#i just really loved authors man

[grandcovenant]

carlo's inherent tragedy as a character means that if he hadn't died young he would've gone through something worse. the horrifying realization that he inherited his father's personality <3

#lies of p #geppetto is over and over mentioned and shown to be a very stubborn man. #and the little we see of carlo.... it works.... he was in fact kind of a bull-headed little brat. #and everyone knows how much parents with strong personalities ~loooooooove~ when their kids. get it from them. #i'm not ragging on carlo. the basis of personality that is inherited is not the sole defining factor in what a person is like-- #--and what is developed & changed by one's experiences would make them very different people still. #THAT SAID: i do think carlo achieving his little dream of being The Best Stalker In The World WOULD put him at risk of. #going down the same path his dear old man did :^) #there's something about being at the top of your field and what being the unquestioned authority in all that pertains to it can-- #--very easily make one close-minded and set in their ways. it's probably what happened with geppetto. #i mean if my timeline is right he fucked with venigni's grand covenant long before he needed to enact mass murder to resurrect his son. #which to me speaks of him considering only himself as a trustworthy authority for a long time. #the tags in these posts really are the main feature now huh. sorry about that i just like talking here better.👍its like a secret post. #anyway. LOVE YOU DEAD BOY

[shannonsketches]

he's so important to me

#i guess i need to watch the anime but super's manga has just been a self-indulgent fever dream for me from start to finish #100000/10 absolutely perfect so validating so extremely catered to my tastes and headcanons and analyses and humor #so fucking funny and emotional and intense and goofy and beautifully drawn #my beautiful son getting to finally fucking see his HARD won character growth fucking shine and choose love and choose to be loved!!!!!! #Goku just being Goku Vegeta being Team Dad Piccolo being Team Grandpa Bulma being a fucking superstar keeping everybody organized and fed #god i love this squad i love this series i love these dumbasses and their struggles and their triumphs and their stupid childish bonding #I love that Toriyama just spent the last several years reminding the class that DB as a whole has always been an ACTION-COMEDY about LOVE #and I'm SO sad that the z anime really never did it justice in that sense because of having to fill time with dramatic tension but god. GOD #THE MANGA HAS ALWAYS BEEN SO CLEAR ON THAT THESIS. #Just all about Restorative Justice and Community and CARING even when you wish SO MUCH that you didn't care but yoU DO GODDAMMIT!!! #SUCH a great series I'm so sad it took losing mr t for me to finally read it but my god I needed to read it now and I'm so glad he wrote it #and i'm SO glad he wrote it Exactly Like This #once again rip to a legend i'm caught up and crying it's so perfect it's SO everything I've wanted to see onscreen and embedded in canon #and canon isn't everything but it still feels gREAT to be SO 1:1 on the same page with an author re: how you interpret your blorbo yknow??? #been rotating this man in my head for 25 years and Mr Toriyama just mWAH kissed me on the forehead about it #anyway enough tag rambles I'm off again aklsjla #bonus for that kenpachi shit and letting him say 'sorry dude I can't be cold and numb anymore but this is still cathartic as fuck lol' like #mr t i hope you see the HIGHEST tier of heaven for that (and obviously for like everything all of it the whole life you led)

[wishuponroses]

I adore how Tatsuya Endo writes his characters, especially the women. They can be warm, soft, cute, cool, tough, scary... all, if not most, of his ladies in Spy x Family are equally wonderful in their own way, both in character design and personality.

#I haven't felt this passionate about an ongoing series in a while #I still need to finish the anime and see the movie and I'm reading the manga... but yeah #I'm glad I have found something to be passionate about again... especially Franky? #Like... okay so... I feel like I always fall for sometimes princes or leader type characters or a character with a remarkable power #But Franky is... just a simple man in his mid-thirties #I love his design and kind personality towards Anya and his playful side when teasing Loid #And I get so upset over his past and I really hope that he can achieve happiness #Like #I've come to a point in my life that I don't need anything grand to happen #That living life simply is okay to do #And Spy x Family is kinda... helping me with that? Like it's motivating #Back in college I wanted to become a great children's author; I still can. I would love to write a book about my dragon characters #But right now... I am okay with being a DSP and becoming a future cat lady #Spy x Family

[atinyladybug-art]

Abirt Kravitz (Dr Bright Rewrite)

Up-close fullbody:

My Dr Bright rewrite! I'm so happy to finally get it done! His name is Abirt Kravitz and he's currently the second oldest out of all 5 Kravitz Siblings. He's also O5-7.

Not much have changed since my former Bright designs other than a change from the amulet and I made him look older and fixed his colours a bit more.

There's still other stuff that I haven't decided on- like their anomalies and backstory. And the 963 Design is not permanent. It's what I'm going with right now until I get some better ideas.

Anyways, some fun facts about Abirt:

Xe uses any pronouns!

Has multiple doctorates and masters because he's old and has a lot of free time but he's most well-known for his specialty in history making him a historian!

He has 3 kids but they went missing years ago (a lore of its own).

Dating Simon Glass! They are your local elderly queer couple!

If the name Abirt is familiar then you're right! It's actually the name for Bright in the Bellerverse canon after they all became gods to the new world!

And the O5-7 part came from the newer series where Jack has been written as part of the council. I really like that idea. Being O5-7 specifically came from SCP-5493 and The Foundation is Broke.

Also! The character description is written in the O5 Command Dossier method

Image Text under the cut:

Abirt Kravitz

O5-7 | The Eternal

Genderfluid. Jewish origin. Unknown age though rumoured to have been above 2 centuries. Varying appearance with a favour of accessories and jewelry. Said to have gained immortality from a cursed bloodline.

O5-7 plays the role of personnel director. He is in-charge of overseeing all personnel designation within the Foundation. Is also said to personally run at least 3 different Foundation sites in-person.

Known for their lack of formalities and charisma. Within Foundation staff, however, he is known for his irritability and extreme high expectations.

One of the most active O5s with connections everywhere.

#Alt draws #dr Bright #dr jack bright #jack bright #scp #scp foundation #Abirt Kravitz #Bright remake process #dr bright rewrite #dr kravitz #many rambling in tags #gonna tag abirt with bright tags for a while before slowly moving over to 'abirt kravitz' tag #please ask me about kravitz i want to talk about kravitz i NEED to talk about kravitz #listen i really really like what a lot of authors have written for bright and I really want to reference to some of them because #Bright belongs to the community and people has made so many things #idk man i just really love community written bright #like tales like Falling into Stars and In Regards To Death really pictured Bright really well and I just LOVE them #me making abirt is like 'How many easter eggs can i put into one character' #i have so many feelings and autism about xer #i just hope people enjoy abirt as much as I do :D

[aj-lenoire]

i do not enjoy harry potter anymore and even when i did, snape was not a character i ever liked, but for some reason my ‘for you’ page is just full of dedicated snape stan accounts and i hate it

#anti jk rowling #anti severus snape #anti harry potter #like okay i remain a strong proponent of ‘you are allowed to like whatever fiction you like’ #but it’s important to consider whether the author—when presenting certain subjects—critically evaluates their own opinion on those subjects #like how stephanie meyer in twilight thinks it’s funny to have all the vampires make dog jokes at jacob because he’s a werewolf #but he’s native so it comes off as REALLY racist #(and also in the case of jkr specifically she’s using her money from hp to fund terf shit LET HP DIE) #and the dozen-ish snape takes i’ve seen seem to demonstrate these accounts are either not interested in or cannot critically evaluate snape #a character written by a woman to be a redeemable asshole who take out a petty schoolyard resentment against a kid’s dad ON THE KID #the orphaned abused kid i might add—when the redeemable man in question is implied to have come from an abusive home himself #i just saw one like ‘oh if it’s okay to call him ‘snivellus’ then it must be okay to call luna ‘loony’ right? #sorry when was luna joining a hate group against muggles and muggle-borns #i don’t deny james and co bullied snape quite viciously but he gave back just as much and also never grew out of that pettiness #not to mention he only turned from voldemort because he was specifically going to kill lily #all other muggleborns dying was apparently just fine by him #i still don’t get the love of this character not because it’s a bad thing to like villainous characters #but it’s ALWAYS the justification of his actions—as if he was in the right to bully harry (an orphaned abused child) because of harry’s dad #there’s no criticism consideration of the author’s biases in there #should you not be a bit concerned that she thinks calling your best friend a slur ‘ONE TIME’ is something that should be just forgotten #aj abstractions

[sinvulkt]

Just—' I wanna scream this somewhere— but this face— these kind of beautifully sad but ironic smiles and expressions— those are what kept me into manga for so long.

(It’s d.gray man chap 219)

#dgm #it’s just— #the perfect embodiment of angst— #those expressions are why i loved #pandora hearts #so much as well #some author can just pull off those kind of drawing #those kind of faces #and i’m gone #(really though such perfect angst faces) #allen walker #mana walker #d gray man #d gray man chap 219 #manga #manga feels #such magnificent drawings #and feels #☆.☆ #perfect hate of the world here #irony and sarcastic and laughing at the end of the world~ #(i’ll stop there xd) #also i just noticed the author was apparently a woman and— un8uu8n #this officially makes 80% of my favorite mangas shonen / seinen written by women #it seems... #i have a taste #...

[swarnpert]

if i go to pride this year and i see people selling fucking harry potter merch i'm gonna flip my fucking lid

#even seeing it last year i was like. man are you fucking serious #but i feel like the way things have been even just this year i wouldn't be able to keep my mouth shut #i'm so full of rage and fear i don't have the mental capacity to ignore it anymore #i don't even care if it's handmade and none of the money is going to rowling or you're donating the proceeds to a trans organization #IT'S PUTTING HER ART OUT THERE! IT'S THE FREE PUBLICITY! #what are you gonna say when some kid sees your merch and asks what it is? #'oh it's from this book i really really love but don't read it because the author is a huge bigot' #THE COGNITIVE DISSONANCE OF IT ALL! #something something gay people can't even boycott chick fil a #sorry i just finished watching that hour long ro ramdin video about the hogwarts game and being transgender #and i flew into a rage because people care more about their fleeting feelings of nostalgia than transgender peoples' lives

[enough-spider-noir-stuff]

*slaps noir and hobie* this bad bitch can fit so many issues

#no listen they both have trust issues obvsly okay #especially towards authorities bc cmon look at their worlds #but they ALSO have two opposite kinds of trust issues #like i don't think hobie trusts others easily. like he's had to fight on his own or with just a small group of people against uh #literally the world #he has a really hard time trusting others #meanwhile everyone close to noir died or worse #he's convinced that he brings bad luck and especially with the spider god.... #he has no idea how much of a human is left inside him. how much of himself is left inside of him #also both are so angry all the time #bc if they're not angry then what do they have? apathy or despair? no life at all #if they're not angry what else is there? nothing. nothing else. #but that in itself shows how emotionally messed up they are #i love them okay #i love them so much #a biscuit's rambles #hobie brown #peter benjamin parker #spider-man noir #spider punk

[lethalhoopla]

I am once again losing my mind.

This time: I went to look up references of Varric, and just typed "Varric Tethras" into the search bar. I was going to just tab over immediately to the images section, eyes barely glancing over the obvious top-result fandom wiki, then (more entertainingly, but still expected) Wikipedia link-

but. but the next one.

GOODREADS??

.... There's absolutely no tongue-in-cheek in the entry either.

(of course I immediately clicked on it who do you think I am)

There are 3 quotes from him relating to storytelling, both from 2 and Inquisition, as well as a book attribution:

The Dragon Age Novel Edition of Hard in Hightown.

ATTRIBUTED TO VARRIC TETHRAS.

with Mary Kirby*~

Absolutely unblinkingly written summary/bio.

I love this with my whole heart. Varric you beautiful bastard -- and DA writers/editors (Mary Kirby very much most importantly included) you even more beautiful, dorky, wonderful bastards.

---

*if you're not in the know, Mary Kirby is a cornerstone of the DA writing team, including being the one who was in charge of Varric (and Merrill!). To say she's his "trusted human confidante" is certainly putting it one (delightful) way.

#dragon age #dragon age 2 #da2 #varric tethras #i love things like this idk its just so delightful to see the love for a character so clearly echoed from the writers to fans and back agai #like it makes sense HiH is on goodreads - its literally a published book! (you can read most of it in dai codex in fact) #very fun and cheeky novella - not originally planned to be written #but mary kirby did it during DAI's development during times the team would work on 'related projects' that #would flesh out/expand on the world but probably/likely wouldn't see the light of day (which is really cool and immersive) #she apparently banged out most of HiH in a WEEK as codex entries (which are only 500 words long MAX so she had a hard cap!) #woke up in a fugue state with it finished kinda vibes apparently XD #anyways a couple years after DAI she was contacted and asked if she wanted to make it into a publishable novella that'd be illustrated #she agreed and here we are lmao #but! it's By Varric *with Mary Kirby* #and idk #my lil storytelling loving heart just is so delighted about all aspects #and its lead to Varric having a true-blue goodreads profile #so much good shit in the world man #including weird lil website entries on behalf of fictional authors that have 'real' published novels thanks to Dedicated Writers #fucking impeccable shit man

[reddd-robin]

I feel so crazy about that last episode I knew literally in my soul that the lich would appear eventually and be named the last scholar of golb. Throws up everywherr

#i canttt do this. i love betty and simon so much this new view on their dynamic makes me feel crazy #its undoubtedly like a strange power dynamic that simon is unaware of (heees kind of dumb but not a bad person by any means) that drives- #-betty to act how she does with him at first. like her perfect idolized interaction with a author she loves dearly #and for her to put aside her life like that for him in this manic sort of perfect scenario shes so enthralled by #gah i live them so much. simon being unaware of this and it damaging their relationship in the future unknowingly #she gives so much man. not to say simon doesn't i think hes just as great a lover as betty wanted but betty has this endlessness to her- #-devoting her time and her life and her dreams to this perfect world she gets to live in now #i do think she relaxes with it further into their relationship when she feels less like she has to be cool or prove herself to someone she- #-idolizes. and that they get better and closer and more equal (i say theyre never truly equal considering it revolves around simons whims)- #betty really learns to love for that period of their life. for however long it takes them to get to 'fianceès' its really their perfect life #and then everything happens. the crown. the portal. the war. the world ending. ice king. betty in ooo. and its all ruined again and she cant #acess simon so he is again returned to this state of a forbidden person she desperately chases and gives up her life for. she regresses to- #-when their dynamic was unknown woman and author she loves dearly appearing before her eyes #and that unnatainable aspect is what drives her insane. she cant do anything this time. he doesnt even know who *he* is. its hopeless #her trying to date ice king and freaking out about it because this perfect picture is gone and she doesnt /like/ him like this #agh. bety. siom #fionna and cake spoilers #fionna and cake #talking2myself

[literalfuckingfreak]

a leyendecker from literally march i never ended up finishing and do not think i ever will. enjoy the sketch from it tho :) elias and peter close ups below the cut even tho my design changed significantly for both since then.

#not that i draw peter like ever. i dont dislike him i actually love him. #just. i draw really mostly the one guy you know. #and i never draw this ship #this isnt even ship art really theyre just existing in the same drawing. although it is leyendecker #and you know. #anyway #the magnus archives #peter lukas #elias bouchard #lonelyeyes #ok bye. #actually authors note i do not ship this i just like drawing gay people. also why did me 7 months ago make peter so skinny #this is not how i feel about the man. #art

[unexpectedgeese]

I love you kudos I love you second kudos I love you keysmash comments I love you ‘<3’ I love you guest accounts I love you worldbuilding questions I love you comment spam from new readers I love you bookmarks with summaries of the plot I love you ‘to read’ I love you ‘fave’ I love you Artists who draw scenes from the fic I love you discord proofreaders I love you beta readers I love you Inbox (1)!!!!! You are the beating heart of the Ao3 community and the world is better with you in it!!!

#my posts #Ao3 #Ao3 comment appreciation #fandom #fanfiction #meta posts #fanfic #archive of our own #just leave a comment fest #my favorite compliment I've ever recieved was a bookmark #that just said 'fascinating'. #idk something about the knowledge that a person read my work and liked it so much they felt the need to note that down #not for me not for anyone but themselves... it gets to me man #also this post isn't a dig at lurkers ily too #but if you don't usually engage with the stories you like consider starting to do that #comments are easy to leave and there's nothing quite like the feeling of the author replying to you #next time you read something good leave a comment for me. nothing big if that's scary just like #good fic #or #the worldbuilding is cool #or like #im reading this at 3am and i love it #little things #they make the author's day and it feels really nice to be a part of something

[sskk-manifesto]

(´･ᴗ･ ` )

#I really like the “We're the bad guys' enemy” line. For someone I generally despise Dazai has all my favourite lines in this show… #Idk I can't really vibe with the unbalance that there is between s/kk. #Like when push comes to shove‚ Dazai has the power to keep Chuuya alive or let him die. #I understand why they make a compelling dynamic in their complexity‚ but it just doesn't do it for me. #I'm a little sad my opinion on them hasn't really changed since I watched the anime for the first time... #Also; I really can't vibe with Chuuya allowing Dazai to kill Q. Yes I know Chuuya cares about his comrades deeply. #Yes I know it can be interpreted as Chuuya seeing himself in Q as a living weapon and being disgusted by it #(though I honestly don't think that was intentional of the author). #Yes I know Chuuya is a mafioso and kills people. No I don't think your personal issues justify you being a dick to other people I'm sorry. #Back to my main annoyance with the episode: I must have already talked about this but I hate hate hate the narrative #“the mafia works for the city” “the mafia deeply loves the city too” it's so so sickening and insulting please stop I'm begging. #Please visit any actual city with a rooted mafia presence for once in your life (signed: someone whose hometown was destroyed by the mafia. #The writers really don't know what they're talking about and‚ politely‚ it's offensive.) #Also b/sd keeping being extremely nationalist with Mori (who's largely depicted unsimphatetically for the first part of the episode)– #bringing up western thinkers and subtly mocking Fukuzawa for not knowing them– #and Fukuzawa (the righteous man. the noble spirit and just soul in this episode and Mori's antithesis)– #stepping forward to say that he knows strategists from the east (because who else would he need?) #I don't know if it's meant to symbolize the conflict with an hostile and invading foreign power (the Guild). #But it does come across as. A very isolationist way of thinking. #I know it's subtle but it's really evident for me. And I didn't want to talk about this any further… #But by bringing actual examples of this I hope I can better explain why I think that b/sd holds nationalist views– #and that I'm not just making it up out of nowhere. Otherwise I fear I'd only come off as pettily hostile to b/sd in everything #That's it. I feel like I've been losing a lot of mutuals over my main recently due to not shutting up (sorry) #so I suppose it's only fair I lose them on here too pffttt. #Tune in next week for more bad takes #random rambles

[mdemn]

perusing through @samtrapani’s leo tag and Thinking. not only is vito quite honestly just a little naïve, but he’s easy for leo to control because leo can see right through him. leo can take one look at vito and know his deepest secrets, because he has the same skeletons in his closet.

leo can play 4d chess because one look at vito and anyone who’s played a game before can tell vito has PAWN. I WONT QUESTION YOU. written in bold on his forehead.

leo saw this scared, young, boy fighting through prison at anyone who looked too long at him, and knew he was in there for trusting the wrong people and not asking the right questions, and immediately he was like. i can use him.

& when vito goes out of his way to save leo’s life, just for leo to save his by getting rid of the only person who’s ever had more sway over vito than he did (joe)… well, that’s the business of being owned & useful, kid.

#spiraling i think #like not just bc they’re both gay but BECAUSE they’re gay leo knows all of vito’s weak points #bad relationship w father makes him not question authority #strained relationship with mother makes him too trusting of anyone who says they care #hiding half of yourself to everyone around you 24/7 means you won’t say too much to anyone #can fight and willingly does so to be close w men but also bc as a gay youth he HAD to #has been in war and probably loved and loss a man over there? desensitized to violence and not eager for a new relationship #like leo really took one glance at vito and said. poor little meowmeow. let me traumatize him more #leo galante #vito scaletta #mafia 2 #mafia video games #mafia 2 meta #video game analysis #post: personal

[god-was-silent]

reading Harlan Ellison's Deathbird Stories: A Pantheon of Modern Gods (fucking fantastic) and was immediately VERY surprised reading "On the Downhill Side"—pleasantly surprised and fascinated with this story, this 'two ghosts of New Orleans are involved with one another by the God of Love in their last chance for something better before eternity in limbo hits them both, also there's a unicorn there' story,—with the protagonist, Paul Ordahl, because his story is Gorrister's story.

"On the Downhill Side" can be found easy-like in online archives within the actual set of Deathbird Stories (unless someone wants to hunt down a signed vinyl audiobook)—and I'll actually transcribe a page or two under the cut for fun, but really all that needs to be said is that Gorrister's life history in the video game is almost entirely a play-by-play of Paul's, except instead of Glynis it's Bernice, instead of a truck driver he's an architect (and frankly how the 'bitch mother-in-law' gets into contact with him makes more sense here—because Paul was receiving an award and doing an interview at a televised architect's convention and she cross-referenced that with newspapers to find the convention hotel, all that), and instead of never quite caring he always seemed to love too much—among other things.

I Have No Mouth and I Must Scream was published in 1967, On the Downhill Side in 1972, the IHNMAIMS video game in 1995. wonder why things progressed the way it did in all that time in terms of how Gorrister's character was developed and changed. 'peace marcher and conscientious thinker to world-weary gave-little-damns-to-begin-with truck driver' and all.

do with that information what you will. 'd love to hear other folks' thoughts on this

ohh welcome to even more text okay here we go all standard content warnings for Gorrister's story apply (suicide and institutionalization mostly), just isolating some of Paul's dialogue once again from "On the Downhill Side" (1972) by Harlan Ellison (credit is important!)

"'My name is Paul Ordahl,' I told her. 'And the most awful thing that ever happened to me was my first wife, Bernice. I don't know how else to put it—even if it sounds melodramatic, it's simply what happened—she went insane, and I divorced her, and her mother had her committed to a private mental home.'"

"'Her mother was the one had her committed, you see. I only heard from them twice after the divorce. It had been four stinking years and I really didn't want any more of it. Once, after I'd started making some money, the mother called and said Bernice had to be put in the state asylum. There wasn't enough money to pay for the private home any more. I sent a little; not much. I suppose I could have sent more, but I was remarried, there was a child from her previous marriage. I didn't want to send any more. I told the mother not to call me again. There was only once after that…it was the most terrible thing that ever happened to me.'"

"'I was in New York,' I said. 'I was receiving an award at an architects' convention—did I mention I was an architect—yes, that's what I was at the time, an architect—and I did a television interview. The mother saw me on the program, and checked the newspapers to find out what hotel we were using for the convention, and she got my room number and called me. I had been out quite late after the banquet when I'd gotten my award, quite late. I was sitting on the side of the bed, taking off my shoes, my tuxedo tie hanging from my unbuttoned collar, getting reading to just throw clothes on the floor and sink away, when the phone rang. It was the mother. She was a terrible person, one of the worst I ever knew, a shrike, a terrible, just a terrible person. She started telling me about Bernice in the asylum. How they had her in this little room and how she stared out the window most of the time. She'd reverted to childhood, and most of the time she couldn't even recognize the mother; but when she did, she'd say something like 'Don't let them hurt me, Mommy, don't let them hurt me.' So I asked her what she wanted me to do, did she want money for Bernice or what…Did she want me to go see her since I was in New York…and she said God no. And then she did an awful thing to me. She said the last time she'd been to see Bernice, my ex-wife had turned around and put her finger to her lips and said, 'Shhh, we have to be very quiet. Paul is working.' And I swear, a snake uncoiled in my stomach. It was the most terrible thing I'd ever heard. No matter how secure you are that you honest to God had not sent someone to a madhouse, there's always that little core of doubt, and saying what she'd said just burned out my head. I couldn't even think about it, couldn't even really hear it, or it would have collapsed me. So down came these iron walls and I just kept on talking, and after a while she hung up.'

'It wasn't till two years later that I allowed myself to think about it, and then I cried; it had been a long time since I'd cried. Oh, not because I believed that nonsense about a man isn't supposed to cry, but just because there hadn't been anything that important to cry about. But when I let myself hear what she'd said, I started crying, and just went on and on till I finally went in and looked into the bathroom mirror and I asked myself face to face if I'd done that, if I'd ever made her be quiet so I could work on blueprints or drawings…

'And after a while I saw myself shaking my head no, and it was easier. That was about three years before I died.'"

"I remember the daybreak of the night I'd died. There had been mist. I had been a suicide.

My third wife had left me. She had gone away during the night, while I'd been at a business meeting with a client; I had been engaged to design a church in Baton Rouge. All that day I'd steamed the old wallpaper off the apartment we'd rented. It was to have been our first home together, paid for by the commission. I'd done the steaming myself, with a tall ladder and a steam condenser and two flat pans with steam holes. Up near the ceiling the heat had been so awful I'd almost fainted. She'd brought me lemonade, freshly squeezed. Then I'd showered and changed and gone to my meeting. When I'd returned, she was gone. No note."

#i have no mouth and i must scream #ihnmaims #gorrister ihnmaims #harlan ellison #//echo #fatal flaw's that i don't shut up on posts nor in my tags #i read a piece at a point talking about how ellison was said to be a good author to be introduced to in middle school #something about the age's resonance with themes of antagonism and isolation and aggression and the likes #to be 'outgrown' just because he's got one Voice he's really good at while other authors— #—have some better range at capturing themes of love and devotion #and all things considered my other favorite stories of his ARE basilisk and the whimper of whipped dogs #because that Voice is so fucking poignant and biting in there...so. hm #but by god a lot of his stories were fucking about love. that's important to me too #'d never want to dismiss those works or take it for granted for some perceived tonal dissonance yanno #^ all borderline fucking irrelevant what i REALLY want to say is that i wish i could dissect the video game #something about bemoaning never getting to know author's intent. game development processes. what was it FORRR #leaning towards 'elevating a prior work' over any kind of 'quick copy paste' situation. but also like. ??? #but fuuck if i know. i don't. never will #so mostly just using it to add some color to my mental perception of gorrister. give that man a unicorn! #weird flavor packet #only putting his tag on there in case someone has it blocked. ellison cw bahaha #if i'm hard to read i am so fucking sorry

[callixton]

idk i do think if i’m totally honest w myself my biggest draw to being a director is that i get to put my fave actors in situations. like it is abt that relationship and trust to me + then i get to go here’s a Situation to have fun with and for the reasons they r my fave actors they go holy shit! fun!

#is this coherent. i love directing sm #i just really really really can’t wait for when i have the money and reputation to take on projects that i trust with people that i trust #it is not just abt this i am mostly reminiscing/hoping for the future #but also he sent me an ‘Idk im just stoked to work on it with you’ text abt understudying and king like. u don’t know how many of my shows r #- just an excuse to work with my actors on the characters and themes they care most abt #and this is it for him! which is v exciting. even if it’s still a disappointment overall #i just like. sort of realized recently that for me the Thing w directing is being able to create opportunities for people whose creative #- sensibilities i trust to tell the stories already inside of them #and sometimes that is abt a story i have too. but its a good 50/50 split #it HAS to be shared like it needs to be. and it needs to come from a place of care #man idk how i’m gonna get employed out of school but i will get to a place i have the autonomy/authority to do this my way if it kills me #ted talks