#i just love that little jerk

[tornrose24]

Upon seeing Hazbin Hotel’s Adam: ….. Yeah I get why Lucifer would have been preferable over this jerk. I wouldn’t stand being around him for a single minute and also this dude is a huge hypocrite. Why is he in Heaven again?

Upon seeing how Lucifer is actually like in Hazbin Hotel: Ok yeah, I totally would have chosen this guy over Adam if I had been Lilith and not just because he was the only other option. He’s perfect husband material. He’s a little dork who loves his daughter, has a thing for ducks, has an awesome voice, deals with depression like everyone else, and is very accepting that said daughter has a girlfriend.

#hazbin hotel #i love that it turned out that HB’s Lucifer is just a huge dork with issues #lucifer morningstar #I admit it’d be hilarious if it turned out Lilith and Eve are one and the same given this revelation #She picked this funny little guy over that misogynistic jerk/the first human man created

[5hrignold]

this

#💝 #HE SCREAMED AT YOU??? #hbhhnfhhbbggggggfgggg i know it was said in shock at what the boss was doing #rather than in shock that the boss did that TO PIM but hhfvrvgghgfghgggggfrf #i love this entire beginning scene just with them so much………. the contrast between this and their first interaction in the pilot #charlie is so clearly invested in what pim is saying and he 100% believes him and agrees with him #not to say he’s EVER been an outward jerk toward him cuz he hasn’t but Man. this is. yeah #i know this is like the episode where they split for this season im guessing #as in just for this one episode and then they’re together again for the rest #but this and the way charlie seemed to like. get More stressed out and afraid when he noticed pim approaching the boss at the end #man is that more than enough for me #literally this could be it for the next 2 years like what happened with season 1 and id be literally fine #Sigh #god i’m So Excited #also the little jazz hands pim does to signal screaming.. I love you I love you I love you i love love love you ilove you so muc pim pimlin

[assless-chapstick]

BABY JOHN HEADCANONS

not like baby baby but like he's MY baby yk? my babygirl as a baby before he was babygirl when he was a little baby boy

• When the gang gets John - cuz let's be real, they get him the way one gets a puppy or a case of smallpox - he's fresh off that attempted hanging. It was more of a lynching than anything, an impromptu eye-for-an-eye killing after John shot a feller with his own god damned gun. What made a twelve year old mad enough, scared enough to kill, and how'd he manage to grab the guys gun? Kid won't say

• kid won't say much of anything, really. The gang had a disgraced doctor running with them at the time, a guy so hooked on his own cures and tinctures you wouldn't trust him to diagnose a hole in the head, and he said the noose had crushed John's larynx. Sure, the boy can still talk, but it ain't ever gonna sound the same and for the first lil while it'll be hard as hell, but he should be able to. So why don't he?

Doc says maybe the lynching, lack of oxygen to the brain made him go daft cuz just look at him, ain't a thought behind those eyes.

But Dutch, he has faith, he knows.

I think just the fear and trauma after the incident sent John to a pretty rough place and he went nonverbal for a space of six or nine months. Not right after, maybe, but in the following days and weeks - enough they got a name out of him, an age (he said 12 but he's got the stature of an eight year old, not nearly enough meat on his bones), a little bit of a story. "Where's your daddy, boy?" Dead. "And yer mama?" Dead.

• John was always told his ma was a lady of the night, knocked up on accident and dead in childbirth. He came out with the cord around his neck and his ma bled out before they could even untangle him.

There'd been a picture, though he'd never had the courage to ask his father about it, drunk and angry as he was. A young woman with round features and hooded eyes, long dark hair parted in the center and braided, his father's hand resting gently on her shoulder, both posed like a portrait.

(john is métis/mixed indigenous and you can pry that headcanon from my cold dead fuckin hands)

• in the winter john is so small and skinny he gets too cold at night and Arthur begrudgingly is like "FINE you can share with me" and so they share a bed until John is like 16 fjjfbfbf way too old to be sharing but imho John is a bit of a late bloomer and sort of, not a mamas boy but just kind of a baby yk?? Arthur is like "dontcha think it's time you got your own tent or something?" and John's like "No." and just walks away and Arthur is like "AT LEAST YER OWN COT??"

• john is reptilian in his search for heat he just wants to be warm ever since they got him he's crawled into Arthur's jacket whatever chance he gets

• during that first year especially, John was clingy and strange.... after a particularly terrible bathing experience (Susan is great but she's fastidious about personal hygiene and if water goes above John's navel he starts to freak) Arthur is just posted up by the fire with John sat between his knees, tucked into his jacket as they sit in silence mutually brooding... and John reaches up to rub the stubble on Arthur's jawline as a way of like, stimming n self soothing and Arthur would stop him cuz it's weird but he feels those boney little shoulders loosen and John says something, and he never says Anything so Arthur knows it's a big deal... so he just let's John keep doing it after that

• Susan is highly against taking in a child when they first bring John around - maybe because she thinks the main childcare duties will fall to her, or because she doesn't trust the gang to be a safe place for a kid - and this manifests as a little bit of short-temperedness towards him. it's not unusual, she's kind of a Bitch on the best days, but she's cold towards him at first... and I don't think anything Happens, per sé, no big event, just over time she sees he's a damaged boy in need of mothering and that's a part of herself she tried to kill a long time ago... but he brings it out of her. She nags him to cut his hair but brushes it out for him anyway; she'll share an apple with John if no one's looking, peeling it and quartering it and sneaking him a piece. She'll complain about the food - "God this stew is terrible what's in it? Rat meat? Here John, you finish it" - because sometimes good food is scarce and he's a growing boy and she sees his hungry frame, remembers how he used to steal and hoard food in the early days. They almost always have enough but she wants him to have more than enough. She reads to him, and then when he's learned to she gets him to read to her. A damp cloth on the forehead when he's laid low with fever, maybe a soft lullaby if she thinks no one's around...

• at age 12 John has a smoking habit. I don't know if this is unusual for the era or not and I dont know what the gang thinks of it but the kid loves his tobacco

• in fact John rolls his own cigarettes and, when he's young, that's primarily how he earns his keep - those tiny little kid's hands did a great job and he ends up getting the chore foisted on to him from everyone fndbbdf ( prerolled cigarettes had been invented only 7 years prior)

• at agw john also unfortunately loves to drink. I don't know if this was unusual for the era but I'm sure Hosea and Susan and even Dutch had something to say about it

and I think that's all I got in my head for now fellers.... thanks for reading mister....

#red dead redemption 2 #rdr2 #red dead redemption #john marston #OMFG I just saw my old tag #john marstons adult braces #uGH thats such a good HC too #love himmmmb #rdr2 headcanons #he's just a lil squinkum he's just a lil guy!!!! #and Arthur and him have a super close relationship even if they argue often #its not til after john leaves that they majorly fall out and lose the close relationship they have #arthur being cock blocked because his little brother insists on sharing a bed until hes fuckin 20 years old #they just go into the woods to jerk off its fine

[baalzebufo]

hi everyone i watched the beetlejuice musical (finally) (fashionably late) (i want to kiss the sewer man)

#alloyart #beetlejuice #beetlejuice musical #i think he has at least 3-5 cockroaches on his person at any given point in time. theyre free snacks #i like that he just holds his hands like that. autistic swag i also do this #i dont remember. who gave him the little bug suspenders design. but i saw it once and thought it was so cute #beeble jooj... call me... #i love that hes just this weird gross lonely guy who is also just a manipulative jerk he alternates between 'nobody care me :(' and 'CHAOS' #like maybe if you werent a jerk people would care you buddy!! #but thats ok i care him

[alteredphoenix]

Jazz Fenton is by far the best older sister I’ve come across in cartoon media and blows pretty much every 2000s-era Disney Channel big sister figure out of the water for the sole reason and sheer fact she actually loves and cares about her younger brother, isn’t self-absorbed, and doesn’t treat him like total fucking trash.

#danny phantom #i just finished my brother's keeper #and while she might come across as overbearing jazz isn't a turbo dick to danny #she is THE backbone of the fenton family #and while maddie isn't exactly a bad parental figure she's definitely not putting in the same amount of care & legwork #that jazz is showing to danny #i wouldn't even put jazz on the same level as a disney channel big sister #b/c even if those girls *do* care about their little siblings at the end of the show they still act like Jerks With A Heart of Gold #which idk why disney made them that way if their biggest demographic is young girls #that would be in the age bracket that would necessitate positive role models #or at least characters that go through that development that make them become positive role models #is jazz overprotective? a little. but at least she's doing it out of a place of love for danny & concern for his welfare #even before she learned that he became a halfa #it also probably helps that she's like this *because* she's studying therapy and psychology #so it's already in her nature to want to help others w/ their problems #but at the same time also to give them time & space so that when they're ready to talk she knows she can be there to do what she can to help #armi watches danny phantom

[shima-draws]

Wow the writer of this game REALLY does not like Chatot

#So much Chatot hate;; it makes me sad bc he's my BOY #If you're a fan of Sky and you still think Chatot's just an asshole. You're not a real fan of Sky lmao #Chatot's a really complex character and I FUCKIGN. God. I care him #Is he an uptight little prick sometimes? Yes. Is he ALSO a very loyal and kind person who cares endlessly #about his guildmembers and his guildmaster? ALSO yes. #Shrek voice: They don't even remember Brine Cave and Bidoof's Wish 😔 #Listen I love this game but I don't like the direction they went with Chatot 🤧 #Making him out to be a total irredeemable jerk is just. I don't want to say bad writing. But it's definitely not in character #WHO KNOWS maybe he'll be better towards the end #It definitely feels skewed too bc the protag and Breloom really don't like him #Shima speaks #Pokemon #PMD #PMD EotS #PMD Explorers of the Spirit #Chatot

[my-current-obsession]

My hyper-specific type when it comes to otome guys:

- Absolutely pathetic - Cannot speak to a girl normally to save his life - Tries to be calm/aloof, but turns tsundere when flustered enough - A good and pure man at heart, yet does some questionable things - ...Little Red Riding Hood???

#heart fragment #taisho x alice #otome #doofenshmirtz voice: if i had a nickel for every time i fell in love with a video game guy heavily associated to little red riding hood... #..i'd have two nickels. which isn't a lot but it's weird that it happened twice! #i made this post basically as a way to announce i played heart fragment recently. and uh. it's REALLY GOOD #i probably do love clive the most (and i was immediately interested/biased considering his similarities to Red) but... #the rest of the cast is great too! I ADORE shannon and i am beyond ready to figure out what jasper's deal is #and honestly i'm into the mystery and the strained family relationship aspects too. just great writing all around even beyond the romances #this is one of Those Games that messes with you and the more you play it the more it sneaks new creepy stuff in #whatever the hell is going on with inigo in the dreams is unsettling. and i love it. #but seriously i'd recommend this to any otome fan and ESPECIALLY taiali fans considering the similarities go far beyond just this #you like fairy tales? you like exploring psychological issues and trauma? this is the game for you #also you can date guys AND girls which is a rare treat! again - i LOVE shannon. i just... love clive even more #but to be fair i think the hangup is that no matter what you're very close and friendly with shannon #so even if you don't romance her you still have a great relationship with her regardless #meanwhile with clive he's starting as a stranger and you basically have to be a jerk to him or blow him off which hurts my heart #and also clive seems to fall kind of fast and hard for you so the relationship developing in a romantic direction just feels. right IMO #i can accept being just besties with shannon (even though I definitely still love her romance outcomes) #but it pains me to spurn clive's affections #on an unrelated note i do intend to post my thoughts (basically a review) of winter's wish: spirits of edo #but i want to finish getting the sorrow endings for CGs and lore which means a second run through several routes

[jellyaibo]

*a horrifying green mist forms around me as i remember therewill definitely be a new wave of people saying loser is an asshole*

#KSJDFHJSDFH SORY IM JUST LIKE i already IMMEDIATELY saw a thing saying losers a jerk bc of the new scenes. guys its gonna be so ok guys! #ppl just want loser to be evil so bad like. no girl just made dumb choices to follow her dreams THERE IS A DIFFERENCE #she was clearly upset when winner said they didnt want to do the movie . also eEVEN BEFORE THAT #DID WE FORGET HER LITTLE SPEECH BEFORE GETTING ELIMINATED #SHES NICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!JUST A BIT STOOPID OSMETIMES #loser justwanted to expand her horizons AS U CAN SEE bc of all the attention (SHE LOVES THE ATTENTION!) U COULD SEE HPW HAPPY SHE WAS! #and that singular crumb of a flashback we got too . clearly she hasnt had it the best always ! LET HER WIN OK #AND I KNOW THATS ALL WE GOT BUT CMON? CMON ! GIRLIE HAS PTSD #AND IN THE END WINNER STILL WISHES HER GOOD LUCK BC TGEY ARE HAPPY SHES DOING SO WELL! THEY ARENT MAD! they just miss her !!! #does this . make sense does it make sense #loser GET DOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #tpot 10 spoilers #i like rambling did u know that! ill shut up niw KJDFHSJKDF

[ravemanta]

why does like half the fanbase misinterpret akito im in hell here

#akito shinonome #project sekai #prsk #akito is generally super chill hes just easily pissed off and kind of a little shit #'we need more mean women' yall cant even handle a bullied teenager with anger issues #akito was bullied by grown ass adults who didnt take music seriously #so when he thinks kohane isnt serious yeah he was being a jerk butit wasnt for no reason #he apologized to her and treats her as an equal #he sticks up for her in singing in sinc and gives her advice on improving #hes not the same jerk as he is in the main story 😭 #look just #akito loves his friends and they love him back. #read stray bad dog and then read it again. #i know theres like 500 different stories but Please some of yall are just making shit up #idk i just relate to the shinonomes a lot. Liste🗣️

[spelviin]

1x06 vs 2x08

in other news, i am in agony

#og #ofmd #just the fact that that weak little sobbed-out denial is his knee-jerk response to being told how loved he is #like... i don't even have anything intelligent or insightful to say about the parallel #just that that shit fucken HORT

[simcardiac-arrested]

OHHHHH MY GOD COMING OFF ANON BECAUSE !??!?!? SCPSL MENTIOn!!?!??!? you are the ONLY person i've EVER seen that mentioned that game in being similar to lethal company ohhhh my god oh my god i used to be so crazy autism over that game Okay. okay. oh my godddd I LOVE(D) SCPSL SO MUCH and it makes me so so so happy to see a game like it get so popular!!! i love lethal company!!! and i love the creatures and the randomly generated facilities and the PROXIMITY chat and the lore (sigurd adn desmond<3) and i love that ALL MY FRIENDS CAN AND DO PLAY ITTT ^__^ its like 14 year old me got blessed by the autism fairy joy and beauty to the world

i don’t know how to say this in a way that wont make me sound like i shouldnt be allowed in public spaces so i’ll just go ahead and say it. I have 200 hours in scpsl

#i havent played it in like 2 or 3 years because one day #it just stopped working on win7. But i got win10 now so theoretically i could play it again. but do i want to #it’s not that it’s a bad game! like i said i’ve had a lot of fun with it. just like lethal company it has some truly #hilarious and truly scary moments #however i can remember a few times where it was just not fun ….. maybe it was the players or the unfair balance or wjatever. But well #i did love it. i love scp and getting to play an scp game for free was life changing to me. IT WAS SO FUN!! #AND I HAD THE MOST BLISSFUL GAMING EXPERIENCE BECAUSE I HAD A BUG WITH MY GAME WHERE I COULDNT HEAR ANYONE AND NO ONE COULD HEAR ME #Probably pissed off my teammates numerous times but well . At least got to exclusively vc with my friends on discord #i think the thing with lethal company (and by extension amogus which is also smth i associate lc with) is that you can play it exclusively #with your buddies. you dont have to join some random ass lobby with random ass people just because the game needs 20 players. U can just #have actual fun. because yes proxy vc is a fun feature for a game but i am seriously grateful that scpsl was bugged for me #i’ve played a lot of ‘shooter’ games (or just games similar to genre) and like Sure im used to people being jerks in game chat or something #but there’s a difference between game chat and straigjt up vc ….. so yeah. i know that it’s barely scpsl’s fault but i just felt like sayin #all that. Blinks #where am i . what am i talking about #sorry for the weird not quite rant about scpsl BUT YES i do think lethal company is quite similar to it. And like if that game was fun again #not to mention the creatures!!! like. coilhead? 173 but well it’s a common trope. eyeless dog? literally 939. A MASK THAT POSSESSES YOU? #DUDE . THIS IS 035 . BRACKEN? okay that’s like 096 but a little to the left #all they need to do now is add a 049 adjacent creature Or perhaps an evil ai computer that locks you in the building or makes landmines #explode on their own. i dont even know. zeekeers hire me #and yeah i love the rng of it all because it makes for a uniquely hilarious/terrifying experience each time. Something it sucks so bad and #you get a facility with like 1 door which is locked. but that too is funny. to me lc isnt about winning it’s about dying in the funniest way #sigmund and desmond lore is also rly good <3 i hope it gets expanded upon. Would love to see some more worldbuilding stuff like WHATHAPPENED #cramswering #anyway. it has been years since i played scpsl and i know tjat they did a bunch of updates and added a bunch of scps . So i dont know if the #game is better or worse now. and i dont know if i want to find out…. what if my game becomes unbugged and i hear people #now THAT’S real horror game material if you ask me

[amazingdeadfish]

I... I keep forgetting that your fanfics aren't canon, I can't read any other fanfics because I'm like "why do they ignore the whole macaque and mayor's story? It's so important, it shows the motivation of the characters and- oh yeah, that's not canon."

Well, if this isn't one of the greatest compliments of all then I don't know what is XDD. Besides from being able to make people allegedly cry (or, somewhat make them feel emotional), the fact that I must have accidently brainwashed you into thinking what I have written is canon, and not just a jumbled mess of my self indulgent headcanons is single handedly enough of a compliment to make me exactly 1% stronger than previously.

Because it simply means that what I have written is enough to align with canon. So thank you :DDD. I guess this means I am using the source material faithfully after all. Deep down in my heart, I know that Macaque and Mayor must have some sort of beef with each other, and Macaque being handed the Skeleton Key could not have been as easy as LBD just 'handing it to him'. Because how does that even fit on the LMK timeline??? It makes no sense, she should be imprisoned when Macaque died, right?

#ask #blue and violet #I think I have brainwashed myself too #Because I have been pulling the LMK apart by the seams just to try and make shadowpuppet work in the most canon way possible #and this involves creating more issues between them and more interactions and more reasons to reconcile #but i know deep down these two jerks will never love each other #so I have to bend some rules in terms of Macaque's personality and force these two into way too many situations #forced proximity if you will #I also had to take so much advantage of the fact that Mayor barely has a personality to make shadowpuppet work #I can do whatever the hell I want with the guy as long as I make sure they're still a little unhinged and silly #Anyways I love it when my slowburns last for hundreds/thousands of years

[clippedionianvowels]

It’s tempting to create a poll asking which WIP I should work on… because I really want to do SOMETHING but I’ve got decision paralysis. Ah fuck it, people like to click buttons

#hello red dwarf tag #rimmer/lister #red dwarf #I like making polls I like watching the numbers go up #maybe I’ll do like ~5-10 work per vote #*~5-10 mins #gamifying my procrastination and you are all my little game tokens #I love how I’m assuming that anyone has a comprehensive knowledge of my fics lmao likee… if you know Jerk Off and Trixie #but tbf the other two haven’t been published at all yet so I’m just asking for an instinct call really y’know

[color-cacophony]

Stupid mushy thought before I go to bed uhhhhhhh what if when Phantom finds someone who truly loves him (and he loves back, god forbid 😂), it doesn't matter whether or not there is a spotlight on him. He will shine as long as his love is watching him/cheering him on.

This would definitely make him too OP even for his standards but otherwise it's a sweet thought lol

#I imagined this in a villain duo sort of context #the greedy star and his loyal backup :) #I've been wanting to make a rabbid oc just so I can play with this dynamic #also because I want a little creature to project all my love for that massive jerk onto haha

[alfhildr-the-word-weaver]

I must say, it's pretty poetic that I've gotten to season 6 of Vampire Diaries right before another solar eclipse happens in America. I certainly didn't plan it, but it does feel like my timing is very appropriate with this one. I do have questions about the accuracy of the eclipse portrayal in the show, though. I mean, a solar eclipse did in fact happen on May 10, 1994, and it was visible across much of the country, so that much is accurate. But I don't think Mystic Falls would've had quite as good of a view as they show it having. For reference, here's a map of the May 1994 eclipse path (credit: timeanddate.com):

And, if you'll remember, Mystic Falls is like two hours from my old hometown just a stone's throw north of Lynchburg, Virginia, as seen on the locator spell map (this one's all over tumblr, forgive me for not remembering what blog I grabbed it from):

So if you zoom in on the timeanddate map and pick somewhere closeish to there:

It looks like Mystic Falls would be getting a little over 77% coverage or so. It's also worth noting that the '94 eclipse was an annular eclipse, not a total eclipse like tomorrow's eclipse. That still means that the moon went directly in front of the sun, but it does mean that it was small enough/far enough from earth that you didn't quite get full coverage of the sun (thanks to weather.gov for the nifty graphic):

So, I'm not positive whether it would've looked quite as dark as was shown in the show:

Although, I must admit, in this video I found on youtube of the '94 eclipse, (part of me is shocked to find footage from then but I know I shouldn't be like yes they had cameras in the 90s) it actually looks more similar than I expected it to look, but I imagine it was most likely filmed within the path of totality:

But also, when Kai takes Bonnie to Portland, don't they see the eclipse again there? I couldn't find that clip on youtube just now, but Portland barely had any eclipse--only 42-43% coverage, so it would've been way milder of a visual effect, barely any dimming in the sky noticeable without eclipse glasses.

The funny thing is, the area where I live is going to be sitting right around 80% coverage tomorrow. I was lucky enough to get to travel to Missouri for the 2017 eclipse to get into the path of totality, but I'm afraid that it hasn't worked out for me to do so this year, which is immensely disappointing to me as an astronomy enjoyer, but I do still plan to go to an eclipse party and I'm going to start saving to try and get to Spain for the next total eclipse in 2026, which is going to be right around my 30th birthday (screaming). Anyways, it isn't great, but here's my best picture from the '17 eclipse:

I didn't even have a smartphone yet then, because despite it being 2017, I was somewhat of a luddite, so I had the purple flip phone I so stubbornly clung to and a point-and-click Nikon, but I still think this picture is pretty cool for what it is. Here's the zoom in so you can really see that ring of fire (and my shaking hands doubling the image):

Obviously you can find thousands of better eclipse pictures online, but that one's still special to me because it's mine. Anyways, I'll report back with smart phone pictures from whatever I see of the 80% total eclipse tomorrow to compare and contrast with Mystic Falls's 70% annular eclipse of the 90s, because from what I've heard it's going to be much less impressive than full totality was, but I've yet to watch a partial solar eclipse, so I'll just have to find out. Also, if you happen to have any vampiric loved ones trapped in a magical prison dimension who you need help freeing during the eclipse tomorrow, let me know and I'll see what I can do! ;) Hahaha. Anyways, happy eclipse everyone, and may we all possess sufficient self restraint to avoid eye damage (says the woman who has looked at the sun unprotected so many times and is probably going to go blind because of it some day. I know what I've done lol. Don't be me.)

#posts where I actually feel like I'm using my blog as a blog #Solar Eclipse #Solar Eclipse 2024 #Solar Eclipse 1994 #The Vampire Diaries #TVD 6x02 #is where the screenshot's from specifically #Damon Salvatore #Bonnie Bennett #Eclipse History #nerding out over the eclipse in the vampire show #it's also funny to me how two eclipses in my lifetime are so close to my birthday. I think it probably means I have magical powers ;) #May 10 1994 #that's two years and change before I was born #April 8 2024 #I'm so tempted to ditch all my responsibilities and drive south to totality but it's an 8 hour drive and I'd have to leave at like 4am #if it was a 4-5 hour drive to totality I'd do it. but I think a 16 hour round trip would kill me and I didn't have the good sense to plan #or book a hotel in advance or anything and everything in totality will be booked up for sure. and tonight is the night I would need to be #in a hotel anyways so. missed that boat. I mean I could go now and just drive through the night. but ugh. I just. ugh. I can but I can't yk #anyways everybody says that the Vampire Diaries writing quality drops off around here but I'm still loving it so far #it's incredibly frustrating sometimes but like. it knows how to give me The Feels(tm) and so I'll let it jerk me around all it wants #I would personally prolly want to stay in the prison world for at least a little bit to get to enjoy that eclipse from a bunch of angles th #like that's a rad as heck day to get trapped on imho. Love me a good eclipse #i ramble #even in the tags I ramble #Youtube

[kurapikas-fucking-pissed]

they might be able to wake my brother up today or tomorrow 🤞

#nothxh #he's been in the ICU and they've had him asleep so he doesn't feel the pain / try to do more drugs again #i just hope he can wake up and be released soon so his kids can see him #despite everything his kids love him a lot. so he better make all this up to them. #idc abt me i'm fine. i don't like him or need him in my life. he's a jerk to me. but his kids are so little #and they deserve a dad. and he does try more for them than he ever did for me so