#i just know and perceive the truth

[spaceandfiction]

Shiv put those embryos in her the second her mom told her she shouldn't and that's a fact

#succession #succ stuff #txtpst #succession spoilers #I just know and perceive the truth

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

hm ok so for a while i was thinking that Wally, for the most part, only perceives reality as "Home", the neighborhood. that's his entire world, it's all he knows

but then i slapped myself and went wait. the Live Interview. Wally has been outside of Home, and has interacted with humans (presuming that the interview did actually happen, of course). and through Wally's interactions - or rather, attempt at interactions with Us, the QA, and the WHRP, it can be strongly assumed that he knows that there's an Elsewhere. there are places outside of Home. maybe he doesn't quite understand that there's another reality of sorts, but there's no way he's unaware that there's more than just the neighborhood out there

(and then of course there's the fact that Clown has said that humans are deeply involved (not a direct quote, im paraphrasing) in Welcome Home. maybe Wally interacted with them / regularly interacted with them. there could have been an adjustment period after he gained consciousness where humans helped him learn how to walk/talk/fine motor skills - this could be why he has such a seemingly inherent / desperate trust in Us & the WHRP & the QA... humans made him and cared for him. it's possible he could view them as a sort of higher power to trust & have faith in

& maybe he's been off-set or could go off-set. i mean, the houses' rooms were all different sets - the buildings themselves were empty husks, right? who's to say Wally wouldn't physically walk to the individual set pieces whenever he went over to someone's house (but then that leads me into speculation on how the puppets' consciousness works and how multiple copies of them could co-exist and wondering which is the - im getting off track. but there's all of that and then the two part "you're okay!" art pieces of Wally & Eddie, which are technically canon - dont quote me on that - and that's Another ramble/theory post i could go on about & have strong feelings on. Anyway!)

"but wait," i hear someone protest, "what about Barnaby? he was in the Live Interview too"

but was he? was he really? was that Barnaby, or was that a person in a suit playing the character Barnaby B. Beagle? i mean, if it was Barnaby, there had to be some memory fuckery going on that prevented him from either fully comprehending/realizing the situation, or just made him forget as soon as it was over.

and actually wait, Wally has to be aware of the reality discrepancy. because it was certainly him in the Interview as himself. He had to have understood on some level that either that wasn't really Barnaby, or that Barnaby wouldn't remember the interview.

(there's a connection in my head between all of this & how he would view an apple pie. "it isn't the same anymore. something's different". but i can't pin it down for the life of me.)

and with the Talking Telephone calls, Wally explicitly tells Us that he's not going to tell anyone who was behind the calls. i remember listening to the "original" prank call audio tests, which while were very similar to the canon in-website ones, have a few changes. one of which was Wally - in the tests - saying that the others weren't ready to meet Us yet. now in canon that tidbit has been swapped out for "You have to go too. You have work to do" but i think it's still implied through Wally's purposeful withholding-of-information that he doesn't think the others are ready to know. or he straight up doesn't want them to know

i mean, one little theory i previously had is that Wally wants them all to catch on to the nature of their reality and situation, but he doesn't want to - or Can't - tell them outright. they have to figure it out. and that can't was either something keeping him quiet, or because if they learned too soon / inorganically, their little puppet heads would pop into confetti like Red Guy's in dhmis 4

However my views have Changed and i'm pretty sure Wally is purposefully not telling anyone to maintain the illusion that everything is fine and can continue on as it always has. maybe it comes from a place of protectiveness, of love? whatever the motive i think he wants them all to keep being unaware and dare i say, Complacent while he "fixes" their situation.

which is delusional, but we all know Wally is digging his metaphorical claws into a desperate bid to keep everything the same / return it to its original state, leaving bloody scratches in something already rotted. or something like that!

all this to say i think it's interesting how it seems that he's the only one aware of humans / an outside/other world, yet he's so determined to stay in his lane. he wants connection & communication yet he doesn't want to leave or change. he wants help in keeping things the same (some could say in keeping Our reality & his separated) but in the process he's dooming everyone/everything and tearing down those walls himself

(Wally: i'm going to stay where i am, and you're gonna stay where you are, and we're gonna help each other keep me and my friends where we're meant to be. anyway i wonder what this sledgehammer does)

#this is a very disjointed ramble but when are they ever put together! #i have to start at point a to get to point 36 yk yk #trying to write down my thoughts is like trying to keep a firm grip on a lubed up ferret #SOAPED!!! SOAPED UP!!! I MEANT SOAP yk that doesnt make it any better. anyway moving on dont look at me #its. its. the more i think about wally the more i go insane #like he's got neurosis stacked on neurosis stacked on- #there is something soooo wrong with him <3 #homebogging #welcome home speculation #wh speculation #i do think his heart is in the right place. i do think he's trying to achieve something he thinks is good & best for everyone #but... despite being aware of more than his friends... technically knowing more Truth than them #he's more trapped by that knowledge. he's ruled by it. and he doesn't really have the - #i dont want to say capacity bc i have to believe that he Can change. he just doesnt know how / currently doesnt want to / is too scared to #but he doesn't have the freedom the others have. bc in their ignorance they can ignore their confines #in a way they're more real than wally despite living in a fabricated world as fabricated people with fabricated lives #they're authentic in their ignorance #and ive said it before and ill say it again - wally was created as a blank slate while everyone else already had a Foundation #no matter how false their memories are they Have them. they have the tools to change and want change #they already perceive themselves as more than what they were made for. they think they're People (not humans - people) dont they? #so if they learn theyre trapped... they'll want out. meanwhile wally is already stuck bc while they have - in a way - More #the neighborhood & the show are all wally has. he knows there's outside but he doesnt have any reason to Want that outside #bc why would he want to leave home? why would he want anything to change? it's his sole purpose isnt it? #idk i just think wally would benefit from being told 'you dont need a purpose / you dont need to adhere to a purpose / you are enough as Yo #doing what You want. you can just Be' #but yk. what was i talking about again #oh yeah - wally is so so aware and yet so in the dark #he's got one half of the puzzle but they're all corner/edge pieces and he's trying to fill the inside space with Nothing #hm. i wonder if he'll end up needing the other neighbors to help finish the puzzle... who's to say who's to say!! #FUCK YOU TUMBLR I HAD MORE TO SAY. CUT OFF AGAIN AGH

[shallowseeker]

If you're a native Spanish speaker, wanna take a stab at the telenovela in 7x03? (It's very hard to hear under the main audio.) You can hear, My love, my love? I think I hear, no me dejes (Don't leave me) in the mix.

I love that Ricardo, you know, has a bloody collar and smudge on his right brow, kind of like...you know:

///

7x01

Ahem.

It also, of course, calls to mind John's death in 4x03, but only in how Mary cradles him.

The rest is so-- [REDACTED]

And if you think Dean wasn't grieving in his prickly veneer of toughness, listen to his voice in that brief moment he thought Cas was back. His breathy little "Ca-as?" is sooo shaky.

Then, he and Bobby both grabbed onto him with the intention of getting him home (and working through what just happened, "Okay, one thing at a time.") It was so--

This is the same episode where Cas said he had no more nostalgia for Dean and threatened to snap him into bloody soup, and then Dean urged Death to kill Cas, and Cas looked somehow shocked, despite what he'd just threatened to do himself. They're so--

To say nothing of the look on Dean's face when the Leviathan says in clear words, "Cas is, hmm, gone. He's-- dead!"

#just curious #this show was so like THAT even back in season 7 #bobby and dean watch ricardo die like they watch [REDACTED] die #and sam is somewhere in the background in both cases #anyhoo dean's leg is broken because his [REDACTED] is also broken #we know dean cries in private #and he has the coat so #hmmmmm #we'll see dean's nightmares in this season too #I'M JUST SAYING #Ricardo is [REDACTED] #broken legs symbolize powerlessness and emotional vulnerability #this is what dean was actually doing with the overcoat #just crying into it sometimes #i perceive the truth #dean/cas #dean/cas + grief #dean/cas + doomed lovers trope #dean/cas + losing each other #dean/cas + i don't know why it hurts so much #cas/dean #destiel #dean & cas #dean winchester #spn castiel #spn season 7 #spn 7x01 #meet the new boss #spn sera gamble #spn 7x02

[leonardcohenofficial]

okay i’m going to very briefly be annoying about spock and miranda jones and “is there in truth no beauty” please hold

#i just have a lot of thoughts about their bizarro dynamic that we see for literally one episode and then she is never mentioned again but #also i do think they should have fucked; yes i know and perceive the truth that spock has no interest in women and also i do not think that #miranda would want anything even remotely romantic with him given her whole thing with kollos and also her being canonically extremely #(purposefully) repressed but also i think that in between her saving his brain and her and kollos heading on their merry way they should #have had emotionally fulfilling rivals to colleagues sex ANYWAYS i'm getting to a real point with this and it's in the scene on the bridge #star trek #spock #miranda jones

[sillylittleguyinatrenchcoat]

extremely invested in the experiences of customer service mikoto kayano that ive made up in my brain

#i know that canonically he has a stable. office job or whatever. but i know and perceive the truth #i just find the idea of mikoto working at 7 different places all at once to gain a sense of normalcy in his life EXTREMELY funny #i want a 20 season comedy of mikoto being literally everywhere like they CANT escape him #fuuta goes to mcdonalds on tuesday. mikoto is there to take his order #on wednesday mappi buys groceries mikoto is the cashier #thursday kazui orders a pizza mikoto bikes down the street like his life depends on it. he runs into a pole killing the pizza instantly #they take a plane to get away from him. he is the Flight Attendant #i love him so much. not even my favorite character hes just so funny #also snuck in some. 050709 propaganda as protocol demands #milgram #milgram memes #mikoto kayano #shidou kirisaki #kazui mukuhara #fuuta kajiyama #0509 #0709

[cyberdragoninfinity]

hey, just poppin in to say i love how you draw jaden! (i cant really describe exactly what it is that got me hooked on it, but i had to let you know :D)

THANK YOU!! he's one of my absolute fav yugioh characters to draw... i love him :3

#ygo posting #asks #anonymous #jaden yuki #judai yuki #ygoart #dana art #just always endlessly fun to draw...i simply know and perceive the body type truth with him

[oatbugs]

today was ok good great bad 😭 rant in tags lets try to be normal abt this

#it's not tuscan leather， but they do smell like mint and cherries and a fireplace. they kissed me #all over my back， and my hand， and my shoulders. i only ever kissed them on the lips. i only ever kiss them #when i'm about to leave them at the station gates. some red-eyed bloodhound cancelled their own plans and i laughed with them like a friend #i asked if they want me to bring them a hot water bottle or painkillers or a pair of lungs for them to eat. #the person in front of me has 4 lungs and 2 hearts and a brown leather coat and those bright radiance-incarnate kind of eyes. #you know the kind i mean. their hands are diligent with the pen. they say that i'm an angel and i'm right and i decide #the truths-in-all-possible-worlds. they say they only perceive the parts of me that i'd like perceived. they say all the right things. #the dog doesn't mind at all. the next station is edgeware road again. the dog says don't come over baby. its all slurred and deep and #shallow. returns a falsum. i really like you， baby. let's just be nothing， baby. i can't comprehend that anyone was raised unhappy. #she has free gaza painted on the back of her designer jacket， and she says she can't believe people suffer. there's something wrong with me #baby， why else would i turn down two perfect girls? she broke my nose， baby. ye zendegie dige ashaghet misham azize delam. #she might be a rich bitch but i only lived in kensington， baby. sunshine says they can't have kids because they plan to be #an enemy of many states. i offered to meet them but i look up and i notice the blonde streaks in their hair moving in the light. #i tell sunshine i'll never sleep with them. they want me in such a kind way it almost hurts. #they say we have a lot to teach other. i put the dog down again. my friend is wrapped around me. my friend walks me to the station. #i kiss them goodbye at the gates.

[jacksmusesdrv3]

Parallels: Maki tries to get the truth from the Killing Game Busters at a critical point for them, regarding the situation. Neither can - or will - oblige

(Context note: it’s possible that Ouma genuinely does not know anything, but it’s just as possible that he’s been playing dumb for the same reason as Gonta- it all depends on what it is they know, about the secret of the outside world)

#kokichi ouma #gonta gokuhara #don't mind the tone of the older post too much #it's a bit more 'Definitive' than I'd write it these days but I had feelings at the time #also. I'm getting irritated by takes that Ouma was just. playing Gonta like an idiot #it doesn't gel with the way I perceive this situation at All #so I had to dig that up #and toss that tidbit into the void so. yeah #okay back to work #*side note: I know that Ouma wasn't exposed to the Flashback Light that's not- #-the point of this post hhhhhh #what I mean is that the SotOW could like #make or break everything we know about the scenario depending on what it is #and if it's different from the 'truth' we came to learn at the end

[theclosetedskeleton]

THINKING ABOUT HOW AT SCHOOL SOME BORDERLINE ONE OF THOSE “🥶🥶🔥🔥💯💯” KIDS IN MY CLASS SAID HE LIKES MY OUTFITS???? HELLO

#like erm WHO ARE YOU #but thanks ig 💯 he said he also liked my doc martens (even though i havent worn them in like a while. ig he noticed them someday) #idk me when i forget that other people fucking perceive me #esp the people my age at my school #and that they can have opinions over me and everything. ewwwww #only saying thyat because i HATEEEE HOW i act at school #like i just. shut down?? #i basically just go on autopilot and (as 🖤⛓️🥀 as this sounds idk how else to describe it) block off a LOT of my expressions #i just look like the 😐😕 emoji ALLL DAY #and barely say anything 🔥🔥 so (AGAIN as 🖤🥀⛓️ as this sounds) you get used to people like NOT perceiving and noticing you after years of it #so THAT was a first #the whole compliment thing #i have no idea what truth there was to that but you know #might as well somewhat believe the compliment even if he was lying #closet rambles again on tumblr

[aroanthy]

Besides Anthy what other characters do you are aro- or any kind of a-spec?

All Of Them.

on a more serious note, im very partial to the following aspec readings of characters:

aroace/aroace lesbian nanami; one thing to know about me is that i realised i was aromantic because of two things. the first is that i wrote a 55k word fanfiction about two side characters from the 2005 bbc political satire 'the thick of it' that was basically just me airing my fundamental discomfort with romantic relationships, and the second is watching her tragedy and the romance of the dancing girls for the first time. Yeag.

aromantic nanami is profoundly important to me and i really just resonate with her character on a personal level. like shes so me. i dont get it. i too have convinced myself of all kinds of taboo and 'weird' affections and feelings because i Dont Understand Romance (just as a side note: i understand why some people take the cold turkey 'nanami never considered romantic feelings for her brother!!' reading, but for me personally. i think it's important to consider nanami considering those feelings, specifically because they make her feel uncomfortable, alienated, etc. there's also lots of interesting things to be said about how incest can affirm heteronormativity (and how it can't!! but that's more of a kaoru twins can of worms)).

and there's other stuff but we needn't get into that. i love when other people feel able to talk in-depth about how their personal expereinces shape their responses to rgu, but im not quite at that point with certain things. i do also just really like reading nanami as an aroace lesbian bc i find her connection with utena specifically to be soooooo. gah. delicious. fascinating. devastating. and also i love aroace lesbains they are the best

asexual utena; i just think he's neat :} sometimes i feel hesitant to read characters as asexual if theyre teenagers or if they have sexual trauma and funnily (not) enough, utena is both! having said that, i recently decided 'fuck it' and have been thinking about this interpretation of his character more and more. like, my aromantic identity is partially political, partially trauma-informed, and i feel quite strongly about queerness in part being one's choice to define (or not define) themselves on their own terms, be they 'contradictory' or 'inaccurate' or whatever the hell else.

i also have a fondness for asexual masculine characters. me personally i read utena as butch and transmasc and i think it's really interesting to think about how that queer masculinity can be expressed outside of allosexuality, especially considering what rgu as a show tries to do wrt that matter. dont ask me about my feelings on ikuhara and false dichotomies of love and lust in his works or i WILL explode ok sarazanami is The aroallo show and im soooo normal about it all tbh

i have this kind of vague arospec touga reading that im always knocking about in my head but kind of scared to talk about online because like. it's quite a lot to get into and, as an aroallo person, i dont want to get into discourse about if it's problematic to read a character like touga in that way. bc like. i dont think it is. but that's because i'm basing this reading off of my own lived experience and understanding of what aromantic allosexuality can look like. to be honest, if i really had to stick labels on them (bc labels are a shorthand to me that never fully express the complexity of identity that i want to personally (writer disease)) i read anthy as an aromantic lesbian and touga as aromantic and gay. but normally you would have to waterboard that out of me because im terrified of how people who aren't aroallo respond to aroallo conceptions of like... Anything. lol.

i think the tldr of Why im compelled by those similar readings of their characters is. something about how terrifying and constraining and rigid and incomprehensible and inaccessible romance feels to me as a concept. and something else about how important sex is to me as a concept, and kind of. this radical sex positivity that is so essential, imho, to beginning to unpack the issues baked into our hetero- and amatonormative conceptions of romance and sex, and thus reclaim human connection as we please. blah blah blah wah wah wah body as a bargaining chip or whatever (guy who is mildly terrified of talking about these things for Reasons).

that's it for specific readings i have of specific characters, but i will say that i do find it hard to put myself in the shoes of certain characters if im thinking of them as alloromantic. like i think juri probably is but i dont not understand her conflict with shiori and why it agonises her so much. but tbf, most of my focus on juri as a character is her struggle for self-acceptance and her fascinating gender troubles. funnily enough, that's also kind of how i feel about saionji. they are just both so genderfuck self-hating gay plagued by the power dynamics and i love that for them.

anway yeag :} rejoice, aromanticism be upon ye

#anyway thats enough being perceived for the day #normally when writing character analysis i try to limit my 'if i was this guy' response bc it can often be unhelpful #but in this context i think it's warranted. and i'd rather be transparent about that #like these are just MY interpretations that are entirely and heavily formed by my life experiences and understanding of my identity #and you know i do want to write something longform about aromanticism in rgu and ikuhara's works generally #but in doing that i would have to ground it in the personal. that's what it is and not doing so would present a very different argument #ie one that's kind of like 'and this is the truth and the whole truth and everyone else is wrong' #when my aspec readings are all like. 'here's where im coming from and here's how this was resonant for me' #'and hopefully that might help you understand me and others like me better :)' #ANYWAY ENOUGH VULNERABILITY #dais.txt #dais talks aspec

[likeadevils]

If Taylor posted some corrections about who songs muses are or were would you like that? (not gonna happen but you know)

i happily take any piece of information this woman gives me but i would be a bit worried about her doing something that seems very out of character. but like theoretically if we became friends and she would let me in on the details i would be absolutely delighted

#asks* #i like to think that ultimately i care about knowing the truth more than i care about being perceived as correct #though yknow i am a person and type five so being publicly wrong about something gracefully is a growth area for me #but! i’ve made progress and can shrug it off much easier now #and i think i would mostly just be excited to Know Things

[fakehelper]

anyway as I'm working on adding more gifs to my Quannah Chasinghorse pack, I realized that some of my gifs, while better than the original video, still wash her out a bit so I'll be editing them! And just in general, here's just a reminder that when you make mistakes, it's always better to own up to them and try to make things better rather than giving up.

#and!!!! that no one is above criticism or being held accountable for their actions #when you see something that isn't right you should try to speak up no matter their perceived influence #the truth will always come to light #but yeah just a reminder that if I ever put out resources that you feel are iffy or problematic and i don't catch it myself #y'all are always free to call me on it #i'm remaking part of this pack and redoing my santiago segura pack from scratch #and have recolored other packs before so i know that sometimes we just can't figure it out in the moment lol #but that doesn't mean we can't go back and fix things #especially me bc I obsessively save all my psds so I have no excuse not to edit them later lol #elly makes gifs

[actionkitty]

does kusanagi know that su-won is in love with hak? is it all going according to keikaku?

#i finally caught up with the english release at least #i don't ship them together i just know and perceive the beautiful tragic truth #yona of the dawn

[tiger-balm]

Shipping is so funny bc sometimes you like a pairing that might as well be canon married and other times you are literally the only person to ever think about two people kissing each other

#that post thats like i dont need facts i just know and perceive the truth #liking both a top 5 pairing and also a pairing with zero (0) fics is so funny #like yeah im multifaceted #i guess i could just (kim kardashian voice) get my ass up and write it seems like no ine wants to write any more #but im not talented and or desperate enough YET #talking to myself

[lefresne]

I just remembered that during my home country’s equivalent of A levels (final exams in high school) biology exam one of the questions was about mapping the inheritance of the gene for colourblindness in the lineage of KING ARTHUR like first of all why and second of all what visual acuity disorder is this man NOT afflicted with PLEASE

#i think they just needed some names to put on the genealogical graph #but also I was like???? losing it bc my passion for arthuriana was a source of shame for me at the time #there is no evidence in medieval lit that Arthur has eyesight issues but I know he does bc I perceive the truth

[starbuck]

love having headcanons that are well-supported interpretations of canon relationships and events and i DOUBLE love having headcanons based on like. one offhand line meant as a joke and completely unhinged speculation.

#and i love intertwining these and mixing them in together like a spice blend #to form my overall Thoughts On The Matter #it’s honestly just so intense… #have been trying to translate it into fic form to limited success… #writing is still a Bit of a struggle atm - but building my Headcanon Empire is still fun #the thing is that Yes i am just making this all up but also i Know and Perceive the truth and am 100% correct about all of it #and that’s that on that #will i ever share it with anyone? Debatable. #depends on which part #i’m still trying to figure out if there’s any way to tell that one story #but that was the first thing i understood… before i thought about any of the rest of it #so it feels worth discussing at the very least #idk tho - we shall see…