig but I keep pushing it off ૮ ˶´ ᵕˋ ˶ა

I- I am surprised but happy that I got you into bllk ૮⸝⸝ > ꇴ <;⸝⸝ づ with time i'll even get you to like Aiku

And we can obsess together

And yeah i am a november scorpio; thank you for you wishes anon!!

( ⸝⸝´꒳`⸝⸝) we're scorpio buddies

I'm glad you like my writing though cause even if the content and the pace I keep with the posting is according to my comfort, at the end of the day, its an 'x reader' edition and you guys are the ones reading it; so it means a lot to me when every one of you reads my works and likes it ૮₍ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ₎ა and I'm glad that you feel safe here and that this is your comfort blog.

Of course !! You're very much welcome to give an analysis or a review whenever you want and ready!

go wild bb. Tumblr is supposed to be chaotic and that is welcome here ♡꒰ᵕ༚ᵕ⑅꒱

*sending hugs back*

#saint.σ #.lost sheep : ✨ anon

[bebecue]

God, it has been a time so when I saw that post I was literally like "😐... we'll table that for later" Ig the excitement of a new good song in the tornado of my life at that moment had me too excited haha. I'm gonna say I'd like to stay anonymous though cause... idk the mystery of it? You can follow me if you like, I don't really post anything myself though p much just reblog random shit ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯. MOVING ON, kitten update: we are 100% keeping her, and our vet (who isn't crazy like the vet we took her to before) said she's 8-10 months but she doubts she'll grow more. She's getting along GREAT with one of our cats (he's a massive tuxedo with no brain so, no big surprise) but our dear eldest child, who was a feral cat up until about two years ago, is not her biggest fan 😅 I'm sure she'll come around though. We decided to name her Mavis,,,, literally just cause it's pretty

I will return with music probably later this week, love ya, bye 😘 ~ bugunon(double checking the anon button)

RIKARIKA OMG I literally just found this song (like actually just 10min ago lol) but I'm already obsessed with it, its DEJAYOU by PiXXiE. It's cunty and darkish sounding, it's a lil bit repetitive but I don't think it's bothersome(lil extra detail, I love the effect they put on "oh boy you give me"), ALSO is almost 4mins long ... just saying

Idk like anything about the group except they're Thai and the youngest of them is 21(we love it when they're not total babies) and based on what I've seen their stage presence is really good.

I'll probably have more soon cause I have nothing to do this weekend lol, until next time, love you! and don't forget to always check what freebie you're grabbing 😘🦇 ~bugunon

BUGUNONNNNN tysm for the rec, you are 100% correct, it's dark, cunty, and incredibly catchy..the hook is so addicting and i looove the visuals!!! we love a group with actual adult members lmao idk about seeing a bunch of teenagers doing concepts like this, we need more actual adults in the asian pop industry

AND AAAAA A KITTY UPDATE and i'm so glad you found a good vet, it's so hard when all you have access to is one that just wants to take your money, and I LOVE HER NAME omg it reminds me of mavis from hotel transylvania lmao (dont judge)

i'm sure the eldest child will come around soon, our dogs were the same, when we adopted our youngest, the older one did not want anything to do with her (but she absolutely adores him) and now he kinda tolerates her and they even stay next to each other when they nap

AND YES PLEASE more music recs!! i need more variety in what i listen to hehe

#and i did follow u from my main blog hehe i hope u dont mind! #rika.replies #bugunon

[ratherbefangirling]

Hey! I'm here for the ship game!! This is such an amazing concept and i kind of am excited to see what you got for me! 😅

So about me, i am 21 yrs old and comp science major although I love arts! I mean literally genuinely love the arts field. Like the entire field, from paintings and sculptures to songs and dances and culinary arts and movies and directions and photographs! I love psychology as well and love learning about human behavior. I would not say I'm particularly talented in one specific thing. I like to try a lot of different things and usually get super distracted quickly so I mostly jump from one thing to the other. One thing I'm proud of is I can draw and paint really well. I can dance really well as well and I love playing the drums(I'm not good at it but I still love doing it).

I'm naturally a very shy person but once I open up and create a bond, i can be really funny and a drink or two in me can make me the life of the party. I admire people who are hard working and are go getters and passionate about their work. Me being kind of shy make me aspire to want to be the confident, boss girl. I try to be intimidating at time but because of me being kinda short(I'm like 5'2😅) and kinda petite I'm always perceived as the cute one.

I don't like saying no to people and that creates a lot of difficulties for me a lot of the times. I need people and friends in my life that will remind me to stand up for myself and be assertive. I am told I'm too caring sometimes and a bit kiddish and sometimes I'm told I'm charismatic and mature. I think I'm kiddish when I'm with my close friends but with strangers and acquaintances I get real mature.

I love making people blush and it's kind of my hobby. I am very blunt when it comes to taboo topics like "sex" and I love flustering guys by talking about periods and stuff with them because I believe that all this is natural and I kind of want them to feel normal when they discuss about these things with girls or when a girl does so as well. I love teasing people and I would like to be with a guy who is soft and has great manners but also does not hold back from teasing me or teasing others with me😅 I love domesticity and I swoon over couples going grocery shopping together or having lazy Sundays together. Grand gestures are all good but I truly believe that real love is finally reached when you are comfortable enough with your partner where you can just eat super messily in front of them without caring or where you both brush your teeth together and have a drawer at each other's place with all your stuff in it.

Sorry for making it so long 😅 I got excited and went on a rant but yeah I like simple, sweet, soft things... I'm very low maintenance and I just love being with my partner, in his arms, cuddling and just talking about random things. I love physical affection and hand holding, back hugs, pecks and neck kisses are my thing.

Thanks for listening to me and giving me your time! I really look forward to what you've got for me😅🥺.

Hey

Girl we'd be best friends if we met and this gave me an excuse to spend an ungodly amount of time just looking for Joon gifs talk about boyfriend material.

And tmi I was talking to one of my acquaintances about rape culture how its always 'her' fault and guys are excused just because. Apparently boys will be boys, boys have high sexual desires?!? So I went like I have desires too you don't see me ripping a guys shirt off. Also if I see a cute guy I'd tell my friend oh a cutie or something and not assault them. Period.

I hope you enjoy your ship and keep flustering boys. Someone needs to.

The person I ship you with is Namjoon.

You sat surrounded by Namjoon as he read a book. His arms caging you, the book as a lock and his head on your shoulder.

You had earphones in your ears and were listening to music.

You had come to visit Namjoon as you were stuck with your coding. You loved computers. Your brain loved coding except when you got stuck and running the code didnt work not once , not twice but ten times because you might have added or subtracted a character somewhere which you couldn't find in the humongous code.

Namjoon had to prepare for a presentation he had to give but didn't want to say no to you so this was both of yours solution.

You has met each other at a club first when you're friends had dragged you for a night of fun. And fun you had flirting this hunk of a man.

You'd have never expected him to be a nerd by the day however except he had seen you and stopped to say hello. And if you ask me I would say its a crime to forget that voice. And his smile.

Which he gives you as you stare at him just admiring your man. Then you kiss his dimples. He laughs lightly squeezing you and kisses your forehead.

And it's a wonderful life.

I would like to say that Namjoon's boyfriend pics on Instagram inspired me but it was the twitter army's that did.

#bts fanfic #bts au #bts x reader #kim namjoon #kim namjoon x reader #namjoon fluff #namjoon fanfic #bts ships #bts imagines #bts scenarios #bts ship game

[putschki1969]

hi! (^_^)/this may be off-topic, but i think is kinda interesting: i'm the admin of a small fanpage on FB, at the beginning when each of the girls started their solo activities, Wakana was the most popular one (received most likes, comments, etc), followed by Hikaru and at third place was Keiko (which is kinda the "waited" result since that was the order in they started), but just as they progressed those places changed, now i see Keiko is the most popular one, followed by Wakana ... (1/5)

and on third place is Hikaru. This is by no menas an exhaustive statistical analysis, but is something that got my attention. I would like to ask your opinion of why this is occurring :)My guess is that this is related to the fact that Hikaru has just two international-available releases, but on the other hand they're anisongs, which theoretically should give her a plus. It's also possible that Hikaru's fans are more active on twitter or other social media. (2/5) If its related to release-availability, Keiko has one album and one single, whereas Wakana has three albums. It doesn't make sense there haha (・_・;) Maybe their management has a lot to do here. Avex has cared a lot about international fans making so much content available at least in English so KEIKO has reached a broader audience? While Victor hasn't payed too much attention to international fans (China being the exception) ...  (3/5) But it's also clear that Hikaru's staff has also cared about international fans, by also making many content available in various languages (including english). So it also doesn't make sense there (°_°>)At this point i see it as a multifactorial "issue", but i'm not sure which factor has to do more. Maybe i just need to stop overthinking it (T_T) hahaha or maybe i just needed to share this theories with someone else (⌒▽⌒）(4/5) P.S: I by no means intend to say that it has to do with their talent because it's clear that it's definitely not the case. Take care, thanks for your attention ＾ｕ＾) (5/5) 

Hi there!!

First of all, forgive me for taking so long to write this reply. There was just a LOT to unpack here.😅 Don’t worry, your message is not off-topic at all. I really enjoyed reading through your theories. To be honest, I am just like you, I tend to analyse the hell out of this kind of stuff, I am constantly wondering about how they could reach a wider audience and gain more popularity. At the same time I find myself questioning the somewhat dubious strategies which are employed by their respective managements and labels. It’s such a complex and multifaceted topic, I don’t even know where to start because I have so many thoughts on this.

Here’s what I have observed

As you say, it is only natural that their individual popularity pretty much peaked at the time they each started ther solo activities. Fans had been deprived of content for quite a long time so they were eager to buy everything, to attend every single live and to absorb even the tiniest bit of information. Once the initial excitement wears off, it’s a bit harder to keep your fanbase entertained (especially the more casual followers). It is an even bigger challenge to attract new audiences.

Talking about their popularity is always a bit tricky because stupid fans will end up making a competition out of it. Here’s a quick reminder to everyone who tends to do that: Do NOT pit them against each other! They obviously respect and support each other’s work so you should do the same! Having said that, I don’t think there is anything inherently wrong with looking at their popularity from an objective point of view so let’s do that.

I agree with you, Keiko is without a doubt ranking highest regarding popularity. Despite being the last one to start her solo career, she has quickly caught up with the other two. Her sales numbers are surprisingly good considering she has only had two admittedly pricey physical releases, her subscriber count is increasing quickly and all posts/publications related to her generate a lot of traffic. It is no surprise at all that she ended up being the “most popular solo artist” among them, some people will try to deny it but she has always had the biggest fanbase. And yes, it is mostly because of her doll-like idol looks. It’s a shame and I wish it were different but that’s how it is. I feel like Hikaru is more popular than Wakana in terms of keeping her target audience interested. But maybe that’s just my personal impression...? Be sure to check out some of my thoughts on that in this old reply post of mine. 

In the following sections I would like to discuss the situation of each girl divided into four categories, presenting the different marketing methods that are used and pointing out their various benefits and flaws. I don’t think I will come to any conclusions, this is really more of a condensed write-up of everything I know. Strap in for a huge wall of text, this is by no means gonna be short. The categories are:

Music Releases | Social Media | Fan Club | Merch

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MUSIC RELEASES/LIVES/EVENTS

Wakana: Wakana has held quite a lot of events/lives and released a considerable amount of music in the almost two and a half years she has been active as a solo artist (I am also counting the time before her official solo debut). To Victor Entertainment’s credit, the production value is always pretty high. Everything SOUNDS and LOOKS really good, at least in my opinion. On top of that, everything is priced reasonably. You get a lot of bang for your buck when attending her concerts or purchasing one of her CDs/BDs. And let’s not forget the great sales campaigns (although at this point they are employing some heavy duty idol marketing strategies but hey, I am not judging them for that. Those methods work so there is no shame in that). These days there are so many great incentives and cool limited edition benefits (e.g. her online sign event). They are really good at making fans want to throw their money at them. The label also makes sure to provide good marketing, her countless media appearances are proof of that. As for the music itself, I would say they made the right decision to put high-profile producer Satoshi Takebe in charge of most of Wakana’s productions, he really knows his way around the business. Aside from Takebe, Wakana has collaborated with many other talented artists adding quite a bit of variety to her catalogue of work. For the most part, Wakana and her team seem to know quite well what works for her and how to present her vocals in a good light. There is still some room for improvement though. I think Wakana would benefit greatly from exploring a few more genres. The YouTube cover project with its accompanying album release and live concert was one step in the right direction because it finally put a focus on classical elements and also made Wakana’s talent known to a wider audience. I am glad they are continuing the project in 2021. Her Weibo Award appearance last year alongside some very big names of the industry did get her a bit of exposure but nothing too amazing. Having said all that, I feel like it’s necessary for her to land a good deal with an anime project or some sort of movie or drama. I keep saying it but the fail-safe way to success in Japan is having one solid tie-in, it’s often all it takes.

Keiko: Keiko being the last to start her solo career has obviously not accumulated quite as many releases as Wakana and Hikaru. While on some levels (especially from a foreigner’s POV) I do understand the decision to have digital-only releases for her singles during the height of the pandemic, I am starting to question Avex’s insistence on sticking to that method. Going this route is obviously efficient and saving them a ton of money but I am afraid they are a little too stingy when it comes to Keiko. Yes, it is a modern approach and her singles have been easily accessible as well as cheap BUT please remember that in Japan CDs and merch are valued above anything else and they are literally the best source of income for an artist so I think it’s really hurting Keiko that she hasn’t got much to offer in terms of physical releases. And to make things worse, the few physical things she has actually released have been way too overpriced considering the limited editions have all been rather underwhelming with little to no bonus content/benefits. They want us to buy many copies but they are not willing to offer any attractive benefits. Also, the low prices of her singles are unfortunately often reflected in the mediocre production value. I know it’s not just me because I have seen other people voice similar opinions but many of her songs sound like they were made in a somewhat amateurish manner. Thankfully they did invest a bit of money into the live events and the making of her album. Plus, they are starting to bring some big names on board. The Yuki Kajiura collab was most definitely a genius move and couldn’t have happened at a better time (seeing as YK has obviously reached the peak of her career with Homura). The LEC gig also didn’t hurt but I don’t think a lot of people actually watched that. The collab with the supposedly prolific Tsunku on the other hand was quite overhyped if you ask me and I don’t think it did anything for Keiko. Which is unfortunately a common thread running throughout her solo work. More often than not Keiko and her team end up choosing songs that don’t even come close to bringing the best out of her vocals.

Hikaru: Establishing herself on YouTube is a great strategy because she is theoretically able to reach a lot of people. But since there hasn’t been any wide-ranging promotion surrounding those activities, her views and subscriber count remain rather low. I was hoping her cover project would give her a little push in the right direction but so far that doesn’t seem to be the case. After her proper debut she started out strong with two solid anime tie-ins (just wish the animes had done better). Universal ran pretty good campaigns that motivated people to buy lots of copies (e.g. the Animate autograph). All of this made it possible for Hikaru to take part in big programs and events such as NHK’s Anisong Premium or ANIMAX MUSIX (although I feel they did her dirty at Animax, she was little more than a glorified backup singer for TRUE and Machico *grumbles*). It is a huge shame that only two of Hikaru’s CDs have had an official label release. All her other stuff has been pretty much floating under the radar and I feel like only her core-fanbase actually bought those releases. Her most recent mobile game tie-in may yet prove to be a smart move since the game is quite popular so Hikaru is likely to gain some new fans. Still, I cannot help but feel this is a downgrade after her two anime projects. Maybe it’s just a way to keep her head above water until something better comes along. She has been recording a lot these days so I am expecting some announcements soon. I wonder if “[Re]Rise” is an indication that she will now be collaborating with a few different composers, I really hope so. I know Japan is all about staying loyal to the people you work with but this mindset can have its disadvantages when a certain collaboration has exhausted all its creativity. Gushimiyagi has written some great stuff for Hikaru but now she is in dire need of some diversity. Especially after all those acoustic ballad-type songs. Hikaru is a fierce powerhouse commanding every stage she steps on, it is a literal waste of her talent to have her stick to monotonous pieces. Keeping my fingers crossed for a Hikaru x YK collab for the upcoming Madoka Magica movie. UPDATE: Her limited albums have finally been released on streaming services so Hikaru can now reach a wider audience. Amazing!

SOCIAL MEDIA

Wakana: Her social media presence is pretty bad. It is a huge mistake to have the Twitter account run by staff members. Twitter is the main platform for most Japanese (and international) fans so that’s where they should have most of the fan-interaction. At least she runs her own Instagram account and she has recently started to upload a lot more pictures of herself which is a very good thing since that’s ultimately what fans want to see in order to feel connected. However, for some weird reason, she has chosen her newly launched Weibo account to post the most private pictures. Still not sure what’s the strategy behind that because most Japanese and international fans do not use Weibo. Pease note that her follower number on Weibo is misleading, I am guessing it’s mostly fake accounts or whatever. While she does have a fair amount of Chinese-speaking fans I don’t think Wakana will gain anything from focusing so much on her Weibo presence but we will see where all of this will lead. Aside from that, Space Craft’s most stupid decision is to keep the blog fan club exclusive. There is absolutely no point in that and it really harms Wakana. Generally speaking I would say that they focus a little too much on fan club stuff. It’s good to keep your ultra-loyal and paying fans happy but you also need to concentrate on keeping casual fans interested. You will never reach a wider audience if the majority of your content is exclusive. Thankfully they were smart enough to launch a YouTube channel with great content but they can still do better.

Keiko: She used to have the worst social media presence. There was literally zero connection with her fanbase except for the occasional tweet on the staff Twitter account. Thank God her management pulled their heads out of their asses and finally came up with the idea to launch her two YouTube projects “Keiko’s Room” and “Keiko Community”. They are really helping her gain popularity on social media and it’s a great way to keep your core audience happy. It definitely also helps to attract new fans. However, just like with Wakana, I think her agency is focusing a tad too much on fan club content but overall I would say that as of right now, they have found a good balance.

Hikaru: She is without a doubt the queen of social media. Hikaru really knows how to cater to her fans’ needs. As I mentioned earlier, it was a good idea to launch her solo work on YouTube but it did harm her quite a bit that she wasn’t able to use “Kalafina” to promote her music. From the get-go she has been very open and personal on her official Twitter account and I think that’s really one of the main reasons why so many fans are staying loyal to her. Everyone feels like they can connect with her since there is a direct channel of communication. Her actions make it obvious that she very much cares about us and she is not hesitant to show her appreciation. Unlike the other two, she has done a ton of free and easily accessible live streams. She also makes an effort to share different pictures on her various social media accounts to spice things up a little.

FAN CLUB/INCLUSIVITY

Wakana: Wakana and her agency are offering top quality fan club content which more than justifiies the annual membership fee. We get blog posts, videos, events, merch, magazines, presents and so on. But as I mentioned earlier, there is just too much of Wakana’s content behind a paywall (even for Japanese standards). Also, Space Craft tends to make weird deals with other businesses that result in Wakana’s content being scattered around a bunch of borderline-or full-on-exclusive platforms (e.g. the SMASH app). It’s time for Space Craft to think outside the box, they may believe that this strategy is profitable but it’s really not. To make things worse, it’s obviously very troublesome to access that content (or to become a member of her fan club) as an international fan since there are quite a lot of hurdles to overcome (knowledge of Japanese, Japanese address, dealings with proxy/VPN services, additional costs, etc). It’s not impossible but it IS a pain in the ass WHICH IS WHY I do not have any qualms sharing that content on my blog. Overall, I would say they still struggle quite a bit with inclusivity. It’s a hassle to join the fan club, it’s a hassle to buy goods, it’s a hassle to take part in events. I am aware of course that international fans are not their target group but there is potentially a lot of money to be made with us so they would be well advised to take us into consideration. The pandemic has thankfully forced many Japanese companies to rethink their strategies but they are still a long way from being foreigner-friendly.

Keiko: As of right now, Keiko’s fan club content is more about quantity rather than quality. Yeah, we get new videos on a regular basis but there is usually not much substance to them. It rarely feels personal/intimate. Her fan club magazines also don’t have the best quality especially if you compare them to Wakana’s but that’s a minor issue. All in all, I would say we are getting more than enough to make a membership worthwhile. Some of the same issues I have discussed in the above paragraph also apply to Keiko. There is no inclusivity whatsoever. Aside from her single releases and the stuff she puts out on YouTube, Keiko’s content is very much out of reach for 90% of foreign fans.

Hikaru: She is the only one who doesn’t have her own fan club which is a real shame because I think she would benefit greatly from it. I know some of you are totally against it but please realise that fan clubs are a staple of the Japanese entertainment industry. While I have often said that I am not a big fan of super exclusive stuff I generally don’t think that there is anything wrong about putting certain content behind a paywall AS LONG as everything is within reason of course. I am realistic, we live in a capitalist world, I have no issue paying money for good content. And fan clubs (or Patreons etc) are literally the easiest way to earn money by eliminating intermediaries, plus, they strengthen the bond between artists and their fans. Hikaru is also very adamant about creating a contained space that can be accessed by almost everyone (including overseas fans) so she is definitely on the right path. I just hope she can figure out something soon. One big issue I have with her management is the unwillingness to organise a proper live stream concert, especially during times like these. Even Japanese fans were pretty bummed that her December live was on-site only. I realise they don’t want to spend any extra money but in this case I think it would totally have been worth it. Hopefully the future will see some improvement in that regard.  UPDATE: Hikaru finally launched her own FC and it’s an app. Banzai! Fans all across the world can join and the content is digital so there is technically no need for a Japanese address. Hikaru’s B-Day Event does offer a streaming option but tickets are only available on e+ which makes it almost impossible for foreign fans to make a purchase. So there is still room for improvement.

MERCH

Wakana: I feel the need to talk about merch since it is such an integral part of the Japanese music industry. And as far as merch goes, Wakana is the undefeated queen. Space Craft obviously dedicate a ton of money to have a variety of top-tier goods produced for Wakana. Not only do we get amazing goods for each live and event, there is also always a nice selection of fan club exclusive and limited merch that will make every fan’s mouth water. Including more of Wakana’s own designs was a genius idea, it makes her merch so much more appealing. It is also note-worthy that she has the most image-heavy merchandise among the three of them. Plastering Wakana’s gorgeous face on as many surfaces as possible certainly helps sell her stuff. Buying her merch is relatively easy for Japanese fans and even for foreign fans as long as you use a proxy like Tenso that provides you with a Japanese address. Thankfully they do accept foreign credit cards.

Keiko: I am getting angry just thinking about Keiko’s sorry excuse for an online shop. It looks like the failed attempt of an HTML homework project by a fifth-grader. The fact that they only offer a SINGLE payment method and that it is pay on delivery BAFFLES me. It would be funny if it weren’t so insulting. They better step up their merch game soon or else they will never make any substantial amounts of money with it. UPDATE: They DID make some updates. The online shop looks much better now and it’s finally possible to pay in advance via credit card which means foreign fans are able to buy her merch as long as they use a proxy address.

Hikaru: Hikaru pours all of her love in the making of merch but it seems like her agency is not willing to invest a lot of money into the production. Despite the high price of many of her products, most of them have pretty low quality (at least in my opinion). It’s a huge shame. They do get bonus points though for using a pretty modern online store that even allows payments with PayPal. And they have gone out of their way to help foreigners by linking to the very reliable proxy service Tenso (the one I am also always linking to).   

#kalafina #reply #wakana #keiko #hikaru #wakana solo work #keiko solo work #hikaru solo work #victor entertainment #space craft #avex #tristone entertainment #universal #hifumi #u3bsfan #random musings #analysis #virtual cookie to everyone who finishes this :P #long text post

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Rockstar!eren .....i-

Anyway I gave you this as an apolagie for all the questions im about to ask about reader (I just really want to know how is she as a person and if we would get along)

1. Is she introverted or extroverted

2. Could you trust her with your secrets

3. Whats a toxic traid about her

4. Cats or dogs

5. HOW TALL IS SHE?!?!? I mean when you said in chap 2 I think? That her nose was touching erens chin I was like????? Cuz im 179💀 so its not much difference between me and eren BUT ITS OK

6. Does she get in arguments alot?

7. Is she like a calm person or really hiper energy

8. Does she put her partener needs above her own when they get intimate

BTW ENGLISH IS NOT MY FIRST LANGUAGE SO SORRY IF I FUCKED SOMETHING UP

Hi, Diana! Sorry that it took me a while to answer this 😅but don't apologize for sending messages (or your english cause it's perfect!), I love answering your asks!

well, since y/n is obviously a self-insert character, I'm not sure how to answer this (or if I even should answer it) but since I never imagined myself as her, I think I can share how y/n looks like in my head.

so to answer your questions:

introverted. she doesn't have a lot of friends, and she doesn't enjoy being in the spotlight. she likes to spend her precious time by being with her loved ones or just by reading books all day long (and cuddling with eren these days, obviously, but don't tell him that)

Yes, I'd definitely trust her! she's not the type who likes to gossip or tell other people's secrets for fun. she doesn't even tell pieck about pokko's feelings for her, so yeah, i can trust her

toxic traits? hmm... well, she's an ISFJ so she tends to be a perfectionist, shy, and take things personally. she can be honest and straightforward sometimes, if needed, but most of the times, she just likes to repress her feelings.

dogs (and she sometimes thinks eren reminds her of a huge siberian husky lol and she loves him for that)

ALSKDJFKALSDJF YOU'RE SO TALL!!! well y/n is probably around 1.65 - 1.7 m?

no, she hates getting into arguments. she'll try to avoid it as best as she can. she's the type who will keep her mouth shut to contain her anger so she won't make the situation even worse. unless she's really angry though, and if she has a good reason to be angry. she can stand her ground if she has to.

a little bit of both? she's pretty chill but she can get a bit too excited sometimes when it comes to her favorite books/movies/bands

omg yes, take a look at chapter 10 and 10.5. she went through all of that effort to please our man. but eren is like that too so they please each other equally in bed.

#i hope this answers your questions??? #english isn't my first language too so sorry about that #i hope you'll find her endearing #personally i would love to have a friend like y/n #she's nice #the last song canon

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Omg i love talking about skz so thank you for asking! They have so many songs I absolutely love, but if I HAVE to pick the songs that really mean something to me hmmm

Firstly, Silent Cry.. I feel like that's pretty self explanatory haha. It's literally just like being heard. And even though obv they can't actually be with me it makes me feel soo understood.

Second, SLUMP eng ver! This was one of the first skz songs I heard and it really drew me to them. I was so stuck in my life and it felt like all my friends were moving forward except for me so this song really spoke to me.

Third, For You (Mixtape #3) this is such a hopeful song and it really reminds me to keep going and that it'll get better. Not to give up because as they say.. Blessings wait for youuu!

I'm gonna do one more song before this gets wayyyy too long.. If it isn't already oops!

Last one not entirely skz but Changbin ft Chan Streetlight. Oof this one hit me HARD and actually it still effects me now. I have a really hard time opening up to people or relying on anyone and I'd just never heard that struggle being talked about like changbin did. He so perfectly frames it.. Its like He doesn't glorify the idea of being "strong" for others, like a lot of people do instead he said "I don't have the courage to rely on others" or I need you to ask me again. It's so good I love it so much!!!

Sorry lmaoooo you did not want a whole essay in ur inbox I'm sure 💀💀💀 please tell me about your favs too I'd love to know!!!

stOPPPP A WHOLE ESSAY IS EXACTLY WHAT I ASKED FOR 🤍 could've been even longer.. 💔 it brings me so much joy to get to know the specific things that ppl love about skz' music, it's as if i can feel the excitement through my screen<33 so!! the longer the better!! haha

it's so interesting that slump was one of the first songs you've heard! how did you end up hearing it???? and even more so, the english ver?? o_o

this is probably unbelievable but your picks are also the ones that i would put VERY high in my list (if there had to be such a list lmao cause tbh it's impossible to pick favs here😔), especially silent cry and streetlight too .. talking about streetlight, HOW DO U PUT IT SO WELL INTO WORDS i'm beyond amazed. that's exactly the feeling.. and the whole arrangement of the song which is so simple yet so powerful at the same time, i feel like the fact that it's changbin's voice delivering such message, it makes it even more powerful. cause his voice typically makes an impression of someone that's rather tough but the lyrics just go "ask me again if i'm okay, anybody" and it creates this sort of dissonance.. this feeling of paradox.. which in recent months i've been realizing more clearly that life is all about??

istg i could dissect every skz song under the scalpels of my mind for hours on end (what a weird metaphor coming through, didn't expect it myself 😅 lmao), it's like one of my fav things to do 🙄🥲

the track that got me completely into skz was 3racha's 42, and i'm saying this so surely bc i remember it very distinctly how i cried to that song for a good hour while repeating to myself how "i know i'll stay with them for a long time to come". at the time i was coming out of a very dark place mentally, and my intention to stay with stray kids for years to come was the thing about myself that i felt so sure about for the first time in my entire life?? like, that song broke me into pieces and i crumbled along with all the accumulated dirt in me, but then through the broken cracks finally some fresh air and light could enter.. this literally sounds so dramatic but there's no other way to express it 😭😭😭 it just IS dramatic like that for me when it comes to skz lmao. as you said too, i've never heard someone talk about such things/feelings in a song before???? and in kpop out of all places???? it felt so refreshing 🥺

wait wait, i have another very important question.. 👉👈what do you think the upcoming comeback's gonna sound like, or expect/would like it to sound like??? what do you think about the concept??? like i know it's probably useless to speculate since the album trailers give us zero actual spoilers u_u i'm really curious how you're feeling about it hehehe

#u see it's so hard to not ramble on about skz.... a REAL struggle...😔💔 #―askbox

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Aaaahhh I start my internship tomorrow

#im just a lil (lot) stressed and ramblin sorry #because of the way this worked i know like nothing about what theyll even have me do #and aaahhh its like my first actual job (i did work study at school and volunteered for a lot but never a Job job) #and im stressed!! #i just keep reminding myself that its exciting and good 😅 #i havent been out a lot since covid #im going to be Thrown back into normal social situations oof #mmmmmmmmmmmmm #anyway dont mind me just had to get it Out There ya know #i hope you guys are doing well and taking care of yourselves! #rose rambles #delete later