#i just made myself mad again

[natsmagi]

sorry, i really don’t get you because you say you draw tsumugi with the body you do because she ‘seems like the type of girl who would have a good body (weird that you call that kind of ‘no fat but on the boobs sex doll body’ good but okay?) but covers it up’ and then don’t draw her covered up.

like you draw her in tiny skirts with her ass hanging out and shit constantly, in every one of your drawings is her body emphasised and on show and i just want to know what your fucking deal is? not only does it feel really mischaracterising for tsumugi, but it’s just really weird and gross. also you’ve literally never drawn a single fat character, all your characters are stick thin with different boob and hip sizes.

are we seriously doing this again. its ok to not like my art. its ok to not have it be to your tastes. its ok to disagree with my portrayals. it doesnt need to be much deeper than that

your rephrasing of my quotes is misleading though. ive re-emphasized the point more clearly before, but my points are based on societal standards and expectations, not my own personal preferences. big boobs small waist is the body type that gets ogled at the most, stereotypically speaking, so it makes it fun for her to have that body as her personality and the way she carries herself isnt whats commonly associated with it. with my depictions i try to take context into question. i dont just give the character a body or appearance that i like, i try to think how i can translate their character along with changing their figure (if at all). of course, i am not perfect, my stuff will not appeal to everyone and my takes might be disagreeable, and thats ok.

as for my tsumugi depiction; i dont know what you want me to say. tsumugi wears a button-up shirt with pants and a belt in canon. in my femstars version i simply change the pants into a pencil skirt. the belt is synched around the waist. its gonna make her waist look smaller than it is, as the belt is highlighting that area and creating contrast. this is a common way to dress and i honestly dont think i draw her in revealing clothes too often? like yea it happens. duh. and ive drawn some horny and suggestive art with her to add. but i do not think i go out of my way to flaunt her body or have her wear as little as humanly possible (which i dont even think would be an issue. an artist having fun is not the end of the world). i mainly do it when its, again, a suggestive drawing, or when its been for a joke. its not really meant to be anything deep sure, maybe she has her cleavage out every once in a while, but thats just. Her having boobs. i give natsume revealing clothes just as, if not more often than i do tsumugi, but people dont seem to care/notice as shes rather curveless. and idol clothes are separate from personal clothes that theyd casually wear because its what they enjoy, and its the idol clothes that tend to have that more "attractive" tinge to them her body isnt the focal point of my art very often either?? like if ur just staring at her boobs in every single one of my drawings atp thats on u

#if you dont like me and/or what i draw you honest to god do not need to be here #i wont be mad its ok #arguing further is just a waste of both of our times #i hope i made myself clear at least #as id like to put a rest to it #but again. youre free to block and ignore me if you dont like my stuff #focus on what you do like and send those artists some appreciation instead #ask

[jahiera]

I kind of want to just restart emrys so I can play her again more perfectly this time... kill even MORE fiends and such. but also I speedran grymforge a bit & the thing is that. emrys rolls up to moonrise towers already have a deep-seated and intense paladin-specific beef with ketheric. babygirl heard that he was 1. an evil paladin 2. broke his paladin vow to TWO gods prior 3. was like That and decided Actually, I'm going to project All of my own personal issues and insecurities onto you. And then I'm going to kill you. and then she still offered to spare him. so I need the buildup to that from grymforge. you see.

#you understand. #one thing that emrys will do is have extremeeeely specific problems in regards to needing to be the Best Paladin In The Room #<- she is abnormal. she has a lot of problems. #Ketheric is such a ... dark twisted mirror / I can see myself in you / I do not /want/ to see myself in you. #of course she resents his crimes but more than that she resents what she Sees in him that she feels is also in her self #there's something ugly in you thats also in me etc etc #so. this beef NEEDS BUILDUP. #(alternatively: she latched onto Dame Aylin almost immediately as a figure of holy righteousness and divinity that she craves for herself) #(if Ketheric is close to what she COULD be at her worst; Dame Aylin is suuch a. Being You Could Fix Me. moment for her) #(also objectively not normal but very funny. ah yes I know what will make me a better object and sword for Tyr. if I was nothing but a #channel for divine righteousness greater than myself. not even a person just a violent weapon made to STRIKE.) #(and she can never be so close to the divine + never be such a weapon but she sure does TRY.) #(OF WHICH dame aylin is not either; but she IS a blinding light in the dark & Ough. the complexes that inspires.) #Anyways.... the NPCs we latch onto as the narrative parallel / reference for our Tav PC huh. Yeah! #act 2 is just... it gave me SOOOO much for her. Shadowheart/Ketheric/Aylin in different measures for different reasons #Orin. she's weird about but for different reasons. In that orin's fanaticism and madness kind of #tickles a part of her that wants. very desperately. to smite down the most obvious of evils in 1v1 combat #which is a violence that once again! comes uncomfortably close to the fanaticism of Ketheric + Orin + their own propensity for god-driven #violence & horror. as it is and such.

[hannibal-confessions-nbc]

I hate when people say Hannibal "ruined" Will's perfect life with Molly shuuut up Will made his own choices. Will conveniently walked his dogs when Jack was there and left Molly alone with him knowing he would show her crime scene photos and she'd try to make Will go. He said he knew what he was doing going back after Molly got hurt. Hannibal told him not to come back even and Will ingored it! We need to acknowledge Will is a manipulative person and makes his own choices

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#anon i am so sorry i took ages to post this. its been over a month i hope youre hanging in there #hannibal confessions #nbc hannibal #hannibal #im so sorry for ranting here! couldnt help myself. #about hannibal telling will not to go back... he did say that BUT because he knew will wouldnt #listen to him. will has problems with authority god damn it. course he wouldnt listen. i think im more upset with molly in this scenario #because she pushed will to do something he expressed uneasiness for. she pressured him. he guilt tripped him into going. #ik will makes his own choices but as someone who has been guilt tripped frequently by someone im supposed to trust. its not easy to ignore. #doesnt matter if its intentional or not. #guilt tripping is not easy to ignore at all. so yeah im mad at molly for that. BUT THEN. im mad at jack for guilt tripping molly into guilt #but then im not mad because jack was just doing his job. he wanted a way to catch the ripper and he was relentlessly out for his ass #and would stop at almost nothing to get there. including putting his agent-made-ex agent-made-agent again's life and wellbeing on the line #yeah. will is a grown man. he makes his own choices. hes manipulative. hes a good manipulator. #no matter how manipulative you are you can still be manipulated. and easily. will has an unstable sense of self and im 99.9999999 percent #sure he struggles with a dissociative disorder outside of the encephalitis. among plenty of other things. his sense of self is not stable. #that makes him malleable. he can close himself off all he wants to avoid being susceptible to manipulation but he's still malleable. #chiyoh said it. she's not as malleable as he is. #will graham #hannibal lecter #molly graham #jack crawford

[shinayashipper]

Once again they crushed me with saying I'm ugly because of my own fault 😭😭 not just my face but my whole aura?? Like all the air around me... they said people won't like me if I didnt change.. like im sorry... i didnt Mean for it to be like this... im sorry I grew up wrong. I will need some time. I will do my best

#red rambles #im sorry im just so sorry pls dont be so mad at me #it looks like a boohoo sob story if I posted this online #if i cut myself again they will just keep blaming me... #thanks online people for letting me vent #it's nothing serious. im just being way too emotional #lmao the Emotional Damage is too strong in this household #i know it's because they Care abt me... they want the best out of me... #but tbh it just made me feel bad

[hummingbird-games]

making alt captions takes energy soooo no pic spam on the sideblog (tonight) BUT OMG I JUST FINISHED GIDGET'S ROUTE IN OUR CINDERELLA AND I LEGIT WAS GIGGLING AND SMILING AND SPINNING IN MY DESK CHAIR STOOOOPPPP 😭🤧

#so funny so dorky so cozy so lovely so perfect ughhh #10/10 would do it all over again #are there any think pieces about why iggy and gidget work?? #can I read them?? thnx #gamedev rambles #😂 keeping this out the main tag cuz I just needed to scream and will be repeating nearly this same exact post on the other blog later LOL #ALSO WAIT I'M SO MAD I JUST MADE MORE WORK FOR MYSELF WITH THE WRAP UP KSJFFJJHSJF

[twilightarcade]

I loooove when people respond to you being mad by being mean to you. Like yeah thanks that's really improving my mood

#wordstag #IM NOT EVEN DOING SHIT TO THEM I AM DOING THE BARE MINIMUM TO MAKE THIS A FUNCTIONAL INTERACTION #I am not yelling at you. I'm not saying anything mean to you. Why do you keep bothering me about being mad #THEN THEY KEEP GETTING ALL OFFENDED !!!!! LIKE YOURE GOING TO POINT OUT HOW I SEEM TO WANT TO BE LEFT ALONE #THEN MAKE IT ABOUT YOU. OUHHH WHY DONT I WANT TO BE WITH YOU? WHY AM I GIVING YOU THE COLD SHOULDER ? ☹️ #like. Cod. Maybe stop being mean to me and I'll want to be with you again. But it's literally not ABOUT you #but for real I announced my intention on making a cake because like. I do that for fun. It brings me joy. Gives me stuff to do #and they would NOT stop bullying me over it yesterdat for some reason ????????? #because I was supposed to make it yesterday. Then didn't. And it turned into a game of #'Ohhhhh I wonder when Neptune's gonna make the cake ☹️☹️☹️ when are you gonna make the cake neptune? ☹️☹️ #you know I would have cake right now if neptune had made the cake but she didn't isn't she so terrible and lazy ☹️☹️☹️☹️' #like bro. You're lucky I like baking and cant eat a whole cake myself or I would personally ensure that you never saw a cake again. #vent #I guess. Hate to put a personal post in a commonly used tag but don't have a vent tag over here because I DONT !!!! #like cod whatever. I think we just need to sit in the dark for an hour or whatever. #eat some grapes.

[takeaguessbuddy]

why do so many people think animation is made specifically for little kids and why am i not allowed to talk about it :(

#like seriously it makes no sense #adults are the ones making animated stuff #why is it assumed animated movies are made with only kids in mind #kids watch fucking skibidi toilet and content farms on youtube for christs sake they’ll watch anything #if that were the case there would be no good animated movies or shows because little kids will watch anything that’s funny or colorful #there would be no animation without animators shut the fuck up and use your brain #buddy’s buzzing #vent #kinda #i’m mad because my mom who is not an animation obsessed creature like me said wish was allowed to be subpar bc it’s for kids supposedly #and then when i tried to talk she made me shut up because i was getting too excited and was stimming with my hands and she doesn’t like tha #i don’t even stim that much because i’ve been masking it all my fucking life #and you’re getting annoyed that i‘m shaking my hands because i’m excited #i just won’t talk to anyone about it ever again sorry to inconvenience you #add that to the list of reasons why i have an anxiety disorder #it’s bad to express any emotion ever #sorry i was under the impression that i could be myself around you but nope guess not

[munamania]

i won’t apologize for being a hater. seeing comments on chappell roans posts about being too hypersexual and needing to dial it down (mmm dial what down. say it very explicitly to me. what is making you uncomfortable in your own very clear words) and directly contrasting it with renee rapp just made me not like that girl even more i’m sorry! maybe she should try not being an annoying blonde bi girl who only seems to hang out with other blonde bi girls making mediocre pop. whoops

#is my opinion on her subject to change sure maybe and if you like her by all means don’t let me being mean take that away from you #but that was just. the quiet part out loud. renee is accessible and still not so visibly overtly queer but enough to be like #Tehe girls are sooo pretty #and um cater to that sort of crowd. chappell you have to love and celebrate and embrace queerness wholeheartedly #it’s making me sooooo mad like chappells music is so representative of the fun flirty ways EYE like to express myself #and has made me feel comfortable in that literal sexuality part of my sexuality. and ur gonna sit here and put her down in favor of… #i can’t like i can’t i’m sorry i want to watch that show and you know how much i want to support women and queer women specifically #so yeah again i’d keep my mouth shut in the general public but that fucking brand of sapphic queer Will Not Say The Word Lesbian vibe of #person. i can’t stand you. #you are a traitor to dykes everywhere and you need to do a lot of work. not saying that’s all her fans but WHATEVER i’m not qualifying my #stupid complaining right now it’s my blog #abby talks #this is giving smith college problem and i accept that #and general blanket apology for comparing two queer things when u know there r so many more serious issues in the world #however i’m here to complain about whatever the hell is annoying me. so.

[thegayestminotaur]

This Blog is Anti-AI

I know I have very few followers, but as more of you become aware of new setting allowing AI to scrape art from blogs and reblogs, I want to make my stance on the issue extremely clear: If I wanted to feed an artificial intelligence algorithm my art, I would have done so myself. Until the AI is fully removed from Tumblr, I will not be hosting my art here. Until the AI is fully removed from Tumblr, I will not be using the site or the app. Until the AI is removed from Tumblr, this is not a safe place for me to exist or express my ideas. I'm sorry if this inconveniences you. I genuinely appreciate all the follows and reblogs y'all have blessed me with. I still have art available on my Patreon, Ko-Fi, Discord, and Twitch. You can find those sites in my pinned post and you can follow my Patreon for free. I'll be restructuring my Patreon in March to allow people to access my SFW art for free, so if that's an option y'all are interested in, feel free to drop a follow there. This is a topic I feel very seriously about. I always said that I wouldn't leave Tumblr no matter how bad things got, but I guess I'm eating my words now. To me, the ability to create art is a quantifiable aspect of the human soul and to have it stripped down and sold for corporate use like this (specifically: without the consent of the artist for data mining and ai training) is indescribably vile.

I think that AI can be used ethically, but this? This ain't it, chief.

#my own art #text post #open ai #artificial intelligence #tumblr news #artists on tumblr #ai art #this whole thing makes me sick tbh #i can't make support myself with my art but open ai wants to come in and train their ai on my art? fuck that #fuck open ai #fuck ai scraping #why the hell would i allow someone to train their ai on my art when i can't feed myself on it? #and they don't just use it for one illustration either #they use your identity your art style in that ai forever #what made you unique you special belongs to them now #they're like face stealer koh from atla #out there stealing faces and saying “why are you so mad we stole your face?” #“all we did was steal your face and then commit a heinous crime in your name? why are you mad you're in jail now?” #who would allow that to happen? would you? let me steal your identity and use your money for a bit then answer again #it's the same

[blorboconfessions]

I cannot draw my blorbo’s hair…. I cry because I am bad at drawing hair… Cry cry weep weep

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#confession #I sob when I cant draw things the 1st try #I'm the opposite of most tumblrinas I'm overconfident and believe myself to be the best #So when I fail at things its either because it lagged or glitched or I genuinely made a mistake in it #When its the 1st two I just get mad #but it I made a mistake I try again and if it happens twice I bawl my eyes out pff

[farmlesbians]

yes it happened 1.5 years ago yes im not over it yes i hope the person who did it feels bad about it every single day forever and ever

#HOW DO U JUST LEAVE SOMEONE SO FAR FROM HOME..... then defend the bartenders and say im entitled to how i feel but they wouldnt do that. #when i say i got spiked sorry made myself mad again

[illogicalghost]

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#big gender rant ahead i just need to write down my thoughts #personal #so i think im a he/him trans lesbian?? #i think ive been denying my feminine side for a long time now but middle school me was right. well. half right #idk why id built up some weird barrier in my mind about being trans and being a lesbian #but now im like more sure than ever #i still dont know if i could call myself a woman. and i thought i was so adamant about not using she/her again but it honestly? #doesn't bother me that much anymore. its not my preference but its not as soul crushing as it used to be #i have these weird subliminal gender rules for myself that ive been beating myself down with even though i #understand that theyre fake and dont hold anyone else to them. so why have a double standard? cant i have a fun gender? #ever since high school its been an uphill battle just letting myself live freely and having self confidence #i just turned 24. i dont have to be beholden to stupid hormonal teenage self loathing anymore #the world is a beautiful place and gender is just made up anyway. so why cant i be trans and butch? who cares?? #i think i worded it well in my last personal post. ive been living a gender of convenience #but fuck that! i want the gender that makes sense to me! that makes me happy! its my life and i should live it how i want to! #...i still have some regrets about my top surgery. i wish i wasnt so weirdly flat chested now. #but hopefully the fat will redistribute eventually and itll look more natural as the years go on.. #but i definitely dont regret going on T. i love my deep voice and my body hair #anyway if you've read this far thanks for listening to my mad ramblings #and dont forget you can have a fun gender too!

[circusclownproductions]

UR GINGER???

im sorry ophelia, but idk if we can be friends anymore </3 im gingerphobic

/J /J

Oh boy /lh/nm

#I’m trying so hard not to sound mad I pinky pinky promise I’m not mad at you I’m just tired but I have made like 3 posts addressing this #kind of joke and the post I just made about expressing my feelings was me asking my friend not to say things like this about my hair or my #autism as much anymore #I get that you’re joking I really really do #but it’s just so fucking hard to hear after the millionth time bro #and I already hate myself and my appearance so much that hearing this every five seconds really doesn’t help #I’m sorry if I sound whiny or if I’m making a big deal out of nothing I’m trying not to be a baby about it or stress you out cuz I don’t #want you to think you did anything wrong cuz you didn’t and you couldn’t have known how much I’ve been struggling with this recently #but I really wish people would stop with the hatred of redheads even if it’s just joking because after a while of people just joking it #starts to feel like they’re just hiding behind the guise of a joke and trying to express how much they hate you #and when you already have an anxiety disorder that’s rlly easy to jump to #I’m sorry if this is annoying or dramatic and I’m also sorry if it makes you anxious at all I love you ghost I’m sorry I didn’t handle this #the way you probably expected I’ve just been really sensitive to stuff recently cuz I’m kind of at a low point but I’m getting off topic im #sorry #again I’m not mad I swear I promise #ghost 🖤 #🪽 #/gen all of it

[sleepingfancies]

Kind of extremely hate "my roman empire is x" it's just rehashed "girl dinner" "girl math" "girl driving" can we please for the love of god stop reinventing a rigid gender binary centered around the most arbitrary stupid shit and calling it a "joke"

#personal #again that post that's like 'conservatives are sooo stupid if you dress leftist language up in the right terms they agree with u' #is so annoying bc then leftists make these 'jokes' every five fucking seconds. when it's just conservative rhetoric-- #--wrapped up in funnee tiktok language #do you realize how saying 'silly girls only understand friend breakups and bleeding every month and crying' is fundamentally-- #--the opposite of progressive #like be fucking serious for one second and tell me you understand that saying 'girlies who don't understand math or history or driving <3' #is literally reinforcing misogynistic stereotypes. for the benefit of no one but misogynists #i'm gonna get a fucking migraine for how pissed off this shit makes me. god. #anyways this isn't directed at or because of anyone on here dw i just thought abt it in the shower and made myself mad